#im trying so hard to distract myself

[ponshroom]

[lilac-melody]

😶‍🌫️hm.

[pokemonveterinarian]

Morticia Addams

You'd look so pretty :3 /plat

What do I dress as for Halloween?

[sage-is-in-fact-very-tired]

i think it's important to remember the world isn't gonna end just because of this . we'll figure it out <3

[pyjamacryptid]

I'm currently rewatching the dark tower for reasons (fic reasons), and when Gwen said "Morgana's enchanted it to protect me," it rang an alarm bell, this time 'round.

"[...]to protect me."

hm. huh. you don't say. interesting. As in, the knights are the enemy not the rescuers? hm. curious.

Maybe I'm reading too much into it (i mean, hey, that's the fun of it), but that choice of language stood out to me.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[wolvertooth]

im just lookin thru my archive rn cuz ive been posting fairly actively since like. july. debating if i need to do another #mentalhealthbreak or nah….

its not that ive run outta post ideas or anything(cuz my brain never shuts tf up), its just been kinda hard lately to keep up with the community aspect i think. i dunno. maybe im getting a bit burnt out again too

this is kinda the longest ive ever held a fixation consistantly, but the fear of slipping back into the Nothing Era where i got nothing to keep my brain occupied has me hanging on ig. i feel like im not done yet either like waiiiitttttt ive still got piles of wipssssssss i gotta make gay people realllllllll sigh

im only human im a messed up human blablah it makes good practice for adderall at least(not that its really been working) i just dont wanna be in a state where it feels like a chore yknow? like im not an influencer im a gay lil tumblr.com blog ffs

another dramatic emotion filled sigh………im gonna be staying out in the middle of the canadian sticks(farmland n woods n a couple beaches nearby) this winter for awhile, so maybe i’ll be able to figure out how to get some good chill time. or go more insane. (likely get more insane)

[butchviking]

its fine to think women are making bad choices. i think the problem is when ppl get angry at them about it. go get angry at a man instead

[actual-changeling]

y'all wanna see a fun little parallel between the show and part 2? yes? good.

we all know joel's panic attack from the start of episode 6, and it also shows us that he tends to press his hand against his chest, probably rubbing small circles to encourage his lungs to open up so he can breathe.

well.

ellie does the exact same thing in part 2. several times, actually. every single time she has a panic attack, her hand goes to her chest and she does the same motion joel does in the show.

a little side by side just to really emphasize the pain because boy i sure as hell feel it.

[fernzwing]

I feel like I just woke up from a coma sorry for not posting anything guys. 2024 is not a very happy year

[hybridkilljoys]

I've been an absolute emotional wreck since last night due to my narcissist father making me feel less than human so can i..........ask for some reassurance that i'm not an absolute failure of a human being

or pictures of your cats, that would help a lot too

[thebirdandhersong]

hey will be off tumblr for the rest of the week - things are Happening again and my head feels ready to explode.........would really appreciate prayer again. I'm constantly feeling like I'm on the brink of something (I don't KNOW what) terrible and I need to figure things out without before my body really DOES decide to shut down from the stress and the strange depressive dread that has been very difficult to shake this month. I would like to not feel like crying or throwing up at certain points in the day and also would like to not be so exhausted in the heart and mind area so that I can actually deal with these things. Especially since finals are looming ahead

[siveine]

i think im so nervous about finishing my contract because i wont know what to do with myself afterwards. like, sure theyve forgotten about me and nearly abandoned me, and im quite literally being used then thrown away, but after i get my discharge papers im going to be without purpose again and i dont know if i can do it a second time

[dreki-fern]

vent post joy

life has been so isolating lately, i'm lowkey starting to just move on from people, it's very hard to trust or make connections with them

i'm starting to ask myself, have people really been there for me?

who really are they as people? and realizing how they made me feel was just, gross and not okay at times

i'm tired of being around people who are unhealthy

I didnt realize its done alot of damage to me

this goes for people I had deep connections with for many many years since 2013, as well as people I tried being friends with through people I knew in early mid 2023

it's been very hard this past year and months

even before this

it's hard for me to make a life for myself or make friends no matter how hard I try

it's hard for me to see people and hear from others about the life they are living when I don't have much at all

I don't feel normal or like them at all so it's so hard to connect and relate without feeling awkward

and it's hard with how much they pressure and push me to act a certain way or they tell me how to be/feel

partly why I want to change my name is to have a fresh start for myself

and i'm trying my hardest not to fall to suicide, i'm partly just self isolating to protect myself and not have to deal with conflict or drama

it's hard to realize oh i'm here for everyone but no one is here for me

I start therapy during December or after, I just hope I don't do something stupid to msyelf until then and just distract and stay away from social platforms (but i'll still be on tumblr ofc)

things have just been very VERY hard lately and i'm having realizations that just sink in

it makes me feel grossed out by them sometimes

sorry for typos btw, I haven't slept at all