#im totally getting a switch

[aphel1on]

AuDHD is so funny sometimes like what do you mean my hyperfixations/special interests will last for years on end or possibly forever but they will cycle out every month or two with absolutely no transitional period or warning. like i will think about the same topic every day obsessively for 46 days in a row and on the 47th day with no visible cause adhd brain goes "ok! bored of that now" and autism brain goes "dw i got something queued up for ya" and i blast into full blown obsession on some other topic whose mental file folders haven't opened in 9 months. brain's out here treating hyperfixations like a crop rotation. once the dopamine runs out it cycles in another one but once something's in the rotation it never ever leaves. last summer we brought in one from when i was 11. it's so funny to me but frustrating too bc like. i cannot stress enough my inability to predict or control this. or how completely abrupt and random it can be

[restinpeacesensei]

traditional style 💖

[mortysmith]

Fuck you season five episode nine genuinely some of the worst shit they clobbered together

[opens-up-4-nobody]

about your struggles with your undergrad. i was in the same boat not a few months ago. it got so bad i went to the ER for stress-related internal injuries, i was suicidal, i was convinced i couldnt succeed in my major (or life) no matter what, i felt hopeless... please consider: before you drop out, you have to be honest with yourself and your limits. i switched from compsci to my true passion and its very freeing. your advisor is there to help you. im sure they can help you like they helped me. also look for support from family/friends at this time. (i know its tough. again i was convinced id be better off dead so it was hard to ask for help BUT IM SO GLAD I DID.) instead of quitting, try changing your goals. btw, its never too late to change ur major. i changed 3 years in. better to swap now than live a lifetime, as you said, of stress and difficulty. future you will be so grateful. and past you will be soooo jealous. don't give up!! you've made it this far, you've got the skills! if you don't have the passion or patience to withstand a certain subject, then change it!! its so much easier than you think!! sorry for word wall. i believe in you. it gets better. good luck. and etc :)

Thanks, I wish you the best of luck :-) it is, however, a little more complicated bc im considering dropping out of a phd program and not undergrad

[dangaer]

considering making a few muse changes to this blog! see below:

im considering removing my arc.ana muses mainly bc i dont have as much muse for them anymore and it's a game i genuinely haven't played content for in years now. ( i havent played since i've touched this blog :( )

in the same instance, i might streamline my muse lists to be primarily love interests and remove some of the more background characters i have for various oto.me's because of how not well known the games are. probably kaz.uki, yasu.hiro and er.iko from cxm and marc.o, robert.o ( mayyybe oliv.er but idk i find him the funniest guy in pio.fiore i think he might just have to stay.)

dropping down to only 4 muses for cupip.ara: rau.l, gil.l, alla.n and shel.by! owen does not get the oliver level of respect, but ry.uki despite being the tsundere of the game i find myself with waning muse for either way!

on a more positive note there'll be additions in the future, the 4 from sdv i spoke about before, and now all is well i will most likely be playing virch.e evermore soon. i also think its about prime time i added mh.in and ai.s from touchstarved.

[lakeraydia]

i think u should draw a tohri nishikikouji. person or bird idk same tohri. maybe give him a hat

he was so real for literally all of that

[allthegothihopgirls]

remember when i said chemistry was going to kill me? i got 5% on my assessment

[montanamp3]

37?

37- talents

getting white people to like me

um i would say writing. that's about it lol. even though im not sure lately if im even good at that? i guess i still have the google document with all the nice things that people have said about my writing but it seems kind of narcissistic to have LOL. i know M and E might read this post and i know this is going to sound weird so sorry in advance but genuinely the I Have Never Read Fanfiction Of That Caliber / We Would Totally Read A Book Written By You incident genuinely rocked my world like i cried about it to my bff i cried about it to my entire extended friend group i cried about it on my public instagram story i almost cried about it to my youth group like that's how much it meant to me i was NOT NORMAL about it

i guess that was why i wanted to do creative writing at nanyang because i know (or at least i've been told that) that's something that i can be good at and it's the only thing in the world that i've ever been passionate about and i really want to get better at it. but i guess it's not really useful for careers and mom said no and i know the only pathways for writers in this country are 1) lawyer 2) Move To America so i guess i am stuck with business psych :(((((( yay

[deductions-and-magic]

On the perimeter of the Int.

so I just watched Interior Chinatown and discovered Archie Kao (and proceeded to start watching his entire filmography as you do) (also i think i really need to read the book Edit: finished the book!! might write a new post)

And I think it is so poignant that he is Uncle Wong

The ABC (American Born Chinese) who has a foot in both worlds (the first to realize the dangers involved and believes it’s his responsibility to protect his people!), who says

"I was born here. In this city. I've been here my whole life."

and yet is so grounded in both cultures

who finds the victims of the systematic violence resulting from the police procedural

is performed by the ABC who was raised on an American farm, who did not know Mandarin when he moved to China a few years back to find his roots and pursued acting there, who is now back in the US (source: his Int. Chinatown interviews), who has always tried to help. to change things (even if small)

In his interviews he talked about how he spent most of his time in Hollywood on procedural dramas

And parallels with Willis Wu who as a "Generic Asian Man" could not be the hero, the lead (on CSI: Enhance! On Chicago PD: Detective but tech guy — so many parallels)

So he, like many Asian Americans, IS Willis Wu (like Uncle Wong was Willis but even more similar)

but more importantly, his path of America -> Asia -> America is the path of so many people who are unsure of “self” and where they stand, thinking about where they come from and what that actually means

What being American Means, What being Asian Means, What being Asian-American Means

so I think it's likely this show represents a culmination of his journey of self discovery

As a Chinese American

And what that means to him.

Not at the intersection of two cultures but Cape Horn -- a confluence

Where oceans crash together and people get submerged

where there is a distinct divide but you can’t see it when you’re in the water

In Chinese there's a saying: "见山是山，见水是水；见山不是山，见水不是水；依然见山还是山，见水还是水", which roughly translates to “Seeing mountains as mountains, seeing water as water; seeing mountains not as mountains, seeing water not as water; still seeing mountains as mountains, water as water"

like you're back where you are before, and it's the same

but it’s different now

Which applies to so many things here.

[kathrynmjaneway]

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[orcelito]

I do find it so funny that I will graduate college days away from my birthday. Like my birthday is literally in between the end of the semester ("graduation") and commencement

It really will be like a joint graduation & birthday party for me lmao

[impostorsshow]

I would never have thought that playing Disney: Dreamlight Valley would make me ship Merlin and Ursula but here we are they're definitely a divorced couple you cannot change my mind

[theinfernalcalypso]

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[anthyies]

glados does talk like a tumblr user youre all so right

[imflyingfish]

mm debating selling my nintendo switch lite for a full nintendo switch.. I miss the vibration software and I think i'd play switch games a lot more if I could connect them to my computer (Im not the biggest fan of playing them only handheld).

But also the lite was also a gift so idk if it would be rude? It was from my dad who didn't know there was a difference =w=''

[vagueconfusion]

You're getting a bass this weekend? Sick. What kind if you don't mind me asking?

It's pretty dependent on what ones are available at the store, I'd like to try to get one secondhand (some people say you feel closer to instruments you buy new? But for years I learned and played on a secondhand saxophone and loved the instrument dearly) so it depends on what's there and the price. Hopefully there's something in my price range because I'll need an amp too. I also, uh, have no clue how to play a bass, so I figure I'll start on an inexpensive-but-decent one and see how it goes from there?

I read up a bit and saw good things about some Squier Classic Vibe and Ibanez SR300 for beginners, Yamaha in general too. I'm not picky about the brand right now, I figure I'll get a more nuanced opinion as I learn and figure out what sound I want? One reason I want to go to the store is so I can try to get my hands on some to hear the sound of them, and choose from there.