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#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun stampede#trigun maximum#this is also from a while ago... *kicks rocks* i keep on forgeting to upload stuff. also as u can see... my numerous kisses from before#but stampede vs maximum in my brain basically#ultimately they are both screwed in every versions but at different paces(?)#stampede im so screwed (trying to be normal)#maximum im so screwed (already resigned that they cant be normal about it)#doomed for tragedy but kiss kiss while they can#i very much enjoy drawing stampede vs max schtuff bc i have a hard time verbalizing What exactly their differences are#but i guess w stampede - to me - they feel more impulsive while simultaneously capable of being in deep denial#and with max its the opposite - hesitant and slow but the acceptance is already there........ my brain is mush so im not going to#elaborate more than that but i think this is also why i find stamp vw x max vw interactions fun to think about#ruporas art
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For my birthday... read my webcomic! It's literally free! (Unless you want books. Those are not free)
It's beautiful, it's gentle, it's funny, they're canonically t4t and gay... And it's about time traveling vampires solving supernatural mysteries!
I've spent thousands of hours writing and drawing it, and it's really good! I'm not biased!
It's on hiatus right now and coming back in 2 months, so it's the perfect time to get caught up
#i felt weird putting this in there so I didnt but I've also received recognition for excellence in writing#and was nominated as a fan favorite on webtoon canvas...#so like not only do i work super hard but its just really good!#im not ashamed of claiming that i think my work is well done. if i didn't think i was doing a good job why would i do it#buuuut. something about being like please read my comic im literally so good at comics feels weird to me#even though i think that. in my brain#i dont want to imply that there is some objective or tangible goodness to my work simply for receiving some accolades#its nothing other than some accolades. whether or not someone likes it is up to them#so i guess to me it just feels superfluous#but genuinely I love my comics...#i re read them all the time. and i enjoy them!#theres things i would change and probably will change when i go to print#but i did what I could with the time and energy I had#and when it comes back... oh boy.#my friends have agreed its the best stuff ive ever written. it's literally so good...#im so excited to share.#still not fully ready to officially commit to the return date#but i am gunning for it!#webcomics#webtoon#time and time again#its my birthday!#idk wtf to tag this as. im 27 now...#read my comic#LOL
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cant stop thinkin bout charles and erik readin together on the couch but instead of reading with him charles is listening to eriks thoughts while he reads. Live mind commentary ……..
#xmen#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#the rare time i post an idea of mine only because i really cant think of a way id draw this#usually i hoard my ideas cause i like surprising you guys but this aint really one i feel like drawing so. For You my friends#like i COULD but. idk just isnt particularly something im itching to draw it just seems cute#but anyways no chat let me cook alright hear me out cause i talk in my brain all the time while i read#sometimes i stop reading just to think about a bit i read yeah#i want charles to listen in on all of eriks side comments or observations he makes while reading something#like if he wanted to charles could read the whole book in less than five minutes- maybe shorter than that#and that aint fun that aint cool …. so time for Audible: Husband Edition. With Commentary#ITD BE SO COZY just hangin out by the fireplace …. maybe its snowin outisde … if snow even exists anymore atp#a light fire cracklin and the study SEEMS totally quiet otherwise and yet…..#charles has been locked in to erik’s off-the-cuff literary analysis and mild comments for the past twenty minutes. its simple but its bliss#charles doesnt have to worry about being seen as invasive .. he doesnt have to suppress his powers …#the rare occasion erik lets charles into his mind for somethin so innocent .. ive made myself sick i fear#see now i wanna try writing a fic but 1.) have written in years 2.) id have to really think hard on how erik would commentate on a book#hm…… actually i do wonder what erik’s commentary on The Fable of the Bees would be …..#IN ANY CASE. maybe - at the very least- i can draw cherik by the fireplce someday ….#thatd be cute … hm …. depends on if i get in the mood for it down the line#anyways i have to drive back to my dorm !!! boo !!!! so good night everyone !!!!!
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Cool detail I noticed about Tristamp's Vash's shoes/boots (+ the opening/intro animation)
we can clearly see here that the footprints we see before we see the anime's logo is the same sole pattern matching Vash's shoes, right? (I had picked up on this a while back but decided against posting it cause I figured people already picked up on this) It has a pretty unique/distinct look, right? So I was listening to the Trigun OST and was looking at this iconic album cover and realized something...
I was like "oh those boots have the same little two divets at the top like Tristamp Vash... wait-" THAT'S THE SAME FUCKING OUTSOLE He even has the weird gray thing on the bottom as well! You can even make out the circle divets in the center of the sole but its kind of hard to see on this album cover. I'M FLABBERGASTED??? Like DAMN I knew Orange did their homework but this is fucking crazy to me 😭
#vash the stampede#trigun vash#trigun#trigun stampede#sketchy says#listen#all im saying is#that if I ever create a story#I want someone to adapt it like the way Orange is adapting Trigun#SO MUCH ATTENTION TO DETAIL#Orange im kissing you on the mouth rn (w/ consent ofc)#did not have to go that hard but they did and im obsessed with it#I also think this post proves I Am Not Normal about this series at all skdmsmkd#the brainrot is real and it is thriving <3#soon the fungi will take over and decompose my brain further
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there's this really deep belief in me that says I can't post anything related to ouro anywhere anymore & I hate it & I hate it & I hate it. I have so much !! to say :(
#ouroboros-if#just this enormous sinkhole in my stomach everytime i even think about talking about it anymore. ough#im getting so close to the finished thing but my brain is just EVIL and i have on numerous occasions just thought that i should dip and then#post the game in a year under another pseud HDBDNDJFKF#i am not normal#and at this point my experience in the if community is a net negative#it is what it is. don't look at me im being vulnerable#i hope everyday that it is not too late for this story to find its right audience#. i will be handing it over with a hovering kiss on your cheek and tears like thick gruel in my throat#i am trying so hard.#BUT IT FEELS LIKE IM FAILING !!!!!!
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The brain worms are ON ONE tonight folks I am thinking about Cody/Maul/Obi-Wan post order 66 living on tattooine together
like what if Maul sought out Obi-Wan's Commander shortly after O66 to get obsessive freaky closure about how Obes died (feels robbed of the kill, generally mentally ill about it, etc.) and is like "he is useless to me with all this fucking Imperial programing in the way" and does Force Stuff to break Cody's chip and what if Cody Wakes Up and goes "I can use this fucked up little guy to get to my General, who I believe survived, and then I'll just kill him easy peasy and live happily ever after with my husband" so he tells Maul that Obi-Wan is probably alive, actually, and cue a really violent road trip of them retracing Obi-Wan's steps in the hours after O66 via Imperial intel and hyper competence on both of their parts and
OH NO WHAT IF THEY START TO FALL IN LOVE like the forced proximity of it all...LISTEN TO ME. the intimacy of fighting alongside someone and having a functional partnership that's turned Dependency on both of your part's because you were both Traumatized in surprisingly similar ways (raised as a tool of violence for someone else's purpose, same guy actually!) and also have a similar goal via your mutual obsession with this one guy and actually, he's not that bad for a sith/clone, and by the time they get wise to Luke's existence and gun it for Tatooine, Maul is like "if I kill Kenobi this is going to upset Cody. That is Unideal. Can i live with not killing Kenobi?" and Cody is like "I cannot kill him afterall, I like him too much, how the FUCK am I going to explain this to Obi let alone any of the mind control & sorry i tried to kill you shit"
and what if Obi-Wan kept Luke because Reasons and is just so goddamn thankful for some extra childcare help (Luke's in his terrible 2s and he's force sensitive -- Obi's more sleep deprived than he ever was during the clone wars) that he really doesn't give a shit at all that it's his ex that tried to kill him for some mystery reason and motherfucking Maul on his doorstep. help is help 🙏 and they bang and stuff of course okay I'm only human
#... i might. i might have a new wip.#shhhhhhhhhh. dont worry about it.#im also a teeny bit stoned so feel free to ignore me (or encourage me#)#trixree speaks#cody/maul/obi-wan#codywan#obimaul#THINKING SO HARD TONIGHT#fryimg my own brain like an egg.#no but listen.#trixree writes#plot bunnies#for revisiting#oh and also new Why Nots chapter either tomorrow or Monday 👍#plus a codywan commission 🫶
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Everyones fighting mesnwhile at the lake Eddie is still floating there.
this is not au canon & very rushed but by fuck did i have a little laugh
bonus:
#eddie waking up goes Vaguely Like This actually....#emphasis on Vaguely.#for anyone curious as to why he isnt getting up on his own#He Is So Fucking Waterlogged. He Is Too Heavy To Move#he can barely lift his hand!! it takes all his energy!#so hes just gonna... lie there for a spell...#rambles from the bog#scribble salad#wh lights out au#in my mind whenever im thinking about lights out#whenever im picturing a scene from act one#my brain will occasionally cut to eddie in water#no matter whats happening. sally is about to get frank?#hard cut to the silence of eddie facedown in the Lake™️ for a couple seconds#before resuming where we left off#its... Amusing...
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shep I was talking to my brother about dbhc xisuma as one does and mentioned that ask about not being able to puzzle xisuma's face together mentally and my brother joked that the reason you put the spoiler bars and such on his face is cause you cant draw his whole face yet 😂
anyway I might have talked his ear off about dbhc idk tho lmao
LMAOO NOOOO!!! MY SECRET FINALLY IS OUT!!! /silly
#HEHE thats rly fun though i hope your brother is enjoying the osmosis XD#truthfully... drawing xisuma's face is still really difficult for me... bc he's always like. the character whose personality and character#like. comes from the fact that we never see his face? and so there's something about him that feels more... right when his face is just.#a mystery#but i DO have a facecanon for him. esp for dbhc bc its important. even if when i think Xisuma i don't think of his face the way i might whe#I think of other characters. that isn't the reason why I spoiler it though XD when we get the face reveal it'll be obvious enough. i hope#LMAO.#anyway#idk like#some of the first sketches i did of Xisuma's face will still be my favorites tbh#it's hard to capture the same energy of a rough sketch when you try to sharpen those soft edges into a clean picture yknow?#i HAVE gotten better at it though.... square-ish face but soft on the edges... kind blue eyes... hair always tied back tightly and neatly#idk. i think about him a LOT#especially lately but we knew this hehehe#i think he deserves to take the helmet off every once and a while and just. breathe and get out of his own head yknow#i think he gets better at it in s9 even if he only takes it off around people he really trusts (keralis and cleo)#not that doc hasnt seen him or that he distrusts doc but... well. that whole relationship is a work in progress since season 8 was. well#anyway im really and truly rambling <3#xisumas face is both an enigma to me and a soft sturdy shape in my brain... its hard to replicate consistently but those doodles are#just for me anyway =w= <3#(and a few select others. who Know. you know who you are)
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i think rose and kanaya and june and vriska and terezi should kiss
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Roleswap anyone??
Tell me Fernando wouldn't make a fantastic general/emperor, and that Napoleon wouldn't make a fanastic driver/tp!!
#this might be the most mentally ill thing ive drawn yet....#lmao im like ah this would be a funny idea to draw#and then got WAAYYYYY more into drawing napoleon#to the point of cuteness aggression and sadness that him in f1 isnt real :(#cofi and i made up a whole lore and plot line so if you want a pt 2 of that hmu LMAO#but briefly: hes a driver(2 wdc btw) who got kicked out for smth and then came back as a tp again to torment his former rivals#gahhhhh why is he so cute why isnt he real :( i would stan him so hard you dont understand#with his cute little lesbian bob and introverted but brave and outspoken demeanor....#his mechanics and team in general are all tall men who love to pick him up#but god the plot is just so fun and compelling that it makes me sad that kinda driver doesnt exist irl#my greatest dream is for someone from the actual napoleon fandom to see this#bcs its weird enough for you guys so i cant even imagine what theyd think#BUT PLEASEEE#anyways. this is a very odd post. but im very proud of it :)#lmao this is just like one step closer to actually writing my proper manifesto about it#but yeah i posted that silly meme the other day and it got way more notes that i expected so maybe this will be appealing too?#girls who cannot draw normal fanart#<- like seriously i wont draw napoleon in his normal clothes and fernando vice versa but no prob with the reverse?? my brain...#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#nandopoleon alonsoparte#napoleon bonaparte#napoleon#catie.art
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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Username Song Game
Rules: Pick a song for each letter of your URL and tag that many people.
Tagged by @faceglitchsworld thanks for the tag 💚💚💚💚💚
TIC TAC - 8Turn
Off The Mask - Yuta
XO - FallOutBoy
I Like It - Stray Kids
Carat Cake - NCT Dream
Rule #34 - Fish in a Birdcage
Empty Box - Ateez
Vertigo - Hannah Bahng
Orange Flower (You Complete Me) - Enhypen
Lalali - Seventeen (hip-hop unit)
VOODOO DOLL - VIXX
Everything sucks - vaultboy
Russian Roulette- Dead Posey
Tagging (no pressure): @smushedmuffin @loveable-sea-lemon @we-survive-endlessly @haahka @onlyoneofsideblogtrashheep @coldbasementruins @awwfuckno @skinzchoerim @tighnaridabouken @txumxssianfox @saintsuppapong @k-farraway @ohyesididnotjustdothat
#about the weirdo who runs this blog#obsidian rambles#hi my keonhee friend!!!#I just started tagging a bunch of moots I’m sorry if we’ve never talked I panicked#I think I got 13 people tagged#I’m not wearing my glasses and I’ve been fighting a migraine all day so no clear eyesight for me#I tried real hard NOT to do just kpop artists or repeat artists in general#yes yuta and nct dream count separately.#my house my rules#anywho. hear ya go bestie.#also im living for the fact i got both skz and Hannah on here#Hannah is like an honorary skz member in my brain#like bahiyyih is an honorary member of txt
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can't stop thinking about how kill la kill said sexualization is just one of the many tools fascism uses to oppress and violate people and therefore the desexualization of the naked human body represents freedom from those systems of violence and harm. can't stop thinking about how it's barely even a satire. can't stop thinking about how more characters and people should be allowed to have their tits out and how, in a lot of ways, the sexualization of breasts is just a way to exert control over people's bodies.
#case files#kill la kill#im thinking so hard about this show it's going to live in my brain forever#like any other anime with fanservice in it is going to be RUINED by this. nothing else will hold up if they don't have these themes.
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Women, so pretty, so shaped, i am so lesbian,,,
#im also incredibly dysphoric tonight#but i was told by my coworker im incredibly feminine by her earlier#and i mean yeah#.....#i am a tall weird internet woman who likes to draw#so funny how i thought i was bi#I'm just really into women...#my ex is a trans guy and he told me he thinks im lesbian and i had a “holy fuck this explains so much moment”#we broke up but we still have a weird queer relationship outside of social heteronormative norms that is hard to explain and only we#can really understand#im not into men because you know#im a lesbian#had a weird period in my life when i was dating a guy and said im a lesbian and i felt sooooo scared#turns out when youre on meds and your brain is working right you just stop caring about such things#i went on a parade wearing big lesbian flag and girls loved it :)#i dont really know if i ever want to date anyone again#but i think if you look at my art you can really tell my sexuality quite easily lolol#funny how love can be so complicated sometimes#i mean it was kind of inevitable we break up cause we're kind of incompatible but tbh#it was better for us#hehe
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there is something so. intensely frustrating about feeling incapable of showing up for people the way that they want you to
#i wish people understood that it's so hard to be present in their lives and that closeness for me isnt about frequency of contact#but how open we feel during that contact#my brain is such a difficult place to live in it is so loud and so busy all the time#24 hours a day is a constant monologue and argument with myself for everything and it means that i just dont have the capacity to talk to#others most of the time#and like. i know this is so unreasonable. obviously we have to be present in the lives of people that care for us#but it just feels like every day i have to like. get on a stage and perform to every person in my life that cares about me so i can meet the#criteria of being a Good Friend or Good Girlfriend or Good Fan Artist or Good Mutual or Good Server Member#i feel like it is such a blessing to be seen by others as someone to expect things from#but as more people have started to love me it feels like i have to 'go out and perform' more and more and i am very exhausted#i wish i was someone that was easy to love and care for in the way that i am. and i dont mean that self deprecatingly it's just#i know im very hard to care about and love. because i disappear all the time and come back in a big flurry as soon as i get the energy back#and im just feeling it a Lot More lately because im starting to think this isnt going to be a short term thing i have to do before i start#feeling comfortable with a person#this is going to be my whole life#if i get married im going to have to 'go out and perform' and be a good wife and be affectionate and happy and not closed into my own brain#for days#if im going to make friends with colleagues I'll have to go out when they invite me and have to reply ro their texts and i cant just go#silent for weeks while i try to negotiate with my thoughts and then reappear once i make the slightest breakthrough#im very tired and sad. i want companionship but i feel like the kind of person i am is not fair for people who would be my companion#vent post#♡alizeh talks♡
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Huge SA warning for the next chapter. I really do hate that Araki keeps falling on using that as a shock factor/writing crutch twice to the same character now. Though doesn’t the recent chapter kind of confirm Dragona is trans now?
yeah no iv already read the chapter so i knows what up
but for anyone else who hasnt read todays new jojoland chapter PLEASE read this
but im also like
anyone with a brain alreadY knewW she was trans, ARaki im already in her corner, I already support her, you don't have to keep brutalizing her to make her compelling or whatever
im so sick of the transmisogynoir, pick out something else to do with Dragona for the love of god!!!
araki the last 3 parts, seeing a woman and asking if anyone is going to do gross sexual harassment to them and NOT waiting for an answer
#the only good thing was#i love young dragonas lil outfit i think it is very cute her lil headband :)#also her and jodios matching Jo buckle/charm#cuuute#also im like.. id love to know more about their parents background#i dont think were gonna get it because i think the angle of this part is siblings#but im like we know their from new jersey which is where sbr ended give or take#and that Joseph went back to that area with lucy and had his family there#so presumably Barbara grew up there#but like.. did she meet her husband there#or is this a holly incident were their dad was from hawaii and they moved there to be with him#or did they just decide to move there...#TO ME MY BRAIn im like mmm#i have thoughts but probably dont make sense#but im looking im looking soo hard
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