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sometimes I forget I made a Tumblr to share drawings of my OCS whoops. Anyway here's Adam, a certified weirdo. It plays electric guitar and is the lead singer for it's band TBK.
#my artwork#traditonal art#my ocs#yes most of these drawings are in my history notes shh#im terrified but art is for sharing#i just think it's really cool#theres a shirtless one under the cut#it was just way bigger image for no reason#anyway ignore the no arms#i was just figuring out its tattoos and piercings
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So i drew some fanart of @pompadorbz sorry boys "still wakes the deep" au ! I had fun with the more action filled drawings, and definetly wanna do more >:P
While drawing, i got to brainstorming about what character roles the boys might take in the story. Like, charlies probably caz, and maybe phil is caz's friend whos a cook (i forgot his name) but then i thought about if characters like Rennick had a coresponding cc, and i immediately thought about schlatt. So, i have ideas about what expanding the au might look like, but this isnt MY au, so for now ill hold off on yapping my ideas and just share what ive drawn for now
But either way, i REALLY enjoy this au and love all the ansgt potential it has. Like i was thinking, who out of the boys would end up being the last one? (Aka, taking caz's place at the end of the story with the lighter) and thought that, out of the boys, it would just make the most sense to be tommy. And thats HORRIBLE, AUGH ITS SO SAD but i LOVE IT
Anyways, sorry for the rambling, i hope you guys enjoy the art :] i still have to draw that other scene with charlie on the elevator, tho, so i might come back with more later
#i genuinely really do like this au and have so many ideas about how to expand the lore#but i need to stop getting so hyperfixated on one story and making more and more uneeded lore#it really is a problem#so for now im just sharing this fanart#which was actually really fun to draw btw!#also i really love the art style of the aus op and honestly think it fits the vibe so well#its like one of those really simplistic indi horror games that ends up being literally terrifying in a good way#anyways ive yapped long enough i hope you like the fanart#slimecicle#charlie slimecicle#ranboo#ranboo fanart#tommyinnit#tommyinnit fanart#philza#philza fanart#sorry boys
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#if any of my lstwt oomfs find this im shooting myself#lifesteal shipping#lssmp shipping#lssmp#princezam#wemmbu#zammbu#angsts art#i turned them into my ocs atp the pnly thing that my interpretation of them only shares their personality and dynamic#saying that i rhink i deserve to draw ls zammbu as a little trear#treat*#but id rather die rhan draw uu zammbu for many reasons#anyway. ROBOT ZAM AND DEMON WEMMBU!#i have a bunch of hcs for them#basically wemmbu was created in a similiar way that most demons do#from the nightmares of children! its the same case with clown and therefore theyre both a similiar type of demons#they basically have a comstant area effect depending on their own self that effects the people around them#wemmbu drives people mad and clown makes everyone terrified#zam was a past therapy robot in a psych ward until he got extremely beaten up and then thrown out and thrn later found by clown and restored#by branzy#also wemmbu's star thingies are what allowed him to get into ls by giving minute (possibly the same person who had nightmares of him as a#kid) and minute having them in ls allowed wemmbu to sneak in#zam was brought in by clown because 'thats my son' I LOV FAMILIAL MEDIEVAL DUO#oh yeah this was a zammbu drawing uhm OBJECTUM WEMMBU JUMPSCARE? IDK!#my wemmbu design looks so fucking stupid without details but its ok i still love my cat wemmbu
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Just a girl with her gaster blaster
#undertale#undertale au#utmv#sans oc#I didn't rlly want to post oc stuff on here cuz my tumblr is mostly for fanart#but i made this cunty ass art of my girl sans oc the other day and i couldn't help but share it#eat up ig#she's like... centipede core cuz im terrified of them#i made her a spider sans girlfriend cuz i read somewhere that tarantulas hunt centipedes so yk... toxic yuri :3#i also have more drafts/concepts with her but idk if I'll ever post them#anyway i rlly like her#muah#my baby my precious eldritch horror baby#“eldritch horror” and it's just an insect inspired oc...#ouch...#sorry insects i didn't mean it like that
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Took a much needed break from editing today to draw the idiots!!
Maybe I'll post full versions of their aged up designs when I start posting the corresponding fic 🫣
#my roomie and i were watching queen charlotte lmao#ref used my friends#my art#south park#stan marsh#kyle broflovski#style#they're blushing because its cold#no other reason#im actually terrified to post this#sharing art is scary!!!!#but im happy with how they look so here you go#dont think too deeply about what Kyle's leaning his elbow against#its out of frame therefore its irrelevant
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Mods can we ban this guy?
Another attempt at learning digital drawing, you can count this as a practice
My Malevolent brain rot has reached the point where I've been rewatching old Yogscast Call of Cuthulu campaigns and I think it would be fucking hilarious if Arthur and John met Professor Grizwald (he's just an arsehole and I really want Arthur to kill him <3)
#malevolent#arthur lester#call of cuthulu#john doe malevolent#malevolent pod#malevolent fanart#no_ojos_art#games night yogscast#YogsQuest#Professor Grizwald#I have many such sillies like this in my drafts but this is the only one atm that im willing to share#posting art on here still terrifies me lol <3#malevolent shitpost
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grabs him by the scruff of his neck like a kitten
#ranma 1/2#not putting this in my art tag i just wanted to post Something#U EVER THINK ABT HOW HIS MASSIVE EGO IS TOTALLY FOR SHOW#like def the result of genma telling him hes the best martial artist in the world one moment then that he's a disappointment the next#and how ranmas secretly terrified ppl will notice hes only good at one thing and then will see how worthless he rlly is and abandon him#(im not saying hes worthless i just mean from his perspective)#and thats why he has a total breakdown in the moxibustion arc bc hes CONVINCED if he cant do martial arts then no one will want him around#its also why its so important that even tho she cant think of anything else he's good at akane still tells him to stay or at least#let her go with him#bc she values him bc hes a person and she enjoys spending time w him. its not abt what he can bring to the table or whatever#what he brings to the table is his kindness and humor and care for others around him!!#anyway that arc doesnt cure his ego by a longshot but it did open the door for him to trust akane way more and share his insecurities#the other half (lol) of this convo could totally be abt desperately trying to live up to being a Manly Masculine Man#but 99% of the time he expresses genuine confidence in himself and not just his abilities its in girl form#i already made a post abt that a while ago#ANYWAY SORRY FOR THE FUCKING ESSAY
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guy trapped in a hell of his own creation: haha ive never done anything wrong in my entire life. and im always right:] anyway. why did my little brother move out:(
its so funny to me that at first glance tashi seems like hed be the most 'normal' out of all the clones but at least all the others are slowly healing n shit while hes just getting more and more insane each day and one day hell snap and explode and maim someone
#my art#my funky guys#HES SO FUCKING STUPID.#tashi im sorry ily but youre literally the dumbes fucking motherfucker ive ever seen. and a cringe loser. never change king<3#like. this guy realised he was a clone when he was a month old and decided to base his new personality entirely#on the idealised version of the original he made up in his head.#like he did this to himself!!! he chose to revolve his entire personality around being a 'perfect flawless mom friend'!!!!!!!#in his head hes like the most selfless & altruistic person to ever walk the earth but in reality hes a sad selfish mess who just wants to#be loved.#he started out as a pretty nice and level headed guy who wanted to help ppl but then it just spiraled when he made that his entire#personality bc of his inability to move on from a lie he really wanted to be true.#he percieves shiro as this perfect flawless leader figure and he wants DESPERATELY to imitate that. deep down its not enough for him to#simply coparent and share responsibility w the others. no no no he has to be The Leader and do everything himself!#this mindset results in him later on starting to dismiss and undervalue his familys work and commitment to keeping them all alive-#esp soup. like sHE WAS THERE W HIM FROM THE VERY BEGINNING THEY ARE EQUALS THEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY IMPORTRANT#AND HES SO FAR UP HIS ASS HE FORGOT. somewhere along the line he forgot. he missed the point. he spiraled too deep.#and he knows. he knows but hes so terrified of change and growth and admitting he CANT do this alone.#he wants to be a cool epic capable solo leader AND he craves family and connection soooo badly he cant live w/o his loved ones.#so yeah. hes an angry little pathetic freak<3 i love him#despite all that hes not a bad person. just a flawed guy thrown into a situation so stressful and traumatising that he clinged to the only#coping mechanism he had at the time and just sorta. ran with it.#dw he gets better tho! it takes a lot and his and sticks relationship is strained for a LONG time but he slowly gets better. good for him
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The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - Agnes edition
Who would have thought? 🤭
Agnes "Nes" Sigrún 🌑RO: James Corvin
Personality: sincerity // cautious // friendly // merciful Traits: heart // compliance // believer Past affinity: writing [horror stories] Primary ability: empathetic impressions Past susceptibility: receptive
☀️Fernweh: She never really thought about leaving Fernweh… It was her place, near her family and friend(s). She felt good there and assumed she’s gonna spend her whole life happily in this little town. Even if Fernweh brings back devastating memories, she’s curious about what’s happening in Fernweh now, in her true home. It’s always been her dream to work in Turn The Page, and during her ‘short’ stay in Fernweh, she started thinking about it again. Why not stay for longer…? She would love to carry on her grandfather’s work and bring his legacy justice.
☀️Grandpa Jóhann: When she was young, she had an amazing relationship with her grandpa. They were completely honest with each other, and she loved him wholeheartedly. Some people thought that making her grandpa proud was her main hobby. She used to tell him all about her dreams that she had, which were always wild... and also about the nightmares… It took her by surprise when her grandpa, one of the most important people in her life, started being less involved. She was hurt and began to wonder if she had done something to cause the distance between them. His decision to move her out of Fernweh so quickly after this tragic event made a huge impact on her mental state. She needed time to cope and be with her closest ones, especially her grandpa...but after all she didn't blame him. She often heard that she looked exactly like her mother…like her grandpa's daughter... She assumed he could not look at her, without thinking about her... And she could not blame him for wanting to escape that pain. Agnes knew it was the best thing that her grandpa could do for him, and she accepted it, too eagerly. She always too eagerly took the blame for everything.
☀️Beckett Warrick: After what happened in Fernweh after James she had even more trouble interacting with other people and making new friends… However, Beckett was an exception. He was the first person who got to truly know her after the events in Fernweh. When she got the letter about her Grandpa, she considered hiding the truth from him, because she knew deep down that he would be there for her if she needed him… even if he would not particularly enjoy it. It's a good thing she’s such a bad liar… Her main concern is about Beckett’s well-being. She noticed that this 'little' trip made a huge impact on him. He wasn’t supposed to be here, and it’s because of her that he–... She needs to make sure that nothing happens to her friend. And she will somehow manage to bring him back to his home.
☀️Reese Verner: They had an unconventional relationship. Reese saw her as a rival, while Agnes thought of him as a friend. She was confused about why Verner, someone of great importance, would even look at her see her as a rival. She knew there were better candidates for his games. She had only one question on her mind - “why?”. Despite Verner's playful teasing, Agnes always remained polite and friendly towards him, even when he attempted to push her boundaries. Girl knew how to keep her true feelings behind a warm smile she still does. If I can be completely honest… Agnes was rather shocked that Reese still remembered her… and was actually looking for her, which sounded so unbelievably. His concern for Milton's well-being made her see him in a slightly different light. Of course, she already knew Reese had a good heart, but his behaviour really touched her. Additionally, Agnes noticed that Reese and James’ relationship became stronger and deeper… It’s for the best. James deserves someone as dependable as Reese. He will always be there for James.
☀️Sofia Dorran: Their bond was formed over a shared admiration for books and... the color blue. It may sound funny now, but these things became central to their lives and deepened their friendship. Sofia was the first person Agnes entrusted with her writing, and valued her honest feedback, knowing that Sofia would not make her feel bad if something needed improvement. They frequently borrowed books from each other's collections. Agnes yearned for the days when she and Sofia had reading sessions together, sipping on their favorite beverage. The only issue back then was when the book ended poorly or their library didn't have any new positions for them to read. She's willing to know how Sofia's taste toward books shifted (if shifted) and how she changed as a person. She's also extremely grateful because her grandfather received constant care from Sofia and her mother.
🌑James Corvin: …Do I really need to tell you that James was her first crush? And that she never found the courage to tell him so? maybe now will be the time? Agnes and James were always together, wherever one went the other followed. They were inseparable. Agnes even used to bake oatmeal cookies for James with her mother's help. They dreamed of their idyllic life together. As friends, obviously. Seeing him again after all those years was much harder than she anticipated. Agnes felt overwhelmed with stress from the moment she stepped out of her car. Every time she heard his surname, she unknowingly flinched. Her mind was full of questions about his well-being, life, and changes. She couldn't help but wonder if he would be happy to see her. …she did manage to hold his hand for a moment, I can consider it as a success
☀️Alex Corvin: Agnes has always looked up to Alex for their adventurous spirit and their willingness to embrace life to the fullest. She has always wanted to adopt a bit of Alex' wild side. Whenever they are around, boredom and dullness seem to disappear. They both share similar values and support each other's life goals. If I would say which person Agnes was the most willing to meet during her stay in Fernweh that would be Alex. She was confident in their friendliness towards everybody and was sure that their kindness had not wavered. Agnes was touched when she heard that Alex was looking after her grandfather's bookstore… It appears that Beckett has a new admirer, which Agnes wholeheartedly approves of.
☀️Mal: Agnes has a sense that Mal might be suspicious, but she is quite naive and doesn't believe that he could mean trouble. Although she is wary of him and finds him a little untrustworthy, Agnes believes in being kind to everyone, and she is willing to give Mal a chance, not judging him by her own impressions of him.
☀️Goldie: Agnes is grateful that her grandfather had a furry companion like Goldie, who probably managed to brighten his spirits. She fondly recalls how her grandfather would tell her stories when he once had a dog, when he was younger and how his eyes would light up with joy as he shared his story. Agnes is committed to taking excellent care of Goldie and ensuring her safety.
#don't get me started how she is BLAMING herself for the situation Beckett is rn. she needs to go back for her theraphy sesions right away#that's why she went with him into the woods looking for Milton and not James even so she wanted to spent every single second with him :sob:#she's conflicted. being with James is something that she dreamed of but in her opinion he deserves someone better //obviously//#...that's why she's cheering for James and Reese lol. Look she just wants James and Reese to be happy and she can see how those two care of#-each other. She's happy : )#she's an idiot 🙂#is there a potential happy ending for the three of them..? maybeeee. we'll see what the story will bring ���#im totally confident that Sofia and Agnes had their own shared little library#Agnes wrote a poem for James when she was young but it wasn't really her forte. that's why she showed it to Sofia because she knew she will#-help her. //Agnes didn't want to tell for who it was but Sofia figured it out anyway. they both knew that the other knew but weren't-#-talking about it out loud. XD it was hilarious -- for me and I assume Sofia but Agnes was terrified. XDD//#....cough James never saw this poem anyway cough...#I have this headcanon that Agnes made up amazing horror stories that James was willing to hear (for a bunch of oatmeal cookies) when-#-they had a sleepover //those stories were from her nightmares but she never said that to James knowing he would only worry about her//#btw her parents called her 'little star' and James must have heard it and (maybe?) asked Sofia to make a necklace... Sun and Moon.#did you know that Agnes had her piece of the Sun as her necklace for the WHOLE TIME. but she hid it away under shirt... x"D she was looking#-if James had his Moon somewhere... but she did not see it. anyway she wears it always.#omg i finally made it. there's also one in my drafts nearly finished and three more to go. XD#sooo curious about book two <3#fernweh saga#my art?#Spotify#oc: agnes sigrun
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hi i made an animation :))
its not that long and kinda messy but im proud. also expect a longer version coming out soon
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#im kinda terrified to share this#little doodlies#tmbg#they might be giants#birdhouse in your soul#art#animation#OH MY GOSH im sick rnand SNNNHUUDGH#Youtube
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"media is open to multiple interpretations" yeah but if I don't get my specific interpretation right (in the eyes of others) in my fanfiction I will be struck down by god.....
#i dont want to look silly.#im carefree about everything until its art or writing#thats like bearing yojr soul#gotta do it gently#or at least kn a way i don't mind bejng perceived#man i just want people to think that i have deeper thoughts and the capability to understand things#pretty sure the english education system mildly traumatised me about being wrong now i rarely share anythinf deeper than “im sad”#healthy emotional vulnerability for thee but not for me thank you!!!#maybe im just sensitive and terrified of rejection#i think jts gettinf better i guess i wouldn't be oversharing via tumblr tags if it wasnt??#this feels less intense than writing fanfiction and posting it online somehow#bue waffling
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You know what. I'm feeling ballsy.
[upturns a box and several images fall out]
Behold, my cringe, an oc x cannon character ship
So this crackship was started between my main oc [Night] with Vergil by a friend annnnnnnnnnnd- yeah. [Rambling under cut]
Well, you guys won't get it [because it isn't like I've talked about it any but... soon...] but on god I swear it works weirdly well and I can't get it off the brain. This ship makes me so insane. Its really fuckingggg cute you have NO idea
I and my friend [@ lisianthoma] call them Cat-duo because they both act like cats
they are so slow to actually like each other because they both have problems <3
#sh33bs art#digital art#digital doodle#vergil#vergil sparda#devil may cry#devil may cry 5#MY OCs#oc: Night Verr'la#Ship: Catduo#this took me a hot minute to actually hit tthe post button ngl im a little terrified of the internet BUT GODDAMMIT THE ONE ART LOOKS GOOD#AND I WANNA SHARE IT
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this time of the year is bad
#got traumatized in october. had a total of 12 hours before i had to go be a person again and ignore it#i feel like my dad thought i was overreacting. you are much bigger than me and i have my brother to care for#i am now. terrified of strangers and going outside#more than before#my concentration is not working#i start art one month and finish it 3 months later but its nothing special#this is art for Me. i cant even do anything for me#i cant get any time alone i cant draw when people are around#i hate drawing on my phone#i hate drawing on my pc because the brain says thats where hw is done#thats where my mom gives me several new forms to print#you cannot fast travel when there are enemies around#it is so so stupid but my friend is playing a game his other friend recommended and not what i recommend#and it happens a lot and im upset about it like a little bitch lmao#my sister makes fun of my interests. usually without heat but i need to experience things with people#i dont want to get into my friends interests. im tired of doing that#i dont want to share my interests they wont like them#i am so so so terrified of getting into new things because what if something bad happens#i was friends with someone bad up until 2020#and now im terrified of making new friends. and terrified of people sexualizing my oc lmao#its all so funny. every little thing piles up. alone none of this matters#my mom keeps trying to get me to decorate for the holidays. bro fuck the holidays#she literally threatened me because i wouldn’t put up the tree in November#shes not working cause shes sick so i have to spend the next 4 days around her#i cant do ANYTHING when she’s around#YOU CANNOT FAST TRAVEL WHEN THERE ARE ENEMIES AROUND!!!!!!#im so fuckinb tired. i shouldn’t be this tired#i spend all my energy surviving and i dont even do much
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converted the price to usd for the comms i want to do and it's fucking 50 cents bro oh my gooooooodddd
#in peso it makes a lot more sense bc my art isn't that good yet but i will have to raise it up a bit if like ppl overseas will commission me#want to try local first im actually terrified but idk ..smiles#share ko lang
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grrr I hate being so scared al lthe time of making my art too not sfw bc I love showing my siblings my art but I cant show them my art if it's all h*rny!!!! grrrrr
#smudgy.txt#like in order to start doing a thing w my art i have to dive fully into it or ill never actually do it#& i want my art to be more hrny & gay & transgender. & i want to draw monsters#but everytime i try to start i stop myself bc nooo this wouldnt be appropriate for my siblings :(#n like youd think itd be easy to simply not show them the not sfw stuff but.. not for my brainfogged adhd ass !#maybe it'd be easier if i had other ppl to share my art w...#n yeah i could show the art online but im terrified my family could end up coming across it anyway#n i considered posting any strictly not sfw stuff to pillow fort but i keep forgetting that site exists bc im so used to#being tumblr-only 😭😭😭#idk im just so used to being palatable for my chr*stian family bc they were#all i had growing up that im having a tough time navigating anything outside of that box#even tho i REALLY want to bc i feel so trapped w them & crave independence & space for individuality
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still in disbelief about how mizu5 genuinely captures the subtleties of transmisogyny so accurately like nothing else i've seen before especially with the nuances with which mizuki's story is told … all it takes is a single sentence, a few words … i love that the classmates saying that shit don't even … realize how cruel they are, bc that's how it /is/ and bc "oh no, we said something weird to a Normal Girl, that makes us look bad" - transmisogyny is just a punchline to a joke for them, that's how detached they are from their own cruelty and it's really not any different from the 'average' misogyny and how that tends to be a joke amongst boys. what ena ended up being exposed to is really just the classmates' 'boy's locker room talk' leaking out, so to speak? ena's probably heard jokes from people about how unfeminine her behavior is in the past and she quickly spits out "that's not funny" bc ena and mizuki are both "pretty girls" who like fashion and dolling themselves up, and hearing them talk about how mizuki's cute in this way … i'm sure it reminds her of her own experiences with being an 'influencer' - people like her when she shuts up and makes herself cute and appealing and ena must've absolutely received her fair share of comments and messages from weirdos for posting selfies of herself online, but i think what drives this home to me as such a fantastic narrative is the way that they call mizuki "attractive as long as she's not making any trouble and being a pain" bc it really speaks to how trans girls are objectified and only deemed 'acceptable' as long as they make themselves into limpless dolls who are acceptable targets for any form of abuse and misogyny instead of trying to claim their own subjectivity as women, so there's so much crossover in how mizuki's experiences work alongside ena's? but also mizuki faces so much more constant and direct criticism, all her actions and choices so closely under scrutiny.
mizuki loves and appreciates the attention of girls and when she first met ena she saw herself in the art that ena made - ena draws a girl in pain and mizuki goes "she's me". in the scene where mizuki gets outed, ena is speechless not bc she thinks mizuki is "gross" or bc she's mad mizuki "tricked" her? she's just horrified that she just got degendered /by association/ and then had to listen to these boys speak about the girl she's in love with in this /aggressively/ violent way, especially since mizuki has a meltdown, knowing, apologizing for hurting, even as ena would absolutely say "no, i'm sorry, im sorry, please don't hate vourself" bc mizuki feels like she's the one at fault for feeling like ena would assume the worst of her, but mizuki also feels like she doesn't have the right to be angry at people … this is the first time we get to see mizuki's rage and it's so palpable … i love so much that she hates the idea of niigo's kindness being born out of her 'abnormality' as a trans girl … she hates everything about this. she hates the idea of coming out, she hates the idea of having a question attached to her girlhood..
mizuki logically knows that niigo are going to accept her bc they've also gone through so much turmoil themselves and understand what it's like to be on the fringes of society, but she still can't shake off all those intrusive thoughts about how they might only accept her out of pity or consideration bc they feel too bad for her rather than a genuine understanding and the idea that things might change between them bc of that is too terrifying to embrace… such patronizing 'kindness' burns too much for mizuki to accept, so she'd rather run away and shut herself out completely… for mizuki it's like being stuck on a bridge where the only two ways out are ones where nothing changes and this hurts in its own way bc she can't tell how much of it would be genuine and how much would be an act and the other way is them /trying too hard/ to be considerate and this can easily become alienating bc mizuki truly just wants to be "one of the girls" in the most natural sense? she doesn't want to be made to feel like she's being accommodated, but there's also all the guilt that she's been internalizing for being "deceptive" and not saying the truth sooner that further complicates things and makes her feel like she's undeserving of any kindness that she may be offered… even though she genuinely was going to tell ena the truth herself, it doesn't matter anymore bc someone else told her before she even got the chance to do so herself and that's something she actually wished would happen in the past, so is there anyone to blame but herself? mizuki's entire thing is that until now she's been "writing" a fictionalized cis girl version of herself when she's with niigo and obscuring her own transness bc she doesn't want to be treated as an Other or have an asterisk attached to her girlhood bc she just wants to be treated as one of them instead of having to explain herself or prove anything but she has her facade violently stripped away from her in the most traumatic way imaginable and now she's entrapped within dysphoria induced suicidal ideation...
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