#im such a fucking thief i cant live with myself. and i keep stealing from everyone by continuing to go sell at cons

[tortademaracuya]

I feel like a thief

[wildcatofgreen]

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"please let me make this clear that i do not like you. i hate you, even. go fuck yourself."

She stands from her desk, wandering groggily over to her closet. Opens the door, reaches into her snack stash--actually, she'll need some of these for later. Stones know she's not leaving anytime soon, she'll need something to stay satiated. Pocket some snacks, go get her diaries.

blah blah blah she destroys the locks and opens the boxes grabs the avalice what the fuck ever.

With the Avalice diary in hand, she wanders back over to her desk, sits down, and opens it to the last entry.

"dear diary, "sup. i dont think im gonna write in ya much anymore. "i dont think i need you much, either? everything is pretty much perfect right now, besides the training "SO MUCH TRAINING. you dont even know looool. "i got lilac. i got sonar. i got trainin, i got my besties and i got like, everything a wildcat could ask for right now. "im content! really, i am! i dont have to worry about anything anymore, besides keeping up with people. "and for the coolest wildcat around? HA, that's eaaaasy. "though, i guess if there's OOOONE thing i wish i had "it'd probably be a consistent cash flow. stealin's awesome but it dont pay the bills, if you know what i mean "that battlesphere stuff is SUPER DUPER COOL but iiiii dont know if i could ever be a battlesphere champ "i mean, im a super sick world savior, so that's gotta count for SOMETHING. "but CAPTAIN KALAW??? HE'S SO AWESOME I TELL SONY ABOUT HIM EVERYTIME THE BATTLESPHERE SHOWS UP!!!! "shame what happened to the jade fury though. he aint deserve that. not at all. "but jobs, yeah. i could probably do more stuff with my mechanics? "but when would i ever have the TIME? ive had MORE time thanks to the dumb gemerald not working anymore, but stones ever since i figured out the jump/bike disc stuff i cant fuckin' think of other cool stuff i could do. "and i cant fix other people's bikes. lol, here comes the local thief to fix stuff. nah that bitch gonna STEAL IT "lilac says we should only steal when we HAVE to. but how else are we gonna get cash? running around picking up chump change isnt gonna make us live. we gotta STEAL. i swipe some dude's wallet everytime i leave the palace. it gets funny replacing wallets with different IDs in them. "idk what i wanna do with myself. who is this CAROL TEA, lolll "but seriously, im happy. but im also stuck. where's the room to grow. i aint got no potential. it kinda sucks "but i can deal with it. and the first step into this room to grow is to get rid of this stupid diary!!!! "ill miss you, diary bro, but i wont wait up either. lol. "see ya! "- carol"

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[ashfantasyworld]

Jack Ironshield

I look up at the kingdom I have served for so long, there is not much I can say nor express in how disappointed I am in the cause I have been fighting for. Rebeca puts her hand on my shoulder “it will be fine big guy lets go there is nothing more we can do”. The reason I am writing this is I can not speak, and therefore I hope that writing my story can help people see me for who I really am.

Well to say that I have been anything other than a soldier my whole life would be a lie, i used most of my life serving the kingdom. But as soldiers we are not just fighting, sometimes we have to be involved in civil matters, and what happened I will always disagree with as long as I live. But before we get into that I think I need to introduce myself, my name is Jack Ironshiled. I am 27 now and have been a soldier for 9 years now, a mute 6 years after I almost got killed in the line of duty. After that I swore to become a protector. I had gotten a second chance, and that is how I did meet Rebeca. 

I had one mission to go and stop a bar fight, I went there and found a very drunk lady beating up a much bigger guy than herself. I tried to calm her down without much use, but I felt for her because she was drunk and angry at the guy touching her. So I decided not to toss her in jail for the night and carried her home. She was kicking and screaming most of the way before she fell asleep. As we got home to my place I put her to sleep in my bed, while I found a bed roll and slept on the floor. I did not think much of it. 

The very next day i wake up with a knife to my throat, “who the fuck are you” I look at the lady from the night before, fuck i cant say anything. I try to move my hands to make a sign, “Hey i asked you a fucking question who the fuck are you”. She is now shouting at me, “Hey can't you talk ANSWER ME”.... I nod gently, And move my hand slowly pointing at the scar over my neck. “Oh you can not actually talk”, I nod gently. “Well fuck why i am here”? No, what to do now I look around frantically and see a liquor bottle, and point at it. She looks up, “Oh it was that bad of a night?” I clench my hand into a fist and punch my other hand making a gesture of fighting, “oh i see and who are you?” I look around once more, and point at a big shield with the kingdom's mark on. “Oh fuck your a soilder or knight well im fucked”

I smile some but nod, as she removes the knife, and looks at me. “Hey i am sorry i did not mean to” I lift her up and put her in a chair, and move over to the kitchen. “Hey hey be calm big guy i don't want any” I turn around with a cup of tea and some bread and meat. And hand it to her. “Oh you're not mad” I shake my head and hold forward the food. “Is that for me?” I nod and place it infront of her. She looks at me and drinks the tea and eats the food, “damn big guy it tasted amazing but why are you so nice to me? Soldiers usually don't help people like us” I clench my fist and put it to my heart. “Oh you believe in protecting people '' I nod and smile. “Well I hate to burst your bubble but big guy, i think that you might be in the wrong line of work for that.” I tilt my head and look confused at her. “I guess you have not been home since the war started, and been out fighting.” I nod and show off all of my scars, she takes her hand and runs her fingers along them. Her hand feels so soft against my rugged skin, “I can't imagine how bad it has been. How long has it lasted now 7 years? Have you been deployed  all of them?”. I nod and look at her with big eyes, “yeah i can imagine a king wanting to use someone like you for fighting no words just a fighter.” I look down as she says that, i hate it that i can't speak and tell her i am not only that. She stands up and put a hand under my cheek and lift my head up so my eyes meet hers, “hey now i know you have a big heart, and you are soft even tho you look like big soldier if you weren't you would never have taken me home instead of jail” She smiles and sit back down, “its fine i know you had to do your job” she looks at me and smiles, “i hope big guy that you won't see the worst of it. But your king is treating us all like criminals after the war” she looks down. “But hey it might turn around ehh?”. I look at her disbelief and shake my head, she shrugs and pat me on the shoulder and hands me a note with an address. “If you ever need someone big, I am here for your name is rebeca by the way.” I grab a paper and write my own name on it. “Jack Ironshield, I have seen your father once but never spoke to him. So long jack I hope to see you again,” Rebeca walks out and disappears into the town. I am happy to have met someone like her, and I'll make sure to keep the note safe.

After some weeks back home I started to see what rebeca was talking about, collecting taxes from people who barely have money. We get people who do crime or just dont have money to pay, and put them in jail. I am starting to struggle with doing my job, this is wrong, it's not what I fight for. One day I am summoned to an event by the king to keep people in line, when I get there I am disgusted it is an execution. I stand and look at the people, as they are looking a lot and are cheering it on, some are crying. They start one after another is killed, some for crimes that deserve death some for crimes that don't deserve punishment. But I hear someone cry, it sounds like a child. I turn around and look in disbelief as I see a 12 year old boy in the ropes. And the guy starts to read as he drops and hangs, “this boy was caught stealing food from the king's stores and is therefore hanged by orders of the king. Anyone who is caught trying to steal from this city will meet the same faith, thiefs do not deserve to live” I look up at the boy as he hangs lifeless in the ropes, tears start falling down. I have had enough. I will not protect some king that will punish a little boy for trying to feed himself, I will not protect a corrupt king who only looks out for himself. I walk off on the way I drop off my armour i and weapons, and walk home. I open my closet, and take out my old weapons and armour from the war. The longsword has dents in it from how many times I have slayen or beaten down enemies, and the shield has marks after enemy weapons. My trusty dagger that always keeps me safe when most needed. And my old chain mail, rugged, dirty but a good armour. I pack some things and move to get going, but I want to say farewell to Rebeca. I look at the note and start walking towards her house, as I walk there I get into a poor part of town. I can see how people here are struggling just to survive, children working trying to feed their families. People look worn down, and near a breaking point. As I come to the house I see rebeca kneeling in front of her house, with a guard holding a sword to her neck while another one looks through her stuff. “So where is the money little girl, we know you have some” ‘. She looks at them and shouts “I have paid this month I am in the clear” One of the soldiers hit her, “this is the soldier tax for us to be nice”. Something in me snaps. I can feel the rage I had back in the war coming back, I walk towards them and they don't hear much. As they are busy trying to shake down Rebeca, I walk up behind one and drive my dagger through his chest, twisting it, killing him. The other one try to reach for his sword, but I grab him by his head and slam it into the ground. I keep slamming it back into the ground, blood goes everywhere, how could he. Soldiers are supposed to protect their citizens not hurt them, I keep slamming his head into the ground, I did not go to war for this. I did not risk my life for people to be abused. I feel a hand grabbing my shoulder. I turn and clench my fist ready to hit to kill, rebeca looks at me. “Hey hey big guy he died a long time ago, calm down now we need to leave and that fast.” She moves her hand to my face and wipes off some blood, “now calm down you need to think now.” I look around me seeing people looking, I hurry up and help her grab some things before we hurry and walk out of the city. I look up at the kingdom I have served for so long, there is not much I can say nor express in how disappointed I am in the cause I have been fighting for. Rebeca puts her hand on my shoulder “it will be fine big guy lets go there is nothing more we can do ''. This is part one of 2, i am helping a guy from my server writing his char. I think it came out pretty good so far hope u all like it. @erik-jj char

[deuce-duce]

Quick recollection of events...!! Definitely caught some backlash after my last post... eeek! Idk if you saw it but my 👢s were shaking. Yesterday morning I was broke and went to the gas station and stole a breakfast sandwich as i was walking up the street she slows down and starts yelling at me enjoy your free fucking sandwich!! I honestly think she was put there to be some kind of distraction or to just make me feel like shit about not being able to feed myself... i say that because I saw her walk in and she definitely wasn't even in the same part of the store when I took said sandwich... she had shoulder length blond hair mid thirties in a blue SUV with L.P. ending in 221. Tell her I said thank you when you see her or if you know her... why thank you?? Because she's right but ya know if someone is stealing food!! Not money or someone else's material possessions but food from a store that is going to write it off and be reimbursed for then i cant say a damn thing to them we live in a broken society that frowns on minor theft but promotes exploitation and oppression. Idk about you but I'd rather share a meal with the thief... also its kind of an oxymoron to bereave someone for stealing when thats exactly what our country was built on... thats why I'd like you thank her because I wouldn't of had this thought process without her!! So THANK YOU!!

2 mind after that some woman got mad at me for throwing breakfast sandwich wrapper in her trashcan outside of her garage... saying it was strange that I would do that...?? I said why because it would be more acceptable to throw it kn the ground the to walk 6ft onto your driveway and throw it where it belongs... well can't you see this is a residence she said... i said i do! But there are no No trespassing signs and if you really have a problem with someone throwing away trash in your can then put your cans in your garage.. then i walked away.

Work was interesting... but I'm not going to speak on anything other then how many people came in I think just to tell me I was stupid... oh so... you think you know who I am...??? Well you know what assuming does.... other then that I appreciate the minimization of interference... its not that im not a cool person or don't have anything to offer its just could you. Imagine what it feels like being turned into the plague of a society... and how uncomfortable you probably make people feel... not only that but your people picking skills are absolutely horrible just saying from past experiences and present apparently... but go out there and make some friends a couple songs I have been listening to recently is Legend by Rebelution ✔ it out you might think crazy!! Haha I know i did when I heard it! The other is things you can't control - SOJA. One thing I have done is stopped worrying about that which i cant control no matter what i do! But the one thing i can't ignore is how that which i cant control could has and would negatively effect someone else... one of the main reasons I keep my distance but its not like im not used to being alone. Just saying stop believing that the ball is or should be in my court!! Actually beleive whatever you want! Thats what makes this great country great although its all a facade...

Were given the freedom of picking any kind of food we want to eat from the grocery store simply to give us the idea that we are free... but its apparent that "no one is free here" (Highly Suspect). Not only is our illusion of freedom keeping us in chains but that illusion in and of itself is the primary contributor to the destruction of our home, Planet Earth.

So I don't know if its apparent yet or not but why are we so loyal to such a broken and misleading way of life... idk but maybe its because there's no other way..?? Or we just chose not to embark on such a journey because of the amount of work and effort required to make fundamental changes... idk about you but they say don't fix something if it isn't broken... well folks id say our way of living and society as a whole is broken. when you alienate someone going through something you could never bare and pat the opressors on the back like they got it figured out id say were fucked!! Thats JMO. The other thing i can't fathom is im all alone i barely ask for help... but how many people are actually working against me... a lot so why all this for me???? Who am I...??? What did i do??? Or maybe its more about what is it I am capable of...! Lots of 💘