#im still trying to figure it out
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yknow what would make paul and darry’s… “friendship” SOOOOO much more painful?
what if darry WAS aroace but he was just so in denial and he didn’t even know about it. He just…never had a crush on anyone. So when girls flirt with him he’ll jokingly flirt back…but he’s never felt anything.
cue paul confessing to darry his feelings. darry’s like…’okay, well i don’t feel anything when girls flirt with me…none of the times i’ve kissed my girlfriend have i felt anything…am i gay?’ so yeah. he tries it out because he wants paul to be happy. but nothing he does with paul makes him feel anything. and that’s when he starts questioning himself and feeling bad because it’s his best friend, who genuinely loves him…but he can’t get past the platonic stage. and being in a relationship like that just makes him feel bad and such.
when he breaks up with paul it’s more for paul’s sake than his. he doesn’t want to hurt paul…and i feel like the reason paul started hating darry was because darry told him he just didn’t feel anything for him. and paul felt lied to. all the ‘i love you’s they shared were nothing? all the times they’d kissed or messed around it just never meant anything to darry? that’s when paul starts hating darry. but a part of him is really sad because he’s gonna miss darry. but that’s when the hatred and the whole train prank went overboard.
#of course when i say ‘for nothing’ that’s more how paul sees it#in reality darry was trying but he couldn’t force it anymore#i hc paul is bi-random but idk#the outsiders#darry curtis#paul holden#parry#aroace darry is one of my newer favorite hcs#i feel like he’d be ok with a qpr though#either aroace darry or bi darry i can’t pick#maybe asexual biromantic darry?#who knows#im still trying to figure it out
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genuinely i can't do it all. writing, art, japanese, (working out, food, friends)((actual job, reading, anime, video games))(((an hour of touch typing exercises a day))) it doesn't sound like much but if i do everything a little bit i do nothing to satisfaction. i think i need a ranking. i need to prioritise. i need to put some things on hold. i need a system.
#elia txts#the truth is i want to disappear until 2023.............#im still trying to figure it out#(i know what the answer is)
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"Let's meet again next Halloween..."
#you guys do know that. that im still into twst right#HES MAKING ME INSANE THE WHOLE DAY#USHIADJBFS IM SOOOOOOOOO#oh and thats my oc alli#Alli oc#A SHIP???? MAYBEEEEEE#MAN I JUST WANNA HUG THIS GUY#im in tears while trying to figure out his damn hair#HDHUDSBK I CANTTTTTT CAN HE NOT#AAAAAAA#skully j graves#Alli (alli oc)#twisted wonderland#twst
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COME HOME, Grian says simply. (---"The shadow people come by every once in a while")
Lil thing for @definitelynotshouting 's your half of the ransom about secret life scar 🌻
#goodtimeswithscar#grian#secret life smp#secret life#desert duo#isdoodles#im still figuring procreate out o7 KAJDKAWKD TRYING. MY BEST#but ye a lil something for tem im glad u liked it OUGHGHGUR <3#sl scar lore will be the death of me
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City of Tears. But Mini.
I wanted to make an atmospheric art piece with Dewi. And the City of Tears is one of the most sorrowing, beautiful, and grand places to do that. This is a lot of firsts for me regarding the architecture and lighting. The shadows cover a lot, and it may have been too much. I'm happy with how it turned out tho.
No idea how Dewi found his way into the City. Probably magic. Probably plot too :) But oh boy, he is experiencing childlike wonder in his raincoat!
This is a better show of the line detail I needlessly covered up in the final lol
#I love the idea that Ghost's resting spot is always on Dewi's hat. It's a great vantage point for spotting potential threats!#Quirrel doesnt mind the rain. But he'd rather not be walking around with Dewi 20 stories above him#Hornet is on the look out so that Dewi doesnt mess up anything#And Hollow is just enjoying the rain#dewi's adventures in hollow knight#hk fanart#Im really happy with it turned out#hollow knight#pure vessel#city of tears#dewi#hk#urg I still need to figure out human noses and I was getting really anxious about showing this just for that one fact alone.#trying my best. I have to keep my head up even with my imposter feelings. Otherwise i wont post
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#sir crocodile#dracule mihawk#buggy the clown#cross guild#my art#one piece#crochawk#dump of dumb stuff#i was looking at the old patrick bateman mihawk and ended up drawing axe wielding mihawk again#idk why#im just anxiety coping drawing#i wasnt going to post this but i forgot i scheduled it... omg#anyway im trying to be more free with drawing now and not caring so much#more like how i drew 2-3 yrs ago#if its weird and ugly then its weird and ugly#i also want to draw blackbeard but hes so hard to draw this way. still trying to figure it out#also please imagine crocodile standing with axehawk. i desperately wanted to draw crocodile with him but didnt#theyre axe murdering couple in crime#i took the last ones outfit from the shining#i try to draw lineart directly without a rough sketch stage. its sort of meditative#i'm gonna axe you one last time...
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"Hunt" part 1. My tav Revna and daddy Halsin. Rev is a spore Druid/urchin wood elf (my favorite kind of Druid) they have horns due to spending the last years of their life living in isolation away from civilization, adopting the likeness of goats and cervines in the heart of the forested mountains. Such is their love for these animals they decided to keep the horns and the singularly colored eyes (also, they miss the weight on their head when not wearing them) Decided to make them a genderless beast because, hear me out, a shapeshifter being connected to nature n’ living away from human costumes studying fungal behavior. What would a being like that need a damn gender for? Nothing, the answer is nothing."
Here is my art Instagram, I´m far more active there. And do NOT use/repost my work without consent or credit, dammit.
#baldurs gate 3#bg3#Halsin#Daddy Halsin 4 you#halsin x tav#tav#druid#dnd#animals#nature#forest#mushrooms#fungi#digital art#web comic#comic#queer#queer art#video games#larian studios#jogh#im still trying to figure out how to share the part 2 without being obliterated
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A boatman and his little bird
#hades#hades game#hades 2#hades 2 spoilers#hermes#charon#charmes#professional associates#chermes#my draws#im still trying to figure out how to draw hermes hhhhh#everytime i draw his face he looks different im SORRY
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thing i made i figured was decent enough to post :p
#i imagine his first time seeing him without his battle mask went something like this#im still trying to figure out a way to draw i enjoy...#..but i really like how i drew that closeup megs panel. also its very obvious ive never done comics before whoops! anyways#my art#doodles#megop#megatron#optimus prime
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So does anybody else ever think about how Loop felt the need to demonstrate that the party's deaths wouldn't have any effect on the loops. I know I do but that's besides the point. Anyway I don't think Loop actually needs to bathe, they just like to feel included.
#'but lucabyte didnt you already do a comic with this exact same message? that loop has potentially killed their party intentionally before?'#yes i did absolutely do that thank you for noticing. that is what the cannibalism comic is about. no that was not a metaphor. lol#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sifloop#isat siffrin#isat loop#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#lucabyteart#ill ramble elsewhere some other time. maybe in a text post. but. long and short of it: even if you assume the answer to 'how do they know'#is that in sasasap isa got frozen once. theres still the fact that the loops are from sif being too distressed. how far gone does a siffrin#have to be before they can witness a party member die and notice it has no effect. how does loop feel to have planned to kill the party#during act 3. why did they NEED to show sif that. are they trying to preemtively stop them from getting the idea in their head#that maybe that might work? when they're out of all other options? when they just get so frustrated and at wits end?#loop helps in subtle ways through the whole game. and in less subtle ways like begging sif not to use the dagger. and while yes the#overarching reason you need to learn that the loops are tied to sif is because you need to figure out wish craft.... loop doesn't know the#actual mechanics of the loops themselves. just what didn't work. the power of friendship. getting the final hit in. being perfect. etc...#and besides all that.. how did loop feel during that hangout. being so deceitful. especially since before the other shoe drops#sif is enjoying themselves. but they know what's coming the whole time.#as for: why bathing? its the obvious imagery for blood on their hands/washing/never being clean. and is a bit of an inversion of the other#piece i just drew with the other casual closeness and nudity being kind. this one is cruel instead.#anyway tag ramble over ill do a masterpost of all my fanwork with some directors commentary sometime i promise. since i know im often vague
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Have an art crumb
#ough i wanna draw more#but ive been switched to full time so im even busier now QwQ#one day I'll find the time to keep working on my fic#one day#fnaf sb#moondrop#my art#fnaf moon#dca fandom#princess quest au#amnesia au#princess quest ending#soft moon#soft moondrop#moon/reader#dca au#fnaf dca#dca/reader#still trying to figure out how i want to draw him#I've got the face down but im not sold on how i draw his body#arcade lights#arcade lights fic#y/n
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Who's the "real" me?
+ some references for the Rise-related things I included <3
#im reaaaally happy with this one hehe i had fun putting the stuff from different things shes had/worn#i feel like ppl overlook the massive identity crisis & the accompanying depression & internal conflict rise is going through during the gam#like shes trying to figure out who she is seperate from her idol image (which she constantly still clings to despite her insistance that sh#s done with it bc she does still crave that recognition and attention she got from that position. she literally breaks down crying when her#manager tells her kanami has taken her acting role and is more-or-less set to take her spot now)#and then she also struggles with finding what she wants to do with herself now that she doesnt have showbiz to worry about#i think she kinda unintentionally uses the investigation as an anchor for her to hold onto#something to keep her busy in the absence of the hustling idol life#and then she also like. again she keeps clinging to the idol image and the associated bubbly-ness and bold flirtation#because thats the ''her'' ppl liked#i dont think the way she acts during the game is ENTIRELY an act theres definitely a lot of her true self in it too#but she does have a lot of moments where she leans more heavily into the bubbly & flirty cutie act#her sl shows that for all that she wanted to retire from showbiz she isnt really ready just yet#bc she did actually enjoy being an idol. she did enjoy being able to reach out to people in this way & to finally have ppl like & accept he#the problem is she doesnt know who ''she'' is at this point#im rambling but u get my point. yeah. yeah#rise..............#rise kujikawa#persona#persona 4#p4#art#my art#xanders art#digital art#fan art
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So I recently heard of the ship called Kingleader and--
its the funniest thing Ive ever seen...
he just gets cartoon heart eyes every single time he looks at him
Bonus:
wbdcnwbdkcbkd its so sillyyyyy
#the amazing digital circus#tadc caine#tadc pomni#tadc kinger#kingleader#royalteeth#caine x kinger#Caine has such old 50s cartoon energy radiating off of him#maybe his hat turns into a workwhistle when hes angry#im still trying to figure out how to draw caine too#hes so shaped
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why me?
#this is quick but been itching to draw her. i miss her#isat#mirabelle#isat spoilers#?#art#sorry everyone for dropping off the face of the earth im still alive. im just trying to make 40 comic pages in a month#im still around just poke me w a stick#also for my entire life i have not figured out how to draw noses from this angle. forgive me
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patroclus and achilles designs !! also doodles of the iliad's gayest dudes
#im still trying to figure out my diomedes design so this isnt my official dio but hrgrhdvdjzbbz#the iliad#tagamemnon#iliad#patroclus#achilles#patrochilles#odysseus#diomedes#odydio#the trojan war#trojan war#i love giving achilles nereid features like look at those big fucking teeth hell yea#my art
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Ranchers 彡໒(⊙ᴗ⊙)७彡
#hermitcraft#my art#rancher duo#team rancher#tangotek#jimmy solidarity#solidaritygaming#tango fanart#solidarity fanart#im still trying to figure out how to background#right now I can only draw trees#but I like it it’s cute#I should also work on my lighting
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