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lyricsandpapers · 3 months ago

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Went to the dentist, got a massage. Most physical contact ive had in months 🫡

#lets ignore this one too folks #im still having trouble sleeping #fixing it w/soju tnght i think #and bnd videos love those quirky little idols #except im watching them in like 10 second incriments because existing is too loud rn so i have to stare at the ceiling in silence in between #my favored local tat artist is gone #going hunting for a dif one tmrw to get 2 small ones #might fix me #do i spend $500 and get anotjer thays probably not worth that much #whats the point right?#of savings or spending responsibly or anything really

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greatgoddyke · 1 month ago

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but my heart is like a claw machine

#undescribed #bonk.png #great god grove #ggg #great god grove spoilers #ggg spoilers #isttvg spoilers #she/her for hector on this post please n thank you #i had a bunch of tags attempting to explain this whole thing n post game transfem hector hc but the og post didnt show up in the tags #n its like 5:30 something n i was already having trouble explaining it bc ive had like four hours of sleep so i sadly cant talk about gender #stuff like i wanted to in full detail so something something sanding self down to be nonthreatening n palatable #something something the way players (myself included) falsely believed king was a man despite many of us being trans or otherwise queer #n pre endgame king only being referred to with they/them something something men as the default as problem solvers as leaders the heroes of #the story something something hector's envy of the way king is loved n admired n able to be heard as herself #hector's fear of death n irrelevance driving her to do the shit she did n the main theme of isttvg (aside from transgenderism) being fear of #death n how denying yourself will cause you to become irrelevant in ur own life disconnected from everything as the years fly by #theres still time.#enjoy the bullet points its almost six am im gonna pass out #wiat also fixation on youth in both how we view n associate feminity n what is normally explored n portrayed with transgendering

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ratatatastic · 4 months ago

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"Did you get in trouble for taking the cup into the ocean?" "Yes. Yes." "Did Rodrigues? He took it in there too!" "Did he?" "Yeah!" "Well, I mean, I brought it under the water—looking back..." "What happened?" "You bring silver into the ocean, saltwater—no!" "Oh, I didn't know that." "I haven't slept! How am I supposed to know? Nobody told me the rules!" "You haven't slept!" "Yeah, but you're naughty—" "But hey! If I would've known about it... oh no, I still probably would've done it. Still probably would've done it!" "Dude, who cares! That thing has been abused all through the years!" "No, no! The cup guys understood, the cup keepers understood—they, you know, told me the rules after and I swear to God I didn't know before but, yeah. Great memories! Great pictures!

Cam & Strick Podcast | 8.27.24 (x)

oceangate evolves further the more we talk about it so if youd like to see the other previous developments in concerns to it...

and also because its funny here are some of the times the cup has been held near or above water both salt, fresh and chlorine alike since oceangate in no particular order

and i just think its very clear when oceangate happened because now everyones holding the cup high above the water/near bodies of water and not letting it get dunked

but pre-oceangate the cup was just dunked in maffhews pool hours after they won it (which was before they went to las olas and welp the rest is history)

#matthew tkachuk #evan rodrigues #florida panthers #will i tag every cat in this? absolutely not go wild i however for my sanity will not lol #like a kid he admits to his guilt by scuffing his sneaker into the pavement by going “well i brought it underwater...”#BENNY DID TOO? WELL I MEAN YOU AND EKKY PUSHED HIM. BUT HE DEFINITELY DID GET MORE SALTWATER ON IT THAN YOU DID??#i genuinely think its so funny how maffhew took the most flack for oceangate #ah to be one of the faces of the team is to well...take one for the team #my favourite thing about this is maffhew trying to convince us he knew saltwater was bad for silver BEFORE he was just sleep deprived #oh im sure buddy #at least he admits that he still wouldve done it even if he knew lmaoo at least we're honest with ourselves #naughty kid who always gets in trouble strikes again #he gets so whiny trying to defend himself #“i havent slept how am i supposed to know nobody told me the rules!!!!"#there there sweetheart you dont have to whine about it we still love you and your dumb decisions #he gets progressively whinier the more he gets asked about whether oceangate was allowed lol #i think this is karma for the prince of wales touching fiasco where sasha took all the flack despite maffhew being the instigator #the world is now balanced and all that

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coolyourjetsbennie · 3 months ago

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remember to leave out cookies and brains for eddie and venom tonight!!

#venom #hi my name is alexa #venom 3 #the way im having trouble sleeping bc im so excited #even tho it’s literally still like 16 hours before i actually see it #gosh i’m just so STOKED omg

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thatoneluckybee · 5 months ago

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school is starting on i think tuesday? so rest in peace getting the recommended eight hours of sleep it’s been great

#i dual credit and preap in some subjects and im doubling up on another so i have more room in my schedule next year #so i am going to D I E but at least its less money wasted on college since i still havent a clue what id wanna major in #i’ll figure it out eventually #but good GRIEF i am afraid #rambles #i dont think ill have too much trouble?? like the specific classes arent ones i struggle with much it just seems like a ton of work but ill #figure out how to balance it #and most of the teachers are the ones people love so hopefully they wont make it too difficult #ANYWAYS…. STILL NEED TO GET BACKPACK TOGETHER.#i will survive by naps and naps alone #but also i function well on little sleep so i should be fine

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ghost-bard · 1 year ago

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Hihihi silly question for the qsmp early lore fans w good memory

Did the codes show up before or after juanaflippa, tilín and trumpets deaths??? I have a silly theory but it might get instantly disproven by that tidbit of info.

Or like. Not even once all of them died but did the codes show up before any of them died or after at least one of them died?

#qsmp #quackity smp #qsmp eggs #qsmp juanaflippa #qsmp tilín #qsmp tilin #qsmp trump #qsmp trumpet #qsmp code monster #saw ppl calling trump trumpet and honestly thats so fair #idk if that originated as as nickname bc of his actual name #or if maxo like called him that at some point #but still #its cute :]#also i plan on looking this up tmrw but id appreciate an answer either way :]]]#bc im eepy and have trouble sleeping so i just took some melatonin to help

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despite-everything · 1 month ago

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ive been packing and packing and packing and im so close to being done but there is still so much to do and i have so little time!

#i havent done a cross-country move since 2019 #and not one where ive owned this much shit before #this is stressful! ill be okay but this still is stressful!#im having trouble going to sleep because there is so much more i could be doing #but im also exhausted and dont want to burn myself out #tree talks

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itsalwaysdark · 2 months ago

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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww #i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces #but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this #video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one #supposes the point of all of this but idk #its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no #anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when #the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein #like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale #i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to #me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to #refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i #was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing #game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking #regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have #shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i #come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking #to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond #which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the #i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed #with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this #and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have #like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i #dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti #off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh

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slutdge · 1 year ago

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god i need winter to be over my skin is so fucking dry 😭

#its never been this bad during previous winters #but no matter how much water i drink and how much skincare i do i still end up with painfully dry skin #to the point where im having trouble sleeping #and also before ur like ''maybe its the alcoholism?'' im way ahead of you #ive been an awful alcoholic during the winter in previous years while drinking LESS water and my skin was still softer and less dry #than it is rn #idk why my body decided THIS was the year i would get crocodile skin but i fuckin HATE IT #and im fairly confident the weather is guilty

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camels-pen · 1 year ago

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mmm read a hurt/comfort Zoro fic recently and like. I get it now. That guy DOES hurt so pretty. kinda wanna try my hand at it.

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A voice disappeared.

Zoro stopped in his tracks, feet rooted to the spot.

Who was it? Where? How-?

Just barely, he managed to block a blade aiming for his neck.

Luffy was ahead of him, laughing his head off. The cook was a bright flaming beacon in the sky.

The rest? C'mon take a count, Zoro. Make sure.

Usopp. Nami. Chopper. Jinbei. Robin. Cook. Luffy.

What? Two? No, where were-

His breath hitched as he blocked another attack.

Calm down. Take a breath. Count again.

Usopp. Nami. Robin. Cook. Luffy.

Fuck. They couldn't-

No, they had to have left the battlefield. These guys were smallfry, even for the so called "weakling trio".

Zoro took a moment to focus on the enemy around him. He let off a tatsumaki before focusing again.

One at a time, Zoro. Come on.

Usopp.

Robin.

Sanji.

Zoro jerked, eyes wide and searching frantically.

"No, no no no no no. He can't have-" Luffy would never leave before the battle was done, not without making some kind of grand exit. He wouldn't leave without telling Zoro- telling anyone- about it.

He wouldn't up and disappear into thin air like that. Not unless-

Zoro shook his head roughly. They were fine, he just couldn't see them. It would be too much of a coincidence for them all to disappear like that. He just needed to count again, then regroup with Usopp, Robin, and the cook, and figure out what was going on.

Stay calm, Zoro. Losing your head won't find your friends.

So, again, Zoro breathed. And Zoro counted.

Usopp.

The only voice left, was Usopp.

Zoro wasted no time.

He sprinted as fast as he could, cutting down anyone in front of him almost as an after thought, as he bulldozed towards Usopp's voice.

He'd nearly made it too, when some dead man kicked his side hard enough to stop him in his tracks.

Zoro turned to him, a snarl on his face. "Get out of my way before I kill you."

"Huh?" The man sneered. "I should be saying the same thing, watch where you swing those swords, asshole."

Zoro was about to retort when he noticed Usopp's voice moving away from him. He didn't have time for this.

Without warning, Zoro moved to slice through his opponent and, to his surprise, the man blocked it with ease.

"You wanna go? Here and now?" the man growled. "I'll kick your fucking ass."

This man- Zoro has never met him before, but nonetheless felt he would need to pay him his full attention to have a chance at winning.

But Usopp was getting farther and farther-

Oh, Zoro could hit himself.

"USOPP!" he yelled at the top of his lungs, startling the man. "STAY RIGHT WHERE YOU ARE, I'LL BE THERE SOON!"

Usopp didn't respond, but he stopped moving, and that was good enough for now.

"Hey!" The man yelled, pressing down on Zoro's swords. "Whatever you need him for can wait until after our battle's over. He's got his own problems to deal with."

Zoro didn't bother wasting his breath. He cut and slashed, throwing attack after attack without abandon. It didn't matter if he was wasting his energy, he needed to get to Usopp before- before-

The man, infuriatingly, blocked almost every blow, and got a few hits in on Zoro himself.

Zoro would get to Usopp, even if it killed-!

Suddenly, there was a crackle in the air and all at once, Zoro's nerves lit up with pure unfiltered pain.

He dropped to his knees, blurry vision wavering on black shoes. He couldn't feel his arms. Or his face. And his head was getting lighter and lighter.

Zoro's fading thoughts were prayers, to a god he didn't believe in, to keep his friend safe.

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"GYAHHH, ZORO'S GONNA KILL ME!"

"Nami-swan, a little help please?" Sanji said, voice uncharacteristically strained.

"If you're asking, how can I say no?" Nami said, smirking. "Get out of the way... now!" The moment Sanji pushed off Zoro's swords to hop away, she brought down her Thunderbolt Tempo on top of Zoro. He fell to his knees before crumbling to the ground, twitching.

"You could've knocked him out on your own though, why ask for my help?" Nami asked.

"Ah well, it seemed he had a couple screws loose and I didn't want to kill what little braincells were remaining." Nami nodded in understanding.

The two of them turned to Usopp as he inched his way closer. He carefully prodded Zoro's thigh with his boot. "He's really unconscious, right? Not gonna get up anytime soon?"

Nami shrugged. "It's always hard to tell with him. But don't worry," -she stood tall, holding out her Climatact- "I'll shock him as many times as necessary."

"That means I get to live another day, so you have the Usopp deal of approval." Usopp gave her a thumbs up.

"What'd you even do to get him so pissed at you, Usopp?" Nami asked.

"Nothing!" He paused and looked away. "Well, nothing recently."

"He wasn't just mad," Sanji said. "He looked..." Scared, Sanji wanted to say. But the word was so... simple. Too simple. And it didn't explain the desperation in his eye. The wet sheen. The way he hardly blinked.

The way he kept himself facing the direction Usopp was in, revealing his constant use of Haki.

This wasn't just Zoro scared. This was Zoro terrified.

And Sanji had never seen him terrified before.

"...off," Sanji settled on, furrowing his brow. "He looked off."

Nami and Usopp hummed in thought.

The three of them stared down at Zoro's prone body. An ominous dark puddle started growing under him.

The three of them sighed.

"I'll call Chopper-" Usopp felt a tug on his ankle. He looked down. Zoro's hand was holding his boot. "I thought you said he was unconscious!" he yelled, trying to break his grip unsuccessfully.

Sanji poked Zoro with his shoe. Zoro didn't move. "He's still unconscious, so you're gonna have to be his teddy bear."

"What?! No!" He gripped onto Sanji's shirt. "Sanji-kun pleaaaaase free me before my ankle's crushed in his sleep!"

Sanji rolled an eye. "You'll be fine."

"Then can you go get Chopper? Zoro's losing a lot of blood."

"The mosshead'll be fine too. Also," -Sanji pointed to Luffy and Chopper doing some kind of strange combo attack, with Chopper in Heavy Point using Luffy as a whip- "I don't wanna break up their fun."

"Sanji-kun," Nami piped up. "Go get Chopper, please."

"Of course, Nami-swan!" Sanji immediately ran off.

-

The two of them quietly watched him go.

"Did you see what caused this?" Usopp asked.

Nami shook her head. "I know about as much as you do: Zoro suddenly taking out a big group at once and then charging towards you." She bit her lip. "I don't think he recognized Sanji."

Usopp sighed, squatting down to pull the bandana from green hair. He stared at the slackened face of his friend, hands tightening in dark fabric.

"What happened to you, Zoro?"