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i think polyamory should be a thing in stardew. like. i go home and i sit down and argue about grammar and art history with elliot and leah. we go out mushroom hunting. life is good. we team up and write a book together. we all have a part. come on guys
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just finished jade war. Um ‼️
#girl. i have never been more stressed reading a book oh my goddddd those final few chapters had me by the fucking throat#i gasped countless times. i had to put the book down and PACE and that never happens ever .......#every moment i wasn't reading my gut was roiling with anxiety wondering what was going to happen next#fonda lee had me on the edge of my fucking seat that's for sure#okay im going to talk about spoilers now so look away if you must#THE DEATH SCARES WITH RU AND WEN AND ANDEN HAD ME SCREAMINGGGGG I WAS SO SCARED WTF#also we Love the poetic cinema of anden’s climactic scene in the first book being him taking away life and then in this book#it's him giving life back#LOVE!!!!!!! and he was always good at channeling so it ties in beautifully#also this is sooooo trivial but even though i was actually kind of heartbroken he broke things off with cory—#i hope he can try something with lott 👀 like. please....he had a crush on this emo kid for the longest time back at the academy. so cute#but i mean they're two very different people now so i'd understand if that doesn't happen but now that anden is back in janloon i really#hope he and lott can like. spend more time together and get to catch up#ANYWAY!!!!!! i need to talk about BERO bc for some reason i ended up getting sooo attached to him#like yeah he's an awful street rat who's done awful things but he's just trying to make something out of his life#also Love how he's bestowed with such turbulent luck as it's stated over and over again like literally Anything could happen to bero#but i was kinda sad when mudt jr was murdered (that scene gave me chills btw it was so horrific...green bones don't mess around)#bc he and bero Were kinda sorta friends and i loved their constant bickering and how they did come to appreciate each other's company :(#also obsessed with how the books start and end with bero like oh shit i wonder what godawful scheme he's trying to pull off now#boy....just let it rest!!!! you have a proper job at a restaurant now you could make a normal life for yourself!!!!#now he wants to ruin the clans by joining the rebellion.....of courseeeee#anyway bero is a delight and i love seeing where fate takes him he really is a plaything of the gods#god i still can't believe kehn is dead :(((( are you fucking kidding me. AND MARO. that was fucked up.#also hellooooo i need ayt madashi pov chapters right nowwwww she's such an enigma she's so scary i need to know what goes on in her head#also. girl. the cycle of violence is going to keep happening over and over as long as rhe clans still stand :/#the mountain and no peak are just going to keep trying to get the upper hand on each other no matter how much they talk about peace#maybe i agree with and support bero after all hfkshfhdh maybe a rebellion is what's needed after all#bc they're just going to keep going at each other's throats#i need jade legacy right nowwww hopefully i get it from the library in the next few days
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the pantry is stuffed with chips and cookies and we have a whole jar of chocolate sweets sitting on the dining room table. been there for two weeks now. for once, i’ve not been tempted. what a shock.
#i gen think i have a fast food addiciton like#im good as long as i dont have any but as soon as i have junk omfg im unstoppable#sometimes i cant relate to those posts that r like… you’re less likely to binge if you have pizza every once in a while!!#and like. no. i have pizza every once in a while and it leads to a two week long fast-food bender#i am sooooo normal about food yall soso normal
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Sebastian solace x gn reader (fem anatomy but like,, they/them pronouns if that's alr,,) smut,,, breeding kink,, or something like that,, preferably with emphasis on size dif and power imbalance,, and perhaps some degrading? PLEASE IM BEGGING SOOOOO HARD
Pairing• [Sebastian ♡ Reader]
A/N• YES!! I originally was gonna do something like this in the first place, so it worked out! I had multiple ideas on how his anatomy would work , like some 𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 ideas. But I decided to keep it tame since I don't know how 𝓕𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 you guys are. I still don't know how warnings work, LOL.
Warnings• Smut 18+, breeding, size dif, power imbalance, degrading
Word count• 1.1 K
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Reaching door fifty wasn't the easiest, considering you accidently angered Eyefestation, and you managed to actually survive Pandemonium on a whim. With you being rushed multiple times by Angler and Blitz, you never had the right opportunities to check for data, leaving you with a measly one hundred intel. With a deep breath pushing open door fifty, you're met with the familiar voice of your condescending fishy friend, Sebastian. "Hey, over here." His voice rang through the vent beside you, sounding unexciting as ever. Popping open the vent and crawling through you're met with the tall hybrid, towering over you. As your eyes locked on his bored ones, his fins flared out slightly upon noticing it was you. "Oh! Hello my little minnow, what may you be looking for today? I stumbled upon this black light, it's pretty rare, four hundred Intel for it." A small smirk came on his face as a frown formed on yours. "What's the problem? Couldn't reel in that much Intel so far? Normally, you come in and buy everything, but it seems you're lacking today." A soft tsking noise can be heard from him as his tail flicked. You bit the inside of your cheek, eyeing the black light strapped to his tail. It could come in use against those annoying squiddle later on. "Could you maybe give me a . . discount?" Managing to look back up at him, his gaze still boreing in on you. Silence covered the room as he stared at you before laughing. "A. . A discount?"
His laughter quickly died down as he realized you weren't joking with him. "Awh. . oh.." He glanced off to the side with his eyes squinted, he pops his clawed fingers in a fidgeting motion as he seemed in thought. His esca flickerd for a moment before he turned back to you, "I have a proposition! How about I give you a very generous discount since you're not an annoying parasite like the rest of the little divers they send down here. ." His voice trailed off to something more luscious. "In exchange though, you give yourself up to me?" A patronizing grin formed on his face as he saw the soft blush creep onto your face. Your mouth moved, but nothing came out in protest, just soft stutterd "I. ."'s and "Wha. ."'s fell from your mouth. The embarrassment at the idea picked at your brain. "Are you stupid or something? Did you forget how to speak?" The snarkness in his voice makes your stomach flutter. "I guess. ." Timidly accepting his terms, his grin comes back, briefly flashing his sharp teeth. "Well then, shall we get started, my dear?"
Sebastian is leaned against the wall, he's already ripped off your diving gear, leaving you bare on top of him. With your back flushed against his chest, two of his lower arms hold onto your waist, covering it completely, holding you in place. "Seb. ." You softly mumble out as your head is tilted down looking at how his tentacle like cock slithers out of the slit a bit under his lower abdomen where his tail like body starts. His unoccupied hand grabs your chin rather roughly tilting it up, his hot breath pants against your neck. His long tongue emerges from his mouth licking along your neck before mumbling something incoherent you couldn't catch onto. You feel his cock rub against your stomach in a sort of rutting motion, pre slicked onto your stomach as Sebastian let out a groan. He slowly guided his cock inside you, you gasp at the unfamiliar feeling of the arrow like head pushing its way deeper into you. The stretch making you gasp as he finally lowered you all the way. He lifted you up effortlessly and pushing you back down, using you like you were nothing. You whimpered at the feeling of him biting down on your shoulder to muffle his groans. Your mouth forms a 'o' shape as the head of his cock kisses your cervix and the small bumps on the underside of his member rubbing against spots you never knew existed, making your vision haze with pleasure.
His thrusts pick up, using you effortlessly. "Fuh. . hah.. fucking take it." He groans against the nape of your neck. "Jeez. . humph.. m'gonna fuck you till you're stupid. You won't mind right?" His patronizing tone resurfacing as you respond with choked gasps and whimpers. "Aww you can't even form any words, you're so fucking dumb. My dumb little toy." He harshly groaned against your ear, feeling how you're walls clenched around him as he said that. "Such a dirty, dirty little thing." He nipped against your neck as he neared his climax, your eyes open up slighty as you hear a soft thumping noise. Glancing over you see Sebastians tail wagging against the floor. "Drive me so crazy. . m'gonna fill you up. Yeah?" His voice wavers into soft hitches as you feel him twitch inside you. The feeling of one of his hands dragging down your stomach to the clit, roughly flicking the pad of his finger back and forth, desperate for your release on him. That familiar burning feeling in your stomach quickly builds up. With a few final flicks of his finger you let out a whimper as you reach your climax and cum around his cock. He twitches inside you for a final time before roughly slamming you down all the way on him, groaning against your neck as he stuffs your tiny cunt full of his cum. He holds you down for a few more moments before his grip on you softens.
Both of your soft pants and breaths fill the room as you come down from your highs. Gently lifting you off of his retreating member, he helps you get dressed again in your gear. "And heres your promised discounted item, my sea fireflie." A sofend grin formed on his face as he picked the black light off his tail and handed it to you. "Th. . thanks.." You mumbled as you leaned against the table next to him, having a hard time standing up. "Maybe discounts for you will be more frequent. Don't cha' agree?" A snicker left him as you collected yourself. "Thanks Seb." You mumbled your goodbyes to him and crawled back through the vent. "Goodbye." He said, dragging it out longer than he should.
#sebastian solace#sebastian solace x reader#sebastian solace smut#sebastian solace x reader smut#roblox pressure#🦝kobraaaah💤#🦝cobraaah💤#🦝fic💤
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poo poo pee pee oooohh you wanna tal;k about mumscarian asooooo bad ouuhohhhhh you wanna discuss tehem and tyour headcannons on them SOOO ABADDDD
OUHH I WANNA TALK ABOUT MUMSCARIAN SOOOOO BAD
(guys, obviously this is not about the content creators, those are real people. this is all about the characters!! ty 🫶)
guys literally ENOUGH trying to chose between Grumbo or Scarian or Redscape. they all have two hands. And it’s not Just Grumbo + Scar or Scarian + Mumbo, THEY ALL HAVE WONDERFUL CHEMISTRY!!
Grian and Mumbo CLEARLY like each other— summoning circles and bothering each other every single day (not so much this season), they genuinely enjoy each other’s company, love being around each other— a good example could be in secret life, Grian’s first task to make bad puns and have no one laugh. And what did he do?? Immediately goes to find Mumbo, despite knowing Mumbo is the world’s giggliest person!! Another one is Mumbo’s complete and total regret when making that deal with Grian for his permits— when he took the bit too far and Grian backed out he felt so bad about it!!
Scar and Grian, I mean. C’mon. We have everything about third life, and then double life— and they have such a fun teasing sort of relationship! They laugh with each other and poke fun and that’s how they are !!! They are NOT bad for each other or mean to each other or anything, they play off of each other and don’t hold grudges for their bits. Like the snails bit, or the on hold bit (all from this season), they’re just ! fun and playful together.
Mumbo and Scar are absolutely wonderful together ! their personalities work well together and they’re so hilarious— i love me a crazy bitch (scar) and the seemingly normal guy said crazy bitch totes around with him (mumbo). That’s not to say Mumbo’s normal, he’s only regular because everyone around him is batshit /j still though! Scar does all his crazy shit, and Mumbo’s along for the ride bc they like hanging out together! Mumbo loves Scar’s builds and takes inspo from them, they based next to each other on magic mountain, they’re just so !!
And let’s not forget !! the buttercups! All of season nine! The fact that they’ve based together every season since Grian’s joined!!!
as for headcanons i. literally could talk for hours about it but my phone is dying and its late,,, so have this short list!!
- Grian falls asleep in the sun SO often and whenever Scar or Mumbo finds him, they just ! join him !
- Scar’s the strongest, Grian’s the lightest, and Mumbo’s the weakest. Grian has hollow bird bones and therefore is really light ! Mumbo just is,,,, such a twink im sorry its gotta be said. He may haul redstone components around but he is NOT buff. Scar is buff okay it just Makes Sense. He can pick both Grian and Mumbo up easy
- Mumbo’s the most easily flustered, and Grian and Scar tag team flirt with him SOOOO OFTEN. It just ends in Mumbo being a red and stuttering mess
- Mumbo also is the worst at flirting— Grian’s the best, and Scar isn’t good at it but his insane demeanor and strange behaviors are so captivating to the other two. Mumbo cant flirt to save his life. He once tried a simple pickup line on Grian and forgot how it went halfway through. He’s tried to flirt with Scar and fell face first into the dirt.
- Mumbo still has insane loserboy rizz and autistic swagger. how??? no one knows! but his nervous demeanor and autistic rizz bagged both scar and grian idk
- The Buttercups was a resistance to Doc, yes, but it was ALSO Grian and Scar inviting Mumbo into their relationship. Mumbo did not realize this until FAR into the buttercups. He was not complaining
- On that note, Grian and Scar were dating first, absolutely. After 3rd life??? there was no way they weren’t. But they saw Mumbo, in all his autism, loserboy, anxiety disorder swagger, and both fell head over heels.
- Mumbo has like. Always been in love with Grian and Scar. Since they became friends, basically. But he was nervous to say anything, and then they were dating, and it was okay! Mumbo was absolutely smitten, but it was manageable. He loved them both so much— it was a bruise that only hurt when you pushed on it. But he loved being around them! He loved being their friend, so it was okay! He was their friend, and he loved them, and he was okay with that
- Of course, they DID love him back. Mumbo just didn’t realize that,,,, for a while,,,,,
I’m sure i could come up with more! but like i said it’s late and i need to sleep lmao
#hermitcraft#hermitblr#hermitshipping#grian#mumbo jumbo#hermitcraft grian#hermitcraft mumbo#grumbo#scarian#redscape#mumscarian#headcanon#boxbug talks#asks open#ask
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Hiii! I read ur guidelines and im pretty okay with it sooooo may i request a crossover story feat. tfp and onk? Likeee reader is very very shy and sweet but secretly using everyone and everything for her goal who-knows-what. U can ignore this if you feel u dont like this
Right, i forget to say thank you n•QwQ•n~
A/N : Hello, anon! While I know what is TFP, I'm not sure what do you mean by 'onk'... so I assume you mean Oshi no Ko? (Shortened as OnK). If that is not what you want then I'm very very sorry QnQ""... You also don't request specific genre so I'll make it two parts, 'kay? Thank you to you too for requesting me this story, you're my very first request ever!❤️🫂
I do this request with a few Autobots such as ; Smokescreen, Optimus Prime, Bumblebee, Wheeljack and Ratchet. Others will be on the next part! (I think you want short drabbles.)
Bright Star Eyes
Dark Star Eyes
Prologue
You always known as the beautiful girl with starry eyes. Shining so bright, you are always been every guys' crush at school, even Jack started to doubt his crush on Sierra when you seemed to catch his breathe very often than she ever did. And yet, neither of them knows what you truly hide behind that mask of beautiful lie. Your bright stars turned into darker ones when you feel very very intense negative feelings, and you still managed to hide that by saying it's normal and will eventually go after sometime. They believe in you, as you usually have only one star in your left eye, and the other one on the right will appear when you feel either positive or negative. No one realizes you lied. No one, but them.
Smokescreen
He is very very energetic and always been supportive from the beginning. When you first met him after you accidentally involved in an Energon Hunting Race thanks to Starscream, the Autobots decided to take you before the Decepticons do. Your eyes are unusual, after all. Shockwave or Knock Out may try to 'open' you up and study what causes you to have six-pointed stars like that. It was that day when you learned that you are tricked and fooled by those you consider close, your eyes turning dark. Desire to take revenge has taken over, and your stars get darker whenever you have ill intentions to use everyone who are valuable to you and your plans. Smokescreen, ever the observant, notices this and asks what's wrong. You shook your head and said that it was fine, but he doesn't seemed to buy that.
"You okay there, [Name]? You don't look very good..."
"I'm fine, Smokey. What is so different about me?"
He pretends to ponder for a moment, before straight-forwardly points out the darker stars.
"You usually only have one on the left, and now you have two. I know it's normal but... I don't think black stars mean something good."
Smokescreen immediately come into conclusion that something is not right about you when he sees your dark stars dilated and radiated black aura around your (E/C) eyes.
"Look, I know something had make you upset and if it was me then I'm very very sorry, but could you please tell me what happened and why the black stars? I hate to see your dark stars, especially if it means something bad."
He seemed sincerely wanted to help you, and he is such a good listener albeit his energetic and exaggerated personality. He listens carefully to you when you pour your problems. He has his own unique distinct personality after all. You trust him.
"It was... nothing too much of my concern... just... the feeling of betrayed by someone you always believe in feels so... rude."
He will listen closely to what you say, and after that, you both have a very warm cuddling session!! <3
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I accidentally upload this and yeahhh... I will continue this later when I had the time. This was supposed to be unfinished but oh well. Tumblr sucks a lot.🤓
#fypage#transformers#tfp x reader#oshi no ko#tfp short drabbles#tfp imagines#tfp headcanons#tfp optimus prime#tfp bumblebee#tfp arcee#tfp smokescreen#tfp bulkhead#tfp ultra magnus#tfp#transformers prime#smokescreen x reader#idk how to tag this#idk what else to tag#idk man#fyp#tumblr fyp#ai hoshino#ruby hoshino#hoshino family#maccadam
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luztoye love languages - please give me in depth thoughts
>:)
i have soooo many thoughts on this and you are about to hear them. all. im breaking my knuckles and getting into this. all Love Languages Ranked In Order Of Strength. Luztoye Version <3
5 - words of affirmation:
first, with nicknames. toye tends to swing towards more traditional nicknames (sweetheart, beautiful, etc) and uses them pretty often
he feels like he's not exactly Great with talking, so putting what he can into words through nicknames is his best way to show luz what he's thinking without him becoming overly defensive
luz is. all over the map with nicknames. he ranges from the good ol' fashioned ‘no homo’ names (buddy/pal/etc) to the most unhinged nicknames he can think of (i.e. pillowcase) to Normal Nicknames. toye literally could not gaf less
ok and i mean like look. as far as weaknesses go, i think they're p far up there on the communication scale. these motherfuckers don't talk. u know that bit in himym where robin and barney never talk about their problems and instead just Fuck. bc that's what they do
4 - receiving gifts:
look. gift giving rarely crosses their minds. not because they don't care about it, but because they genuinely just don't think of it
when two people are in the same vicinity a lot/work together/are never separated - like in the army - there isn't a lot of room for grand gestures and gift giving and the likes
they settle into giving each other small things on holidays/birthdays (cigarettes, ticket stubs, etc) but it hardly matters whether or not someone says something or gives them something
3 - quality time:
melds into the above. they spend so much time together no matter where they are (from proximity in the army to post-war living together) that everything they do is in a love language, in a way
they'd watch a lot of movies. luz is literally obsessed with funny face when it comes out and has seen the gay divorcee Too Many Times. toye's favorite is you were never lovelier, he can quote most of the scenes. yes these are all fred astaire movies shh
they're the same way with music. they don't have a lot of money after the war, and what they can save goes into a turntable and whatever vinyls they can find.
it's mostly billie holliday (obviously). but there's a lot of duke ellington in there as well, and, later on, a bunch of eartha kitt.
2 - acts of service:
luz really, really likes working with his hands. he's obsessed with fixing things, and oftentimes, it's things that weren't even broken.
when he's stressed out, he tends to tear apart whatever he can find (the sink, the fridge, etc) and then trying to put it back together
this often translates into him subconsiously doing whatever he can to 'fix' toye
he doesn't even realize that he's doing it, really. toye does, but doesn't say anything, because he knows it's how luz finds whatever equilibrium he's working with
the general rule is that luz is able to fuck around with anything of toye's except for the crutches, the leg, or the chair. everything else is fair game
it almost is a game, at this point - the best way to tell what kind of day luz is having is by looking at the state of Disarray around the apartment
toye doesn't say anything about it, and it's often put back together the next day. when it's not, he puts it back together himself
1 - physical touch:
number one for luztoye always and forever for One Million Years. they r touchy, your honor.
most of their touches are small - hands on knees/shoulders, brushing along the backs of necks, etc. they're much more reserved in public, but those stick with them
i've included it in literally every single one of my luztoye wips, but toye is definitely the type of person to be like. Crush My Soul Back Into My Body.
luz is just genuinely a touchy person, all the time, and he tends to be uber touchy with toye. like a fucking octopus.
i could go nsfw sooooo quickly but like. i shall Withold and instead just say. i have Too Many Thoughts on this
thank you sooo much for the ask bestie! i truly had the greatest time contemplating this <33
#rie answers#disastrouscanasta best asks ever tbh#luztoye#george luz#joe toye#joseph toye#band of brothers#hbo war
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do you have any ej headcanons? his character tends to vary alot, sometimes he used to be human and other times hes just a monster in the woods
ive always liked the idea of him being like a big brother to some of the pastas mainly like sally, ben, and jeff
AAAAGREED . As per usual ramble under the cut about jacks relationship with everyone + I’ll post colored version of this in a sec
ok. ive already talked a good bit about jack being a normal med student before the sacrifice, spending a year in some rando possessed demon state, regaining clarity, finding refuge in slenders forest, etc etc. he sort of resembles like, a vampire mixed w ghoul from tokyo ghoul
and as per usual fandom antics, he's one of the typical medical resources for a lot of people in that circle . he absolutely was the eldest son of his family, maybe like 3 younger siblings, so going to university and getting away from a big family was really nice for him. until he lost everything and can never face them again</3
SOOOOO him being the resident 'doctor' and already having a brotherly instinct .. its real and true. especially with sally, but she doesn't come around much since sally stays w jane and jane doesnt need jack. sally def reminds him of one of his little sisters. its super super bittersweet for him. jane doesnt realize jeff gets help from jack so thats the only reason she even lets sally come around
in terms w his friendship w jeff and ben.. those two are close, and jeff def has to go to jack for medical attention. ben doesnt need it but he'll come w jeff just bc he can. for a while jack REFUSED to talk to jeff while treating his wounds bc he knows what jeff does. ((jeff isnt even protected under slenderman he just lies and jack has no idea LMFAO))BUT EVENTUALLY jeff starts bringing jack uhh. :| remains. as an extra thank you, which means jack doesnt have to do the killing. it felt like a huge burden lifted off his shoulders. so that kinda helped shift their friendship. ben also doesnt really kill he just haunts so jack didnt have severe issues w him anyway(plus ben actually IS protected under slender sooo)
ben and jeff are just kinda assholes but in the boyish brotherly way(for the most part). neither of them have past 8-9th grade education and will literally look at jack like hes stupid for making a catcher in the rye reference.
jacks just kind of a pathetic little asshat who misses being in school. sometimes he'll try to convince ben and jeff to actually pick up a book for once in their life, and they probably did it once. PROB WOULD ENJOY CATCHER IN THE RYE NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT. LMFAOO
he's not all too brotherly with like, masky and hoody since those two are older than him and are creeped out by him. but theyve gotten their fair share of medical attention from him, and he even taught hoody some more extensive first aid so now hoody kinda deals with the basic stuff toby totally still goes out of his way to see jack regardless of whether hoody could treat it or not. toby had nobody willing to talk to him growing up, so the fact that now he sort of has a circle of freaks thatll talk to him, laugh(marginally) at his jokes, and can take some crude remarks.... BROS TAKING ADVANTAGE.
clocky also isnt protected under slenderman, but if she comes to jack with a gash in her head or a stab wound in her leg, jacks gonna help regardless. clocky is also kind of a smartass so she'll actually read some of the books jack has and talk to him about it which is pleasant for them both, but they really have like... nothing else in common.
liu doesnt need 2 go to jack and wouldnt bc he has no reason to
im still lost on how i want ninas case to go, whether she actually kills or just committed an act of self mutilation that caught jane and lius attention, so idk if she would need jack . .
#ok yea the only ppl i focus on in my au are like#toby masky hoody ej sally ben jeff jane liu clockwork and nina..#basically the main 10 or so LOL#theres def others roaming around but i either dont know their story or dont have a 2015 nostalgic attachment to them#anyway thank u for this askkkkkk !!#ik i always kinda deviate from the ask as i ramble but i appreciate it LOL#hcs#eyeless jack#jack nyras#creeped
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hii sex witch
im 19 afab and ive never had sex before, i masturbate sometimes but ive never had an orgasm and dont know how to "get it"?.. im generally scared of sex and identified as asexual for a long time but i dont think thats really my deal, im just scared of it. im scared of it being awkward, of my partner not finding me atractive or worse. i dont like how i look naked, and dont imagine anyone ever could. i think my vagina and my boobs look ugly and alien, i preach body positivity and being natural i think all bodies are good no matter how they look but when im faced with the reality of my own body im repulsed by these parts of it. i think something may be broken inside me because i just cant Be Normal about sex, the thought of me having it always makes me stressed and uncomfortable. i want a relationship and i love meeting new people and flirting etc. but when the person i talk to makes any sexual joke or innuendo i get super tense and scared and realise that if things get further they would probably want me to do it... and maybe i could and maybe i even want to but the thought makes me sick with the pressure. this isnt even a question, so i dont know how you could even respond but i dont have anyone i could openly talk about this in my life without feeling super weird or them just brushing it off as "you'll grow up to it" or something, and i just had to say it to someone or else i will eventually explode. hope this all makes sense ❤️🩹
hey anon,
come in, get cozy, grab a glass of lemonade, etc. we're gonna be here a minute.
so listen: I swear to GOD this isn't me trying to pull the "you'll grow into it" thing. I am going somewhere different with this I swear. bear with me.
first and foremost, I think the main problem you're experiencing right now is that being 19. I don't mean that in a condescending or belittling way, or to imply that you just don't want to have sex because you're 19. I'm saying that being 19 (and 18, and 20, and 21, and so on) is mostly for being worried about everything and having no idea what's going on. you have to get all that insane anxiety out of your system as early as possible in your adult years so that you can get down to business actually developing a perspective and figuring out what you want to do. I'm not even, like, a LOT older than you but trust me, by the time you're 26 you're going to feel SOOOOO different about things that you don't even realize you have an opinion about right now. when I was 19 I was made pretty much exclusively of anxiety and the cheapest bagels at the grocery store. (eating badly was not helping my anxiety.)
what I'm getting at here is that you're at like a very exciting and terrible formative age when it's the most normal thing in the world to feel like there's something uniquely awful and hideous and unlovable about yourself. when I was 19 the two most important things in the world to me were losing my virginity (lmao) and making sure I never experienced actual emotional intimacy ever because I was sure that if anyone got close enough to really know me they would realize that I was the worst person who ever lived and fundamentally undeserving of human connection. TERRIBLE place to be in; I had a lot of deeply bad and uncomfortable sex because of it.
there's a really easy solution to being terrified of sex, which I wish someone had told me when I was very scared of sex, and it's if having sex sounds like a horrific ordeal you can actually just Not Have Sex. just don't do it. it's actually REALLY easy to not have sex; millions of people do it every single day.
if you like meeting people and flirting, that's awesome! you should do that, having connections and relationships with other people is important. if you don't like sexual jokes and innuendos you can just tell people they make you uncomfortable and ask them not to do that; how they respond is actually a GREAT litmus test for whether or not those are people you should keep hanging out with. if someone isn't able to not make sexual comments about you after you've asked them not to, kick 'em to the curb!
there are tons of people in all kinds of romantic relationships who aren't having sex. that's a perfectly fine and reasonable boundary to set. it can make things a little more complicated, sure, but dating and romance and love are all complicated and messy anyway. again, great way to VERY EFFICIENTLY weed out who is and isn't a suitable potential partner. (it's also fine to not want a partner, either; there's nothing wrong with being a sociable extrovert who doesn't want to have sex.)
there's nothing broken about you for being nervous about the idea of having sex. whether you identify as asexual or not, it's perfectly fine to feel that way. it's completely fine if you change your mind tomorrow or if you feel this way for the rest of your life. and you might! maybe sex will never sound awesome for you, and that's fine! again, tons of people living very good and happy lives every day without having sex! sex isn't a measure of maturity, but knowing yourself well enough to honor your own boundaries and desires is.
I hope a kinder attitude towards your own body can come with time, and I think it will. be gentle with yourself, alright? being 19 is very silly but unfortunately very necessary, and I think you'll really like what comes after if you let yourself relax a little. whatever you feel like right now, you're actually a very normal person, by which I of course mean you have a rich and brilliant mind and will do many quietly wonderful things in your life and will be deserving of every bit of love and joy that comes your way.
also, hey - have you ever seen a therapist about anxiety? I also should have done that when I was 19.
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First time watching Voltron: Legendary Defender and documenting my thoughts
This is Season 4
S1-2 | S3 | S5 | S6 | S7 | S8 |
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<this one is going to be shorter, as I have only recently finished this season, and the grief is still fresh (lol), so the thoughts are only just starting to simmer. strap your asses in>
Pre-Season 4 Thoughts
-> Keith joining the blades is going to be a huge plot device, I feel
-> PLEASE for the love of CHRIST let that poor little girl find her brother and father. If they are dead dreamworks better be ready to catch these hands
->I’ve heard people claim this is the “last good season”, but i stay strong 💪 and will watch till the end
->wouldn’t the paladin switch not make sense now? Cus shiro is back as the black paladin and it makes no sense for Lance to be red like it originally had? If anything, he should’ve gone back to blue, and Allura to red, because Allura is very accepting/encouraging of shiro’s role as leader. I guess they didn’t wanna do it all over again. But I digress 🤷♀️
->im gonna miss my Pookie (🤍❤️🤍)
Post-S4
->do they do this every two seasons?? Have an epic battle where they have a big preparation and say it’ll 100% end the war but it doesn’t and something crazy happens after they win and it sets up the next season??
->FUCK YEAH PIDGE GOT HER BROTHER BACK IM SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP 💪💪🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️🙏🙏🙏🙇♀️🙇♀️
->^genuinely cried so hard during this scene. would’ve cried more if I wasn’t recovering from the initial shock.
->^cried during this one too, but it was happy tears. I could actually just do a whole reaction post to this episode alone. (if you want me to js say so in the rbs/replies)
->the callback to s1! “color-coded of course, because what are we? animals?” AHHH! I’m going insane I love these siblings sooooo much
->okay I’ll stop gushing over them now
->^only valid reaction to meeting Allura. Homegirl is beauty incarnate
->I LIED. im not sorry im never shutting up about them. SHE SHOWS HIM AROUND THE CASTLE AND TELLS HIM EVERYTHING AND EVERY DETAIL AND SHES SO EXCITED CUS SHE JUST GOT HER BRO BACK AND IS JUST RAMBLING ABOUT HER NEW HOME AND ALL THE COOL STUFF SHES BEEN DOING AND HES JUST LISTENING AND IS SUPER EXCITED WITH HER AND ITS SOOOO AMAZING AND ADORABLE AND I COULD DIE
->AND THEN HE TELLS HER HOW THEIR DAD WOULD BE SO PROUD IM DYING IM LITERALLY DEAD STOP.
->AND AND AND THEY WERE ALL WORKING TOGETHER W HUNK TO MAKE THE GALRA TRACKER THING AND THEY WERE BEING SO COOL WITH EACH OTHER AND BEING NERDS TOGETHER AND AND AND AJEUWNDUWJEBEURBDGWUDKAODHD
->okay. ive calmed down. i am normal and can be trusted to simply watch a show.
->^Get his ass, Zarkon. I needed his smug ass to be humbled so bad. Only time I will agree w Zarkon fr.
->i do NOT like Lotor. Can you guys tell already??
->THE SCENE WHERE THEY TRIED TO GET MILKSHAKES AND WERE SHOCKED TO FIND OUT THAT YOU NEED TO MILK A COW STOP.✋ 😭. My high-score on the giggle-meter went up by 300%
->bro I SWEAR shiro looks different. there’s just something about him. the hair gets a pass cus how good of a haircut can you give yourself in space, yk? but that nose scar is definitely a different shade #notmyrodrickshiro
->THE VOLTRON SHOW.
->^Just. That entire episode. It’s getting a whole post actually I need to yap about it.
->^her armor is colored in a way which makes it look both pink and red while making it look like a trick of the light in a way to symbolize that she is acting as keith yet while being a paladin herself and that being unknown in the public eye and showing how they have to cover that up, any suspicion being thrown as a trick of the light. Oh vld animators ily 🫶
->on another note tho why do they always draw lance and shiro to have 30 pounds of ass. what.
->loved when those lesbians decided to take down lotor. Queen shit 💋 we stan 🙇♀️🙏
->Lotor is so stupid and pathetic and annoyingly smug and sus and admiral-zhao-y and I hate him but he’s SOOO FREAKING HOT and I can’t hate him completely because he’s so attractive but that just makes me wanna hate him more. He’s a walking red flag but the flag is heart-shaped and honestly idk what to do w that.
->^WHAT. stop. honestly that’s the real reason he was banned from the empire my ass would not want that fucking FREAK within a 30 light year radius of me either
-> while s3 was the klance season, s4 is apparently the allurance season, they have a lot of sweet moments. (granted all started by lance but still, you can almost see allura swooning)
->^pookie. what are you doing… pookie.. no. stop. i don’t like where this is going…
->^POOKIE NO. STOP. ✋ STOP. SAY SIKE RN.
->^oh thank fuck for Lotor.
->^^wait what. why Lotor.
->^^^heartbreaking: worst person you know doesn’t something good for once.
->he definitely wants something out of this. I don’t trust him.
These are thoughts I’ve had compiled for some time now. I will continue to post my thoughts on the tag “laura’s first vld”
I finished this season on 06/30/24. I am on S5E3 as of today (07/06/24)
#laura’s first vld#voltron#voltron legendary defender#vld#holt siblings my beloveds 🤍💚🧡🤍#people should talk about them more I love them already it’s literally been like 2 episodes of them interacting#klance and allurance are like kataang and zutara i fear#meanwhile keillura fans are like zukaang and shallura (yes laura found a new ship!) is like zukka#I love comparing this show to atla and lok#it’s like a love triangle (aka love corner) but instead of the girl it’s lance#do you guys think ill reignite a ship war genuine question I don’t want that to happen#but i digress#you guys should tell me if you’re excited about something I could “react” to btw#like “oh boy I can’t wait till you get to <xyz> episode”
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YOUR TAGGSSSS ON MY FORCED PROXIMITY SATORU POST PLSPLSPLS eating the hotel breakfast together UGH.. he starts saving some of the food for u 🥺🥺 and the servers keep bringing him two plates bc they know he’s just waiting for u to wake up.. calls u sleepyhead in a stupidly soft voice when u get to the table…. he spots u enter the dining hall first before u spot him and he perks up instantly like a PUPPY then he has to pretend he wasn’t staring at u when you finally find his table.. has all your favorite food from the buffet ready for u at the table BUT ALSO ORDERING THE FOOD TO THE ROOM THO UR KILLING ME HERE his ass would take the room service phone all the way to the bathroom so his talking doesn’t wake you up and then you wake up to the breakfast in bed n he’s all surpriseeeee sleepyhead c: im so in love with his dumbass i’m so sick. it’s all your fave food once again but he’d probably also get something that has a fruit u don’t like or whatever to throw off ur suspicion abt him being obsessed with u but also with the excuse to pick at it himself and eat the food with u 💔💔 it’s his form of a bonding moment plus he likes the look on ur face when u remind him that u don’t like this specific fruit (as if he doesn’t already know) ohh my god ari i’m so so unwell about this
logan u need to be locked up IM SO DOWN BAD FOR HIM IT’S NOT OK 💔💔💔💔
no but genuinely everytime u talk abt him i fall a little deeper into the pit 😔😔😔😔 was this necessary. can i not live my life w/o thinking abt this loser every second of the day AS ALWAYS UR SOOOOOO RIGHT THOUGH SO REAL SO TRUE THANK U FOR FEEDING ME i actually left those tags JUST so u would elaborate hehehehe my masterplan has worked >:33
NO BECAUSE HE’S SO….. logan…… there are tears in my eyes……. him calling u sleepyhead 🥺🥺🥺 his little sleepyhead. so sleepy eepy all the time. (he says this in his baby voice just to piss you off) i’m gonna be sick???? it’s teasing it’s fond it’s playful it’s so him. he’s soooo fond of you he wants to bother you and poke fun at you so bad but he also wants to give you breakfast in bed and watch your eyes flutter open and hear your little delighted hums when you bite into something sweet HE’S A LOVERRRRRRR ……………… he can’t contain it. he tries so hard to but he always gives in to his true nature (Down Horrendous)
he would be SO in denial though ordering some things u don’t like just to throw u off PHDJDHD logan u r a genius….. our little loser. girlfailure of the century. AAAA AND ORDERING IN THE BATHROOM SO HE DOESN’T WAKE U UP :((( no because how does ur brain come up w these scenarios i need a whole hotel au enemies to lovers forced proximity slowburn fic asap……. he likes you sooooo much but he just can’t be Normal about it . i love his dumbass too we’re all in this together i fear 😞😞
#NEED TO SHARE A HOTEL ROOM W SATORU GOJO PLEASE GODDD WHEN IS IT MY TURN#logan have i mentioned that i love u <33 that u make me insane <3333#this made me miss him more :(((#IM MANIFESTING HIS RETURN NEXT WEEK THOUGH never back down never what….#ask tag ✩#logan !! ✩
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ok long ramble up ahead — tw kinda gorey descriptions, eye stuff
so i have what i call ‘solo’ ocs - which are ocs that i created without a story (at first at least) and they don’t really have a fleshed out cast of supporting characters and ive been sooooo obsessed with them lately so here’s what tarot cards i think fit them best and what the designs of them on those cards would be
Devil’s Advocate (D.A.) / Daisy as The Devil - okay this fits too easily but you must also know that she’s a LAWYER. and i decided that The Devil fit better than Justice. why - other than the fact that she just is a devil, one of the meanings attributed to the card (from a quick search) is shadow selves and Daisy’s thing is all about how she’s escaping all the expectations and the image of this ‘sweet, innocent’ little girl who can’t be taken seriously, to instead be this free devil, when everyone thinks the old Daisy is dead. some of the other meaning (especially the reverse ones) also kinda fit too !!
but ANYWAY onto the design of the card : she’s (of course) the devil and i imagine her leaning on the judge’s stand very lazily. she’s in this classy angular suit and has grey skin and fire hair billowing up. her sharp teeth are bared in a grin and she’s a got a hand with pointed claws gestured up beside her. on one side of her is the shadowy figure of the prosecutor (yeahhh she’s an attorney), who is much smaller than her on the card, and on the other side are the reporters (also shadowy figures, also small. chains are connected to each, held in her hand. the courtroom behind her is barely lit, as though at dusk, her fire being the brightest thing in there. shadow-people line the walls like in pews - they’re the jury. the way the little bit of light is scattered around the room and through the window makes it seem like there’s a stained glass window behind her and it’s a cathedral. you may see a glimpse of the bright, human daisy. behind her in the light
Shrike as Justice - and HERES a character that fits Justice SOOOO extremely well. and shrike is all about 1) hunger, and of much more relevance, 2) vengeance. she is LITERALLY eye for an eye..
I imagine Shrike emerging from her basement prison, dirtied and bloodied and cast in a heavy shadow. she’s dressed in a very dirty, very bloody, brown butcher’s apron, trousers and linen shirt. on one side she is missing an eye, a dark gorey cavity left instead, her face also heavily scarred on that side, but a shrike’s wing is extended in its full beautiful glory. on her other side, there is an eye, looking dead on and murderous, but her wing on that side is torn in half, sinew flesh and bone pressing out from sparse ruffled feathers. she is holding a knobbly cane that’s pretty much just a stick on the side of her bad eye, and she holding a massive, menacing axe on the side of her bad wing. blah blah all of these im making metaphors for vengeance and justice blah blah
AND FINALLLYYYY Sunada as Strength - my newest oc !! and her whole thing is being strong in all senses of the word and having influence. she is also incredibly intimidating but that may be less relevant lmao
the beast most associated with her is the phoenix, so in this i imagine she’s wrestling a phoenix. and i MEAN wrestling. they are brawling - she is pinning it to the ground and wrenching its beak open. Sunada is at a side profile and her black hair falls in curtains in the far side of her face. she is determined as she stares down the phoenix. she’s dressed in dress trousers, a blazer hanging half-off, and a shirt that’s loosely tucked and half unbuttoned. she has a bulky, top heavy build and is SOO butch it’s unbelievable. the embers and feathers of the phoenix fly everywhere and the card is so so red.
anyways yeah im so normal about them. D.A. I made a while back and i haven’t really revisited but i still love her so much while the other two are a LOT more recent and im still actively thinking about them… sighhh badass women save me
this is SO cool i LOVE tarot card imagery. youve put so much thought into this its super cool!!!
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Love for Love's Sake EP 6 reaction
Ok confession time: I may have blazed through eps 3-5 because it was too good... may form coherent thoughts about those later
sooooo they kissedddd and they continue to be sooo damn cuteee
look at his pouttt my babyyyyy
no words just ☆*: .。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆
man was speechless lol
one nom and he's gone
not a huge ass sunflower 😭😭 look how excited he is to give it to him
im guessing it's gonna be something like train to busan
nooooooo that movie made him cry. i was right..... train to busan made me bawl my eyes out
how fitting, because he too is like an alien to this world
although he doesn't save the world he is saving his world (wow that was cheesy)
lmao now he's insta famous
bestie.... do you not know him at all?
seee? what did i tell you????
now all your friends know you're a simp
i may or may not be shipping these two more than i thought i would
ok.... why do i feel like these texts are from someone in his real universe
WHAT JUST HAPPENED???? IT WAS LIKE THE GAME GLITCHED... SOMEONE TELL HEADQUARTERS TO GET BETTER SERVERS I DO NOT WANT HIM TO GO BACK NOW
NO WAY ??!??!?! IN NO UNIVERSE DID I TAG HIM FOR A JEALOUS TYPE
IN FRONT OF THEIR SALADS?!!?! REALLY
wait i was just joking about the server error... F U C K
THIS IS THE ASPECT RATIO OF THE REAL WORLD- WHY DID IT CHANGE
oh it's back to normal..... guess it was just a creative decision?
or maybe he was just gay and didn't know yet??
oh no baby... is he scared the same would happen to his current relationship too?
no.... not grandma this is so sick and twisted
THIS GAME HAS STARTED TO FEEL LESS LIKE A DATING SIMULATOR AND MORE LIKE A HORROR GAME
ALSO ONE DAY TO CHOOSE BETWEEN YOUR LOVER AND YOUR GRANDMA?!/!? I WOULD HAVE CHOSEN TO JUMP OFF THE HOSPITAL BUILDING
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Does Jeff ever miss his little brother? Does he know he's alive?? And how would he react to seeing his baby brother?
not going to structure this like my normal posts since this might be more rambly but but!!
tackling the first question first: my personal interpretation of jeff is still standard to what you would expect from many other interpretations (at least.... i think so... i must admit i havent interacted much with the fandom since the 2010s sooooo... not sure if it stills holds to any present day hcs!)... you know, arrogant immature and full of himself, just about still as unhinged as before... but i like to think that every now and then he has moments where hes just. normal. well not normal normal, definitely not going to get there anytime soon especially given that in my au hes on the run and bouncing around. cant really receive any mental help when youre hiding from authorities.. getting back to the topic, these moments are few and far between and its in a weird way, him reminiscing on how things used to be. i fully blame this on a fic i read in middle school, that literally shifted how i view some crp characters (shrugs)... but yes, i think in those moments he would miss him. a lot. those small pockets generating enough guilt to get him to slow down and think over everything that's happened since then. i think it would send him in a short little moment of depression, actually. at least as long as hes alone and by himself where hes left with his thoughts. again, these moments dont come often nor do they last for long. slaps that man with mental clarity
second question! at least within the context of my hcs and au! i dont think he would know unless he stumbled upon him! though imma be real ive considered making liu... dead in my au since i never got into his lore and stuff but who knows.. maybe hes out there doing his own thing while jeffs over here doing his own stuff.. but as far as jeff is aware, liu is deceased
third question: i think it would be a mix of emotions! i think it fully depends on jeffs current mental state that will determine his reaction. theres so many factors that can go into this too; is liu trying to get revenge? was jeff going to kill him before realizing who he was chasing? do they just casually run into one another? loads of possible scenarios, really! but as i said, i never got too into lius lore so im unsure which is most in character for him. i feel if jeff is having one of his moments mentioned above i think he might try to apologize and make it up to his brother... might be totally crushed when he receives no forgiveness (rightfully, in my opinion).. or maybe he'll try to act buddy buddy with his brother, like nothings changed (i can see this being more likely when jeff is just. being jeff).. though i dont think any real connection can be made between these two anymore... though reading through lius wiki, its said somewhere that liu forgives him.. so maybe theres an understanding between the two, but still no connection. peaceful parting, you know? many ideas many thoughts, im just unqualified to build on them at the moment due to not knowing much of liu
#creepypasta au#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta imagine#jeff the killer imagine#jeff the killer headcanon
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crying, shaved ice, volcano, mouse trap, droplet and cloud for valentina, venus and/or vernon!! <3 (also your oc page looks AMAZING)
OLI THANK YOU!!!!! i decided to spin the wheel and assign two emojis for all of them so the order is gonna be a little messed up but i got it 🫡 and thank you for the compliment on my oc page!!! :"0 it took me so damn long to do but im sooooo proud and happy with the final result!!
edit - oh my GOD i had this answered for so long and it was never published because it was sent to my drafts instead 😭? so i deeply apologize for the late response oli omfg...
oc emoji asks!
🪤 MOUSE TRAP - what will always lure them into certain danger? a loved one in danger? a promise of something they are always searching for? (valentina)
god both of those honestly… she is very protective of her loved ones and is willing to do anything to keep them safe ANDDDD she is always looking for a way to save herself from the relic (but also valentina wants so badly for johnny to be saved too, she has grown attached to him :/)
☁️ CLOUD - a soft headcanon (valentina)
once valentina started getting more uppity and well known in night city ($$$$$), she was able to help joss pay off randy’s medical bills and also helped joss re-enroll randy into school so he could graduate (also because she’s extra, she has delamain pick up and drop off all the kutcher kids at their respective schools so joss can go to work without worrying about getting them to and from school!) :’) valentina loves river’s family so much and she wants to let them live normal lives again after what happened with randy because she still has nightmares (as does river) about what she saw on that farm, so she can only imagine how bad it must be for randy ❤️🩹
😭 CRYING - what makes them cry? do they cry easily? (venus)
it takes a lot to make venus cry tbh but the one thing that does make her cry is a cat, she loves cats SO much… she gets so emotional seeing cats on the street and likes to think in another life, she ran a rescue for kitties ☹️ so instead, while she was employed by arasaka, she would make a monthly donation to animal shelters around night city to help them with any surgeries or care they might need!!
🍧 SHAVED ICE - do they still have any objects from their childhood? what significance does it have to them? what would their reaction be if they lost it? (venus)
she had a plushie her parents got for her before she was even born that she kept for most of her life and she took it with her EVERYWHEREEE truly one of her best friends... but when she moved out, she gave it to her grandmother for save keeping. but after her removal by arasaka, her whole family basically shunned her no matter how hard she tried to tell them otherwise, so even thinking about the small little pearlescent dragon brings back painful memories for her :(
🌋 VOLCANO - how bad is their temper? is it a slow boil, or a instant explosion? (vernon)
vernon has a very mild temper, it takes a LOTTTTT to get him mad omg so definitely a slow boil!!
💧 DROPLET - random angst headcanon (vernon)
vernon is a nomad because he has basically lost every family he has known (his biological one, his adoptive one, etc.). vernon was given up for adoption as a baby by a couple who were unable to give him the life he deserved, so a close friend of his mother promised to raise him as their own. his nomad family was part of a small clan, removed from the seven nations that inhabit the NUSA and were located north were modern day vegas is. he grew up happy until he was about 18 when he was off working a seasonal job at some biotechnica plant, after the season was over, he returned to find his whole clan had basically been slaughtered, only a few members remained who were also returning from their seasonal jobs. so vernon and the remaining nomads gathered what they could of their family to honor them and eventually joined the bakkers which is where his story starts at the beginning of cyberpunk!!! (damn sorry for that long ass dissertation 💀)
#i had sooooo much fun with these omg thank you again!!!!!#(i cannot believe this was hidden in drafts for nearly a month im so sorry 😭)#oc: valentina#oc: venus#oc: vincent#oc asks
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hello hi!! it is me again!! finished my bropunzeling doubleheader and ahgggghh hhhh!!!!!! i swear to god the payoff in only fools rush in is so good it made me see STARS . i loved it so much oh my god. i’m obsessed with matthew the sort of unreliable narrator who cannot for the life of him figure out that leon is so down bad it makes him look stupid. the spain chapter !!!!!!!!!!!!! just sooooo good!!!!!! it’s been a while since i’ve reread girl!leon (my beloved) and one thing i do remember vividly is how much i loved the sicily chapter, where she’s pining so bad. idk there’s something about them on vacation that hits different . maybe it’s because it’s july but maybe not who knows. the portrayal of the loneliness matthew feels and the moving across the continent about it felt so real to me (and relatable. ouchie!!)
also. the porn. the feelings that are expressed through it. that is so well done and so hard to come by? like the way they express their affection through it is phenomenal. gagged me fr i’m going to be thinking about it for a while
there’s one bit that made me go insane fr fr. near the end, when they’re in leon’s hotel room and they’re finally resolving:
“I do," he says. His voice is shaking, from fear or nerves or adrenaline or the hope that's threatening to consume him. It akes all of his courage to uproot himself, to make himself move wards Leon. To take that last, final step, until he and Leon are almost touching. Are close enough that Matthew can feel Leon's sody heat, can see the lines around his eyes, can smell hotel shampoo and skin. "I do want it."
i don’t know if the narration break (i don’t know the right word for it) between “i do” and “i do want it” done on purpose as in the wedding vows i dos but anyways it made me go CRAZY. JUST AHHHHHHHH SICK SICKKKKKKK. genuinely made me glad i have eyeballs and a brain. GOD.
anyways. i do still believe you are akin to jane austen . i love you and i am going to read the matty/shane fic i had put off (bc i don’t really know them) with an open heart and full trust. i love you and u live your writing <33333333333 hope your pillow is cool on both sides tonight <3
anon it is potentially indulgent to publish this but i dont want to lose it in my inbox!!!! im kissing you on the mouth!!!! ty for being so kind! especially since i've been feeling less creative than the past few years (which, tbh..... the output of the past two years were deeply unsustainable 💀) and the current wip is going slow. ur timing is so wonderful. thank you!!!! it amazes me every day that people like, really like these things that i write.
also not to take as an excuse to babble but i DO think there is something generally when writing a romantic fic where taking ur characters and sticking them somewhere outside their normal circumstances they're better able to get to those deeper feelings? like, being away from "reality" of rivalry or hate or what have you allows to like, tap into those big big emotions. this is why i love writing vacation scenes. i cannot be stopped.
anyway ty so much, what a nice start to the day, i hope you enjoy shane and matty!!!!! they're nice boys!!!!
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