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captainimprobable · 11 months

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It's almost the anniversary of Ezra's murder and it is so scary to know that there are people (people with over one million followers, and my former friends) praising his murderers. His murderer proclaimed in court that he killed Ezra because it was his birthday, and for his birthday he wanted to kill Jews. On that same day, in the same courtroom, his murderer's mother stood up and proclaimed that she was so proud of her son. Ezra should have just turned 26 this month. He'll be eighteen forever because of Hamas. But Jewish lives don't matter to yall at all. You want Israel to stop murdering civilians in Gaza? YEAH. ME TOO. That's not an act of defense. But to say that Israel shouldn't defend itself at all, that Israel should just step back and let hamas do its thing, because Israelis are just colonizers and their lives shouldn't matter? I wish you the heartiest of all fuck yous. I remember Ezra's funeral. I still have a recording somewhere of him wishing me a happy birthday in 2015. He was shot in the head on a school trip. Along with Ezra, another Jew and a Palestinian were killed in the shooting. Ezra's roommate, a boy who JUST turned 18, had to use his sweatshirt to try to stop the bleeding, but he was already gone.

It is a complete disgrace to Ezra's memory to downplay or PRAISE the terrorist organization that produced the man who murdered him.

But hey, they're just murdering evil colonizers, so it's fine!!!!!! I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you

#jaytp #im shaking #there are tears in my eyes #im so tired im so mad im so scared #he should have turned 26 #he should have been around for his sisters wedding #and for the baby being born #but instead the baby is named after him bc he was fucking KILLED

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oneroomjestershow · 8 months

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Inspired by THISSSS post that made a lot of sense and made my brain shake so hard it melted, i wanted to try to assign my angel's favorites so i put them together!

thinking that Ren could make friends with pokemon... one can just dream.,.. they're a menace

#14 days with you #14dwy ren #14dwy redacted #14dwy oc #me mad bc there was not space for me to write <- my brother in christ you made the space??? half cooked its ok #in all honesty i don't know much about these little guys i just did research bc i was curious and it sounds fun and friendship yyeeyy #hope nobody minds the disproportion of heights or tries to make sense of the weights my mind it's already beating itself with that #WHY ARE THE LITTLE GUYS SO BIG AND HEAVY i mean it makes sense but #i just wanted to draw and my brain got fried thinking about making sense of the compositions with the data i was searching #and i just got tired thinking about 4 and i wanted to do moreee aaughhf #like Vi's pokemon having a theme of elegance and whimsy with strenght or Leon with themes of strenght to protect and keeping #an eye on what they care for and taking pride on it and Moth with their cool bugcore team and Elanor chilling with company #im getting too conscious the rush of finishing this is dissipating just post it just do it you ca #okback to my enclosure 🍖#i waited 2 days bc i got scared hiii goodnighhhtt

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persy-r-bozo · 1 month

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Jazzercise.

#I was gonna add red and yellow in the back but i realized they'd never do this lmao.#Red would be too lazy and tired. and i feel yellow would join in but get distrscted then do his own thing. then duck would get mad bout it.#“YOUR DOING IT WRONG! YOU HAVE TO STRETCH AND DANCE THE WAY THEY DO IT!”#somethin around that line.#so i did the other two duck colors we've seen!. the red one and the bigger boys color.#dhmis #dhmis duck #digital art #dhmis fanart #drawing #dont hug me im shit posting #dont hug me i'm scared #dont hug me im scared

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deoidesign · 6 months

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I'm sorry if what I say is wrong in any way, I don't mean to offend you, it's just something I'm not completely sure about. Does Adam use he/they or they/them pronouns? I think I saw a post of yours where you said that Adam uses he/they, but it was a while ago and now I'm not completely sure (and I don't want to use the wrong pronouns)

I know you don't mean anything by it, but I am sad that so many of the asks I get start with people saying "I'm sorry, I don't want to offend you" or some variation thereof, followed by completely normal questions. I think I may have been responding too harshly to too many things and given the impression that I'll jump at people for being wrong...

But asking clarifying questions is always okay. I mean, it's also okay to be wrong and even offensive. What matters is if you learn from it when someone points out that it was wrong or offensive. I won't stop telling people they're saying something hurtful if they are, but I don't want that to lead people to be scared of me or something.

Correcting people is always just about correcting them, not hurting them. It's okay to need to be corrected, were all learning new things every day.

Anyways Adam uses he/they, you remembered correctly

#i dont like when people pry about personal things #especially not when it's accusatory. I'm admittedly sensitive to a lifetime of people denying my identity #people saying i dont count as bi. or nonbinary. or disabled.#and so i tend to take questions around these as people trying to 'sus me out' as a fake or something...#and I'm always going to try to explain. generally gently... how these things are hurtful to me personally #or in the case of my characters how certain things can (in my opinion) be harmful mindsets to have #but i dont carry them with me and im not mad #im just 26 and kinda tired of making myself small to make other people more comfortable.#so. if im uncomfortable ill just say jt!#and ill do my best to explain why so people can maybe learn from it #but as someone who. i talked about this recently elsewhere. as someone who has anger management issues #and unfortunately has had to deal with people i care deeply about being scared of me...#it just makes me sad to see anons being scared of me.#that's all #im not upset or anything. just trying to be a better person.#I'm learning everyday too #asks #anon

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bea-beast2007 · 6 months

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Victorias from a month ago

#oc x canon #Pim Pimling #THATS THE ONLY TAG IM GONNA TAG THIS WITH IM SORRY #IM CRINGE BUT FREE BUT IM ALSO SCARED OF BEING PERCEIVED #demon oc #context to the second one is that the date didn’t go so well. she’s not mad at him just tired

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w3t-c4t · 8 months

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AAAAGHHHHH

Vent in tags.

#IM SO SICK OF THIS THIS SHIT #I TRY AND TRY AND TRY BUT NO MATTER WHAT I DONI CANT LOSE #IM SO FUCKING MAD #IM GONNA START STARVING AT THIS POINT I DONT CARE #IM UPSET I DON'T HAVE A GAG REFLEX #IM MAD I CAN'T PURGE #GIRLS CAN EAT ALL THEY WANT AND IM STUCK HERE TRACKING EVERYTHING AND IM SCARED TO EAT #I HAVE 5 #FIVE MOTHER FUCKING APPS SO I CAN TRACK MY SHIT #IM SO TIRED OF THIS #IM TIRED #FUCKING K!LL M3 #I HATE MY BODY SM PLEASE JUST K1LL M3 #cw body image #cw vent #shut up cat

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ghastbutlikegay · 15 days

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dudes ive hit a point with The Horrors:tm: where im unable to convince myself that any of my friends actually like me

#vent #it's like. i think im a pretty solid guy #my negative traits dont define my view of myself etc #i understand that if someone doesnt ike me it doesnt mean im horible etc #but like. i am unable to believe that anyone wants to be around me #even if someone explicitly says they want to talk to me/want to hang out/enjoy my presence #im like hmm. well. sounds fake.#and again it's not like i think im an unlovable piece of shit or something #i just dont think anyone is being honest with me #like i rarely notice hints or subtext or passive aggression when people talk to me #but im simultaneously excessively sensitive and will be like 'wait do they hate me now' if someone sends like an all lowercase one word tex #because it's like. oh no what if they actually ARE hinting that they dont like me. etc #most of the time when i get 'god shut the fuck up' vibes theres not actually anything wrong #BUT because theres been so many times that i MISSED the 'god shut the fuck up' vibes #i automatically assume everyone is mad at me/doesnt like me/doesnt want t talk.#even trying to say 'usually im wrong about people being mad' is extremely difficult #bc im like. fully convinced ive been right every time #and that everyone has just been lying t me #this has been a thing since like. age 14+ for me #but lately it's gotten worse #and like im scared to even dm a friend a meme because they might be mad (they literally sent me a song rec earlier. i have no reason to #assume theyre mad. except when i got the messages i was like 'oh no what if this has a hidden meaning')#it's one of those things where like. my anxiety medication works really well #but this is the flavor of anxiety thats inspired by past experiences #s even if i try to tell myself there arent any signs that theyre mad/annoyed/whatever #i immediately think 'but ive been wrong before.'#and then that same loop stops me from asking. because asking either annoys people or they lie to me about it #idk idk idk im tired #even if i did ask i wouldnt believe any answer other than 'yes im mad/annoyed/whatever'#including if they add 'i just need to be alone right now' or 'yes but not at you' or 'yes and i need to cool off'

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ableedingpromise · 28 days

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This isn't fair at all

#why cant anyone like me #what did i do #why is everyone always mad at me or why do they pity me or pretned i dont exost or just use .e why cant i be of any real worth to anhone in #this wolrd #i really feel so scared i feel lime a kif again it hurts so much what did i do wrong #i really feel like a scared little kid #im just tired

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glacierbash · 10 months

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thinking about that one post about "he's a girl to me" or whatever. and that has me thinking about heavensward so much. and also stormblood! kinda just ffxiv in general but I feel the later expansions have this issue less but ESPECIALLY like. estinien, aymeric, and zenos when compared to the actual women in the expansion. it feels to me like the women of the expansion are by and far overlooked by people for the sake of the men and that general "he's so girl to me" contributes to it. Like there ARE women right there you know. like there are very very very good women just a few feet to the left. you can talk about how girlie estinien is to you but like. ysayle is right there. you can talk about how babygirl zenos is but also. there's fordola. you know that right. like you can enjoy the women too. it's ok.

and ofc genuine actual transfem headcanons are SO fucking good. I love them so much. keep going. But like that post has said, when it's only men in the fandom being treated as "he's so girl" (AND NEVER WOMAN!!!! ALWAYS GIRL!!!!!) it gets really really fucking tiring.

i love estinien! I really like Zenos! I get it! And if they are your favorite characters and you want specifically content about them and to make content specifically about them that is FINE!! but also, holy shit is it exhausting when it's like 99% about them and not a single glimpse towards the women of the story. yeah ffxiv's writing has a huuuuuuge fucking issue with women. and also.

#i dunno it's hard to write something ranty like this without it feeling like #i'm bashing people for their faves. i'm not!!!#im just a really fucking tired lesbian who wants to see women get content #and not just the men of the media with the excuse 'he's so girlie to me' or WHATEVER!!!!#please for the love of god like. it almost feels like people are scared to hc characters as trans.#and if you don't want to who CARES but also come on. come on do it. your faves are trans now. enjoy.#anyways. sorry for the rant. bleh.#I'M JUST MAD WHEN THERE ARE SUPER WELL WRITTEN WOMEN 20 FEET TO THE LEFT WHO GET ENTIRELY IGNOREDDDDDD #ok. 'super well written' is sometimes an exaggeration. and fuck it i'll admit it. MY babygirl has her issues.#you can really feel the pivot where they were like 'oh fuck we don't want her to be a VILLAIN villain what do we do'#'we already had her evil cackle at ish/gard being assaulted and people dying. what now.'#and her death. i've screamed about it enough.#but my point stands she's still just as solid as the other characters. give her some love.#ok. that's all. rant over.

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bare1ythere · 11 months

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I was trying to clean my keyboard because I realized that I had not cleaned under the keys even once in the almost 10 years I've had this computer and I took a couple keys off and then realized I couldn't get them back on. I can't figure it out no matter how hard I tried and the whole time I was just terrified that my parents would be mad at me. I don't think I've felt that in a while

#shut up me #as a uni student who lives far from home I just havent had that kind of fear in years but I was so scared #Yknow that ''I did the thing they told me not to do and it went wrong and I cant fix it''#''I need to ask for help but that requires admitting i did something very stupid and theyre going to be upset''#that + the stress I've been under lately and when I called my dad to ask him to help me I just burst into tears #in the end its okay. he wasnt mad #he actually said that it was about time we got a new laptop for me anyways and that when i went home in a few weeks i could get one #as a birthday present in advance #so all in all. its more than okay #so I dont know why im still crying #I think I just need to be put in a box and left alone in an attic for a while. im so tired

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placeinthisworld · 7 months

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it’s almost peak

#personal #i’m so anxious i could throw up but i won’t!!! im being so brave!!!!!!#i’m so scared!! i just want to do a good job but i can’t do a good job under these circumstances!!!!!!!#yall this week has been absolutely wild i’m so tired im already 50+ hours deep at this fucking store #WITH ALMOST NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT AJDJJSJDJDNSJ IM SO MAD

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arcadequeerz · 6 months

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the fact that people in power in this country care more about acting as if queer people are any risk at all to kids, instead of how often school shootings happen- makes me sick.

#the fact that kids can be scared to go to school because of: some random person coming with a gun #or that kids are scared to go to school for being bullied for who they are-#or scared of the adults that run it-#byt yeah lets go after the queer people who are just fighting to fucking live. who just want kids to know #that its ok to be who they are n its ok to be proud about it.#lets take resources away from kids who need it.#i'm so fucking tired of this country man. they dont care how many queer kids die- they dont care how many suffer #they dont give a shit about any child queer or not #this country fails us time n time again n then people act like we need to be so grateful for it #idk if i worded this well. rbs off because im just mad. and upset.#i want queer kids to be able to find joy in who they are with out fear. i want there to be places they can find #answers- i want them to be fucking safe.

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kinetic-elaboration · 8 months

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The university decided that the weather was bad enough that they should encourage us to go home early but not so bad they'd close the whole thing down (why not? because they're stingy fucking bastards is why not classes aren't even in session, every school in the area closed early, and it's a period of like... 2-3 hours at issue), and I'd already submitted my time sheet because I'm a responsible employee, so my supervisor said she'd send it back to me and I could edit it--because again I have to use leave even though I left early because it was literally a fucking rain and wind shit show out there and not just for fun--but she still hasn't. And I'm so tired. My whole body hurts. I just can't handle this anymore. I need a nap. But I can't nap because I have to fix my fucking time sheet which is due in 20 minutes but I can't edit it because it hasn't been kicked back to me and I hurt so much.

I feel like I should wait it out to six and then figure whelp she forgot and it's too late now, deadline passed and then just put my measly fucking 90 minutes of leave on my next time sheet even though I should have just been given the time because you know what we're all gonna die eventually and this is the stupidest FUCKING shit to be nickel and diming people on. WHO CARES WHO CARES WHO CARES if I'm paid for a whole day when I went home 90 minutes early. You literally already own my whole soul.

#i want to cry #i dont know how many more long hard days i can take to be quite honest here #to delete #im kind of mad at how much of a waste of my time this is #like i can't do anything because i'm so tired but i can't sleep either #i dont even want to sleep i'm scared to sleep and fuck up my whole schedule but i also want to stop hurting #i'm so tired i'm so tired i'm so tired

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howlingdemon13 · 11 months

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I do not know how I could possibly be the result of my parents…

#im so fucking mad guys #I cannot fathom the lack of compassion these two humans have #oh wait…#*sits there in i had to unlearn almost two decades of indoctrination and mental abuse*#just… fuck man im so tired…#i just want to believe that deep down they’re capable of being decent #i know I am not my parents #but it makes me so scared that i could fall into that mindset #i know that’s irrational to think #but that doesn’t make the fear go away #i just want people to be good #i can’t stand being surrounded by so much needless suffering #and people who don’t care because those suffering are somehow responsible for the horrible things being done to them #i want to cry #vent #might delete later

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piesa2 · 10 months

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just very very frustrated about everything today

#wishing i wasnt so stressed all the time these days #more mad about the year long wait time to even just get an intake appointment for looking into adhd than i let myself be at first #its not even because of the organisation nope! its my healthcare #there has to be something to be fixed it cant all just be this anger and frustration and sadness and exhaustion #little bit scared that i’ll sink into what happened last year again but im really tired #sorry #vent post

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ankhisms · 11 months

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every day i am fighting for my life against myself in my brain

#always feel like that one my girl is mad at me i should kill myself tweet except i dont even have a girl its just my brain #trying to convince me for the 10th time in a single week that everyone i know and love hates me or is annoyed with me or doesnt want me #around etc etc but im also like. painfully aware that i think part of why my one ex close friend just cut me off without any #explanation is because i struggle with paranoia and obsessive spirals. and he got away from his abusive parents and into a #sort of better environment and got tired of me struggling so now im scared of other people deciding theyre tired of me struggling w this #anyway. its fine im just musing on things

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