#im so sorry i wont shut up

[cosmicharm]

So I got the itch the other day when I saw avaritia-ffxiv's and captainqster's shards of Gia and Ilya from the 1st and decided to rotate how Odile's shard would be in that setting.

Then vmbral kindly reminded me that Angoul's shard would have died on the 1st, and he would be a voidsent on the 13th. Aaand it would have happened the other way around for Odile: her shard would have died in the 13th and she would have survived a terrible light intoxication/disease in the 1st, causing her forever blindness. In other words, the excess of light in her aether would have burned her eyes out. Literally.

Turns out (voidsent) Angoul would recognize Odile-from-the-1st's aether so... Yeah. Odile is a Reaper in the 1st with Angoul as her voidsent-avatar. I am screeching.

She has no name yet, but her design instantly clicked with me. I did not need much time to think about how she would look: let's say I'm a sucker for characters with white/silvery hair, and I was looking forward to having a version of Odile that would look like that.

Bonus pics with the Nier blindfold because it looks RAD.

[mohntilyet]

still i think the one of the more fun differences drawn between illario and lucanis that was lost would be illario's ability to endear himself to others but serious lack of empathy, vs. lucanis' (self perceived) inability to be charming but how much he cares. it's interesting that the game has gone with the "lucanis' ability vs illario's lack thereof" because i think illario being the dellamorte 'best in show dog' vs. lucanis' attack dog would have made me so unwell.

lucanis is... awkward. he's not unlikable, because he is usually very polite, but he doesn't speak much and only seems to care about the other dellamortes. he once sent viago de riva a knife with no note (who knows what he could have meant by this). he does what caterina asks of him, and by his own admission, cannot say no to her. he is a dramatic and prolific killer, and that makes how untouchable he is even worse.

and the crows like illario, sure, AND he's a good assassin! he's even a good crow! he's so good that he can make lucanis smile, and so he is the charming, sociable one. he's the one that stays in treviso and can be relied upon to care, illario's even the one people prefer over caterina and lucanis!

but illario is decoration. he's the prize poodle, and even if poodles were bred to be working dogs, nobody will ever pick him to protect the house over the german shepherd that regularly mauls intruders. anyways the analogy is getting away from me. the point i'm trying to make is that i want illario to have a different kind of jealousy/hatred that's not just over 'being bad at killing' but also an arrogant loathing for everyone around him that is getting harder to hide, because they've forgotten he can bite and is just itching to rip someone's jugular out. illario is very good at hiding his family resemblance to caterina, while lucanis suffers under his grandmother's, and his own, reputation.

[hg-aneh]

HI!!

so this post of yours got me thinkibg:

And I found a whole entire AMAZING FIC LIKE ITS SO GOOD 👌 where that’s the plot

idk if you can see the link but if not, it’s called Factory Settings on A03 so if your interested please give it a look I BEG

it’s legitimately so good

Oh, I've been reading it, it's currently in my bookmarks actually, and it's pretty lovely

but I thiiiink that fic has Crowley turn back into Twinkliel instead of having them both exist at the same time, which is what my idea was skbfs

I know there's a similar fic to that that was written before s2 came out where Crowley gets split into his demonic and angelic halves (find it here), buuut this isn't what this is either

Think of it as Aziraphale accidentally making a new Twinkliel out of an older record of Crowley in the Book of Life

Like restoring a file

The point here being that they're not the same person, Twinkliel's name was,,, lets say "smudged", and on top of it, Crowley's was written.

Aziraphale tried miracling the "smudge" to combine with Crowley's current name but he ended up separating them and making Twinkiel part 2 electric boogaloo

Crowley's still the same (aka still has memories of his fall and life as an angel) because his current name encompasses those experiences already

If you're an artist you can see this as restoring an older, unfinished version of a piece in paint tool sai whilst still having the finished piece file open in another tab

[flea-palace]

real?

[cheekinpermission]

TWST Ask Game!!

General

1. Who's hand did you first grab? Why? Would you choose someone else if you could do it over again?

2. Who is on your homescreen?

3. What does your guest room look like?

4. Who is on your main team?

5. If you could have any unique magic / signature spell in the game, which would you choose and why?

6. First SSR? Most recent SSR?

7. Is there an SSR you really wanted but never got?

8. Is there any character who seems to follow you (i.e. they always seem to pop up when you're trying to summon someone else)?

9. What changes would you like to see implemented in the game?

Favorites and Least Favorites

10. Top five favorite characters?

11. Favorite character from each dorm?

12. Least favorite character from each dorm? 13. Favorite NRC staff member? 14. Favorite non-NRC character? 15. Favorite dorm?

16. Favorite character design?

17. Favorite overblot design?

18. Favorite dorm uniform?

19. Favorite event?

20. Favorite book from the main story?

21. Favorite R card that you own? Favorite SR? Favorite SSR?

22. Favorite relationships? (Romantic or platonic!!)

Personal

23. Which dorm would you be sorted into? 24. Which character(s) would you get along with the most? 25. Which character(s) would you actively avoid? 26. When did you start playing TWST? 27. What drew you into TWST? What made you stay? 28. What is the TWST related content that you've produced that you are most proud of?

Wild Card

29. What is your opinion on [any character you like!] 30. Make up your own question!

[incorrect-riordanverse]

lets go live reaction of the pjo trailer:

just clicked on it and theres an epic version of riptide playing. i feel unreal.

[isa-ah]

the exhausting slog of listening to anecdotal horror stories where rednecks are continually villified even if they dont do anything. "he was just so creepy... one of those fat mullet redneck types" ok and? ok and? and? ok? and the premise of the story is he smiled at you in passing? ok? and? there was one by someone who lived in the same kind of area i grew up but they were very proud to say they were middle class so you can imagine how many digs they took at the broke people around them that are systemically left to rot by the government. wow he only had two teeth? and theyre brown? are you going to step down out of your gold plated horse drawn carriage to pay for this man to go to a dentist? bc he sure as fuck couldnt afford to even if he wanted to. oh that guys fat? hes fat AND he has a mullet? doesnt he know only skinny middle class gen z kids are allowed to have those? what a disgusting perv. dont even get me started on old men who, oh god. wear flannel and have a truck. jesus fucking christ put them down already

[ganondoodle]

honestly i dont know how many times i can keep trying to like and engage with things if they always end up disappointing me so badly i cant like what came before it anymore

im not trying to center this around me or something, but im having a hard time coping with arcane doing it too (to me)

few things can catch my attention and all interests in media i have ever had fumbled everything later so badly i often never want to see or think about it again

its happened with transformers (prime specifically, i think the ending of season2? i dont remember everything but after the fucking new guys show up and it killed my hyperfixation on it back in the day), one piece (stopped since whole cake island and anything new i see of it only makes it more clear i cant stand it anymore), zelda (ahah .. totk, fuck that game, basically killed my hyperfixation on the franchise and im only holding on for some projects and cool people i met through it), (edit; how could i forget fromsoft/elden ring and what the DLC did.....), arcane/league (arcane, lore retcons, and now its ending, but it happened before it turned into a hyperfixation so theres that bit of mercy lol) and those were only my super special hyperfixation ones i still clearly remember im sure im forgetting some, its happened with movies and other series i gave a try too (even mob psycho ... the series i thought couldnt disappoint me ...)

i feel so bad about it, i feel like i am somehow wrong to dislike or even hate how media goes, and bc it happens every time i feel like .. theres something wrong with me .. theres gotta be soemthing wrong with me right?.. i SWEAR i do NOT find joy in hating or disliking things, it is not fun for me, i hate hating things, especially when i once loved them, even if it may seem like there is nothing i can ever like i am NOT doign it on purpose, i feel the same, i feel like theres nothing i can ever just like, and i hate myself for it .. but also cant help it, i cant force myself to like thingsi dont either, i just want to rip my hair out and cry

[jehannedarce]

clara bow inspired maddie. she is my wife and i love her ive been a defender since DAY ONE since BEFORE DAY ONE and truth be told i almost stopped watching after her death #autism yeah man

[mcytegg]

btw for anyone wondering, the idea that the blindfold bandits would wanna invite or at least plan smt involving ro isnt a completely new thing, mane joked about ro being part of them and "not knowing yet" during zams stream on nov 9th 2024 :D

[wish-i-were-heather]

my mom literally cant accept that shes wrong 😭😭

[vvartitudevv]

hey hey hey, I have the prettiest and cutest and most beautiful gf in the world, and yes she's also gorgeous and angelic and stunning and--

[cosmicharm]

I don't want to know your name

I'll cut your throat all the same

[hg-aneh]

Hello I'm fan of your Good Omens Fanart and I just wanted to know if you are doing well <3 ??

And I wanted to say that your fanarts are amazing and I love them so much !

So good night, morning or afternoon bye :)

Heyyyy

Yeah well, I was a bit on edge from other things since before that ask and after it I kinda just ⚰️

I'm currently not doing well but it's not as bad as before, I think

Thank you for worrying though!

[silverislander]

i'm thiiiiis close to just blocking the whole j/v tag and/or the individual tags for both characters :)))

[hatefueled]

ohhhkay this is a long one, buckle up guys.

there was a scene in fur/iosa- that rlly made me think of boothill. the whole scene in fact really aligned with my take on him SO much.

" you crawled out of a pitiless grave, deeper than hell. and only one thing's gonna do that for you. and not hope. hate. no shame in hate. it's one of the great forces of nature. "

boots went from having everything in life he could ask for. he had a home, he had a loving family, a child. he had a good life, and he was happy. sure, there were plenty of hardships to deal with; bandits. but they were manageable, a fact of life. to suddenly nothing. his home wasn't just taken from him, it was destroyed. razed in an act of unnecessary violence, driven entirely by another man's greed. it happened so fast he couldn't do anything to stop it, or help the people caught in the crossfire.

he was devastated, his grief insurmountable. there was no time for him to mourn his loss, no time to process it. he had to go, move on before he lost his life too. so all he had to turn to was hate, and anger. and there was ( still is ) a lot of it.

but. something this movie really had me thinking about, was the aftermath. what would that confrontation be like. how would feel in the moment. and i think similar to fur/iosa he would be very cold and violent. and while i don't think he'd torture him or waste his time with that. i do think he would question him in a similar way. because he never got any closure on it, never was able to confront it.

" do you remember? "

i don't think oswaldo would remember- at least not the specifics. he wouldn't recall the people he killed, or the remainder of them who suffer to this day. i just don't think he'd care. the IPC, both sides of it, have shown time and time again to care very very little for anything that doesn't benefit them. and they lie and manipulate others to get what they want. it doesn't matter which department you work for.

boothill wants everything back. he wants his family, his home, his child. he wants everything he lost, returned to him. and it seems like a ridiculous demand. but it is a form of displaying very openly, very clearly- that there are consequences for the things oswaldo done. do enough bad, and it will catch up with you. get too comfy in your seat of power- and you're bound to get yours soon enough. boots is almost an embodiment of his hate, and his thirst for revenge.

and as far as characterizations go, i can't get too hopeful with hyv. but the way deme/ntus sort of brushes away her anger- sort of aligns with how i hc oswaldo being. i know it's easy to picture a big corporate asshole as a coward. but many of the higher ups in the IPC got where they are by being horrible people. by being cunning and ruthless and steadfast in everything they do. and i really think oswaldo would be much the same. he'd face boothill's hate with quips and remarks.

" brilliant. i'll be dead, and you'll still be sorrowing, your lovey dovey and your mommy magnificent. you idiot. you can never balance the scales of their suffering. "

and. that is unfortunately a very valid point. especially for someone like boothill who... has made his entire life a pursuit for revenge. because when all is said and done and he has the man dead at his feet- what's he got left? nothing. he would experience the worst burn out imaginable. i just don't see him bouncing back from all of that, not in a healthy way anyhow. it'd take years. and even if he did, he'd bury himself in more hate and more death- trying to tip those scales as hard as he can. to prevent more suffering at the cost of more suffering.

" you are me. already dead. to feel alive we seek sensation. any sensation to wash away the cranky black sorrow. it leaves us for a moment, but then it comes back, and we have to do it all again. and we need more, and each time we need more, until too much is never enough. "

and this is really where the similarities begin and end. they do have this in common. greed. boothill's "greed" though is seen entirely through his obsession. as well as his other coping mechanisms, all of which are extremely unhealthy.

i just love revenge stories, and i love when they're given layers upon layers of nuance and countless complexities. boothill has a lot of room for his story to be a narrative tragedy. a tale of revenge that doesn't really get true closure, or a happy ending. because revenge isn't pretty. it's brutal and violent often times. and other times, realistically, it doesn't get any kind of optimistic ending. regardless of what the outcome is, boothill will finally be forced to face his grief head on. he will have to revisit his trauma, and it is pretty hard to say whether or not he'd handle that very well. because he's always had his hunt to distract him.

do i think he would ever recover? sure. given time. but he isn't human anymore, and none of the above even covers that topic. the fact he gave up his own body to achieve his revenge. like that's... not a small thing. he will never be able to get that back, he'll be a cyborg for the rest of his life.