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Hatsune Miku (✿˶’◡’)♡
#my original sketch of this is so ugly#im so proud of this one right now#TV made in blender#clip studio paint#hatsune miku#miku#vocaloid#vocaloid art#miku art#hatsune miku fanart#vocaloid fanart#anime#illustration#character art#character design#miku monday#miku hatsune#anime fanart#anime illustration#art
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tumblr probably ate the quality. aNYWAY- here i am, inspired by the iron might suit. but i just drew it as if it were his regular hero suit.
#rubyart#mha#mha art#bnha#bnha art#all might#young might#iron might#toshinori yagi#yagi toshinori#gOD i love how i drew that one hand#i know you know which hand im talking about#also that drawing in the right corner has nothing to do with the hero suithehehahahaaha#tried to make this suit similar to his young age suit#im super duper proud of the armor shINE#the shading do be lazy though#rrRRRAAAHHH the shine looks so GOOD#so yeah#that's where i am right now lol#i love this man so much
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Puzzleshipping: "You gave me your heart, you know..." [Insp.]
❕ Please do not repost to any other sites ❕
#rts super duper appreciated on this one because. holy shit#this took me more than two weeks and i need other people to stare at it with me#it was so fun to do tho#a lot of work but i learned some fun tricks with gimp and stuff#and im like stupid fucking proud of this i wont even lie#im really glad i decided to try this trend because this is by far the best edit ive ever made#i wanna make more like this style i just need to find the right audios for it#i dont want to do dangerously yours audios all the time yknow?#but this was good for puzzle#ok ill shut up now#puzzleshipping#yugi mutou#yugi muto#atem#yami yugi#yugioh#ygo#my edits#devo speaks
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sudden doodles cause I’ve been rereading one piece…….again
#my sketches#one piece#roronoa zoro#monkey d. luffy#trafalgar law#every some years i draw them again and im like oh wow maybe i AM getting better at this whole drawing thing#my zoro finally looks good enough good news everyone high school me is so proud of current me right now
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starting castlevania while thinking really hard about that roleplay. hundreds injured. thousands dead.
#my brother compared k!schlarg to dracula One Time#and it was all over for me#really proud of this one actually c:#it is 3 am rn as im writing this so that might change#but right now. im like that baby cow yall like so much#dsmp#dsmp au#dsmp rp#dsmp fanart#jschlatt#c jschlatt#jschlatt fanart#dsmp jschlatt#tubbo#c tubbo#tubbo fanart#dsmp tubbo#my art
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Moomers comic masterpost
I just wanna link everything here chronologically at least
pilot ep. First forgotten meeting
About Lockers
Promise
Salmon Run ep
Hasa's team + Missing
Maya in Alterna
Quarrel
Agent 3s
Pike
Call
Rainy Fever dreams
The Climb in B-Rank
A Little Reading session
The 4th member
A-Rank
Hasa and Azure
Girls!!!
Red Squid Plush
Birthday Present
Maya
Team
Missed Calls
Recap + Hasa and Maya
Deep Fry
MY lockermate!
Hazard Level: MAYA?!
Two Squids at the Park
Iodine's Unrequited love
Friendly tussles
Cold Feet and Warm Hands
At Maya's Place
Soda Pop
Closer
To be updated
Doodles
Hasa meeting Lil' Peri
Maya's eventual team (earlier sketches)
WereCeph AU: 01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06
General doodles: 01, 02, 03,
Maya a week after turfing (comic)
Maya & Hasa when they were 18 + AU doodles
Team Love
Year End doodles (2023)
Hasa's New Math
References
Hasa and Maya's home (ACNH build)
Outfit refs
#moomers#splatoon Oc#splatoon 3#splatoon#Hasamaya#hasahasa#mayamaya#fancomics#OC comics#My god... I drew a lot...#it's hitting me now#For everyone else the wait is long#but for me#every other comic I finished before the next#feels like i just made yesterday#Time flies so fast guys#it's so crazy#im crazy!!!#im insane!!!!!#kinda proud of myself ngl tho#i MADE THIS MANY??? ALREADY??? JUST TO MAKE THEM KISS IN THE END????? (SPOILER) (yes they will)#I somehow i understand fanfiction writers now#maybe I'll go on a year long hiatus#will people yearn for me to come back? i wonder#IM SO TIRED THOO#COMIC MAKING IS TIRING AS FUCK#im never making another one after i finish all my drafts right now#im not that mentally ill#i will be normal again after this#my art
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but when they're out on that river bank alone, what javier should be loyal to doesn't feel as confusing anymore
#also known as 'he wants so badly to run away with his boyfriend and marry him and live happily ever#after'#but his commitment to dutch and the gang breaks his heart#i want them to be happy SO BAAAD SO BAD IM GOINGN TO THROW YP#also the top right one comes w a headcanon#which is that kieran can only bathe if javier is there (and only javier) because otherwise he's too terrified of being k*lled for either bei#ng trans or just in general because he's alone#so that's why he's usually stinky#he really hates being stinky but he doesn't consider it worth dying over#anyway i love them so bad and their little fishing dates#kieran infodumps the whole time and javier feels so lucky to be alive because he knows kieran doesn't talk around anyone else near as much#if at all#javier knows 99% of the fish knowledge but he never interrupts and is always happy to listen to kieran yap about every other topic too#i need to put javi in an 'i ❤️ my autistic boyfriend' shirt#ok i'll shut up now#also i know this composition looks like total shart i'm literally the worst at doing them </3 be nice to me#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#am i allowed to say that i own this ship#considering i literally made it LOL i feel so proud even tho it also makes me miserable that i bascially have no one to talk to abt them#image#art#hero draws sometimes
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the traveler, the star, and the fish
"why are there fish, nico?" you ask. well. lets jusr say. fish
sign that says id really appreciate reblogs of my art !!! /nf
#cat's rambles#cat's art#isat#isat siffrin#proud enough of it to put it in the sifrin tag . please dont regret this me#tw eyestrain#tw bright colors#i think those are the right tags yeah .#gonna ramble over here in the tags now#this was Originally a project for art class sigh#however i wanted to draw siffrin . n the theme was Fish today. so i added the fish#n then i made a poll and the consensus was to finish this!! so i did!!!#n im really glad i did :3 ive been trying out different styles of digital art recently and i gotta say i like this one. a lot#also the star shiningthing. im very very proud of that#pretty#i almost forgot sifs pin things sigh#is there meaning behind this you ask. well. maybe#okay yeah done talking in here. sign that says rb my art maybe#queue you
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Kintsugi
Y/N and Wade have been married for several years now, and Wade is feeling extra sappy when Y/N announces she's pregnant for the second time with a second little girl. Wade reminisces on how Y/N, a former scientist, was able to save Wade all those years ago from the biggest threat he ever had: himself.
Warning: Lewd language and talk about sex and pregnancy. Reader discretion is advised (this is a Deadpool x Reader...obviously this rating is Mature at minimum...)
The scientist eventually got dressed and went downstairs to search for some food, a little anxious about how she was supposed to tell Ellie about the fact she wasn't going to be an only child anymore. Wade and Y/N's daughter, Ellie, had just turned nine years old and the couple had decided now was a good a time as any to add a new face to the family.
Wade followed her downstairs, his bare feet padding against the floor. "Hey, peanut? You okay?" he asked, noticing her tension. He leaned against the counter, watching as she rummaged through the fridge. "You're thinking about how to break it to Ellie, aren't you?"
"I am, yeah." She nodded pensively, reaching into the fridge and grabbing the whipped cream. She squirted some into her mouth and sighed, then turned back to look for something else in the fridge.
Wade chuckled and shook his head.
"You're really going to use whipped cream as a coping mechanism, huh?"
He pushed off the counter and walked over to her, wrapping his arms around her waist from behind.
"Hey, maybe I can help you come up with a plan. You know, we are married for a reason. Or is that lil ring on that finger worthless now?" Wade joked, holding up his own hand to show his wedding band. It gleamed in the soft sunlight, making Y/N relax slightly upon seeing it.
"You're right, Wade. I'm sorry. I just...I dunno...what if she gets mad? Is all...'waah, you guys are totally ruining my life!' Or something..." The woman found some stuff to make a ham sandwich and grabbed it, setting down the whipped cream in the process. She shut the fridge door with her hip and walked over to the kitchen counter to start assembling her lunch.
Wade's arms tightened around her waist as he leaned in close, his voice taking on a soothing tone.
"Ahahahaha, peanut, you're thinking about this all wrong. Ellie loves us both, and she'll adjust to the new addition just fine. And if she doesn't...well, we'll deal with that when the time comes." He nuzzled her ear. "Besides, I've got a plan. We can make it fun! We can have a family meeting and explain everything together." Wade offered, which made Y/N relax slightly.
"How soon should we do this? We have no idea if it worked today. For all we know, we might have to keep trying to get me pregnant. After all...they taught us in high school that getting pregnant a second time was so much harder than the first time, Wade..." she rambled nervously. Wade gave her a lopsided grin, finding her as adorable as the day they first met.
Wade's grip on her waist relaxed, and he let out a deep sigh. "Yeah, yeah, I know all about the stats and stuff. But we're not gonna worry about that right now. We'll cross that bridge when we come to it." He pulled back and looked at her with a serious expression. "Let's just focus on enjoying this moment for now. We've got our little bundle of kickass growing inside you, and we should be celebrating that! The second addition to the Deadpool family! Hot damn, I'm like Bruce Wayne collecting kids here!" He joked.
"But we don't actually know yet...we only just tried less than an hour ago...what if it didn't take?" She frowned, finally finding making a sandwich. She offered it to him, opting to make another one for just herself if he accepted the lunch. Wade graciously took the sandwich and watched as she grabbed him a plate from the cabinet behind her, giving her a silent 'thank you'. She smiled, then sighed as reality crashed back down onto her.
Wade's face lit up with a mischievous grin as he bit into the sandwich, groaning happily at how good it tasted.
"Ahahahaha, peanut, you're so worried about it not taking that I think we need to celebrate either way," His blue eyes sparkles with amusement as he continued. "Win or lose, we're having fun today. And if it didn't take...well, we'll just have to try again soon, won't we?~"
"I guess you're right. It not working just means more sex for the both of us, huh?" she smiled slightly, working on making her own sandwich quietly. Y/N giggled at how Wade hopped up and down excitedly, his sandwich gripped tightly in his hands.
Wade's eyes lit up with excitement as he nodded enthusiastically. "Oh, hell yeah! More sex is always a good thing in my book. And who knows, maybe we'll get lucky and it'll take on the second try," He chuckled to himself, taking another bite of his sandwich. "But even if not, I'm happy to keep trying...for science."
"Hmm, I think you just miss me and all the hot, raunchy sex we used to have before we became parents, don't you?~" Y/N giggled. "We both became so busy what with you being a dad and becoming more of an anti-hero and me switching jobs to stay at home with El."
Wade's face turned bright red as he coughed, trying to play it cool. "What? No way, peanut! I just...I mean, yeah, okay fine. You're right. Being parents is awesome and all that jazz, but let's be real...we used to have some crazy hot times in the bedroom," He winked at her mischievously. "And I'm not saying we can't get back to those times now that Ellie's getting older."
"So you dig the mom bod?" she asked self-consciously. Wade nodded eagerly.
"Uh, a doy, my little MILF. Of course I dig the mom bod, sugar tits. You always looked bangin' but the way you got all curved up makes me hard as a rock God DAYUM." He flirted, spanking her ass playfully. Y/N yelped, her face turning bright red in response.
"Wade, knock it off..." she laughed, clearly flustered.
"Why should I, pookie bear? I'm just giving you some good ole fashioned Wade Wilson luvins! I wanna make my dear wifey feel better, and what better way than doing what I do best? Being a vulgar and annoying asshole to her?" Wade grinned, the smile almost reminiscent of the Cheshire Cat from Alice In Wonderland. Y/N rolled her eyes, but couldn't help but smile.
"There's that smile, firecracker! I love having such a sexy wife all to myself! Not once have I wanted anyone else as soon as you strutted your way into my life, pretty girl." Wade flirted, lightly spanking his wife's ass again and howling obnoxiously like a wolf. Her eyes sparkled with amusement as she playfully tried to swat at Wade's hand, but he was too quick and continued to tease her. She let out a little squeal of delight as he spanked her ass, feeling a rush of excitement course through her veins.
"Oh, stop it! You're making me blush!" She laughed, trying to maintain a stern expression while secretly enjoying all the attention.
"Nuh uh, no. I vowed to make you feel good today, and that means I gotta get those feels back up to the good status." He whispered, moving behind her and cupping both her breasts. He softly massaged both, feeling her melt slightly against his warm hands.
"That's it, baby. Let me take care of you today. I wanna make today all about you. You've done so much for our family and have always been there for me, even when I was a blabbermouth of a Merc. Yet you always seemed to see the good in me. You remember that talk we had all those years ago? About the kintsugi thing?" He asked, his voice turning to a low rumble as he continued to massage her breasts. She sighed and leaned her back against his chest, relaxing even more as they stood together in the middle of the kitchen. The sunshine illuminated her hair, making it even more shiny as it framed her face just right.
"Yeah, I think so. Something about us fixing each other like the kintsugi concept, yeah?" Y/N asked tentatively. Wade nodded, kissing her neck softly.
"You're a damn good scientist, baby. Never let that go, okay? You always talk big shit about me being an anti-hero now...but you're really the one who deserves more praise. You saved my life. If it wasn't for you, I'd still probably be semi-homeless, addicted to drugs and addicted to meaningless relationships as a merc. You saw someone so genuinely fucked up and decided...'I want that one'. And dammit, I can't lie, your stubbornness really came in handy this time." Wade chuckled softly, a warm smile on his lips. "Plus, that serum you made all those years ago gave me my looks back. Now our daughter has a normal looking dad and never has to know what I looked like before. And yeah, you didn't mind when I was all mutated and cancery, but I did, peanut...I did...cause why would such a goddess like you want anything to do with some freak like me...?" He hid his face against her back. Dammit, he hated being vulnerable, but he knew Y/N needed to know the truth. Over the years he had become a lot more sappy thanks to her.
Her eyes welled up with tears as she felt Wade's words wash over her. She wanted to hold him close, but he continued to hide his face against her back.
"Wade, stop it," She whispered, trying to keep her voice steady. "You're being ridiculous...I loved you then and I love you now. You were never a freak to me...you were always my broken thing of beauty." She smiled softly, feeling a lump form in her throat.
"Oh come on...let's face the music, Y/N. I don't think life would be as good or even as easy if I didn't look like my old self again...you really gave me a whole-ass second chance, babe. You brought me back to life and screamed in my face 'YOU MATTER' until eventually you got me believing it, too. That's damn impressive if you ask me. You...managed to fix the Merc With A Mouth." Wade moved to stand in front of her and cupped both her cheeks with his hands, causing her to look up at him and set down her sandwich on the counter.
Y/N's eyes sparkled with tears as she looked up at Wade, her voice barely above a whisper.* "You're making me cry again, dammit," She whispered, her voice trembling with emotion.
"But you know what? I don't care. Because when I look at you...I see the man I fell in love with. The one who was broken and lost, but still had so much heart. And that's what I fixed...not just your face." She smiled softly, wiping away a tear from the corner of her eye.
"How the hell did a devil like me get an angel like you, sweet stuff?" Wade laughed, voice heavy with emotion. Damn, now HE wanted to cry a little. Fuck, being a husband and father had made him go soft. Whatever, it's not like he needed to be overly cocky at the moment, anyways.
"You're no devil. You just needed someone to talk to. Someone to actually listen to the shit you were saying. I don't think anyone did before, did they?" Y/N asked softly, and Wade nodded.
"When you're a merc like I was, talk was kinda cheap in the grand scheme of things, ya know? But well, surprisingly I'm happy I decided to become less of a mercenary and more of an anti-hero. Maybe the Avengers will finally take me on, yeah?" His blue eyes shined with hope as he looked at her. She smiled warmly at him and reached up to ruffle his fluffy brown hair.
"Wade, they would be lucky to have a guy like you on their team." Y/N said.
The couple embraced, swaying slowly in the middle of the kitchen. They were happy, and that's all that really mattered in the end.
#deadpool fluff#deadpool fanfiction#deadpool x y/n#deadpool x reader#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wade wilson x reader#wade wilson#meow sobbing#this one honestly made me cry while writing it guys#i am being so serious right now#please enjoy because im real proud of this one
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[ID: a digital drawing of sandra lynn and sklonda from fantasy high. sklonda is sitting on sandra lynn's chest in her underwear and caressing sandra lynn's face. sandra lynn is naked and holding sklonda's thighs. neither woman's face is visible as they're looking at each other. the background is pink and says, how did you get infected? End ID]
#sklonda gukgak#sandra lynn faeth#fantasy high#sklonda x sandra lynn#sklondalynn#*slamming fists on the desk* MIDDLE AGED YURI MIDDLE AGED YURI MIDDLE AGED-#no otps in fantasy high we die like polyamory lovers#anywayyy been rolling the adults again in my head and my word 2010 docs#one of those fics is such a mess and i love it so much i cant wait to give it love and care in the editing stage#i can simultaneously write sklonpok and sklondalynn and anything else i want. bcs love is real <3 (and fiction contains multitudes)#what was i talking abt. right#MIDDLE AGED YURI#i said it before ill say it again fantasy high is THE sapphic campaign in my eyes#and tho i didnt ship it at the time when i saw theories that sandra lynn got kalina's curse from sklonda i nodded my head and went yeah#makes perfect sense for the sapphic campaign. simplest route most sensible route ofc they had sex#i love being at that age where i watch things featuring kids and go awe cute. ok but now fr what is going on w their parents i NEED TO KNOW#im so invested in there npcs i need an excel sheet of their drama and hopes and dreams. i also need them to suffer#another aside bcs tags are for silly thoughts of the moment right. super proud of how the pose came out#im terrified of foreshortening and half the time ditch it when i try it but this time i kept at it and eventually got a result i liked!!!#tackling new horizons one step at a time#*huffing and puffing* middle aged... yuri... middle... middle aged yuri...
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Wheeeeeee I have a new character to be SO normal about
#now it may feel like i abandoned Kris#trust me once dr ch3+4 come out theyre all im gonna think about probably#but for now its siffrin time#isat#in stars and time#i am so proud of that one on the middle right btw#also i will be stealing pieces of the art style for myself bc i love it
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Recent drawings!
The top two were for @whitewolfmystery's birthday on the 22nd
And the bottom two were my Christmas gifts for @edenkyubiko 🫶
I hope everyone who celebrates is having a good holiday!!
#actually sorta proud of the top ones#i didnt intend on putting so much detail into it#i hope you liked it Wolf#ALSO#Merry Christmas Eden!! i hope you're having a good holiday so far#youre a huge part of my life right now and im so grateful for you and the entire server#you hold such a big role in everyone's lives and i just want you to know that you are very loved#Merey Christmas everyone#shadow company#shadow company oc#hydra (oc)#wolf (oc)#Tw1nkee art♣️#digital art#artists on tumblr
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knowing you is worth celebration
#i tried really hard with this one <:3#idk if it comes across but i was battling every line and shadow in this#i think i can do a Little better right now but not by much#i hope to improve more to the point where this looks lackluster#but right now it looks Good and im proud and happy :3#k#my art#gabe#gabriel von kiesling#fire and cloud#ocs#friends ocs#im so happie :3#demon#imp#humanoid
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just said goodbye to the therapist i've been seeing for the past four years and the only therapist i've ever trusted and i am SO emotional rn, mostly in a good way. it was really special to be able to just talk about everything from the past four years and hear her perspective on exactly how much i've grown. there were so many ways i was hurting so much when i was 18 that i had forgotten about. and she reminded me about how at our first session i said that i didn't think it would be possible for me to have a future at all and then here i am, living out all the dreams of my younger self. i almost started fucking CRYING. she said that she was so honored by the trust i had placed into her, knowing all my institutionalization trauma and it turns out she knew i was lying to her for like the first six months i saw her LMFAO but that she thought it would be worth it if she could prove to me that i could trust her. she read things about disability justice and anticarceral psych inbetween sessions so she could better figure out how to support me and never once threatened to call the cops. idk i just appreciate how much she was there for me over the past four years and it truly feels like the end of an era. just. wow. SO Many emotions
#personal#i feel really good about stopping therapy and i think it was right and she thinks so too#but woah. it's wild to think this person has seen me almost every week for four years. well we switched to every month#the last year.#but she knows SO Much about me and then now i might not ever talk to her again. which is fucking wild!!! it's wild!!!#turns out i was one of her first patients and she usually didn't take 18 year olds but bc her practice was so new she was like sure yeah#and then stuck with me bc she was like no this one is special#sorry im just an emotional mess rn. in a good way#so proud of myself. and grateful for everyone who got me to this point
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FINISHED LAST 2 EPS OF YURI ON ICE,
ON THE FLOOR
ON MY KNEES
VICTOR KISSING YURI’S HAND WITH THE RING, THE CROWD GOES WILD
THEN YURI ON THE ICE KISSING HIS RING BEFORE HE STARTS PERFORMING HHHH
DIVORCE ARC AR THE END OF THE SECOND TO LAST EP??? VICTOR CRYING BC OF YURI???? NOOOOOOOOO
“I’ll be sure to skate my and Victor’s love, laid bare to the world!” That’s more like it <3
UPDATE NVM IM SO STRESSED AHHHHHH
“I really want to kiss the gold medal” *pans to yuri and victor almost kissing* 🤔 damn straight gay
Not victor refusing to kiss yuri’s silver medal and then leaning super close and asking if he has suggestions…damn king
Did they just make vows again <3 good for them <3
THEYRE SKATING TOGETHER AT THE END AHHHHH
SO THEY'RE MARRIED NOW RIGHT
im so unwell about their tenderness its unparalleled
I NEED MORE CRIES WDYM ITS OVER HHH WHERES THE NEXT SEASON SOB BANGING MY FIST
#blu liveblogs#yuri on ice#yoi ep 11-12#i LOVE how they show their rings like all the time like yes#yes show teh sparkle#show their commitment to each other !!!!#and omg their pre/post performance rituals are so#either heart wrenching /neg or heart wrenching /pos#im so normal abt victor kissing yuri's ring hand like hfjkawnlfkjwf#ALSO. WHEN YURI WAS LIKE VICTOR LETS END THIS I WAS LIKE NOOOO STOP. STOPPPPPPP YOU IDIOT (AFFECTIONATE) STOP !!!!!#THEN VICTOR CRIES SO BAD AND IM LIKE DUDEEEEEEEE#THEN THEY BOTH LOOK SAD HRAWEHLRWJKENFJSKDF#BUT THEN. YURI NAILS HIS FREE SKATE PERFORMANCE HRAJKWENLFWEJKF YES MY KING#also called it i was like hm i really want yuri to win gold but yurio is prob gonna get it at this rate... and yeap#then i was like this is gonna lead to yuri and victor havin some form of gay vows to each other or smth to stay on the ice or smth#AND YES I WAS RIGHT LETS GOOOOO HRJAKWENLFWEF#ALSO THEIR HUGS ARE EVERYTHING THEY GIVE ME LIFE#THE WAY THEY CLUTCH AT EACH OTHER SO TIGHTLY#KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE#already in love but thats besides the point yes FALL DEEPER IN LOVE#also i liked the jj comeback yes u go king#also i loved yuri's character development#look at yuri slaying on the ice now with confidence !!!#so proud of you dude <3#also yurio is such a tsundere lmao damn in the begining i remeber thinkign who is this asshole goddamn#gud character development all around#im going to try and convince one of my friends to watch this cause they always get me to watch stuff#i watched all of rwby this is the least they could do for me <3#its my turn now hehehehe
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can someone tell me how to keep going if your hardwork does pay off but you don't feel anything when you achieve your goal just relief and numb again
#ive been having a bad week again since the exam ugh😭#im really really REALLY trying to study but a little head in my voice keeps saying what is even the point of working so hard#which is soooo ridiculous because it's bc i worked so hard that i got great marks#but like. i didn't feel happy like i thought would. i just felt like 'oh. okay. cool'#and then i just. didn't even have anyone around me to celebrate with#which is idk kinda dumb i guess it's just an online exam#but like see. there are technically total 8 exams to become. um to get my degree#and i just cleared 1 of them#like that was a full 100 marks paper i studied for of that level and i did it#ive just never done this before not since this course ive always scored JUST above passing (not counting the times#i literally failed twice lol)#so yeah anyway it is big for me. but why doesn't it feel like anything 😭😭😭#and why hasn't this motivated me to work harder😭😭😭#idk i thought i had gotten over the 'just do it. just do it!!! just. do. it.' phase i was getting so many things done#but it feels back to square one now#man that book about habits was so right don't have goals have habits because when you do achieve your goal#you'll be like well now what? and slip right back into bad habits again#that's exactly what happened#i used to think lol achieve my goal that's never gonna happen im a shit person and a failure#but like what the hell!!! i did!!! so now what😭😭😭#i think i need a hug#but ive never really hugged anyone except one person and she's 4 years away now#i think i need. my dad to tell me he's proud of me. but he's already forgotten about it so that's not gonna happen#man the day i stop craving external validation. it's over for yall#ugh yuck i used to hate the word validation it always sounded so desperate and needy and pathetic. guess it was just#another form of self loathing lol#im not even sad im like genuinely asking. im trying to solve it like a math problem. like does anyone have the answer
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