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THE CARDS FOR ENA5 JUST GOT POSTED AND OH MY GOD?????? MIZUKI I LOVE YOU ❤❤❤❤SHES LITERALLY SO GORGEOUS IM GENUINELY CRYING RN. AND SHES SMILING ITS GONNA BE OKAY GUYS EVERYTHINGS GONNA BE OKAY
#the entire set is genuinely so beautiful........ new fav set nothing is beating this ever#begging so hard that colopale doesnt fuck up the story. please.#im so excited and so so afraid#these cards are so hopecore to me like yea everythings goinjg to be okay guys if mizuki can be happy then so can i#ok but like fr mizuki and her entire story genuinely means so much to me. she means everything to me.#if colopale messes this up i will genuinely be heartbroken#anyway yap session over#ena5#silly rambles
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hey btw if you're in the USA at 2:20 p.m. ET on Wednesday, Oct. 4, they're testing the emergency broadcast system. your phone is probably going to make a really loud noise, even if it's on silent. there's a backup date on the 11th if they need to postpone it.
if you're not in a safe situation and have an extra phone, you should turn that phone completely off beforehand.
additionally, if you're like me, and are easily startled; i recommend treating it like a party. have a countdown or something. be surrounded by your loved ones. take the actions you personally need to take to make yourself safe.
i have already seen mockery towards any person who feels nervous about this. for the record, it completely, completely valid to have "emergency broadcast sounds" be an anxiety trigger. do not let other people make fun of you for that. emergency sounds are legitimately engineered to make us take action; those of us with high levels of anxiety and/or neurodivergence are already pre-disposed to have a Bad Time. sometimes it is best to acknowledge that the situation will be triggering for some, and to prepare for that; rather than just saying "well that's stupid, it's just a test."
"loud scary sound time" isn't like, my favorite thing, but we can at least try to prevent some additional anxiety by preparing for it. maybe get yourself a cake? noise cancelling headphones? the new hozier album? whatever helps. love u, hope you're okay. we are gonna ride it out together.
#watching ppl go from being like ''support neurodivergent ppl~~!"#to being like ''if this is going to give u a panic attack ur fuckken stupid''#like..... gets me#yeah man. i know im going to be triggered by it . in the old fashioned term. it is GOING to give me a panic attack. it's pretty much certai#and i shouldn't have to tell u about what i have survived for you to be okay with that.#you can just trust that i ALSO don't want me to react to it. i'm not gonna be having a FUN time.#dismissing that bc you think it's stupid.... like is the whole problem.#these sounds are workshopped by entire teams of people to get you to pay attention and move quickly.#they arent meant to be fun and exciting.#OBVIOUSLY it's gonna set ppl off.#but yeah there's something so fuckken demeaning about ppl being like. well that trigger isn't valid bc u haven't undergone X#dude i have ptsd bc i was abused as a child. like plain and simple. the fact im 30 and afraid of the dark tells you how bad it was.#i shouldn't have to ask u for permission to be mentally ill.#the reason it's a fucking disorder and not a fucking choice is that I DO NOT CONTROL IT.#like how is it any different from when ppl are like ''oh public speaking isn't that scary'' like FOR YOU#for YOU this isn't scary. now if i could fucking eat my own amygdala...
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as we are entering a new era tomorrow I wanna pay tribute to the OF era again, how memorable it was and how special SandRay were, I hope they'll forever be happy, travelling the world and dancing at concerts together, giving eo cheek kisses like these, holding hands and visiting record stores together. you will always be famous 🥺🧡🧎🏼♀️
#firstkhao#firstkhaotung#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#sandray#kantbison#gmmtv#my pookies ♡#im ready for kantbison!!!#but no matter how excited i am im afraid i will never ever move on from this moment specifically#like this is still so insane to me#KB better have some soft moments amongst all the kinky shit lmao#god#maybe im not ready afterall
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Day 4 - Neck Kiss (aftermath.. technically lol)
#FULL MOON TOMORRROOOOOW I CANT BELIEVE I HAVE ONE MORE TO POST AND THEN FULL MOON IS REAAAL????#IM SO SCARED AND EXCITED AND TERRIFIED AND ALSO SCARED AND AFRAID AND#nillyart#nillyfanart#stolitz#stolas x blitz#stolas goetia#blitzø#helluva boss#hellaverse
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the gradual shift in joel from being the guy who’s so desensitized that he can carry a dead kid the same way he carried sarah to the site of her death and toss the corpse into a fire without blinking to being the guy who has a massive breakdown and almost nukes his whole life from the fear of ellie being irreparably harmed while under his care......and the way the last few episodes the show go out of their way to specifically test him on that fear.....like hey joel you’re mortally wounded and can’t protect or take care of her, what do you do. hey joel while you were bedridden she went through the worst experience of her life, what do you do. hey joel [insert spoilers for last ep here, you get the idea]. and he rises to the occasion, he pushes through the fear for her, because she asked him to. she wanted him to be the one to deliver her. she didn’t want anyone else. and he’s decided he’s going to give her whatever she wants
it takes time for the realization that he’s gonna have to confront his worst nightmare to really sink in. he’s built up a mental fortress against what happened to him 20 years ago. and you see that when he really starts to care is when all of that comes back up. the time skip between ep 5 and 6 was probably the Joel Quietly Freaks Out with Increasing Frequency and Intensity variety hour
and him telling her she’s not his daughter. aside from being that thing where you say the worst thing you can think of to someone when you’re trying to end your relationship with them so you can’t go back and change your mind later. but also, when you peel back all the layers of pain and fear, that’s him saying “you are not going to die.” up until that moment it’s the most honest and open expression of his feelings that he’s shared with her. his daughter died in his arms. that’s what happens to “joel’s daughter.” so ellie cannot be his daughter
that probably should’ve been 3 separate posts but it’s season finale day and i’m unmedicated, fuck it
#he's so full of fear#but parenting is fear#tlou just dials the horrors of parenting up to eleven lol#and then the way it manifests for him is the inverse in a way#instead of 'im so afraid to let my kid out of my sight'#it's 'im so afraid to be with my kid because if something bad happens to them that means im responsible'#my man has baggage what can i say#i just thought that was an interesting flipflop#anyway im excited for final ep#i will probably not be engaging with s2 not bc i think tlou2 was bad necessarily but just bc i emotionally am not in a place to handle that#lol i prefer to live in denial sometimes thats my human gay right#tlou#the last of us#my stuff
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I know request says closed but I just wanted to tell you that we’ll finally be getting the Glorious Masquerade event this month. Any thought pookie? You excited?
I AM COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS til i can bully this man 💥🥊
#‼️‼️‼️‼️NEVER BE AFRAID TO COME INTO MY ASKBOX TO TALK ABOUT RANDOM BULLSHIT!!!!! IM LOVE YOU FOREVER 🥺#this doesnt count as a request bc no one would ask for nightmare sexy pinup malleus#anyhow. idk if youve noticed but i go pretty hard with religious themes with some of my ocs (hi covered mirrors in october day 1 👋)#& a good amount of my art outside The Sillies is crazy illustration stuff that goes HARD on symbolism & themes#so like. needless to say im VERY excited to finally get my hands on this asshole LOL#actually my original direction for this was going to be a rollo & idia thing exploring the false equivalence of hades & the christian devil#(that also ended in a homophobe rollo punchline 👍)#ask tag#twst#yayayayy thank u for asking it always makes me so happy ^^ <3
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Tumblr.
I caved.
I'm doing a comic series.
It's their story, from the very beginning.
Meo Voto.
"By My Wish."
I'm warning now, this story will be gritty, there will be plenty of dark moments and themes, and there will be depictions of blood and gore in parts of this comic. Any post with segments that depict such will have a very clear warning both as a message that looks like this;
Pages/segments will be irregular coming out due to my wonky work schedule, but expect at least one page/segment every 8 day cycle.
And as stated in the text bubble, what's visible when scrolling will have this message, and then a cutoff, meaning users will need to click the "view post"/"continue reading" icon to actually view the full post and see said imagery.
God, I'm excited for this.
Let
Me
Throw
This entire story at you
Let me show you the emotions I feel when I think of this story
Let me convey it from my brain to my hands to a canvas to your eyes
I want to tell you a story. . . About the Harrows Shield.
#art#oc art#pokémon#pokemon#digital art#comics#webcomic#web comic#original comic#Harrows Shield#HarrowsShield#harrows shield#harrowsshield#OHHH IM NERVOUS I WONT LIE#so afraid but so excited
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y can’t u guys just keep the characters cis this trans stuff is rlly annoying to me as a cis idk the appeal its not even canon
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#ok lol#little shop of horrors#confession#trans lsoh#hater tag of shame#the lsohc transphobe saga#so excited to see what the little shop of horrors tumblr community has to say about this post right here#i was gonna post 'whatever. go my scarab' but im afraid of bugs and the gif freaked me out
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disco elysium update: i've started day 2, but i'm not particularly enjoying myself at the moment... i don't really know what to do or where to go, i feel like i have painted myself in a corner with failed checks and the only available options are ones i absolutely do not want to do. i find the mechanics confusing and overwhelming and i am feeling very discouraged that maybe if i had understood them better earlier, i would be getting somewhere. i want so badly to enjoy the story but it feels like it's going to take a lot of effort to like, get any of it :(((
HOWEVER i suspect that if i try again on a day i feel less headachey than today, and if i manage to find some kind of breakthrough that doesn't involve becoming a fascist, i will hopefully get back on track and feel a lot better about the game again. hopefully!!!!
#i think pentiment worked for my particular game brain a lot better#having to fiddle with stats stresses me out so much#i did look at the clipboard until i fainted so that was great#i haven't removed the corpse yet. turns out i need to internalize a thought and my thought cabinet was full#because i didn't know what the thought cabinet was and that it could get full and how i could unlock more space and it almost made me cry#BUT i have. unlocked a new thought space now and i will hopefully get to remove that corpse sometime soon and HOPEFULLY that gets me anywhe#so i don't just. run back and forth for hours achieving nothing at all!!!!!!#apologies to everyone who has been very excited for me to enjoy the game. i was enjoying it until i ran out of leads to follow#im a little bit worried it might not like. do for me what it's done for others. but im still early in#and i think. today was just not a good videogame day#i play disco following 2 rules. 1) don't be afraid to be cringe. 2) always listen to kim
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hiiii. curly haier jj
#im so excited but also afraid to maintag this bc the tags will probably give someonw who doesnt recognize her whiplash#ahem#rhythm heaven#jj rocker
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One among many things I love about Dragons Risings writing is that they're so unapologetic about making the original team very cool, but also absolute dorks.
It's just kinda refreshing to me? Like, yeah, sure, Lloyd's the super-awesome Green Ninja who's a descendant of God, Kai could set the world on fire if he wanted, Nya does not hesitate and was the ocean that one time, Zane will casually mention the most insane shit he did on a whim, Cole has a lava and rock monster form, etc, but like...they're also losers. Lloyd gets bullied constantly and tries to explain what a crab is, Kai has so much intelligence but so little wisdom at all given times, Nya has a 'shit happens' attitude as if she is not actively failing through this shit happening, Zane talks to a broom with Pixal's face on it, and Cole has it together the most by being a 9-to-5 dad with a boyfriend who he 100% believed was his power crux.
They're just people, y'know? Saving the world a hundred times over doesn't mean they're not still 20-something nerds who've been stuck doing this since they were teenagers. One cannot erase the time they had bad boy doppelgangers for like two minutes. Or had to raise their teacher. Or had the weirdest relationship drama. Or were huge video game and tech geeks.
And Dragons Rising isn't afraid to let them be that. To acknowledge, yeah, objectively, they're cool as hell, but to also admit that they're just kinda fucking around and finding out. It's a wonder what consistent and likeable characterization can do, who woulda thought?
#ninjago#dragons rising#ninjago dragons rising#lego ninjago#lego ninjago dragons rising#ninjago dr#lloyd garmadon#ninjago kai#ninjago nya#ninjago zane#ninjago cole#text post#talk#ninjago writing#im so excited for when we get to see jay again and see how he looks cool but also like an absolute loser#the idea of something being cool AND silly is possible and its right here in dragons rising i love it so much#its mostly the animation where they flex and i do love that#theyre not afraid to show that these guys are like. experienced. they know what therye doing. they can fight really well. theyre GOOD#but also kai accidentally blows up the wrong building cause he let wyldfyre have a map#and nya is like well that stone seeker thing gave us eyes. im sure its fine#and they ask zane 'are those tubes safe for humans' and he just deadpans 'no' with no further elaboration#cole confused at all times abt whatevers happening but nodding and going along with it anyway#and lloyd just being lloyd. bestie no u cannot clean the whole monastary. wu made the boys clean the monastery all the time#he just didnt make you do it cause your his favorite#ITS JUST RLLY FUN#I MISS WHEN THINGS WERE FUN
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"Omg Will Buxton GO OFFFFFF"
#george russell#daniel ricciardo#shade used to be fun now y'all hype up washed up cokeheads like Buxton for not making sense like?#what did my good sister willy butt cheeks even say?? how is it a compliment to Oscar. he literally says he hates daniel and george#for having personalities and is glad Oscar doesnt ??? HUH? OSCAR BABY IM SO SORRY#+ what have george and daniel ever done to this man besides being polite and friendly#reminder its not his job to comment on their personalities away from the track but their driving#i was so excited for the fun SHADE will allegedly threw but actually it was like. a deeply weird ad hominem attack#about personality. not even shit said on radio or about an incident.... just like.... in general? youre a weirdo im afraid#ew ew ew 🤧#f1
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hai zenji + hi tokyo debunker fandom
#^^^^ that's actualy one of the campus dialogue things with him ❤❤#tokyo debunker#my latest hyperfixation im afraid#i have a ghoul oc im working on as welllll + i'll prob post him once i flesh him out more 😭👍#time for me to yap in tags okayyyy#I LOVE ZENJI IM EXCITED FOR NEW EPISODE TO COME OUTTT#i liked all of the hotarubi boyz when i was picking at the beginning and then that was what i got sorted to in the quiz!#it was meant to be!!!!#even tho the quiz didnt even matter LOL.....#in my head i get to be in a house idc!#in my head also there is gender selection option+ i can exist without kaito making me want to bash his head in a litle xoxo😁💯#me wehn the joseimuke game makes u be a girl 😱?!?!!#i want zenji and/or rui SSR card so bad 😭🙏#show me to me rachelll 🙏🙏#why is it always leo as the limited summon 😭#^ said as one of the like 3 leo fans in the world or wtvr like omg maybe yall were right to say get him away.. my bad!!!!#i would spend all the diamonds ive been savingggg
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#💝#HE SCREAMED AT YOU???#hbhhnfhhbbggggggfgggg i know it was said in shock at what the boss was doing#rather than in shock that the boss did that TO PIM but hhfvrvgghgfghgggggfrf#i love this entire beginning scene just with them so much………. the contrast between this and their first interaction in the pilot#charlie is so clearly invested in what pim is saying and he 100% believes him and agrees with him#not to say he’s EVER been an outward jerk toward him cuz he hasn’t but Man. this is. yeah#i know this is like the episode where they split for this season im guessing#as in just for this one episode and then they’re together again for the rest#but this and the way charlie seemed to like. get More stressed out and afraid when he noticed pim approaching the boss at the end#man is that more than enough for me#literally this could be it for the next 2 years like what happened with season 1 and id be literally fine#Sigh#god i’m So Excited#also the little jazz hands pim does to signal screaming.. I love you I love you I love you i love love love you ilove you so muc pim pimlin
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on my last post I was so tempted to make a comment in the vibe of wishing TV!Crowley would be a bit more evil (in the style of Book!Crowley and Radio!Crowley) but I can see the season three monkey's paw twitching out the corner of my eye and I. have said absolutely nothing of the sort. I make no wishes. I have no wants.
#good omens#aziraphale#crowley#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#ineffable idiots#ineffable spouses#neil gaiman#what is going to happen im so excited and afraid
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looking back at the yjh webtoon screencaps i have saved and giggling... hes so cute... moe... my pookie ^___^ 🥰🥰 poor little meow meow woof woo- *eliminated where i stand*
also these poses are sooooo... 꺄아악🖤🫣🫣🫣🫣
#talk tag#orv liveblog#<--gonna just tag my orv misc posts as this now#i looooove when the webtoon artist draws him like a demonic beast#its genuinely so moe to me smdbsndn like hes supposed to be rly handsome but theyre not afraid to make him look unhinged#i rmbr livetweeting that yjh hibernation pic captioned 'hes so moe'... apparently that was 2022(just dug it up)#more than 1 person has told me that theyre surprised i bias yjh from the webtoon alone#bc apparently they dont do his chara justice(v 😔😔😔 to hear that...thats not good..)#BUT HOW COULD I NOT BIAS HIM!!!! (apparently this is not a universal experience aldjskdj)#this just makes me even more uncontrollably excited to read the novel i cant wait to love him more than i alr do#and i love when he glares and makes a disgusted face at kdj... its so cute 🤭 he's like an angry black dog to me. hes like a wolf puppy#*tries to pat his head and gets cut down in .00001 sec... no he wouldnt waste his sword on me... i would simply perish from being in the#the presence of his aura#literally the tsundere ever#aside from hiei... hiei rly primed me to like male tsunderes guys#like after him i have loved sm tsundere male charas since#yjh is in a league of his own tho. like idc how many similar/near identical charas have come before or since#he OWNS the yjh archetype literally everyone else is just copying him <33#even if it was a choice btwn yjh and cedric id have to go w yjh... he is the original im sorry... i love u cedric#and i love that the whole point is that his design/chara archetype ISNT supposed to be original... thats the Point#he's the typical op dark haired stoic cold brooding (and sexy) protagonist...#his chara concept is supposed to be that trope... but what orv does w him is so subversive#and the fact that he is supplanted from his position as the protag in the narrative... i love it sooo much#like maybe i wouldnt care as much if he actually was the protag? bc again it wouldnt rly be new#but the fact that he isnt the actual protag is sooo good#IM NOT RLY SAYING OR ANALYZING ANYTHING RN BUT I JUST FELT LIKE YJH LOVEPOSTING#o sidenote his webtoon faces make great rxn images slfnsmd I LOVE USING THE FIRST ONE#i love using heartwrenching anime/comic moments out of context as rxn images its so funny to me#me @ the orv live action cast announcement
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