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New art in what could be a matter of hours everyone lock in
#im snervous#jumin was wearing short sleeves in the chibi art#if he is showing any skin whatsoever i may go full victorian man seeing ankles for the first time
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GUESS WHO GOT A JOB STRAIGHT 3 months OUT OF COLLEGE
#im moving to daniel ricciardos favorite state and im snervous#im excited but very nervous#i have no friends there and who actually knows if this is the path i want to take#BUT i only have to live there for 2 years before i can move to AUS or NZ#and thats what excites me
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Hey Valentine!! Been thinking about DMC lately and was wondering if you could tell me some stuff about your DMC s/i? :0 perhaps what their relationship with Vergil is like? -[Wayfinderships]
@wayfinderships OH BOY OH BOY IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT DMC RECENTLY TOO !!!! i miss my half demon husband. it sure has been a whole hot minute since I talked about gabriel in general, and it sure has just hit me that you and most of my current mutuals completely missed my dmc era, so!!
gabriel is my self insert, and they are a collector of demonic goods, a purveyor of powerful artefacts, and they meet vergil shortly before dmc3 is taking place, mostly because their paths cross through happenstance and they offer up information for him. they're around the same age as the twins at this point during the timeline, the two of them are kind of friends and kind of bickering back and forth, and eventually when Vergil Goes To Hell, they kind of dig themself into a hole of work since they're the apprentice to the actual collector they have been working for
um to make a long story short these are bullet points:
find a particular artefact associated to a general of hell named haures, who has his own little plans and manages to take possession of gabriel gradually over time, for the most part they function like they green goblin talking to his own mask
haures corrupts them and essentially demonizes them so they functionally stop aging / age so slowly that it isn't really noticeable
they are also hearing from haures about mundus and sparda and are doing their own little research, maybe in hopes of coming across that one weird white haired dude they met before
their research brings them to fortuna when nero is a little kid !! will expand upon that when i get back around to dmc4
they cross paths with dante a lot!! and he is their friend somewhat
the whole time they're doing all of this they are like actively dying from haures and have to stay in tip-top shape otherwise he will actually kill them!! but no one else can communicate with haures so he's just kind of their intrusive thoughts
badabadaba dmc5 rolls around and v shows up and suddenly it's like they're 20 again and experiencing feelings
anyways gabriel's relationship with vergil was initially a little fling for the short time that they knew each other when they were younger, and tidbits of that are echoed in meeting v. like gabriel wouldn't admit to it and they think they're doing such a good job of hiding it but everyone they know can SEE how they act
and then suddenly vergil is back!! and they are a dam in the process of breaking!! the two of them proceed to bicker like an old married couple and most of vergil's time spent as v winds up being mental anguish and maturity and confronting his own human emotions, so even though they are continuing on that leftover thread from when they were younger and they didn't spend very much time together, it's like they've known eachother forever. like they do care about eachother, clearly, but they're overall very sweet in their own ways and completely awkward in navigating their relationship and feelings. because they are eachothers first love or something. yucky. I'm not approaching the lady in red topic right now because if I do then I have to do mental gymnastics but it's fine, we'll just loophole it
anyways blah blah gabriel and vergil are like. aggressively embarrassed in how they interact with each other, because they're kind of too similar that it's funny, but they do genuinely like eachother. maybe it's just because they were each other's only friend when they were in their teens and were both being manipulated for someone else's gain lol. and after vergil's stay in hell and subsequent Speedrun of the human existence he calms down a little and lets himself learn to love, not just romantically but like, familially. he gets to learn about the people that he left behind again and the one he's never met before (his son), and that is just. so important to me
so gabriel is kind of the only person initially rooting for him, even if they would rather swallow glass than be vulnerable, but they can also have vergil help them control their corruption and possibly use haures to their advantage because i had it set up where he was yeah, a dumbass trying to usurp the throne, but I wanted to plan a whole plot surrounding him and maybe lore connecting him to sparda, specifically
I know i joke about them bickering and being unable to function as real people but i have a very special place in my heart for vergil, not just favourite character wise but also self ship wise. im personally very hardheaded and dragging my real feelings out of me is like literally pulling teeth, so I've hidden a lot of my affections behind jokes and that kind of is also reflected in how I talk about vergil. but i did eventually open up about it and that's where the handfasting ceremony came from. i finally just accepted that i loved him as a character and ive been trying to unlearn my bad behaviors and learn that it's okay to be vulnerable, and not to hold everything in all the time
i like. rambled but its to avoid having to voice how their relationship is in full detail, so all i really have to say is that it's complicated but also plainly simple how they work together, how they love. they do deeply care about the other, and while it takes some time to let the initial feelings go unsaid, they are at their center both very lonely people who have put their trust into someone that they can see themselves in, who know how the other one feels and expresses feelings, with the addition of v functioning as an a-ha moment for vergil while gabriel has had 30 years to think on the guy they first loved - and proceeded to immediately fall back in love with upon seeing again
#asks#panchi tag#UMMMM. sorry i rambled. i got embarrassed and ended up repeating myself a alot#i know what i want to say but there is a lot of feelings that also have to be parsed through and im like. snervous about it#there is actually a lot that has gone into their relationship but i'd rather die than elaborate on the true sweetness#like gabe memorizing poems from vergil's book knowing that their memory is bad & v using blake as a calling card for his bare flirtations#him calling them little vagabond and a sick rose and them having a split second of familiarity ring in their head but choosing to ignore it#and shadow being used as not only a coping mechanism and a method of self protection but also a subconscious extension of his own emotions#and haures being a symbol of gabriel's own sins and his corruption being representative of their trauma and how it sits in them#and haures being an extension of my own chronic illness and pain and my own intrusive thoughts manifested#i dunno am i a little insane?? maybe.#si: gabriel#otp: my morning star#long post
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im considering this a redraw of a very old decembersville piece i did ages ago
decembersville - @ countandra
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any chance any of yall have a copy or know where I can watch Tyler Oakley's tour documentary "Snervous" ..
#not dnp so sorry but this is my most followed blog#im researching youtuber tours its v important lmao#trying to prove dnp out did everyone with tatinof tbh#tyler oakley#snervous#snervous tyler oakley
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everytime i think about writing i wanna go jump into a lake
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HOLY FUCK FUCK IM HAPPY YEY SNERVOUS @hanniluvi JUSY LIKED SOME OF MY POSTSTSNRRNNDND
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nah this is happening too often😭 im snervous
why is our 4th line on the ice while mcdavid and draisaitl are on the ice too?😭😭 they held up pretty well but damn that’s dangerous😭
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should i get these glasses? i like them but ive never had glasses that arent plain black before [PLEASE interact]
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apparently, (thanks to someone who translated stuff on twitter) karamatsu’s “freckles” are actually acne (ニキビ)
also, ichimatsu said his high school self was something he’d rather not remember, which given his present self makes sense, but how did he become so gloomy and reclusive is what i’d like to know because it’s destroying me mentally to think of what might have happened. 🤔🤔🤔
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my knee surgery is tomorrow and I’m kinda freaking out but I also know that I really need this and I’m excited that my knee will be better
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hey studyblr folks please send positive vibes towards me at 11:30am tomorrow morning. I have my first bio exam and I need all the good juju I can get!
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UHH YIKES GET THIS NICK/BRAY FUCKERY OUT MY FACE
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dying in la making me cry bc god that’s going to be me trying to persue a film career in LA!!!!!
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occulous repairo
merry christmas ya filthy animals!!! it is finally time to reveal myself to my it secret santa recipient!!!! this fic is for the lovely @wyttolff (big thanks for helping organize this whole shebang!! i hope u love ur gift dear <3 i sent u anons lmao i wasn’t slick)
occulous repairo, a losers club hp au
pairings: reddie (for now, tbh i might turn this into a full-blown Thing)
word count: 6.1k
warnings: mildly graphic depictions of a broken arm?? General Wizarding Buffoonery
“God- damn- shit-”
“Rich, calm down, jesus christ. You’re not gonna get it if you keep pressuring yourself. Relax.”
“I am fucking relaxed Eds, it’s just not working-”
“It’ll work if you stop clenching your fist, for starters.” Eddie sighed, reaching over and forcing Richie to loosen his grip on his wand. Richie tried not to notice how gentle Eddie’s guidance was, or his perfectly kept nails, or his soft-
He tried not to notice.
“Now, when you say the incantation, let it flow instead of spitting it out. And maybe don’t say fuck so much.” Eddie quirked an eyebrow at him, which took him a second to catch as his gaze lingered on Eddie’s hands.
“Thanks, professor, any other tips you got?” He said defensively. He knew Eddie was just trying to help him, but he couldn’t help his tone. He’d been trying his accio charm for half an hour to no avail, and he was pissed. Charms was his best course, and he’d never struggled with something so much in all his years of schooling. His pride was wounded, and he wasn’t prepared to receive advice.
Eddie blanched, before his expression turned sour. “Fine, be that way. I hope you fail your Runes test.” Eddie grumbled, before casting a perfect Summoning spell on Richie’s Runes book. It sailed so close to Richie’s face he thought it might smack his glasses clean off, but thankfully it only knocked them askew.
“Bitch.” Richie glared at him, reaching up to fix his spectacles. Eddie only responded with a flat glare and a wordless repetition of the charm, causing Richie’s glasses to soar off his face and into Eddie’s waiting hand.
“Hey, give those back!” Richie blinked against the sudden blurriness and wildly reached out for Eddie’s hands. Eddie snorted and held the glasses out of Richie’s reach.
“Not until you stop being an asshole. I’m just trying to help you.”
“I’m sorry, okay, Jesus-”
“Say it like you mean it.”
“I’m sorry, princess-”
“Not in the fucking voice Rich, and don’t call me princess-”
“Look, I’m sorry, seriously, Eds.” Richie’s hands dropped to his lap as he looked dejectedly down at them. “I’m just… really frustrated with myself.”
“I know.” Suddenly his glasses were being placed gingerly across the bridge of his nose. “You’re gonna get it, okay?” Eddie gave him a tender, serious look. “Don’t knock me for helping you.”
“I’m sorry. Thank you for your advice.”
“What, ya gonna braid his hair?” Bev’s voice cut through their reverie, causing Eddie to realize that the hands he’d just used to replace Richie’s glaces were practically tangled in the other boy’s hair. He pulled them back to his lap, his face flushing. Bev laughed at the action.
“You know you’ve got first dibs on these curls, love.” Richie threw over his shoulder at her with a smirk.
“Class!” Their professor rapped his wand on the podium in front of him, shooting a glare at Richie, who was his frequent Problem Student. Most teachers tended to assume that if someone was talking out of turn in class, it was Richie. They tended to be right. “Focus up; we’re shifting to our second spell of the day.”
“Goodie me.” Richie mumbled under his breath, sitting back in his seat with his arms crossed. He was still chuffed about the last spell; he didn’t want another one to muck up.
“I think you’ll find this one quite useful, Mr. Tozier.” His teacher gave him a hard look. “Turn to page twenty-seven. Let’s work on occulous reparo.”
Eddie did his best to hide a laugh as Richie flipped open his book to the page of the glasses-repairing spell. Richie’s ears went red as many of his other classmates began to laugh too, realizing the diss from their teacher. This redness stayed on his ears throughout the duration of the lesson, hiding his face in shame as their professor went through the steps. When they were left to attempt the spell on their own, however, his mood was quick to change.
“Having some trouble there, Eds?” Richie found himself smirking over at a frustrated Eddie, who had failed to fix the crack in the pair of practice readers they had been provided for the twentieth time.
“Shut the fuck up.”
“Maybe you shouldn’t say fuck so much.”
Richie looked at Eddie with his biggest shit eating grin. He also thanked his stars Eddie wasn’t a dementor; otherwise he’d be getting his soul sucked by now.
It’d be worth it for the kiss, though.
Richie pushed the thought away immediately.
“I’m gonna-” Eddie’s face of rage faltered, changing to confusion. “I’m- I’m too flustered to come up with a threat right now, but just know you’re gonna regret that comment later.”
“I’m quakin’ in my boots!”
“Beep beep.” Eddie huffed, turning back to his spectacles. Richie watched him attempt the spell a few times before Eddie’s cheeks began to tinge pink. “Are you staring for a reason, trashmouth?”
Richie faltered. “Uh- no. No, nothing.” He pushed his curls back nervously, before turning to his practice glasses and performing the spell perfectly on the first try, as per his usual. He sighed, feeling relief that his mojo was back. Eddie eyed his glasses with jealousy before dejectedly attempting the spell one more time.
“Here-” Richie said after a pause, wrapping his hands around Eddie’s wand hand. “Try gripping it like this.” He helped Eddie adjust his hold on the wand. “And uh… try flicking with a little bit more force.” Richie chanced a glance at the smaller boy’s face; he was looking at their tangled hands with his mouth slightly agape, his expression strange. Richie swallowed and let go with hesitation.
He also tried not to notice the snickers of Bill and Bev, the next table over.
Well, he tried to.
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“Jesus Billiam, and you shit on me for overeating.”
“Sh-shut up Tozier. I e-e-eat a lot at m-meals, sure, b-but you eat like a c-cow. All d-d-damn day.”
“Touche.” Richie shrugged, taking a massive bite out of his sandwich as he reached across Bev’s plate for another.
“You know you could just ask me to pass you one.” She griped.
“It’s my only stretch for the day, just let me have it.” Richie said around a mouthful of food.
“Sexy.” Bev scrunched her nose and gave him a disgusted look. He smiled wide, revealing bread-and-meat filled teeth. She lightly punched his shoulder. “Ugh, that’s fucking nasty. You know that may work on Eddie but it’s not gonna charm me.”
Richie furrowed his brow, swallowing his food. “Excuse me?”
“Excuse you! I saw you two in Charms. The tension was practically rolling off of you guys in waves.”
“What! There was no- there wasn’t tension, Bev, we were just-”
“Just doing what you always do, tragically pining over each other with no hope of requisition.” Bev sighed dramatically. “It’s saddening, really.”
Richie glared at her through squinted eyes and coke-bottle glasses. “I do not pine.”
“Yes you do.” Bill said nonchalantly through a mouthful of chicken.
Richie huffed, turning back to his plate. “I do not pine!” His following dramatic gesture was cut short by a flying piece of treacle, which hit him squarely in the forehead. He flinched, shocked by the contact, then glanced around the Great Hall to see where the projectile originated from. Near the end of their table, a certain Mr. Bowers and his cronies were sniggering. Richie went red and turned back to his friends.
“Shit Rich, you okay?” Bev asked in a concerned tone as Richie pulled off his glasses to inspect them for debris.
“‘M fine.” He griped. “It’s assholes like Bowers that give our house such a bad name. I don’t want people to think of me in the same class as that.” He gestured towards Bowers, who was currently trying (and hilariously failing) to change his cider into rum.
“T-technically you’re not.” Bill said. “He is a c-couple classes ab-bove us.”
Richie gave him a flat look. “He’s still a Slytherin.”
“You’re twice the Slytherin he’ll ever be.” Bev said with a wink.
Bill and Richie both smiled at her. “You’re darn right I am.” Richie beamed, hitching up his robes on his shoulders.
That time Richie didn’t notice Eddie’s small face, peeking over Mike’s shoulder across the way at the Hufflepuff table, a small blush on his cheeks as he watched Richie preen.
Richie didn’t notice, but Eddie did.
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“C’mon Eddie, I thought you’d done this before.” Ben was still laughing, though on his behalf he was making at least some semblance of an attempt at disguising it. Richie did nothing to hide his guffaws as he watched Eddie try to right himself.
“Yeah, once! That doesn’t mean I’m a fucking pro at it!”
“Language, Mr. Kaspbrak. One point from Hufflepuff.” Their professor uttered boredly as she passed them, on her way to assist another student.
“Sorry Professor.” Eddie grumbled from his current position, which happened to be hanging completely upside down from a broom that was floating about six feet off the ground. The only thing keeping him from meeting it was his death grip with all of his limbs around the handle.
“You look like a koala!” Richie cried through his laughter, complete with actual tears.
“A very unhappy one.” Ben added lightly, sending Richie into another peal of laughter that caused him to nearly fall over.
“THIS ISN’T FUNNY!” Eddie screeched down at them, desperately making an attempt to flip over to the topside of his broom.
“Would you like some help?” Ben asked cautiously.
“No, Benjamin, I’m thoroughly enjoying myself.” Eddie snapped, carefully shimmying with his feet.
“Oh my God, where’s Bill, I’ve gotta get a picture of this-” Richie finally managed when he regained control of his laughter.
“YOU WILL NOT.” Eddie called down, taking a second too long to glare down at Richie. His loss of focus caused a loss of footing, and before he knew it he was dangling from the end of his broom, his grip reduced to his bare hands around where the base met the bristles. He let out a shriek as he fumbled; he was still a good couple of feet from the ground.
And rising.
“Ben- Ben! BEN IT’S GOING UP WHAT DO I DO-”
“Let go of it, Eddie!” Ben watched in shock as Eddie’s broom steadily began to climb. Richie instantly ceased his giggling, his expression turning serious.
“WHY IS IT DOING THIS BEN HELP-”
“Eddie you have to let go! It won’t stop until you stop touching it!” Ben called up to him, looking around for their professor.
“I can’t! I can’t, I’m too high!”
“Eddie just let go, I’ll catch you!” Richie yelled, moving to stand underneath the floating boy.
“I can’t! I could crush you!” He looked pleadingly up at the broom, but for all he was concerned, it was on a path of its own, its mind unknowable to him. He could almost feel the rate of his ascent increasing along with his rapid heartbeat.
Mike came jogging across the pitch, their professor in tow.
“Dear God, what’s going on with him?” Mike asked incredulously, craning his neck to squint up at Eddie against the glaring sun.
“His broom’s being fussy.” Ben sighed. “He won’t let go.”
“That’s the only way you’re gonna get down!” Mike yelled up to the frightened boy.
“That’s what I told him.” Ben said.
“Eds, c’mon, I said I’d catch you!” Richie yelled again, trying to persuade him with a smile. He was only met with a squeak as the broom above them pitched wildly, causing Eddie to loosen his grip. He righted himself, but his hold was only tenuous.
“Eddie, come on, you have to let go!” Mike pressed, pulling his yellow striped scarf and rolling up his sleeves. He moved to stand next to Richie.
“I CAN’T!”
“Rich and I will catch you, if you don’t let go now it’s gonna pitch you!”
“I’M TOO HIGH UP!”
“Well it’s not gonna come back down when you’re worked up like that!” Ben huffed, growing frustrated with Eddie’s stubbornness. Bill and Bev finally made their way to the front of the small crowd of students that had gathered to spectate, their faces painted with worry.
“Mr. Kaspbrak, you need to listen to Mr. Hanlon. It’s the only way we’re going to get you down.” Their professor said calmly from her place next to Ben. “Mr. Hanscom, will you go get the nurse’s team, please. I suspect he’ll have a rough fall from this height.” She said quietly to Ben. He nodded and pushed through the crowd, headed back towards the castle.
“Eddie, please, come down.” Richie pleaded, his fear growing more and more palpable. Richie had already hit a good five-eleven in height, and by his measurement he thought it likely he could fit another one of himself between him and Eddie. The turf on the pitch was meant to soften the blow from a fall, and many a student had been pitched off of brooms and onto the grass from greater heights before. But Eddie had never been more than Richie’s height off of the ground before, and this was only because of all the times the trashmouth himself had hoisted Eddie over his shoulder for a joke. It was no secret to anyone that Eddie was fragile, either; the boy was on more magical medicine than Richie’d ever heard of, and spent at least a quarter of his time in the hospital wing for various injuries over their five years at Hogwarts so far. This fall was shaping up to be a rough one indeed, and growing prospectively worse by the second.
Eddie’s wild eyes caught Richie’s as he looked down in panic. Richie responded with raised eyebrows and a nod, gently encouraging Eddie down. Eddie’s eyes then caught Mike’s, who’s arms were out and ready to catch Eddie on his way down. Richie mimicked his position, his feet shoulder-width apart. They both looked to Eddie again, but instead of his agreement of readiness, they were met with fearful eyes that soon disappeared into the blur of a shaking head.
“No! No, I can’t do it!” Eddie was doing a fairly good job of hiding it, but Richie could tell the small boy was damn near close to tears as he clung desperately to the end of the broomstick.
“Yes, you can, Ed-”
Mike’s words were lost as the broom gave another violent jerk, and Eddie was yanked dangerously to the left. The movement caught him off guard, and his threadbare grip was rendered moot at the wood slipped from beneath his hands. Richie saw a wild flailing of limbs eclipse the sun in his gaze, and heard a cry of fear the likes of which he’d never heard from his closest friend.
And then Eddie was falling.
To him, it wasn’t like he’d heard described from Ben about his Quidditch games or how he’d seen it in the movies. There was no slow-motion rendering, no recollection of his life in a succinct flash, no endless churning through open air. Maybe it was because the fall wasn’t from nearly as high as Ben had come down from before, or because he was so unused to the feeling, but instead of a weightless, floating, gradual fall, it happened and was over faster than anything he’d ever experience. He was in the air, and then he wasn’t. Like that. Like lightning.
For Richie, however, there was slow-motion. Eddie’s broom had positioned him directly above Richie’s head, instead of neatly poised above he and Mike’s waiting arms. Neither of them had enough time to adjust their positions in reality, but to Richie it seemed as though he’d had time enough to move out of the way. He watched, as if through lens, as his best friend plummeted through the air, expression aghast and limbs askew, directly towards his face.
Crunch.
There was an audible gasp from the spectating students.
“Oh fuck…”
A groan from Eddie.
“I second that.”
Richie’s gruff reply.
“Guys?”
Then Mike was above them, their professor and Bill, even Beverly’s curl-framed face all swimming through Richie’s vision. After a couple of blinks they came sharper into focus; after a couple more it became apparent that his glasses had an exceptionally gnarly fracture in them.
“Did I catch him?” Richie mumbled up at them through a crooked smile. He felt a hot, wet splotch forming on his upper lip.
“Yeah, with your f-face.”
“Enough, Mr. Denbrough, make space.” Bill’s and Beverly’s faces disappeared. “Mr. Kaspbrak, can you hear me?”
Something stirred on top of Richie’s chest. He looked down the best he could, his head not wanting to bear much weight.
His heart couldn’t really bear the sight of it, either.
A quick tally told him all limbs were accounted for; four for him, four for Eddie, all easily visible. His were thankfully laid out the way they were supposed to be. He had been knocked flat, but thankfully nothing had folded or crumpled. His ass hurt from where it hit the ground, and he was fairly certain the wetness on his face was from a bloody nose. By his worst estimate he had a mild concussion, at his best a few bruises. Definitively he was okay. But the weight on top of him was another story.
Eddie had all four of his limbs alright, but as Richie realized with growing horror, one of them was very nearly facing the wrong way.
Eddie slowly raised his head, his eyes meeting Richie’s over Eddie’s twisted and mangled arm between them. His gaze quickly left the other boys and settled on what hardly resembled his right arm. Richie watched as the color drained instantly from his face. He’d never seen Eddie look so upset before.
“Mr. Kaspbrak-” Their teacher repeated, before Eddie let out a moan.
“Oh- oh god…” He wretched, making Richie genuinely worried the smaller boy would throw up on him.
Mike’s hands were suddenly on Eddie’s shoulders, guiding him up enough to get Richie out from underneath him. They got Eddie back into a sitting position, and Richie able to kneel in front of him.
“Mr. Hanlon, please escort Mr. Kaspbrak to the infirmary. Mr Hanscom should intercept you on the way with aid. Mr. Denbrough, please accompany Mr. Tozier.”
“I don’t need attention, I’m okay.” Richie said quickly, eyes not leaving Eddie’s face. He could already see a bruise forming high on Eddie’s cheekbone. His face must have been what collided with Richie’s nose. “I’ll help take Eddie up.”
“Alright, alright, disperse then.” The professor said in a huff to the surrounding crowd of students. Most of them departed, but Bill and Bev stayed on, observing worriedly. They had to be dismissed again at the threat of house point deduction, which even then barely worked. All that got them to leave was a non-verbal agreement between the four of them that Eddie would be okay in the hands of Mike and Richie.
“C’mon daredevil, lets go get you cleaned up.” Richie muttered quietly in Eddie’s ear as he and Mike hoisted Eddie up from the ground.
“Oh- oh god I’m gonna hurl.” Eddie said feebly, his steps uneven and wobbly.
“Be sick to the left, then, can’t have you staining my fresh laundry now.” He joked, though it sounded nervous even to his own ears. He felt nearly as shaky as the smaller boy, his thoughts swimming with worry. He was concerned Eddie could pass out before they got him up to the infirmary.
“You got him, Rich?” Mike said calmly.
“Yeah.” Richie said, slinging Eddie’s unbroken arm over his shoulder.
“I’m gonna run ahead and see if they’ve got a stretcher.”
“Good on, mate.” Richie nodded at him as he turned and sprinted in the direction of the school. “Okay, Eds, just you and me now. I need you to do your best to stay upright, okay? Don’t worry about going too fast or anything, just stayin’ afloat, okay?”
“M sorry…” Came Eddie’s slurred response. His head was hanging, and Richie could feel his skin growing clammy from the hand he had clasped in his. The smaller boy was too white, and too wobbly.
“Nothing to be sorry for Spaghetti.” He had to bend over quite a bit to accommodate their height difference, and the awkward position was starting to belabor him. “Not your fault you got tossed around by a stick.”
“Shoulda.. Tried harder…”
“Shoulda let go sooner is what you shoulda. You really scared me there, love.”
Both of them pretended not to notice the pet name.
They did.
“Sorry.”
“Don’t ‘sorry’. Just don’t do it again.”
Part of Richie hoped Eddie didn’t notice the gentle way he was stroking his thumb across the hand he had in his, his small attempt at comforting the immense pain he knew the other boy must be in. His small attempt at comforting himself that Eddie would be okay.
The other part of Richie really, really hoped he did.
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“I mean Christ Staniel, it was practically backwards.” Richie whispered hurriedly, pushing his newly fractured glasses up the bridge of his nose for the umpteenth time. He’d broken into quite a sweat hauling Eddie across the grounds, and his glasses now refused to stay on a face slick with sweat.
“I’m only sad I missed it.” Stan deadpanned, his gaze never leaving his parchment. “I’ve always wanted to see Eddie hit you in the face.”
“With his whole body?” Richie whisper-yelled incredulously. Their Runes professor shot them a dirty look over his shoulder before continuing. Stan waited for the teacher to turn away before speaking again.
“Of course not.” Stan gave Richie The Look; the one that told him Stan was switching out of sarcasm. “They said he’ll be okay, right?”
“Yeah, the nurse already has him set.”
“Fuck, you watched that?”
“They had me do it. Eddie was screaming at everyone; he didn’t want them to touch him at all.”
“Jesus.” Stan breathed, chancing another glance at the professor. They remained undetected. “I’m just glad you’re both okay...ish. You could’ve been a lot worse off.”
“Me too.” Richie glanced guiltily down at his arms. His right was slightly bruised and sore from where Eddie’s weight had landed on it, and he new his nose was quite the sight. “I’m just so fucking pissed he got hurt instead of me.”
Stan gave him a knowing look.
“Finally.”
Richie looked up at him, eyebrows knitted.
“Come again for big fudge?”
Stan cocked an eyebrow. “Just… finally.”
“Mr. Uris!” Their teacher suddenly interrupted, causing the two of them to jump slightly. “Something to share with the class?”
“No, sir.” Stan mumbled.
“Then can you at least share with me what…” He paused as he drew a series of symbols on the board. “...This means?”
Stan took a moment to squint at the figures. He could only state with confidence about half.
“I cannot, sir.”
“Never thought I’d see the day when my star student couldn’t answer a simple question. Five points from Ravenclaw. You and mister Tozier here better focus up or I might just deduct from Slytherin as well.”
Richie and Stan gave him twin death glares as he turned back to the board.
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“Finally what?”
Stanley nearly jumped out of his skin. “Jesus FUCK, Richie.”
“Finally what?”
“Were you fucking hiding behind that suit of armor waiting for me?”
“Only for like an hour, anyways finally what?”
“You’re hyper-fixating again.” Stan muttered bitterly as he straightened his tie (and attempted to quell his fluttering heart rate).
“ADHD, sue me. Finally what?”
“Christ Rich, let it go.” Stan hitched his book bag strap further up his shoulder, checking his special wand pocket to ensure the instrument was still safely tucked in after his scare.
“Well tell me what the fuck you meant then!” Richie flapped his arms frustratedly, his loosely worn green striped tie following suit.
“I have to meet Bill for our study session-”
“You’re not going anywhere, Stan-The-Man,” Richie pulled his wand from his back pocket (where he foolishly kept it, in Stan’s opinion) and dramatically jumped into a dueling stance. “Before goin’ through me.”
“I’m not fighting you over it, asshole-”
“Then tell meeeeeee.” Richie whined, dropping his shoulders and hands flamboyantly. A group of second year girls scurrying past watched him in confusion.
“You’re not gonna like it.” Stan snorted, watching as Richie gestured crudely at the girls.
“Try me.” Richie folded his arms.
Stan mirrored his position.
“I only meant your little pity party there in Runes was an admission. One I’ve been waiting on. Hence, finally.”
Richie drew his eyebrows together in confusion. “Admission of what? That I felt bad? That’s no secret, wouldn’t you-”
Stan rolled his eyes. “Yeah, yeah. This is exactly what I’m talking about.”
“I’m so confused.”
“Of course you are. You haven’t had pre-dinner yet.”
“Which I’m skipping right now to interrogate you, thank you very much.”
“Oh, I’m so sorry my minding of my own business between classes has disrupted your thievery of the kitchens.”
“Okay first of all, it’s not thievery if the house elves have given up on fighting me over it. Secondly, what the fuck are you talking about.”
Richie was using his pleading voice, the one that got Stan every time.
They locked eyes in a stare down.
Stan lost.
“You’re in love with Eddie.”
“I am?”
Stan blanched. “Yes, Richie.”
“And why is this news to me? Shouldn’t this be something I’m aware of-?” Richie trailed off.
“Yeah, it fucking should.” Stan put his face in his hand. “Look, Richie, seriously, you need to take some time to address your feelings. What you said in class? About feeling guilty? That was some cheesy shit. I’m talking grade-a Debbie Macomber novel. Maybe you should sit with that for a bit.”
Richie gave him a blank look.
“You think I have feelings for Eddie.”
“I know you do.”
“Okay, and how do I not know this?”
“Because you’re blind as a bat.”
Richie crossed his eyes to look at the break in his thick lenses. “Touche.” He looked back at Stan, and paused.
“I don’t have feelings for Eddie.”
“Really? Prove it.”
“Prove it? How?!”
“Get through one whole day without telling me how cute his hair is.”
“Well that’s impossible Staniel, you know I love his-”
Richie suddenly dropped the end of his sentence.
“Fuck.”
Stan cocked an eyebrow.
“I have feelings for Eddie.”
Stan nodded, much like a babysitter to a three year old who’d finally gotten the hint.
“Fuck.”
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“Mr. Kaspbrak, you have a visitor.” Eddie heard the nurse say quietly through the drapes thrown round his hospital bed.
“I’m not-” He croaked, before being cut off.
“Eds, it’s me.”
The curtains slowly pulled back to reveal a pale and drawn looking Eddie, his right arm currently obscured from view.
“Hi, Rich.”
He nodded at the nurse, who turned and left. Eddie stepped back to let Richie into the enclosed space, swinging the curtains closed behind them. Eddie sat gingerly on the bed, cradling his arm close to his chest. It was bound in bandages and hung in a white sling, which had been admonished with a scrawling rendition of the word “loser” in all capital letters.
Richie had spent the last god-knows-how-many minutes on his way to the hospital wing (which, despite his multitude of trips to meet Eddie there, he still never seemed to find in a reasonable amount of time) mulling over in his head what the fuck he should say. He’d start by voicing his concern, follow it up with a joke that will do nothing to dispel either of their discomfort, maybe throw in a couple of anecdotes about the rest of his classes with Stan for extra stalling time, but then inevitably reach the point where he’d spill his guts because Lord (and every one of his friends, for that matter) knew he couldn’t keep a thought in once he’d had it, and say the damned words that could very well cost him one of his closest friends. Or perhaps bring them much, much closer, a hopeful voice had quietly persisted in his head, though he tried not to give it much notice.
He did.
He also very, very much noticed the damn sling.
“The fuck is that?” He asked, perplexed, drawing his brows together as he gestured at the word.
Eddie flushed, looking down at his feet. “Fucking Greta is the nurses aid today. She was supposed to just change my bandages and leave, but… We started talking and she asked if she could sign it and I said yes and... “ Eddie took a breath, exhaling deeply. “It’s charmed on there, I’ve spent the last hour trying to get it off.”
“That fucking bitch…” Richie muttered, sitting down next to Eddie.
“It’s okay.” Eddie looked smaller than Richie had seen in a long time. “It’s what I am.”
“Darn right you are!” Richie said indignantly, clapping Eddie gently on the back. “King of the losers.”
“That’s actually Bill, but thanks.” Eddie gave a small laugh, relaxing into Richie’s touch. He left his hand on Eddie’s back.
“Whatever. Big Bill can step down for a bit. You deserve the crown for getting through today.” Richie smiled, lightly beginning to massage the smaller boy’s spine.
“It certainly has been one, hasn’t it.”
The two spent a moment sat in comfortable silence, Richie slowly working out a knot in the center of Eddie’s back. The comfort soon turned charged however, as both boys sucked in a breath to speak.
“Eds-”
“Rich- Oh, sorry, you go first.”
“No, no, you go.” Richie shook his head fervently, his heart rate jumping.
“I just- I’m sorry. I’m really embarrassed. I should have listened when you guys told me to let go. I made us all look like dumbasses, me falling on you like that.” Richie quirked an eyebrow, nearly letting out a laugh. “I’m also sorry for falling on you.”
Richie did laugh at that. “And I’m sorry for not scooting to the left. The impact really hurt my ass, I’ll have you know.”
Eddie snorted. “Oh, you poor thing.”
“Doc says I can’t sit for a week.”
“You’re sitting right now, asshole.”
“Yeah, and it’s hurting my asshole, so maybe think about that before you judge me.”
Eddie gave a real laugh then, his face crinkling up happily, his freckles stretched across his nose in a smattering of stardust.
Richie fucking noticed.
“Eddie.”
Eddie looked up at Richie, surprised by the serious tone in his voice.
“Yeah..?”
“I- I think I like you.”
Eddie gave him a flat look. “Well, I would sure hope you do. We’ve only been friends for years.”
“No, Eds, I- like you. As in- I’d like to kiss you.”
Eddie’s face froze. “Oh.” His brain caught up with the moment. “Oh.”
“Can I?” Richie’s voice was barely a whisper. “Kiss you, I mean.”
Eddie just stared blankly at him, all conscious thought flying right out of his mind.
“Richie-”
“Shit.” Suddenly Richie’s hands were scraping over his face. “That was way too forward, fuck, I’m sorry-”
“No, no Richie, you’re fine.” Eddie laughed nervously. “I just.. Wasn’t prepared for that is all.”
Richie’s face burned behind his hands.
“I would like that.”
Richie peeked through new cracks between his fingers.
“You would?”
Eddie smiled and nodded sheepishly.
“Yeah. Maybe.”
Richie dropped his hands in awe, leaning towards his friend.
“I just-” Richie nearly groaned in frustration as he was stopped short. “..don’t see how you would wanna kiss a loser.” Eddie gestured at the broken arm tucked between them. If Richie was suddenly, magically doing everything Eddie wanted, he might as well charm him into a little removal spell.
What could he say? He knew how to play Richie like a fiddle.
Contrary to Eddie’s, however, Richie was struck with his own idea.
Whipping his wand out of his back pocket, he sat cross-legged on the bed facing Eddie, his concentration face on. Eddie raised a brow but followed suit, mirroring his position.
“You still keep your wand in your back pocket?” Eddie gave him a disgusted look. “That’s so fucking dangerous, Richie-”
“Shut up.” Richie mumbled, beginning to mutter an incantation under his breath.
“The fuck are you-”
“Shut up.” He resumed his spell, concentrating sharply as he drew a concise “v” through the air.
“Rich-”
“There.” Richie straightened up, tucking his wand back into the pocket, warning (as usual) unheeded. He smiled at his work, satisfied.
“What’d you-” Eddie’s words left him as he looked at the sling. Shining brightly over the “s” was a red letter “v”, transforming the insult into a title (he was certainly not over-proud to wear, no sir) on his arm, a very unexpected response.
“That better?” Richie was smiling at him, his usual, every day Richie smile, the one he had when he beat Mike at chess or when his Christmas gift to Bev went over well, or when he got a higher grade than Stan in a Runes essay. It was pride, for sure, but on Richie it was never cocky or obnoxious (though they all loved to tease him as though it was). It was always a smile of accomplishment, from a boy told frequently by the world that he was incapable. It was a smile of achievement, victory; it was infectious. It was one of Eddie’s favorite things about Richie.
His Richie, who he’d always known, always been aware of loving.
Eddie surged forward unexpectedly, sealing their lips in a clumsy kiss, one that seemed to sing through the air on the sigh of Stan’s finally.
“Better.” Eddie mumbled as they shakily pulled apart, both breathless and dizzy. It took all of two milliseconds before Richie was cupping Eddie’s face in his hands, kissing with a power he didn’t know he had. Eddie did his best to reciprocate, tangling his left hand in Richie’s curls (another finally drifting through the cosmos) with his limp right arm still tucked between them. Their knees knocked together awkwardly, and the leaning over was putting painful pressure on Richie’s ribs (he realized dimly that they might not be in the best shape after the fall), but the kiss was soft and meaningful and right.
Through the haze, Eddie noticed one more thing.
“Rich-” He pulled out of their kiss, nose hovering just in front of the others. “Your glasses are still broken, the glass is scratching my face.” He giggled a bit, Richie pulling a face at being interrupted.
“Fuck, I don’t care-” He went to throw them off, pulling Eddie closer again.
“Let me fix them.” He laughed, grabbing them away from Richie and setting them on his leg. He leaned around to grab his wand from the bedside table.
Richie watched him with a raised eyebrow, remembering Eddie’s many failed attempts, and dreading just how long this would take.
Eddie balanced the glasses before taking his wand into his non-dominant hand (a recipe for disaster; Richie braced himself) and swished-
“Occulous repairo.”
A quiet woosh surrounded the glass as the fragments popped back into place and seamlessly wove back together. Both watched in awe as the whole set repaired itself.
“Wow, Eds.” Richie whispered in quiet reverence as Eddie replaced his wand on the table, before turning around and attempting to deposit Richie’s glasses back on his face one-handedly.
“Whoa whoa whoa, let me help you with that, you already fucked up my ass, I don’t want you to do the same to my eye.” Richie quipped as he put the specs on himself.
Eddie half-heartedly rolled his eyes. “I spent all day learning that spell for you, and this is the thanks I get.”
Richie got that devilish twinkle in his eye.
“Oh I’ll give you a good thanks.” He smirked before scooping Eddie up into his arms, kissing wildly all over the other boys face. “Thank you, thank you, thank you!” He exclaimed between Eddie’s laughs.
“You’re welcome, Rich.” Eddie managed through his giggles, as Richie’s kisses slowed. They shared a deep look before kissing again.
They stayed that way, laughing and kissing and joking and being, and all afternoon Eddie couldn't stop thinking about the way Richie looked at him after he successfully completed the spell; that same, wonderful, proud-of-you smile that he’d always wanted to be on the receiving end of.
He hadn’t noticed it all those times before, but thinking back on it as he did now, he realized just how many times he had.
He hadn’t noticed, not before, but this time, he finally did.
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this has quickly become a la'gaan stan blog
#young justice#young justice season 4#young justice spoilers#la'gaan#im so sorry yall but the way they're showing his growth??#and the 'kaldur won't address his grief and trauma'#and the 'we never say goodbye'#im kinda snervous
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