#im sleepy while writing this

[lavenderleahy]

Im sorry to bother you but I saw your tags in this post: https://www.tumblr.com/lavenderleahy/767005666786279424 and had to say YES. You get it! I agree! I have thought this, but did not want to say it because I did not want it to be true. It is definitely slanted towards Buck does not feel as strongly as Tommy, based on 8x06 (and a reasonable reading in keeping with the rest of the text).

My take on this is that Tommy has been keeping a wall up. He’s the Hot Pilot, the cool aloof guy! And that’s great, they get along, but it’s hard to fall in love, truly in love, with a cardboard cutout. It makes sense that Tommy would want to protect himself, especially if he sees their unequal feelings. So the break-up isn’t out of nowhere and in fact this would be ideal and soooo ripe for meaty storytelling and discerning character work but—

I think the show is going to lean into that, and Buck is going to get over it (quickly? Idk) because he’ll be painted as never that invested (they might let us have a yet). And I have other problems with the writing, but also I t’s just not as interesting to see “oh yeah we dated and it was… fine. Cool dude.” It will be smothering a flickering ember. I hate it !!! They used 8x05 to make it hurt? Give us some follow through!

Sorry! Your tags are so right, Buck’s not head over heels, and I wanted to say yeah, that might be my reading too. I just can’t stop thinking about these guys.

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(The post in question)

We are in total agreement. I hate to say it but I am not confident that Buck was as invested in the relationship as Tommy was, and I think there are signs that point to that! I feel like we as a bucktommy fandom got so caught up in defending tommy against the accusations of "lack of development" (both as a character and in the bucktommy relationship) that we didn't realize that maybe there was some lack of development on buck's side of the relationship.

While not telling us, I do think that 911 showed us that Tommy is no longer the hateful person he was when he started out at the 118. We can see this in his interactions with Hen and Chimney (in the "begins" episodes) and how Bobby approves of him in s7.

I also think the show made a point to demonstrate how much Tommy adored Buck. He thinks Buck is adorable and smoking hot, he looks at him adoringly, he visits him and other members of the 118 in the hospital, and he shows up for Buck when he needs him. Unfortunately we don't really see Buck prioritize Tommy in this way...? So I do think the haters were right to a point, the show did not develop the bucktommy relationship, at least on buck's side, very well.

My thoughts on this have very much been inspired/jumpstarted by mel's @kinardsevan post and follow-up. So definitely read those if you haven't yet!

I'm also exploring this idea in a fix-it fic (I'll put a little snippet below the cut). I would love Buck and Tommy to work (in canon would be nice! But especially in my brain where I play with them like dolls), but they have some hurdles to overcome. I have no idea where the show is going to take this, and i don't have high hopes (realistically? They'll probably drop it), but i am loving that no matter what we as a fandom get to make sure they end up back together.

Thank you for bombarding me with this ask!! This is what fandom is for. 💜

Tommy scrubs his hands over his face. “I didn’t say that! I said–. Look. You said Abby was the most transformative relationship of your life.”

“Until now.”

“Until now. But what exactly has our relationship transformed in you? That you’re bi? You didn’t need me for that.”

“Tommy, when you kissed me, it changed everything for me!”

“Evan. You’re missing the point.”

[mistycrypt]

Cryptics time! A Sonadow tale (yeah, im recommending a fic)

Welcome to the corner where I talk about my current fixations content and media I just consumed (A.K.A: I just finished something and I wanted to feel like the guy from rattatuille)

Today will be talking about: If I Were Easy To Kill, You Would Have Done It Alredy

A cozy T rated fanwork featuring a fan favorite couple after the tragics events of Sonic 3 ! made by TrenchcoatGecko on ao3 (Complete)

Mayor Sonic 3 Spoilers, Highly recommend to watch the movie before interacting!

The story takes place days after Shadow's successful sacrifice to save the earth. Here, we accompany Sonic on a 10 chapters long path of grief and acceptance with a not-so-unexpected plotwist that will make sonic's quills tingle because of emotions once he tought impossible.

It's a light read with a tiny touch of angst, nothing too extreme or dense, feels like a summer rain, a plushie hug which gives the lector a wholesome and understandable point of view of dealing with daily problems.

Personally, I found it a relatable and fun read with a nice characterization of mostly everyone.

[lesbiannnsstuff]

somno, noncon, masturbation. mdni 18+

Jackie who always pretends to drift off first during sleepovers, only to stay awake after Shauna falls asleep. 

Jackie who after a few whispered attempts makes sure that Shauna is actually unconscious.

Jackie who starts running her hands over her own body just like she does when she's alone. She squeezes her tits firmly over her pajamas and presses her thighs together, searching for friction, while biting her lower lip to suppress a whimper that teases to slip out.

Jackie who allows her gaze to devour Shauna with a hunger that has been simmering for months now. She barely remembers when she started acting like such a degenerate, but it's not her fault, right? Not when Jeff can't make her cum, even if his life depended on it and definitely not when her dear best friend is looking like a whole fucking meal centimeters away from her. Lips slightly parted, chest rising and falling so hypnotic, her toned thighs so delicious in those short shorts that almost induced a cardiac arrest in Jackie the moment she saw Shauna coming out of the bathroom with them.

Jackie who began to use her thumb to slowly tease her nipple while the other hand deliberately moved down her body. Down her stomach, her waist, her hips, until it reached her... oh, she couldn't hold back the gasp that escaped her lips when the tip of her fingers massaged her sensitive skin.

Jackie who while touching herself, began to imagine what it would feel like if it were Shauna's hands touching her, or how it'd feel if it was her touching Shauna. Could she make her as wet as she was, right now? Could she make her feel the same shiver down her spine if she moved her fingers the same way she's doing right now? Could she make Shauna have to bite her lips so she wouldn't let out her moans?

Jackie who froze for a second when Shauna suddenly turned on her side, facing her, with her hot breath kissing Jackie’s cheek. That should have stopped Jackie, it should've scared her away and make her stop, but how could she felt her clit throbbing deliciously as she moved her fingers faster. 

Jackie who in a moment of impulsiveness and pure pleasure hovered her lips over Shauna's. A tease of a kiss she dreamed about every night. She darted the tip of her tongue out, slightly dragging it on them over. It's like she always imagined, so soft. And, just like that, the knot in her belly snapped, and she came on her fingers wishing it was Shauna's instead. 

[apocalyptic-byler]

LETTERGATE FIC COMING LATER TODAY WHO CHEERED

[scionshtola]

friends idk if i’m gonna make it til midnight lol

[alchemiclee]

other people can ship what they want, but I will only ship aventurine gay and never a straight ship. the dynamic of straight relationships/ships is never balanced (societies fault mostly) and that boy sure needs some balance. if you ignore the het-ifying of gay relationships with the whole pointless top/bottom debate, gay relationships are more equal by nature. aven needs someone in his life who is his equal.

for example, in the story it was pointed out the footprints were side by side when he was walking with ratio. therefore ratio sees him as his equal. and i'm sure aven would feel more at ease with him if he wasn't dealing with everything he was atm. aven is such an unbalanced character fighting against an eternal power struggle of everyone towering above him, trying to beat his luck, and he's trying to get above for once. then ratio appears, treating him as an equal, balancing him. even if you dont see it as a ship/see it as a platonic ship/nonromantic/friends you still have to admit how good their dynamic is.

[disclaimer edit: "by nature" I mean society's and most individual peoples nature. nature not meaning "science" but the built in habit that's existed in society and taught to people for millenia and people treat as "fact" (when it's not tbh) sorry for confusion! dont know how to explain it well! i was half asleep when i made this post idk what i was trying to say exaclty but it upset someome so maybe delete later]

[hikarry]

Okay children, gather around. It's "Spencer Complains and Acts a Little Mad" Time:

I have been raw dogging life for 1 month without my adhd/depression/anxiety/mood stabilizers medication and without a single Therapy appointment

I haven't left my house in 1 month, I haven't spoken to any of my (in person) friends in over 1 month, I haven't seen my family in 1 month, I haven't seen my bloody cat in over 1 month, I've barely left my bloody room in over 1 month, and I've been listening to my bloody voice almost every day for 1 hour so I can finish editing the bloody podcast for over a month

To top it all of: I haven't had a decent night's sleep in about 4 days now (in which I just don't sleep or I have extremely vivid nightmares with my departed mother and/or scenarios where I die over and over and over again but can't speak to ask for help before it happens - fun for all the family, if you ask me) and I might or might not be completely and absolutely going insane, with only Good Omens season 1 (6/6) and season 2 (5/6) and the existence of Crowley/red haired Fire Pokemon David Tennant Edition being my sole producer of any amount of serotonin

How am I alive? Good question. Beautiful genderfluid demonic content can be some very nice very distracting content for individuals that simp for Fire Type David Tennant Pokemon like myself

I am quite sure my only contact with anything mental health related in the past weeks has been my best friend whom is very very annoying and refuses to leave me the heck alone and whom is a nurse and is working extra time to advice my stupid ass the best she can, bless her heart

So, with my personal nurse's permission, I have doubled my sleeping medication for the night and, as Fall Out Boy once wrote for the song "Alone Together" in one of my favorite albums to have ever been created "Save Rock and Roll": I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead

[baeshijima]

lord give me strength to finish this haitham piece...

pls.... ugly cries....

[kushtibokt]

　—Been years since he joined this brand of business, and yet he still hasn't gotten used to the nearly 10 hour long diplomatic meetings that happened occasionally, where he absolutely cannot drop his performance for even a minute too long.

　His already deep-seated exhaustion product of keeping a charade is only exacerbated by how obnoxious the clients were all day long.

[tired-needs-sleep]

it's like a hydra. knock out one drawing idea and 5 more spawn in its place

[solivagantingrebel]

(tapping the mic with my finger as I'm presenting my fic to the world wide web) I will once again make them fall asleep in each other's arms. Thank you for continued support and understanding. This will happen again. I will never stop.

[tired-lamb]

i am. genuinely so sleepy and I have a class in like thirty minutes

[danketsuround]

sunday six

another monday sunday six! (barely monday cause it's 2am right now and a little earthquake woke me up). i was tagged by @overdevelopedglasses this week, thank you! i saw some of you already posted so i will tag two other usual suspects @c-cw-f-saeko and @passthroughtime and anyone else who wants to share!

i was busy this long weekend TT but i'll share what i have written since last sunday six :)

(lost judgement spoilers) this is a continuation of the post-LJ au with kuwana and mitsuru, who are living together in ehime after reiko's arrest. you can read more of it in my sunday six or fic tag!

“I used to swim!” Mitsuru cries with a mouthful of fabric.

Kuwana hangs over him like wet laundry. "Things change," he offers simply.

His words stain him with sympathy over consolation. He states it like a fact, though, Mitsuru's little heart remained the same--perhaps nostalgic for a time when he could trip over his own feet. He sobs, grieving a life he fantasized about having. Marriage, children, retirement by the beach, swimming with no destination--those impossible things used to be important to Kuwana, too. But they witnessed a miracle, the two of them, and it was held in the atom-small grasp between their hands. Crying--a sure-fire sign of a natural, thinking life--had returned the strength to his voice. Mitsuru is alive. The more he cried the more alive he must have felt. The nerves in his hands could feel and know the shapes in front of him. Kuwana wipes his tears and snot again, and the shape of Mitsuru's face prints itself on the rind of his sweatshirt sleeve. He would hang it dry in the evening, and the print would disappear.

"It's my fault," Mitsuru whimpers quietly. "I can't swim. It's my fault."

Kuwana stands up and extends his reach, releasing Mitsuru’s misty red hands in favor of a spot under his arms. “You can still swim,” he says.

“No,” he musters childishly.

"Here. It’s okay. It’s okay, let’s go." He lifts. Mitsuru slumps forward a bit, then all the way. “Let’s go swimming.”

[scionshtola]

i wish i had somewhere to write that was not my bed

[kowaindar0u]

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[spideyhexx]

sorry didn’t answer more asks my head started hurting😔😔😔also!!! Am gonna be mia for some time tomorrow night but will be back later at night🫶