#im sick and i hate it so much

[lumindidit]

I'm gonna temporarily dissappear from the internet for a few reasons. I'll be back but holy crap the reason is a bit of a good one. I put my reasons under the read more thing because it's long. I also do rant a bit but I'm not mentally ok and it makes me feel better. I'll also probably come back with a few thing I did that were hilarious to me in a reblog.

So I currently have bronchitis. That's bad enough. But my back hurts because I hurt a muscle in it (pretty sure I pulled a muscle from aggressive coughing one day) and coughing causes a sharp pain to go through my back where I hurt it. And as I said, BRONCHITIS MAKES ME COUGH A LOT. So you can guess why I'm in extreme pain. I have the main treatment but I don't have the $35 to get the cough syrup the doctor prescribed and I have none at home for the same reason I can't get the prescription one. Gotta love insurance being a jerk and not covering a prescription grade cough be gone because "there's over the counter variants". This is the same reason I'm not on allergy meds that will make me stop looking like L from Death Note, I CAN'T AFFORD IT UNLESS I CAN'T BREATHE.

I'm also currently unable to see a lot of things because I broke my glasses in a pained, blind rage. I have a spare frame to fix it but it may take a few days because I'm not ok physically, can't see 5 ft. from my face and the pain is making me angry to no end. I also would have a second set of glasses if the insurance companies weren't jerks who only give adults 1 pair every 2 years.

Also, I don't do well with sudden pain like this, and I'm having a bit of a mental breakdown. I also can't play video games because I can't see the TV enough to know what is going on, so im limited to a Switch and Tablet (I have a phone but the only game on there I won't play because I'M SICK, who would play Pokémon Go when you can barely stand and not feel like youre trying to hack up a lung).

I also hurt my foot so that's fun. It seems to be bruised because if it was broken, I couldn't use the way i have been without considerable pain (i hurt the area right where the ball of the foot meets the arch and can walk on my toes but not my whole foot). This may also be why my glasses frames broke but all I can say is holy crap lenses are strong. My lense didn't get damaged at all. I have a pair of similarly sized frames to my broken ones and will be using those to fix my glasses once I feel better.

[creed-of-cats]

"If voting changed anything they wouldn't let people do it-" grabs your face THEY DIDN'T JUST "LET" PEOPLE DO IT, MOST PEOPLE COULDN'T VOTE FOR HUNDREDS OF YEARS. PEOPLE OF COLOR ONLY GOT THE FULL RIGHT TO VOTE 50 YEARS AGO IN THE US, THATS BARELY A GENERATION.

IF IT DIDNT MATTER AT ALL WHY WOULD THEY SPEND SO MUCH TIME GERRYMANDERING THE SHIT OUT OF EVERYWHERE?? WHY CAN'T FELONS VOTE?? WHY CANT PUERTO RICO VOTE? WHY DO THEY KEEP SWITCHING DATES AND LAWS AND TIMES AND WHATEVER THEY POSSIBLY CAN TO STOP PEOPLE FROM VOTING?? WHY DO THEY MAKE EFFORT AT ALL??

BEING DISILLUSIONED IS A REASONABLE RESPONSE. BUT PEOPLE FOUGHT AND DIED AND ARE STILL FUCKING DYING FOR THAT RIGHT, DONT SPIT IN THEIR FACE.

[justaz]

just watched an edit of all the times arthur protected merlin, the subtle moments in battle where arthur grabs merlin and drags him behind him to act as his human shield. someone in the comments said merthur considered themselves one another’s protector. something something arthur being merlin’s knight in shining armor something something uther calling merlin arthur’s guardian angel

[bookalicent]

yeah so this was insane

[imperiuswrecked]

Marvel hates Romani characters so much. I want to die.

[davrinassan]

i need help with vet bills (again).

hi. for those of you who remember, earlier this year i asked for donations to help me afford toos' vet bills, who we found out through your help had kidney failure, and again with your help we got her on medication for it. unfortunately it wasn't enough, and we lost her. and then shortly after, dexter began deteriorating, which we put down to his grief of losing toos - she kept him young, he followed her everywhere, he only played because of her, he only ate when she ate, etc. without her he just stopped. and then he started to have seizures and fits daily. we got him blood tests, but he was suffering so badly. we made the decision to put him down. i didn't ask for donations this time, because i was so deeply embarrassed to ask for help again. but we are still recovering financially from that, as well as the parts of toos bills that didn't get covered from donations. my mother hasn't worked for a very long time, she's disabled and very sick, and she receives PIP from the government that only covers her monthly medications that are not covered by the NHS. my father retired early to become her full time carer, and we are living off his pension. i am too disabled to work, but because my mother already receives PIP and i live with them, the government are resistent to giving me any help - so i have zero income, and rely entirely on my parents.

this is jenny. she's a 14 year old cairn terrier, who loves when we garden because she wants to help dig holes. she helped us bury dexter and toos, digging their graves for them with my dads help. she's an angel, and loves people so much she likes to escape under the fence and join other families for awhile. one time she got into someones back garden and asked to come in as they were eating lunch. she really hates flies, and will try to bite them out of the air (she has never succeeded but i believe she will one day). she will rub her face against you until you start stroking her, and will growl and even bark if you stop! we don't have the money to take jenny to the vets, for a checkup or for anything they may want to do. this has been an ongoing issue, but toos and dexter took priority, and it hasn't been a bother to her. she existed as normal for a long time, but that's since changed.

jenny has this lump in her mouth, it is larger than the picture shows, but she is a nightmare to force open her mouth since this got so big, i think it's uncomfortable or painful for her. she can't properly close her lips now, and it has pushed all her front teeth away, misshaping her mouth, and sometimes it bleeds profusely. eating has become difficult for her, she can't eat anything hard, and currently will only eat soft human foods like rice, scrambled egg chopped up so small she doesn't have to chew, and things like soups and gravy. she's lost a lot of weight, and i'm getting frightened. to add onto it, i've found lumps like this across her body. i've done as much research as i can, and i believe it to be an oral tumor, it fits, and it looks right, and it spreading across her body is called 'full staging'. and going by all i've read - they will want to remove them in surgery. according to my research, this will cost anywhere from £585 - £4,740 for just the lump in her mouth. that's not including any checkup/test costs, or the other lumps on her body.

she hasn't been to the vet yet, i don't have any secure goal or bills to share, just my assumptions and beliefs from researching myself online. my parents refuse to take her because we can't afford it. i want to save up money, have it in my bank, and show them that we can help her now, before it gets worse, or it's too late. as i said before, i don't have any income, so the only way i can do this is with help.

here's a link to my paypal.me

the icon is a little mouse, and the @ is rivellon

i struggled so badly posting the first post like this for toos. i felt so guilty and embarrassed and ashamed. but i have no choice again, i want to help jenny. i don't want her to suffer. and selfishly, i can't handle losing another dog so soon. this year has been waking nightmare, and i need your help to stop it getting even worse.

please reblog and share, even if you can't donate.

thank you for reading.

[macbcth]

what your favourite dunmeshi ship says about you

farcille: you're classic, you make sense, you like to see the lesbians winning and also you're a bit of a monster fucker: you may or may not specifically have a wing kink

chilshi: you like your men hairy and fat, also you are not immune to panty-shot propaganda, your love language is acts of service

chilaios: you have a size kink

labru: you prefer mlm ships over any other pairing, you think character foils should fuck, you may be a sucker for blue eyes

laimar: your favourite trope is friends to lovers, also you like to see the bisexuals winning, you're also.. what the poets might call.... weird

marchil: your favourite trope is enemies to lovers, your love language is banter, and you're the kind of person who says 'i can fix him' far too often

kabumisu: your ship could burn down the world and violate the geneva convention and you would still call both of them babygirl, also you like angst

laios x monsters: you like tentacle porn

[chrisbangs]

BANG CHAN — Special MC KCON LA DAY 3 (230821)

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

[blighted-lights]

i think it'd be rlly funny if ravage and minimus hated each other btw. the only reason they get along is bc of their mutual connection to megatron. and even that isn't enough sometimes lmao

[justaz]

merlin (immortal) giving arthur (pendragon) the only blade that could kill him

[peachfruitcake]

not really here anymore

[krysissy]

I think you can tell which one I put more effort in 💀💀

[heatwa-ves]

day 21 + 22- family

[sodapupz]

I hate that people represent NO aspec characters as not wanting a partner at all in fandom. They're given a QPR or are shipped under the guise of "aro people can still date" with no elaboration.

[uzi-x33]

i genuinely want Adam dead. my poor miya bro🙁🙁. you can see the utter panic on his face from seeing Adam, and he only said like- 2 sentences to him. Petition to put Adam in jail in season 2🥰🥰 also ty to Danny motta for pointing out the fact that Adam said he wanted to fucking deflower miya when he was older.

(uhh more of a rant in the tags lmao)