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"Battle of Alberta, right? It was my first game: Calgary, Edmonton. We would play them in the preseason, and you know—trying to make the team I'd always be asking him to fight in preseason, always. I'd be runnin' my mouth—like, tryna fight the biggest, baddest guys, tryna make an impression.
And he would never fight me. He'd always tell me, like If you make the team, I'll fight ya. You don't have to worry about that, but I'm not fightin' ya preseason. And I totally respect it, I'm not gonna chase him down. It is what it is. He's established—I'm looking for my chance.
So I get called up, we're playing Edmonton in Edmonton: Battle of Alberta. [He's] over there on the other side, and it's like the coolest thing ever... you know, the buildup was crazy 'cuz I knew if the opportunity presented itself—if the game went the way I hoped it would, I would get an opportunity to fight him.
I remembered in warmups tryna skate by the redline initially just kind-of gettin' a feel for it—to see if I have to say something or whatever... He's got no bucket on, his big, bald head is glarin' around, he skates by the redline with the biggest smile on his face, and just gives me the biggest wink...
At that moment I knew Okay, he remembers. It's gonna happen at some point.
We were up 1, I think it was 2-1 going into intermission or whatever—Oh, no, I think it was 1-1 and we had just scored so the position I'm like Yeah, I don't know if I can fight him now because we have the momentum and we're winning the game. I don't want to lose a fight, then we lose a game and now I'm, like, never getting a chance again.
You kind-of gotta play the game within the game like [...] there's an opportunity to fight, and there's an opportunities where you shouldn't fight. Things weren't looking good, then they score and now we need a spark. I'm like Fucking perfect.
I just skate by their bench and I'm like It's time, big boy! He jumps out, we line up, and he goes We squarin' up or we goin' right away?
I'm like I'm not fuckin' squarin' up with you right now! We're goin' right away!
Drop em, we go right away, grab each other. I know he's a lefty so he's gonna let go—let's go of my right arm before he throws one. I threw one. Big boy went down, he jumped back up pretty quick. I don't know, I tell people all the time, I'm like I would've been in the league fuckin' 2 years earlier if there was good footage of this fuckin' fight!
For some reason—For some reason, the cameras cut out. I don't know if [he] had his cousins working the cameras or something that night, or if they're in the video room or what happened.
That was my first NHL game.
It's funny 'cuz Chucky was there—Chucky's there and he knows, he saw, he always laugh when I say that I would've been in the league earlier 'cuz he knows how things like that go. You get a little bit of energy and buzz around ya, and then kind-of momentum takes you a little bit further but unfortunate[ly], I missed that opportunity but I don't regret a thing.
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The opportunity was there, I just—unfortunately, for whatever reason, the Hockey Gods said not yet." (Ryan Lomberg reminiscing over his first NHL game/fight) (x)(x) (please go watch the second link to see lombos giant smile as he tells this story jfc)
and other genuinely bonkers things to say about a hockey player in your first fight... like why did this need to be said like that...what
#ryan lomberg#lombo what the fuck#for the sake of clarity lombo does refer em by name but i think its funnier to obscure it in this case for people who dont know who it is#im sure edm and the bald description gave it away of who it is#but youll never fucking guess who this bitch is waxing poetic about#the wha the huh#HIM??????#WE'RE ROMANTICISNG THAT FUCKIN GUY??? REALLY????#i hate it here#this just in the guy you adore just said the horniest shit about the worst person you know#completely forgot they both were on the flames at the same time its been erased from my memory#(guy who does not pay attention to anything that is not pantr related)#but also matthew giggling about lombos little I WOULDVE BEEN HERE EARLIER IF THE CAMERAS WORKED RIGHT#how dare we lose him to calgary again HOW DARE#hello special little matthew cameo#the homoeroticism of it all#the inherent homoeroticism of hockey fights#why did he describe it like that#do you know what “scrappy ahler tries to make it big by fighting everyone in sight to impress staff and even challenges the enforcer vet#knowing itll make him look good if he does and said enforcer vet does not give him the time of day and goes i promise ill fight you when yo#get called up during the regular season not now and to which said scrappy ahler gets called up during the regular season and doesnt expect#much but gets completely surprised when the vet 1. remembers who he is 2. the promise he made and 3. even gives him a cheeky wink about it.#and the game is chippy from the start the ahler isnt sure theyll be able to fight hin but low and behold the hockey gods bless him#and he does he even gets to decide the rules AND wins it in one punch. the downside? none of it was filmed.#but the memory of that vets wink rings clear“ does to me man?#also. a classic case of hockey gods giveth. hockey gods taketh away.#sweetheart you can be gay AND also want your cool fight filmed honey youre asking for too much#yeah lombo does like calling men bigboy yeah that's a thing
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Actually, I really wish Tumblr as a whole was less comfortable using feminizing language for gay men, especially gay East Asian men.
#unforth rambles#brought to you by the person i saw call chu wanning 'mo ran's mother' and the person who defended them#putting aside the question of accuracy re his role in mo ran's life#the words parent and father both exist yall#like idk but also wtf#see also girlboss and such being applied to gay men#idk i feel like im in the vast minority on this one#but my whole life ive seen gay men feminized in real life against their will#no matter how masc they were or wanted to be everything became fem#maybe im just to old to be with the times on why this is cute and funny abd okay#but given tumblr demographics and all#like shit like this is imo why so many women and afab nb people in fandom get accused of fetishizing#we older queers remember when doing this was considered disgusting homophobia actually#and imo it goes double or triple when they gay men in question are east asian#i really wish we could just fuckin stop#to be clear im not saying it IS fetishizing im saying i wish there was more awareness of the history of forced feminizing language#being used towars gay men in general and toward east asian men regardless of sexuality#for a lot of people i gotta think the knee jerk reaction to this kinda language being used is these context isnt teehee how cute#its ew who would say that#anyway i blocked op on the mo ran stuff but it still left a bad taste in my mouth
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me when I remember what wolverine looks like
#I'm reading a scogan fic and took a moment to properly remember & imagine logan in this scene and...#logan is really hot and im really gay you know how it is#i fear what i will become when I start testosterone if this is me at a baseline#anyways hugh jackman's pretty fuckin hot is my point#my.txt#me.txt#wolverine#logan howlett
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#absolutely do not want to argue because i get where the post is coming from with but im gonna give some thots#re: dennis autism!!!! ok!!!!!#ive talked about it before but there is WAY more to him being autistic than just the buzzer noises. when i first watched that i was like#is THIS really why people hc him as autistic. :/ and i get it! i do! i think he has misophonia inherited from glenn personally#its actually why i captioned the noise sensitive den gifsets as that rather than just. autism.#but personally i see his scripted social interactions and i go. yeah. me. me fuckin too.#and his outbursts. which are VERY personally relatable to me#i have uh. basically the same triggers? very similar triggers at least#i think dennis' neurodivergency presents itself differently because of his upbringing and thats why a lot of ppl go ???? when you say.#'yea i think den's autistic actually'#and like i said i was absolutely like. what the hell are people talking about. he's not autistic#but uh. on rewatches? hm.#dennis quite literally masks almost 24/7#charlie has no qualms about being perceived as like. weird. but dennis masks SO hard. SSSSSSOOOOO hard#i once saw a post like. charlie has boy autism and dennis has girl autism which honestly fucking hate that but its... kiiiind of true#ASD presents itself differently in adults depending on early social conditioning#mac fights gay marriage. group dates. new wheels. dee day. celebrity booze. all the big ones. all the hits.#look how he acts when he goes off script and is forced to speak off the cuff#the way glenn describes him as being very emotional but unable to adequately express his emotions too like. yeah. same.#theres so much more than the noise sensitivity#i could go on and on about how many fucking boxes he ticks but i honestly hate that shit. i know how autism works and that bitch is autisti#im going to refrain from commenting on the reasons why i feel charlie is more acceptably hced as autistic vs dennis because mmmmm but#dennis being 'hypersexual' (not about the sex. at all) and socially adept (has scripts/systems. charlie is more emotionally intelligent)#smells a lil stinky. smells a little bit like infantilization on charlie's part.#ada speaks#ok ill spare you guys. someday ill write a proper meta on this. ive talked about it before but.
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Okay so my newest brain worm is kinda based around how after Zach comes out to Jon and Angel and they're like "omg bro thank you for telling us we love you" pretty much instantly Angel looks back between Zach and Ruben once or twice and is like "Shut the fuck up you're dating" and they're like "I mean like we haven't really talked about that but like-" and Angel essentially goes "Ooh friends with benefits? Based." And I kinda forgot how perceptive he is at times so I think it'd be really funny if he just straight up missed a lot of subtext but can clock any romantic/sexual developments/activities in any of them pretty much instantly. If Jon started dating someone he knew the next time he saw him without being told. He knew Zach and Ruben were gonna get engaged before it had even happened and sent them a congratulations text like the day after despite not being told, not seeing them in person for a hot second, and the fact that they didn't live together anymore.
#the senario thats in my head that i find really fucking funny goes like this#ruben: *walks into the living room where jon and angel are on the chouch watching a movie*#angel: *gives him a side eye once over* ew dude gross#ruben: i walked into the living room?#angel: you know what im talking about i know what you are#ruben very confused: gay?#angel: and i know what youve done#ruben: i literally just walked into the living room? i dont know what youre talking about#angel: *skeptically eyes him*#then not too long after Zach walks in#angel: Zach what were you doing not too long ago?#zach: taking a shower?#angel: and what were you doing before the shower?#zach now panicking and kinda stumbling over his words: uhhh why? i mean like i was- um- like- i dont really see why you need to know that?#and durring that whole fiasco he was like getting steadly more red#ruben: *burries his face in his hands* goddamnit Zach you're such a shit liar dude#zach: im sorry! you know i cant lie for shit-#angel: fuckin told you Ruby i know what you are and what youve done#maybe this was funnier in my head but anyways#also doing incorrect quote shit took me back to middle school-#legit its how i started writing fanfic#anyways#if this gets out#itgo#angel phan
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Someone sent me a message on Discord like "why is everyone obsessed with the Random Guy" in regards to the tags on my previous post. SO. I definitely rambled there but also I love this plot a whole lot and it's very dear to me so:
Tolliver is the "Just a Guy" who Kronos wants dead for stealing all of the Devil's focus. The thing is, Tolliver doesn't WANT the focus but not much he can do! He was born and his parents opted to sell /his/ soul to the succubi in exchange for wealth and fame. So while they retained souls (and then promptly died after ticking off the wrong people with their money and habits, coincidental deaths of course) he doesn't have that leniency. He can do whatever he wants and he'll still be dragged to Hell when he dies even if he's a saint. His soul is already waiting for him down there.
So the Devil is like "well, time to send low ranking demons after my living toy but I distinctly do not wish him dead yet" and that's not really a thing Tolliver knows. So he thinks if he doesn't really fight back he's just gonna die early and while he doesn't think it's nice on earth, he'd rather not start his eternal burning quite yet. So he uses a magic marker (literally) to ward off and banish the demons. That's why the Devil is invested in him - it's entertainment on earth with his future property!
Kronos going up to kill him and then failing and then becoming his roommate is actually the reason why other demons kinda track Tolliver. They're tracking Kronos. They need Kronos back in Hell come on stop loitering on earth buddy. (he continues to loiter on earth)
The siren is purely coincidental in that Tolliver sees her when it's cold and gives her his jacket completely unaware she isn't even human. Then we have one of the bad guys, The Boogeyman. He feeds off of nightmares and that means Tolliver is a delight since all he HAS is nightmares. Man's never had a good dream in his life. So it's a nice little "promised" meal but he ropes the Sandman into luring others to sleep for him to feed off of. Eventually Lady Luck gets involved with Boogie and she's a bit arrogant and childish (there's lore there) and then she sees Tolliver. Fighting against Boogie's grasp despite having nothing to fight for. And she decides he deserves one win in his life since it's clear that the hand he's been dealt sucks. And stops helping Boogie which ends up being his demise.
All the demons that directly interact with Tolliver aren't there for the random guy, honestly. They're there for Kronos. Who unfortunately is obsessed with Tolliver (and he's got such a weird gay crush on the guy and gets so emotionally distraught when Tolliver doesn't feel the same cause he doesn't feel anything for anyone because he doesn't have a soul and feels zero attachment.)
#moe talks a lot#not art#my characters#hi i dont really draw actual comics for my ocs but i did actually manage like.... ten pages or smth of them on paper#ages ago though and i dont have the sketchbook around in a location i know ??#and and the plots name is evil bound ! if anyone cares#evil bound my beloved weird soulless guy and his even weirder demon roommate with a big gay crush on him#there are so many stupid comics from old computers#but i remember one of them was tolliver being scared of the dark like kronos can i hold your hand and#kronos just no fuckin way hold your own hand and then it was a panel of tolliver just holding his hands in front of his chest#like yeah poor guy doesnt like the darkness of night because thats when the demons come to get him#he doesnt see them in the daytime which is kind of a blessing#since then less people are around to see him use a magic marker or shake or tense up#but really hes the only one that can see the demons other than other demons since hes doomed#like if he met someone else that didnt have a soul they could see the low ranking demons too#but most of the demons that show up have a mostly human form#only the succubi are strong enough to fully conceal themselves as a human tho#so the others have slightly odd traits even though everybody can see em#hi i love this plot a lot im sorry
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I know several people who like LOVE seasons 5-7 (11th doctors run) and think the storylines and moffats writing are brilliant and I don't get it!!! what am I missing??? why does literally every single episode have the exact same stakes: Rory/Amy/the doctor is dead. forever. so dead. but wait!!! what if they aren't!!! why do so many of the explanations for why they're not actually dead feel so rushed like they were added at the last minute!! why does every single queer character act kind of weird and awkward about being queer!! why does the doctor casually say that women are inferior when no one's around!!! what the fuck!! hello!!!
#why is rory continuously proving himself as the Only Man To Ever Exist only for the characters/narrative to continuously imply hes lesser#amy tries to kiss the doctor?? at her wedding??????#when amy is stuck for 36 years why is she like i forgot how much rory loved me?? GIRL HE WAITED 1000 YEARS FOR YOU???? WHAT????#he is CONSTANTLY the butt of the joke despite being unequivocally without a doubt the best character from this era#what the fuck was up with river being their kid#THE 50TH ANNIVERSARY???? WHAT?? THAT SHIT WAS WEIRD RIGHT???#does anyone else find it annoying that moffat changed the opening theme and the tardis and the sonic and the doctor ALLLL at once#and then retconned the entire storyline the early seasons are based off of??#WHY IS THE DOCTOR SO GODDAMN ANNOYING?? LIKE SO MUCH MORE ANNOYING THAN THE OTHERS#and fucking sexist!!! so sexist!!!#anyone remember the characters who were like 'were the short fat and tall skinny gay men why do we need names' LIKE HUH???????#gay people still have names steven 😭#i feel like im going insane bc i have no one else to talk to abt it until my partner catches up#but you guys still think these seasons kinda suck right? like coming off of martha and DONNA and her AMAZING storyline#these just kinda pale in comparison right??????#the last centurion is probably the last really good plot of that era imo. none of the other plots come close to having an ending that cool#like rivers story couldve been amazing and then it was just uh. kinda weird. a bit confusing IDK#i dont want to be a dick when talking to people and like shit on smth they love but i genuinely have a hard time#finding kind things to say abt a lot of this era#also and this might just be me but i do not like amy and clara v much 😭 theyre so fuckin mean and not even funny#why were martha donna and rose sooooo well written and they all have rich backstories. we know their fuckin families!!#literally its never even fully explained what the fuck happened to amys parents 😩😩 they just move on. the only friend of theirs#ever shown is fucking river??? as a kid??#am i the only one who found all thay confusing
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Getting into anything new also means getting to do a fun little treasurehunt afterwards to find the people drawing gay trans art of the new thing Saluting our bravest soldiers (the people making queer art of my often kind of dudebro-y interests)
#jay talkin#shouts out to queer artists online you all get me you know whats good#i see one of my weird guys from computer game or tv w top surgery scars and i go FUCKIN YIPPIEEEEE!!!#metal gear 🤝 metalocalypse: love 2 see those weird men being gay and trans. also they both start w metal wowie#somebody got mad at me recently for making queer stuff abt my interests it was hilarious#cuz like a week after getting told to stop rubbing my queer hands over stuff that isnt gay/trans i went and got into#an adult cartoon from 2006 and started rubbing my queer hands all over that SO LIKE. you really cant deter me im having a great time#this dude told me to go play the sims instead of metal gear bc i was 'ruining it' by making characters queer#whos gonna tell him i can make mgs characters trans and gay in the sims too WOGUFHJGHDGJKFDHKJ
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#polls#music polls#music#taylor swift#taylor swift debut#debut#lover#taylor swift lover#ts polls#taylor swift polls#i still think the second half of this tracklist is fuckin wild#youve got a really intense iconic song about heartbreak thats like easily one of the best on the album#a really energetic bordering on silly song about fucking england. and English people. thats easily one of the worst on the album#really really sad heartbreaking song about her mom's battle with cancer#sex + sax#campest song ever about how all women and all gay people are cool asf and haters gonna hate#yntcd is like shake it off got addicted to acid or something#and also came out of the closet#and then youve got afterglow. which is like i know i suck im the worst person alive please dont leave me#which is immediately followed up by actually im the best and youre lucky to have me. would you like to hear a brendon urie high note#then a song thats supposed to be a wedding song but is lowkey creepy#then The album closer of all time#like in a world where lover was her final album daylight would have been the perfect track to end her discography like it so perfectly#summarises Everything imo#and then the most tragic belated bonus track ever 💀 it was like ok this mf gets one last nice song before i dump his ass and drop ylm#ellies polls
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okay now that im actually confronting it this makes a whole lotta sense that im going to continue to ignore
#this is about the system thing. btw.#damien the oc and damien the oc take two (different guy) (sekai edition) and the whole ass guy in my head are all different i think#izza flick is somewhat a fictive of a character called felicity shortened to flick and the hsr mc for some fucking reason#plus is the reincarnation of the og izza who died(?) i think#izzabelle felicity oswold why the fuck did you call yourself that#and shes not the same as erryn the oc but i think erryn is her projecting#gosh this is confusing#no yeah and i think. eilis is the host aka the one in control of the actual body. i think everyone else just tells her what to do#shes not very present i dont think. kinda like a mech iykwim? whats that fuckin anime i watjced a year and a half ago called#uh. yeah#i think izza flick is fronting most of the time?#the og izza was vaugely a fictive of akari from p:la#but also akari just exists too#an shiraishi and nemona nolastname have fusion'd steven universe stylei think#akitos there and hes really gay. uh. at least one person is happy about that.#shihos in there but doesnt wanna speak to anyone i think she is napping just forever and occasionally yells that we need to learn basse#kohanes there too yep yep. creates a panic attack then leaves like the wonderful friend she is#no i think.she does most of our schoolwork. and is also the nicest. so theres that#im gonna. shut up now before i think too hard. nope there is One Guy in here thats Me. Yep huh. shut up.#actually i think og izza is still there to deal w relatives and thats why im thinking about this now#idk#if she is shes very stressed about everything ever. idk. i dknt fukcing know
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im going to cry this is actually healing me
#dan and phil#dan and phil games#okay like#this is EXACTLY how the old videos were?? like humorwise???#but it's 2023 and cringe culture is dead and they're gay and happy and making jokes about it AND THE FUCKING ANNOUNCEMENT MOOSE. THE FUCKIN#THE FUCKING MOOSE WHISTLE#like sometimes when media i like is revived im low-key unhappy with it because it doesn't tickle my brain the same way but#they did it so so rigt and im not sure how but this is the most i've laughed in i don't know how long#thank you guys!!#im silently wheezing through my tears im going to go on a dan and phil games binge now :thumbs:#starting with the fnaf ones of course trying to manifest a spooky week#i really needed familiarity rn!! and unproblematic media and just good lighthearted fun i am absolutely reverting and i will be so fucking#unsufferable if you do not want to see that block the tag!!#im genuinely serious was not doing great today this video made me so so happy#okay yeah actually leaving to binge now will return maybe later to rant in tags#cue rambles
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i just remembered you still don't have any yt and therefore cannot ipad baby it up listening to music while drawing .... so you haven't been drawing. guys we have to get youtube to work for cream again so the askblog can live again
BROTHER IT’S BEEN A MONTH HOW COULD YOU HAVE POSSIBLY FORGOTTEN
#and also im in the post-artfight vortex i literally did 40 attacks🚶♂️ I havent really been able to draw anything serious since then#i’ve just been drawing stupid shit in ms paint and traditionally with my colorful markers while Podcasting#and the occasional tma fanart i try to make look good. and the random gay self insert art. those r the only things i’ve been drawing#i only drew my ocs being homo yesterday because that discord conference made me bored to tears#cramswering#i can use youtube with a vpn but i mostly watch over the top minecraft horror these days it is my cocomelom#but yeah now i actually listen to fuckin. stellar firma while drawing. Whatever. me and music broke up
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i love this tweet a lot bc its the most stupid shit ever but its literally how i feel abt akechi but on the opposite end. i like him BECAUSE he murders ppl and is just generally a terrible person
#yumuda.txt#like je isnt an uwu gay boi who has a crush on akechi but feels conflicted abt it bc of shido like any p5 makes you think he does#he doesnt care abt anything other than his revenge on shido. he only mentions how he and the pt COULDVE been friends in another life#akechi is a guy who has so much trauma from his childhood (possibly evrn having some disorder but im not just gonna say what hr has without#having it myself)‚ is always putting on a front and when he lets it go hes just. really fuckin angry#HES NOT A SOFT UWU BOI!!!!!!!!!!!!
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oh my god i havent made a stranger things gifset since march…. my bad… gifing literally every season to make up for it… ill post s1 tomorrow
#and i started the s2 one which based on the clips i chose i thinks gonna fuckin EAT#i rewatched one and two and screenrecording as i went now im watching four i skipped three lol#so the gif for three will probably be a little shit bc i just really dont wanna rewatch that season#i also wanna make a gay mike set ive been obsessed with him lately#i love when my stranger things hyperfixation returns its like an old friend#stranger things
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The objective hilarity of me walking out of the tattoo parlor with a fresh cartilage piercing of a gay flower... then stopping by the nearby small bookstore just for the hell of it, since I was already out...
And then buying. Two. Books with lesbians. And a gay pride flag magnet.
I sure am living a life lmao. Felt like walking with a glaring I'M GAY sign on. But the person at the register had a trans pride flag lanyard on so they absolutely understand lol
Anyways these r the things I got. Of course I've heard so much about Gideon the Ninth, so I decided to finally go for it and bought the first book. If I like it I'll buy the others.
I dont rly know anything about the other book, but I found it on the shelf with This
& I was like "Cowboy Bebop but Gay? Cheers I'll drink to that." So whoever u are Kel u better not be letting me down lol
Oh yeah and the new piercing
Here it is lol. Lighting is a lil weird so it looks less rainbow, but I swear it's gay. Sure fuckin feels it
#speculation nation#piercings#and U can see my grown in undercut 😭😭😭😭 dont worryyyyy about it#anyways the piercing went fine. like yea it pinched but it was really not a big deal#feels. weird. posting a pic of my ear. but there it is.#i feel like im rly catering to my lesbian side today lol. sure did feel it walking out of that bookstore#man. i need to cut my fuckin hair. i dont look gay enough. i want that to change.
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#thinkin abt…. cant remember if ive said anything in the past abt how i think linebecks not a coward#so im thinkin abt that. abt him being a coward. i think he’s… only partially a coward? idk like he is fuckin scared of everything but like.#he did go after the ghost ship he did go into the temple of the ocean king. but i think hes anxious af and does a lot of overthinking#he does get fucking scared but if hes in a sort of groove he can move past that fear- and most lf the time hes not really up against stuff#like his fear comes out the most with monsters/attackers like hes def most afraid in that sense#i imagine he can actually get through a dungeon pretty well dealing with traps n stuff but battlr? nuh uh#hes afraid of death. he’ll head into temples and chase down the ghost ship but hes going to run from fights so long as he doesnt know#how to fight properly. he probably stays skittish a little scared of his own shadow a little spooked by dungeon vibes but its better#hes fine going in alone but once he faces opposition he needs a buddy >:/ at his core hes a support unit with tertiary combat capabilities#idk what the secondary capabilities are. being gay? autism? autism capabilities? its his list of dnd skills
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