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on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#svsss#luo binghe#svsss au#scum villain#scum villian self saving system#shen yuan#shen qingqiu#disciple shen yuan#lbh. visibly exhausted and with twitchy eyes: im fine :) | everyone else: ho no the fuck you ARENT.#SQQ was hysterical not because he found out LBH was half-demon but bc he was having a long-awaited mental breakdown over his autonomy :)#or (limited) lack thereof. he was having a sudden onset crisis of mortality and was handling at quite literally the WORST time. oops#im thinking very hard that LBH would never push his disciple into the abyss especially with no system to force him to. so SQQ either#had to goad him into it (failing always) or throw himself in. he ended up doing it himself but not before some very impressive hysterics.#BUT ALSO. IF THIS HAD BEEN WHERE SQQ WAS THE HALF-HEAVENLY DEMON INSTEAD IT WOULD'VE BEEN SO GREAT.#and by great i mean horribly angsty bc SQQ is NOT doing too hot and has. in very SY-like fashion. convinced himself that LBH will kill him#when he finds out he's a demon. so when it comes out i have this mental image of him lunging at LBH and LBH flinches back. but SQQ wraps hi#hands around the blade of Zheng Yang and yanks it up so the tip of the blade is digging into his chest where is heart is. LBH can't yank th#sword away without risking slicing into SQQ's hands. SQQ's hair has fallen out of its tail/bun and is now messily spilling down his#back and its NO helping the kinda deranged look he has going on. he's visibly shaking and his eyes keep flittering away and back at LBH's#face. SQQ is looking at the messages from the system warning him that he has to go into the abyss or punishment will occur. he's like.#rambling though. talking about how shizun doesn't *like* unclean things and there is nothing more unclean than a demon. like he is#INSISTING. LBH can't?? get a fucking word in. actually. SY isn't listening that much either anyways. too overwhelmed with the system and#the amount of stress he's under and his crumbling mental state and the innate and primal desire to live even when he's standing in front of#his own executioner. it all ends with him sitting on the ground at the lip of the abyss with his hair falling in his face. he looks so#unkempt and fallen apart and so distinctly *non-Shen Qingqiu* that LBH feels physically ill over it. tears are streaming down SQQ's face#and despite everything he is smiling. its not a nice smile. its a very frayed falling apart at the seams about to crack smile.#he tells shizun not to worry about staining his blade with this disciple's filthy blood because this disciple will take care of it himself.#and then he falls into the abyss before luo binghe can so much as grab him. the only reason LBh doesn't literally jump in after him is bc#he was numb with shock and the abyss was already closed before he could feel his legs again :]
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smash???????? who said that?????????
engineer doesn't get enough love on this blog considering how much I cannot express my devotion to him, so I’m working to fix that :) this is similar to what I did for damien but it took foreverr!! iswm lighting is so so pretty which makes it impossible to get right ;;u;; the saturation is really high and there's multiple light sources so in terms of rendering it, its like it was personally designed to leave me dead on the floor :))))) either way,, I'm happy with how it turned out!! he’s very prettie :))
also bonus:
#kenna draws#markiplier#in space with markiplier#fanart#iswm#engineer mark#engineer markiplier#head engineer#in space with markiplier fanart#markiplier ego#markiplier egos#markiplier cinematic universe#markiplier fanart#iswm fanart#head engineer mark#don’t mind my little ramble :)))#gotta let the voices out sometimes!!!!#I have a captaineer fic I’ve been plotting for a long time and just finished writing chapter two#but I might have to shelf or rework it#plus i’m never sure what kinda stuff people would be interested in seeing yk!!#maybe I need a beta reader#but I got adhd and getting that feeling of accomplishment too early is the death of all my projects :)))#‘oop someone read it that means I’m done now’ yk im sayin#NE WAYS ENJOY THE ART
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its correlation with life and the stars in Teyvat
the water drop materials from domains from Sumeru have his exact flower design on them (i forgot the names, im at work rn sorry lol i can go into it later if you want,,) in both placedown on the ground level and the levitation Solar Isotoma in the sky level,, the sun is a star and gives energy and life,,
its less so that things were built or refer to him because of him,, and more so that the fundamentals of his very being and the Ancient Alchemy he studies are of the same origin as the knowledge of old and the life of Teyvat itself
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Is anyone going to help me explain this
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The little symbol that is literally associated with Albedo, a four-pointed golden flower, is sitting on the stained glass of the Mondstadt Cathedral.
This means something because I would pay money to assume that glass design, if not the glass itself (repairs obv) is older than he is. What's he doing here.
Also all the windows are the same btw. I noticed it on one on the other side so this isn't a one off thing
#i hope that made sense#i love him lol#also i study Alchemy#and i dont mean that 'turn lead into gold' crap#actual ancient Alchemy from the ones who invented it#the Ancient Egyptians#or Kem#sound familiar? the Art of Khemia?#:)#its what drew me to Albedo in the first place#when he mentioned Nigredo Albedo Rubedo Citrinitas#hes not off or backwards in his steps because his is prior to the misinterpretations of new age#and not a spiritual thing like the flipped rubedo and citrinitas steps from that one guy with the weird marriage crap he talks about that#everyone believes for some reason#im rambling now oops#im tired#but i love Albii and everything about his lore is incredibly interesting to me
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super disorganized sketch page because i do what i want
#my art#not sure if i wanna tag these... hrm#i wonder if alt text shows up in search results.... shudders#well anyway. i wanna ramble about these!!#for willy mafton: i've been working on designing more of the human cast. mainly all the big name important ones#it's been a slow process + a little challenging but i like getting the chance to practice drawing faces! :]#in regards to His design specifically.. it's very much based off of his movie apperance#but with a reference to that Classic sprite thrown in#bc i thought making him a little cartoony and inhuman would fit him :] but idk im not an expert on his character or anything#about the rabbit lady: i forgot how i had that idea initially but it ended up looking so fucking cool tbh#im always a fan of making her design less of a feminine eye candy type of design and more of a Spooky Murderer type >:3c#it also gave me the idea to try making some similar designs for the glams...#but if i do that im not gonna be giving them that vintage rubber mask look... since they're meant to be super flashy and high tech looking#so i was thinking they could have faces with more of a silicone texture.. and that have a style based more off of their in game art work :]#so they'd be like giant dolls with weird moving faces rather than having a vintage animatronic look#also that van in the bottom middle is 100% a homage to a specific user i wont be mentioning but iykyk HFJZJFJF#ANYWAY the 🌞🌜 stuff: dont be weird about it please HFJZJG#im aware that these tags are very easy to ignore but like. genuinely pls dont be weird about them#dont romanticize it. its not meant to be ''y/ndere'' or anything like that#its actually a bit personal to me so like... interpret it as you like but be aware its not meant to be a happy or positive thing#anyway i think thats all i have to say... i've been trying to branch out a tiny bit regarding the things i draw#it's always nice to challenge yourself even if its tough... especially if its tough!!#i mainly draw just for my own sake but i hope ppl see something they like here#these tags got so fucking long oops... i'll stop now JFKZJFKSJGKSJG
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How did you get your job on sunny? I really wanna go into the entertainment industry.
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iv told th story b4 but i got onto th show bcuz i just happened to b n th right place @ th right time
was working on smthn completely different nd drunk on th camera truck during one of our wrap days me, the DIT, nd the loader wer talking abt fave tv shows nd when i said tht always sunny was mine th loaders just like "oh lol funny im the 1st AC on that. i can get u some days if u want" ???
so i...did some days...then i did a season...and now im core crew i guess
#FUCK this just reminded me that i ghosted him a week ago after starting the conversation OOPS ty anon#but yea the entire industry is CONNECTIONS and luck. i never know how to give advice on that. its who u know.#college is a waste of time nd money but also one of th best places to make industry connections. hellish conundrum#working as a grip or a PA is a good way to get in on stuff bt doesnt always provide a ladder upwards or into specifics if u have an end goa#its honestly...a terrible industry....i wdnt actually recommend it to people lmfao its a super unstable way to exist theres no job security#im unemployed for most of my life and just gotta pray i work enough hours to keep my health insurance#newsflash! havnt had that in years!#but yea its....idk man. im lucky for my opportunities but overall its really dire out here#and its just ben getting worse and worse#the motto in the industry going around right now is 'survive until '25' bcuz of just how few job opportunities there are#literally everyone is struggling lol.....do something else#ask#ramblings#anon
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moving out of my parent's house tomorrow! excited and scared ^^
#ive lived at the same house in the same room with the same people for over 21 years i dont feel ready to move#but i got most of my stuff taken over today (tracked in a bit of dog shit by mistake oops)#and gonna finish up the rest tomorrow..#also worked on cleaning the interior of the new car i bought#the upholstery is still gross but!! the interior plastic is cleaner now ^_^#im still surprised by how supportive my family was about me moving out#especially helping with some costs and with lifting boxes#pretty nice!#crow rambles
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My high ass was talking to one of my best friends about if we were aliens on Jupiter I'd want us to hold our alien pinkies together every time we gossiped lmaooooo like that'd be our whisper feature as besties.
#bro..these gummies are dangerous lmao#and im talking to my mans reckless lmaoo#didnt even know I switched to brat mode#Til I was like oop!#but I'm in that mode now so 🫢#shout out to rso gummies#if anyone wanna get me some more gummies#cashapp me forreal lmaoo#anyway..#im talking in the tags so much#..this my house tho#lee rambles#im just a girl
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Got up early (for me), ate a light and healthy breakfast, applied to some jobs, took a long mental health walk with the dogs, gave one of them a bath, and even did some phone calls and messaging regarding my medication and pharmacy problems and managed to sort it out without breaking down!!! And! Showered!! Kicking ASS at mental health today
#im studying myself like a bug. with no judgement or compulsive self hate when i see the results. and then doing something different based on#those results#and its working#ive noticed that im much more productive when i have someone else to help or listen to. its a little uh sad because im not easily able to#to take care of myself and do things for MYSELF. but if its for someone else then its like i gain momentum#going out to clean out MY car? well i dont care how gross it is im not worth the effort.#cleaning out my car for my brother who i drive to therapy every other week? fuck yes its going to be nice and clean because therapy is impo#rtant and i want to help you stick with it and so we make it not a chore but lighthearted sibling time#like do you get it#anyway slow progress is still progress#the number of good days are slowly catching up to the number of bad days#post beginning of the pandemic 2020 was so brutal on me. moving back in with my parents especially#but i have a plan now . a real one. and friends to help me as well !#oops rambling in the tags haha#long tags
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nemesis
#everyone loves big titan wizard#just use allure instead of physics at this point#super effective#ok gonna ramble in the tags now#im kinda experimenting#but also dont really know what im doing exactly#if you see me anywhere near prolific that means i have a report in like 3 days#which i haven't prepared or even touched#also i kinda misunderstood evil warlock wizard's helmet in that last piece oops#probably not gonna fix that post btw#have to say evil ver. is like 10 times harder to understand and draw than good ver.#i simplified so much i kinda feel bad about it#destiny 2#destiny guardians#destiny titan#destiny hunter#destiny warlock#destiny 2 art#my art
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Any sizzy Halloween headcanons you have
idk why but i just had an image of simon running around dressed as a vampire as a kid laughing and trading candy and then when he goes to bite into the chocolate bar the scene flickers and he's sixteen and biting into maureen.. so i guess i'll start off with the hc that he dressed up a vamp as a kid? bc that image is never leaving me o7
as for sizzy as a Unit..
izzy def would have had a pretty limited understanding of the holiday before hanging out with him and clary (halloween in its most basic form is pretty much every day for someone who can see the shadow world after all)
i do think simon was invited to a party with the band in 07 and i was gonna say shit was too crazy after cofa for him to have bothered going but i can see him mentioning the party in passing to izzy and her being like pls i am in desperate need of a party rn
but then they show up and it's so far from the last party they'd been to together (magnus's). like 20-30 kids packed into an apt in brooklyn and the music is loud and the costumes are so ridiculous
i think the guys probably wanted simon to use his sexy vampire mojo and show everyone up but come on this is a mundane halloween and simon's gonna take the opportunity to not be the daylighter for a bit
in the future him and izzy will definitely do coordinating couple costumes but not in 07 nosiree. simon throws something together from his closet. maybe he'll be a red shirt from star trek that would be funny since he actually can't die despite how many people want him to. izzy on the other hand gets some pointers from clary and decides to go as idk church or smth (clary: you could be a cat? / izzy: omg can i be church) something classic but also clever or personal
they go to the party, drink illicit booze, eat a bunch of candy, forget about sebastian and lilith and camille and everything else, and lose themselves in the teenageness of it all. and izzy decides she loves halloween
#it's not often i get to make up hcs within the parameters of tmi!! and tbh i hadn't even meant to lol i just started rambling oops#i feel like i could just keep going and talk about the future and how they halloween when they're married and how they halloween with kids#but this feels like it rounded itself out nicely <3#also yes it is now nov 2 but halloweekened is in full swing!! im literally out getting the last piece of my costume rn lol it's close enough#sizzy#simon lewis#isabelle lightwood#tsc#the shadowhunter chronicles#tmi#the mortal instruments#halloween#asks#anon <3#headcanon#vetted
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i've been very behind on posting things so i feel like i might be missing some... if u've commissioned me in the past few months and i haven't posted ur piece but u would like me to pls feel free to give me a tap!!
#i used to never understand when i saw artists be like 'oops i forgot to post this!!'#bc in the depths of being Hungry For Online Validation i was like WHAT. ARE U TALKING ABT. I POST EVERYTHING I DO THE SECOND I DO ITTTT#but then i broke that habit and also got busier/less focused on the net and now im like.#oh it;'s actually EXTREMELY easy to forget to post things lmao#esp when half my comms Can't be posted on completion etc etc#anyway. rambling. point is. hi
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oh yeah- i joined the cara thing to claim my username and get a little used to the platform
don't know how active i'll be over there, since i do quite enjoy the tumblr layout and tagging system, but if shit hits the fan, atleast i already have an account
#rambles#just in case#sad-leon wasnt ever really supposed to be my main so uhhh oops#gonna keep the same pfp for now atleast though the url is the same as my other socials#and if anyone else wants to make any assumptions about me based on that username come at me#im feeling brave tonight lmao
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more keykid things!!!!!!!!!!!! The design's based on my original player character avatar i used when i was active on khux with a few swaps (mainly cause i had no idea there was a moogle headband lol)
#she's around 15 during khux#when i first made her she was a deliverygirl for the moogle shop hence the sack on her back haha#man i cant believe shes almost 8 years old now that's really weird to think about#also im an oldhead on khux i always thought the colosseum ranking outfits were so good but they stopped doing that on the first year i thin#so a lot of people missed out on so many good outfits and it made me sad#but they let you use any avatar part now in the offline ver so actually its fine lol#i had an alternate outfit i used that was just the ursus regalia armor bc i rly liked the lux particles#but thats not really a flex bc ursus was the lowest ranking union for the entirety of the game's lifecycle rip#i was in vulpes for the first few years but i switched over to ursus to get better ranking prizes bc i could be in a top 5 ranking union lo#anyways#im rambling in my tags oops#talking#ig#kingdom hearts#khux#keykid#oc
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so I work two jobs, at an auto parts store and a cafe and I've noticed that people at the parts place think im a dude and the cafe customers assume im a girl its so interesting to see
#i had someone at the car place refer to me saying 'he- she- uhh sorry idk what to call you'#im pretty sure i just said 'pick one' which must have confused her so bad 💀#i appreciate you pronouns lady#also something interesting im seeing is that people respect me more at the parts store when they think im a guy#also its fun when people call me buddy hehe idk if thats just an appalachia thing but its like#what older people say to younger people#idk how old i look to people who think im a guy lmao but i guess they think im a teenager#i do have teenager voice syndrome right now unfortunately 💀#omg its so funny (uh and a little scary) when customers refer to me as 'he' to my coworkers and theyre confused 😅#theyre all rural conservatives so im a little spooked at whats gonna happen when i come back to work after being away for 3 months#cause hopefully ill be more clearly masculine#they havent asked me about it and im not telling them lmao#im the only 'girl' there right now 💀 oops#actually customers call me 'the female' 🙃 LOL#i stay silly tho#i look forward to every tuesday bc thats when i give myself my T shot :)#i have to go get bloodwork done soon oh no#for my hormone levels#if u read this far ily its nice to know youre interested in my rambling#i reduced my dose of anxiety/depression/general mood stabilizer med and i regret it so hard rn ive been SO anxious#pray for me#ok life story over bye#have a nice day#drink some water#mine
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A day in the life with my family(illustrated):
Three of my siblings and my sisters boyfriend trying to get my cat to join them on the trampoline(note her expression)
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My mom petting our cat on the couch sayinh "is something wrong with you" with a baby voice(he usually doesn’t like cuddles)
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Me and @blueskybehindtheclouds bonding on a piano chair that barely has space for one person on a good day(honorable mention to our cat named chat noir)
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And last but not least this with no context im not giving context
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#hey maybe we should get like#a reality tv show#that would be entertaining#my family is chaotic#somehow we have not scared away my sisters boyfriend#but he is joining in so hes probably gonna be fineeee#also my little brother saw a big ass tick and said “that looks like a blueberry i get why (cousin) would eat it”#?????#apparently my cousin once ate a tick???#oh well#this is why i havent finished any fics yet#also one of our three cats is activly trying to move away#which is sad#she keeps literally knocking on an old lady's window#like she knocks on windows and doors with her paws its very cute#and chat noir just climbs the thingies on the window#what are those called#anyways#our last cat just screams#like she meows very loudly#she is the confused looking one and she is my baby#except for the time she saw me unable to move on the floor and was like “yes i can get onto the kitchen counter now”#i definantly spelt that wrong#and that#oops#she is still a baby though#i think im rambling now gonna end it there
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2 and 11 for Opti >:3 - Lens/Birdie
2) Who's your OC's best friend? How did they become best friends?
It's Scope :)
That dumbass would probably only admit that directly in 10 million years (they will eventually)
Opti reads reports & papers from science and engineering departments and Scope's papers stood out to them because they are entirely unprofessional, messy and on unique topics. They read dat shit like a morning newspaper.
Before they met in RP the first time, I had the idea that Optical is a bit of a fan of Scope due to that and respects her from the get-go.
They start to consider Scope their best friend when both are figuring out how socializing works in their shared autistic goofiness.
11) What was your inspiration for your OC?
Ooooh! Hm.
It was mainly just filling a role I felt could exist in the series (non-combat elite, special unit to do with the titan)
I wanted to make a character that protects a character built to protect because in my mind for TCam I was rotating the quote "I am so tired of being strong". So, Opti was made to care for him and lift the burden of being The Strongest Unit.
As for their personality or design.. I just winged it lmfao. I later realized where certain parts of them came from. At the start all I knew is they are an unprofessional workaholic and they don't like being short lol Winry and Ed from FMAB for their hotheadedness, dislike of being short, and getting mad about broken tech Essek Thelyss from CR for social awkwardness and floatiness Nott the Brave from CR for a quote that explains a bit how Opti sees their protectiveness of TCam Hoverballs on their boots cus I like hoverballs in GMod ;p the rest came from just making up reasons why they're the way they are and from interactions in RP c:
#skibidi toilet#lens/birdie#anon#ask#oc optical#chief engi trio#dafuqboom#skibiditoilet fandom#lens :D#now that im awake i shall send u stuff too >:3#oops i rambled a novel lmao#skibidi toilet oc
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