#im pretty sure i downloaded it YEARS ago but idk where it is

[foosybit]

Ok im probably not the best person to ask this because ive been using krita for YEARSSS. like. last time I used firealpaca was 2018 which is... 6 years ago TT_TT but i did a brief pass-over of what firealpaca looks like now and it seems like the things i personally didn't like about it from 2018 are still present. and also the only computer drawing programs ive used are firealpaca, krita, and a really old pirated version of paint tool sai that was so bad it didn't even have a circle tool. absolutely abysmal for my eddsworld phase. but ya i do really like krita a lot tho. explanation under cut cuz its long

First one's pretty minor, but firealpaca does give you a popup immediately lol. i know it's easy to get used to, but its one of those small things where i'd rather not be asked to buy something or update my fully updated software every time i open the program. Firealpaca also just opens you up to the drawing ui, and krita opens you up to a specific launch ui that i really like

it shows all your recently opened files with a thumbnail too so you don't really have to go rummaging through your files every time you wanna draw which is super convenient. and as you can see i literally just never enabled news LOL which would probably tell me about any new krita updates idfk i never enabled it.

Another one that's more major to me is that the firealpaca animation system is actually ass omfg. they say like "wowww you can do onion skin !!!" but thats literally it. and i like to animate from time to time so that's a no-go for me. firealpacas animation system is manged through YOUR LAYERS???? AND MAYBE A FOLDER???? jail. awful. and you have to wait for firealpaca to render a preview. if you ever decide to animate, krita is way better. it actually has a proper timeline and hold frames and real-time previews. it might not be the super best professional animation software cuz it does fight with me a little bit, but for someone who just makes small gifs every once in a while, it's wayyy more useful than firealpaca without being overwhelming which i like. heres what the animation workspace looks like:

the final real qualm i remember having is that the blending on firealpaca was just..... not great. I downloaded it again breifly to check how it's looking and it's still not looking too hot. For the examples I just used my mouse with no pressure sensitivity mostly because i was too lazy to set up my drawing tablet, but also it shows what one consistent opacity/pressure sensitivity looks like

the transparent bg one is firealpaca and the tan bg one is krita. it seems like the difference in opacity of the brush doesn't affect the blending strength of the brush at all in firealpaca. 1 and 2 are the flat watercolor brush and the blending on that one just looks ugly 2 me sorry. 1 is at 50% opacity and 2 is at 100%. 3 is the fluffy watercolor brush at 50% opacity and 4 is the same brush at 100% opacity. it blends to the same amount regardless of opacity, so it seems like the same brush calculations are happening, just literally at a lower opacity. For the krita one, i used the wet paint brush and 5 is 100% opacity and 6 is 50% opacity. It gives you a lot of variety and control for the amount of blending you want based on pressure sensitivity which is super handy to me; i would not have been able to do those crazy digital paintings i used to do years ago without it (pre-mysn days cuz my style has since changed, but u can find it in my pixiv).

Also idk if im stupid or what but i can't find any method to change the blending mode of your brush in firealpaca. it's a neat feature that lets you just do a few brushstrokes with a multiply blending mode (or whatever blending mode) without having to make a new layer and merge it.

But yeah I'm sure firealpaca has its pros. I saw a bunch of cool pattern brushes on their site which seem like they'd be super cool to use, it's just that for my personal tastes i remember thinking that moving to krita was a huge improvement. the only thing that takes a bit of getting used to is that krita doesn't have a clipping function, you just have to alpha-lock a layer within a folder, but you get used to it (theres a "create clipping group" option that does this for you).

Bonus for if u ever get krita:

this is my favorite drawing brush in the entire world i can't draw without it. just a basic toothy brush but it's my life blood. and you should totally download the ballpoint pen brush. just search up krita ballpoint pen brush. its not like i use it all the time or anything but it's super fun and i like it and if u use krita i think u should mess around with it at least once X3

[white-flwrs]

1. switching between the sun and the star by uncle rick and introduction to graph theory by richard j trudeau

2. seizure by robin cook! slow start but it was so action-packed, i love a good medical thriller book and mr cook writes the perfect ones

3. quick look at my goodreads shows where the crawdads sing, seven husbands of evelyn hugo, lessons in chemistry and a few of the anne of green gables books (omg can you believe that ive been a fan for years and i never knew it was a series?!)

4. i loveee fantasy fiction and medical fiction!! and mystery's been a fav genre of mine since i was a kid!!

5. keefe sencen from kotlc has my heartttttt omg and ive alw found nina zenik from soc/kos a relatable character who is such a goddamn queen

6. not book characters per se cuz as long as they are well written, they're awesome dynamic characters ig,,,,, does octavian from pjo count? (ew)

7. 23! i used to read a lot more but that's stopped lately

8. aaaaa so manyyyy but prolly ninth house by leigh bardugo

9. how?? can?? it?? not?? be?? the darkling!! aleksander morozova?!?!??! GOD he's the most well-developed villain imo adn as much as i hate darklina shippers (malina for life!!!) the darkling has a pretty solid backstory and character development. i especially loveeee how rule of wolves ended and i can't wait for the new book to be written/released

10. hmmm im not sure, i might pick up an agatha christie book

11. when i was a kid i used to read a lot of franklin the turtle books, and this was back in kindergarten haha i got into nancy drew at age 6 and it just spiraled from there

12. i dont listen to a specific playlist, just whatever i feel like listening!! currently i love my lana playlist and just shuffling GUTS by olivia rodrigo

13. rainy!!!! like is there any disagreement within the reading community regarding this?!?!!? reading in rainy weather is absolutely the best way to read

14. “Don’t care,” she said, taking another bite of cake. “So hungry.” ���nina zenik what can i say, i love my food

15. not unpopular but coho is a nono... also if a book has any description of an inappropriate scene, it's also a nono (if it skips over, it's fine)

16. not a fan of poetry, it gives me trauma of literature... i dropped the subject for a reason...

17. water, coffee, tea, anything short of milk really

18. idk im not really a crier but prolly one of the series of unfortunate events books, read them yeeeears ago

19. i... dont read funny books... i really should... drop recs please!!

20. my friend recommended the love hypothesis and forced me to read it... that sex scene was terrible i was trying to skip it and j skimming over the words till it ended and god that was long and ugh i still have trauma from that... i had to take a break after that but i was too attached to the characters to dnf it

21. prolly the magnus chase series! oh it took me so many tries to get past chapter 3 but that was one awesome book

22. i read the entire grishaverse every year around november (when my finals end)

23. i borrow books from the library / download them so...

24. libgen!!!!! my fav!!!!!!!!!

25. i dont like books written in my native language, they're so hard to get through

26. curled up in bed... or the train 🤷‍♀️

27. if it wasn't obvious already, leigh bardugo!!!

28. UH YES?!?!? soc3!!!

29. finnick odair, jason grace, rue, four, snape, sirius... do you need me to go on!?!?

30. prolly six of crows HAHAHA

LUNLUN'S READING CHALLENGE!

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The challenge will be for 30 days and there are different prompts/questions you can answer. You do not need to share pictures every day or answer every prompt. Also, you can start any day you want. I just want everyone to feel safe, relaxed, and enjoy reading!

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Prompts:

1. What are you reading now?

2. What is the last book you read?

3. Share five books on your TBR list.

4. What is your favorite genre and trope to read?

5. Who is/are your favorite book character/s? And why?

6. Who is/are the book character/s you dislike? And why?

7. How many books do you want to read this year?

8. What is your favorite book cover ever?

9. Who is the best book villain in your opinion? And why?

10. Which book will you read after this one?

11. Do you remember the first book you read?

12. Share the playlist you listen to while reading.

13. What is the best weather to read?

14. Which book quote would you use to describe yourself?

15. Okay, share one of your unpopular opinions on a book/trope/author.

16. Do you like to read poetry? If so, share your favorite poem with us.

17. What do you like to drink while reading?

18. Which book made you cry your eyes out?

19. Which book made you laugh the most?

20. Share a moment from a book where you had to put the book down and take a deep breath.

21. Which book did you expect to hate but ended up obsessed with it?

22. Is there a book you just can’t stop reading again and again?

23. Do you let people borrow your books?

24. Share a website/app/platfrom you use to download books.

25. Is there a book in your native language you think everyone should read?

26. The best place to read?

27. Who is your favorite author?

28. Is there a book you are waiting and excited for?

29. A character whose death upset you the most?

30. A book you will be forever obsessed?

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[baekhvuns]

Ok so i think it's mostly a blur but now tht i think abt i found you thru twt as well. Interesting story, bcz i had no idea what twt was used for??? plus i had no social presence whatsoever, i still don't. So a few of my frnds suggested me to download a few apps like insta 💀 I didn't hv it back then, twt and Snapchat. So currently I only have the last two apps, where I don't do nothing, just scan the world arnd me 😭 like IDC abt the posts or streaks or whtv. I'm a grandmother ok?

BUT as I made an acct on twt i was scrolling thru things and YK the thing where they ask ur interests, so i just clicked on kpop AND specifically went for ateez. And in a few moments I saw so many twts BUT one of them caught my eye. Idk but someone had linked your fic there and it was lnfila. I was enchanted by the moodboard 🤧🤧 it was pretty. So then I was like how about we give this a try and i found out ur official acct is on Tumblr. So i shot down twt and deleted my account and forever came to settle in Tumblr land 😀 honestly i had thought tht u were one of those writers tht wrote a masterpiece years ago then vanished frm the face of the earth BUUTTTT

I realised u were still active and tht made me so happy 😭 so after reading all those ffs i sent u the submission of my cringey ass review 😭😭 but yeah such a beautiful story right? Anyways, it's raksha bandhan today...AND I GOT SOAN PAPDI AS A GIFT 😭😭 like I just don't like it now dude, as a kid i was obsessed but now it just don't suit my taste buds. But the urge I'm having to ship those boxes to South Korea 😞 for a special someone.

And NOOO YOU'RE SO RIGHT IT'S ALWAYS JK AND TAEHYUNG AND THE THUMBNAILS 😭😭 GOD THE THUMBNAILS-

OHH OK so I read ur songs reccs AND DAMN BRO THOSE PLAYLISTS THO ✋😭 I hv to re read the fics again. Also, if you had to dedicate one ost for all the hwa fics BUT make them bollywood songs, which ones would you choose?

wait this is such a cute but chaotic find 😭😭😭 no coral media presence? that’s exactly how one should live 🤚🏻 my digital footprint is nonexistent my only achievement <3

LMFAOOOO SO THE MOOD BOARD CAUGHT UR ATTENTION 😭😭😭 and did not know let’s not fall in love was ur first fic by me??? inch resting, LMFAOOO IT WAS FUN READING THEM 😭😭😭 a very beautiful story indeed!! AAAA TO U TOO!! BDMWHDKWHDKS NOT THAT FUCKING THING SEND IT AWAY REGIFT IT REGIFT IT!!! SEND IT TO THAT SOMEONE IN KR,, also apparently there’s some sort of a event happening today ??? that’s not auspicious so they’re asking ppl to tie them early??? sus idk if u heard it but i heard it so im sure u did fbsnbdkvlvkc

AND IM CONVINCED JK HAS READ THEM 😭😭 THERES NO FUCKING WAY HE DIDNT GIGGLE AND SHIT READING THEM BFMWBDM

OOOOO that’s so interesting, will dig into my bollywood playlist rn!!

duke : janam janam? or jashan e bahara for the sakes of royalty <3

just friends : i think i will chose miss aish’s crazy kia re + marjavaan from the movie fashion! + humraah

mafia : jannatein kahan by kk BECAUSE THE OHHHOOOO PARTS FBNWHDKWJK

divorce : raabta for the lyrics 😭😭

khronus : main yahaan hoon from veer zaara THE LYRICS FIT LIKE A DRESS

bodyguard : teri meri reprise version HOW CAN I NOT + love is a waste of time from pk for the fun moments + tum se hi??? yes.

rewrite the stars : ilahi + hawayein ??? and the new srk one form jawan i think it’s called challeya??? yeah, all the trip sound tracks + safarnama

bbhwa : tum mile + baby when u talk to me from patalia house 😭😭😭 do u rmr that movie 😭😭

[humblereflection]

does ANYONE remember this video?? I can't view it bc it's locked by copyrights but it's there plain as day in my old youtube likes

I can't even find Kuro Hachi's old dj blog

[seraphofthesimps]

enemies to lovers ryder x thoma except it’s one sided e2l bc you hated him in the beginning and he’s had a crush on since he first laid eyes on you 🥰

and yes I do like thoma and albedo and sometimes zhongli but childe is my fav and im pretty sure he’s yours too!! (once again you’ve got 11/10 wonderful taste) it’s funny bc I don’t really play genshin. I started playing a while ago and now I don’t have the time but I’ve learned a lot about it from gameplays and fics

i actually first saw childe in a tiktok where someone was viewing some of the character from certain angles to prove that childe had the biggest dick 😂. I was so confused but I ended up going through the genshin tag to find out what I just saw and now I get all heart eyes when I see childe

I’m glad your night is going well!!! You deserve it, pretty 🤍 If we’re making you nervous then we are doing our jobs right hehe. But I understand, I’m sorry we make you malfunction but I won’t stop bc it is fun 😈😈

and yes 🫖 is a very cute emoji, almost as cute as you 🤍🤍

- baji mod

I have never been big into Enemies to Lovers but that was enough to make me like it. Thoma that never loses hope on the matter. HELP IM THOMA'S ENEMY 😭 I'm so dumb for that prejudgment of him honestly.

We have similar tastes here for sure. I did a sorter thing the other day and this was mine (the rest is under the cut bc this is getting long):

And i was actually shocked because I expected Albedo to be where Thoma is. I still haven't met Albedo yet though in the game so I'm going to redo this once I have and see if anything has changed. But anyways, IM SCREAMING, i need to find that video now because I have someone in particular I would be dying to show it to. Funny story is I REFUSED to play this game for like 2 years maybe longer now. It came out when I was addicted to another game on my Playstation and i started to download it, but then something it said made me think I had to be super social in the game and I was too nervous to do it. Then after it got hyped up I just didn’t want to because it was so hyped up it annoyed me 🤣 Then I ended up playing because I had been harassing Shay with Childe, even watched an hour long youtube video compilation of some of his parts to better understand him for that exact purpose, and then Shay had THE NERVE to start acting like they didn’t like Childe anymore because Ayato existed. It drove me absolutely insane so I was being petty in an argument one day about it and said I was starting the game just to prove them wrong and decide for myself that Childe was great. And what do you know? I was right, he’s too great. So we’re kinda similar in the falling for Childe even without the game - oops 🤣

I still have more Thoma to meet too because I’m probably only halfway through Inazuma so far. And I’m too excited that for that 😅

It’s a new day for me now and idk where you are but I’m assuming the same is true for you so HAVE THE BEST DAY EVER OK 🖤

[cosettefauchelevente]

I hope this doesn't break your ask rules. I don't know where/who else to ask this. This sounds so stupid but I feel like I have no where to go. Radfems, conservatives and the left all have their own brand of lesbophobia. When it comes to dating I'm so scared I won't find a girl who is "normal" in that she isn't deep into any queer politics. I feel my dating pool is limited due to that and wanting to date another gs lesbian like myself. All of this has me pretty depressed. Any advice? Thank you.

if you're willing to swipe through a sea of crap, there are normal people on dating apps. one of my mutuals found someone on tinder last year who was not only normal, but her type, after days of talking about finding nothing but men listing themselves as women, straight couples looking for a lesbian to have a threesome with, and other weirdos (it didn't work out between them, but that's not the point). if you don't want to go down the route of swiping and swiping till you match with someone decent and have a bit of money to spare, you could buy a paid dating app. this will weed out the people who are just there to see how many likes they can get or who just want a hook-up, etc (apparently there's going to be a gc lesbian dating app called club monocle coming out soon. of course I've never used it, but from what I've read they verify that you're a real woman via video before you can make an account, which sounds promising. it's available right now, but it's currently only for friendships, I believe. there's also one called giggle that scans your face to make sure you're a woman first. again, never tried it).

if you don't want to try online dating, my advice would be to go outside and talk to people. i know that sounds obvious but it's the best advice. put yourself out there, take up a lot of different hobbies, join some a lot of clubs, say yes to every event you're invited to. that way, you'll meet a lot of different people, some of whom will be people you connect with. I met every girl I've been involved with organically without even thinking I would meet anyone i hit it off with, they just occasionally appear if you know a lot of people. even if you can't get a date, you'll still make some friends and have some stories to tell.

you could try downloading an app called meetup. it's not a dating app, but one for finding people in your area with similar hobbies and interests. I'm in a book club and a cinema club for my city on there, but they have all sorts of clubs for different activities on there, sewing circles, hiking clubs, cooking clubs, music clubs, etc, and lgbt societies as well. if you're looking for other lesbians than I'd suggest joining a meetup group for lgbt people. of course there might be weirdos in it, but it's an idea.

you actually could try instagram as well! i used to run a lesbian account a few years ago that had 15k followers, and occasionally i would make posts for people to meet each other. i would provide a format for people to fill out in the comments (first name, age and age range they were interested in dating, general area, hobbies and interests, and other info like that), and people who were interested in them would reply to them with an emoji and then they would have to talk to each other in dms. I used to get comments all the time of people saying they met their girlfriends on my posts, which was so cool 🥺. im not involved with the lesbian side of instagram at all these days, so idk if these speed dating posts are still a thing, but other accounts used to do them as well. if you follow a few lesbian pages on there you might run into one. or if you're brave you could just slide into someone's dms.

apparently gyms are a good place to meet lesbians? I haven't had much luck in my dudebro-packed local gym, but I feel like I read about gym lesbians all the time on the internet. or you could maybe try joining a sports team. if you meet a girl that pings you in the gym, you could try asking her to help you use the equipment to try and get to know her. join some outdoorsy clubs, go kayaking or fishing, find a diy club if there's one around (and bring man repellent).

if you have lesbian or bisexual friends, hang out in their circles sometimes. most of the time ssa people have a good chance of knowing other ssa people. I met my last ex through friends, and she was totally normal (until wattpad got to her rip).

that's my advice done. the last time I was actively dating was in 2019, so I asked some mutuals in case anyone had more up to date advice, and the responses were:

"My only advice is that the more requirements you have, the smaller your pool gets. But it's okay. I really only want masculine women, I have a STRONG preference for other lesbians, I don't wanna be annoyed constantly with any politics at all. And y'know, I find women who meet those standards. Maybe I'll run out of women, but I'd rather be single than have something I don't want. It's a bit depressing to think about, but y'know, we'll all probably find somebody."

"Oh boy this will be A Lot but this is basically everything I've either heard or learned:

Do things you enjoy, being normal and also open about your beliefs and eventually you will either gravitate towards the right woman or she will gravitate towards you. Be honest about what/who you are: you are a lesbian who does not believe a lesbian would ever have sex with men. Hang out with normal people and act not necessarily loud or outspoken but just honest if and when it comes up. But a big component is going to normal things. For example, since you don't like queerios, it's probably not a good idea to go to events where they congregate expecting to find that one other normal lesbian who's there hoping for the same thing. It's just not realistic because 9 times out of 10 people hang around people who are like them/share their beliefs. Especially in the current climate. Btw if youre into "not normal" things your search will be much harder tbh. Widen your chances of finding a normal woman by doing normal things as often as possible (ofc things you actually like/would like to try).

Also talk to anyone and everyone you can/want. This is the hardest if you are shy/introverted/anxious etc but it's the only way. Lesbians are ~1% of the population so you need to literally hunt for her. Your dating pool is limited but knowing what you like and not budging on your standards is admirable, not depressing. If you budge on your standards you'll find Something but it won't be what you like and you will have to accept that by either A) caving and compromising B) realizing this isnt for you and getting the fuck out lol."

"tell her to join a gym. normal lesbians love lifting."

"Being outspoken is essential. It's hard if you're shy or tend to be anxious around new people or when stating your opinions, but you won't find what you're looking for if you don't do it (or you might think you have, but as [name] said, two months in they introduce you to their TIM 'lesbian' bff).

It's not easy and not instantaneous, it is tedious and lonely most of the time, but you got to think that it's going to be worth it. Meanwhile, trying to at least befriend like-minded people (lesbians or not) is a nice thing to do, because it will allow you to expand your social circle in the right direction. Don't consider settling an option, and don't lower your standards, but be open-minded towards the type of woman you're looking for.

Try to find hobbies and join groups related to things you like doing that you'd like any future gf to share with you, and check out whether there's lesbian groups in your area involved in it (apparently that's easier if you lift laugh, but there's at least some lesbians with other hobbies) (ps, a ton of those lesbians will turn out to not be lesbians, but that doesn't mean it's applicable for 100% of them)

As for how depressing it is...yeah, we've all been there. It sucks, but unfortunately it's like that. We're too few and too spread out, but even then you're not alone in that loneliness."

"Piggybacking off what [name] said, let me emphasize that expanding your social circle is key ! It doesn't mean you have to become bffs with every single person you're ever within 2 feet of, it just means being friendly/polite/cordial/likeable enough to make connections with people which create options for more connections with more people and so on. Eventually you will ether meet a lesbian or meet someone who knows someone who knows someone who is a lesbian AND she will be perfect for you"

"My main advice is to for her to stay true to who she is and she will attract who fits and weed out who doesn’t. As long as she doesn’t pretend to believe in gender bullshit, her chances of having a gf that does is fairly low and it does increase her chances of finding one that agrees with her. It can be scary to think about, especially with how prevalent it is online and in some real world areas, but there will always be a woman that agrees with her. Getting out, having hobbies and connecting with people with similar interests also helps a lot."

hope this helps!

[oeakenshield]

long story below abt this old man in my building who fetishizes me and general vent about like being an asian woman in america lol.

thinking about this old man in my apartment building. building is divided into 4 sections with 6 apartments in each section, all sections are connected through the basement. the building overlooks a parking lot the tenants share. I'm in section C on the top floor and he's in section D on the second. sometime last year at night he came to my door and knocked and asked for help with his internet. i'm too nice and trusting of people so i agreed to come over and take a look. he was literally missing a whole cable which just didn't make sense then but unfortunately makes sense now. he wanted to talk about what ""kind"" of asian i am, where my parents are from, my """culture""" and shit like that. i entertain it because i feel sad for old people. finally i say idk i can't fix this sorry and go home. he gives me his card cuz he's a lawyer.

over the next several months i run into him in the parking lot maybe once a week. i usually tried to pretend i didn't see him purely from a "i don't want to socialize" standpoint. one morning, as i'm leaving for work, he comes outside a minute after i do and i don't make it to my car before he catches me and says hi. he's holding an small empty plastic trash can. we chat. he refers to me as "our asian guest" which. gross. eventually i say i have to go to work and while i'm in my car i watch him do literally nothing with the trash can and turn around and go back inside.

so at this point i'm pretty sure he's been watching me come and go to figure out my schedule and he times when he'll be outside to see me.

then a couple more months pass. it's maybe october 2021 at this point. i'm at home in a tank top and sweat pants because it's 9:30pm and i'm winding down for the night. i hear someone LABORING to come up the steps and eventually stop at my door. he knocks and it scares the shit out of me then i go look through the peephole and see it's the guy. i know he can hear my tv from the hallway so i decide to just see what he wants.

he's looking for his cellphone and asks me to call it. he says to wait a second while he runs back to his apartment to see if he can hear it. i say ok sure so he gives me his number but i download a burner phone app cuz i don't want to give him my real phone number. as he's leaving he tells me i look "wonderful" and that my boyfriend is "lucky." again, gross disgusting violating etc. i literally changed completely out of what i was wearing to something that covers me all the way up because i'm so grossed out.

so i call his number from the burner app, no pick up, 5 minutes later i hear him struggling up the stairs again. he says it's not in his apartment, but it might be in his car. it's about 10pm at night now. it's dark outside. i do not know this man and he's already made me comfortable. he offers to pay me $40 to go out in the parking lot and look in his car. i ask, there's no one home in your section that can help? what about the apartments below me? he said oh no ones home, i knocked but no one answered. but this is the kind of thin walled apartment building where you can hear everything--ESPECIALLY someone knocking on doors. i know he didn't know on anyone elses door. i very firmly say i'm not comfortable he says oh i don't want to make you uncomfortable so i said ok bye then and shut the door in his face.

i hear him finally go knock on someone else's door and a man helps him out and i guess his phone was in the car. but im still suspicious.

i reported the incident to the landlord immediately the next day because i was feeling very uncomfortable and violated in my home. the landlord tells me the guy has already come to the office and told him, and also tells me that he has autism so probably he just wasn't picking up the social cues. like sure. fine.

BUT i have not run into or seen this man a SINGLE time since this incident months ago. i like to think he is just being respectful of the boundaries i set which i can appreciate. i can sympathize with being unsure about social cues and such. i get it.

but. it was really really clear to me, and me alone, the male landlord didn't really get this, that this man had been targeting me because of some weird asian fetishization he had going on in his head. i could feel it every time he looked and talked to me and treated me like a foreigner.

and like the problem is that a lot of older white men like him truly believe that's an acceptable way to treat young asian women--as exotic specimens. like. fuck. the number of old white men who have come up to me to tell me about their asian wives. ugh. ugh ugh ugh.

i'm still bothered to this day that my landlord dismissed me so easily. like i think the man can be both autistic and a weird racist creep to me. am i crazy for that like. lol.

and it's really the fact that i haven't seen him at all that gets me, because it confirms my earlier suspicions.

i don't even want to say "idk i'm overreacting" because women are told and i WAS told i was overreacting!! but i still feel that way and i hate it!!! he made me uncomfortable and made me feel violated in my own home because he definitely saw me as a cute little asian sex doll. fuck. i hate it so much. do men not realize i can immediately sense when they're just talking to me for fetish shit?? because it's really fucking obvious. i'm just so sick of it.

[kahayaya]

The Day Before 2021

It’s New Years eve today and its been a while since I wrote updates on life on here so lets start. 

Currently in the process of moving to Vegas, and I received the news back in October. This news was a complete shocker to me and did not expect my family to move any where at this time. A part of me had doubts about the move because my family tends to always say things that this will happen but never really happens. Thinking about it now, a lot of times I felt like my parents would promise me things that would seem awesome and I would look forward to. Only to be disappointed or still waiting on it. For example, my parents keep talking about receiving large sums of money for compensation on my mom’s injury at work. I was told about this 5 years ago and they still keep on talking on how much money we will get. Cuz of these promises I think for I tend sustain my own-self than have others to rely on. Which in return makes me more independent and I tend to ask for help on things because of the things my parents did. 

Anyways the moving is still happening and I was shocked as mentioned before. We are currently signing papers that we will buy the house they offered and the house here is already signed off to the buyer. The condition is that we need to secure a house in Vegas within the month of January in order for the house in Hawaii to be sold. As of what I see, I think we signed that we’d accept the counter-offer of the sellers in Vegas. So I think we are good for now on that part.

The more I think about moving the more I just want to get it over with. I want to be inside the new house and get ready to move on to the next. I want to explore Vegas, get my own car to drive around, I want to just settle in. I feel stuck in the current home, knowing my next step from here. The anticipation is killing me. I am very excited to move to Vegas cuz of the new things that await there. I will defs miss Hawaii with its food and my friends. However I think being in Vegas will make me feel more at home. What I mean is that I felt like my house in Hawaii after going to college never felt like home to me. I never really had a room for myself back in Hawaii, so I never really felt rooted to where I live. That’s why I think renting out in SF made me more connected with SF. I felt like I had something that was actually mine and I could call my home. Moving out of SF was definitely sad for me, as I lost a home that I was just getting ready to set forward. But with moving to Vegas, I will be able to have my own room and actual place to settle. its also close to a lot more places so getting anywhere in the U.S is easy now. 

Also wanted to talk about my nic addiction. As predicted, I am hooked on nicotine. I want to quit but the feeling good is just too hard. I tried to quit when I left SF but that same craving I had back when I started nicotine has. crept on me. What did not help too was that my friends back in Hawaii also smoke nicotine and that gave me in. In the end I bought a device to satisfy my nicotine. Actions I am taking however is that I am lowering the dosages of my nicotine, and I can quit slowly in this fashion than quitting from a high dosage to nothing. So that is my story as of right now on nicotine addiction.

Another thing that’s been on my mind is dating other people in general. I’ve had the thought of downloading tinder and maybe actually search for someone, but again a part of me feels like I don’t really need to find anyone. What I mean is that I don’t see a reason why I would want to find somebody else. Which stems back to what I mentioned earlier is that I just feel like I can just be sufficient for myself. Another part of me tells me that I don’t really have any passion for anything. In my opinion I don’t think there are things that define me. For example, the type of music I listen to can range from indie pop to rap to edm. Like there is nothing defining in that I feel like I would be someone that just follows what others does. I don’t really do anything else, other than play video games but even that is something I don’t like to do all the time. These are things I question about my self because I feel like don’t really have anything to offer anyone. And to add on to that, I just like where I am at life right now. IDK. I think the reason I am so conflicted is because I want to have something for myself firs than to rely on others for something. I don’t really have financial stability and I have schooling to finish off. Maybe I’m just too focused on this to worry about dating in general. 

Speaking of schooling, I am entering my final semester of college. Despite the end, I really do not know what I want to do after. I know what it takes to get a Software engineer job, but I really don’t know what I want. I never really felt passionate about coding or anything comp sci related. I felt like a foreigner to the comp sci department at our school, while I see my peers interact with them. So after college is a clueless for me. Im thinking of just applying to a bunch of jobs or internships and just see how it works for me. Get experience from there and then I will have a better understanding of where to go from there. 

Also with schooling ending, I also feel like this will be the first time I will have have no responsibility put forth on me. There will be no teachers/professors to do stuff. And this will also be a challenge for me. I feel like my life has been centered around getting task done with whatever is presented at me. This is the first time I will have no guidance to go in life and I can do whatever I want. Similar to what we learned in existentialism, where there are too much freedom. I know I will be reaching that point in life where I will have way more freedom and no assignments to turn in. Now the real games starts when I graduate.

Also I keep forgetting that today is new years eve. To sum up 2020, its been chaotic, but great change. COVID happen and I had to move out. I think November has been a really stressful month for me but I managed to survive. The Spring semester was a challenge due to the transition of going out to minimizing outdoor activity. I tried new things when that happened like make pour-over coffee and try photography again. I also grew closer with Alex and this year cemented our friendship for life. I got to try acid and that experience was great. My brother got married this year and I met his wife. Quick note, they visited Hawaii when I was here and when they left his wife called me Kaleo-Kun. NGL that was pretty cool to hear. Anyways, I survived Zoom University. I got to diet and exercise Fall Semester. I got to make new friends like Kass them. I got my ears pierced. I dyed my hair. A lot of things happened this year and it really went by quick. Even though those moments when it happened felt like years, looking back at those times seemed like it happened within months. 

I am sitting on my bed just waiting to move. Life will be so different when I move and that will set-up my 2021. Once I am in Vegas, life will be different and I am eager to see what that holds. I’m not too sure what 2021 will hold for me, but I am excited for anything to happen in the year 2021. 2020 for many was probably the toughest and shitiest year for them. But for those that are here, we came out on top and we survived. Cheers to 2020 and time to embark into 2021. 

[aharris00britney]

ASKS 18

Andromeda’s a big wide open galaxy; okay anyways here are some asks about Dead by Daylight, ayoshi collab, sims 5, my old recolors, and just some sweet people who sent me some nice messages <3

Anonymous said: In your collab with Ayoshi, the outfit that shows off the Ciara Top and Jess shorts, where can I find the garter belt accessory used with the shorts?

Those stockings get asked about SO much lmao. They are BY Ayoshi like.. idk why people ask about them. I desperately want him to remake them with new textures. Maybe one day lmao. All of his CC is in this post including the stocking (Miso Tights).

Anonymous said: Omg whos your dead by daylight main

Kate and Yui <3 I have been using Jane recently too. I play as Spirit for killer but I only do killer for the challenges LMAO

Anonymous said: I am very new to The Sims world, ts4 is my first time playing, and finding out I can have mods on my game change my world, and you are one of my favorite creators! So I just came to say you are really amazing. I think I have all of your hairs, and most of you others cc, it is because of you my townies look so cute nowadays!! Remember your effort is really valued and you are loved!!!

thank you so so so much ;n; I would really advise against having all of my hairs lmao there are like 150+ and a lot of the older ones have issues i want to fix... just need to find the time

Anonymous said: what do u use to get the little sparkles in your edits :o is it a brush?

I honestly don’t remember. Every since the first one I just use the same lookbook PSD that has the sparkle on it. These look similar though so try them.

Anonymous said: wcif the first two chokers used in your pic for your hairs you just put up on your patreon?

All of my patreon cc posts are public the day they go up. the download is for patrons only but the CC posts are public. Those always have the CC i use linked at the bottom. Always. They have since June of last year. Just go to my Patreon and scroll down to the hairs, and you will see them linked. No pledging or following required. 

Anonymous said: Do you have a Ko-Fi? I’m wary about trying to send a one-off via Patreon incase I forget to cancel the next month.

I have a paypal.me link > here < but please don’t feel inclined to donate. Also if you do a one-off with Patreon you can cancel it right after you pledge and you’ll still have access to the Patreon content til the end of the month. 

Anonymous said: not to rush you or anything but bella is one of the prettiest sims you've ever created and i can't wait for you to release her omg

Bella queen wbk (thank you)

Anonymous said: your models are so pretty! would you consider release the tray files of them?

that is the plan, not sure when though. I am building them a house rn which i’ve been having fun doing. They all lived in a basement before

Anonymous said: hi :) just out of curiosity, what is the EA policy u always mention concerning the third hairs in ur posts? thanks!

CC put on Patreon is supposed to be post within 21 days of going on Patreon. One of the community managers said it a while ago. I have the details on my Patreon about me page if you want to read and get links. <3

@ariapixie​ said: Happy New Years!!🎆🎉🎉🎆🎇🎆

thank you!!! i hope youve been having an amazing year so far <3

Anonymous said: Heey love :) I am obssessed with your hairstyles *_* you're the reason I switched from alpha to MM :) just wanted to ask you how come you no longer include recolors for your latest hairstyles? :)

well there were a few reasons:

1). I never used the recolors myself. I like the colors I just never used them 2). I got comments about the colors looking too metalic 3). I had started Patreon around that time and doing recolors for 3 (and sometimes more) hairs every month would have been a lot. Especially bc my DDS was broken so I had to do them a bit more complicated than just saving as DDS. 

I know that some people really liked my recolors, and I am sorry if me stopping caused any issues. There are actions for the hair colors and recoloring hair is really easy to learn and do. 

@sadnessimmer said: ��This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you’re amazing inside and out! 💌

Anonymous said: how is your content so amazing ily so much 🥺💕

Anonymous said: Thank you so much for all that you do! Your hairs and collabs are amazing

thank you so much! 

Anonymous said: Could you ever see yourself creating hairs (or custom content in general) for the Sims 5 once it comes out?   

If the style is something I enjoy and the creation method is similar yes

@ariapixie​ said: Hi I think tumblr ate my ask so I’m sorry if you’ve already gotten this. I really love your editing it’s so beautiful and I was wondering if you would ever consider doing a tutorial on how you do it

honestly most of the time i do stuff differently. I run the same topaz/sharpening actions every time and then add some shadows and play with curves. Nothing that is super intensive tbh. I wouldn’t even know how to go about doing a tutorial tbh

Anonymous said: What's your name on the gallery? I can't ever seem to find anything from you, or do you not have one?

aharris00britney; make sure you have CC enabled

@wcifblog​ said: Hi, I am in love with your CC. I'm a simmer for a long time but just lately I've been trying to learn how to make my own CC. I've seen some of your speed meshing videos and I was wondering if you'd ever consider making a tutorial for beginners on how to create a new mesh from scratch. (I'm trying to create a curly hair on blender but I'm stupid I guess). Thank you so much for all your work, love, Kel.

hey! thank you so much <3 I actually don’t mesh stuff from scratch though. So I’m afraid I am not able to help in that department :( I’m sorry

@tarrinix​ said: would it be possible for you to upload a mass file for download that has all of your hairs? (I'm asking for only the ones created by you so others don't miss out of credit links and things like that.)

I really wanted to get all my 2019 CC updated before the end of the year and have it up in a .zip. But I never got around do updating stuff from the start of the year. I need to get back into updating stuff I just am so.. unmotivated recently? Idk hopefully I can get all my stuff updated in the next few months and have some mass downloads for 2017, 2018, and 2019 stuff. 

@xayami​ said: any thoughts on 365? 😳

well.... im excited for B#RN. that is what matters, right? LMAO I’m going through a Weyes Blood/FKA Twigs phase rn so I haven’t been listening to much kpop. Especially at the time that 365 released.

Anonymous said: the sim modeling your piper hair can murder me and i will thank her over and over how make good sim

Anonymous said: it's not even just her it's every GODDANG MODEL!!!

LMAO Ivy is my 2nd blond model. She is a queen isn’t she? She is actually the sim from this lookbook and I just randomly added her to my models household and she stayed. 

[justaflipfloppingpotato]

The M3thh34d visual novel, process thread

Monday, September 23, 2019

So, yesterday I decided that I'm going to be changing tmh into a visual novel instead of a comic. I'm not that sure how I feel about this decision but i KNOW I'm gonna have a lot more done quickly and efficiently, I'll be able to tell my story completely without cancelling anything. And since renpy coding is the simplest thing in the galaxy I have a feeling this will be super fun too.

Oke, just some clarifications for myself.

I'm going to write all of the stories code first.

Then I'm going to draw the sprites and backgrounds as needed

Then I'm going to work on major art pieces for it like title pages and large stuff etc

Now for mobile users who won't be able to play, don't worry. I'm planning on posting a play through on my yt channel and I'm going to post the script here with all of the photos and visuals for those who would rather read on their own turn.

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

OK, so since school is kind of keeping me busy I wasn't able to do much besides figure out how basic GUI and options editing worked.

Added some about information

Fixed transitions

Added a default text speed of 18 characters per second

I also taught myself how to turn the game into files to download, also figured out a system of how people will be able to download the files without actually having to install it from itch.io, gamejolt, etc.

As far as scripts are concerned I have essentially added dialogue for the entire prologue (though I may edit it because I feel it may go by too fast)

And up to the whisper scene in part 1 (which is around a bit into part one,)

I'm also deciding that I'm going to be posting this thread on Friday/saturday and adding more to it as we go.

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Alright! Things I got done:

Added LOTS of dialogue, pretty much around halfway done with chapter 1

Completely rewrote to prologue, its a bit clunky so im gonna need to edit it later to make the dialogue flow better, but for this medium of storytelling its kind of necessary to change it how I did

Brainstormed son sprite pose ideas, I realize I'm probably gonna need some tweek-twitching sprites so that's something I'm going to get on once I start the drawing process

Also found out that typing these things: [] make the code wonky so I can't type [REDACTED] kind of a shame but that's fine

May or may not be using to much of the pause function, but Its not bothering me so I guess when I get someone to test it (yes u heard me, I'm gonna let people test it once everythings,,, y know,,,, playable) and I get some thoughts I'll know how it is

Through this whole process I realized how easy making a simpl e visual novel truly is, and now I finally know how to tell my stories in a way that's both fun and easy!

I've been thinking about making h&h, a never-before-seen card deck au I made like a year ago and never posted, the mythical creek au and a monster au all into visual novels! This is a perfect way for me to stay focused and make stuff!! I'm v excited and happy!! (Let's hope this stays this way because u all know me by now!!)

I may add some complex choice decisions after I get the base game script finished but I have no idea how the story would play out to an alternate ending? Idk I'll have to think about it maybe :p

Anyway I've also been thinking about voice acting in it butttt if I had that they're probably just gonna be mini sound bites like "hmm" or "gah!?" Just stuff from the show probably.

Thursday, September 26, 2019

Life is cray and I'm in pain! Here's the shit I got done today!!

Added slightly over 50 lines worth of dialogue

Slight edits here and there about other things

Also im trying to build tweeks character and persona for chapter 1 and I'm finally getting that done

Y know, a really fun thing about visual novels is that I can add as much dialogue as I want without worrying about how crowded it looks

Like, text boxes on comics are NIGHTMARES to add, like u don't want to have a full paragraph of words for one panel! Because no one will want to read it.

But with vn's all you have to do is write dialouge now and then worry about expressions later

No clunk, only funk B)

Also thinking about his ark, now that I'm fully working on scripts and and the story I can finally focus on how to add the hashtag foreshadowing for the uuuuhhhh twist :^)

Anyway I'm having fun and I'm pretty much half way done with chapter one. After I get it done I'm going to reread it and jot down changes until I'm happy with it then I'm going to move on to chapter 2 :DD

Friday, September 27, 2019

Ok!!! Finally done for the week, here's what I did today:

Added an additional 70 lines of dialogue, I now have just over 300 lines

Finished chapter 1

Added a scene where tweek doesn't know how to pronounce hypothermia, that's not important just want you all to know that was a thing

Its been so fun working on this so far, I'm planning on testing it over the weekend to see what dialogue tweaks and grammar/spelling stuff I need to fix. Once that's done I will be continuing onto the chapter 2 script!

I will update this thread on Fridays, I might add some mini weekend updates whenever the time calls for it.

I hope you all are excited as I am for this! Its the first time in a long time that I've felt this sure about a project before!! :DD

[spelviin]

endgame thoughts, not because i think i have anything valuable to say abt it, more just bc i want to get my initial unsullied opinions out before various overly nitpicky or overly praisy internet thinkpieces come around

okay so. first of all, i’m tired to death of the way folks talk about the mcu. like, it’s either a godly feat of everything and the most important thing ever or the literal devil incarnate and the source of all evil in this world. i am literally so fucking bored of both these perspectives and have zero time for either of them. 

yes, the mcu is emblematic of a lot of problems in the current state of the film medium as a whole. yes, it is also a really cool feat of storytelling that a whole bunch of movies spanning a whole bunch of years could all come together and culminate in a big huge blowout finale. yes, it could have been far better, but yes, it also could have been far worse. 

i wasn’t a fan of thor being a punchline in this film. like, the whole “lol thor fat” thing was like, really tired and not cool. and the fact that his genuine moments of expressing grief and the significant trauma he’s been through were played off for laughs more often than not bc “lol thor supposed to be big many man but he’s crying like a wimpyboy instread.” like, fucking please. it’s 2019 and other male characters were allowed to be shown crying and processing their trauma but thor’s??? not allowed for some reason??? anyway they did him dirty in this movie and i���m not super pleased abt that. 

i didn’t like that they fridged natasha. i’m not a fan of scarjo so much these days, but i did like natasha. 2012 me adored her and was 100000% behind her as the Only Woman (despite being miffed that she was the Only Woman) and i really liked her character and redemption arc through the films that she appeared in. and like, i get the justification for fridging her. like i get that she was this assassin who killed a bunch of folks and in the end, not only wiped out the red in her ledger, but saved the whole damn universe in doing so. i get that. i’m just annoyed that they literally went and fridged the Only Woman to give the boys manpain before the third act. 

speaking of the ladies.... the One Scene Where Women Get To Do Things. my god. the critical feminist part of my mind greatly resented the obvious lip service of that scene, and the fact that the ladies only got the one shining moment before we got back to the sausage fest. but lord, the lesbian part of my mind hella enjoyed it. like i was legit bouncing in my seat like YESSSS FUCK EM UP LADIES i was just completely stoked. 

and my god. MY GOD CAN WE TALK ABOUT CAROL’S HAIRCUT AKA A GIFT TO THE LESBIANS. THIS MOVIE HAS MANY SINS BUT WE CAN ALL THANK IT FOR THAT HAIRCUT. (and again, feminist me is like, hey, dont focus on her appearance, focus on the important shit she did in singlehandedly turning the battle around for everyone, but lesbian lizard brain is hhhhhhhhhhhhh girl hot)

anyways. 2012 me was a month out of a major jaw surgery when i saw the first avengers, puffy faced, on heavy painkillers, and unable to eat any solid foods, and just generally weak and miserable. i dragged myself to the theatre and i smiled the whole way through that movie bc even though i was feeling super shitty, that 360 shot of the team made me so excited and happy. so happy that i watched and rewatched a bootleg download over what was probably the worst summer of my life, and it made me happy and gave me hope, dumb as that may sound. 

i havent watched the first avengers movie in a long time, and i’m not sure if i’d feel the same way seeing it now. remembering how it felt then still makes me happy, but seeing that same 360 shot repeated in endgame didnt stoke much emotion. tumblr fandom took a lot of my avengers joy away. the drama and character hate and constant complaining and cringe culture bullshit exhausted me. and the recent turns of the mcu also contributed to that. a lot of things contributed to it, i guess. but i dont feel as happy as i once did. so a lot of this movie rang a little bit hollow, needless to say. 

that being said, though, i did feel a little flicker of that joy. for all the movie’s and the franchise’s faults, of which there are many, i can say that the moment where all those portals opened up and the revived characters stepped though, i felt that happiness again. i legit almost cried when i saw shuri’s silhouette step out of that circle. that moment when the score came in with that booming version of the avengers theme, i was 2012 me again, just for a moment, and i think that’s worth something. to me, that’s worth something. so for all its sins, i thank the movie for that. 

this is rly rambly and im tired so im just gonna say 2 more things. things i’m not personally super invested in, but other people are, and so i feel i need to have an opinion on em.

first is bucky. i fucking adore him, and i am kinda miffed that he got like, no interactions with steve. i know steve/peggy is the canon ship, i knew it was always endgame (heh) and that stucky is just a fandom thing. but god damn it, even if they were never gonna have their relationship go there (which tbh i literally never even came close to expecting to happen) it still feels a little bit unfair to have steve basically ignore probably the most important person in his life. like, i know he wanted to live his happy straight life with peggy, and passing on the shield and identity of captain america to sam is super important, and i loved that moment and would never begrudge him that bc i adore sam. i was just... really sad that bucky had to get kinda shafted for that. (literally all i was saying in the last half hour was “but where’s bucky? but what about bucky?” our boy deserved better. 

second is tony. tony tony tony. i know folks have a lot of strong feelings about him, both ways. i know of folks who think he’s the scum of the earth for some dumb reason, and i personally know others who think the entire mcu should revolve around him, for equally dumb reasons. i’m more neutral. i think he’s a good character who made questionable decisions in the past. i feel for him and his struggles with PTSD. i respect him as a character in-universe and also for what he and RDJ accomplished. like, if he hadn’t hit it out of the park with that first movie like a fucking decade ago, none of this would have been possible, and i think that’s pretty damn cool, regardless of feelings on the monster juggernaut the mcu has turned into. basically, i know some folks are maliciously rejoicing at his death while complaining that he got a hero’s send-off when he is a Bad And Not Morally Pure Man, which is. boring. and other people (namely one who i know personally in my family) who are mad because he is an Angel and deserved the Best Happy Ending Because No Bad Things Are Allowed To Happen To This Perfect Boy. i’m not here for either opinion. i’m okay that he died (peter crying over him did get to me in a huge way, but i think tom holland just has a power that if he’s crying, i’m crying so idk). i think it’s cool that he got to save everyone and got a heroic and well deserved send off. this isnt a revolutionary opinion i just wanted to throw it out there bc im bored with the polarization. 

and... yeah? i think that’s it? sorry, im really tired and this probs doesn’t make sense but i just felt like i had to get the initial reactions and feelings down before the thinkpieces get to me lmao. 

oh, also nebula deserved better 2kforever i just love her a lot and want her to be happy and not suffer, kthxbye 

[harrypotterandthefandomaccount]

Hufflepuff Reunion

request: Hey! So I'm writing a Harry Potter fanfiction called the Matron's Assistant. It's an OCxSeverus Snape. OC is named Eliza Mikaelson, (she's a hufflepuff, infp personality, loyal, warm, kind, but also likes to work alone, interested in people,) and she's also a Leo, meaning she likes to be the center of attention. She's based on my hogwarts mystery oc, meaning her brother Jacob was missing, but now he's back, distant, and she doesn't really talk to him. she's the same year as Tonks. Was wondering if you might like to a one shot with Severus and Eliza with prompt 31? Thanks!

Summary: (based on the game Hogwarts Mystery which is a great game so go download it) Eliza(OC requested by @enchantingsims97​ ) is a Hufflepuff who had attends Hogwarts, dealing with bullying by Merula Snyde. While at Hogwarts, rumors start arising about the Mikaelson family and Eliza’s lost brother, Jacob. When she gets word from her parents that Jacob had indeed returned and is finishing off his years at Hogwarts, Eliza isn’t entirely sure how to approach or even associate with Jacob. Professor Snape, not very fond of the older Mikaelson sibling, pays attention to Eliza and tries to help any way he can, causing sparks between the two. Jacob gets controntational and demands why Eliza won’t talk to him, and things explode. based on #31 on my writing prompts list!!

note: i think next to Eliza’s name I’ll put (Y/N) just in case others would like it in an x reader POV but idk yet. read to find out what i did lol. all in all, this was a lot of fun to write and im actually proud of it?????

warnings: none except one single curse word

6-23-18

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Another day had started for Eliza Mikaelson at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. And another day of bullying by Merula Snyde and her pets. A couple days ago, her and Merula had gotten into a duel in the courtyard and she protected her friends Rowan and Ben. However, Professors Snape and Flitwick had caught them. Flitwick was not happy that Eliza had used his private lesson for bad.

Merula had been more persistent with her bullying about Eliza’s brother, Jacob. He had gone missing after searching for the Cursed Vaults, apparently gone crazy after searching too long. That, or he couldn’t handle what was inside. Almost every day, people stopped to look at Eliza and asked if she knew anything about Jacob or helped him with what he was doing.

Today was one of those days.

Walking into the dining hall, Eliza headed over to the Hufflepuff table and heard voices coming from all directions. One stuck out; Merula Snyde’s. She chuckled as she watched her victim walk past her, “you stayed up late last night, Mikaelson. Contacting your brother in helping him form some kind of crazy cult?”

Eliza tightened her lips and turned around, “no, actually. Studying for our potions test today so I don’t take an L like the one your parents took by putting one in your name.”

Barnaby Lee started cracking up, falling off the bench while Merula scoffed and crossed her arms, “whatever, Mikaelson. At least I’m not part of the crazy crew.”

Eliza nodded, “right, just part of the disappointment one.”

Happy with how the new wit had come up, Eliza took her seat and gave high fives to those who patted her back. There was at least some kind of good that came from fighting back to Merula. Unbeknownst to her, Professor Snape had seen and heard the whole thing. As a Slytherin, he understood why Merula was rude, but not to this extent. He and other teachers agreed; she was a bitch.

Owls had then started to come in, flying to students who had gotten mail from relatives or anyone they knew. With an owl flying by, one had dropped a letter off to Eliza, interrupting her breakfast. Putting down her chocolate chip and banana bagel, she grabbed the letter and tore it open. However, she wasn’t entirely ready for what was inside.

Dear our precious Eliza,

   we have some exciting news; Jacob has returned home! He has been home for a couple weeks now, needing some space before he told us everything. Writing all of what happened would take ages, so with some convincing, we talked to Headmaster Dumbledore and decided that Jacob should go back to Hogwarts. Your dad and I know it’s a lot so when you told us that Professor Snape was your favorite professor, we also got his opinion. He reassured us that you’d be fine and he would fill us in if you seemed uncomfortable. We know it’ll be awkward, but when Christmas break comes along, we’re keen on fixing our family. Try your best to see him as your brother, Eliza. We love you.

                                              Mom and Dad

Eliza’s breath quickened as she dropped the letter, “holy fu-” Her friend Penny hit her shoulder, “hey! What was in the letter? What, is Jacob back?” Eliza knew Penny never meant those jokes seriously and sometimes they made her laugh, until now. Eliza turned to her friend, her face losing its color. Penny’s eyes widened, “wait, what?”

She grabbed the letter and read it over, glancing up at Eliza whose hands covered her mouth and eyebrows furrowed. Penny put the letter down, “Eliza, it’s okay. He’s your brother! How bad could it be?”

The younger Mikaelson turned to her friend, “Penny?! He’s been gone for years and now I’m in my 6th year, close to graduating. H-he, Jacob, can’t just show up out of fricken-”

Dumbledore had interrupted what Eliza was saying by starting a speech, “today, I had received some news that may make people happy or confused. From the Mikaelson family, we have learned that Jacob had returned and is starting his 7th. . .”

Eliza turned to Penny, “oh my he-who-must-not-be-named.” 

Penny’s eyes widened as she listened to Dumbledore and whispered to Eliza, “Jacob is here. Like, physically.”

The younger Mikaelson turned around, meeting eyes with her brother who stood at the end of the dining hall, looking straight at his sister. “No, nope, this is not happening,” Eliza said, tears forming in her eyes as she looked around. All eyes were on her as if they were waiting on her next move.

Professor Snape saw Eliza get up as she was unsure of what she was supposed to do. Her ears rang and she wasn’t sure if it was because of all the blood rushing through her body with such speed or the all-too-quiet room. Snape swooped past her with his hand on her arm, dragging her down the hall where Jacob was.

The professor stopped and looked the boy over. He looked like Eliza except taller and scrawnier, yet with the same hair and eyes. He looked to his sister who hung her head with tears still threatening to spill. Soft chat went throughout the dining hall, waiting to see what would happen.

Snape shoved the boy out of the way and went through the doors, Eliza following right behind him. The two went through the hallways of the castle until they reached the Potions room, heading inside and locking the door. The Hufflepuff students took quick breaths, hands going between shaking and moving her hair all over the place.

The DADA and potions professor looked at his student, “Eliza?” He put his hands on her shoulders and that’s when she looked up at him. “Deep breaths with me, Miss Mikaelson,” Snape said while doing so, trying to help the girl out.

Eliza nodded and followed what Snape was doing until she calmed down, looking into Snape’s eyes. He slowly raised a hand to her cheek, rubbing his thumb over the skin softly. Professor Snape and Eliza’s lips met and she was pretty sure her world had stopped.

Eliza melted with every touch she felt by Snape, and she entwined her fingers in his hair as they kissed. At the moment when everything seemed perfect, the door had busted open and the two broke apart, Eliza crossing her arms and Snape looking down at the 6th year Hufflepuff.

Turning around, Eliza was met with Jacob. “What?” she asked, eyes red from crying. Her brother walked towards her slowly, “Eliza, please. When I tell you everything, I promise I can be your big brother again. I’ll be in your life again, I promise.”

Eliza scoffed as Snape put a hand on her lower back, silently telling her that he was there. “Jacob, please,” Eliza started, “if you were my brother, you wouldn’t have left in the first place.”

The older Mikaelson gave his sister sad eyes, “Eliza. . .”

Eliza turned around and looked to Snape for a second opinion. He looked her in the eyes, saying to do what she felt was right. Eliza turned back to her brother and glared at him, “you. . .you explain yourself, ok? There better be a damn good reason why you left us.” Jacob sighed happily and opened up his arms for Eliza to rush into.

Hogwarts had been filled with talk about the oldest Mikaelson being back, but Jacob had stuck with one story; he thought he was getting too powerful with magic and needed some time off. The story stuck with everyone except Eliza, who knew that he had been getting nightmares from Voldemort and started to talk Parseltongue. Wanting to get more powerful until he realized his wrongdoings(by trying to find the Cursed Vaults), he left.

The siblings had gotten along alright with the old-but-new arrival, yet he still seemed nervous about being around Eliza. He had been avoiding her for the last couple days and she knew one day, it would come to this.

Seeing her brother walking down the empty halls of the school(there was a Quidditch match today, Hufflepuff vs Ravenclaw), she knew it was time to confront her brother.

Jacob looked up at the owner of the footsteps other than his. Seeing it was Eliza, he put his head back down and tried to walk past his sister. Tonks had then come out from the entrance to the field where everyone was, seeing Eliza. “Eliza, hey! You coming to the game?”

The Hufflepuff looked to her friend, “I’ll be out there in a couple minutes, just gotta get my scarf. Save me a seat, yeah?” Tonks nodded and smiled, closing the door behind her and headed back to the game.

Jacob hadn’t gotten far and Eliza grabbed her brother’s arm, pushing him against the wall, “Jacob William Mikaelson. When I said you can come into my life again, I meant it, but not for you to be a total asshole after a couple weeks. What the heck is your problem?”

Jacob scruffed off his sister’s grip on his jacket, “listen, it’s weird me being back here. Especially with you.”

Eliza let out a sarcastic laugh, “yeah, no way. How do you think I feel? Why do you keep avoiding me?”

Jacob bit the inside of his cheek even when he towered over his sister. He placed a hand on her shoulder, “with all the things I told you about, I met people and learned things and I just,” he took a breath, “. . .because when people get close to me, they get hurt! You. . .you’re not someone I can risk losing.”

Eliza squinted, “Jacob, you’re not gonna lose me. I can take care of myself.”

Her brother sighed, “if you-know-who comes back. . .I just can’t risk losing you. So I wanted to lose you before I lost you for real.”

His sister crossed her arms, “shut up. We’re siblings, so we stick together. Now let’s go watch this Quidditch game. My money’s on Hufflepuff; they got Cedric this year, he’s the best third year seeker I’ve ever seen!”

note: also yes i made cedric a third year bc this is when talk of voldemort started so like ykno

[friends-call-me-snow-miser]

for the blog ask game - 1, 4, 10, 12, 13, and 15: do you plan on somehow celebrating the year of bein on tumblr? (also just the upcoming new years :D)

1. Why do you use tumblr?

i had considered making a blog much before last year but never got around to it. one of the reasons i go on tumblr is it’s a social media i can use where i’m a lot less likely to be bombarded with transphobic hate like i was on ig. i don’t use much social media, and other than ig i had mostly used snapchat, but by the time i made this blog there was now trauma associated with it and i’d have an anxiety attack every time i got a notification. i hadn’t heard of discord yet, and tiktok, frankly, scared me. i downloaded the app for a day once and very personally invasive, like my friends talk about it recording their voices when it’s not on or u being on it for 5 minutes and it knows every singe thing about u. also, tiktok crowd is very slightly too young for me. with tumblr, u could make ur own textposts and u could also reblog others’ posts! and it helps their post instead of a repost with credit being the only thing u could do other places. and also, most of the posts i liked on ig were taken from tumblr anyways, so not like i was losing peak comedy from there by coming here

4. What’s your favorite post you’ve made and why?

hmm, i’m gonna answer this in a way that doesn’t conflict with any other questions in the ask game about posts, cuz i have a lot of favorites. i really like mr. frogman a lot. great post by me

10. What’s one lesson you’ve learned while on tumblr?

i think one of the more important ones is watching out for radfem rhetoric, particularly from things that aren’t strictly/obviously terf shit. i see posts sometimes where yeah, looks like they’re uplifting women, but a lot of times it tries to put men down in the process. and im talking about in a “men are inherently evil/bad” type way. also i have tags like terf safe and radfem safe and radfem blocked, so if the original poster put those tags but they weren’t reblogged with the same tags (especially to spread further on tumblr) i can tell

12. How many mutuals do you have?

slightly complicated because here i’m gonna count side-by-side mutuals. these are mutuals where either we follow each other’s side blogs or one of us follows the main and the other follows a side blog. anyways, counting it all up and making sure of no double counts, i’ve currently got 50 mutuals! wow, did not expect that!

13. How did you decide who to follow/what was the first blog you followed?

i think the very first blog i followed on tumblr was gaud, but i don’t necessarily count the popular blogs as first cuz i knew about them before coming to tumblr. the actual first blog i followed was the first one that followed me @/winter-day-in-the-south . They have this cool OC named Wynter to go along with Snow Miser. then i started checking out and following people who liked my posts, first being @/potatolemon (love ya bestie) anyways, pretty early in my time here on tumblr i made a post that has over 1,000 notes, and at some point i could not keep up with it and that was the end of that method. but it also gave me a lot of people to follow, and since it was a post about being ace, i got more cemented into the tumblr ace community

15. [Other questions]

I don’t necessarily plan on celebrating my one year on tumblr outside of tumblr, but i have a post in queue later today for a little celebration (it’s not very exciting or anything tho so don’t put a lot into it lol). for the new year, idk. we’ll probably be at my family’s house, drinking sparkling grape juice, counting down to the new year (as long as i am not in the hospital again. got out just barely before the new year a couple years ago)

[briteboy]

(circumstantial name by @earnoodle)

IT’S FINALLY TIME FOR THE POST YOU’VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR (or maybe just that one anon)

there’s a LOT in here, newer questions are generally first so if you asked something a while ago and you’re only interested in that, scroll towards the bottom. also doing wcifs separately (errr i’m gonna try my hardest to ok don’t crucify me)

this mass anons post includes topics ranging from Very Sweet Things Said To Me That I Don’t Deserve, nitpicking stranger things, crying over ramona, lou theories, Cillian Is A Fucking Creep theories (true), and completely unhelpful reshade advice

let’s f0cking do this

You're right, apart from carrying his stupid brain, Santi's head didn't do anything to any of us. I apologize for anon.

I'm pretty sure I said that already but I love Rooney and Santi's relationship so much I literally have no words for it

ME TOO LIKE IT’S JUST SO PURE TWO NOT-KIDS SCARED OF THE ADULT WORLD TRYING TO FIGURE THINGS OUT WITH THEIR WEIRD BRAINS TOGETHER ;__; i love them

YO i didnt know u were a demigirl!! im a demiboy nb Buddies

hell fuckin yeah dude!! we are starting a demi club

Ok but like I really want werewolves. Like I know it sounds stupid but we have vampire and while yes I love my bat babes, I want a giant pupper friend. I have story written out and plans for a cabin to build. Now I’m waiting for EA to give me my big hairy babes.

DUDE i want more supernatural stuff too, mostly witches like I NEED MY WITCHES AGAIN!!! ts3 witches were so good. i didn’t like ts3 werewolves much but i feel like they’d be super cool in ts4, knowing how the vampires came out. i NEED it

hihi! i've been very quietly (??) following your blog for some time now and i just fawn over your characters way too much ?? anywho, i've been wanting to start my own little simblr story but ,, i'm not entirely sure where to even start? i have so many stories that i'd love to get out there, and i have the means.. butt, how did you go about starting out?? so sorry this is so long but i look up to you a whole ton!!! ty ily! :-)

i’m the (??) lmao that’s me always but ahdhghdfkshg thank you so much!!!!! i’m so glad you love them, it means the world to me ;-; and listen, that was me, i had no idea how i was going to do it because i’d only seen ts3 stories up to that point and i thought there was like a set Way to tell stories but i had no idea what i was doing so i was like y’know what...i’m just gonna do it how i feel comfortable doing it and i’m gonna figure it out as i go along. so honestly try to roughly plan out what your stor(ies) will entail and if you get stuck on planning and can’t figure it out, just jump right into it, try to make a few scenes or get the ball rolling somehow, even if it’s just random posts (i mean that’s all my blog was until i decided to commit to santi’s story.) it’s always gonna feel weird and awkward at first, but you’ll get comfortable the more you do it and it’ll figure itself out, trust me!

I read through most of your story posts the other day and now I’m rereading it again just to torture myself some more (and maybe catch up on some posts I may have missed). I honestly don’t think I’ve come across a sims story that’s so beautifully written & includes such evocative pictures as yours. I’m really at a loss for words, it’s all so stunning. & after a nearly two-month long creative block, it’s planted the smallest seed of inspiration in the back of my mind, so thank you for your art.

AHHHH AHSDHKGKDSJG WHAT!!!!! it’s always crazy hearing that 1) people actually care about my stuff, and 2) that it inspires them. like i really cannot believe that, stilL!! thank you so so much, i’m so happy you enjoyed it (as torturous as it was, lmao) it seriously warms my heart that you’re getting your groove back in the creative world, that means more to me than ANYTHING!! good luck with your art or whatever you decide to do with that inspiration!

 can i pls have your editing skill please and thank you

i owe most my editing at this point to reshade so honestly get reshade and u will probably become better than me

o added u on animal crossing and when you added me back i was so happy,, your little person is sooo adorable ((:

OMG!! thank you!! everyone’s person on there is adorable i cry i love them all so much i’m so mad tho it won’t let me add any more friends!!! it probably cuts off at like 100 friends or something STUPID

First of all, I love you. Secondly, I love your photos so much. I'm legit about to just ditch sims 3 for 4 now because of your amazing posts. 😖

LMFAO no but really THANK YOU I LOVE YOU!!! if you can manage playing both i admire u, i’ve invested too much time and effort into ts4 to ever fully go back to any other sims games tbh

The new patch made my game unplayable! I'm crying, I miss my doggos...

NOOOOO!!! hopefully by now you’ve found a fix, i’m prayin for u

long time listener, first time caller yoooo. i like everyone love your stories and your sim aesthetic so so so much and just tbh i was offended on your behalf about that ask from that person wanting to novelize your stories. like you were way too nice. this is your intellectual property and it's fucked up that someone would think it'd be okay to duplicate it as long as they used a different medium. this is prob a bad one to repost just wanted to you to know you're an awesome, singular voice

omfg lmao this is a radio show now *z100 voice* tellem why ya mad euhhh first of all i can’t believe someone even ASKED that, i’m in shock because like what this is so foreign to me. people want to write about MY characters WHAT! like that alone...takes a long time to process. and like i know i should say no but then i feel mean but they’re also my creations so like idk. it warms my heart that you feel so strongly and would stand up for me like that i’m cryin thank u for calling in i love u

I JUST FINISHED YOUR ENTIRE STORY AND I'M NOT OK WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE PUTTING ME THROUGH THAT SHIT IT'S AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER AND I FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE ABUSED MY (NON EXISTENT) INNOCENCE WOW

I’M SO SORRY U HAD TO GO THROUGH THAT ALSO I APOLOGIZE FOR STEALING YOUR INNOCENCE I NEVER MEANT FOR THIS TO HAPPEN OSDAFKJDSK BUT THANK YOU FOR READING I’M GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT EVEN IF IT HURT YOU!!!

I've been up all night and it's now 11am. I'm completely binging on your stories bc I am in LOVE and need a Molly in my game asap. Do you think you'll ever upload her?

omG my freaking story inciting insomnia i’m so sorry for ur sleep schedule first of all, but at least that makes you identify with santi even more omg tho ;___; (how many times will i say ‘omg’ i wonder) i don’t think so because she is so dear to me and makes my heart ache, she is just so special, i dunno if i could ever release her into the wild like that lmao. i haven’t even shared her with my friends (not that i really ever had a reason to) but like yeah. maybe in the future that’ll change but right now, no, i’m sorry <3

To change the topic: Idk if you watch stranger things but I only managed to get to episode 3 of season 2 before I stopped watching lmao it was so bad and Billy (a certified Cunt) ruined the whole show for me

YEAH I DID! omg. i have a LOT of issues with this season (mostly in how badly they tried to retcon nancy and everyone else not caring about barb’s death, how bad the writing was in the realm of nancy and steve breaking up and then her and jonathan getting together...holy fuck it was so uncomfortable with that 40 yr old conspiracy theorist guy i couldn’t even enjoy my ship getting together lmao) also ur right, max and billy honestly did not offer anything to the story...like i loved max too but what was the point...billy acted like their presence and the reason they had to move was so dramatic when it was really nothing...unless they’re saving that for season 3 but like. the whole situation with billy was so anticlimactic. he was like a walmart version of henry from IT. like boohoo ur dad’s an asshole and then he beat up steve. good character arc. i liked max standing up for herself but really...that whole thing was so lackluster, i didn’t care about it at all. ALSO I HATED THAT THEY DIDN’T LET MAX AND ELEVEN BE FRIENDS!! i’m sure it’ll happen in season 3 but like c’mon...that would’ve made the max character feel a little more important to the story. anyway yeah fuck billy and i don’t get why everyone is lusting after him or his actor they’re both ugly! thanks for listening

I just got the sims 4 + city living and I’m so excited! I was really inspired by your stories and style in general... I was wondering what packs do you have and also what are your favourite sims 4 hairs? I’m having trouble finding ones and I love your style!

YAY I’M EXCITED FOR YOU!!! omg aww it warms my heart so much when people say i inspire them because i never anticipated that kind of response, thank you so much <3 hmmm i think i have all of them except glamour stuff and fitness stuff. and pretty much all the hairs i download are here or here. (or the subsequent ‘tf’, ‘cf’, ‘tm’ and ‘cm’ tags as well, according to age)

UHM a 19 year old and a 13 year old? Poor baby Lou... Also youre a brilliant writer i cant

😬😬😬  stay tuned ajasdhjhjsahd thank you so much!!!

My stan levels for you have increased so much? like thanks for being a good ally, clAps for femmesim!

lmao thank you, i don’t really deserve praise tho i’m just passing on the knowledge of those patient enough to teach me. just trying to do what i can with my privilege u know. ily

How do you have teeth showing in so many of your pictures of Lou and Molly, do you PS them in?

i’ve gotten this question before and it’s usually just the poses used! i do have some lipsticks that have teeth on them but i mostly use them for just rooney.

Honestly, a fight between Santi and that new guy (srry, forgot his name while typing this) would be so hot. Like, I hope Santi would win but like just watching Santi fight him for Lou would make me happy!! Also, I live for your stories💞

omG i’m about to call up vince mcmahon they both need to fight on smackdown it’s gonna happen. they’ll both be shirtless too ok and THANK YOU ILY

boi poc can be PREJUDICED against white people but there is no such thing as reverse racIIIIIIiiiiIIIIIiiiIIIIsm

Lemme just say that you must be feeling so stressed rn. I love you and your simblr!!! Your posts light up my day!! <3333

OMg kind of. this week has taken A Lot out of me and i really just want to chill at home and play my freaking GAME but obligations. u know. here’s hoping i get a day off this week. i’m mad i’m probably gonna miss gianni’s birthday too (it’s on tuesday) and i wanted to do something for it!! i’ll probably do it late like i did last year too lmao i’m so sorry baby g ANYWAY u didn’t ask to hear about any of this...thank you for this sweet message i love you <3

why,,,, are people... coming to your blog to discuss race you are a fucking simblr WHAT

the real question is why do people go to you like its your job to educate them lmao like theres so many resources out there

SHAWDY u aint wrong reverse racism is literally a joke i am so sorry you have to go through all of this keep stepping on white feelings we deserve it

I was wondering would u consider Asians to be POC?

yes

I just finished Strange the Dreamer and it was fucking amazing. I cried so much and I laughed and I sat in absolute amazement at the world Laini Taylor has created. 100/10 would recommend

ahhhh i really need to read it apparently!! i’m like 10% away from being done with a dance with dragons (and then i have to wait for the next book like a peasant HURRY UP KING GEORGE) anyway this one is definitely on my list!

omgomg!! I just met this girl in my class who has eyes just like ramona's!!! But like instead of being brown w/ a little bit of blue, they were blue w/ a little bit of brown!!! Dude I was so shook I rlly didn't think ppl had eyes like that!

OMG!!!! that’s amazing! and yes heterochromia is a real thing haha. i’ve only met one person with it and he had the same color combo as ramona too, only his was full heterochromia, not sectoral.

*me in the background screaming* nO yOU LEAVE HER ALoNE baD-DAD-MaN!

ME TF TOO

every time i read some of your stories i get an ache in my heart that doesn't go away until i either cry or sleep so interpret that as you like

OMG ;_____; ok me too tho my heart literally hurts thinking about my characters sometimes...mostly santi...i hate him (no i don’t :{ )

hey uhh idk if you've answered something like this before but do you have a spotify or something bc your music taste is GOLD

THANK YOU!! you were the first person to ask about this haha and hopefully you saw my answer to the other question about it! i just made one and it’s here!

hi hi ! i’m seeing all the drama on da blog and i really want to read the whole story but i can’t get to it on mobile so i was wondering if you could link the beginning and tell me what the best order to read it in is ( i’m so confused because i’ve seen sm people y’all about a parallel story so idk if i’m being dumb !! ) i hope this isn’t any inconvenience also your sims are so beautiful sjajsjajs

hey on mobile the link is just: http://femmesim.tumblr.com/tagged/story/chrono i would honestly just recommend that order haha, it makes things simpler and it encompasses ALL story posts, or posts that give context. there are parallels in my story, lou’s is kind of a parallel of santi’s, only different...well...you’ll see. but yeah sorry this is so late! and thank you!!!

TU HISTORIA ES TAAAAAN BUENA POR DIOOOOS (YOURE STORY IS SOOOOO GOOD OMG) <3 <3 *OO* *cries in spanish*

MUCHAS GRACIAS ENCANTADORA PERSONAAAA <333

lou is wendy right? i mean, a wendy complex is someone who is overly mothering to partners, and lou is already a mother and ik that doesn't really count as foreshadowing but it seems like it could be a link to me. it'd make sense too, considering guys that go after younger girls (ew) are usually immature ie peter pan complex. it'd make the most sense that those two go together then.

heheheheh that is a VERY good observation...that’s all i’m gonna say!!

This has nothing to do with what's happening in the story rn, but whatever. I was wondering if you were going to mention lou's struggles with being a single mom and the stigma surrounding single motherhood? As a single mother myself I'd really enjoy seeing you take on the issue. Personally, my biggest problem was overcoming the generalizations people put on you when you're a single mom. People always assumed that I that I was stupid and uneducated because I had my son when I was 17.

yes! that will definitely come up. i will focus a lot on her struggles as a single mom. so far i’ve mostly just peppered in some stuff about money troubles, and that will come up again, and the issues you mention will be pretty central to her character as well. i’m sorry you have to endure that, it’s not fair. people don’t even realize how strong and dedicated single mothers are.

when you say Peter Pan, do you mean the Disney stuff or the og creepy stuff?

i mean the general themes of the story and how that translates into a peter pan complex: boy who never grows up, feels like he fits in more with younger people (haha...yikes), read the message above because that anon described the other half of the equation better than i could

Wait, hold up. That dude is cute but I feel like he’s coming onto Lou way too strong. I have a bad feeling.. Lou is like 13 there and he is 19 I mean I’ve seen bigger gaps between people, but she is not legal yet.. Where are you going with this? 🤨😅

yyyyyyep that feeling is warranted! i am going a way i don’t think you guys expect me to go...i think you’ll be very confused at the end of this part lmao. that being said, i’m not putting any of this in for shock value or to romanticize inappropriate relationships like this. (i’m probably going to be repeating that a LOT for this story but please just keep that in mind)

Hey mom wanna hear a fun as hell story? I just got back from the ER bc I fell on my razor after showering, and practically cut my nipple in half. (I am in so much pain hELP)

OMFG NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR POOR NIPPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’M SO SORRY I HOPE IT FEELS BETTER PLEASE UPDATE ME ON THE NIPPLE STATUS

U gotta watch sense8!!! Apart from the v awkward sex scenes it's v good, has a lot of representation and shit Just watch that shit show, u won't regret it (And if you do I cut your throat oops)

i’ve heard it’s good! i remember when it first came out and everyone was like Wow The Representation so honestly anything with diversity has already got me hooked pls don’t murder me.

I'm calling it now. He's Fi's dad. and he's a FUCKING CREEP!! Bitch you are 19!! LOU IS 13!! BACK THE FUCK OFF YOU PERV!!

no spoilers or anything but honestly i’m with you @ cillian die

Are they gonna fucc, o no

right now? no. that would be Very Bad

bABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE

oh same

Hi ! Your lastest edit (graveyard girl) is truly amazing, how did you make that bokeh behind her ? 😱😍

thank you so much!!! it’s reshade (with matso DOF)!

You've probably got this question a lot of times but i can't find the answer for it. What reshade do you use?

i gotta add this to my faq, it’s one i created myself but i started out with this one (it totally doesn’t resemble that one anymore but i think it’s a good starting point)

how do you make good looking male sims? mine always look the same and kinda girly..

hmmm longer faces, prominent chins and jaws, smaller eyes, bigger noses...generally yeah

What do you mean 9 + alt?

you gotta turn bb.moveobjects on and then press alt + 9 when an object is selected to move it upward. so what i did with those poses i made was, i selected a teleporter and pressed alt + 9 until it was at a spot i liked on the roof. that’s why releasing those poses would be tricky, ‘cause every build is different so there’s no set way to place them, you just kinda have to play around with them

You mentioned GoT so naturally, I have to chime in and express my love for Jon. Honestly, he won me over ever since the first season? I'm at season 5 now and people have already warned me so now i'm silently weeping, waiting for something to happen to my precious bby help

JONNY BOY!!!!!!!!!!! i loved his emo ass since the beginning but his arc with qorin halfhand (was he in the show??) was probably the best arc in book 2 and then his book 3 arc was just...SO GOOD, SO MUCH happens to him and i just felt like i was watching my son go through it all...i love that boy so much ;-; i’m almost at the end of the last book and i’m scared for him because of the one spoiler i know lmao and you’re at that point too so GET READY we’ll go through it together ok

So there's this game I'm playing where someone talking about another character says 'maybe you can break him from his ouroboros of self-fladulation' (I know I probably butchered those spellings but I'm not a bright egg and autocorrect isn't helping rip) and tbh it made me think of Santi. (Also I'mma scream of you get this reference jsyk)

OMG THE FACT THAT YOU THOUGHT OF HIM ;-; and it’s okay u are the brightest egg in the bunch to me. I’M SORRY I DON’T GET THIS REFERENCE BECAUSE I’M NOT A VIDEO GAME PERSON BUT I’LL PRETEND I DO KNOW WHAT UR TALKING ABOUT anyway yes santi is currently in the process of breaking his self-flagellation and embracing the oneness of the ouroboros (as opposed to letting the cycle repeat itself until he’s worn down to nothing)

do you have any favorite pose creators?

answered

do you have any tips for taking good screenshots in game? like how to get the good angles and good quality? i play on ultra but i think when i zoom in and then use the arrows on my keyboard to move around, the pictures gets less clear and looks kinda blurry. how should i do this?

well if you’re already using ultra, there’s not much you can do lmao. sims 4 is just bad with textures in general. it also depends on the objects as well, some are better quality than others. if i zoom in far on a sim’s face, i generally know there will be some pixelation and i can clean that up in photoshop with topaz clean and the smudge tool. i am very reliant on photoshop sometimes lmao. it sounds like you already have the basics of taking good screenshots, it’s just sometimes you have to fight and work with sims 4′s less-than-hd quality.

burn it down by daughter reminds me of santi & i'm in pain

ouroboros!!! death! birth! death again! birth again rinse repeat! also santi breaking the cycle because third time's the charm

The tattoo is an Ouroboros. It originated in Egyptian iconography, and it symbolizes recreation. My boy's recreating himself, I'm so proud.

ouroboros, the dragon eating its own tail. it's a sign of eternal renewal

i saw the post of child molly and just started BAWLING i miss her what the fuck she's my fave character i'M CRYING

ME TOO BICH!! ME FUCKIN TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just read all of A Serious Case Of The Novembers so far and theres still tears on my face. some of the best stuff ive read in a while, great job on everything

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ALSO I’M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY

every time you write about molly and her in heaven it makes my heart swell, like the characters were answering asks and someone asked her what heaven was like and even though it was so small short lil answer it still pulls at the heart strings, basically what im trying to say is that your writing is so good! <3

omg ;_______; me too, i feel like she has such a simple way with words and although her descriptions of heaven are brief, they are also complex and beautiful, and even just writing it chokes me up ;-; thank you so much tho i’m so glad you like it!!

Molly: out Molly tatto: also out

why did this remind me of this post:

How did you edit in the fire in the last post? Looks cool

i searched things like “bonfire” and pasted parts of it that i wanted on the pic to make it look more realistic, then put a layer mask on the pasted pic and erased the edges and stuff to make it blend in better. the sparks and stuff i added by pasting it onto a new layer and changing the blending mode to screen! 

idk if you have every watched grey anatomy but Lou's backstory is starting to remind me of Jo (Jo is a character from the show) like Jo was in a abusive relationship and she is married to the guy but she cant get divorced or he will come and find her. So like if Lou didn't tell Fiona's dad he was a dad and Lou was married to him and cant escape the marriage (cause abuse), plus it would explain Lou's kink with being choked ;) full circle *god-like heaven music with tiniest violin is playing now*

ooh no i don’t but that’s interesting and i’m excited you even made a connection like that! i will say that it’s not lou who likes to be choked (the very opposite actually lmao) but otherwise the situation does kinda fit. i’m the violin

I have a freakin bio pre ap test tomorrow on photosynthesis and i have no idea what it is im going to fail save me

I’M ANSWERING THIS VERY LATE BUT I HOPE YOUR TEST WENT WELL!!!!!! *spongebob voice* photosynthesis

last time I installed reshade I couldn't get it to open the controls or shaders or anything in game :///// any tips?? I love they way reshade looks too!!

hmmmmm well i know the control panel opens when you press shift + f2, and then you check the boxes of the effects you want on them. i haven’t heard of this problem so i dunno what other advice to give i’m sorry :{ if it’s your first time installing it, you might have to wait a little to get it to load up.

Da puppy is so cute!!!

That dog and Romona are so adorable, I might cry

Ramona's cheeks are so big im in love

NAJKSDJGKJSD THANK YOU i love her and her chubby cheeks ;-;

OMG TOTORO IS SO BEAUTIFUL I LOVE GHIBLI UGH FKSJFJANFB

SAME!!!!!!! if i could only watch ghibli movies for the rest of my life i’d be totally fine with that

THE DOGGIE HAS EYES JUST LIKE RAMONAS IM GONNA FUCKIGN CRY

ME FUCKGN TOO!!!!!!!!!! it was fate (aka me creating the wolf pup to look just like her shh i am fate)

Hope I'm not bothering you but i wondered if you knew how to make Tamo sims eyebags work on a toddler? Do I just click in s4s to work for toddler on the "age and gender flags" when looking in My CC or do I have to do something a little more than that please? Thank you.

for any skin detail or makeup, you have to go into s4s and open the package up, go to one of the tabs (honestly i don’t remember which one because i don’t have it open rn lmao) and you’ll see the different age groups and you check the box for toddler. and then save it of course. (there’s probably a better guide on how to do this somewhere lmao)

Hey :) Sorry to take up your time, I was wondering if you use win7, win8 or win10? I'm trying to decide on one and people seem to have very strong feelings about it. Also what web browser do you use? I've used Firefox, but I had some problems on CC websites. Thanks<3

i use windows 10 because it came with my laptop lmao i honestly don’t know much about windows systems at all!! and i use google chrome because it’s never failed me (even though windows keeps pressuring me to use the new internet explorer called “edge”)

i just finished all of novembers in a sitting and 1. i'm Sobbing, 2. your music taste is bomb

THANK YOU!!! my music taste is like one part indie shit, one part rap and hip-hop, twelve parts emo middle school bands

what is the size of the original unedited screenshot?

1920x1080

For reshade when your first install and select the reshade you want to use do you have to edit the settings? Cause last time I tried to (I didn’t know what most of the things meant lmao) but it kept saying error or something so I couldn’t play the game so I ended up taking out reshade

do you mean the preset you want to use? i mean no you can just play with that preset, you don’t have to change anything about it. i’m not sure what you mean but i followed this guide for setting it up

Will you ever share your preset?? Or maybe a preset made be you??

i’ve answered this before but the answer is Maybe

Hi!!!! How do you make the rays of light you have in your photos?? THANK U BBY <3333

that’s actually in my editing tutorial but here you go <3

is reshade only available on windows + do we need to pay for it

yes and no

Hello love! I was wondering (and maybe it's a dumb question, idk) but what life span setting do you use? I would assume you turned off aging for your story but maybe I'm wrong ;w; Thank you!!

i do actually have aging off ‘cause i’m a coward lmao even in the ts3 days when i wasn’t doing story stuff and literally just playing i had it off for the most part and just aged sims up when i wanted because i like to be in control of Everything (aries)

I really just wanted to say that I’m new I your tumblr but your stories are amazing and I love them so much!!! Keep doing what you’re doing💞👏🏼

hey thank you!!! you are so kind and i’m glad you’re enjoying everything!!

In your reshade settings where have you set it to save your SS's to and which key please? I can't find mine after setting it to desktop/screenshots :(

i just set mine to ts4′s screenshots folder because it’s what i was used to and it works for me haha. hmmmmmm did you copy the exact address or whatever it’s called of your folder’s location and then paste it into the reshade box? try doing that with another location and see if it works. if anything you can do what i did ‘cause it worked for me 

ok SO i came across this music video for this like spanish/english speaking indie band called The Marías and the song was déjate llevar and literally everything about the music video reminded me of rooney and gianni

OMMMGGG i love this so much, i cry @ music suggestions and this is so them ;-; i think i’ve heard of this band before actually!!

a little life is going to fucking ruin you,,, just a warning

great! i look forward to it

can a steal ur talent

have it i don’t need it

What app are you using to make them cool edit things??

i tagged it but it was doodle face

omg Strange the Dreamer is so freaking amazing! It’s literally one of my favorite books of all time; You’ll love it. The writing is absolutely delightful

you guys are really singin the praises for this book!! i have so many dang books to read i swear

[yuurisnice]

im happy for u !!!! also,,, do you mind suggesting places online to make money like that ? :0 idk what reputable sources are but need money for food/hygiene stuff/etc while im in college, ;-;

Alright this might be a bit of a long post but here is my routine pretty much. I’m gonna put it under a readmore so I’m sorry mobile users. 

Usertesting. 

I’m not sure if you have to be 18 or not(I don’t think so) but it is available in multiple countries. UserTesting is short 5-10 minutes tests, sometimes more, where your screen is recorded and you give feedback to web and app developers. This can be anything from talking through your browse of a start up website to helping big companies like microsoft and apple improve their programs. When I first get on the interwebs, the first thing I do is log in to to usertesting and I leave the tab open so that I can see as soon as a test comes. You need to take a screener to see if you’re the demographic they’re looking for. Often they will have specific requirements. NO NOT LIE. They will be able to tell that you lied on the screen. They will not pay you and they will give you a low rating which affects how many tests you get. All payments are made through paypal. 

Amount Made this Month : $50

Swagbucks (non-ref)

Swagbucks is one of the most well known passive income earning sites. You do a daily poll, watch videos, fill out surveys, and get cash back on certain purchases. You have to be at least 13 and it is limited to US, CA, UK, AUS, INDIA, and IRELAND.I don’t spend a whole lot of time on here. I usually just do the daily tasks and watch a couple videos after that. I have my credit card linked so I get swagbuck bonuses from that. I only fill out offers if they’re 100% free. If you wanted to and had the dedication(And a phone farm) you could make an extra 30 dollars a month. So far I only have 1900 SB (19 dollars) but in this month I’ve only earned 700. I really recommend this if you’re just starting on with online passive income. It’s a great first site to ease in to. Payments are made through paypal, gift cards, and donations to charity. 

Amount Made this Month: $7

EpicMuseum (Non-ref) 

This is about developing a museum. Everyday you sign in a collect donation points which you can redeem for statues. The more statues your museum has, the more money you make.This is never going to make you any money, at least not right away. It’s been a month and I still only made $0.23. I only do this because it take 3 seconds out of my day and I find it interesting. I honestly shouldn’t include this but it is on my daily routine. They accept payments through paypal or payza, 

Amount made this month: $0.00

Microworkers

This is a site based around microjobs. People post micro jobs and you accept them for small amounts of money. This can be as small as doing a google search to as big as downloading an app and giving a review. Each job pays between $0.01 and $3.00. I tend to go on here and do about 20 minutes of work a day if I can. It’s really easy to accumulate money quickly and not feel like you’re doing too much. There’s jobs available in just about every country though there’s more if you’re from US, UK, CAN, AUS. Payments are made through paypal, Skrill/ Dwolla, Transpay, and Payoneer. If you do paypal, you’ll need to wait about a month for a pin to arrive at your home inorder to withdraw money. 

Amount Made this month: $28.64

Clickworker

Clickworker is almost exactly like microworkers in that there are lots of micro jobs for small change. Where you’re more likely to make money is if you pass the UHRS Assessment. I don’t really know too much about this site right now because I’m just getting back into the swing of it. I used to use it a little over 2 years ago and made around $200 in a month. This is just US based as you need to send in a W-9 in order to receive payment.

Amount Made this Month: $5.60 

Bing Rewards

Bing rewards is super easy and it recently became available in the UK! Bing will pay you to use their search engine. You get points everytime you search on your computer and your phone. There’s also fun little quizes you can take every day to earn extra points. If you think you can bare using bing instead of google for the sake of money, then I highly recommend you use this. I made big my default search engine about a six months ago and since then I’ve made about 60 dollars. I haven’t always been real on top of Bing Rewards because I didn’t think I had much use for gift cards, but now that I know I can buy food from them, I’ve added it to my daily routine. You can only cash out in gift cards. There is no paypal option. I usually only cash out with an Amazon Gift Card or Starbucks. I believe it’s 5200 points is 5 dollars which may not seem like a lot of money but when you start stacking those amazon cards, you’ll have a pretty decent amount of money to spend. So far I have about 30 dollars in amazon gift cards which I’m gonna use to buy dog food next month. Payments are through giftcards, microsoft discounts, Xbox live months, and merch. 

Amount Made this Month: $15 

Amazon Mechanical Turk

Amazon Mechanical Turk, or Mturk as many call it, is the most well known croudsourcing website. It’s hosted through Amazon and you have to be a US citizen and 18 years old as you’re essentially being contracted and you have to report this income on your taxes. I literally JUST had my application accepted last night so I haven’t gotten to use this enough to give you any feedback or opinion on it, but all the forums I follow say you can make a decent amount of money at it if you can get through the slow, bumpy start. Here is a subreddit that tells you pretty much everything you need to know about getting started with MTurk. It’ll be much more helpful than I am. 

Amount Made this Month: $0.00

GlobalTestMarket

GTM is by far my favourite of the survey sites. I can make and easy 10-15 dollars in a night. 120 points is 1 dollar and you can cash out in paypal at $10. Here is a list of countries that can sign up and you must be at least 14. Any survey site you visit, the surveys will always be boring and seem never ending, so make sure you’re doing something else while doing surveys. I like to have Netflix on in the background.If you have a survey site you prefer, stick with it. I’ve been with GTM since I was a youngin and I’ve cashed out well over 500 in my years. If I could go back in time I’d tell college me to stick with the damn thing for those 3 years cause who knows who much I could have made. Payments are made through paypal, giftcards, magazines, charities, and pandora subscription.

Amount Made this Month: $30

Total Amount for Month of June: 136.24

The threads that I follow the most to find new sites and new ways to improve my routine are here and here.

This is just my routine and it in no way has to be exactly what you do. I really recommend that you take time to look into sites before you devote any time to them. 

Don’t be discouraged if you don’t make a whole lot of people. I follow so many people who make upwads of 1500 a month doing this kinda stuff so my 100 dollars is so small in comparison but it’s still so helpful to me. 

If you do decide to sign up for any other these sites and you use my referral link while doing so, thank you so much. And if you don’t, no sweat man,just glad I could help. 

If anyone uses any other sites and stuff or knows of ones that can be used in countries that aren’t the USA, please let me know so I can see about adding them to my routine. 

Okay. I hope that covers everything. 

[blondewolfhd]

* 199 - 1?? >:3c i fucked up on sending the last one

199: I was born in:One of the worst states ever 198: I am really: Strange?197: My cellphone company is: AT&T196: My eye color is: Blue 195: My shoe size is: 6194: My ring size is: ??193: My height is: 5′5192: I am allergic to: SO MANY The one’s I remember on the top of my head are mites, black walnut, pine, and timothy grass (I’m allergic to like 6 grasses jc)191: My 1st car was: Don’t have one190: My 1st job was: Don’t have one yet189: Last book you read: Can’t remember 188: My bed is: so soft I love but I need to get two slats because they broke187: My pet: I have so many! I love all of them! There’s Ralph, Groucho, Axel, Paisley, Psycho, Josh, Pepper, Cole, Hamilton, Philip, Meowgi, Wrex, Wolf, Nikka, Ivypool, and Crowfeather. I’m fostering three animals. Two cats and one puppy!186: My best friend: S I R185: My favorite shampoo is: TRESemme Smooth and Silky 184: Xbox or ps3: PS3183: Piggy banks are: Good I guess182: In my pockets: I don’t have any I’m wearing Kenna’s pants181: On my calendar: So many birthdays (I have a bad memory)180: Marriage is: Alright179: Spongebob can: ??178: My mom: Ugh177: The last three songs I bought were? I download I don’t have any money 176: Last YouTube video watched: 1000 ways to die175: How many cousins do you have? I don’t talk to any of them ever.174: Do you have any siblings? Two both are half siblings but I never talk to one of them173: Are your parents divorced? No 172: Are you taller than your mom? Yeah171: Do you play an instrument? Not good170: What did you do yesterday? Hung with A.Ham while I recovered from my wisdom teeth surgery[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: No I believe it isn’t love but attraction at first sight You can’t really love someone until you get to know them 168: Luck: Not really167: Fate: Not sure166: Yourself: Nope165: Aliens: Yea164: Heaven: Agnostic163: Hell: ^162: God:^161: Horoscopes: Iffy160: Soul mates: Iffy159: Ghosts: Yet again iffy 158: Gay Marriage: Of freaking course 157: War: Unfortunately we can’t have peace in these times because of people like trump 156: Orbs:??155: Magic: ??[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs153: Drunk or High: Never been high so152: Phone or Online: Online151: Red heads or Black haired: No pref150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes149: Hot or cold: Cold148: Summer or winter: Winter147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla 145: Night or Day: Night144: Oranges or Apples: Apples143: Curly or Straight hair: No pref142: McDonalds or Burger King: Mocha Frappe141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White140: Mac or PC: PC139: Flip flops or high heals: Flip flops138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet 137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke136: Hillary or Obama: Obama135: Burried or cremated: Burried 134: Singing or Dancing: Singing133: Coach or Chanel: ??132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks:??131: Small town or Big city: Small town130: Wal-Mart or Target: No pref129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Rami Malek128: Manicure or Pedicure: I hate either127: East Coast or West Coast: Idk 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: We don’t really celebrate birthdays125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers124: Disney or Six Flags: Six Flags123: Yankees or Red Sox: Neither[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: It should be avoided but the orange idiot is probably gonna throw us into one soon 121: George Bush: Jet fuel can’t melt steel beammsss 120: Gay Marriage: !00% Great 10/10 119: The presidential election: I hate trump 118: Abortion: Should be 100% percent legal  Pro choice 117: MySpace: I used to have one116: Reality TV: I like Jeremy Kyle115: Parents: sigh 114: Back stabbers: Kill em 113: Ebay: Never used it112: Facebook: I hate most of the people who post on it 111: Work: Depends I really love working with animals110: My Neighbors: sigh109: Gas Prices: bad108: Designer Clothes: Never wear them 107: College: Good but expensive106: Sports: nah105: My family: oh god104: The future: OH GOd[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: Kenna the other day I think?102: Last time you ate: Couple minutes ago 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: Can’t remember 100: Cried in front of someone: When I got my wisdom teeth out I didn’t know what happened and I was afraid99: Went to a movie theater: Long time ago98: Took a vacation: Long time ago 97: Swam in a pool: About a month ago 96: Changed a diaper: Back in 4th grade I think?95: Got my nails done: When I was like 894: Went to a wedding: Never93: Broke a bone: I think my finger was the last on and that was over the summer92: Got a peircing: Idk how old I was but I was young91: Broke the law: Too many 90: Texted: About 12[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: Toss up between you and Kenna88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: Ralph87: The last movie I saw: Can’t remember86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Reading that letter Boiii85: The thing im not looking forward to: School or these stitches falling out84: People call me: A mistake™83: The most difficult thing to do is: ?? Talk about feelings??82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Never81: My zodiac sign is: Taurus80: The first person i talked to today was: You79: First time you had a crush: We don’t talk about my first actual crush 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Idk 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: You know76: Right now I am talking to: Technically you 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: Veterinarian 74: I have/will get a job: Idk73: Tomorrow: Stop the pain in my mouth 72: Today: Hanging out with you 71: Next Summer: Idk70: Next Weekend: Idk 69: I have these pets: I have mix breed dogs, purebred pugs, cats, and rabbits68: The worst sound in the world: So many but pained screams67: The person that makes me cry the most is: idk 66: People that make you happy: Ralph 65: Last time I cried: When I got my wisdom teeth removed 64: My friends are: Great™63: My computer is: trash 62: My School: Trash 61: My Car: What one60: I lose all respect for people who: The list goes on and on (Don’t be Max and youre pretty much set)59: The movie I cried at was:So many but Marley and Me came to mind first 58: Your hair color is: Blonde57: TV shows you watch: Teen Wolf and Jeremy Kyle56: Favorite web site: Tumblr55: Your dream vacation: SNOW54: The worst pain I was ever in was: The puss pocket in my mouth 53: How do you like your steak cooked: Medium52: My room is: cold51: My favorite celebrity is: Jeremy Kyle50: Where would you like to be: Snow49: Do you want children: Nah48: Ever been in love: Sigh47: Who’s your best friend: Si r46: More guy friends or girl friends: I’m not sure45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Helping animals44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Ralph 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: Yea42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: Nah 41: Have you pre-named your children: I did a long time ago 40: Last person I got mad at: Idk 39: I would like to move to: Snow 38: I wish I was a professional: Veterinarian [ My Favorites ]37: Candy: Hershey36: Vehicle: Lexus35: President: Obama 34: State visited: DC33: Cellphone provider: AT&T32: Athlete: Don’t have one31: Actor: Rami Malek30: Actress: Holland Roden29: Singer: Jon Bellion 28: Band: BMTH27: Clothing store: Hot topic26: Grocery store: ??25: TV show: Teen Wolf24: Movie: The Guardian 23: Website: ??22: Animal: Wolf21: Theme park: Six Flags20: Holiday: Don’t really have one anymore 19: Sport to watch: Lacrosse 18: Sport to play: none17: Magazine: none16: Book: ??15: Day of the week: Saturday 14: Beach: None13: Concert attended: Haven’t12: Thing to cook: Mac n Cheese 11: Food: Mac n Cheese10: Restaurant: Steak N Shake9: Radio station: ??8: Yankee candle scent: ??7: Perfume:??6: Flower: I’m not sure5: Color: Blue, Purple, and green 4: Talk show host: Jeremy Kyle 3: Comedian: Idk 2: Dog breed: German Shepherd1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Si