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hmmm what if i rebrand this acc

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27.11.24

not solo date at the library as i bumped into some of my friends outside so we were studying tgt

finished 4 qns of DE

read through hydroxy compounds notes

did half the hydroxy tutorial

read a few articles for gp

i think i hv a fever 🫣

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25.11.24

another solo library study date lolz

it feels good to be back in sg 😌

gna get subway for lunch then head home

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23.11.24

guess who got bitten by mosquitoes in 10 different places last night

(me.)

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please

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22.11.24

i hvnt been posting for a while cuz i got dragged to india for a function 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 i was supposed to leave tonight but my parents postponed the flight back to sunday morning. i am SOOOO BOOOOOORED help

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18.11.24 | early morning sbux run + lana music

def a vibeeee

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rainy november mornings spent reading and working on the thesis ☁️☕️

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14.11.2024

i crashed h3 bio lesson in school this morning, just to see how the subject is being taught and because a lot of my friends wanted to take it. i'm pretty sure i was the only physics-taker there. anyways im so glad i didnt take bio as it seems to truly be way too hard to score for. h2 bio itself has a 15 mark essay question and most people only get around 4-5! h3 bio is even better: the entire paper consists of 3 essays and that's all! at this point it should be considered a humanities subject. i had a h3 maths lesson later that day which went quite alright. i'm starting to warm up to the subject, and i love that some of my close friends are in my class and we get to sit together. i didn't study much myself today. i redid my notes for temperature & ideal gases as i wasnt the most clear with that topic, that's all.

earlier in the year i'd found a telegram bot which matches people with other people in our school just to make new friends. i matched with someone today and we were chatting and we really hit it off! got so much tea today from this guy, i didn't know half the drama that was going on with even the people i thought i knew well! we were quite engrossed in chatting that i only slept past 1, oops... but it's alright it was fun

xx

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nothing ever dies

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13.11.24

man i need to get back to being productive... i spent most of my morning journalling abt the class outing yesterday and doomscrolling on instagram. my friends and i met up at IKEA for lunch after that and we spent a few hours walking around. besides that, i revised a bit of thermodynamics and did 2 questions of my h3 maths tutorial. i think i need to plan out more things to do before the holidays fly past.

xx

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°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ “I don’t chase” affirmations for bad days

♡ i don’t chase, i attract

♡ i don’t have to try, the world is naturally drawn to me

♡ each one of my desires are attracted to me

♡ circumstances dont matter, everything will work out perfectly in the end

♡ I’m constantly reminded of my limitless power

♡ i never have to chase anything, abundant luck is always there for me

♡ others admire my ability to attract everything i desire

♡ the most unexpected but delightful miracles happen to me without me having to lift a finger

♡ all of my desires are already here, I already have them

"i do not fix problems. i fix my thinking. then problems fix themselves."

-louise hay

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u can be my moron <3 (sorry if this is cringe)

The Paradoxical Character: 19 Unique Trait Pairings

Here’s a list of 19 wildly unusual, highly contrasting trait pairs that blend quirky or fantastical attributes. These could make for delightfully strange, otherworldly, or surreal characters:

Immensely Patient & Chronically Forgetful Character Idea: They can wait for years without complaint but never remember why they started waiting in the first place. Their endless patience is undercut by the confusion of purpose, creating an aura of timeless mystery.

Unbearably Charming & Involuntarily Invisible Character Idea: This character has charisma in spades but is cursed to flicker out of sight randomly. Their allure is magnetic, but people constantly forget they were even there, adding to their mystique and frustration.

Perpetually Cheerful & Pathologically Suspicious Character Idea: They radiate sunshine and kindness yet believe everyone is secretly plotting against them. Their optimism is baffling, considering they’re convinced of hidden dangers everywhere.

Mind-Reading Empath & Emotionally Oblivious Character Idea: Able to feel others’ emotions intensely, yet baffled by their own, this character has no clue how they themselves feel. They’re highly attuned to everyone else but entirely alienated from their own heart.

Limitless Curiosity & Existentially Terrified Character Idea: Endlessly fascinated by every detail of the universe, yet they’re constantly haunted by the fear of the universe itself. Every new discovery brings wonder and intense dread, creating a fascinating internal tug-of-war.

Brilliant Strategist & Hopelessly Absent-Minded Character Idea: A tactical genius who can plan a perfect heist, yet constantly forgets their own plan halfway through. They’re sought after for their brilliance but just as likely to wander off mid-operation.

Supernaturally Persuasive & Pathologically Indecisive Character Idea: They could talk anyone into anything—if only they could decide what they wanted to say. Their powers of persuasion are legendary, but they take forever to make a single choice.

Ancient Wisdom & Childlike Innocence Character Idea: Despite being impossibly old and wise, they approach every situation with the wonder of a child. They’re both sage and novice, baffling people who come seeking advice but receive only wonder-filled observations.

Obscure Knowledge Hoarder & Shameless Gossip Character Idea: They know every forgotten fact of history yet can’t keep a secret to save their life. This character’s deep knowledge clashes hilariously with their loose tongue, turning historical mysteries into idle chatter.

Zen-like Tranquility & Quick to Panic Character Idea: Usually the calmest person in any room, until anything unusual happens, at which point they’re the first to run. People turn to them for peace until their sudden freakouts reveal a hidden, hilarious irony.

Hyper-Logical Thinker & Ridiculously Superstitious Character Idea: Obsessed with logical consistency yet terrified of stepping on cracks or upsetting minor spirits. Their rationality makes them a master problem-solver, but they’re comically fearful of common superstitions.

Effortlessly Graceful & Magically Clumsy Character Idea: They’re naturally elegant in all they do, but objects randomly fly out of their hands or shatter in their presence. They’re revered for poise but cursed by chaos, creating an aura of unpredictable charm.

Telepathically Intuitive & Immensely Gullible Character Idea: Able to sense the unspoken thoughts of others, but easily duped by the most obvious lies. They sense everyone’s hidden motives but constantly believe in harmless nonsense.

Exceptionally Knowledgeable & Epically Lazy Character Idea: They’ve accumulated endless knowledge from books but refuse to do anything with it. They could save the world but prefer napping and observing others fumble around in ignorance.

Magnet for Coincidences & Cynically Skeptical Character Idea: The most absurd things constantly happen around them, yet they refuse to believe in coincidences. This character is a walking contradiction of fate and disbelief, surrounded by odd events they disdain.

Hyper-Attentive Listener & Mute Character Idea: They pick up every nuance of conversation and are incredibly insightful, but they can’t respond out loud. People find comfort in their presence but struggle to understand their silence and deep gaze.

Radiantly Optimistic & Obsessed with Disaster Preparedness Character Idea: Always smiling and convinced things will work out, yet constantly building bunkers and storing supplies. Their sunny outlook is shadowed by an apocalyptic readiness that baffles everyone.

Unbreakable Memory & Instantly Distracted Character Idea: They remember every moment of their life in perfect detail but are so easily distracted that they rarely finish sentences. They’re a walking history book if only they’d stay focused long enough to share it.

Boundless Energy & Always Asleep Character Idea: They have an endless zest for life and could do anything—if they could just stay awake. People are drawn to their energy, but they frequently fall asleep mid-sentence, leaving everyone in suspense.

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ure literally number 19… and 18… and 17… and 14 :0

The Paradoxical Character: 19 Unique Trait Pairings

Here’s a list of 19 wildly unusual, highly contrasting trait pairs that blend quirky or fantastical attributes. These could make for delightfully strange, otherworldly, or surreal characters:

Immensely Patient & Chronically Forgetful Character Idea: They can wait for years without complaint but never remember why they started waiting in the first place. Their endless patience is undercut by the confusion of purpose, creating an aura of timeless mystery.

Unbearably Charming & Involuntarily Invisible Character Idea: This character has charisma in spades but is cursed to flicker out of sight randomly. Their allure is magnetic, but people constantly forget they were even there, adding to their mystique and frustration.

Perpetually Cheerful & Pathologically Suspicious Character Idea: They radiate sunshine and kindness yet believe everyone is secretly plotting against them. Their optimism is baffling, considering they’re convinced of hidden dangers everywhere.

Mind-Reading Empath & Emotionally Oblivious Character Idea: Able to feel others’ emotions intensely, yet baffled by their own, this character has no clue how they themselves feel. They’re highly attuned to everyone else but entirely alienated from their own heart.

Limitless Curiosity & Existentially Terrified Character Idea: Endlessly fascinated by every detail of the universe, yet they’re constantly haunted by the fear of the universe itself. Every new discovery brings wonder and intense dread, creating a fascinating internal tug-of-war.

Brilliant Strategist & Hopelessly Absent-Minded Character Idea: A tactical genius who can plan a perfect heist, yet constantly forgets their own plan halfway through. They’re sought after for their brilliance but just as likely to wander off mid-operation.

Supernaturally Persuasive & Pathologically Indecisive Character Idea: They could talk anyone into anything—if only they could decide what they wanted to say. Their powers of persuasion are legendary, but they take forever to make a single choice.

Ancient Wisdom & Childlike Innocence Character Idea: Despite being impossibly old and wise, they approach every situation with the wonder of a child. They’re both sage and novice, baffling people who come seeking advice but receive only wonder-filled observations.

Obscure Knowledge Hoarder & Shameless Gossip Character Idea: They know every forgotten fact of history yet can’t keep a secret to save their life. This character’s deep knowledge clashes hilariously with their loose tongue, turning historical mysteries into idle chatter.

Zen-like Tranquility & Quick to Panic Character Idea: Usually the calmest person in any room, until anything unusual happens, at which point they’re the first to run. People turn to them for peace until their sudden freakouts reveal a hidden, hilarious irony.

Hyper-Logical Thinker & Ridiculously Superstitious Character Idea: Obsessed with logical consistency yet terrified of stepping on cracks or upsetting minor spirits. Their rationality makes them a master problem-solver, but they’re comically fearful of common superstitions.

Effortlessly Graceful & Magically Clumsy Character Idea: They’re naturally elegant in all they do, but objects randomly fly out of their hands or shatter in their presence. They’re revered for poise but cursed by chaos, creating an aura of unpredictable charm.

Telepathically Intuitive & Immensely Gullible Character Idea: Able to sense the unspoken thoughts of others, but easily duped by the most obvious lies. They sense everyone’s hidden motives but constantly believe in harmless nonsense.

Exceptionally Knowledgeable & Epically Lazy Character Idea: They’ve accumulated endless knowledge from books but refuse to do anything with it. They could save the world but prefer napping and observing others fumble around in ignorance.

Magnet for Coincidences & Cynically Skeptical Character Idea: The most absurd things constantly happen around them, yet they refuse to believe in coincidences. This character is a walking contradiction of fate and disbelief, surrounded by odd events they disdain.

Hyper-Attentive Listener & Mute Character Idea: They pick up every nuance of conversation and are incredibly insightful, but they can’t respond out loud. People find comfort in their presence but struggle to understand their silence and deep gaze.

Radiantly Optimistic & Obsessed with Disaster Preparedness Character Idea: Always smiling and convinced things will work out, yet constantly building bunkers and storing supplies. Their sunny outlook is shadowed by an apocalyptic readiness that baffles everyone.

Unbreakable Memory & Instantly Distracted Character Idea: They remember every moment of their life in perfect detail but are so easily distracted that they rarely finish sentences. They’re a walking history book if only they’d stay focused long enough to share it.

Boundless Energy & Always Asleep Character Idea: They have an endless zest for life and could do anything—if they could just stay awake. People are drawn to their energy, but they frequently fall asleep mid-sentence, leaving everyone in suspense.

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12.11.24

today was easily one of my most favourite days of 2024. i'd gone to school early as i had a talk with the higher education office about the process of applying overseas and other things to note. my bestie had her h3 chem lesson (which im not enrolled in) but i snuck into the class with her anyways as it was just a free lesson and honestly, i think h3 chem is a lot more muggable than h3 maths.

the fun part begins now: my class had planned to go to sentosa for the evening so the girlies and i changed in school and left to go there. we played jet lag and i was grouped with my ex crush (the one that introduced me to NIKI). i lowkey think we won but we havent tallied the scores yet. but we were interacting perfectly well and normally with zero awkwardness which is wonderful.

we ended the game at around 6 and started the beach party. we had dinner first (i didn't cuz i was eating at home afterwards) and then took pics before the sun set completely. the men had brought a football to play with so the girls spent the time taking more pics of each other and with one of my friend's digicam. i can't possibly choose a favourite moment from yesterday but that whole bit was peak girlhood and super super memorable.

afterwards, we sat in a big circle and started playing burning bridges and truth or dare. compared to the start of the year, our class seems to have bonded sooo well and i love every one of us so much. well except one guy who asked a rather rude question to my bestie (i am gna END him). i chose truth at every single turn and i kept getting asked questions about my ex crush while he was right there. i suspect that he told a lot of my classmates that i confessed to him cuz they definitely knew something... oh and best part, my other ex crush (who also knows i used to like him) was also right there. surprisingly, it wasn't awkward at all and it felt like we were just reminiscing and bonding over it.

we left the beach at around 9 but all of us wanted to walk all the way back to VIVO instead of taking the train cuz the view is quite pretty. we were just playing gracie abrams (and at some point, buzz by NIKI) and singing along to it and the whole thing was soooo vibes. i genuinely love my class so much and am sososo lucky to call these people my classmates<3

i think today i realised that i no longer have feelings for the more recent ex crush. what a great way to end this year! i hope i maintain it this way so that i can bring my grades back up. heheeee well that's it for today. i'll probably write more details in my journal haha.

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long-term gain > short-term distractions

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i’ve recently gotten more into superbloom by ashton irwin! i’ve been listening to it since 2022 (when i became a 5sos fan) but it’s just hitting harder now omg