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Who Could That Be at This Hour? by Lemony Snicket My rating: 3 of 5 stars slightly slow and confusing but that might be cuz its been 6 years since i read the original series. enjoyed the references and stuff tho (WHO IS HECTOR??) View all my reviews

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SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING IN AGES

anyways i have an econs test tmr that i need to mug for oops

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one of my favourite authors released a book yesterday and i spent the night reading it. this post contains spoilers for Ann Liang’s I am Not Jessica Chen !!!

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i don't think i've ever read a story told through the eyes of a more relatable female main character. this review contains spoilers AKA my fav lines / lines that i FELT deep in my soul

“One day, ten years from now, I’ll be at a party and everyone will be chatting and someone will casually bring up their classes at Harvard and someone else will gush over how smart they are, and in that moment I’ll feel so insignificant I’ll want to vanish.” [Ch. 11, Pg. 81]

“all I can think is: that’s it? This, right now, is the culmination of all those sleepless nights, every test I cried over, every extra hour I spent studying when I could have been driving down to the coast, eating dinner with my family, going to the mall with my friends, visiting the cherry orchards or swimming in the lake in the high heat of summer. This is as good as life will ever be? (...) Then there’s Harvard itself—all I could think about was doing the work and getting in, but it’s hitting me now that I’ll have to keep working once classes begin. I’ll have to prove myself all over again to new classmates and new professors. I just feel so exhausted at the idea, like I’ve been running as fast as I can toward a mountain in the horizon, and it always looks within reach, but I’ll never actually get there. Everything exhausts me these days.” [Ch. 8, Pg. 63,64]

i personally did not achieve anything of that level but FELT?!?!?!

“Because Jessica must have learned at some point that at the first sign of anything less than perfect, her mother would react like this.” [Ch. 8, Pg. 58]

this line broke my heart. mostly bc i know how it hurts to be made to feel like anything less than perfect is not worthy of support or praise.

“They’re so good they’re an afterthought. They’re so good they might as well not exist, except to be used as evidence that success is possible, that the system is perfectly sound, that anyone who struggles can only blame themselves.” [Ch. 17 Pg. 114]

i've never been considered a model student myself (too disruptive, apparently), but this line still broke my heart.

last but not least

“But I . . . I can’t make myself do it. I can’t . . . I can’t change the wish—” “Why not?” “I just can’t.” “That’s not an excuse!” My heart is in freefall. “I don’t need to explain myself.” “I deserve an explanation,” he says fiercely. “Just tell me why. Please. It’s driving me mad—” “Aaron, drop it.” “You can’t just avoid the subject forever. Why—” “Because I hate myself too much.” [Ch. 15 Pg. 102]

it really does hurt to compare yourself to every single person you see because every one of these people seem to have it better than you and you just can't help but tear yourself down internally and hate every piece of you but if anyone praises you or claims that you're doing well or are "smart" or says that they envy you, you simply cannot trust their words because there is NO WAY...

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anyways pic of my 6h solo reading date:

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15.01.25

forgot to post!!!

went to sch to study lol

we started lessons this week so it’s been slightly hectic

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guys it rained so heavily today that a tree near my house got uprooted (not a common occurrence where i live)

anyways i was quite useless today but i did a bit of integration and had econs tuition

i’ll prolly stay up and get some work done

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short is good!!! thanks guys <33

hi guys i need more wolfstar fic recs that are filled with magic. i seem to hear way too many that are AUs but i want magic, i want hogwarts, i want remus battling being a werewolf during school days, i want quidditch, i want to feel like i'm reading harry potter all over but with my fav characters only (marauders gen) thanks

ooh yes i'v read atyd and loved it yes

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hi guys i need more wolfstar fic recs that are filled with magic. i seem to hear way too many that are AUs but i want magic, i want hogwarts, i want remus battling being a werewolf during school days, i want quidditch, i want to feel like i'm reading harry potter all over but with my fav characters only (marauders gen) thanks

ooh yes i'v read atyd and loved it yes

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LOL 2025 officially starts from today cuz i’ve been sick for the past 5 days 😭

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29.12.24

pretty good day tbh

got starbies after 3ish months

revised summation & sequences

revised alkenes

revised hybridisation

revised energetics (had to memorise definitions all over again cuz i’d forgotten some)

redid my homescreen for the new year :”))) next up on my reset would be to clear out my liked songs off the ones i don’t like anymore

4 day streak of stretching + working out arms

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2025 habits / goals

📚 study at least 5h outside of lessons

🥋 stretch everyday - i hope to be able to do a full split by the end of the year

🚰 drink 8 cups of water everyday

🧴 skincare every night - i neglected this in 2024 and started breaking out more

🥙 eat whole foods. stay clean (iykyk). i’m currently in a deficit and i may maintain that.

💌 don’t bother with boys. enough drama this yr LOL.

💪 visit the school gym more. (twice a week?)

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☆ — put this star in the inbox of your favorite blogs. it’s time to spread positivity! 💗ྀིྀི

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!!!!!! lysm

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hey hun,

was stalking my blog and saw this :”))

merry christmas !!

Just realised I haven't booped you despite you being one of my few mutuals. Merry Christmas

cutest moot<3

christmas was 3 months ago tho XDDD

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throwback to when my classmate found this post, realised it was me, and comforted me in class / offered me Words of Encouragement™️

remember when i said i was gna fuck up…

i failed econs and got a C for chem

ME! i’m supp to be in the top 10% in chem HOW CAN I GET A C?????? the math ras in my class got higher than me ohmygosh this is so embarrassing oml

tbf i didn’t study cuz it was right before phys and i was overconfident so i only mugged phys

and i’d lost everyth to carelessness… but it’s actl so bad im gna cry

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manifesting a productive 2025 🙏

i’ll make a full post on goals later maybe hehe

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5 days to my a level year oml

anyways i’m currently rewatching hp while mugging org chem 😌

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so i got my SAT results

i got a 720 eng (😔) and a 790 maths (now where was that careless mistake pfft)

i think i might retake next yr

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Everyone loves to talk about reclaiming their power, but few are willing to face the uncomfortable truth: they’re giving it away, bit by bit, every single day.

You give it away when you let distractions pull you from your goals, when you choose procrastination over progress & when you lean on excuses instead of accountability. It’s in the hours spent scrolling mindlessly, the goals pushed to tomorrow & the opportunities missed because fear or self doubt got in the way.

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