#im not trying to be mean i love buddie i love buddie. but when ppl make the silliest agruments and theories my brain feels the need to poke
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also the groupchat thing...... i think the closeknit coworker family having a gc that one of their significant others is not in is.... incredibly normal like possibly the most mundane social experience ive ever heard of...
#im not trying to be mean i love buddie i love buddie. but when ppl make the silliest agruments and theories my brain feels the need to poke#cuz like oh lord what are u sayingggggggggg. have u guys ever been in a situation before. do u have blank slates in ur heads???#911 abc#bea.txt
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Okay okay okay but Emily in Hell, does that mean new Pokemon partner/buddy since Absol is kind of the custody Chaggie-with-Emily-on-the-side child? My Pokemon lore is admittedly rusty but imagine Emily finding a new Pokemon partner in Hell, maybe a skittish Ponyta or something similar!
i love to cause Lute comedic HArm, and to imagine Emily smiling happily while ppl back away in fear.... so for her own personal pokemon im picturing...
Mankey
Soon to become an enraged Primeape the moment it spots the real Lute in real life (and starts chasing her), after Emily spent so much time calmly explaining the Lute situation to it while helpfully showing pictures of Lute on her phone ^w^
Emily: (lovingly hugging her new pokemon buddy) "And this is Lute the first time she attacked and ripped off the wings of my wife-in-law Vaggie...."
Emily: (swipes next pic) "....annnnd this is her trying to gouge out Vaggie's OTHER eye...
Emily: (swips again) "Here's Lute covered in blood after cutting off some of my wings..."
Mankey: "rrrrrRRRRRRRRRGHEEEE-"
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Lute: "GET YOUR DAMNED POKEMON OFF ME YOU FILTH!"
Emily: "Aww, be not afraid~ Primeape doesn't hurt people~"
Lute: "YES IT- OW OW- DOES!!!"
Makeys get brought to the Pride ring for their fighting skills pretty often, but Emily's actually came of it's own free will from the other parts of hell
Chaggily's Absol stepped on it in the rush to jump through an open gate and into Pride right before Extermination day, once, and the Mankey has been chasing it down ever since. It was a background game of cat and mouse for the years until Emily arrived. Charlie had no idea what was going on. Vaggie knew but respected Absol's right to fight this battle on their own (they shared a solemn nod over it, while the Mankey banged on a hotel window from the outside and SCREECHED)
Emily spots it trying to break in one day while recovering (since it is obsessed with the Absol and the Absol won't leave Emily's side right now), and she lets it in, and hugs it before it can start beating up on the Absol, and while hugging it Emily starts talking to try calming it, which turns into Emily talking about the hell situation, which turns into Emily VENTING to the Mankey while squeeeeeeeezing it tighter and tighter like a full body stress ball- she only realizes the Mankey is out cold unconscious from strangling when the Absol puts a paw on her arm.
One very frantic Emily later the Mankey is revived. Is it angry at her now??
No. It thinks that was super impressive and very cool and it vibes with her pent up rage SO hard. It will even forgive the Absol, if that's what it takes for it to stay with Emily.
The two becoming physically inseparable. If the Mankey isn't sparring with Vaggie and the Pidove or posing dynamically for Charlie's adoring scribbles while holdings still through the Houndoom's equally adoring slobber kisses, then it's clinging to Emily like a living backpack of love-fueled potential violence just waiting to Explode
Sometimes the old scarred Absol steps on it deliberately, just for fun, and the Mankey (later Primeape) will chase it's old foe turned enemy around the hotel (usually causing havoc) for old time's sake while Emily smiles and hopes everyone else can figure out how to get along so well too someday~
(Emily will still sic her Primeape on Lute every chance she gets tho)
:)
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This Love Doesn’t Have Long Beans Episode 7 Thoughts
Oab not even gonna comment on Kluer trying to kiss Plawan he’s just gonna get his man out of there
THE DRAMATIC FALL OF THE WHALE PLUSHIE SFJFJDD
I’ve said it before but I do not like Kluer. Too much Nice Guy TM energy for me. Just bc ppl smile and tell you all the things you want to hear does not mean they are good to be around
DID OAB JUST PULL HIS BACK SHFJF IM CHOKING
Plawan being upset about Khaosuay but still trying to be understanding towards Oab :(
Did Plawan get this muscle metaphor from JJ i bet he got this metaphor from JJ
Oh no they’re actually getting together before Plawan tells Oab about Methas OH THIS IS GONNA HURT
Plawan’s convenient odinsleep when Kluer tries to confess… me tbh
“Do you think Kluer will be really hurt?” *cuts to Kluer sobbing his heart out* don’t worry he’s a trooper i think he’ll be fine
I think this is my fave OabPlawan love scene so far, it’s so well choreographed and the framing is great… that pants drop was fantastic. Too bad it’s such a short scene
Methas’ fucking pouty face when he’s asking JJ to hold his hand
Ooooh JJ’s trying to draw a line, he’s caught feelings
HE CAN’T MEET METHAS EYES HE’S CAUGHT FEELINGS
oh my GOD THANK YOU DIRECTOR CINEMATOGRAPHER AND EDITING TEAM FOR THAT BEAUTIFUL SHOT OF METHAS HAND ON JJ’S ARM
You got a butt cramp Methas?? REALLY???
AHDJFJDJDJFJDJJFF
JJ ALMOST GAVE IN TO THE KISS ARGHDNFNFNF i knew it was gonna happen it was literally in the pilot but im HRRGGHDFBNFBG
LIES DOWN
IM FINE
Butterfly pea flower tea!!! Plawan’s presentation is so fucking cute
Punsib you were too good for all the hormones in this kitchen
Kluer this ain’t it man… just let it go son
NUB NUENG DON’T TELL OAB THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING WELL you curse his house
Pad croquette??? I want…
“I never cry when you teach me” alexa play Teach Me Tonight by Dinah Washington
It’s the way they started making out downstairs when Kluer is still living there and he’s the only one left… Kluer buddy if I were you I would just quit at this point it’s not gonna be a good time for you
KLUER JUST STANDING THERE WHILE THIS FIGHT HAPPENS SHFJFJF
DID METHAS REALLY JUST SHOW UP TO TALK SHIT LAUGH IN OAB’S FACE AND LEAVE SHFJFJFJF someone get this man a moustache to twirl PLEASE
he’s got teleporting powers now too damn
METHAS’ SMILE WHEN HE’S ALL DRESSED UP ON THE CLINIC TABLE WHAT A SMUG LITTLE SHITTY CAT LMFAO
Even though I don’t care for Kluer, I don’t blame him if he snaps tbh. The most absurd part of this competition is making your right hand man jump through all these hoops to prove himself over complete strangers. Like if Kluer had the money in the first place, Chef could’ve just sold him the restaurant and none of this drama would’ve gone down
Laughing my ass off at the long beans reveal no one ever reacted this dramatically to a dish with yardlong beans in it before
AUTO RETURNS NEXT WEEK MY SON!!!
Gonna be so sad when this is over tho, they better be starting on Pit Babe 2 soon before my brain eats itself alive
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"little" silly and biased theory i think that noctis, like vera, wanted gr skk to be cerberus' skk
in rozen's secrets she has thought so much about wanting our skk to be cerbys skk she straight up came up w a method of hypothetically transferring them to cerberus
i think it also kinda lines up w the fact that vera doesnt really trust murray as much as she does w skk. now ofc it could just be the whole "everyone loves mc" trope, but it was stated somewhere in main story abt how vera still doesnt really trust murray due to him being so secretive and leaving many ppl in the dark abt his intentions, plus vera always ran into dead ends when trying to dig up any sort of secrets in regards to murray (i kinda think this is sort of a protective measure vera went through to ensure nothing bad would happen to noctis or 21 if murray became cerberus' skk, but thats more of a hc and i have no evidence to back that up lol)
while yes cerberus does listen to murray, it doesnt always mean theyll 100% trust him like they do w skk. i think the fact that murray is also a remote skk leaves some sort of emotional disconnect btwn him and cerberus. whereas w our skk, who is always on field, has a bit more connection (both physically and emotionally lol 💀) w cerberus purely from just being able to fight alongside them and being the go-to skk for m.i.n.d. connection if anything goes south
another small thing i'd also like to add is the fact that skk was the only one able to give buddy nicknames shows how much 21 grew to trust skk, considering in most of ex05 21 refused to acknowledge/cooperate w skk unless vera tells her to
there was also chaos unsnarled, where 21 was practically unphased from skk m.i.n.d. linking w her out of nowhere, compared to ex05 where she kinda hated the fact that they had to connect to her at the beginning.
now back to noctis, back in chapter 10 (we are now in chapter 24 as of the making of this post) noctis brings up skk in a convo w bianca
this is very much a huge stretch, but his remark on "but now that commandant is leading a team of... trash" seems a bit of a /hj to me. while yeah its a jab at how cerberus likes to poke fun at gray raven, it also feels like hes saying it w a bit of envy? his earlier remark abt how skk treats him (i.e. most likely in a kind/friendly way) is smth he wishes he could have, noting how cold and ruthless a lot of purifying force members tend to be. should also be noted how he stated our skk and not his skk, again reinforcing the small disconnect cerberus has w their actual skk i mentioned earlier.
timeskip to ex05, where cerberus works alongside our skk. to them it would almost feel like a trial run for if skk was in cerby rather than gr.
again, i could very much be exaggerating his excitement and dissect the "of course, i'm very friendly" line using his dorm lines as further evidence, but i'll leave out as much spoilers abt noctis' er story+general content released in sands of wrath as possible for this post. for the first bit of interaction btwn skk and noctis, he appeared to be VERY responsive to a lot of skk's remarks, essentially not containing his excitement of meeting AND working directly w skk. theres also the fact that despite vera pulling a /j w the whole "humor skk while im not talking" comment, again, it feels more like a /hj moment. i do think vera wants noctis and 21 to open up to/get along w skk as well, considering skk is like a breath of fresh air in terms of how the majority of ppl react to cerberus' presence/treat cerberus in general.
from vera wanting to kidnap skk, to 21 considering skk as more than her companion, to nocti considering skk as his partner, i think the lack of mentioning murray while praising skk speaks volumes over which skk they prefer/genuinely want. now again, this could be a whole "everyone loves mc" trope w the added bonus of murray only being mentioned if lee is around/the subject in question, but this is just a silly game theory,, ok mayyybe hc territory, idk im bored and impatiently waiting for sands of wrath HGJDKFGHK
also this was totally an excuse to further build on my skk oc lore LOL /hj
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mm lrb (last reblog? is that a thing haha) and just its not the same but the assumption that im not doing anything with my life/time bc im not dating and not going "out" is rly stupid
my coworker didnt mean anything by it but his shock abt me not dating anyone and alao that bc im a homebody, im not doing much..... like no i make games, i draw, i craft, i write, my 3 journals take up plenty of time too.. also i go to downtown toronto somwtimes for stationary stuff LOL im tired from working but i got plenty of shit im doing
like currebtly:
• finished domino club game jam thus resting
• i have likr 25 linoprints where i gotta print layer 2 (winter holiday cards bc snailmail is great)
• im back to sorting my dolls for ebay and after that, i am finally going to organize my 3 display cases
• as always, 2 out of 3 planner/journals, take up at least 2-3 hrs a week as i write the daily pages from my phone notes
• i would like to go to the park more, i wish i had energy to walk and draw again but i just go to the playground swings for my mental health occationally now 😔
• i am reading so many danmei novels like one after another.. balancing my time between reading and doing other things is a careful balance
• winter holiday gifts are on my mind.. one has been ordered but many more to figure out..
idk like theres comics to read too and games to play, and books to read, and so much art supplies i shud fucking use one of these days.. need to get back into watercolours lol.....
my life isnt worse or more boring due to me not dating or staying home/close to home....
i've literally gone to place in toronto where u can be nude and see ppl getting it on and put on the "not interested" bracelet and fell in love with not giving a fuck abt my own nudity levels and falling in love with the heated pool...... holy shit is it nice to just wear swimsuit bottoms and a swim shirt without a bikini top lmao the fucking best (i have been nude but i also am a weirdo who does like the feel of clothes and like i cant live without socks when not in bed, and underwear is a helper in controlling my bladder feelings, and then i just love an oversized tshirt ok it feels good but also im chill to be tits out)
idk theres just something great abt knowing that sure i might be squemish to ever try sex and sure im aroace something, and i dont think im gotta end up actually dating anyone but fingers crossed i guess? but also yeah i masturbate, i've been nude in nudist place, i've sent nudes before tho not sexy chat lol i draw porn, i have a lot of distressed anime girl porn on my phone what of it, im an adult and im happy* living my life and frankly i dont see how dating would even work for me when i want to be reading bl half my waking hours... i just need to hang out with friends more
oh also coworker was like "ur 23, right?" and im just oh buddy haha
*i mean mild? depression but we ignore it bc we are only truly depressed when thinking bad thoughts or like the future or anything, ok fine i still feel like its fake but we cant ignore that i did try antidepresants and also did get close to vague suicide thoughts but like im fine, i got planners and stickers and weekly bubble tea ok
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<- guy with so many neurosis
self shipping is whatever i want it to be the world is pudding and all that but it never stops me from having moments where i step back and im like. buddy it doesnt actually matter. but i think part of it is because outside forces.
i love miguel. a Lot. i think thats very clear. and i think at this point ppl who know me would know that if i posted abt a different character for a bit, its not me throwing mig in the trash and moving on. hes obviously important to me and I know how important he is to me. but i still get that anxiety when i post abt other men. like im abandoning him.
and in the same vein i feel bad NOT posting other men. i like other characters as is evident by my long f/o list. and i dont want ppl to think they mean nothing to me just cuz i dont announce publicly every day my love for them. or i feel like with characters like MK i dont want ppl to think they ARENT important to me or like it as a fling. its not. i very much like my moon boys and think abt them a lot.
but its very clear that in my head miguel is the main one. hes who i think abt the most. but i dont want to jump to any conclusions and try to place him amongst the most important ones. but i dont want to underplay him either because he IS important. and everything is superficial nothing matters i can do what i want yeah. i just hate that everyone else's opinions matter to me. i dont want ppl to call miguel a "phase" for me if i post other f/os. i dont want my love for him to be undermined since it already has been. anyways [honks my clown nose]
#dragon's ramblings#wolf2099#whatever. whatever. everything is fake we are all here too short of a time to care abt silly stuff whatever.#unfortunately my brain is wired Wrong
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from this ask game (answered 20 with other options here)
19. 5 things you hate
lmaooo okay uhmm THE SMELL OF PEANUT BUTTER AND WATER OHMYGOD WHENEVER I HAVE TO WASH THE DISHES AFTER EATING SMTH WITH PEANUT BUTTER AND IT HITS THE WATER OHMGYOD WORST THING IN THE WORLDUDOHSGDUHAWEFOGAWKFESD
people who hate. like. ohmyfuckinggod. like. okay THE FUCKING PEOPLE ON TWT WHO HATE PPL WHO SHIP BUCKTOMMY??? FOR NO OTHER REASON OTHER THAN "oh they dont ship buddie U MUST DIE" OHMYFDO IT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH WHY ARE YOU BEING SO MEAN??? I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE MEAN FOR NO REASON LIKE OKAY YOU CAN NOT LIKE THE SHIP THATS FINE NO ONE IS FORCING U TO LIKE THE SHIP WHY ARE YOU GOING OUT OF YOUR WAY TO MAKE FUN OF PEOPLE/HATE ON PEOPLE I HATE YOUUUUU AWEFAJWOFJAWEIFADSJFKLASDFLASDFALDSKFJAS;DFASF
sorry. thats been. annoying me. for the past. few months. i hate twitter. in general TWITTER IS SOOO everyone becomes toxic on twt like its just so horrible i HATE TIWTTIEJRKELSFD
i hate when i see the bus that im supposed to be on pass me bc im on the other side of the stress of the busstop LIKE NOOOOOOOOO PLEASEEE WAIT A MINUTE I DONT WANNA MISS YOU IMLITERALLYSOCLOSEOHMGYODANDNOWIMGONNAHAVETOWAITAHALFNHOURFORTHENEXTONEOHMGYDDDD
saying it again. i hate people who are mean for no reason. like.ohmygod. why are you MEAN WHY ARE YOU BEING MEAN LITERALLY NO ONE DID ANYTHING WHY AREY OU SUDDENLY ATTACKING ME?!?!?!?1
i hate capitalism:( money stresses me out a lot :(((
20. 5 things you love
violin in music!!!! i hear violin and instantly my brain goes !!!!!!! it makes me so happy ohmuficingod i just. ascend
i love sitting on big rocks in front of the ocean. i love listening to the waves and feeling the breeze on my face and knowing that right now. everything is peaceful. i can dip my toes into the ocean and just be connected to nature
i love motorcycle rides!!!! feeling the wind rush as you nyooooooom it's so empowering omg (note: i have not driven one myself. my dad has a license and i just go with him on the back eueueu)
i love coconut hehehe like coconut shrimp, coconut cake, coconut snails (pastry not actual snails), coconut icecream. i do not like coconut water/milk though lmfao
OHMYGOD ICECREAM IL OVE ICECREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! esp with freshly made waffle cones :> my stepmom and i go out for icecream every summer and we have a list of places to try and when we do try them we have a separate doc where we write a review so when we want icecream for a specific reason we can look at the doc and know which place to go!! for example whether we want fun/obscure flavours, really good waffle cone, or just good icecream
#foxieasks#ask games#eileen tag#why is qsmp my top tag i havent used it in forever PLS TUMBLR LET ME BE FREEEEEEEEE
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Adaman for the ask meme!
ADAMAAAN ive come around to him a lot, compared to when i first played thru pla.
(Also mind you its been a while since ive played and i took iridas route over adamans so i dont know. Every little detail about him. But i like him <3)
favorite thing about them: he’s so fucking funny, i love that hes like the straight man of hisui. Adaman is so fucking normal (genuine), and literally everyone else around him has like a secret bit they have to commit to or theyll die. And like he just has to deal w it. Like all of it. Everyone’s nonsense all the time. You can tell he’s so tired and he’s just trying to keep it together
Also obligatory, but his design is soo fucking killer. Ive only recently actually sat down to draw him n hes just so fun. So well shaped. I like irida’s design on its own a lot, but like compared to adaman? they did her so dirty.
least favorite thing about them: I WISH WE GOT MORE OF A BACKSTORY WITH HIM UGGH i hate to compare him to Irida sm here, but she got like. A very clear story of struggling to accept her new position as clan leader after being abruptly shoved into it. Of the rest of her clan either having insanely high expectations for her, or in Palina’s case, feeling like she didn’t deserve the position.
I get Adaman’s whole thing was Supposed to be that he struggled to earn respect from the rest of the Diamond Clan until Dialga outright Possessed him (which that part is fucking sick. For the record), but i wish they just made it more apparent that. That’s What was supposed to be happening lol.
Because idk, at least to me, definitely the rest of the clan members were kinda bratty, but i never got the impression they were that way specifically Because they thought Adaman was a weak leader, you know? I didn’t even like realize that’s what was supposed to be happening until like. Reading a few other posts abt Adaman’s position in the story dhdfhgkg Good and interesting ideas w his arc just poor and kinda rushed execution imo!!
favorite line: that one fucking line @ irida towards the end of the main game that was like. ‘I don’t think our rivalry is a Diamond and Pearl Clan thing. I think it’s just a You and I thing.’
lives in my brain.
brOTP: for the love of god i need him and irida to be friends that fucking hate each other.
They are at each others throats over Everything, they will argue Everything just for the sake of arguing, if they every agree w each other on any matter they will both collapse on the spot. They are so sick of each other, but also they are best buddies and no one knows them like They know the other. It’s so fun…
OTP: AH im sorry he’s very aro to me. Both bc I don’t think there’s rly a lot of ppl he could be shipped with anyway, but also he does not strike me as someone who has a romantic interest in. like anyone.
He strikes me as a chaste bisexual man who has never felt an ounce of infatuation for another person in his life. He’s just very buddy-buddy w a lot of people, and he’s happy w that <3
nOTP: so i wouldnt say its a notp bc i dont like. vehemently Hate it, and i think there Could be potential. but im sorry, appraisalshipping makes me kinda :/ a fair amount of the time.
Some stuff is cute, yeah, but most of it is just reeks of ‘i only watch/read/play things for shipping and specifically to ship gay prettyboy twinks’ to me. Adaman and Volo have maybe had all of five lines w each other.
I think there could genuinely be something cool to explore there, like contrasting just how immediately trusting Adaman appears to be of Volo? Compared to Irida who calls Volo's bluff right off the bat for being way too friendly w the protag to be completely genuine. With Adaman just tending to be a more open and friendly person than Irida. Adaman putting his faith in someone he absolutely Should Not just because hey! Adaman’s just a nice person like that! He's not gonna be mean to this guy he just met just bc he's a little overeager! But like god knows no one has any interest exploring That dynamic lmao.
anyway if you ship like adaman/akari im legally allowed to break all of your fingers, slowly and individually
random headcanon: I think he should be like 5’5” at most. He’s short and he’s fat i know this in my heart of hearts.
Also despite always talking about utilizing the time he has to the fullest, he doesn’t strike me as someone that pushes himself or other ppl to constantly be Doing and Accomplishing things, so much as he tries to make every moment meaningful and wants others to do the same. I don’t think he’s all that headstrong as some people may describe him, and i dont think he’d necessarily be someone that thinks like. Taking a nap is a cardinal sin. I think he just wants people to put their limited time on this world to something that matters to them rather than petty bullshit (like arguing w the pearl clan sdhk).
ALSO also less an adaman specific headcanon, but i do personally like to think most of the diamond clan are family, or at least all the main members we see. I know hes canonically brother to melli and mai i think? But i think theyre all one big dysfunctional family and theyre why iscan never leaves the coastlands to visit anymore.
unpopular opinion: i dont think hes boring sorry!! Im guilty of think this at first as well tbf but MAN. going back to the what i dont like abt him thing. Knowing now thats what his whole character arc is supposed to be just makes me :(. He wants to be a good leader and he loves his friends and family a lot and takes such good care of them and they literally like. Do not care until dialga outright tells them to take its little thrall seriously for once. Man. man.
song i associate with them: DHGJKDFH Animal Collective Merriweather Post Pavilion on main. My Girls feels very adaman-core.
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favorite picture of them: So theres like zero actual canon art of him outside of just ingame screenshots but i do like this breezy lil adaman here. annoyed…
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i understand your dante/lady post is supposed to be about the complexity of their relationship that cannot be defined as ‘just friends’ and more-than-friends-not-quite-lovers thing but as an aro person it kind of grates that being friends is ‘just’ that because we’re once again putting relationships on a hierarchy with friendship not important enough to be considered deep and profound when that’s not the case at all.
this isn’t quite a criticism it’s just an rhetoric aro ppl are sick of hearing and something to think about if you’re tying it into an aroace dante headcanon. for a lot of aro people the ‘something deep and irreplaceable’ that allos ‘can’t describe’ is friendship
that said i’ll take this time to say i do love your art and the way you draw trish :)
I understand what you're saying there anon
I wasnt trying to make it seem like friendship as a relationship cant be that deep and important, in fact i feel quite the opposite, and im sorry i came across that way.
That kind of deep and unexplainable bond, to me at least, that i described is friendship, i guess the way i described it came across differently to my intention with the post.
With Lady/Dante i do view them as purely friends, i personally couldnt see them any other way, i was meaning that the depth of their friendship is something more than just a buddy Dante hangs out with and works with from time-to-time, if that makes sense. Its something i experience with my own friends IRL.
Again, my bad. Thanks for letting me know :'D
#thanks for the kind words about my art btw :> <3#asks#changed the wording on the post also#to better reflect what i meant and also taking into consideration what you said#again thank you lol
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#sibling death tw#rainne#it might just b bcos im sic in the head but seeing how upset absolutely everyone is is kinda comforting#like ive had ppl tell me they had to leave work when they found out n stuff#and its like right??? it's devastating! she WAS that important and special#ive been inviting everyone to the funeral even tho we haven't made any arrangements yet and i mean literally everyone#ofc i tell them its okay if they cant make it n we understand#but everyones been like OF COURSE I'LL TRY MY BEST TO COME ITS RAINNE!!!!!!#even when ppl who barely knew her are reaching out or ppl she hadn't been in contact w for years its all genuine we r all shattered#i wish she knew how loved she was and how much she meant to people before all of this#i thought it would annoy me seeing randoms come out of the wood work but it doesn't#what dOES is everyone being like now WE have to stay in contact#i hope they dnt mean it#esp my foster parents we had to contact them ofc even tho we've been out of care for the 20 - 15 yrs#and theyre so religious and they were telling us abt their own kids and how theyre pastors and ambassadors now#and its just like . buddy i lay in my bed and i plan to for the rest of my life#my brothers doing good w his life but i am noT a success story#n i cant bare them trying i know they mean well but itsss overrrrrr for meeeeeeee#the waiting abt for everything is killing me too#im gonna try and distract myself today rbing silly little pics on here feels wrong but i rly do use tumblr to like. soothe myself lol#every time smth bad has happened in the past ive been on here just rbing as normal even if i was full on sobbing#its my brothers birthday today too so im still gonna try and make it nice for him#idk how but im gonna try
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yeah naur i have gotten some very strange outbursts of potentially romantic attention out of nowhere in the last couple weeks huh!
#when it was my bday this kid who i NEVER talked to in hs made this very elaborate and ooey gooey instagram story for me with a shit ton of#like lovey bday stickers and a song that was like ‘all i need is ur love’ or some shit and we had only ever talked on ig dms in a very surfs#surface level way and it was like VERY out of nowhere???? and now this other kid who ive been casual surface level friends for yrs (like we’#we’ve called a couple times and went out for lunch a couple times before covid) actually straight up fucking dropped $50 on a fucking cerami#custom sculpted / painted ceramic tile with my name on it and clay earrings (i don’t wear earrings) as a belated bday / valentines gift?????#LIKE HELLO…. he tries to call me every single day and i never pick up despite knowing he is trying to call me every single day bc won’t pick#up and i do that bc i have social anxiety and also i am overwhelmed 37483947384)273% of the time but like. man. i bumped into him on my way#back to the office from the br and he literally had this box for me in his backpack?? LIKE HOW LONG HAS HE BEEN CARRYING THAT AROUND… and ye#yeah it’s like girl you are so fucking oblivious if he calls you every day clearly he likes you but ive never gotten that vibe from him and#i ermmmm uhmmmm… do not want to get that vibe from him ♥️. not only bc im not interested in him in that way but bc he’s my buddy!!!but like#not THAT much of a buddy and i hate that he calls me very day it makes me very uncomfortable and stressed out but i will never tell him bc i#am literally ignoring all communication from him (i don’t do this w anyone else btw that’s just plain being overwhelmed / anxious… w him i s#seriouslt am constantly pretending i do not see it) and it’s like wuahfhshddjdh it’s really nice of him to get me this and spend so much#money on me but i like literally don’t know what to do w it. and im not trying to be ungrateful but it’s like i don’t really want him to spe#spend money on me or get me these things like wtf am i going to do w a ceramic tile dude why can’t you just be content w talking to me twice#a year and leave it at that 😭😭😭😭 please we haven’t interacted in MONTHS how do you have a crush on me are you kidding. goddddddd#purrs#again violating my own limits bc for years i have refused to post abt my (lack of a) romantic life on principle bc i will not entertain any#interest from ppl i only know online even tho i do think it’s sweet but like. augh. and like even saying that feels very mean. but idk. just#augh.. why do i always end up in these situations where there’s a person w a crush on me in this very sudden big uncomfortable way and i#have to get all prickly and duck under it. this has happened like 5 other times in my life i swear and it’s getting VERY old!!!!!!! i love#the tile seriously i do but like… aughhhhhhhh now i have to tell him he might have the wrong idea bc there are fucking hearts on the tile 😭😭#delete later#the tile is so pretty but like man… 50 FUCKING DOLLARS and i never answer your texts or calls????? sir are you ok. genuinely#damn ok i contradicted myself and jumped a bunch in these tags 😭 but basically a) im not responding to this kid NOT ONLY bc I am stressed ov#overwhelmed socially anxious etc but bc i am a bitch and i don’t want to talk to him specifically. and b) i have refused to post abt my roma#romantic life online bc i don’t want anyone on here getting the wrong idea iykwim. which feels like now im putting a kick me sign on my ass#but whatever. idk i feel very bitchy kvetching abt this but i have been anxious for like 4 straight days and i am trying to indulge in any#and all emotions i feel outside of immobilizing terror and this is certainly an emotion!
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#i like talking in tags it feels less like a public announcement#anyway sometimes i forget im low empathy until other ppl react to it#nd people always say stuff like well you must feel SOMETHING and idk how to tell you this buddy#but no#and like it doesnt mean i dont feel for MYSELF like i have emotions??#and i can be sympathetic but its difficult#its menthol illness innit xx#and then when you talk about it people get all kind of awkward and uncomfortable but it isnt something i can help dbsahdbashdajdbshd#i never get the nice tv worthy symptoms just the uglie ones that ppl call you awful for#and you get like well meaning ppl on the dash say something like (awful group of people) lack empathy! and youre like ha ha nice to know#and characters who lack empathy in media are always ruthless unfeeling killing machines or some shit#it gets to the point where u like. question yourself? bc u see so much of it#like. AM i awful? is what i feel for people truly love#or doesnt it count?#do i need to be fixed is it really that terrible jhbdgasdbasjdbaj am i the awful stain on ur life autistic child that autism speaks warned#u about#maybe. maybe i would try for a day what it was like. to have more empathy.#but i see my friends w like high levels of empathy and... it really doesnt seem very fun#i dont think i could stand feeling sad like that every time something happened#IHBDHDBSAHJDNJ OKAY I JUST RETOOK THAT TEST AND GOT 0 ALL THOSE TAGS WERE DONE BEFORE RETAKING#WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKK MY LAST SCORES WERE 1 AND 2#HOW DO I HAVE LESS THAN BEFORE#FUCK THIS QUIZ IT HOGUTH I WAS BEING MORE HONEST THIS TIME#HELLO????????????#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
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A Wide, Extensive List of c!Wilbur Headcannons(TM) (+ some quick Friend hcs-)
Alot of them are not connected, and alot of them are- I'll try to organize it as accessible + readable as possible !!
☁️Pagan!Revivedbur. (I actually created a whole pagan!dsmp thing one time off of this headcannon, might talk more about it some time-). I'd like to think he'd be into candle magic and shit, but overall have a very open path/practice.
⛤Revivedbur openly respects Ghostbur, and clings to the things he left behind.
⛤Revivedbur doesnt bother washing his sweater/getting the blood stain out because its a mix of his own red blood, and Ghostburs blue blood, and he doesnt want that small proof/trace of Ghostbur existing to disappear.
Aka Ghostbur had to live with the pain Revivedbur had and caused, even if he didnt truly accept/understand/know where the pain came from. Revivedbur realized he couldnt even live with all of that, so he just- respects the dude who tried to fix everything he had broke (Or: Im a sucker for Revivedbur and Ghostbur getting along/respecting eachother/etc. and I disregard canon-)
⛤Revivedbur is afraid of water/rain/getting wet, because he remembers it hurting Ghostbur, aka him
⛤Revivedbur uses neos prove me wrong you cant- /lh
⛤Revivedbur says no to gender, and he doesnt like it when ppl use he/him and masc terms for him but for the longest time couldnt figure out why
⛤He ends up talking to Ranboo, and later Fundy, abt it and theyre like "oh lol thats chill" and hes like "omg ok pog"
⛤Revivedbur has the majority of bad memories Ghostbur had forgotten/ignored/blocked out
⛤Revivedbur doesnt talk about Limbo, or his talk with Ghostbur, or that he remembers things from Ghostburs time "alive", but he vague mentions it alot when hes lamenting or upset or smth
☁️Ghostburs limbo isnt the train station, its the train. (Mumza comes onto the train now and then to check on him <33 she did the same with Revivedbur via train aswell)
⛤Following this, when Revivedbur got on the train when he was being yaknow, revived, he sat with Ghostbur the whole time, and the two apologized to eachother for their own reasons, and they just. talked. about everything the other had missed.
⛤Ghostbur finds peace on the train in Limbo. While he isnt happy, hes okay, and thats all that matters
⛤Ghostbur asked Revivedbur to take care of Friend for him
⛤Disregarding Canon, Revivedbur takes care of Friend, and has refused to let anyone so much as touch Friend since hes been alive
⛤Ghostbur didnt get/understand the fake sally at his revival because he knew it wasnt Sally, not because of Ghostburs memory
☁️Friend can visit Ghostbur in Limbo, because she has infinite lives
⛤Friend uses any/all prns including neos because I say so.
⛤Friend is sheep buddies with Rosie (Phils Sheep)
☁️Poly relationship between Wilbur, a Sheep Hybrid, and Sally- Its why Ghostburs so attached to friend, cause they remind him of his old partner
☁️Sally wasnt a fish (i do like hybrid/siren sally but for this im ignoring that-), it was just Wilburs coping mechanism for coming to terms with loosing her. He had to create a fake version of her to be able to talk about her. (The only one who knows this is Fundy, but he learned to go along with it because it keeps Wilbur happy) (the same might also be said for the Sheep Hybrid in this universe- Wilbur just refers to them as a sheep to cope) Also he would definitely jokingly call Sally Ariel
☁️Wilbur is a shapeshifter I don't make the rules- He likes being in his fox form alot, so Fundy like- inherited the Fox bit- (Though Shapeshifter Fundy is also cool-)
⛤Wilbur is a shapeshifter whos three forms are literally limited to a) humanoid Moth, b) Humanoid Fox, and c) A weird mix of both
☁️Wilbur doesn't understand Gender, so when Fundy came out as Trans he was just like "Um. Huh??? Gender??? Trans??? Fundy whats a boy-" IKMJN and Fundy just kinda stared at him before going to Sally because he realized his Dad didn't even know Fundy had had a gender-
☁️Wilbur being tied to the earth through like, godly means? and the Earth is like "hey, no, our prince isnt where he belongs anymore, he must return home to safety <3". Just, the earth loving Wilbur more than anything else, and wanting their prince to be safe- <3 (Earth Deity Wilbur pog???)
#c!wilbur#dsmp#dsmp headcannons#/rp#c!wilbur headcanons#ghostbur#revivedbur#friend#c!Wilbur uses neopronouns you cant change my mind#transfem c!Wilbur#because I say so#im not projecting shut up /lh#I have more headcannons pertaining to like#all of this#but way more elaborate and planned and thought out#i love c!Wilbur#leave me alone i have a hyperfixation#and special interest oKay-#i forgot my neurodivergent c!Wilbur hcs but this is kinda long#idk how to tag#cw blood mention
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fic writer ao3 questionnaire thingy
tagged by @bearlytolerant and @ejunkiet for this 💙 thx buddies
1. How many works do you have on Ao3?
37
2. What's your total Ao3 word count?
79,572
3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
these are all solavellan which I guess is not surprising... but to be fair, my mass effect fics just missed the cut
three (modern!au WIP that could technically be finished where I left it but needs a rewrite bc i started it before i learned how to make more thoughtful choices)
nothing on my tongue (collection of playlist-inspired <500 word vignettes that sort of work as a whole story)
awake, alive (two-shot ? about not-kissing in the rain. *smacks the roof* this bad boy can fit so much romantic and sexual tension in it)
the naughty list (a very smutty christmas fic, and another two-shot)
waking up (post-trespasser prompt fill about kissin your not-ex-boyfriend to help him see how dumb he's being)
4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
yes, I do. commenting can be intimidating when you don't know the writer, so in that case it feels disrespectful not to even acknowledge the effort. same with extensive comments. and oftentimes the commenter brings up questions or points out interesting moments that you can then have mo re of a conversation about.
honestly comments aren't about the compliments (though those are always nice to hear), they're about the connection. I wrote this, you read it. we both want to feel seen. consider my response an acknowledgement of our connection.
5. What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?
principles, which is just a one-shot so the whole thing is angsty, but it definitely ends even less happily than nomt...
6. What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?
probably three, but since the last chapter is technically not the ending... I think to the water (smutty dragon age OCxOC indulgence) takes it! it is also, coincidentally, some of my tightest writing.
7. Do you write crossovers? If so, what's the craziest one you've written?
i do not. i don't generally love reading or writing them tbh
8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?
nope, but there's always tomorrow!
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
i sure do, but uh what kind? the um... the quick and snappy kind where you hope to squeeze at least a little heat out of those 600 words? idfk
10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
not that i am aware of
11. Have you ever had a fic translated?
not that i am aware of
12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
not that i am awa- wait, yes! i collaborated with my past self on not to keep, a shenko fake-dating one-shot that I wrote most of in 2017!! lol ok but like with other people, no.
13. What's your all-time favorite ship?
well that's not a fair question to ask. how about top three: mayo, solathi, and bethistair
14. What's a WIP that you want to finish, but don't think you ever will?
i mean there's always some hope, but.. arlathan!au. 🥀rip
15. What are your writing strengths?
being concise: i try to be efficient with my word choice, and cram a lot of characterization/meaning into a handful of words
i think i hit a decent balance of description, action, dialogue, and interiority?
giving certain sentences that satisfying cadence
im good at beginnings. fuck endings tho
16. What are your writing weaknesses?
dialogue. im a lot better than i used to be, but still struggle with it
i don't understand smut and it doesn't understand me
my stamina is shit!!! which is why i write small things and that works fine but when i occasionally want to write something long (beach fic my love) i get overwhelmed and discouraged.
im just.. not that creative lmao this head is empty
17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
i do not do it, but all the best to ppl who do ig. hopefully someone knows how to do it well... once i read a longfic that did this sort of a lot and the translations were all in the chapter end notes on ao3 and it was such a PAIN to scroll down then find my place again
but i just don't do it bc im lazy :}
18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?
newsies lmao (which came out when i was 3! never been on time to a fandom in my life ✌🏻😌)
19. What's your favorite fic you've ever written?
uhhhhh well right now i am most satisfied with anybody's hands (pre-relationship mayo), but like the writing of be gentle with me (also mayo), but am most proud of nothing on my tongue. idk which would be considered my favorite.
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idk who hasn't been tagged yet but @thevikingwoman, @boshtet-juggler, @kittlesandbugs, @ladymdc, and @writer-ish, if you've done this will you pls tag me in it so i can see?? and the rest of yall if you got this far and have stuff on ao3 i am BEGGING you to say i tagged you pls i do not even care if we're mutuals or not
#ellster speaks#fic writer tag game#gotta say it bugs me there's no 20#these are the same ppl that leave the volume at 11 huh
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OMG PLZ TELL ME SHE WONT END UP TOGETHER WITH THEM😭😭😭(literally crying rn like not laughing crying but literally crying,,, very angry and partially sad tears) PLZ AUTHOR PLZ😭😭😭 ,,I HATE THEM,,THIS CHAPTER JUST BROKE ME🥺🥺 like I don’t have sympathy for not one of them especially jimin, jk, namjoon, and tae,, Yoongi is the only one who I feel like deserves rights or I feel like I could stand a little at this point still dislike him a lot but at least the dude is self aware and understands the level of wrongness they did her, I’m loving how he is accepting the truth that he’s a piece of shit and not making it about himself like jk or feeling and acting like jimin, jimin is just so ughhh *chokes the air*,,and I like how hoseok and Jin just being quiet and not saying shxt, as they should, they know their place and it needs to stay that way if only the others could take some notes😭😭😭,,,but yeah they can all truly go to hell,, they literally made me so angry bro I think I hate jimin the most, that flashback literally broke me like I hate him he does not deserve any happiness in life like ever and he had the nerve to go up to her and try explain and save face and I was like NO ITS TOO LATE FOR THAT BUDDY UR GOING TO HELL LIKE THE REST OF THEM STOP THE ENTITLEMENT AND THE FALSE HOPE like I hate how he has the nerve to go to her concerts and feel like he should be heard out like does he rlly feel like he could fix this and have her listen to his side and all will be right and forgiven??? IS HE SERIOUS ????HES SUCH A DOUCH😡😡everything he does just irks me like he has no right,, NONE OF THEM DESERVE HER SHES BEEN THRU SM AND IS SO GOOD AND TALENTED😡😡😡 SHE DOESN’T DESERVE SCUMMY PEICES OF SHIT LIKE THEM IN HER LIFE😡😡😡,, plz I’m begging u🥺 I would rlly love it if u let her fall in love with raya or something & let her have the happy ending she deserves by herself or with someone or ppl other than the boys & find happiness without the boys, it would make such a beautiful story and lesson, lol fuck redemption and forgiveness and second chances at love,, or I would rlly love if she just forgave them and moved on but didn’t get together with them maybe they just went back to being strangers or became friends and that would just be the end of that, after what they did I just think she deserves better and they rlly don’t deserve to be with her,, especially after seeing what jimin did and reading jimin’s and Jks thoughts, it’s just not it, after that bitch gave her hope and left her for dead he has the nerve like wow what a fool🙄,,, but anyways,, most importantly this chapter was amazing💜, Ur literally so talented, THANK U THANK U FOR SHARING THIS STORY WITH USS LIKE IM LITERALLY IN LOVE AND LOOK FORWARD TO ALL UR UPDATES💕✨
I MEAN JKSDKSHDJ HELLO ANON HAHAHA
I kinda already spoiled that a redemption arc would happen;;; IM SORRY THO, I HOPE YOU'LL LIKE IT NONETHELESS! ksjksj
Yoongi a precious bean, he's just dealing with trauma as best as he can to be honest TT NO BUT I AGREE THOUGH, THEY DON'T DESERVE HER LOOOL Jimin can rot , JK is well, a soft bun, BUT STILL SELFISH LOL Namjoon and Tae can leave, idc, Seokie and Hobi at least know to remain quiet, we can give that to them.
Jimin is entitled asf, he knows that what he's doing is wrong but he cannot help it, he's just,,,, frustrating asf LOL
On a side note though, I did ponder a lot before starting this story because I personally believe that what they did is not forgivable. Like, would OC be me, I'd probably never forgive them, whether they meant to hurt or not. However, as I started writing it, it made sense to me that I truly wanted to have traumatized characters while they also have a heavy history, and this history doesn't make them good people. If anything, it makes despicable and really raw. Maybe when you'll hear more from some of their sides, you'll understand how I came to feel that way, but I truly thought of making her fall in love with Raya (actually, my very first draft was that Raya and her were both together when the bonding with JK happened, but it made way too much drama with Raya being jealous, Raya needing to accept JK whether she wanted it or not etc.)
I'm pretty happy with the ending I have in mind, and I do hope that even if it doesn't really fit your idea, you'll come to like it nonetheless TT Though I'm also thinking of maybe doing a spin-off with a Raya ending, so we'll see if this happens one day!!
Thank you so much bub, I can't explain how happy everyone's enthusiasm makes me TT I really hope you won't be too disappointed with OC's choices, I'm trying to find a good balance between her character and my own personality because I don't want to give her the same ending as the one I chose for myself.
I LOVE YOU TAKE CARE ✨✨✨ PLEASE DON'T BE TOO UPSET WITH THE ENDING KSLJDKSJ
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ok, It's been a long while since I've sent an ask, and though that can be atributed to life being life, that can only go so far and these previeous 3 days I've been lazing around mostly XD So, in order to compensate, here's the asks for Free and SWUP that have entered my brain and I haven't filtered out yet that I'll send you. Answer as you see fit for I might send repeated questions or some that have already been aswered before in another form.
For SWUP, would SWUP (Does she have another name? I can't remember) ever try a work somewhere? She has to get money somehow if she wants to be able to buy food, clothes, a home, and pay for all the medical expences she might have to go through. What other friends would she have other than wine aunt and coffee barista? I remember you said there might be a third one who's not really relevant, but whos father is, and you were still unsure on wether to include them or not. Also, the humans in this Earth, how much do they know about aliens? The Unicorns and Dragons? I imagine that considering the amount of damage they can do when they fight, and considering that apparently their experiments on abducted humans that they leave on Earth for like a month before taking them forever, would make them fairly known, and have something like a world agency looking out for different cases or something, however succesful they actually are.
Now onto Free, Is there any chance that we could get to know of any of the friends that the rag-tag group would make along the way of the travels? Like, there HAS to be someone who they befriend without any shennanigans involved at the very least, or with minimal ammount of them, just as there HAS to be a friend made after a disaster of cataclismic proportions happens that inebitably onvolves the found family. Also, how long was Leo outside on his own before bird friend (forgot his name) found him and started to get them back to the Domes? Considering that they have a long adventure, I imagine that he spent at least a month outside without an idea of any direction he was going, and getting lost along the way because of course he gets lost, before he was found. Would the team find anyone else who was part of the Domes but left of their own volition too? Another traveler similar to Leo, but that doesn't want to return to those places for X or Y reason? Would there be anyone from the Domes that they meet that DIDN'T want to leave the Domes in the first place but got out regardless? This could be for whatever reason, from kidnapping to exhile to attack to the Dome to simply escaping from a bad situation.
oop sorry for taking a bit to get back to you,
youre questions make me realise how under developed my stories are wheeezee so i rlly appreciate your questions!!
SWUP aka Vicky her human alias. or I guess the unicorn is the alias. AH SHIT I DIDNT EVEN THINK OF THAT!! Originally when i made SWUP she was supposed to be in high school. But as i grow I also like my characters to grow with me. Maybe I'll get her a job as one of them gym buddies (it has to be a job that allows for some form of freedom, enough to like be able to do th vigialnte thing- (i forget the name) Medical expenses aren't too bad, I'm basing it off aus medical- which means medicare! Plus she doesn't need the hospital all that often, she can regenerate.
In terms of friends she doesn't have many not because she socially inept (like myself)- she was very popular in highschool, but there isn't many people she can relate to. Her best friend James (pending name) comic book nerd that loves super heroes is all she's got. And some gym bros, but they're just friends at the gym, outside complete strangers. I really do want James to be relevant to the plot and not his dad and daddy issues, but he's a bit hard to squeeze in. Maybe if I sat down to actually do some writing, maybe--- ALAS I am but a creature of laziness, and poor attention span. (im barely focusing on Flee atm and I rlly wanna try developing GECKO again fml)
Humans know little to nothing about aliens (excpet for like the government and so wackos who a really into scifi) So even though SWUP is doing her best to help ppl, she's seen as a horrifying villain that is stage one to an alien invasion. (the scifi wackos play a part in that.) Although most Police officers appreciate the help... most.
Suprisingly no, most humans who were mutated into unicorns almost seem to disappear, SWUP is an exception. Why is that hmmmmmmmm? this is kind of a big moment, if I ever plan to push this idea to the webcomic/animation stage, youll see.
There's not really an official .org agency or anything like that, but some wackos who love space, and an actual scientist or 2. So far they have deducted that unicorns are evil space creatures who prey on humans and consume their flesh to get stronger so they can lay eggs and take over the world. There's not a lot of truth to that. Some parts tho... but which part? At the moment I'm really into mystery- so maybe I'll add some mystery elements, or I'll give it to GECKO. first i gotta redesign Mac, poor lad is not a looker I'l tell you that.
FLEE I barely know their friends either- haven't gone about developing them. HOWEVER. I do have a villain in mind. I remember making him for my illustration class back in uni (sigh uni days...) I dom't have a name, but I have a face. He's a big leader of this village known for killing the hybrid/mutants. He and his crew, a rag-tag gun loving, truck driving, share-a-brain-cell, lot. How they've managed to become successful hunter bunch is unknown.
But one the friends I have developed enough is Bolt, who also comes with their own shennanigans and an old rusty bus. Techincally they don't need it because they're fast as fuck, but it helps to have around incase you get a goliath sand bobbit on your hands.
Tristian is the human, Leo is the bird friend. Actually Trisitian was out on his own for three days, he didn't cover much ground when he finally met Leo either- dumbass didn't bring enough food and water to last. He didn't even have a plan, just wanted to go out. The only reason Leo didn't send his ass running home was because something- or someone- pushed them far. far away. Oh my who could it be?
Tristians kind of a rarity, not many people leave the domes unless it's through underground passageways to other domes. Most people are blissfully unaware of the outside world. Not to say Tristians the only one who escaped, but he's the only one who's survived outside for so long. (dome people don't have any survival skills) The only reason Tristians gotten so far is dumb lucks and a hot headed bird friend.
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