#im not defending him i would just like someone to actually explain to me wtf is going on re cole no gay kiss

[perfectthewayyouare]

ok im seeing a lot of posts saying cole is the reason for no jarchie kiss but where are the receipts?? did he outright say he wouldn't gay kiss on riverdale? when did he sign this so called contract? why is this the first time im hearing about this!?!!

or is this a case of a jackles mixup situation where instead of him being homophobic towards the ending he actually just thought it was bad

[chunkymamatam]

hello good day i hope you dont mind me asking but can you tell me some stories about ace and deuce? i am trying to shift to twst and need some motivation :) but only if you want to i dont want to bother you or anything

Sure! Remember this is an actual college and everyone is of adult age in my DR

Another disclaimer the main story happens so fucking fast and in quick succession that most of these are just from that.

Let me tell you about the first time I met Ace first cuz this bitch tried to pull that bs that he did in the game where he was like “being nice” but he was actually being a dick.

I’m just trying to do my job(I actually like cleaning) and get a handle on Grim’s ridiculous ass and this man starts explaining the 7 and I’m like “nah I know who they are. They’re a little different where I come from” I explain their villainy and I had this man fighting for his life defending the seven it was hilarious. I had Grim by the scruff so he didn’t run but then ace started disrespecting my boy and calling him a weasel and at that point I was like “fuck you” and let Grim have at him. I said no fire and this damn cat throws fire at him anyway. Smh burnt the statue then Crowley’s bitch ass comes in

“Control your familiar” HES NOT MY FAMILIAR HOE

Then he wanted to ask what happened, I explained, Ace called me a narc I called him a dumb bitch and let him know that this wouldn’t have happened if he had just idk controlled himself and not have tried to bully me. I don’t fuck with bullies like that and I’ll beat your ass. Nah the way this man was side eyeing tf out of me everytime he caught sight of me is CRAZY LMFAO classes end and this man tries to ditch his punishment then Grim runs off to try and ditch our job after we find Ace. I can’t fucking stand penis havers I stg because wtf was that bro.

Then this bitch tries to get a bribe out of me BITCH IF YOU DONT HELP ME CATCH HIM WELL BOTH BE KICKED OUT .

After I said that all of a sudden he wanted to move. That’s right bitch. Haul ass NYOW. Nah and then Ace slams right into Deuce and one thing led to another and now the chandler is shattered. This mf and his god damn cauldrons. Crowley comes, threatens us they beg for their spot and I’m prepping to remind him that I’m going to the proper authorities and telling them he snatched me tf up out another universe and he’s like “well get the magestone and you can stay.”

I hate him so much. Nah and the whole way to the cave was just ugly looks and silence you could cut with a knife. Then when we get there and get in the cave Deuce was bitching Ace out and tried to drag me into it so I chimed in that I was just trying to do my job and Ace started being a cunt. Deuce looked so pissed and shrieked at him that

“YOU MEAN IM ABOUG TO BE SUSPENDED BECAUSE YOU COULDNT JUST LEAVE HER ALONE????”

Lmfao then the monster comes and we run. We ended up using the same plan as the one from the game and we were so giddy on the way back. Nothing like killing an overblot creature and stealing its shiny magic rock to bring a group together right? lol

We show it to Crowley get dismissed back to our dorms and I get woken up by a knock on my door. Who is it other than Ace. Now I knew this would happen and he’d show up but I was still annoyed.

My PJs consist of underwear and the hoodie I got there in when he shows up. Now this is important cuz that’s what I was wearing when I answered the door cuz I wasn’t expecting him to just barge his big ass through the door before I even told him he could. He explained ever that happened with Riddle and I told him he was stupid cuz who tf eats someone else’s food in the dorm before asking bro. Fucking moron. He has this adorable ass pout I just wanna boop him sometimes lol nah but I let him stay.

Tell me why this slut really looked me up and down, smirks and said “wow, you sure got comfortable, we sharing a bed?”

Bro I was disgusted I said “and that’s why you’re sleeping on the couch.” Threw him a blanket and pillow and took my ass back to bed lmfaooo.

During the Halloween stuff those two kept trying to scare me lol it was really funny tbh. I’m not at all difficult to scare but if I hear you coming or I know you’re trying to to scare me it just doesn’t work and they talk a LOT and are loud lol.

Deuce comes to me if he needs some help with his classes but only occasionally unfortunately.

I also had to have the “not all eggs turn into chickens” conversation with him and I think he’s still confused. He’s stupid but I still love him 😭

Alright that’s all I got for now. There’s more but I’m tired. I just got home from a funeral. Love y’all just ask if you want more 💖

[m1ckeyb3rry]

I have complete faith in you I will resist Karasu for hollyhock o7

You know what’s funny I literally just passed by a tiktok explaining Nagi’s character in depth like we’ve discussed like finally?? That’s a first especially on tiktok LMAO

Bro imagine he pulls out the cops and robbers metaphor and is just towering over you the entire time defending…or when Nagi and Barou slammed their heads against each other trying to block a goal if it weren’t Barou and Nagi someone would def be getting whack-a-moled like….(and fr hot guys but at what cost….if you don’t happen to land yourself in the tabieitaken stratum or maybe Team Z you can kiss your sanity goodbye LMAO

FRR HAHAHA when they first came out I had no idea wtf they meant but now I see it LOL Everyday I get more excited for S2 it’s going to be so hype…hoping I don’t have a booked out schedule in October SHEGSH

Every now and then I think about rereading but now that you mention it I’ve gotta abstain until October LMAOOO hoping the epinagi chapters and main series chapters will tie me over

No because the younger Aiku photos >>> I’ll admit even then I’m not like the BIGGEST fan but I could see myself getting swayed at some point or another…(speaking of which they really decided to randomly drop Aiku into Barous LN LMAO I keep seeing posts about it like…did they ever acknowledge it in the main series and also the way they’re both on Ubers now is so funny)

No fr…sometimes I think considering the amount of fboy trope fics I see I’m surprised people aren’t jumping at the chance to write for Otoya and Aiku?? Like you literally have the canon example right there LMAO but who am I to tell people what to write LOL

No like?? Also Rin’s bday is in September and Nanase in January?? I’m not sure who comes first though because everything I try to think about the school system they’re set in I lose my mind but either way like ??? LMAOOO I love seeing content or fanart about PXG interactions where Karasu’s like clowning everyone I need to see more PxG interactions….him and shidou would be so funny trolling everyone and using up all the hair wax in bllk

I feel like they’ll probably sprinkle in some anime only mini moments with him?? Especially since they already decided to announce his VA surely he isn’t only talking in that one post credit epinagi scene right…I remember when they first announced his va before we heard him actually talk I was a little thrown off because I remember confusing his VA for Rin’s because they sound really similar in some roles!! I was like no way they gave him the edgelord voice LMAO but whoever the voice director is is going above and beyond the voices match the characters so well…

I’m realizing that a lot of the additional times from S1 were actually drawn out in the manga blooper/bonuses too but lately/after the third selection there have barely been any?? Hoping that means we have hope for some original scenes with tabieitaken then!!!

Maybe it’s time we come out and admit that we’re the real authors of bllk…I fear the secret’s out…HSUUDHS HAIR DOWN BAROU also never fully processed how young his sisters seem?? It’s so cute shshshsh domestic Barou truly is the man….since everyone’s getting sibling reveals I’m manifesting so hard that that means tabieita next because LET ME SEE THEIR SISTERS SHEKESODJ I bet Karasu’s older sister is so cool too ugh imagine we get crumbs of her cheering him up after being bullied or we get sweet little Karasu and his grandma moments goodbye….I feel like after that home background bait from Hiori’s LN (where he gaslit him so hard LMAO) we deserve to know the truth…cmon don’t be shy show us the Karasu household……….

I’m (im)patiently waiting to find some source material for the LNs….hopefully soon….

Also this is kinda random but the aquarium visit has never left my mind…to the point where im like please let their next day off be a group aquarium visit LMAO but it’s reminding me of how some aquariums also have like…a bird exhibit/section..? Or like a butterfly dome (or both) where you can go let butterflies and birds land on you etc imagine everyone spreads out and runs towards the sea animals and then Karasu just beelines for the winged organism dome LMAO like he is NOT leaving there the most he’ll go to is penguins maybe since they’re birds but I can see him preferring flying birds (imagine him talking with Yukimiya like why do you like one of the only birds that can’t fly??? LMFAO) maybe im projecting the bird agenda a little too hard but i mean he canonically likes hawks so…as an avid bird fan myself I’d like to think that extends a sort of affinity net over all birds (like it does with me LMAO) sooo

-Karasu anon

YAYYY omg i was literally abt to finish the next chapter last night and then we lost power 😢 the world is against hollyhock but we will prevail…supposedly we will get it back today in the evening but it’s supposed to storm AGAIN tn 😭😩 so keeping my fingers crossed that the electricity comes back and stays for good

LET’S GOOOO in my experience people on tik tok are either super educated and have great takes or they’re absolutely brain dead 😭 i feel like i encounter a LOT of dudebros in the comments sections though 😔 have you watched that one girl who’s OBSSESSED w bllk’s videos?? they always make me giggle for how ridiculous they are…atm she’s simping over lorenzo which certainly is a choice FJKDSKKS

HELP MEEE imagine aiku calls you “lil robber-chan” bruh i’d kms…or like all of their vaguely sexual soccer talk?? fine between bros but as a woman i’m raising an eyebrow if aiku says he’s “rock hard” to me at any point the way he did to isagi 😭 like erm what does you mean by that buddy 🤨⁉️ HAHA agreed omg you’d have to hope and pray you get on a team w at least one normal person who you can rely on to get the others to leave you alone (like being on a team with tabieita [mostly for karasu because lbr otoya IS the problem], yukimiya, hiori, barou, team z, or team v with nagireo just because i feel like reo wouldn’t let any nonsense slide). otherwise you’re stuck w a bunch of guys who are already lowkey crazy AND are in some weird isolation camp where they are so deprived of female connection that they start simping for chigiri 👹

young aiku is a diff man entirely…okay i also laughed at aiku just randomly pulling up in barou’s backstory??? like ig it makes sense but also the way it’s not all implied in the main series 😩 ig the author did mention that barou didn’t remember much abt aiku so that’s why?? but their friendship in ubers is so cute like that one spread of aiku dying barou’s hair for him 🥹 honestly i love ubers out of all of the nel teams they’re the only one that feels like an actual team yk?? barou + niko + aiku + aryu is such a random combo but it works so well and lorenzo is so chill despite also being a ng11 like kaiser/sae that it’s always fun to see their interactions. plus barou during the ubers games 🤤…i saw a post that barou’s arm is bigger than isagi’s leg LMAOAOA WHAT A MAN 😭

i’ve noticed people tend to HATE canon cheaters/womanizers but love writing characters to be as such?? i think it’s because turning a womanizer into someone loyal feels like you’re making them ooc whereas that trope of “fixing” a man is more plausible when you’re just returning them to their base characterization??? idk if that makes sense but i think that might be a reason for it. although i will say i have seen a lot of aiku fics he’s kinda like the toji of bllk i feel 😭 terrified for what might happen once he’s animated i fear the comments will be crazy

i do not at all understand the bllk timeline like i think it starts in november because apparently sae turns 18 during second selection?? but then i just saw a post that says apparently isagi is also 18 now?? like how long have they been in bllk KFHFKDNS i could not tell you 😭 although all of this info is also screenshots from the editable wiki so who knows how accurate it is 😔 FJSKSN but fr though i love seeing the posts where pxg is just karasu babysitting a bunch of idiots because that truly does feel like the dynamic at times 😟 like shidou rin zantetsu tokimitsu and charles all on one team…that man is working OVERTIME LMAOAOA technically shidou is older than him but let’s be real he does not act like it 💔 shidou gives me like problematic older brother that beats you up but he loves you at the same time vibes whereas karasu gives me responsible older brother who drives you to and from practice while lecturing you abt random stuff vibes HAHA i honestly wish we could see them interacting more!! karasu is part of the shidou setup along w zantetsu so they must spend time training together?? idk

THE VOICES ARE ALL SOOOOO GOOD i don’t think there’s been a single miss in the dub yet!! i agree i feel like there would’ve been no reason to hire and pay a voice actor for kurona if he wasn’t going to have a more significant role in the second season. like i said i feel like they’re going to set up a friendship between him and reo which i’m all for!! i think they would have a really cute dynamic

the secret is out everyone 😌 karasu anon and i are actually kaneshiro and nomura 🥱 i think we’ve been spot on w everything that’s come out HAHAHA like we were discussing karasu’s background and then it came out a bit in epinagi…then we were talking abt barou and now we have his ln…i sense a pattern 😦 also yes i want to see sweetheart grandson karasu + his older sister!! AND OTOYA’S SIBLINGS do they all have the same weird hair?? i’m so curious…also the background bait w karasu let me tell you i fell for that shit too 😭 got so hype that he was apparently also rich asf and i felt so bad for his sad backstory and then it turns out he was just messing around 😢

I WAS THINKING OF A BUTTERFLY DOME VISIT OMGGG WE ARE ON THE SAME WAVELENGTH!! and yes i hc karasu as a bird lover in general what w his crow aesthetic and his fav animals being hawks!! i do think he probably likes birds of prey a bit more but in general he probably just likes all birds and thinks they’re cool

[paldean-ranger-brandy]

Im gonna be real, my knee jerk reaction here is to make some bitchy little comment and then drop it. But I'm gonna do my best to explain our position here. Because I know you're a good person, and I know you aren't gonna take what I say in bad faith and twist it against me. Putting it under a readmore bc this post is already long.

Imagine you have a house. You've built this house yourself, you love it, it's HUGE and every single nook and cranny is special to you. And then a neighbor comes along and cuts down 80% of it to use the raw materials for fuckin whatever. What an asshole, we are not inviting him to the holiday party. But you start to rebuild. You don't get more than one room up though before another neighbor comes by, says he's friends with the first guy, and then tells you he's gonna be telling a bunch of children to walk through your house. You say "hey, wtf. I actually don't like kids all that much, and don't really want anyone walking through my house after that last guy destroyed most of it." And they say "that's too fucking bad". You ask your other neighbors to help, and get radio silence from everyone except for one random dude way out in the ocean who went through something similar. It's not enough though, and the kids start stomping through your house.

A bunch of them keep accidentally knocking shit over and breaking it. Not their fault that this place isn't kid friendly, but that's exactly why you don't want them there. At least half of them tell you to knock down MORE walls so that your house is easier to walk through, it's kinda inaccessible for them. A lot of them don't do much more than just. Walk through. But your house isn't built for that much foot traffic, and now your floors are dirty and breaking.

Your neighbors start talking, saying how inaccessible your house is for the kids, how WEIRD your house looks to them, how anti social you are. They even start spreading rumours, calling you uncivilized because your home is so weird and dirty and broken even though it WASN'T always like that and you were never given the chance to fix anything or even make the place more child friendly before the absolute hoard of rude/inconsiderate/well-meaning but still part of the problem kids started stomping through.

Your house is in shambles, there are kids that you don't want everywhere, and your neighbors all hate you and love to spread rumours about how mean and brutish you are. At that point, even though it isn't the kids' fault you are going to find yourself being not exactly the best host. It's not that you can't be, you're actually really good at helping your friends and their kids feel good and safe in your home. But this is too much, you are one person and these kids are not in a listening and learning mindset. Rudeness isn't the goal, but when you're that tired and bogged down it's inevitable.

First guy is the Industrial revolution, second guy is the league (obviously), and the neighbors are the rest of Hoenn (again, I think obviously). I'm not using this analogy because I think you're stupid, it's just the best way I could think of to make the emotional reality actually hit home. Also because explaining the history in detail would take even longer lol.

We aren't rude by nature. We dont even necessarily hate having guests over. But it's just been too much for too long, and we are tired of being judged. And anytime we try and explain that people try to defend the League, or say that we're overreacting. One time I told someone the cliffs notes version and they said "so it's true? Your town is super poor and shitty?"

People don't like to hear their precious League has done terrible things. People also don't really approach us much from a place of actually wanting to listen and learn. That said, I do trust u n ur little girlfriend to be chill. If either of you actually want to learn about our culture n traditions I'm happy to talk about em.

Is it morally wrong to visit Fortree solely to see how long it takes for someone to pick a fight with me?

[sk3tch404]

The fact that I actually recognise that person-

Was actually debating whether to block them a while back and then forgot about it but omfg yeah I shoulda done it 💀💀💀💀 idk how to explain it properly but they strongly remind me of the IRL_Clowns situation back on TikTok for some reason (the summary should still be up when you search for it I think) although they haven't reached that same lvl of..... 'Bro wtf' yet, I think

Also it's not like Aponia could whitewash Naib more than Netease already did themselves fr

Yes just block him soon...

Wait, did I ever tell you guys we were mutuals? Oh no, I didn't. Let's recap.

I understand as a fictive you can't control the characters you see yourself as, but uh yeah...

I don't mind irl's or fictives, but sometimes y'all get a little out of hand. Like...

Wow defending Phillips racist backstory and character... How interesting.

You can be an irl of whoever u want I really don't give a fuck. I'm glad they're 'not racist' as people, but can they at least acknowledge PHILIPPE'S CHAFACTER IS RACIST? HIS CHARACTER TRAILER LITERALLY HAS A BLACK PERSON WITH DRAWN WITH ETHNIC FEATURES TURNING INTO A WOLF. AN ANIMAL.

DEEMING THEM AS CRIMINALS BASED ON PHYSICAL STRUCTURE. HOW IS THAT NOT FUCKING RACIST.

You don't have to be EVERY SINGLE TRAIT of that character as a fictive, but at least acknowledge the character you are is a bad person dude 💀

Ain't it funny when you pick and choose what to speak out on?

He can't STAND IT when racist black caricatures are on screen, but when his irl S/O cries about being seen as racist even though the character they are, Philippe, is racist in his work, deeming ethnic black features as a aggravated wolf ready to strike, that's when he goes tell them to do they things they like. Take their mind off of things and take a nap.

Yes this makes total and perfect mature sense. Good job team of 7 braincells.

I also think how it's a bit funny how despite me telling him my real age when I was 13 (almost 14) and they were 16, (Probably almost turning 17 because a bit after that they had 17 in their bio) they still replied with sexual implications for the characters even though they told me,

Murder stuff only huh? I get making sexual jokes with your friends, but I can't look down at someone nearly 3 YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME, and be comfortable making those kinds of jokes.

I'm not saying he's a predator, no no not at all. What im saying is, that even though he may have tried making me feel welcomed and tried to be friendly, it was not in my best interest safety wise.

This had me thinking that making semi sexual jokes with older people was normal and okay. It is alright once in a long while, but I remember multiple occasions where he would respond with something like, "Oh yeah Naib blows readers back out when Eli isn't around."

Of course that isn't specific, but it isn't too far from incorrect.

At the time, I was still trying to be more social and getting over my social anxiety. It made me happy that someone ONLINE paid attention to me with positive things to say. Even if they were very... Effortless or braindead smut.

Now I'm not saying he had to reply to every one if my asks with a full mental analysis, but at that time, I just felt worthless and disappointed with the responses. Though I can understand why he had only replied with one sentence or two most of the time. The guy was answering a FUCK ton of asks every single day. I'm sure there was a lot of pressure there too.

He was also reblogging with his S/O a million times every day so there's that I guess.

He uses the same 7 brain cells with every ask. Literally just porn, porn, porn and porn. I don't have an issue with legit pure thirsting, but honestly the intelligence in the room dropped to 25 everytime I went on his blog.

He claims not to be racist and points out misrepresentation, yet chooses to turn a blind eye to his irl fictive S/O when they feel bad bc the racist character they are, is being seen as racist.

He didn't tell me to not make sexual jokes and set those boundaries once again knowing I was about 3 years younger, but encouraged them with keyboard smashes and more thirst.

Sending in semi sexual asks were mistakes I made on my part alone, but seeing it as entertaining and allowing it to continue was something that made him amplify the issue even further.

Being a fictive is difficult and messes with your mental health a lot, but that doesn't give him an excuse to defend explicitly racist characters when your fictive gf/husband cries about it. Just because you're ill or are an irl doesn't mean you are excused from these sort of things.

I don't know how it is to struggle with being one, or will ever know what it feels like, but I can be sure when I say, I do not tolerate picky hypocrites.

He wants to point out Kurumi for 'white washing' Naib? Okay, I get it. Doing the right and moral thing huh? Well then, allow me to point out the things I had experienced during time I spent and lost during the late year of 2020 and the entirely of 2021 - 2022.

Naib was already pale to begin with. Kurumi couldn't white wash him if he was already that color.

After all, even if they wanted to 'white wash' Naib, Netease already beat them to it. Netease is a colorist, racist, offensive, and overall problematic company.

Every single character of theirs has their issues and faults, but this 'white washing' accusation that has fallen on Kurumi's shoulders has weighed heavy enough. They are simply not true and have fallen short.

Kurumi is not a native English speaker. They were confused and anxious while he confronted them. They only had a basic understanding of what he was trying to say. I talked to them and it was never their intention to hurt anybody, especially people who are colored like me.

If he wants to confront someone improperly, it should be me. Not her.

I don't want drama. I just want what's hiding in the dark, to come out into the light. Thank you, have a good rest of your day.

[blxetsi]

modern sasha braus dating headcanons

lowercase intended !

college!sasha braus x gn!reader

had to write something for my queen 😌✨

- she shares her food with you. I Dont Care She Does

- also since this is a modern au i dont think she would have such an obsession with food as she does in the canonverse (if we can even call it an obsession) i still think she would have a big appetite (and she'd be proud of it tf 😏🙏) but i just dont see her always being hungry as the fandom makes her out to be

- really likes to hold hands with you

- i think itd be really cute if she was studying to become a baker ?? maybe taking a culinary course at the university you two attend ?? maybe you somehow met there or through a friend

- i think she'd still be insecure about her accent (ig if this is au is set in america she'd be from the south 😐🤚) and would speak kind of like a robot to people she didn't know that well

- connie and jean ALWAYS bring out her accent tho,, like with them she can really be herself

- i think when you were starting to get to know her she would be speaking very formally, and youd take it like shes being kinda stand offish or like,, just doesnt wanna talk so youre thinking "okay maybe she doesnt wanna be friends 😁👍" and would back off

- now sasha's upset because you are so cool and unique and she just wants to know so much about you but youve been very distant lately ?? like did she do something wrong ??

- she tells connie, jean, marco, and niccolo one night and connie and jean are on the side of "find y/n and demand to know why their behavior has changed" while marco and niccolo are on the side of "respectfully dm y/n and ask why they havent been wanting to see sasha recently"

- sasha goes with the latter of the two and dms you after passing you in the dining hall, you two literally keep glancing at each other, texting while you sit with your respective friend groups

- after everything gets cleared up sasha is immediately inviting you to hang out with her crew, and even getting some of her other friends like eren, mikasa, and ymir and historia to come join too

- if she has all the people shes comfortable with there, itll be less scary talking with her accent !

- You Love It. You Think Its Adorable.

- you guys would definitely have a friends to lovers type relationship

- like friendly hugs turn into slightly longer hugs, and now sasha will constantly ask to sit next to you during movie nights

- loves to rest her head on your lap while she spreads across the couch

- i think you two would have your first kiss in niccolos apartment

- you two were sitting in his kitchen, with sasha munching on the leftover food he made that night for your get together

- his mom had called him so he decided to leave to go to his bedroom to answer it

- and slowly you guys just kind of,,,, leaned in 🙈✨

- it was slow and really romantic, kinda rough with the crumbs that were around sasha's lips but you didn't mind

- niccolo barged in and ruined the moment 😐🤚 good going pal 😁👍

- you two were so shocked that you two tried to leave

- ended up just walking down the road in silence like wtf i thought yall were trying to get away from each other 😭😭😭😭

- sasha ended up staying the night 🤩‼️

- NOT in a sexual way

- but in like a,,,, rue and jules kinda way where jules comes in through the window (but only sasha didnt come in through the window she came in the front door with you) and you two held each other and gave each other smooches for the rest of the night

- sasha woke up late and missed her morning classes 😐🤚 didnt even care and went back to sleep with you

- i think for the most part you get along well with her friend group

- youre definitely closer to connie, jean, niccolo, marco, and historia

- ymir teases you guys a lot and you cant tell if what she says is just jokes (it always is) or if shes completely serious

- eren, mikasa, armin, annie, along with reiner and bertholdt are more of aquantances to you, just because you dont see them as often as you do the others

- she has such a weird relationship with her english professor

- will literally complain how much work he gives his class and then the next day will gush about how great he his bc he gave her a granola bar for her effort in her assignment

- girl pick a script and stick to it 😐🤚

- has a collection of stuffies on her bed. i dont make the rules.

- anytime theres a carnival in town she drags EVERYONE there.

- you all agree to split up into groups so you can all check out what you want, but you always agree to meet up and eat funnel cake together 🥺

- sasha tries to get you to win her new stuffies

- if you cant do it, or just want some for yourself, shes calling connie and niccolo up PLEADING with them to come find you guys,

- then she claims theres been an ACCIDENT and that you two need help

- niccolo is zooming bc he cares abt his besties 😌✨

- connie texts jean and marco to come find you guys too 😭😭😭

- who gets a kick and a lecture for lying courtesy of niccolo ? sasha. but who also gets a bunch of stuffies won for her courtesy of niccolo ? sasha.

- for your anniversary i think she'd want to do something really fun with you

- she'd set up a pillow fort and have a bunch ot string lights and stuff, have all of her favourite stuffies (which are the ones she thinks of you when she sees) in there too.

- she has chips, she baked little pastries and cookies, and she ordered your favourite takeout

- you guys just watch whatever you want on netflix or whatever and its such a nice night

- it becomes a tradition for you guys, but you two always take turns with setup

- one year sasha did all of the planning, baking and whatnot ? okay now its your turn 😁👍

- you guys even started doing themes now 🤩

- if you guys play board games with your friends youre on sasha's side whether you want to be or not.

- shes also the kind of person that says "i can win fair and square !" but then when bertholdt starts kicking her ass in monopoly her script changes real quick 🙄

- now its "y/n,,, give me some of ur money" and "y/n, buy this property for me" like girl,,,, what happened to playing fair 😍⁉️

- will try and do all of those s/o pranks you see on tiktok

- its hard to get a genuine reaction out of you bc you can TELL SHES RECORDING but she tries anyways

- we love a perservering queen 😌✨

- will call you at random times of the day asking if you guys can see each other

- "y/n ??? are you there ??" "sasha its 2am wtf do you want 😐" "do you wanna ride your bike with me down to the park 🥺"

- also is very observant, knows when youre overworking yourself

- will try and pull you away from what youre working on like "lets go get you something to drink, or maybe we can watch an episode of that show you like before you continue working !"

- if youre persistent that you just HAVE to finish it tonight and cant stop and take a break she'll respect that, until you stay at your laptop for over an hour 😐

- just softly pulls you away like "no lovebug, lets get some sleep okay ?"

- is also very protective of you

- overheard someone making fun of you ?? talking shit ??? her besties better hold her back before she gets suspended 😤‼️

- and since connie and jean absolutely ADORE you, you better believe theyre helping their girl sasha out

- those three are the LEADERS of the "protect y/n club"

- it just becomes niccolo and marco trying to dissolve the situation before it gets physical, and then reiner and armin joining when they walk directly into the chaos

- armin tells you what happened and as much as youre thankful that sasha cares about you so much that she'd defend you like that, you lecture her, jean and connie on not making scenes like that again

- sasha's love language is kind of like,, a mixture of quality time and physical touch

- she just really loves spending time with you, but also very much enjoys being in your arms

- she doesnt shy away from it, and is usually the one to initiate those things

- will hold your hand PROUDLY down hallways or on streets

- always hypes you up too, shes very much so your personal hypeman

- "oh lovebug you look SO GOOD rn oh my god" "sasha pls im in my pyjamas" "and you look like a model baby !"

- sasha is very stubborn however, and if you guys ever fight she is NEVER the one to apologize first, or seek you out to talk about it

- even if shes in the wrong she cant bring herself to admit it, she dug herself into such a deep hole with the stance she took that she doesnt want to take the walk of shame in admitting that she wasnt right

- this can cause a lot of problems in your relationship, but after you explain how much it affects you, shes trying to change

- will always work on her stubborn-ness and pride

- and it actually makes her feel a lot better being able to admit defeat, or being wrong

- she really likes being communicative and honest, especially with you

- i think overall your relationship with sasha is very very fun, filled with good memories, good food, good friends, and most importantly, love.

no bc i really do love her 😐🤚 lemme marry miss braus rq 😏✨

hope u guys enjoyed !! remember requests are open so if you have anything youd like me to write DONT BE SHY ❤️‼️

[syubub]

JUNGKOOK SOULMATE READING

Disclaimer: tarot is speculative and to be taken with a grain of salt.

Let's begin. The long awaited Koo reading.

To start, koos energy is a really rich, solid purple that is kinda pearlescent? It hard to explain but it kinda looks like this

So thats pretty neat. Most of the time the way I see energy it isn't ever really opaque so that was new for me. Another thing that was new for me was when I went to, essentially, connect to koos energy there was this like glass door looking thing and, it sounds nuts I know, but I left an offering of energy at the glass thing? Kinda like leaving flowers outside the door and then he removed the glass thing and connected his energy with me.

Now its even weirder because his soulmates energy was already with him so I didn't even need to connect with his energy in order to connect with the soulmate. His soulmates energy was just this white sparkly blob standing by him (I tend to see the boys when connecting with the energy because I already know what they look like) and immediately his soulmate was "chatting" with me. I was surprised so I was like, "do you have any messages that you want to say?"

SOULMATE DELIVERED.

The messages I got were

You'll see

Open your arms to love

Carry the burdens as a badge

Afraid to lose you

Cool cool cool. I think his soulmate is aware of all the upheaval that he's been doing on a soul level recently. I talked some about it in this reading x and kinda this one x I think his soulmate is being very encouraging. (Also, I think his whole upheaval really had to do with him not feeling like a person? Idk thats just the vibe in getting. Its like he needed to learn how to feel again and learn that he can have true and authentic love)

Now the open your arms to love thing is cute because I also wrote down, "He's suffered enough" and "Love is hard for him" (I swear to God I heard a tiny little "hey!" From jk in the background lol)

His soulmate is very aware of the struggles he's been through and is going through and is very understanding that he needs patience. So cute.

Keep in mind the reading hasn't even started yet. We still hanging on his little energy platform chatting and his Soulmate is like, "I don't know him" ... I didn’t even ask that yet but oki. So they don't know eachother. And again, out of nowhere his soulmate wanted me to know that their hair is blonde. Awesome. This could mean that their hair is blonde when they meet or that's just the natural color.

I was like, dude, I haven't pulled cards yet. And his soulmate was like, "no shit"... soulbae has jokes. I was like, "You're funny" and they were like, "You can write that one down too"

His soulmate and him definitely have witty banter and they tease eachother a lot.

Now, some freaky shit. I was like cool I'm gonna do the reading now, its awesome that you're connecting with me personally and it'd be great if you could just continue to help me through the reading. And they were like, "yeah no prob" and then dissolved into my energy? Idk. Wtf. His soulmate was like cool I'll help out for sure and gave me a massive direct link. That hasn't happened before. Neat.

On to the actual cards finally! So, for the cards that represent Soulbae are, kid you the fuck not, The Lovers and knight of wands rev. So. This person is very passionate and driven. A little scattered and impulsive but with the lovers card they are very sure of the choices they make. Very honest and open in communication. Also the fucking lovers card. Soulmate shit.

Now. For personality I drew 2 of swords rev. Death, hermit and knight of pentacles rev. Now. I think this person is elusive. A wrote down "no one quite knows" so I think this is the type of person that has never ending depth. They are ever changing yet always the same? They are kinda blocked off and hard to get to know. You have to earn their trust for sure. Also definitely a perfectionist. Can get bored easily too. I also got slave, knight rev and bully. This person is very strong willed and might have some past trauma that they've yet to let go of. Has probably been in some shit relationships because they tend to have "delusions" about romance (more so i get the feeling that they had high expectations that would never be able to be fulfilled? Like they have a tendency to plan everything out in their head and if it doesn't go exactly to plan then its not good enough.) This person might also be stuck, not moving forward because they have too much faith that everything is just gonna magically work out. Probably spiritual.

Onto the relationship now. We have THE LOVERS AGAIN, 9 of cups, wheel of fortune and king of wands. So much contentment. Its fucking destiny. Its the most beautiful, strong, loving and influential relationship. It is what you dream of as a kid. Theres so much honest and open communication in this relationship. UGH its so fucking good. They are in love and its fucking destiny thats divinely guided. Thank you for coming to my tedtalk.

We have the pillar of light, sisterhood of the rose and the age of light. They are going to accidently make eachother fucking woke im cackling. They help eachother become more intune with ~spiritual shit~

Now for this person's sign. Air sign with some fire. I think there might be gemini in there somewhere.

Now for career. I'm confused as fuck. Maybe a life coach? Could also be a personal trainer? This person is really successful and does whatever they feel called to do? I'm not really sure?

Now for where they're from. Oki oki oki. This person has probably moved a lot as a kid and probably enjoys travel a lot. They value the knowledge that the wold has to offer!

Message from his soulmate to him: simplify your life, you think someone is lying (they are) and time to let go. Theres something that he is holding onto (some fake friends perhaps?) That he needs to let go of. Theres also a message of slowing down and resting. Life has been busy for him and he needs to... simplify...

Now we have, balance masculine and feminine energies. Koo needs balance in his life. Him and his soulmate balance pretty well in terms of energy!

For the little homemade cards we have, serendipity and focus. This is his soulmate saying, "hey, focus on the now. Keep doing what you're doing and we'll meet when the time is right" I also made a note that they could possibly meet at a concert (I don’t think it would be a bts concert.)

For descriptors we have: older, masculine, outgoing, long hair, light hair (remember when I said blonde earlier), outgoing again. So this person has masculine features. I also made a note of dark eyes that are like, dark brown grey? And a fit and built body. Also dresses like Koo but a bit more professional or classy. Like classy emo.

Now I also pulled a fortune from my bowl of fortunes and got, "you don't get in life what you want; you get in life what you are." He needs to focus on bettering himself.

Cool cool cool. Now we have Defend to the end , the worth while. This card talks about seeing things for what they really are. Not being swayed by gilded things. Its about learning to love and choose love. Not being afraid of fear. Living your truth. To fight for love and honor and ditch the shit that isn't genuine or doesn't come from a place of love. Its about standing your ground even when its hard. Not compromising yourself.

Overall koo and his soulmate have such a cute and loving relationship. Koo has worked really hard on a soul level and physical level. He's betting himself and he's learning about genuine love. His soulmate couldn't give less shits about whether or not he's famous. His soulmate sees him for who he is, who he really truly is at his core. He doesn't need to protect or keep his walls up. He's open and honest with his soulmate and they are both focused on growing and becoming better people.

TLDR: KOO GETS ALL THE LOVE HE DESERVES

[wehatejulietsimms]

A/N: i'm gonna respond to this in sections bc it's quite long so bare with me.

Howdy y’all, 🤠 again. Yes, I didn’t in fact die. I’m sorry though that I kept getting sidetracked and couldn’t submit this until now, my boss decided to keep dumping her work into my lap. So I just wanna preface this by stating that I’m going to try and say what I want to as coherent as possible, but I have pretty severe ADHD so I’m not always as easy to understand as I think I am in my head, and I often go off on tangents, over explain things and circle back to topics randomly without realizing. Im basically going to go over their relationship over the years as I said previously (I’m not gonna go into detail about every single scandal and shitty thing Juliet did over the years, because we’d be here all year. so I figure I won’t cover them here, but rather let people ask specific questions if they want to. Remember, I was present for pretty much everything so feel free to ask.😊), but I’m also going to do kind of a mini deep dive into Andy’s behavior and actions (because although the snakes will hit you with every excuse in the book, and tell you that you’re looking too far into things and that it doesn’t matter, it does. The way a person acts in general and towards people around them is very relevant when talking about someone’s health, happiness, and well-being.) To start off, let’s take it all the way back to the time before Juliet’s reign of terror, when Andy and Scout were still together. In all honesty from what I saw of them together (and I saw pretty much everything they posted, I’m only a year younger than Andy, and I was quite into him when he was on MySpace and such, and I always watched anything with him and Scout together because they were fucking adorable lol) they had a really healthy relationship. Not once did I get weird vibes from them. The way Andy acted toward and with Scout, you could tell they really loved each other and were happy together. They had nothing to prove. It just was normal. (For any of you who are younger, or didn’t come into the picture until Andy was already post-scout and would like to see some videos of them together, you could generally search on YouTube for it, but also there’s a specific channel on there called like bring the milk tea or something that has videos of old Andy blogs and also Andy and scout on stickam and such. Worth a look if you’re curious) They weren’t constantly all over each other like possessive pack dogs *ahem Juliet ahem* and whenever Andy mentioned scout he didn’t need to shower her in compliments. They both seemed very secure in both themselves and the relationship. Super cute. Initially when they broke up it seemed quite odd. I didn’t really expect it. It got even weirder when he states that he and Juliet are together. It didn’t feel like they fit together at all (and no I’m not talking about from a fame or success perspective. At least not yet lol) As I’ve said I got bad vibes from Juliet right from the get go. Andy already seemed to be acting not like himself. (Also snakeys have argued that it’s just that he’s more mature now and that’s why he acts nervous and constantly looks Ike he wants to die. 🙄 maturity doesn’t mean losing your fucking personality and being unhappy most of the time. Jesus Christ.) it seemed like they got possessive of each other and constantly needed to show people how in love they were. Pictures, videos, and fucking public love paragraphs to show they are, in fact, in a super real relationship and they love each other. It also felt like Andy’s family was in on this whole weird charade.They (Chris honestly) started to defend her degenerate behavior and attack anyone who had even a whisper of negative things to say about her or their relationship. It was like watching a group of awkward, pretty mediocre actors put on a play about them being together. (I’ve hit the text limit now, but there will be more that I will write just after I submit this one though, fear not haha. N, you can either post this now or wait until I submit the rest, it’s up to you.) 1 / ? -🤠

A/N: i was here for a lot of it as well so i do remember some of this. although i did join the fandom shortly after him and juliet got together (i joined like around the time she was on the voice) i literally remember hoping that him and scout would get back together bc juliet just rubbed me the wrong way and i didn't know why at the time. & side note i actually do recommend people go look at old videos of andy and scout they were really adorable. there is this one video of them singing (i think a carrie underwood song lol) in the car and it's really cute. but yeah just bc he's older doesn't mean his whole entire personality changes. you can be any age and act however you want. i could even use jenna marbles & julien solomita (a youtube couple) as an example, they've been together for i think like 8 or 9 years and are about the same age as A&J (julien being around andy's age & jenna around juliet's age) & although they can have mature adult conversations and all of that, they still act like idiots and joke around together. neither of them look uncomfortable or are afraid of saying certain things like andy is around juliet. so andy aging doesn't mean shit in regards to his personality doing a 180.

🤠okay, so part two here we go. (Also I apologize if I get the chronological order of anything I talk about incorrect, I’m a bit scattered sometimes and the next ask I make will be the one where I talk about the domestic abuse and I tend to get quite heated, which only makes my brain function worse lol) so the point at which Andy was trying to get fans to go vote for/ support Juliet when she was on the voice seemed really fishy. I’m all for supporting the work of the people you love, but it’s kinda strange how hard Andy was pushing this at the time. Too hard in my opinion. I’m obviously aware that it was helpful in the end and he more or less got what he was asking for. But it was like he absolutely needed people to vote for her. As if he would get in trouble if they didn’t. So around 2012 or 2013 it felt like things really went down the shitter from there and just got progressively worse. (I never knew why for the longest time, but after they revealed that Vegas wedding that happened in about that time frame, it made a lot of sense.) Andy’s behavior began to change towards his fans. There are a lot of accounts of this happening from fans themselves and a lot of people said that 1. It was worse with Juliet around, and 2. a lot of the time it would happen towards females especially. ( I think more towards the “pretty” fans but don’t count me on that, I don’t know for sure.) This was completely night and day. Especially coming from the same man who used to always defend his fans and once stated something along the lines of he would never have a crazy or awkward fan story because he loves and is grateful for all of his fans and he won’t get upset if they’re just really excited. I would understand if these fans crossed the line in some way (like the later incident of fans finding his address and harassing them, which is unacceptable no matter who the people are) but from most if not all of the fan stories I’ve heard, they didn’t. They were being respectful and didn’t do anything to warrant this happening to them besides showing up. Which brings me to my next point, a lot of these negative experiences were caused by Juliet. Either she was the one being mean to people, she was causing Andy to be mean to people on her behalf, or her presence was upsetting Andy to the point that he was angry and started being rude and irritable. What scares me the most are the accounts of Andy having a whole Jekyll and Hyde thing, depending on weather or not Juliet was present. Happy when he’s free of her and miserable when he isn’t. In videos of him where Juliet is behind the camera he always seems nervous and strange. Like he’s afraid to mess up. That’s fucking alarming to say the least. You would think that the last thing one would want to do if another person brings them this much anger, stress, and anxiety, the LAST thing they would want to do is fucking marry them. Right? He literally started barely smiling at one point and really doesn’t anymore. I mean for Christ’s sake look at his wedding photos. What’s suppose to be one of the happiest moments of your life and to quote another anon with a different ask, he looks like he’s being dragged to the gallows. (And I get really fucking Angry honestly when snakeys tries to pass it off as “oh he’s awkward he doesn’t know how to smile” or “omg he’s being dramatic for the aesthetics” in some pictures, yes. But why the fuck would you look like that in pictures with the “love of your life” who you now regularly write cringy paragraphs publicly professing your love and complete adoration for? Andy knows how to smile genuinely. Ffs he used to. He smiled genuinely when he was a kid, he smiled genuinely with scout, and he smiled genuinely when Juliet wasn’t around. He doesn’t smile when she is there, and if he does, it is pretty much always visibly fake.) So I may backtrack a little later, but right now I want to talk about the fact that Juliet IS an abuser. More specifically, the plane incident. (Word limit. TBC.) 2 / ? -🤠

A/N: yes. 100%. when it comes to the wedding photos i will never understand people (specifically snakeys) writing off his behavior as him "just being dramatic for the aesthetics". is that something he would do in photoshoots? yeah. is it something he may do on stage? sure. something he would do in an interview? maybe. but candid shots of him on one of the "happiest days of his life"? wtf no. & idk why people think that.

🤠 Just before I start, again, with the pictures, I really don’t think that Andy is enough of a self absorbed egotistical dick that he would actually sit there and put on the whole “miserable tough guy” act in every fucking photo he takes. Ah yes, the infamous plane incident. So straight up, Juliet exposed herself as an abuser, and brought out every bullshit excuse in the book (and made Andy go along with them) to try to cover it up. 1. She was drunk. Honestly this is total bullshit. I say this same thing when people defend cheating or any other degenerate behavior with the excuse of intoxication and I will say it now. Being drunk does not make you a different fucking person. It does not change the thoughts in your head. What it does do is impair your ability to make decisions and judgement skills in general. It’s the same reason why people drive drunk. It’s routine. Its what they would normally do. And because they’re drunk, they can’t see any reason why they shouldn’t do that. Juliet gets drunk, she and Andy fight, she wants to hit him, and because she’s drunk she doesn’t think that she shouldn’t fucking put her hands on him. 2. She hit him in “self defense” and he broke her ribs.(There’s several points I have debunking this) first of all let’s get this out of the way, no one on that plane (including the very real witness who just so happened to be an adult film actress (I think?) who you so love to discount because of it) saw him strike her or even touch her at any time. Two, you are in fucking airplane seats sitting right the fuck next to each other with an armrest in between. It would be pretty fucking hard to break your ribs unless they were made of actual glass, or Andy’s real name is Bruce fucking banner. Bones are surprisingly strong and I’m going to go out on a limb here and say that it’d be damn near impossible for him to do that to you, which brings me to three, if he had broken your ribs you would not be fucking standing up, thrashing around, whining like a little bitch, and oh by the way, continuing to abuse your husband for the second time on that flight. Four, you had a miscarriage. (When I was trying to conceive with my husband it was very difficult. I had two miscarriages before I finally had my son. I’m fully aware of how devastating having one is.) which is why if you are not lying (which I fully believe that Juliet would stoop that low just to get sympathy, especially with this big of a scandal. But I don’t actually have proof of this so I will say that it is just speculation on my part) I don’t fucking care. I am not unsympathetic to her if this did actually happen as I said, however, You do not get to make any excuse for putting your hands on another person out of anger. Ever. I don’t care who you are, I don’t care what kind of stress you are under, I don’t care if you are inebriated in any way and I sure as hell don’t care what the fuck you have between your legs. You do not hurt anyone. Point blank period. Five. You are a woman, you can’t hurt him. This one, actually enrages me. We all know your crusty ass pulled this one out (and threw around trump supporters a few times for good measure) because you know damn well how society and the media views and deals with abusive women. Women can abuse. Women who are shorter or weaker than their target can abuse. The fact that there are people who either don’t know that or don’t agree with that is absolutely baffling. Six. The same (I believe) porn actress. Literally saw you beating your own face with the restraints you had to be put in (which by the way flight attendants only ever use restraints as an absolute last resort when someone becomes a danger to the others on board, so she had to be acting absolutely deranged) to give yourself a bloody nose to claim Andy hit you. Then you proceed to act like a child and tell Andy to call your fucking dad. (Which kinda proves that whole Scientology thing honestly) what in the hell. I stg as long as I am breathing I will never let this go. This is actual fucking domestic abuse. (Word limit TBC.) 3 / ? -🤠

A/N: yeah her hitting him "bc she was drunk" was never a good excuse not only for the reasons you mentioned but, also bc let's be real at no point are you ever going to get served enough alcohol on a plane to make you that drunk i don't care what anyone says. also when it comes to the excuse of him "breaking her ribs" does she forget that andy actually did break his ribs a while ago? i think she even visited him when he was recovering so she should know what kind of pain he was in. & if he actually broke her ribs, there's no way she would have even been able to stand bc i know andy sure wasn't able to. he said it was one of the most painful things he's experienced. (i don't think i need to comment on the rest of this. it would just be redundant. you hit the nail on the head with that.)

🤠 I don’t care if it happened just that one time ore more likely is an everyday occurrence. Abuse is abuse and should never be tolerated. Kind of getting away from the plane thing. Andy always seems, as it’s been said on here before, afraid to mess up. Like he might mess up, and make her mad. A common behavioral pattern in abuse victims. He also at this point and for a decent amount of time before, doesn’t seem like he loves her anymore. Like he keeps up appearances and pretends, but it’s like it’s a job he’s forced to do. He’s tired and burnt out but was probably manipulated into staying and juliet is probably clinging for dear life. Also I don’t know if I’m the only one who thinks this, but I swear, the veganism and sobering up was just a cover up, most likely formed by either Juliet herself or her fucked up family, after the plane incident to hide their tracks and regain some public favor (because you know, if you advocate for animal rights then you can’t abuse your husband 🙃) Andy never gave a shit before though. Even though it was unhealthy he loved to drink and smoke and was very outspoken about that. And he used to never give a fuck about eating meat or consuming animal products like leather. I mean they’re still selling leather goods ffs. I would get having minor fuck ups because you don’t know any better, but it’s fucking leather. And now Andy is unhealthy and miserable as ever, but the culprit is malnourishment and Juliet rather than cigs, alcohol, and Juliet. My final thoughts: I do definitely believe in the Scientology theory, but if not that than I definitely believe that Andy was and is being manipulated for his fame. On several occasions it really looked like they broke up, including the time when they did, and then said it was a joke. It really doesn’t feel normal. Also, Juliet doesn’t really care about Andy that much. She never wears her wedding ring, she sells all their shit, including sentimental items, and now that she’s gained more popularity from being with him, suddenly doesn’t want to put him in her bio or write him the same creepy ass paragraphs or anything. It’s fucked up how shes so keen to say she did it all herself when really she’s been riding dick for fame since before she even met Andy. It also always kinda seemed to me that Amy was kind of uncomfortable around Juliet. We all know that Chris loves to kiss her ass night and day (most likely to do with the Scientology thing “if” it’s true), but Juliet and Amy always seemed to have a weird relationship like it was tense and forced. Also I just want to mention the time that Juliet talked about screaming at the woman over what I believe was a game night and brushed it off as being competitive and no one gave damn. Fucked up. To finish off this already way too long little series, I think Andy is a very vulnerable insecure person who got manipulated by several people (not just Juliet) some of whom he probably really trusted, and they helped to get him in Juliet’s (equally if not more insecure) hands so she could hurt him as she pleases. I truly hope that even now both he, and his parents (even though Chris really grinds my gears) can get out of this whole shit show, relatively unscathed. I know this is probably pretty unlikely, but hope springs eternal I guess. As I said feel free to ask any questions you may have and I will try to answer them best I can. Thank you for reading. 4 / 4 -🤠

A/N: yet again you hit the nail on the head with this part so i don't need to comment too much. other than the fact that i do agree that juliet and amy's relationship does seem weird.

[tamayokny]

Hi idk how long ago you made the post about Tsukki slander but that’s BEEN ON MY MIND TODAY okay I have many thoughts about his character development and don’t know how to explain any of them but forreal I just… he had SO much growth bc he went from “I’m playing this sport to prove how stupid it is” “to wtf I can’t get it right maybe IM stupid” to “eat my dust, shortstacks. Fear me on the court bc I OWN it.”

Anyway

Tsukishima deserves more love and I’m just gonna say it

I made that post last night but yes, Tsuki slander has been on my mind because I have seen so much in the last few days? (Mostly on TikTok, because that app is wild when it comes to anime LOL.) And I'm like, but why though? Yes he's a bit blunt and his words can be blithing, but he's not as bad as people think he is. He's just someone who was hurt and, as you point out, was like "ah, screw this sport, I'm just trying to prove a point" but as the series progresses, we see that he actually does care about the sport and how he is perceived by others (it's the inferiority complex/low self esteem). Like, he brushes off volleyball and his teammates because he was afraid to actually enjoy something (besides dinosaurs, lol I love him). He was afraid that if a(nother) negative experience happened, it would have ruined his interest. He also thinks of himself as inferior to his other teammates (eg, Hinata) and that inspires him to be better! We see this, especially during and after the Tokyo training camp arc. Honestly, he tried to close himself off so he couldn't be hurt and to avoid disappointment. As someone who has been disappointed, many times as a child, it hurts, makes you not want to convey how you really feel, and it haunts you for years.

I know I addressed this in the tags of my post, but people need to stop invalidating Tsuki's experience with his brother. Akiteru lied to him, and for children, that really hurts. Especially when you defended your brother, calling your peer the liar when it turns out that they were right. That stings, and to have someone you look up to not telling the truth also hurts. And this is speculation on my end, but @sheepgirly and I have conversed about how most of the characters come from seemingly unconventional/single-parent homes, and we believe that Akiteru was the man of the house, meaning that their dad wasn't in the picture. If you believe in this/factor that in, you can really understand why Tsukishima felt betrayed by his brother.

Okay that was long and I didn't cover everything, but I enjoy Tsukishima Kei and I love his development. IMO, people need to 1) actually stop and analyze what is happening and why it happened and 2) they need more compassion for others! Yes, I know this is all fiction, but it observing how others think and feel about characters can tell you how they would feel about others irl and honestly...if you slander Tsukishima I do not want to be your friend. Screw them, he's my friend now!

[worstloki]

Part 3

Fury: I cannot believe the Avengers No. 1 unattainable criminal right now is a seventeen-year-old twink Clint: I can’t believe you’re calling Loki a twink Tony: I can’t believe he's been the legal godparent of kids his own age for months and I didn't realise Steve: You didn’t get him removed? I thought you made Rhodey their legal godparents instead?? Tony: nah I removed Thor Natasha: ?? why would anyone do that ?? Fury, having a breakdown: we nearly lost New York and the entire world to a 16-year-old twink with daddy issues Clint: yoU just did it aGAIN- Tony, the only actual Avenger who knows Loki isn’t actually evil™: heY! Daddy issues are a serious thing! Don’t make fun of the guy for having a crisis and finding out his life was a lie and he’d faced over a millennium of abusive environment for nothing!  Avengers: are you… defending Loki… the megalomaniac WAR CRIMINAL who turned every SHIELD facility into ice cream earlier today…? Tony, hands up in surrender: I’m saying maybe we shouldn’t be so quick to judge the guy. I wouldn't be able to guess what but maybe he had an ulterior reason for the New York fiasco? His normal stuff is usually harmless.  Avengers: ... Tony: What? It could’ve been much worse. Strange, rolling his eyes: Yes, at least it wasn’t Stark Raving Hazelnuts Loki, who has been standing at the back listening to the entire conversation: That flavour is way too chalky to suit SHIELD anyways [everyone turns to Loki with their weapons ready, except Tony of course] Loki, raising his hands in surrender: what? A Hunka-Hulka Burning Fudge is way better, and its green, and for some reason they didn’t have a Loki flavour so that was the next best option-

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Loki: hey Morgan what would you say if i offered you an officially evil part-time job with decent pay and extremely good evil workplace benefits? Morgan: do you offer evil dental? Loki: of course?? we also have A-Grade coffee 24/7 because top class extremely good evil deserves only the best Morgan: Excellent! I look forward to working with your evil team and being a part of your nefarious schemes and plots in future Loki: Thank you. Tomorrow we replace all Tony's vehicles with incredibly realistic wax models. Morgan: ...including the jets? Loki, scoffing: what kind of amateur villains would we be if we left his jets, boats, bikes and single vintage helicopter untouched Tony: its 4am can you maybe not have this conversation right next to me in my own workshop?!

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Tony: I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU WOULD REPLACE THEM WITH WAX MODELS Morgan: What kind of low-grade predictable villainous evil doers would we be if we did what we said we would Tony: oh $#!^ now you're speaking like him too Loki, cutting his shoulder to reveal cake: Just so you know, it wasn’t JUST the vehicles ;)

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Peter: *following loki around with a notepad* Loki: Terribly sorry if you mind but he's MY intern now. Tony: You don’t think there’s anything wrong with what you’re doing, do you? Loki: I don’t think anything I’ve ever done is wrong Peter:  *avidly taking notes and nodding along*

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T’challa: I cant believe you filed an application for ‘time off’ Shuri: I NEED at least 3 hours a week reserved specifically for training if I want to keep my part-time job T’challa: you don’t NEED a job! You make up 90% of Wakanda’s research and development departments! Your technology work IS a job! Shuri: yeah well my ACTUAL job is fun and has proper work benefits and I simply must empty the time blocks I specified for it! You wouldn’t stop me from meeting with Peter and Morgan would you? They ARE, legally and spiritually speaking, my siblings, brother :) T’challa: what job could you have that would need you reminding me that a mischief deity adopted you before telling me what the job actually is Shuri: The official position is called Secretary of Evil but that’s only for the probationary 2 week period and I’m allowed to request a name change if I think of anything better T’challa: T’challa: you are working as a SECRETARY?! Shuri: The job pays well, Brother, T'challa:  T'challa: mother will be so disappointed

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Scott: I can’t believe you did that Maggie: I didn’t know he was a supervillain! OBVIOUSLY! Scott: how would you noT KNOW! He wears nothing buT LEATHER and BELTS and GREEN BOOTS AND- Maggie: I needed someone to watch her and she showed up in pink sweatpants and a black tank top and was charging a decent rate Scott: Scott: are you sure their name was loki

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Clint: you told me it was a ‘family gathering’! Tony: yeah, it is, and the avengers are family Clint, pointing at Loki: so what’s the twink doing here and why are MY kids along with every other person here who is under drinking age clinging to him like a frickin’ koala bear Tony: morgan wanted to get her ‘the floor is lava’ badge and loki was the only one immune to the lava so they jumped him - and he enjoyed walking around covered in them way more than he should have -  and also loki is legally peter and morgan and harley and shuri’s godparent so he’s allowed to be here on more of a basis than anyone else here at this point Clint: There was LAVA near MY KIDS?! Tony: no of course not – it was FAKE lava that just looked and functioned like real lava Clint: im taking them all home Tony: good luck convincing them not to want another playdate Clint: this isn’t a joke Tony Tony: I’m serious. Good luck. The kids love him, and you’ll need all the luck you can get if you want them to ever root for the side of good instead of wherever-loki-is-at instead. 

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Pepper: *watching the news* Pepper: oh hey the Avengers are on Peter, running into the room: woW NICE Pepper: wtf why is Hulk wearing giant boxing gloves Peter: Language! Pepper: is Steve's shield padded?! Peter: i don’t remember that being normal Pepper: did most of the Avengers just ditch Steve? Why’re they leaving Peter: I guess the danger must be over? Pepper: WHAT is going ON out there today Peter: I think Loki had planned an attack today so maybe he did it as a joke Pepper: oh they're facing Loki yeah okay that explains it Peter: Loki always does the funniest things of course he baby-proofed all the Avenger's gear! Classic Loki! :D

-meanwhile-

Captain America, tears streaming down his face: pl,,ease, loki,, stop,t his, I cant hit ,,a child Loki: Look at you, the American icon, unable to save all these innocent people from having their skin turn into primary colours, all because you are TOO AFRAID to fight me! Captain America: I’m a national icon, not a good soldier but a good man, I will do whatever it takes to keep innocents safe, but I can NOT beat up someone who isn’t even legal enough to vote Loki: I was around causing chaos before this ‘voting’ was even invented! And I’ll NEVER legally vote even if I could!! mwahahAHAHA- Falcon, to Bucky in the background: How did we not realise he was a teen, all his comebacks are ‘no u’ and ‘uno reverse card’ and ‘look over there!’ Bucky, to Falcon: I don’t know but I really really want to know where he gets his outfits from Falcon: if it means I’ll be seeing you geared up in leather again then I want to know where he gets his outfits from too ;‘) Thor: I think my brother makes his own outfits Loki, still tormenting Captain America: *SISTER Thor: ah, my bad Captain America, crying x2: wait does this mean I’ve been lobbing my shield at not just a child, but I’ve been misgendering them while doing it?! Loki: only occasionally and I don’t blame you that was on me for monologuing too long, really— Captain America, taking off the helmet: nope I’m done Loki: what are you doing Steve, handing Sam the shield: It’s yours. Enjoy. Sam: woah woah woah what’re you doing you cant retire just like that  Steve, unzipping his suit to reveal American flag boxers: watch me Bucky to Sam: hello new best friend Sam, realising that Cap and Bucky are a duo: oh no no no STEVE is your best friend Bucky: he hasn’t been my ‘best friend’ since I saw him with the American flag splayed over his butt Loki, holding his hand out for Sam to shake: Hello there new Captain America its nice to meet you formally, my name is Loki and yes I’m a child but I’m actually 1075 but that is irrelevant if I’m causing trouble and looking for a fight, I’m also genderfluid so yes sometimes my pronouns will be different but I’ll be sure to inform you if it happens Sam: what are you doing Loki: I’m… formally introducing myself Sam: Sam: why?? Loki, blinking to hide that he’s getting teary eyed: well, the last national icon I didn’t do this with ditched me because I didn’t Bucky, a trained assassin, who isn’t a fool: *hugs loki* that wasn’t your fault steve just likes to carry the stupid with him Loki: thanks Bucky: is this a bad time to ask where you get your clothes from…? Loki: I make them Bucky: oh. Well $#!^. Loki, sniffing: if you join the dark side I’ll make you some too Bucky, immediately: done. Sam: JAmES Bucky deadpan: Yes, Samuel, what is it that troubles you, my new arch nemesis? 

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Sam: HE TOOK BUCKY Natasha: What do you mean ‘he took bucky’ he’s standing right next to you Sam: He’s “infiltrating the enemy” Natasha: *lifts an eyebrow and looks to Bucky* Bucky: It’s true. My loyalties lie elsewhere now. Natasha: ??? Bucky: note to self – unexpected outcomes confuse the black widow. Natasha: how did this happen?? Sam: he SOLD himself out to the ENEMY Natasha: well when you say it like THAT ;) — Bucky: I think friendship is a decent price to pay for decent clothing Natasha: ??? Sam: oh also I’m Captain America now because Steve broke down and quit Natasha: ?!?!?!

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Peter, entering the room and high-fiving Loki: I heard you got Mr. Bucky to switch teams! Loki: well, my fashion skills ARE legendary Tony, under his breath: he’s not even trying and he’s gotten every kid and the freaking winter soldier on his side and I am so so grateful he isn’t actually TRYING to make everyone go bad

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Bucky: we’ve been over this Steve, Loki is young but he’s also over a thousand years old Steve: I was beating up a KID, Bucky, a kid who was SMALLER and WEAKER than everyone else where he lived but wouldn’t EVER turn down a FIGHT for what he BELIEVES IN and he was probably BULLIED and I wanted the guy DEAD, Bucky– Bucky: don’t forget the genderfluidity thing Steve: he said it wasn’t my fault but I should’ve asked Thor after he referred to Loki as ‘she’ instead of thinking he’d made a mistake and I just can’t – he isn’t even old enough to DRIVE or VOTE or DRINK or BUY A KNIFE or -- Bucky, holding Steve and patting his back: hey now, there, there, it’ll be okay, Bucky: *gives Loki a thumbs up as he sits on the couch with popcorn and watches Steve be miserable*

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Loki: We need to get through this locked door. Tony, quick, give me your card! Tony, handing the card over: Take it! Loki, pocketing it: Thanks! Morgan, fire at the door Morgan: *pulls out an iron man gauntlet painted green and gold* Tony: hOW COULD you deface YOUR BIRTHDAY PRESENT with GREEN Morgan: MINE is still being used as a paperweight. This is one of YOUR gauntlets.   Tony, under his breath: maybe it’s not too late to burn the physical evidence and hack Loki’s name off the digital copies of the adoption forms Loki, whispering back: oh its definitely too late. I’m already on your christmas card and everything.

[angelhummel]

could you rank the degrassi next class characters?

gladly!! also sorry in advance if you love any of the characters im about to shit on lol

20. Frankie Hollingsworth. Almost had her second to last but. No. Klu Klux Fran?? The ZOO?? I can't even talk about her she's just so damn annoying and racist and omg. And she was being pushed as the new Main Girl which made everything all the more offensive and unbearable

19. Esme Song. Sorry but I do not think she had a single redeeming trait. She had nothing she stood for, no actual character beyond being an antagonist to every single other person on the show. Like she thinks Shay is stupid for being embarrassed about getting her period on her boyfriend's pants, and yet she calls Yael disgusting for having armpit hair?? So what's the truth? And people are like "well she's mentally ill" to excuse all she does. Well Maya is mentally ill and Esme makes fun of her too. So who's side are we on? Like I would've liked to see her get help and develop but we didn't get that so.

18. Hunter Hollingsworth. Terrorist. Not even interesting enough to be an actual school shooter. Just a waste of a character. Sexist, violent, had a plot about wanting to play video games at school. I'm so bored. Only not at the bottom bc I feel like he wasn't in my face as much

17 & 16. Baaz Nahir & Vijay Maraj. Thing 1 and Thing 2 to the would be school shooter. Clowns. They were a terrible group and I cringed any time they had a plot together. Annoying together, useless on their own. Hard pass

15. Yael Baron. The final member of the above group. Was mostly boring and annoying and especially dumb for being romantically interested in Hunter. Only gets bonus points for their coming out as nonbinary plot. After their makeover I was literally crying

14. Jonah Haak. Mostly disliked him for being in a relationship with Frankie. Like I'm sure they were only a year or two apart but he felt so much older than her. It was gross. And mostly he's just really blah. The attempt at a straight edge character at that point was. Hilarious. at least.

13. Winston Chu. Seemed harmless at first but idk all the boys were shifted high into clown mode when this show hit netflix. The incident with the geisha and Japanese soldier costumes? Defending Zoe against Esme? Then later telling Goldi maybe she should take her hijab off to cause less of a fuss? Bruh.

12. Saad Al'Maliki. Honestly I felt like he was the one with the most braincells most of the time. Probably pissed me off the least. But he was also in the least amount of episodes and didn't make much of an impression on me. Was mostly just boring. But I'll take boring over everything that came before

11. Lola Pacini. Degrassi has a knack for introducing the worst and most obnoxious characters and then eventually making you love them. Lola was not quite that. I hated her for the longest time but it decreased a bit near the end. I got emotional when she had her abortion. And when she gave Yael their makeover. And when she reached out to Saad and convinced him not to leave. I feel like I could've grown to like her more if the show went on, but again... Oh also I hate her and Miles together sorry

10. Grace Cardinal. Ugh Grace is confusing to me. I wasn't the biggest fan of her story with Zoe. I mean sure you're allowed to hook up with someone and then realize "oh that's not for me" but it was handled so awkwardly. Like she slept with Zoe just to be like "damn i hate when everyone thinks i'm a lesbian :/" like why. Idk she was fine but I'm not over the moon about her

9. Goldi Nahir. Ugh okay I feel like they didn't know what to do with her. Like she had the plotline about if she should take off her hijab or not. And she had to teach the poor whities about racism. That was about it? She was adorable and sweet and a bright spot in the show but ugh she deserved better than what she was surrounded with lol

8. Shay Powers. Again, it's not her fault she's stuck in a show written by 70 year old white people. But the black girl is completely oblivious to the racism of her friend? She has to ask her dad if a racist thing is really racist? She's never experienced racism? Ok Degrassi. They treat all their black girls like shit and I feel like I just stan them out of spite bc of that lol. But she's cool and a nice person and she's into sports so she's at least doing stuff

7. Rasha Zuabi. Another generally nice and cool character that I have positive feelings for. Also she was gay so yay. Loved her story with Zoe. I think there was just one moment where I was like "wtf are you doing" but compared to everyone else it's not a big deal

6. Zig Novak. I have to admit that all my enjoyment of his character comes from before Next Class. He was such a sweetie and then he left and came back acting dumb as hell. That was not my boy in Next Class. But ahhh he's still my boy sorry I love him <3

5. Deon "Tiny" Bell. Basically the same as Zig above. But I feel like he maybe had a few less moments of being an asshole? Also his promposal for Shay was cute <3 Wait didn't he also date Lola? Wasn't a fan of that either.

4. Zoe Rivas. She was the one dressed up as a geisha lol (: Oh boy Next Class was something else. Umm it was nice to see her process of accepting herself as a lesbian. I feel like it took forever tho. Which is understandable irl but this is a tv show lol. I didn't enjoy her sucking Zig off in the woods. Not fun. But her relationship with Rasha was one of my fave things about NC

3. Tristan Milligan. The amount of hate Tristan gets is faaaar too much. He's one of my favorites of the whole show honestly. I think he's funny and dramatic and a great addition to the show. But he gets knocked down bc I can't remember anything he did in Next Class other than BEING IN A FUCKING COMA FOR A WHOLE SEASON. He's already Owen's brother, he's suffered enough. But I love his relationship with Miles. And him helping Zoe accept herself

2. Miles Hollingsworth. Yes another character I wasn't fond of at first. Hated his relationship with Zoe and thought he was just boring. Truthfully I think I only became interested when he started dating Tristan lol. Plus omg with his family?? It's a miracle he got out at all. He went through so much bullshit and he was especially going through it in Next Class. He was kind of a hot mess but also I just care a lot about him. He deserves the world <3

1. Maya Matlin. Is Maya really my fave?? I guess so! Yet another character I wasn't fond of at first. Which is insane bc we just got to the part in our rewatch where she first shows up and I'm like !!! baby girl!! So precious!!! And I wanted to cry thinking of what she's about to go through. I feel like her character is treated with some of the most respect and care. Her motivations and mental health decline all make sense storywise. I just care a lot about her and got super emotional watching everything in her story, especially the later parts in NC

Wow this is a lot!! But I hope you enjoyed my ranking and explanations lol. Also like. Everyone was racist. Everyone was mentally ill. That was the whole show. It was a hot mess and truth be told I am not a fan. Even the characters I love, they were acting weird here. Like I said about Zig and Tiny and their character regression. And I think it was the same for like Tristan and Zoe and plenty of others too. Everyone was off, idk how to explain it. But that's my ranking for the hot mess that was Next Class!!

Thank you for the ask, ily <3

[stanfrankdrake]

my hot take on this coming from an east asian background:

i’m probably definitely going to get a lot of shit for this. but i’m going to share what i think. however in no way shape or form am i defending what those actors said, i just want to share my opinion.

i’m open to discussion :)

tw: r*pe, fatphobia

so, the bl world is in flames. cool.

if ur not caught up to what’s happening i’m not going to summarize so come back.

okay so i moved to an western country when i was young but i’ve been back and forth to my homeland a few times. i grew up with parents and grandparents who lived in an east asian country their whole life, and i’m still exposed to u know asian mannerisms, jokes, trends, and all that.

let me just say that asia and the western world are VERY different. and i mean EXTREMELY. in a sense that asia is still quite behind in the times. what i’m trying to say is that here in like a western country it is common to us that making r*pe jokes, fat shaming, and racism is not acceptable (because it’s disgusting and not right)

but in a lot of east asian countries, a lot of their slangs and sayings and jokes are based off of derogatory terms and meanings. in my language when you curse someone you usually curse their mother or younger sister saying like you’ll “fuck them” in a r*pe way? (i cant explain it) or if you want to insult someone you call them a r*pist basically. it’s kind of like us saying bitch or motherfucker. i have no idea why that’s the translation. there’s different words we would use to actually call someone a r*pist or to describe sexual violence, or just context is needed.

i remember some international students in my car were calling each other “r*pists” as a joke and i was legit so shocked but my dad had no reaction and i asked him like wtf and he had no idea why i gave that reaction, but he explained that it was just a common insult.

additionally, being skinny and white is the ideal standard in east asia unfortunately. whenever i go back to the motherland my relatives ALWAYS tell me that i’m too fat and i need to lose weight, it’s the first thing they say when they see me, but also praise me for being so pale. half of me is hurt but also the other half knows that it’s just something asian people say.

like my cousin straight up said “omg why are u so fat” and i was like wtf you can’t say that. and she was so confused about what i was talking about. bc it’s just something they do in east asia.

i think what im trying to say is, yes we’re mad that they said and did those things. and what they did was wrong. but again, asia is super behind and different in many ways from western culture.

i think we should all take this time to educate them on why it’s not okay, considering that they have a lot of international fans. we should take this opportunity to influence a big portion of asian media so they can be caught up and be better people :)

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but krist can go fuck off ive never liked him hes straight up homophobic.

[aidenoes]

Im kinda bored so this is a little story time about a toxic best friend i had for many many years

Tw : s*lf-h*rm, s*icid*l thought, forced coming-out

To make the story easier let's call her Fish.

So... it started in primary school, i had moved out into a new city when i was in 3rd grade. That's when i first met her and we never really talked much. Then came 5th grade when we actually became friends.

And middle school happened and that's when everything went downhill real fast. In 6th grade i was still friend with her and i tried to get along with her other friend who was a bitch at that time, and i was too, so we never got along (even tho she is now my best friend bc we realised how much Fish was toxic lmao). So i had made new friends and she had too but we still made up over time and the other girl wasn't hanging out with us anymore.

Moving on to 7th, there was a new girl that came at the school at the beginning of the school year (who is also my bestfriend, props to her for staying with me all these years) and Fish immediately started talking to her. Eventually we have a group of 5 friends :me, her, our boyfriends and the new girl. The thing is that there was a trend of s*lf-h*rming yourself just to pretend to be depressed and sad, and Fish was one of the people who followed that trend. Me, being an absolute idiot, had no idea of the gravity. Well, i mean, i knew it was bad but my bestfriend was doing it so it's fine right ? No, it was not and i almost gave in to but i was afraid to harm myself so i never did. And that example is just to show how much i copied her, i destroyed my relationship bc i wanted to be like her and my ex-boyfriend was so good to me. Her relationship was like an light switch, you never knew when they were back together or not. We also had a skype group and messenger group of just three people: me, her and the new girl. Me and the new girl would badly roleplay and she would tell me, and only me, that i was cringy and leave the group chat like that. And i had no right to tell her i didn't like something about her, but she could though ? I let it slip anyway. I thought i was really happy, then came the worst year of my school life.

8th grade. At this point, Fish and her boyfriend had broken since he apparently abused her (im not sure since she is prone to lying) but i was still in good terms with him. Well we were not the best of friends but i wouldn't punch him (now i would bc he became such a fucking dick). But Fish started to become distant, as if she didn't want me around anymore but i ignored it thinking it was all in my head. One day, our teacher assigned us new places in class and i was next to her ex-boyfriend. We of course talked in class and laughed together. But out of nowhere, she started doing the sign where you slit your throat with your finger, y'know ? I thought she was doing it for kidding and i was just really confused, it was break after that class anyway so i can ask her wtf that was. She came to me and thought i was plotting against her with her ex-boyfriend and just told me to go fuck myself basically. I waited for my now ex-boyfriend and my friend to come-out of their class and explained to them what happened while containing my tears. They tried to go to her and try to understand wtf went wrong and funfact: nothing went wrong and she was just being a bitch and i later learned she just wanted to move on and discard everything from the past year, including me. But i didn't know that, i thought i broke everything, i thought i broke our group friend, i felt guilty and i felt, alone. My boyfriend that got out of school just before me went to my mom that was there to come pick me up, that i wasnt really well and he went away when i got out. My mom did ask me what was wrong and i told her that i'll explain when we're home. At home i explained everything and broke down in my moms arm, i dont know if i cried out of anger or sadness, but seeing me cry was enough for my mom to hate her with all her guts. I've felt so lonely after that. I had no one to eat lunch with, i had no one to be in group in class with and i had no idea of how to occupy my brain when i had no one to talk to, i read in the morning waiting for the friends i had left, i would draw whenever i had to wait alone and i would eat fast to get out the fastest possible. I also lost everything i was since at that time i was like a sponge of personality and just squeeze out whatever the personality people wanted out of me. I had lost everything and i didn't want to be here anymore, i just wanted to die honestly. And i think i wouldve if i didnt think there was my family and my friends. However, it does not end here ! Bc my dumb ass made so many more mistakes ! Bc one day in our technology class i had to work with her for an assignment and we gradually made up until we became friend again, but i was still wary of her and my s*icidal thoughts were still very present. So i was still very toxic and pushing the people that were there for me away. My boyfriend broke up with me. I didnt know what to do, but looking back this was such a good decision for him and for me. I am so thankful for him to have broke up with me, but at that moment i was a bit hurt but at the same time i saw it coming so i had so time to grief about it. A month later my mom decided to bring me to Mauritius (where she is from) bc she thought i had a hard time no having her around for the first time which is kinda true but not all the truth. I had no wifi and no way of contacting anyone. That was so refreshing ! That's when i started to understand that i had the right to think for myself first and not be a fucking carpet for everyone to walk on. I was not out of the shit but i started to understand how to get out.

9th grade, was my savior. This was the best year of my life with nothing to worry about except an exam at the end. You remember the girl in 6th grade that was a bitch ? Yeah we became close friends during that year bc i realised she was a bitch bc she was badly influenced on in 6th and 5th grade. And the new girl remember her ? That's also the year when we got close, the year where we became best friends, when i learned to be and love myself and the year when i started to stand up for myself. I have some bad daddy issues and i have almost always shared my problems with Fish but i started sharing less toward the end of 8th grade. One day i was complaining that i had to be basically the messenger bird of my parents and she looked at me annoyed and tell me 'why don't you go to the police ?'. Like we didnt ??? Like she thinks that my dad was harassing my mom and we didnt ?? That's basically saying 'don't be' to someone who is sad. And i explained that to her and she was like 'don't complain to me if you're going to flip off like that when im giving you a solution', excuse me bitch... what ? I was hella mad. She came fake apologising like a few weeks later. And one day she came out to me as pansexual, great for her, and i was also questionning my gender and thought i was genderfluid so i came out to her. She was like 'oh ok' and i sent her some memes about genderfluidity and she was like 'stop this is annoying'. So i shut my trap. I also learned that during a school i didnt went she faked some anxiety and was being a bitch bc her friend wouldnt come to a shop with her even so another one was ok with going with her. I eventually started to understand that she was bad for my mental health, so i just started ghosting her bc i just didnt want to talk with her anymore and i didnt know how to confront her. She came up and grabbed and pulled me by my backpack that was full of shit just to ask me why i didnt answer to one of her text. I was so scared i just told her i wasnt feeling well and just told her i needed time. The year went by it was great and i didnt want to be in cold with Fish but i also didnt want to be her friend, i wanted to just be classmates, however when she was told this she understood : 'they want to be friend again'. So she clung with us next year.

10th grade, was last year and was full of drama. And we only had 6 months of school. 10th grade is the first year of highschool and the only year where we don't have an exam. I also had a forced new friend that we're going to call Taz so we don't get mixed up. She was also very clingy and it felt like having a leech stuck to me. And Fish was being very, let's say embarrassing and making us feel uncomfortable. She would make ton of sexual joke and we told her it was making us uncomfortable but she would apologise just to do it again the week later so we just gave up. She also outed me in class, thankfully the class was really noisy and only my bestfriend heard it but this fucking bitch just asked outta nowhere 'so you're still on this whole thing about being genderfluid or what ?' And she wasnt talking low, she was talking loud and clear. I felt so embarras and i hoped that no one else heard it. I answered as very quietly 'no.. i think im genderqueer now' and she just said ok. That's also around when i discovered im bi so i was so glad that i didnt tell her about that. And a few months later there was some shit going around about bullying and Fish was one of the targets. And let's say that our english teacher held up a trial so i opened up my big ass mouth to talk and defend Fish. And guess what, Taz just blurted out that i and my best friend were bullying her. Excuse me ? I defended her ass and when i talked to her about it she told me 'no you didnt, you just yelled at me once in physics'. So bc i yelled at her bc she wouldnt listen to me when we had to work i bullied her ? What a thank ! And when i tried to talk it out with Taz, she fucking ignored me and left. I was enraged. I was crying out of fucking rage and still aced a test in english. At the end i explained everything to my crush while i was walking home with her bc she lived next to my moms restaurant. When i stepped into the restaurant, there was my moms friend, which im kinda close to, and my mom who asked me how was my day i cried out of anger. They comforted me and supported me. At school, one day the assistant director called me and my best friend in his office. And told us that in highschool there are no bullying only misunderstandings (i dont really agree with that but anyway) and asked us our side of the story. We explained that we didnt get along with her anymore and made it very clear that we were uncomfortable with her but she wouldnt take a hint. And we left the office just like that. The assistant director probably told Fish our side and she never went to talk with us bc of covid.

Now, im in 11th grade, we do not talk anymore and this feel so much better. Now i'll just drop some bonus drama

She accused me of drowning her when it was her ex-boyfriend that did and made her scared of water, while i was there to support her when she was dealing with her phobia.

And her mom thought that i was a bad influence for her sweet sweet daughter when she was the one to incite me to c*t myself like paper, wow ok.

This is just a personal share and just maybe a way for others to recognise the toxic behaviors of fake friends.

[adam-is-suffering]

Homestuck Day 11 ------ part 2

Dialogues are so long you can tell theres a big difference in length between this post and the one before it jesus christ

Anyways

Its Dave. Missed you, my guy.

Even if its been like idk, 15 pages, I still missed my homie.

Indulge him, John. This happens every single time. You always ignore his attempts at getting your attention 😔

John you literally joked about ending the world and there being a meteor named after you before you knew it was literally going to happen, so I don’t exactly expect Dave to believe you

John: Dude you don’t even believe me about my current situation and you don’t even care that Im in trouble smh fake friend

Also John: Im not actually going to talk to you about it, and I will evade every conversations with you whenever the topic finally gets discussed because Im busy, so technically you have no idea whats going on currently and I havent explained it so I just expect you to believe my one sentence of “Im getting blown up” even after joking about it ok bye

John is getting blown up and Dave is like, huh perfect time to rap about this

Which is the obvious response. What friend would you be if you didn’t do this?

Oh god oh fuck, he’s going off, he really did it, he’s really rapping about the end of the world and there’s no stopping this kid shit ah shit its the end for us oh god oh fuck

Is this what its like to be friends with a soundcloud rapper?

Dave what?

Dave, thats gay

Thats not how typos work dave, because since youre writing it still, you can.. Fix it...

Wait, is... he comparing them to Jesus?

Im not even sure this is english

Huh

Ok

Can I just say something?

Dave knows the cast of Armageddon and their roles a little too well in this rap. Because I kinda don’t remember the plot of Armageddon even having watched it, and I honestly completely forgot that Steve Buscemi was in the fucking thing in the first place, so honestly. I’m not saying Dave watched it but I want to believe he did. Either John made him, John talked about it so much to the point where Dave had to know what the hell he was talking about with the references (which also brings in the point that perhaps John talked about it so much that Dave knows the whole plot already from just that - more likely) OR he watched it ironically bc it was “bad”. But no matter the reason, I’m pretty sure after knowing John and his interests, Dave probably watched it at SOME point in time and then continued to talk about it bc he knows John likes it despite saying its for “irony”.

Aight lit, thats my hot take. Thats my headcanon. And with that, I’m out.

I stand with what I previously said.

I hope this is still part of the rap, or he’s just doing a rapping monologue. 

You know, Dave’s kind of great ngl

Dave’s not even subtle in his desire to talk with John

Also IM RIGHT, you see. Dave doesn’t even know wtf is going on because John Doesnt Fucking Talk To Him Unless Its About His Movies

No wonder hes whipped, and rapping about said movies

Soulless fucking John Im telling you

They’re really doing Dave dirty in the first acts of Homestuck, huh

Kid can’t even defend himself

Rose highjacked a car before, I’m like 100% certain of this

IM LAUGHING MY FUCKING ASS OFF

Rip the car

Another retcon. Ill figure it out one day, Hussie. I fucking will. Watch me.

Im real sus

Im starting to feel so fucking bad for Dave, this kid is just getting shitted on left and right lmfao

AHA

I was getting bored of the red, purple and blue

Johns not gonna explain one bit of it, is he?

What did I FUCKING say

Wait. Does the dog fucking TALK???????????

She’s taking this rather smoothly for someone who just said they lost their car in a bottomless pit

“I can’t talk right now, Dave, I’m busy. I can’t explain jackshit to you bc itll take too long and I already gave u the basis. Oh? Whats this? Jade? Lol here lemme give you my whole life story”

Why does everyone fucking hate Dave?

I DONT GET IT???

I get he raps, but like.. we all have that one friend doesnt mean u gotta ignore :/

Im surprised John hasnt snapped yet from all this stress, I wonder how much he’s bottling in.

Oh. Okay. Okaokaok. So Jade is one of those Im so cute personality types but actually likes heavy metal and listening to murder podcasts on the down low, isnt she?

Honestly ngl, the cute but will murder you type characters are usually the most interesting to me. 

I mean. thats just me being a slut for character tropes 😔

Jesus, John, just ask him, I’m pretty sure he’d do anything if you just said smth about it

I can’t wait for someone to respect Dave Strider and his pining smh, but honestly itll only happen with one person and that person will most likely be Jade Harley bc she doesnt see the worst in anybody and thats why Im liking her rn

Rose will call bullshit and John just doesnt give a fuck

N e ways. When are we getting dialogues that arent exclusively with John?

[swearronchanel]

8.03

proceed with caution lol i have comments 

ok late start bc I wasn’t gonna do this but im following grace and frankie as this is the year of “fuck it”

MS VIOLET BUCKLE YASS

“.. and we must move forward, fueled my faith” ❤️

“Congratulations mum” MY HEART

Trixie’s cringe omg

Oo Cyprus, I wanna go

Why is Sister Frances smiling while saying all this? LMAO

Trixie can say anything and I’m just like “YAS QUEEN”

send the truant gremlins to school lmaoo

“Feel free to take it up with him” CLAP BACK WAS SUBTLE BUT STRONG lol like back up Ms Higgins

If only it was that easy to get people now at day’s to vaccinate their kids so these old ass diseases can stop coming back  

“Quite” LMAO shelagh’s face 😂 but also she’s a hypocrite if she doesn’t 🤷🏼‍♀️ no shade just facts

At least they’ll finally give Teddy his 5 seconds of fame 😂

Such a Caribbean family thing to always ask if you have a boyfriend LMAO like no mind ya neck

I love Leonie’s Jamaican accent she’s so good at it

Phyllis my sovereign I’ve missed you

how is teddy like 12 already? LMAO - or does every kid look huge in Laura’s arms?

🔊this is why you have to vaccinate your gremlin kids bc young babies can’t get them🔊

“Like Kirk Douglas” excuse me while I throw up ((he’s a rapist sorry not sorry))

Damn that clef pallet looks real, technology is wild

this lady’s kitchen is dreamy omg

but I’m assuming she must have lost a baby/child before ? there’s gotten be something that has her super anxious

Phyllis as Akela is the best

ASSISTANT CUBMASTER! NO THIS OLD REJECT MARX BROTHER DIDNT LMAOO

TRIXIE LOOKING LIKE A BAD BI*CH

OK BUT ME LMAO I CANT WEAR CHANCLAS WITH OUT A PEDICURE

Iced cross buns

Phyllis is so pure she wants a beach for the kids 😭

That woman was kinda bitchy but pretty

I swear there’s been a Becker family before?? Why does CTM always recycle names? it bothers me for some weird reason 😂😂

Ms Higgins out here reprising her role as cockblocker #1

ok now the baby looked kinda fake in that shot

there’s sister J, finally

Now where’s sister Monica Joan?

damn they couldn’t at least wait to talk shit AFTER she left ?? extra Rude afff

she lost a son, I called itttt

no shelagh don’t ask yet🤦🏼‍♀️

Val is such a good nurse, she’s handling this well

ofc the Turner’s would find out what happened in 2 seconds

well it’s so understandable, if your baby died and they gave you no explanation as to why you’d act the same way  

THERE’S SISTER MJ 😂

boys aged 3-9 are literal monsters

6 kids tho I’d fling myself off a cliff

Violet really dressin like a council woman, we stan

Trixie’s hair looks good af but why she smoking at the table?

Omg Shelagh’s pink dress is adorable

ok but wasn’t that kinda dramatic, she didn’t really hit the girl she pushed her hand away right?

Smack your dumb son Lmaoo he’s too grown to be acting up

I’m not as emotionally invested in this ep like I was the last one, am I a heartless monster??

Is it measles? Either way poor hazel

Ohh so Ms Higgins drives Lmaoo vroom vroom

“You’re stronger than you realize”😭

I actually like that Ms Higgins is having this moment with her? I’m tired to the Turner’s always tryna save the day like give someone else a chance

no shade ofc I’m just saying the Turner’s take a lot of spotlight when we’re supposed to be calling the midwives here lol

And now here comes Val to the rescue

“the chemist” cracks me up, it makes the pharmacy sound cooler than it is

Val’s outfit is killing, I need those damn plaid pants in my life?? Also gotta be thinner so I can look that good in them 😂

Either way I want, I’m such a whore for nice trousers

YES KID DEFEND YOUR BROTHER

square up with whomever you must

A remembrance plant omg, Ms Higgins being the best part in this episode is THE biggest plot twist 😭

Another good husband in the show aw

Tim playing with the girls how pure

They are sisters ok 😭 they’re so cute

REGGIE!! UGH I love the Buckles what an under appreciated family

Will someone explain what this bank holiday is?

“OH I feel like the queen 😂😂”

Trixie out here looking like a bad bitch!!

But she hasn’t gotten a main storyline yet I’m offended? & there’s also been a lack of sister j wtf is going on lol

Val’s dress is also cute af I love gingham

“.. embrace the warmth of ordinary days..” ❤️

There’s the pretty lady and her adorable daughter

“There is light. There is. Look for it ..” my heart man😭 Vanessa Redgrave always hitting right in the feels

If it was any other narrator it prob wouldn’t hit the same lol

[amozon28]

review below

reads the title “ In which tasty pies are consumed and also maybe the slipper fits someone or whatever”

me: op wrote this chapter when she was hungry didnt she.

i love how thru the entire beginning the prince is just noticing all these things about stepfam that are just, not adding up. like theyre notoriously horrible assholes, yet their estate is so well taken care of it shows a sense that their staff take pride in the estate. and there are not staff visible, and the chef isnt present to get feedback from literal royal representative, the sisters saying its a family recipe when they show no sign of having made them? and stepmother directs him away from servant corters like?????????????? i love the consistancy of the princes instincts being rly rly sharp.

There’s even a point where he’s doing that thing, where like, you flick your eyes really quickly down at the food back up to the person who has the food like, “do I have permission to take the food?” But he’s like, basically invisible to both stepsisters

the prince

its okey prince, you just so happen to have an in with the cook and im pretty sure shell give you the recipe to try at the castle.

you know the food is good when Gabe, Gabe is having 2 meat pies, and asking for the recipe for the castle!!!! cindy fin ally getting all the appreciation for her cooking soon!

The prince stiffens where he stands. Oh no, they are not talking shit about Dutiful Winery Daughter, Eunice, and Amelia. Not on his watch! But he can’t say anything because he’s the goddamn footman!

i rly like that the prince is expanding his friendship circles enough to not only be fond of these women but to get offended on their behalf and WANT to defend them but unable to bc of his disguise .

suddenly the voices of all of the servants he interviewed after the ball come flooding into his mind. She fixed this button on that jacket. She knew how to get a stain out with lemon juice. She was really interested in how to make the food. Her best friends are rats.

again the prince putting things together, and connecting the previous suscipious things with things with mystery girl, if shes treated like a servant that would explain so much

He presses an ear to the wall—are they all moving in one direction?

i cant believe godmother unintentionally cock blocked cindy by seconds because she had to go eat some toes XD. THEY WERE SO CLOSE ok but i love the actual reunion so fucking much i forgive this.

“Because it bit me!” says the stepsister, and suddenly a horrified holler escapes her, “My TOES!”

“What?” The prince glances over and his own hand claps over his mouth. Her pinky and… ring? toes are missing. And the stumps are bleeding. Dripping and spurting all over the carpet.

ok ok ok ok. i cant quote every single line from the scream and shattering sound to all this and every afterwards but holy fucking this this was AMAZING. i cant with how you tied in the grimm version but working in the godmother getting her revenge on the stepfam. also enchanted shoes that bites toes off and fucking EATS them is such classic fae shit and i LOVE it.

i will say i literally thought the shoe like, bit her which is funny, and then the horror that dawns on EVERYONE at the same time because her toes are fucking missing!!!!  and the prince and crew put their primary worry about the broken shoe aside because holy shit we need to stop the bleeding wtf.

“You will address His Highness the prince with respect!” Brad says on reflex.

And the Prince huffs a breath through his teeth like, ‘Goddammit, Brad.”

hahahahahaha i just love their dynamic so much ♥ the prince getting so done with brad like, come on man, srsly?! like the prince hes angry about the shoe, devastated about losing his only lead, having to deal with this new toe development with the worst ppl in the kingdom and now his cover is blown.

it was also really nice seeing the prince step up and act as a leader when the time called for it, because he hasnt rly had the opportunity yet so far in the story and its neat seeing these different sides of him and seeing that he is a capable leader. which i can see being one of the reasons he was so attracted to how cindy just talked about politics blunty and openly cares so much about issues and calls out even his bullshit.

there’s kind of a beat here where she’s almost, almost picking up on the whole, “nobility isn’t just a matter of birth” deal. I don’t know. Maybe give her a couple years. Maybe.

while i still dont have sympathy for the stepfam i did like this moment. because no one is ever born evil and no one is ever truly a lost cause. so yeah, maaaaaaayybe the stepsister will learn from this? maybe not? but thats not what this story is about so this moment comes and goes but i like that it was included.

“I hope you will see our family properly compensated for this horrific incident,” the stepmother adds.

spoken like such a fucking karen tho i suppose her daughters oot is mutilated so its warrented but watever my point stands

they do look for the stepsister’s toes to reattach them, but they don’t find them. The prince really, really doesn’t want to think that the shoe ate them, and neither does anyone else, but that is absolutely on everyone’s minds

i grinned like such an idiot reading this part. i love fucked up fae shit in stories and this is right up there. i literally couldnt get over how i both enjoyed this and what an ingenious tie in to the og story that i had to pause reading further just to revel in it a bit more. and like how EVERYONE is thinking it, but no one wants to say it. lol im just imaging that one glass blower finding out about this devil shoe and going SEE! SEE!!!!

The stepfam watches as the carriage takes off.

if it wasnt for the fact i trust you so much and the fact i could see the side bar on my screen was only about halfway thru the story i would have thrown a fit at you ending it here!!!! wtf!!! but i new it had to be a misdirect and i was right, but fuck this still stressed me out like nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

also i can totally see between the chaos of the shoe fucking eating toes and the prince losing his ONE solid clue to findint mystery girl i can see him forgetting about the sus servant quarters, if it wasnt for the rat i could see him maybe remembering about that later once back at the castle.

She’s just a nice girl staring at no less than 9 sewing needles jammed hopelessly into a keyhole and she’s furiously trying to hold back tears.

honestly it would have been a little surprising if she had succeded here. not that i cant suspend my disbelief for that but i do like the acknowledgment here, like how would she even know how to pick a lock?

If I was half the girl the prince thinks I am, I would be out there, she thinks, If I was half the girl fairy godmother thinks I am, I’d be riding in the prince’s carriage by now.

bby noooooooooooooooooo aw bby no no non o no. i wanted to give her a hug

The fairy godmother would want her to go down kicking and screaming, and probably biting someone to the point of drawing blood.

yeah cindy i think shes WAY ahead of you on that front. i wonder what cindy would have thought if she found out her other shoe bit off her stepsisters toes clean off and ATE them?! honestyl im so fucking proud of cindy for still not giving up. like girl is so fucking strong and resilient and keeps going even when its hard or seems futile. she says hope is dangerous for her but honestly shes one of the most hopeful characters in the entire story.

awww brad and gabe somberly trying to comfort the prince. like as much as they got exasperated with the prince on this quest and thought the shoe was weird (only to fucking witness it eat someones foot?!?!!?) they also love the prince ad cant see him so down and not be able to rly do anything.

but at the same time… fuck, it hurts. It hurts so bad. Only remembering the idea of a smile, of a laugh…of someone grinning and calling you on your shit… it fucking hurts his heart more than any of you can fucking imagine

i want to fucking hug him so fucking badly. im so glad he gets to hug cindy at the end of this and just fucking hold her

The prince lets his eyes bump over the fenceposts as they roll by. Fencepost… fencepost… fencepost… fencepost with a rat in a little green marching band jacket on it… fencepost…The prince suddenly jerks to attention and smushes the side of his face against the glass of the carriage window

this reads like such a cinematic moment i can SEE IT. also yes fucking finally u funky lil ratboy!!!! saving the day!!!! the buildup to this was insane, everytime the prince mentiond scanning the yard i was like!!!!!! rat boy????? but no he had to go and make a grand entrance! and the description of eyes bumping over fencposts, very relatable thing.

the prince jumping out of the carriage like

gosh the entire chase of the prince just fucking BOOKING it back to the estate and frantically looking for this rat and rushing to the cellar doors and just ripping them open. boy saw that RAT and went “IM NOT FUCKING LOSING HER AGAIN” because he has so leads and hes going a lil fucking crazy and holy shit she must be here. you can FEEL the frantic, manic energy off this man desperate to find the woman he loves.

Now, okay, maybe the smart thing to do here may have been to yell through the door ‘Who’s in there?’ Or maybe ‘what happened’ or even just ‘Hello?’ But this boy is amped up on enough adrenaline and desperation to kill a younger, bedridden, asthmatic version of himself. So instead, he yanks away the shovel barring the cellar doors and takes hold of both cellar door handles and flings them open, only for Cindy to fucking rush headlong into him.

i dont know if this was intential or just accidental, but i did enjoy how the paragraph is in which they reunite finally kind of mirrors the language used in how they met the first time

 and at this point, he could hit her with the “You don’t know who I am, do you?” deal or the “Very funny, I see your play” deal, but at this point it occurs to him that, no, he hasn’t had anything to eat throughout this whole damn ball, partially because of being stuck in the debutante parade, partially because of nerves, and there’s something so disarming about the question that he grabs a crostini and she still seems so food-focused that it doesn’t seem possible that this is a play. So they both grab little plates and ditch the party.

ok i cant find a gif or even picture of it, but im just imagining cindy fucking bum rushing the door only for the prince to open the door and take the full brunt of said tackle just reminds me of the scene in emperors new groove where yzma goes to break down the door but they open it at the last minute and she barrels into something else .....the joke is less funny when i explain it why did i include this?

Her head jerks up because she still has half a mind to race after the carriage that’s just taken off, but then she looks down because she doesn’t know what she just hit.

And then she sees the prince.

the prince currentlu is just trying to figure out how to get air back into his lungs and not puke at the same time and cindy is still like !!!! omg maybe i can still chase down the carriage only to check what she hit to find the prince shes looking for.

lol the cindy amping herself to fucking chase down the carriage only to find the very man shes looking for beneath her and kind of having the wind sucked from her sails, like she had a speach and a plan and she doesnt fucking know what to down with herself so she just blurts the first thing she can think of.

the prince getting hopeful for the first time since this whole thing started and getting so fucking scared na dhopeful and hopeing hes right and scared hes wrong. actually thats the theme with these two the entire interaction and i really enjoy how everytime the other falters because of fear or uncertainty the other gently nudges them and has their back.

Do you know how much of an embarrassment you’re making of yourself?”

Cinderella winces, her eyes squeezing shut, but she feels a gentle hand touching her forearm and she opens one eye.

“You have the other shoe?” The prince is staring up at her.

i kind of already said this in the prev paragragh but exactly here. like cindy is just flaundering for what to do, shes already said all she can muster and her stepmother is approaching to rip all this from her and the prince isnt reacting and hes started to fall apart a bit. and the prince just gently prompts her to continue, that hes got her.

“…you have the other one…” he says, very slow, very quiet. . . . “Show me,” he says, “Please.” It’s impossible to keep all the desperation in his voice out of that ‘please.’

gosh he is so simultaneously scared and hopeful and terrified baby. hes so small here.

“Do you need more time?” The Prince asks but that just seems to prompt Cindy out of her daze and the complete three-way pile-up of hope and love and terror.

and again now its the prince comforting cindy. like fuck these two are making me fucking cry.

then pushes back onto her butt, extends one leg, stubs her heel against the dirt to get off her normal shoe, and then stoops forward and pulls the glass slipper on.

idky but i love how undignified and unladylike she does this. like its both funny on its own, but also like, so much of the entire shoe quest has been so fake fill with ppl after prestigue and trying to put forward a certain image of themselves to catch a prince. but not cindy, shes only ever been her authentic self.

Cindy gives a glance to her Stepmother on reflex, the muscles of her shoulders and neck unconsciously tensing, ready to be seized by the hair and for everything she’s hoped and dreamed of to be torn agonizingly away from her again

gosh cindy just never feels safe ever, like here she is, she knows shes myserty girl, she knows thats the prince, she knows the requirements of the kings declaration (fit the slipper and ur the prince bride) but she still feels trapped under the stepmothers thumb of power, like she can somehow steal this from her. its sad bc thats how abuse fucks with ur mind.

“If you need to try it on other people to make sure, I understand, but I don’t think my stepsisters—“ Cinderella starts.

this makes me so sad, like shes so understandably insecure about herself and how others see her and value her and i get why but it makes me sad.

ok ok ok ok ok ok everyfucking line of that next paragragh where the prince just fucking hugs her got me fuckign tearing eyed. the prince just having such a human reaction, outside rank, or birthright, or gender or sociatal expectations. right then in that moment he is just a man who found the person hes been searching the ends of the earth for and he found them im fucking cryping!!!!

and for cindy fuck! like first the first real positive physicaly contact shes prob has since she was 12. and then even when she was hoping to get out of this situation, the whole time she was planning on fitting the shoe and seeing the prince again, thiis whole time she was prob seperating “herself” cindy and the mystery girl the prince was looking for. like yeah she knows the two are the same but the prince is clearly looking for mystery girl. but here she is a mess in her servant clothes, sitting on the stinky dirtt after having tackled the prince and this whole time it was HER. it was always her he wanted, and its just hitting her and shes letting herself feel loved and appreciated and cared for for the first time in so fucking long

His arms find his way around her again and he just kind of sits there for a long while, just letting her cry. He strokes her hair lightly. His hands come away sooty and he doesn’t even notice.

MAH BABIES. my crops have been watered! im fed! my babies are happy and together and theyre safe!!!!!

“I’m trying to…” another sob falls out of her and she laughs at herself a little, “I’m really trying—!”

yes baby you really are! its ok baby sometimes u dont always have to try to do everything.

ok so now that ive gotten that out of my system holy shit. i find it really really funny how they must both look coming back to the castle. like the prince has bed hair, sleep deprived eyes 5 oclock shadow, is in servant clothes that are covered in blood, ashs, tear stains, and a good coating of piss smelling farm soil all along this backside where he fell. and his is covered in ashes everywhere, and dirt from both sitting it in and huggin the prince and definitly has like tear stains and snot on her face thats blotchy and red. what a pair they make

he hits her with the same line she hit him back at the ball, when they were both at that buffet table and she had a mouth half-full of bacon-wrapped dates, but here it carries so much more weight: “Hey… do you want to get out of here?”

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW and the spell getting lifted and the fog getting wiped from the princes memory and suddenyl he can remember her!!!!! awwwwwwww

“Um, your highness, if I may—“

“You may fucking not,” the Prince says with a pleasant blankness, not even looking at her.

yeah the princey boy having A LOT OF FEELINGS bout what the fuck he just witness and everything hes picked up on during this visit and before at the ball and lady, you REALLY dont want to be talkingt to him rn. stepmother u are so fucking lucky he is focusing on getting cindy out of ur house instead of on you right now.

However, he is also his mother’s son. And the queen will not hesitate to absolutely destroy a motherfucker.

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaassssssssssssssssss

“It’s my own fault…” she says quietly, “It.. gets really cold down in the cellar, but I should know when I’m tired enough to get into my own bed.. but…” she trails off.

the framing in this is so good it makes me mad. like this is absolutely cindy internalizing the kind of language her family uses on her. like its YOUR fault ur dirty because u sleep by the fireplace. and not OUR fault that ur in a room thats so cold u need to sleep by the fireplace to keep warm. and he says it matter of factly it just, rips my heart out.

and brad having a short 1 min convo with her and suddenly understanding EXACTLY why the prince was so fucking frantic to find this girl because FUCK shes in a fucked up situation we need to get her out NOW. (i find it rly cute cindy takes criminal mastermind as a compliment, like yeah the context is sad but lets ignore that and just enjoy cute cindy thinking shes so badass)

im curious about the hazelnut she bring with her hmmmmm

“I hope you don’t forget all we did to get you here, my dear,” the stepmother coos, and a there’s another visible flinch in Cinderella’s shoulders

hmmmmmm just how stepmother tried to get power by talking to the prince earlier only to be dismissed twice, so here she used what power she has to punch down cindy one last time, just because she can. and the way she draws herself up to the prince like shes daring him to say something about her comment. after all she didnt actually say anything mean did she?

The prince looks back at the stepmother, and that shadow passes behind his eyes

the prince like

but the prince prioritizing cindys well being over rightiour fury and justice. king behavior. you got urself a good future husband cindy making myself emotional thinking about the last time anyone every made cindy their priority

the hemophilia convo is cute XD i cant belive u brought that back. me thinks cindy is a little too tired.

Gabe, for once in his life, is not furiously taking notes. He’s also in the fucking, absolute blank faced ‘who the fuck are you’ mode

gabe seen some fucked up this today and some weird shit and some other fucked up but for different reasons shit. today broke poor gabe.

im curious to see if since i imagine the prince is going to prioritize just making sure that cindy is settled in and feeling comfortable at the castle hes prob going to put the stepfam on the backboiler for a while. but gabe strikes me as someone who doesnt like lose ends. so like gabe looking into wtf the family situation is with this estate, and how the fuck has no one heard of this woman before? and finding some interesting details about cindys name and the name on the deed to the house.

“Big rat-sized,” the prince repeats.

“Mm-hmm.”

“I can live with that,” the prince settles against the carriage seat cushions.

gabe after making METICULOUS foot measurments for this magic shoe

her line of sight back to the estate shrinking in the distance. It looks like there’s a swarm of starlings spiraling above it.

the fairy godmother being like “THE PRINCE MAY BE ABOVE CORPORAL PUNISHMENT BUT IM NOT CAW CAW MOTHERFUCKERS”

lol the godmother doing the fairy equivilent of knowing your going to quit your job so you do all the shit you wished u could before u leave. like cindy is getting her happy ending she doesnt need a godmother anymore, time to rip off this ankle monitor and finally do all the shit i wasnt allowed to!

He glances back at her and her eyes are already closed. The prince leans his cheek on Cindy’s hair.

aw these two babies fucking tired and need some sleep. so fucking cuuuuuuuuuuttte. i wonder if they wake up by the time they reach the castle or if cindy gets carried to her new room in the castle. lol just a similar scene to the queens extrance with the same glass blowers not recognizing the prince this time XD

Cindy Part 11

Oh boy this one's a doozy. Uh... content warning for... foot trauma. It's not as graphic as the whole "stepmother cuts off X" thing but there is stuff there, so you've been warned. Vaguely. Vaguely warned.

Welp, as always, for all previous chapters, please refer to the masterpost.

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Admittedly the stepfam sucked so much that the prince more or less expected the house on haunted hill for their estate, but it turns out the estate is about equidistant between the palace and the village, and is snuggled up in a semi-wooded, semi-farmland area. As the carriage pulls up to the estate, the prince’s eyes fall on an oddly noticeable hazel tree at the side of the grand house. 

“Welp,” Gabe huffs as he opens up the door and looks at Brad and the prince, “Let’s get this over with.”

The prince is scanning around the area as they walk up the path to the front door. This whole house is suspiciously nicer than he expected it to be, and it’s throwing him off. You can tell when any kind of domestic worker takes a lot of pride in their work, and that’s clear here, but what kind of person would be happy to work for assholes like these? Okay, settle down, he probably doesn’t have the whole story. Maybe they’re really nice to their own housing staff and assholes to everyone else? But where is their housing staff? He feels like he should have at least seen a footman or something with how well the estate looks, but it’s… unnervingly empty. They step up to the door and Gabe gives a brisk but polite knock.

The prince and co. plaster on their politest smiles when the stepmother opens the door.

“Madam,” Gabe sticks with his usual script that the prince pretty much tunes out at this point, “I am the king’s valet, and this is the captain of the guard.” (there’s no need to introduce the Prince, who, as far as anyone is concerned, is a footman), “We’ve come here on behalf of the palace to investigate your claim regarding the glass slipper.” 

“Oh gentlemen,” the stepmother says, with a sweep of her arm, “So glad you’ve finally arrived! Please, do come in!”

As soon as the prince enters, the smell of the most delicious food in the world hits his nostrils. There’s pastry, and spices, and a rich, fatty, smoky-gamy poultry smell.. could it be… duck? His stomach audibly growls. 

“This way,” the stepmother nearly sings the words as she leads them to the parlor where two okay-but-very-mean-looking girls are standing. On the table is a small pile of miniature pies garnished with nasturtium flowers and sprigs of parsley. Still warm, still fragrant. The prince is looking at the pies much longer than the stepsisters. Holy fuck he wants those pies so bad. There’s even a point where he’s doing that thing, where like, you flick your eyes really quickly down at the food back up to the person who has the food like, “do I have permission to take the food?” But he’s like, basically invisible to both stepsisters so he’s just stuck smelling the very rare food that’s managed to break through his stress-induced appetite barrier. Brad, meanwhile, has already started helping himself with an audible “mm!” Within minutes he’s already taken down four mini pies, and Gabe’s steady nibbles have taken down two. Two!! This is Gabe the Valet we’re talking about here! They cannot resist the curried duck mini-pies! And who can blame them!

“These are amazing!” Brad says with his mouth half full, “Where is your cook?”

“Ah, I’m afraid they’ve already… left for the day,” says the stepmother.

That’s kind of weird, the prince thinks, You’d think they’d want feedback from the palace…

“Do they have the recipe, at least?” Gabe perks up, “The palace kitchens would be very interesting in serving this, themselves.”

“It’s a secret family recipe,” says one of the stepsisters.

“Very secret,” says the other stepsister.

 The prince’s eyes narrow slightly at this. His eyes flick down the girl’s clothes and hair. No spots of flour anywhere, and not a whiff of spice on  either of them. They’re densely perfumed. These guys were nowhere near the fucking kitchen! How can they call it a family recipe?

The stepsisters are now launching into this long-ass spiel about how it took the palace this long to find the real owners of the glass slipper, talking over each other, both talking shit about each other, both talking shit about all of the honestly delightful shoe candidates who came before them.

“Did you see that girl with the curly brown hair, big mouth and giant nasty feet? I mean, you didn’t think that idiot could have fit the shoe, right?”

“Or the girl with the massive ugly nose?”

“Or the girl who kept crossing herself and looked like she was about to piss herself and cry the whole ball?”

The prince stiffens where he stands. Oh no, they are not talking shit about Dutiful Winery Daughter, Eunice, and Amelia. Not on his watch! But he can’t say anything because he’s the goddamn footman!

“Well, as delightful as this food is,” Gabe says, shifting the subject, “We do have a schedule to keep—”

“Madam, may I use the washroom?” The prince suddenly pipes up, “All the tea from these meetings just goes right through me.”

“The servants’ privy is—” the stepmother starts and then catches herself, “I mean, obviously a footman of the palace should use our best washroom. Second door from the staircase.”

“…thank you, madam,” the prince gives a hollow bow and briskly walks out of the room. And like, of course now his hyper-observant detective ass is internally going ‘She is absolutely hiding something. Why would she direct a servant away from the servants’ quarters? I have to find the servants’ quarters now. This house doesn’t look big enough to really have a proper servants’ quarters unless it’s—” as soon as he’s out of sighthe pivots in the hallway near the stairs and glances toward the scullery and suddenly the voices of all of the servants he interviewed after the ball come flooding into his mind.

She fixed this button on that jacket.

She knew how to get a stain out with lemon juice.

She was really interested in how to make the food.

Her best friends are rats.

He walks down the hall. His ears are burning and he feels like he’s moving through molasses. There’s a door. There’s a door at the end of the hall. He can hear rats scuttling in the walls. He presses an ear to the wall—are they all moving in one direction?

But then there’s a bloodcurdling scream and the sound of a shatter and all of a sudden the prince's heart plummets into his gut. He sprints back to the parlor where Brad and Gabe are doing the fitting, except the older stepsister on the couch is wailing.

There’s shards of glass flecked with red all over the floor.

“She—she kicked It off—I didn’t have time to grab it—Oh god—” Gabe’s hand goes over his mouth. 

“The shoe bit me, Mother, you must believe me, it bit me!” The older stepsister insists.

“You broke it…” the prince’s voice is more blank than angry as he hangs in the doorway.

“Because it bit me!” says the stepsister, and suddenly a horrified holler escapes her, “My TOES!”

“What?” The prince glances over and his own hand claps over his mouth. Her pinky and… ring? toes are missing. And the stumps are bleeding. Dripping and spurting all over the carpet.

The younger stepsister lets out another earsplitting scream. Oh my god it is not helping.

“You—you could have warned us there were such consequences for not fitting the shoe!” the Stepmother says through gritted teeth to Gabe.

“Madam, We swear, we had no idea—” Gabe starts but the Prince can’t contain himself. HE JUST LOST HIS ONE FUCKING LEAD.

TO ASSHOLES.

“Consequences?!” The Prince blurts out, “This is the first time I’ve seen this happen! With every other girl in the kingdom it’s just either been too tight or too loose! Ma’am this is the first fucking time I’ve seen anything like this! What the hell did you do to piss a shoe off!?”

“You have no right to speak to me like that, you lowly servant!” The Stepmother barks.

“You will address His Highness the prince with respect!” Brad says on reflex.

And the Prince huffs a breath through his teeth like, ‘Goddammit, Brad.”

“…what?” Says the stepmother. 

“MY TOES!” The stepsister wails again and the prince flinches to attention,  looking sharply to Brad, “Send one of the footmen to the palace, have them send in a royal surgeon on the swiftest horse they can,” says the Prince. It’s one of these princely lines that has always lurked ready at the back of his mind, but he never imagined himself really using, especially not for someone who pisses him off as much as this asshole.

“It shall be done, your highness,” Brad gives his shallow bow before hurrying off. The prince swears and pulls off the kerchief of his own servant’s livery, quickly wrapping it around the stepsister’s bleeding toe stubs and applying pressure.

“OW!” The stepsister cries out, “That hurts!”

“Just shut up and just focus on not passing out,” the Prince says darkly.

“You’re the prince?” The stepsister winces.

“Yes,” says the prince.

“…and you’re… worried about me?” The stepsister says breathlessly.

“Yeah,” the prince says, looking up at her sharply, “I’m the prince. It’s my fucking job to worry about the subjects of my kingdom.”

The stepsister’s lips purse together and there’s kind of a beat here where she’s almost, almost picking up on the whole, “nobility isn’t just a matter of birth” deal. I don’t know. Maybe give her a couple years. Maybe.

“I hope you will see our family properly compensated for this horrific incident,” the stepmother adds.

“Yes,” the prince says hollowly, his eyes flicking down to all the glass shards on the floor and the blood that’s now staining the knee of his servants’ livery, “Of course.”

It’s a whole thing. The surgeon does arrive extremely quickly because goddamn if the horse they sent them in on isn’t the fastest horse in the kingdom, he honestly looks a little shaken by the time he arrives because holy shit is that horse fast, but he’s able to stitch up the stepsister’s toe stubs—they do look for the stepsister’s toes to reattach them, but they don’t find them. The prince really, really doesn’t want to think that the shoe ate them, and neither does anyone else, but that is absolutely on everyone’s minds as the royal surgeon is carefully wrapping the stepsister’s foot in gauze. The prince apologizes for the incident, and, with everyone deeply uncomfortable and really not wanting to be around each other, they make the arrangements to leave.

The stepfam watches as the carriage takes off.

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Cindy, god bless her, has deeply, deeply hoped she is the dastardly criminal that the guard captain thinks she is, because a dastardly criminal would be able to pick this fucking lock. But she isn’t. She’s just a nice girl staring at no less than 9 sewing needles jammed hopelessly into a keyhole and she’s furiously trying to hold back tears. She’s heard a bloodcurdling scream and muffled yelling about toes but she honestly isn’t paying it that much mind because the stepsisters scream like that whenever they see a rat. She has to focus, goddammit but shit, shit shit, there’s no way in fuck she’s picking this lock. And like… why would she?? She’s never picked locks before! The village tinker’s shown her some interesting stuff so she knows tumblers exist but she doesn’t know how to make them do the thing without a key!

If I was half the girl the prince thinks I am, I would be out there, she thinks, If I was half the girl fairy godmother thinks I am, I’d be riding in the prince’s carriage by now.

But then this little furious fire lights up in her heart. The fairy godmother wouldn’t want her to give up. The fairy godmother would want her to go down kicking and screaming, and probably biting someone to the point of drawing blood. The fairy godmother is a manifestation of this goddamn column of PAIN in Cinderella and GODDAMN if Cindy is going to let that agony amount to nothing. She draws in a furious breath through her nostrils, gives a glance toward the cellar door leading to the garden outside and huffs it out. Her hands ball into fists and she descends the stairs.

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“Highness…” Brad’s words are slow, unsure as the prince is walking back towards the carriage, “I—I know you really cared about her, wherever she is and whoever she is,” Brad casts his eyes downward, “I’m sorry.”

“It’s fine,” the prince says the words on reflex.

“If it’s…. worth saying, your highness,” Brad says slowly, “I think.. going through all this, as painful as it has been, I think it’s been really good for you. It’s… it’s been really good to see how much you care about people.”

“It’s one thing to care, Brad,” the prince says quietly, “It’s another thing to actually fucking do something.”

“You’re going to do a lot of things, highness,” Gabe says quietly, “I’m sure of it.”

“Mm,” the Prince just slips into the carriage and closes the door.

He leans his head against the glass of the carriage window as it rattles on, staring out at the woods surrounding the estate, then the fields beyond as the carriage rattles down the road. The prince is weighing Brad’s words in his head like… okay, maybe the idea of someone is enough to get you off your ass to try and put some good in the world, but at the same time… fuck, it hurts. It hurts so bad. Only remembering the idea of a smile, of a laugh…of someone grinning and calling you on your shit… it fucking hurts his heart more than any of you can fucking imagine. The scenery is rolling by, fallow fields, the odd handful of trees set up as a windbreak, and the fence that trails along the road. Wooden, and unassuming, bleached by sunlight. The prince lets his eyes bump over the fenceposts as they roll by. Fencepost… fencepost… fencepost… fencepost with a rat in a little green marching band jacket on it… fencepost…

The prince suddenly jerks to attention and smushes the side of his face against the glass of the carriage window, looking behind him. There is a rat, in a swanky little green band jacket perched on the fencepost that is rapidly rolling behind the royal carriage. Its nose is high and twitching in the air. The prince stares after the rat shrinking In the distance in awe and blinks several times. Just before it falls out of view with the carriage’s progression, it hops back into the grass.

“I suppose with the slipper broken, we’ll have to make an announcement that—prince?” Gabe the valet looks up from his agenda.

The prince means to shout “RAT IN A JACKET” but what comes out sounds more like “RAJACKINRAT” and Brad goes, “What” and the prince just fucking opens the carriage door and fucking jumps out and tucks and rolls out of the full-speed moving carriage, bouncing painfully in the dirt road.

“Your highness?!” Brad yells out the swinging carriage door but the prince has already sprang to his feet and broken into a dead sprint across the field back to the house. He vaults over a fence, clips a hedge hard with his shoulder, stumbles over the roots of several copses of trees, and then hops another fence to find himself at the rear of Cindy’s family estate. His shoes fucking skid hard to a stop in the dirt, and he’s looking around this cute little garden and farm yard. It’s an adorably kept garden for something owned by such horrible people, but he’s not getting too caught up on that detail. He’s feverishly looking around. Where’s the rat? Where did the rat go? The rat in the jacket—where is it??? And then there’s a… whispering, rattling sound and he glanced over to see a hazel tree that seems to be moving… a little too much for it to just be the wind. It’s swaying… pointing? He narrows his eyes for a second but then suddenly flinches hard at a loud, ‘WHUNK’ sound and a pained, muffled grunt, and he glances over to see a cellar door.

A cellar door barred with a criss-crossing shovel and rake.

He rushes over.

Now, okay, maybe the smart thing to do here may have been to yell through the door ‘Who’s in there?’ Or maybe ‘what happened’ or even just ‘Hello?’ But this boy is amped up on enough adrenaline and desperation to kill a younger, bedridden, asthmatic version of himself. So instead, he yanks away the shovel barring the cellar doors and takes hold of both cellar door handles and flings them open, only for Cindy to fucking rush headlong into him.

And like, I need to stress here that the prince is all about horseback riding, fencing, and wrestling. Like, do you know how much that builds up your core and quads? Those are all VERY CORE AND QUAD-FOCUSED SPORTS. This dude is cute but he is STURDY, but now scrappy 

Cindy has just caught him hard with a bony shoulder/elbow combo right to the solarplexus like a goddamn axehead, so he’s making this “Phwoor” noise on contact and Cindy has maybe a 28% idea of what is currently happening because she’s just fucking SPRUNG UP meaning to literally bust open a cellar door and instead she’s… hit something… not quite soft-ish?? Definitely not a cellar door???

And then WHUMPF they’re both sprawled out with Cinderella on top of the prince in the chicken piss-drenched dirt of the farm.

“Guh..?” The prince makes a noise that’s half-suppressing a gag before glancing down and seeing hair clotted up with soot and ashes. Cindy’s covered in a fresh layer of soot after her last ramming attempt sent her painfully rolling down the stairs and into the ashes near the fireplace.

Cindy’s eyelashes flutter. Her head jerks up because she still has half a mind to race after the carriage that’s just taken off, but then she looks down because she doesn’t know what she just hit.

 And then she sees the prince. 

It’s him! It’s him! Sure he’s wearing (now crooked) glasses, and servant’s livery now, and his hair is all mussed up and there’s the five o’clock shadow (Wow she really likes the five o’ clock shadow), but she knows those eyes from when they were dancing together! It is fucking NOW OR NEVER. It is fucking GO TIME. So she just braces both hands in the dirt on either side of the prince’s face and this whole marvelous gracious script she had in her head goes right out the window and she just shouts, “I HAVE THE SHOE!” In the prince’s face, except it comes out more like “IVETHASHOE!”

“What?” The prince is staring up at her. Oh fuck I don’t know how to explain what he is currently going through right now. You know that whole ‘tip of your tongue’ sensation when like… you know something, you know you know something, but it’s not clicking? It’s just not coming? And it is the worst fucking mental itch. Imagine that, but a million times worse. The weight of her—he knows the weight of her from when they were dancing, from when he was obsessively running through every detail of that night through his head night after night. He knows the feel of her back muscles, and he’s pretty sure it’s the same feel as this fucking battering ram that’s sprung out of that cellar. This face. He has to know this face. He wants to know this face so fucking bad. He can see the fear in her eyes and he knows the fear in her eyes, the fucking timing of her expressions, but every human is capable of having fear in their eyes so there’s just this fucking tidal wave of “is it you? Please, please, is it you?” crashing against these walls of fucking despair.

“I—I have the other shoe,” Cinderella’s voice comes slow and dense to her. 

But then there’s the sound of a door slamming at the front of the house and Cinderella flinches. And fuck, the Prince knows what her flinching feels like in his arms from the sound of that first midnight bell ringing.

“What are you doing?!” The stepmother barks, “Get off of him you wretched little thing!”

Another visible flinch goes through Cindy, but she stays still, her mouth pinches for a second before she says again, “I have… the other shoe.”

“Cinderella, did you not hear me? Do you know how much of an embarrassment you’re making of yourself?” 

Cinderella winces, her eyes squeezing shut, but she feels a gentle hand touching her forearm and she opens one eye.

“You have the other shoe?” The prince is staring up at her. He looks like total shit compared to the ball, but she thinks she likes it more. The five o’ clock shadow, the eye bags, the mussed up hair… this is the fucking dork who snuck off with her and let her have half of his plate of food without hesitation.

“Yeah,” she says, pushing back from him. He props himself up to a kneeling position and she pulls the other glass slipper out of the pocket on her dress. And he recognizes it. This dude has spent hours and hours poring over the other glass slipper, he would recognize its partner in a heartbeat. Less than a heartbeat. It’s the other half of the pair, and this girl, this girl who is slamming against some wall in his psyche with the frustration and distrust of one’s own memory, has the other shoe. “Um… here—” she pushes the slipper into his hands and yes, yes, he knows the weight of it. He turns it over in his hands, just marveling.

The stepmother is going on like, “Cinderella, you will listen to me or so help me you will never—that is to say—” The stepmother can’t properly threaten Cindy the way she always does! Not when the prince is fucking there! Oh but the prince picks up on that. Dude has grown up with a complicated web of dynamics of servants and lords and advisors and tutors and he knows, he knows the exact fucking look on someone’s face when they can’t use their usual ammunition. He looks back at Cindy.

“…you have the other one…” he says, very slow, very quiet.

“Your highness, she’s not well, I simply must—” the Stepmother starts but the prince holds up a ‘Shut the fuck up’ hand and she falls silent.

The prince holds the slipper back out to Cinderella and she takes it. 

“Show me,” he says, “Please.” It’s impossible to keep all the desperation in his voice out of that ‘please.’

She turns it over in her hands. So careful, so loving—trying to have as little finger contact as possible even though the Prince has determined through multiple experiments that the slipper doesn’t fucking smudge. The way she looks at this shoe—it’s just as much hope and despair for her—it’s a memory of the best fucking night of her life, and it’s also a manifestation of her fear that she will never again know happiness like she knew at that ball. 

“Do you need more time?” The Prince asks but that just seems to prompt Cindy out of her daze and the complete three-way pile-up of hope and love and terror.

She shakes her head, then pushes back onto her butt, extends one leg, stubs her heel against the dirt to get off her normal shoe, and then stoops forward and pulls the glass slipper on. After so long of watching people furiously try to jam their feet into the slipper, or seeing the slipper awkwardly knock loose against heels, it is so goddamn surreal to see the shoe fit. Without a second thought. Like she’s just pulling it on in the morning like any other shoe.

 The prince is still, dead silent, absolutely dumbfounded. She pushes back onto her hands and extends her leg again, now turning her ankle with a slight ‘Ta-daaaa’ gesture. It’s not bragging or smugness, it’s more like a gesture of respect to the slipper itself, and everything it represents. Brad runs in right at this point but basically the combination of being out of breath from running after the prince and the sight of a girl who he previously thought was a chimney sweep wearing the slipper has rendered him silent save fore some labored, buckled-over panting.

Cindy gives a glance to her Stepmother on reflex, the muscles of her shoulders and neck unconsciously tensing, ready to be seized by the hair and for everything she’s hoped and dreamed of to be torn agonizingly away from her again, but… there’s nothing. The Stepmother has just gone full blue-screen. 404 File Not Found. Mouth hanging open, stunned. Cinderella looks back at the prince, who is staring just as slack-jawed. She looks back at the prince, whose expression is unreadable.

“If you need to try it on other people to make sure, I understand, but I don’t think my stepsisters—“ Cinderella starts.

The prince lunges forward and hugs her. Just, all these years of all this gentlemanly training, all of these social defenses, ‘this spoon goes here,’ ‘maintain this distance and bow at 45 degrees,’ and walking with books stacked on his head just fucking disintegrate and he just whips his arms around her. His head is just a fog of, It’s you. It’s you. It’s you. You’re real. I knew I didn’t dream you. It’s you. And Cinderella just.. freezes. Leggy still stuck out. It’s almost a flinch. Just a few stunned seconds of registering affectionate human contact. He remembered her. He was looking for her. He was worried about her. He turned the entire goddamn kingdom upside-down for her. And somewhere in the midst of these realizations she becomes aware that her cheeks are soaked with tears and her chest is heaving with sobs and at some point they’ve both come together on their knees he’s pulling away like, “Oh god, I’m sorry, are you-? I didn’t mean to—” 

And she’s pushing forward, clawing at the front of his jacket, fingers trying to find purchase—she’s so used to crying against a damn tree— and she’s like, “No—I mean I’m fine—I— mean—“ and then the sobs are rippling through her words and she just kind of slumps against him, arms winding around him like she has to think about where they’re supposed to go. God, how long has it been? His arms find his way around her again and he just kind of sits there for a long while, just letting her cry. 

He strokes her hair lightly. His hands come away sooty and he doesn’t even notice. 

After a minute, maybe two, she pulls away again to snort up a big glob of snot and wipe her face off a little, her tears streaking away the ash and dirt, and she has never looked more beautiful. Her eyes are all puffy and her skin is all red and blotchy but the girl at the ball doesn’t have shit on the girl he’s looking at right now. “I’m sorry—” she says, snorting again, “I’m trying to…” another sob falls out of her and she laughs at herself a little, “I’m really trying—!” 

“You’re fine,” he says, and he tucks back a little strand of hair that’s stuck to her face with snot. Then he smiles, a gentle, lopsided smile, and he hits her with the same line she hit him back at the ball, when they were both at that buffet table and she had a mouth half-full of bacon-wrapped dates, but here it carries so much more weight: “Hey... do you want to get out of here?”

“Uh huh,” her voice is shaking with the force of her nods.

The prince cranes past Cindy and looks at Brad, who is still panting, buckled over from chasing after him. 

“Uh Brad? Could you bring the carriage around?”

“Of—,” Brad huffs, “Course, your highness.” He briskly, but wearily hustles off.

“I—” Cinderella wipes at her face again, sniffles and swallows thickly, “Can I get my stuff? It won’t take too long.” “Yeah,” the Prince says and she’s standing up and pulling away and like… he realizes he isn’t holding her in place but he’s raising his hands to let her wrists slip from them, as if trying to keep the contact as long as possible before she hurries off. 

And he’s just… kind of staring into space there in the dirt, like, Holy fuck, it really is her. That spell, that fog, all that unsureness has just been wiped away and now, ka-CHUNK, this girl is locked in—it is the girl from the ball. It’s mystery girl! Who has rat friends!! In clothes!! That she made!! He has never been more sure of anything in his life. And he’s never known a love like the one that is fucking surging up in him right now.

And the stepmother thinks this is a great time to speak up. “Um, your highness, if I may—“

“You may fucking not,” the Prince says with a pleasant blankness, not even looking at her. 

And the stepmother makes a sound that would have been an assenting ‘Ah,' sound but it comes out more like a strangled, “Eh—“ And she tries to compose herself, “I’m sorry your majesty, I must have misheard—”

“You did not,” and the prince is now gracious enough to glance up at her, still kneeling in the dirt. There is something dark behind the pleasant blankness in his expression. Something that says, I am not going to ask why that cellar door was barred with gardening tools, and I hope for your sake you recognize that as a mercy. We are a progressive kingdom and we are very proud to have banned virtually all forms of corporal punishment. However, it is taking an ungodly amount of self-control to not bring back the most fucked up medieval punishments solely for you, so I suggest you do not fucking push me.

Because like… one thing to keep in mind with the prince is… sure, most of the time he’s a good-hearted (albeit kind of antisocial) dweeb: He likes his books, he likes his horses, and he sees his hobbies of fencing and wrestling as more exercises in athletic ability and camaraderie than really anything martial. However, he is also his mother’s son.

And the queen will not hesitate to absolutely destroy a motherfucker.

And the stepmother recognizes this and quietly clears her throat. “Right,” she says, glancing off again as the carriage once again pulls up to the estate with Brad hanging off the side of it all cool and shit like he didn’t nearly pop a blood vessel chasing after the prince. A breeze blows through the boughs of the hazel tree, and it sounds almost like a snicker. 

“I—oof—I got my stuff!” Cindy comes up out of the cellar, hauling a heavy-looking chest. A rat is perched on the chest, and a rat is perched on each of her shoulders, with a final, fancy green-jacketed  rat sitting sphinx-like on her head.

“Oh—!” The prince rushes over, prompting the chest rat to jump into one of Cindy’s apron pockets, “Here—I can carry that for you.”

“Your highness, I must insist—” Brad cuts in and takes the chest from Cindy, “And…” he looks at Cinderella, “Miss, if I may have a word?”

“Brad—” the Prince says in warning but Cinderella touches his shoulder in an ‘It’s fine’ gesture, and follows after Brad as he carries the chest over to the carriage. 

“So…” Brad says, carrying the chest over, “You’re not a chimney sweep.”

“No, I’m sorry, I should have said so,” says Cinderella.

“No, it’s not your fault—I shouldn’t have made assumptions,” said Brad, “So all the ash is from…?” He studies her for a second and then glances off as they finally reach the carriage.

 Cinderella is looking down at all the soot dusting her ashamedly. “It’s my own fault…” she says quietly, “It.. gets really cold down in the cellar, but I should know when I’m tired enough to get into my own bed.. but…” she trails off.

Brad’s face scrunches with guilt. “I would like to apologize,” Brad says, as he’s strapping the chest to the back of the carriage.

“A-apologize?” Cindy perks up.

“I was convinced you had sinister, ulterior motives, I made many assumptions about your character which I now realize to be unfounded.”

“Oh…” Cindy says quietly. 

“I should have trusted his highness’s judgment.” Brad isn’t looking at her.

“But you were just doing your job!” Cinderella perks up a little.

Brad blinks a few times and tries to re-compose himself. “It was still unjust of me to assume you were… some sort of criminal mastermind.”

“Criminal mastermind…” Cindy breathes, “No one’s ever thought I was a criminal mastermind before!”

“Because… you clearly aren’t?” Brad really wasn’t expecting the conversation to take this turn? He was kind of expecting her to just accept the apology by now.

“Well, I mean, it’s just.. I get called ‘stupid’ a lot—It’s kind of flattering to have someone think I’m a criminal mastermind!”

Brad yanks on the last strap on the chest before saying, “Miss, would you please just accept my apology?”

“Oh! Sorry,” Cindy laughs a little, “I’m not used to people apologizing to me.” 

There’s just a beat and Brad is putting 2 and 2 together of ‘I get called stupid a lot’ and ‘People don’t apologize to me’ and there’s this flicker across his face of ‘Jesus fuck we need to get you out of here.’

“er—I mean,” Cinderella straightens up, clearly trying to imitate Brad’s own impeccable guardsman posture, “I accept your apology, sir.”

“…thanks,” says Brad. He stares at Cindy for a second and makes eye-contact with the rat on her head.. “So the rats are coming—?”

“The rats are coming,” says Cindy, “And… if it’s possible… Chauncey isn’t as good a watchdog as he used to be, so I was thinking, maybe he would be more comfortable at the palace… but if stepmother wants to keep him I under—“

“You want the dog? Why take the dog, my dear! Why would you ever think I would stop you from taking the dog? Take the dog! Take him!” A terrified, manic laugh falls out of the stepmother and there’s a long quiet beat before Cinderella just kind of… shuffles over to Chauncey’s place in the barn and brings her formerly-carriage-driver-dog over to the prince’s carriage. His hips aren’t that good so both she and Brad help the dog into the carriage. 

“Is that everything?” The Prince walks over.

“Oh—! One more thing!” Cinderella rushes away and comes back with one hazelnut from the tree her father planted, pocketing it and then clasping her hands together. “Okay. I’m ready.” The prince holds out a hand to help her up into the carriage.

“I hope you don’t forget all we did to get you here, my dear,” the stepmother coos, and a there’s another visible flinch in Cinderella’s shoulders as she’s pulling herself up into the carriage. The prince looks back at the stepmother, and that shadow passes behind his eyes again, and the Stepmother draws herself in with a prim posture. The prince can just… feel this roiling, seething anger in him, his mother’s righteous fury, his father’s love for all things small, and good and kind, and there’s a three-second beat where he wants to fucking scorch the earth of this godforsaken place.

But then he looks back at Cindy, sitting in the carriage.

And she just looks… so tired. So very, very tired.

So without a word the prince pulls himself up into the carriage, and closes the door. Brad hops on the back, and off the carriage goes. The green-jacketed rat finds its way into the prince’s lap as they ride and he mindlessly traces a finger along the line of its body. The dog is audibly snoring at their feet. 

Cinderella leans her head on his shoulder, her eyelids heavy.

“Prince?” She says quietly, lifting her head.

“Mm?”

“Sorry for um.. tackling you like that.”

He snorts a little. “It’s fine.

“I didn’t give you internal bleeding, did I? You know,” her voice drops a little, “From the hemophilia?”

“…I… don’t have hemophilia,” the prince says squinting a little, “I’m not internally bleeding. I’m fine. Really.”

“You don’t?” Cindy relaxes and snuggles her cheek against his shoulder, “Oh… that’s such a relief…”

A short pause passes between them, filled only with the sound of the rattling carriage. Gabe, for once in his life, is not furiously taking notes. He’s also in the fucking, absolute blank faced ‘who the fuck are you’ mode while Brad is avoiding contact with everyone, staring out the window and quietly chewing on some of the extra pies that he quietly pocketed during all the horror of the shoe straight-up biting off the stepsister’s toes.

“Uhm… hey—” the prince glances at Cindy, “So… okay this is going to sound like… a really weird question, and I swear I’m not trying to be weird it’s just.. I put a whole chart together, but the shoe didn’t go along with the chart, so like—I know it doesn’t matter because the shoe fits but like… just so I don’t go crazy from all this… how big are your feet?” 

“I don’t know,” Cinderella doesn’t lift her head from his shoulder, “Like…big rat-sized, I guess?” 

“Big rat-sized,” the prince repeats.

“Mm-hmm.”

“I can live with that,” the prince settles against the carriage seat cushions. 

 He glances down at Cinderella and then follows her line of sight back to the estate shrinking in the distance. It looks like there’s a swarm of starlings spiraling above it. He glances back at her and her eyes are already closed. The prince leans his cheek on Cindy’s hair. She smells like ash and smoke, but beneath that, beneath the faint smell of sweat, even, there’s another smell: Vegetal, and sweet… pumpkin? He doesn’t dwell too long on the thought before closing his own eyes.