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Ok so how does one MAKE a tabletop game because this is something I want to try!! Are there good references out there for non-d20 systems or how to balance mechanics yourself?
oooh, hell yeah! honestly the big thing is to just do it, unlike board and video games the gap between idea and execution in ttrpgs is incredibly narrow, so if youve got an idea just start writing stuff down and see where it starts pulling you, where it feels like something's missing, find what excites you and what you feel isn't working. but that's not very specific, so let's get into it!
first off, read games! read weird games! there's tons of free ttrpgs on itch, lots of people sharing their work here and on other social media, there's 200 word rpgs here and here, and lots of system reference documents written specifically for people looking to hack games. reading other games is a great way to enrich your work whether you're building systems from scratch or working in an existing framework, because every game you read will show you a new way of approaching design problems.
on that note, draw inspiration outside of ttrpgs too! i pull a lot from video, board, and card games in my work, as well as poetry, novels, movies, etc etc etc. im autistic, and ive spent a lot of my life thinking about and dissecting unwritten social rules, so that's another big source of material for me. take your passions, whatever they may be, and put them in your work!
next up, think about the core of your game, sometimes called the minimum viable product. this is whatever the fundamental idea at the heart of your work is, and it's important to keep in mind because it keeps you from spiraling down unnecessary tangents. the core of your game can change, don't get me wrong! in fact, it likely will. what you want to do isn't prevent your work from growing and changing, but have a point of light you can always refer back to and ask "is what im doing important to this game?" you might be surprised by what you find isn't actually as important as you thought at first, and what turns out to be vital to the experience you're going for.
next up, once you start working, don't throw things away. if youre working in a word processor or google docs, it can help to have a section at the bottom of your document that you copy anything youd otherwise delete into. i do the same with my Affinity documents, ill have a few pages i dont export to store all my scraps. i know other folks who keep a dedicated scraps document that they use across projects. whatever works for you! the reason you do this is twofold: it makes it easier to cut things if you know you can always put it back later if you change your mind, and it gives you a lot of raw material that you can pull from in the future. months or years from now, you might find yourself looking to fill a gap in a new design and realize that some cool toy you set aside is exactly what you were looking for.
lastly, i wanna strongly encourage you to practice finishing things. that's often the hardest part for people, cuz we have a lot more experience starting projects than finishing them. here id like to once again direct you to 200 word rpgs, because that strict limit means you wind up with a finished first draft really quickly, and the rest of it is polishing and editing. once you've finished some bite-sized projects, you'll have a better idea of what it entails, what parts you're good at and what parts you struggle with, when to keep working and when to cut yourself off. i find it really helpful to add arbitrary limitations and deadlines on my work because that helps me push myself to finish something when otherwise i'd just keep adding and tweaking, but you'll find what works best for you!
#also gonna add a note about “balance” in a reblog#cuz ive got thoughts about how balance applies to ttrpgs
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i wanna say this is not said in anger or an attempt to say nonbinary people are privileged over binary trans people, thats certainly not the case, im just here to state my thoughts. the "binary trans people having the resources and genes to pass perfectly to match a changed gender marker in the eyes of cis society affords privilege to binary trans people" is disturbingly reminiscent of "if trans men pass perfectly they get cis male social privilege meaning trans men are oppressors" and ignores it for what it is - conditional hyperspecific privilege that a grand majority of binary trans people will not be able to access. it largely depends on where you live, access to hrt, and access to gender marker changes - being able to change one but not others(extremely common) is an instant out no matter how cis you appear.
as for spaces being less understanding of nonbinary people, i believe thats also a vary-by-location thing. ive been iced out of friend groups for being gnc and not wanting to id as nonbinary. ive been to trans groups and a trans event that was geared for trans women and nonbinary people without advertising that fact. seeking out community irl in the previous two states ive lived has left me usually the only binary trans man, and isolated and shoved aside for it.
it also inherently implies binary trans people's goals are to assimilate perfectly into cishetero society which is also rarely ever the case. and when we don't, we're punished for it by both cis and trans people. binary as an identity does not mean upholding the gender binary, like any other its a personal identity term, typically just meaning "a man" or "a woman". the "gnc binary people(too far from the binary)" feels like its missing the point and trying to other binary people who dont wish to perfectly assimilate which again, is not the grand majority of us.
again im not saying nonbinary people are privileged as a class above us. i dont believe any trans people are privileged above any others. some of us may have specific, rare access to conditional privilege in some situations but i feel like its splitting hairs to try to afford that some tangible place to split apart trans people, who are all one messy glob of Other Freaks to cis society. ive seen so much "binary trans people are privileged because they experience X and nonbinary people experience Y" when ive been living my whole life experiencing Y. i think a lot of us subconciously invent a new gender binary thats "binary(cis assimilationists)" and "nonbinary(everyone else)" and cling to the idea that binary people could never be treated as weird outliers and freaks.
one final go of this was not said in anger to that person's ask. i genuinely mean no ill will or attempt to shutdown discussion or claim that nonbinary people are privileged instead.
Yeah, like, I'll say that I am an example of a binary trans person who does not fit very well into the binary by virtue of my identification with being male and being proud of my "male" traits, so I don't have access to most of the relative benefits. Even being called "male" and having the symbol I like so much on all my shit is not necessarily the best because that always comes with the idea that I'm also necessarily a man, which I'm not and I really do not like being tagged as.
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In case anyone was wondering, he does wear the robe into the water, and the artist really seems to like to draw Fred diving
ID: [Screencap taken from the Scooby Doo comic Mystery at Malibu in Scooby-Doo #9, by Marvel Comics. The scene takes place on blue water in a dark area that looks similar to a cave. In the foreground, the Surfer Ghost, who is a white surfer with a skeletal face, is destroying a red raft that holds several passengers. In the background, going from left to right, the blond character Fred can be seen diving off a sinking raft while wearing blue swim trunks and shouting “Abandon raft!”. A blond lady named Taffy Dare is wearing a green bikini and is falling backward off the raft. The brunette character Shaggy is wearing a brightly colored robe and is yelling “Women and craven cowards first! That means us, Scoob!” The great dane Scooby, who is brown with black spots and wears a blue collar, can be seen behind the Surfer Ghost screaming in fear. A small man who looks like a caveman with his entire face and chest covered with brown hair is wearing an orange and black patterned outfit; he is holding a club and shouting “Wug-Gump!” as he falls into the water.]
ID: [Screencap of the cover page from the Scooby Doo comic Mystery at Malibu in Scooby-Doo #9, by Marvel Comics. In the background, the Surfer Ghost, who is a white surfer with a skeletal face, is destroying a purple surf board. In the foreground, the blond character Fred can be seen falling off the surf board into the water while wearing blue swim trunks. The great dane character Scooby, who is brown with black spots and wears a blue collar with a yellow ID tag, is also falling off the surf board. There is a speech bubble in the upper right hand corner that says “Surfer ghost on a rampage!”, and there are several advertisements for other Hanna-Barbara comic characters on the left side of the cover]
Source links:
https://scoobydoo.fandom.com/wiki/Scooby-Doo_(Marvel_Comics)_issue_9
https://scoobydoo.fandom.com/wiki/Mystery_at_Malibu
summer mood
#im new to the id thing but im doing my best#it actually takes a while to type those out#i had to google this because i wanted to know if it was legit#could not find the original panels i could only really find these two panels#but i thought the world deserved to see freds tiny trunks and silly dive#plus i was curious if shaggy planned to go into the water at all with that robe#didnt quite get my answer since he didnt plan to have to abandon the raft but he ended up in the water (presumably) regardless of his plans#ive seen a lot of obscure scooby doo characters but i dont think i knew about the teen angels#the blond taffy dare is one of three girls in the group the teen angels and the caveman is their mascot#i love everything about the top image though. love daphne matching her headband to her bikini#love velmas freckles. and i was surprised to see her in black. but then! i realized the black matches her glasses#what an icon. who said daphne was the only stylish one#for the life of me i dont know if that purple board is freds board or the ghosts board#because freds board was red in the other picture but it doesnt make sense for him and scooby to be out there like that without a board#gosh this is how i occupy my time these days#scooby doo#scooby doo mystery in malibu#daphne blake#velma dinkley#shaggy rogers#totally forgot freds last name lol#fred jones#norville rogers#taffy dare#surfer ghost#captain caveman
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okay i think i am learning.... something
#fursona#minecraft#furry#i need to do gold and diamond next#and i am 100% incorperating the dragon skull into the netherite design. id be foolish not to#i only have a few things im ? about.#1) should the leather get redyed for each new metal/ore armor? like for iron it could be dyed dark blue and white. lugia moment#2) for the hoodie tassel. it changes color to comliment the ore. what would match best w gold??? i already did red for leather erm#3) i cant tell if the leathers too dark. originally i ahd it more orangey/'cowboy' leather as forrest called it but he said it was too clo#to the critters fur so i made it darker.but now idk....#my art
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happy mothers day to my first and best momma concept ever designed 💚💚
#i love her so much. i am so proud of her ;;;; she's my biggest favorite right now because of how much ive made for her...#jaide stone was nothing but a huge catalyst for exploring new things ive never thought id find joy in 💖#and waah hehe yes big rubebe 💖 my son is so big now! so handsome 🥺🥺🥺💚💚#i feel compelled to expand on the adult ruby concept but that will be for another day :3#anyways hello how is everyone? i know im a bit of a rollercoaster of activity right now on this blog specifically but yeah :]#ive been twirling around my alt blog so im doing okay#big irl news - ill be graduating from senior high very soon and we're currently in the process of rehearsing it heheh#so hopefully once that's over ill be here and bouncing again!#but yes - momma jaide 💖 the best in the world#~ art#jaide (mangaverse).insert#ruby.fam#stone family tag#pokespe parents#familial f/o#child f/o#selfshipping#selfship#safeship#© to cafekitsune for the dividers
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valentines day pkmn wip ^_^
#im gonna put them on their own canvases and write a little abt their design insp and ideas#i had a lot of ideas but decided to go with the ones i felt worked strongest. although id love to go back to the ones that#didnt make the cut and see if i can rework them.. its a little hard to remember things that correspond to valentines day...!!!!#i wanted to do wedding dress gardevoir.. pearl necklace onix... romantic candle chandelure... heart balloon drifloon....#cherubird was supposed to be delibird but i found it hard to work around the santa theme without making it hard to recognize#so i decided to make it a new pokemon (fakemon?) entirely ^_^ based on seraphim doves and love letters#klefki is based on the pont de arcs bridge in france known for its lovelocks!! it collects charms like halves of best friend necklaces#lockets and lost wedding rings.. sawsbuck is based on tree carvings with lovers names and sakura branches#roserade is based on flower bouquets. i like how its design came out!! the body is supposed to look like a waistcoat#lopunny based on playboy bunnies. the fur on its wrists is supposed to resemble the cuffs. torso has the one piece suit#and their legs have the thigh high stockings. frogadier is based on romantic bubble baths with flower petals#tangela is based on curly old telephone wires that you twirl between your fingers when calling your lover kicking your feet in the air#decidueye has to be my fav though with the cupid theme. also used barn owls bc of the heart shaped face#i cant wait to finish these!!!! i can see these going on my portfolio for sure#my art#myart#pokemon#pokemon design#valentines day#wip#doodles
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Here is lady pics from when I was MIA
#alek insanity#using this time to rant about my personal life. my dad had a medical emergency but he should be coming home soon#i spent a while at my aunts house it was fun they have a cat named harold hes so fatness#my stepmom has been staying with my dad up there and magically our heater broke#the hvac guys came (like 10 minutes ago) but they cant really fix it it just needs 2 be replaced atp.#and its been getting below freezing these past few days behhh#but its all good bc im gonna get popeyes soon#doodle (the lady) is sitting on my as i type this#and i decided to start drawing everyday !!! around 2 hours at a time is my goal. i used to draw until id get numbness in my arms#carpal tunnel speedrun? but ive realized its best for my joints if i draw for 1-2 hours. also if i draw everyday im more motivated#ive been trying to pace more too. i used to get 10k + steps a day but kinda. stopped doing that. oopsieeee. just aiming for better habits#fixed my sleep schedule too behhh#my friend has a christmas party on the 21st so im excited 4 that. also christmas in general bc im gonna get a new laptop#mine barely works and is held together with duct tape 😭 and im gonna get a ton of money#my friend is planning a h×h zine so thats exciting + there's a lot of ninjag0 ones around the corner. big things brewing#i think next year will be a good year. this year kinda... started off really shitty#hoping to get my drivers liscense next year. ive been studying for my permit but stuff keeps getting in the way#Also im gonna get new glasses soon after TWO YEARS hfgdhd . idk the future looks bright yall#and i got this fatness woman on me rn so happy times now too#shes trying to sleep on my leg . but ... i have to eat food ... doodleee lady
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can I ask why you don’t like domi? a lot of leafsblr really like him and I was wondering if he did something? to put down a guy on “your team” that much must have something behind it
i didn't like him before he was a leaf and i don't subscribe to the idea that you have to support everyone just because they're "on your team"... especially in a sport like this where the makeup of most of the team changes a LOT every couple years. it's not like domi is crucial to the identity of this team in any way, lol. he's been here for 5 seconds.
i try not to dig too much into these guys past quotes and shit like that because obviously in the nhl, there are a lot of unpleasant realities below the surface but. i can't help the stuff i've seen about him liking trump and parroting racist and xenophobic quotes about watching 'who we let into our countries' like... it's colored my perception of him before this year, and it's not changing just bc he's good buds with the known anti-vaxxer on the team now like 😭 he gives me the ick and will continue to no matter how much new fans latch on to any guy that's a leaf and wanna post about him. everyone's threshold for that stuff is different, but he's not rlly done anything to endear me to him on a personal level.
#easks#i also think a lot of leafsblr seem to be new this year lol and just latched onto a lot of the newer signed ppl also#not that its necessarily a bad thing but seeing ppl claim this team is the closest theyve been like#i blatantly do not think u knew of anything the past couple yrs of the leafs then.. went from holl kerf muzz bunts to this. downgrade#the vibes are very off this year to me just. in the makeup of the team. im trying to enjoy as best i can but#guys like domi bertuzzi reaves can put me on the edge of not rlly liking the id of the team so#not gonna choose to focus on them or their questionable personal qualities i've known abt and seen#not like i go hunting for reasons to hate anyone in the league.. its legit just stuff thats come up on my radar blatantly#the last couple yrs when ppl hit the markets and stuff#like if we win the cup. beautiful. i still hope we ditch some guys eventually LKFJDSKL#ALSO. when max says dumb shit in the media... be real its open season on being a cocky shit lol#hes the faux tough guy uncle fans go nuts for but like. hes not his dad
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happy birthday to me i celebrated by looking at my favourite sequence of images in the world and crying over it at half past midnight.
#im. 24 now.#appleyaps#gonna be honest with you guys idk where the fuck my life is heading atm.#but if this manga taught me anything its that i have to keep making choices in order to achieve my own happiness.#ive been making strides... im now exclusively using the men's toilets wherever i go.#and im working on getting a professional diagnosis so i can go on hrt... but the waiting lists are so long.#i took the transfer but now it turns out i still have to wait longer... even though i was promised help quickly.#i dont know how much longer i can take this though. being uncomfortable with myself. im sick of it. i just wanna live.#theres so many things id like to do. but my body and my voice are holding me back from it.#my mom and her boyfriend know now. but my mom doesnt understand and has never referred to me as a woman as much as she does now.#at least everyone at school uses he/him for me now. i was finally assertive about it in my new class#and everyone there calls me teddie. though i'd like people to use tom for me as well. my friends do.#i just need to be even more assertive from now on. im working on it. im doing my best. i wanna live.#at least i have lots to look forward too. thats whats keeping me going honestly. and my friends.#the hope that one day i get to look in the mirror and finally see myself. i want to believe that it can happen. i need it to happen.
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On today's episode of Holy Shit My Childhood Was Not Normal:
Kurtis Conner being thrown off by the girls'/boys' bibles with the random "Dream Girl" and "Grossology" passages and shit like that in them
#I didn't have that exact one but I had a girls' bible with the lil dream girl passages in them#mine was purple and green#There was a specific one I read over and over because it was about thinking about your best friend#and I thought about my best friend that way#except it wasn't actually in a friend way I flat out just had a crush on them lol#I later went on to id as a lesbian and that specific story made helped me realize it#so maybe that bible was good for something#I'm now a lil bi boy who might be ace but still#Im 21 now actually Im a Man in the U.S. /j#it's just#always so funny watching people remind me that I grew up Not Normally#like I genuinely got so into reading those lil bible dream girl passages#but I also preferred the gross out shit of the boys' one#cause I was one of those cartoon network poop fart joke funny tweenagers#I loved gaming stunts and all things gross or whatever#I wasn't allowed to actually do that because I was a lil lady so I enjoy it now#I tell people I'm going to shit their pants if they don't leave me alone and think I'm the funniest human alive#anyways go watch kurtis's new video about gendered products it's good#ex christian#religious trauma
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woww that was so awkward. we used to be best friends???
#we didn't get into a fight or anything even...it just happened. gradually we were moving apart and one day we couldn't recognise each other#i still wish the best for her though....im glad she's doing alr#but letting go of her was probably a good thing bc i don't feel as insecure about myself anymore#everything she had todo was so selfcentred and she pointed out even the tiniest of things about my appearance even tho she knewmy insecurit#we were a trio and now me and my other bsf are the only ones who stuck together.....im so grateful to have her in my life.#literally my fav person ever#also everything me and my bsf said she would make it about her and we reached our limits we confronted her#but nothing really changed except she was trying to be subtle about it and somehow slowly we stopped texting frequently#and it wasn't just about my appearance. she kept asking me if i made new friends when she knew i didn't and that i have social anxiety#and when i did manage to make friends she would ask qs and id be back to questioning my friendship w everyone i knew#i'll probably delete this later
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I think there were some serious growing pains when katniss and peeta were starting to "grow close" again.
#NOT TAGGING THIS but yeah this would be maybe a few months post?#when katniss and peeta are just starting to be friends again#while peeta is still kind of adjusting to the new person he is and coming to terms with what he's done in that process#which ends up making him come across as a little bitter? but i dont think he means to be. weird situation obviously.#and i think it's particularly hard for katniss considering she's someone who gets so much comfort from physical contact#and for the person from whom she got so much comfort to have snuck up on her and tried to kill her. twice.#because theres no denying that THAT person is closer to who peeta is now than who he was before being tortured in the capitol#so it takes a long time for her to not fear his touch. i think. and i think although he knows better#peeta's still kind of burned by it. like he understands it but it still hurts kind of thing#... IDK sorry i have a lot of thoughts about how their dynamic would have to fundamentally change post-mj#and its kind of weird how that's glossed over i mean its not plot relevant i guess but if theyre....#WHATEVER anyway yeah.#id like to do smth more with this idea of them adjusting to their new relationship so this is rly just a draft :)#sorry can you tell i could talk about peeniss for hours??? can you tell????????#ive really gotta practice drawing burn scars also because at this point theyd both have pretty angry burn scars on their faces and hands#i also think im rambling a lot here bc i dont want ppl to get the wrong idea or anything bc i hold both of them so close to my heart#same kind of thing as mommy katniss i guess i udnerstand it doesnt portray them in the best light but at the same time i really do think.#realistically they just wouldnt.... be well adjusted? sorry. anwyay. diddle out.
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dream time
#have to get this down before i forget it#been having weird/not good dreams lately until last night (mere hours ago bc its still dark out this morning)#writing this on my way to work and in the dream i was on the bus to work. however an important difference between reality and the dream is#that in the dream i was sharing my bus ride w mr larroquette. as one does#this was like mouse bites era john im sorry thats the best way i can describe how he looked#and i guess it was like we kinda knew each other?? and we ended up talking about poetry writing and stuff#wish i could remember the specifics of that#at some point we got off the bus and got onto another one unfortunately a common theme in my dreams is going somewhere in a complicated way#and on that bus ride i sat next to him again and he was like oh i normally listen to music for this part of my trip#and i was like ope don't wanna keep you from that! but he didnt mind talking for a bit more and we talked abt music#bc apparently id recommended he listen to the album big world by joe jackson and he said he didn't like it on first listen but hed try again#when we got off this bus and were walkin to where i worked (i guess he worked around there too???)#we went back to talking abt writing and i was talking abt my old poetry writing class and the kind of things i wrote#and he expressed an interest in reading those old poems and i was like oh ok i guess ill look for em#but i was thinking to myself noooo those arent good i wrote those in high school you dont wanna read themmm#and then it became like hard to get down the street bc people were moving slow on the sidewalk (classic new york moment)#so we went out into the street to like cut around#and there was some truck like causing things to get backed up#and so john started like yelling at the truck driver to move out of there LMAO#and i think thats all i remember w him. but i just remember talking w him was very calming and comforting#come on man. what are you doing in my dreams#later in my dream i just remember telling people about this so im telling you all now#anyway .
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my friend and I haven't talked in a week, but I don't want to text or call her first this time. It's always me. I'm so tired of being the only one who puts effort in.
#Relationships require work#Ok but what if youre the only one working#What if I finally told them I was frustrated and now they have only talked to me one time since then and it was because I texted them#I cant do this#I don't want to lose my best friend#I dont know what Id do#But I can feel that separation again#And its killing me#Im so tired of being the only one who actually listens or takes interest in the things that are said#I try new things just for them or to not feel in the outside#But I'm too late#It doesn't matter what I do for them#They never really do anything for me#They dont come to things for me#Just tell me you dont want to come#That would hurt less than the roundabout excuse that is still obvious#They dont actually care about my sports#They dont care if I want to talk about them#But if they have something to say?#If they want to talk to me about people I dont know#I take interest#I engage at least a little so that you know im listening#They dont do that for me#I want it so bad#Aria is upside down again
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why was my first 10k post political. help
#i sincerely doubt anyone who rbd it is gonna see this post but#if ur in the tags criticizing me for the sources i used or for spreading the news in a meme format I genuinely didnt think more than like#my general circle would see it. if smth was gonna blow up i thought itd be actual news posts yknow not my stupid thing#but also in my defense the sources i linked are like actual video of the icj im not and wouldnt use some random tweet as a source#like yes i agree there's better sources out there but again. did not expect anyone to see and as such care#also i got a LOT of asks overnight asking about gofundmes and id like to help but im not sure how to approach it#in terms of like. making sure ppl are legit. if i post it how best to format it. how do i get thru them all without spamming everyone's dash#so if my followers have any tips on that lemme know#also also also if you're being a hardcore doomer under that post youre annoying#not in a skeptical way ie 'but is israel actually going to listen' but in a 'who cares none of this matters everyone's going to die' way#i get its rough out here but acting like Not A Single Thing Could Ever Help is frankly practically zionist propaganda atp#i think thats all. i shoulda muted that post last night#juno.txt
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if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified
#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing#i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though#at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself#as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed#escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date#although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL#ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting#workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety#i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back#AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO#im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts#i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem#in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material#and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school#maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess#only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard#hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms#i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work#not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall#anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh#yapping
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