#im never moving on from this ever
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im not lying when i say i almost went to the clinic after seeing these photos because of the immense heart palpitations i got while seeing this during class
#shshfhdjcudjicSJDKXJNDJDJDJDJDHSJDJHSJDJJCNX OH MY GODD#IM GOING TO CRY!!!!!!!!#IM GOING TO CRY LIKE ACTUALLY AND THEN IM GONNA CRY MORE#SHES SO WIFEY MATERIAL I CANT EVEN TODAY IM GONNA CRY#mizu natsuki#takarazuka#im never moving on from this ever
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I don't want to regret the way I lived
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#nobara kugisaki#nanami kento#choso kamo#junpei yoshino#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#this idea started as a 2 part series . then my braincells decided to spark and supplied 7 PAGES#'did you sleep hina' no#ws looking up mentally stable things like 'who has died in jjk' smh i love my hyperfixation media im sooooo glad so many ppl r DEAD#i *could* have included more ppl but i think this is a good crew. this is a yuuji emotional support crew#also Was gna include his grandpa final panel but i Did Not Want To#he is implied through th dialogue#side note i donot like how i cn see this scenario playing out . ..yuuji this isnt ur stop u r monopoly voice Just Visiting ok >:(#anyway I broke my own heart with this and ik i hyped it up a lot but i hope that its not just me...#hope i did not hype it up fr nothing and no one else finds it devastating :((((( that would b humbling in the worst way#pls ...join the happy party train.......i hate it here i suffered pls :<<<<#also !!!! colours in this !! i cooked i fear . adding th first bit of warm hitting yuuji's face after th first 2 panels....#ive never had that kind of experience while drawing before it was wild . painful ! but wild.#the whole transition from p 2->3 might b the most emotionally moving piece ive ever made to me#not 2 sing my own praises tho i will shut up ! i wil. nap
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Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine
#genshin impact#arlecchino#peruere#clervie#ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short#ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half#i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved#like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can#but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay#and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up#and maybe no one else ever will#DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak#but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB
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paper bag
#inanimate insanity#ii#inanimate insanity invitational#ii 2#ii 3#inanimate insanity pickle#pickle inanimate insanity#taco inanimate insanity#inanimate insanity taco#ii taco#taco ii#pickle ii#ii pickle#don't tag as ship please#also. this is from pickle's pov. i don't like the way the whole fandom victim blamed him because he didn't forgive taco#brian said he's literally canonically depressed thanks to her. he has been burning her letters ever since he got them.#pickle has made it very clear that he does not want to be around taco and that he's still badly hurt. it doesn't matter if taco changed#you are still allowed to not forgive those who hurted you even if they change#pickle ii i love you forever im so sorry people were horrid about your mental health#you deserve to be loved and happy and never bothered again. you moved on and i am proud of you#pickle ii ily#max does art#osc#osc art
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waiting for marvel to take you up as their comic artist so that we can have amazing art with cherik official storyline
marvel hire me to draw professor x and magneto making out sloppy style for forty issues straight you will get a BAJILLION dollars i promise
#fave#snap chats#'professor x' what are you a cop. moving on#vjeLKVJEALKV thank you much my friend one can only dream .....#you know whats so funny tho this just reminds me how like. My Number One Cheerleader was my highschool english teacher#she also ran the comic club in case thats relevant. because i was a part of that club OBVIOUSLY#i used to want to be a comic book artist but now i dont but anyway as a part of this club we'd have to draw comics sometimes#and alllll the time my teach would be so happy to get my stuff and she'd always be like#'[Snap] please promise me you'll never give up comics i want to read a comic from you one day' and stuff like that#i think id throw up laughing if i got to email her one day like 'omg hey teach 1.) im not a moody teenager anymore#2.) i got to work for marvel check it out <3' and i have to send her old man yaoi JLVKEJLKAEVJE#FUNNIEST TIMELINE IN THE WORLD I'D ACTUALLY DIE LIKE PLEAAAASSEE THATS ALL I COULD EVER WANT IN LIFE#on the realest note tho i didnt appreciate her enthusiasm enough. i wish i could tell her thank you someday#i think of her a lot whenever im in the dumps about my work she really is one of my biggest motivators#like i guess i COULD just shoot an email. maybe if i actually do something cool with comics or something#i dont even know if she remembers me so it'd just be bizarre wouldnt it#ANYWAYS. sappy story time's over theres a matcha crepe cake with my name on it BYYYYYEEEEE
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I’m not meant to work I’m meant to be part of a werewolf pack and be so very eepy and snuggly with all the other omegas in a big cozy nest all day >:((
#turning my failures into fantasy#im scared im never actually going to ever have a significant amount of income#i make like 20 something bucks a month if im lucky from side hustles#ive worked 2 fast food jobs for a collective 6 days and couldn’t handle it#only hired me in the first place because they said they were desperate for workers#only hurts a little bit#i just wanna move out so im not sensory overloaded 24/7 and my ocpd brain can give it a break with constantly day dreaming about moving out#i finish college this week!!! and have zero experience in anything#don’t go to college kids it’s a waste of time if you’re not doing a trade job#sighh
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Auron Core moment except he'd get away with it 😭
#yuurivoice#yuurivoice auron#yuurivoice memes#big dick move from a mf running a drug empire 😭 watch him still not get caught LMAO#He got Trish on speed dial he wouldn't even be in the pit for a hour before her ass would be at the door 💀#no bit he'd win his own case too 😭 he has no fear#“your honor have you ever considered changing that wack ass cologne you got on?” 😭#he'd never say that but please consider sassy quick with the comeback Auron 💀🙏🏽#im just yapping#at this point
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i genuinely dont understand how gifsets and fanart get tens of thousands of notes the first month the media releases but a few months later it just gets a couple hundred. this isnt even about wanting more notes i just cannot believe you guys are moving on so fucking fast. its one thing if its a goofy sitcom thats not that serious but i have seen some of the most incredible, intellectual, truly life changing prices of art over the years and posts about them would get 40k notes right after release and maybe 200 max just six months later. how the fuck are you not thinking about it anymore. i will think about it for the rest of my life.
#ive always thought this with the show dark it is in my opinion the greatest show of all time and gifsets now get like 400 notes at best#but after season releases theyd get thousands#AND NOW IM SEEING IT WITH I SAW THE TV GLOW AND THAT MOVIES STILL FRESH IT CAME OUT THIS YEAR#AND IM SEEING GIFS WITH OVER 10K NOTES FROM MARCH BUT NOW THEY HAVE LIKE 300 HOW THE FUCK DID YOU MOVE ON FROM THAT MOVIE#i will never ever ever stop thinking about that movie for the rest of my life im not kidding im considering getting a tattoo of that ghost#its the best movie ive ever seen in my entire life#anyways im gonna post my first gifset of that movie soon expect at least four total in the coming weeks#but i was looking at the tag for caption inspo and saw the difference in notes and got crazy#i saw the tv glow#dark netflix
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i also don’t want to portray myself as faultless. my work isn’t ai and it isn’t copied. but nk will say i Had old pieces that were copied and referenced ai. Yet it isn’t good faith when i apologize, state how i took accountability, and explain thats definitely not the case today because i learned my lessons- to respond with well you made these mistakes in the past so how can i believe you, you are lying, and have not changed.
so i quit. how can i prove myself then besides what i mentioned in the last post. my question is will you even ALLOW me to prove myself. each time i must explain, i place a spotlight on something that was resolved agreeably with the artists, resolved by removing the works, and resolved within myself by learning from it. but by not saying something i also allow You to concoct narratives and have to watch people spread them around and come to me demanding apologies. it is a very uncomfortable very distressing process that has worn me down completely.
never mind that other artists who have copied have not nearly been requested to apologize as much as i have been. never mind that they were forgiven when they removed the works or even when they just say sorry and don’t remove the work at all. But you still choose to hound me afterwards for doing just that?
nk has stated that i have not fixed this. and that i must address it. how many times though? for how long also? who on this planet starts the conversation by recounting all their mistakes, especially when they know they are resolved.
i have had to learn my lessons through cruelty like yours. trust me its a trauma i have to bear and they are not lessons you then forget.
my anger and my feelings of defeat come from the fact that even after nk was still talking like i had not even attempted to make progress. just look at your tone here.
#im going to fking throw up this is the last time i will ever say this#do not come begging to be for another apology i am done#i will never address this issue again okay#i need to say this because no matter what when i see people supporting me now i feel guilty#i recognize it is just because i hate myself#it is because i havent accepted i made mistakes#but i cant accept it because people cant accept it#i cant accept it and i cant move on#and that is why i think its best to leave art#i cant make work i am proud of anymore#i dont want to list names of artists#but i will say that when king chris reposted my work without credit i viewed it the same as when i referenced other artists work#but there was no callout no request even from the comments for credit#and he has millions of followers#i felt like i could not stand up for myself because i have this history#because of this history i can never properly defend myself i feel i must always kneel to it#even though i have changed and realized i was wrong i still have to acknowledge it always
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FFXV is so infuriating bc its obviously a tragedy with a bittersweet ending at best, but I can never accept the way it ends bc the entire ending arc is the most out of character shit ive ever seen in a story. Its BAD its awful i love this game sooo much but its so bad it keeps me up at night. That post about tragedies is so real; things couldve been different and couldve been better but for it to have changed would mean to have the character be someone else. But it fucking SUCKS bc ffxv is full of tragic moments where youre like ‘oh absolutely they would absolutely do this’ and ‘bro he would NOT fucking say that ! He would not DO that !!!!!!!!!!’
Ignis absolutely would risk going blind and dying if it meant saving Noctis. Putting on the ring was accepting a death sentence, and even if he survived, its TRAGIC that he keeps losing more and more of himself in the name of defending the crown and Noctis! Nobody wants this, ESPECIALLY Noctis! But this is what Ignis has devoted his life to; he would be a different character altogether if he DIDNT find himself expendable.
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in the SAME fucking game, u have Noctis post-crystal walking around like hes been possessed !! 😭 he just SAYS shit that makes no sense, things that sound like writers needed to make Important Big Speeches happen, but forgot to add the character development that wouldve made it believable! Hes been in what amounts to a COMA for 10 years! He misses his FRIENDS he depends on them!!! I can accept that he dies in the end but he would NOT fight alone and die! Hes want his fucking FRIENDS that he MISSED for TEN YEARS to help him!!! They work together for the Ifrit fight but NOT the Ardyn one? For WHAT???? That shit about Fate was so fucking WACK it was executed soooo poorly and it felt like a crutch the writers used to stay on track when they didnt know what else to do.
FFXV is a tragedy but its sooo bad bc the things that mattered for the entire game was ignored in favor of a dogshit Generic Protag 1v1 Fight that left no choice but to have the game end the way that it did. Noctis would absolutely go into a final fight asking for a picture of his best friends to keep with him if he knows hes subject to getting trapped in limbo or worse, death. Its still one of my favorite scenes in any game ever! He would NOT say ‘walk tall, my friends’ WHOOOOO is this man possessing Noctis, thats NOT him! He wouldve said the shit he said at the campfireeeeeeeeeee he loves them and theyre the best friends he couldve ever had and no generic speeches couldve conveyed that love properly !!!!
The game is about u and ur boys being lost and directionless in the face of grief and loss and standing together to find meaning and justice in the mess of it all !!!!!!!! Why would they NOT be in the final fight! All of them wouldve DIED for Noctis and the biggest way to convey character growth wouldve been Noctis saying ‘u know what; thats okay- i dont want anyone to die but i know life, the astrals, and fate itself wont let that happen. If were going to die were going to do it together. And maybe together we can defy fate and save this world’ RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥
#UGH#yells…#SCREAMS#i CANT go back to this fucking game i CANT it gets me so ANGRY#i didnt even talk about LUNA and how FUCKED her character was from the get go#DOOMED from creation !!!!!!!!!!#she WOULDNT be a MOM figure to Noctis shes already a MOM figure at age 20 or somethin to the WHOLE world!!!#thats like his older sister or some shit I DUNNO !!!!!!#ugh.#AND SHE DIES FOR NO REASON ILL NEVER GET OVER IT#its the most OBVIOUS ‘we need to give our protag ANGST to move the story’ shit ive ever SEEEEEEEEEN#UGH!!#ffxv#long post#im……augh…
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*adjusts mic* *leans forward* “lan xichen is guilty by admission.” i say, “despite how people often portray him as being innocent and purely a victim of jin guangyao’s manipulation, and he is, but not wholly. he refused to acknowledge the fact that nie mingjue was in the right to be angry at meng yao over what he did during the sunshot campaign. even excusing him. lan xichen OUT RIGHT refused to believe nie mingjue when he said that something about meng yao was off and not to trust him. lan xichen is a smart man. the reason why he didnt notice the things nie huaisang noticed is because he CHOOSE to not have any doubt.” the crowd boos before me.
in the back, a tall and broad figure stands, “they’re right!” the figure booms, its nie mingjue.
#IM NEVER GONNA DROP THIS#EVER.#also that absolute POWER move from nie huaisang to have lan xichen kill jin guangyao.#he really said ‘’you allowed my brother be killed by your ‘friend.’ so how about you kill yours too.’’#his brain. the eighth wonder of the world. truly.#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#nie huaisang#nie mingjue#lan xichen#jin guangyao#meng yao
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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: Dimension 20 (Web Series) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Adaine Abernant/Oisin Hakinvar, Adaine Abernant & Oisin Hakinvar Characters: Adaine Abernant, Oisin Hakinvar, Lucy Frostblade, The Bad Kids (Dimension 20), The Rat Grinders (Dimension 20) Additional Tags: most of these are mentions - Freeform, no beta's we die like lucy frostblade, Pre-Relationship, Pining, Possibly Unrequited Love, POV Second Person, Colored Text Summary:
Imagine you're a skinny little dragonborn wizard, in a class with a cute elven girl. You don't talk to her, but one of your adventuring party members is pissed thinking that party is getting preferential treatment, so you KNOW about her. You watch from the corner of your eye or from a spot on the back of the class whenever she's actually there.
#i ended up cross posting it to my ao3#its more convenient to read both parts like this#anyway this can both be shipping#and for my aroace adaine truthers out there#please read this as my second favorite trope#genuinely unrequited love#in which oisin is in love with adaine but is content acknowledging that to himself and will never ever make a move to act on those feelings#im too lazy to bring over the tags from my original reblog of the second chapter lmao#but just know i have THOUGHTS and FEELINGS#nobody look at me#im going to go throw myself off a cliff now brb#adaine abernant#adaine o'shaughnessey#oisin hakinvar#oisin x adaine#adaine x oisin#adaine abernant x oisin hakinvar#inkblade#oisaine#adaine/oisin#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#d20 fhjy
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i had a dream that the intellect stat in elden ring directly affected the nonexistent luck with women stat so i upgraded it to maximum possible and then woke up
#shout out to nonexistent luck with women stat i thought i could try it out with malenia#not talkign abt the nightmare that made me unable to tell reality fron dream n scared of ppl noticing im uneven. yeah#i got unbelievably drunk to cope w the unevennes but im still rlly scared to interact. im also scared to interact bc i thought i fucked up#i also think. i might never draw anything ever again. can we move on from that too please. sorry#also for anyone thinking from this post that i figured out how to play elden ring no im playing godmode no hits. sorry
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the most gorgeous man I've ever known sent me a drunk voice message hurt that i left my job at the bar he goes to without telling him and adding that he saw me on tv speaking about palestine, which turned into me telling my ex boss to give him my number, and the sober voice message was much worse because this sweet guy just tells me that he's so proud of me and then i can feel him like talking with a constricted throat saying he understands that i left and closes with "from the river to the sea" and doesn't it just suck that some things have no hope of ever beginning and yet still end somehow
#there is literally no way something could have come of it he lives in that pub and i don't want to go back there#he has addiction problems and I never had a relationship with anyone#it still sucks that these are facts cause i liked him a lot. and also im not kidding when i say he is the hottest dude I've ever seen.#this is maybe the first time i wish i was heterosexual and/or have less impulse control#radio live transmission#sorry over sharing again cause the psychologist still has to tell me when the first appointment will be#(they kinda also told me i dont really need one which is funny bc the first time i try not to do things alone in my life#bc im pretty sure this hyper self reliant and aloof behavior might be a problem and im told actually im doing splendid.#i won at therapy ig)#also i told everyone there that i moved back home because im a lying liar and#thank god he still hasn't done the math that he saw me on tv still in turin#ive had Cold as Ice by the Foreigners playing on loop the entire day trying to get back in character#like. you'd think if i HAVE to experience something close to heartbreak then at least i could have had sex with the#hottest guy in the city. no. i just get the half assed symptoms of it after having conversations with him every weekend for three months#ranging from his cocaine addiction to police violence to the one time he was staring at nothing by the store room where i went to pick stuf#and he offered to take me to miami and i panicked and joked that he didnt have the money and left.#this sucks.
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there's something so comforting about artists you admire talking about their own struggles and insecurities
#txt#was watching supereyepatchwolf's video on chainsaw man again and listening to fujimoto express regret about things he didnt learn#and how he's clearly envious of his peers is so... comforting?#i think about my own strengths and flaws and often times i get so frustrated with my shortcomings#im not good at drawing feet; my backgrounds are purposefully simplistic and lack a lot of detail; sometimes my designs have a tendency to#overlap or feel very 'safe' in terms of what i really want to do#its why; despite my love for clowning on media and animated works. i never want to feel like its from a place of malice#the joy of art is always seeing those little mistakes and nuances. its also noticing the achievements other creators have made that you#still lack#even for a certain hell-based show i love to poke fun at for its many. many issues. its undeniable how incredibly passionate the work is.#and i do respect anyone who is willing to get their flawed media out there (myself included)#i see stuff about people calling me their inspo or how flattered they are when i compliment their work and its like. gee. i hold myself at#such a high bar and even still im always surprise when people tell me how much my work moved and changed them#i really love writing just little fun things that i just dont really see anyone else touching and its kind of fun how despite my own#personal grievances with my own flaws and mistakes#people really do find things that they love within them.#anyways I know this is getting long but I’ve just been getting sentimental abt the creation of art#sometimes people make fun of me for love of drawing women and lesbians and bugs and so on#and while I will never let me deter me from my process. sometimes it does get to me#but then I remember that I love doing this and could ever see myself holding back#and knowing despite how other people feel. I have so many followers who resonate with my weird ass shit#that it’s all worth it. ya know?
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i think one of my least favorite parts of grief is how you do eventually generally feel better and think about it less. i rmr when i was 13 i was distinctly incredibly scared of one day forgetting, or moving on, or accepting it in anyway. and its still just as painful but then i also feel guilty or like, im doing something wrong for not thinking of it as often, or not being affected by it every second of every day anymore. like that picture thats like grief doesnt get smaller but the rest of ur life gets bigger. but im mad that the rest of my life is getting bigger, i dont want to leave him behind
#i think also#in some little way i dont know what or who i am if im not grieving#it felt like for so long it was the only thing that existed in my life and all my thoughts and actions revolved around it#but its been five years and every year im more focused on other things and other problems or worries#if i cant see my dad ever again i dont want to move on#atleast if im constantly thinking about him and not getting any better its like being as close as i can to him#idk this stuff is hard to word#and now i am upset from thinking this hard about it#....which makes me feel better#that i havent moved on#i never will anyways but#it does seem like less of a huge thing the more time passes#but whats the point of truly reaching acceptance if i dont get rewarded by seeing him again#i dont want to accept it]#Okay sorry i was thiniking about this on the bus sorry this is my diary..#id usually post stuff like this on quotev i miss u quotev
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