#im like erg

[changelingsandothernonsense]

gonna paint today, can't make words work but i can make art work ;)

[harvestmoth]

hi spoiler embargo ended. get rejuv blasted

[velaraffricate]

i need to be physically restrained if i want to stop starting a thousand conlang projects at once

[gohard-or-gohomo]

Fuck my stupid baka life......

[kwazacles]

IO CANT BREATH

thguis whole scene.e.er.hhorihiphihipjiogiro9go9-uj im going to cruy psl halpIM SO NORMAL (im on the v erge of twears) I HATE THEMPJIJIPJIPJIR stop looking at him like that dude

[enden-k]

How do you keep making oc's that aee just so... nom-able

Like i don't usually have the erge to bite, but your ocs are like puppy's chew toys, you get me?

Anyways, thank you for the good food, I demand 20 more, thank you (kidding obv, but i'll happily take whatever you're willing/able to give us)

HEHEHEH... thank you sm that makes me rlly happy aaa

thanks for enjoying!!! im actually preparing another post w some more sketches and maybe some explanations if wanted before i continue drawing main line bc yea...i drew a lot in my past free time, it all went into this tbh shbd

[fucksurass]

I have to go outside. My phone is one 1%. Why? Bc of @azrielthedrawer

What did he do, you ask?

EXIST

Im trying to clean my room and all of a sudden I get the erg to draw him once more. And what happens? I dont change my phone. What happens next? Im being told im heading out. What happens next? I sit down for a second before blaming him and then making this post.

He looks so dumb I should really be focusing on my other things like art requests, my au and cleaning my room

[strictpunishedhubby]

Dein Mann wurde solange er zuhause wohnte von seiner Mama streng erzogen? Sie hat ihn immer, wenn er ungezogen war gehörig seinen nackten Po versohlt? Auch wenn er dabei laut weinte und schrie bearbeitete sie seinen Po weiterhin solange, bis er die von Ihr zugedachte Strafe vollständig erhalten hat? Er musste sich anschließend bei seiner Mama schluchzend entschuldigt und ihr zeigen, dass er sein Verhalten bereut? Setze unbedingt die Erziehungsmethode seiner Mama fort, sei auch streng mit ihm, denn der Mensch ist ein Gewohnheitstier! Männer heiraten im Unterbewusstsein in der Regel eine Frau, die seiner Mama ähneln. Er wird dich als erzieherische, strenge Ehefrau nicht nur akzeptieren, sondern er erwartet, dass Du ihn weiterhin so erziehst, wie es ihm schon seit seiner Kindheit erging und wie es ihm vertraut ist. Schon vor der Ehe muss er spüren was ihm blüht, wenn er Dir nicht gehorcht, widerspricht, sich respektlos verhält oder sich nicht so benimmt, wie Du es von ihm erwartest. Damit er weiß, Du setzt seine Erziehung noch strenger als seine Mama fort, verprügle als Präventivmaßnahme an mindestens zwei Tagen in der Woche ausgiebig seinen nackten Po, auch wenn er ein artiger Junge war! Es ist deshalb notwendig, damit er Deine Autorität nie in Frage stellt und sich seiner untergeordneten Rolle jederzeit bewusst ist. Stelle klare Regeln auf, die er akribisch zu befolgen hat. Er wird Dir dafür danken, indem er Dich nicht nur heiß und innig liebt, sondern Dich auch verehrt, ja Dich vergöttern! Er wird alles tun, um Dich zufrieden zu stellen und glücklich zu machen! Er ist und wird im Inneren immer ein kleiner Junge bleiben und Dir wie ein artiger kleiner Junge gehorchen. Jedes Mal, wenn er Dir nicht gehorcht, lässt Du es ihm schmerzhaftes spüren, indem Du ihm Hose und Schlüpfer herunterziehst und ihn ausgiebig verdrischt!

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Was your husband raised strictly by his mommy as long as he lived at home? She always gave him a good hiding on his bare bottom when he was naughty? Even if he cried and screamed loudly, she continued to work on his buttocks until he received the punishment she intended in full? He then had to apologize to his mommy through sobs and show her that he regrets his behavior? Be sure to continue his mommy's parenting method  of upbringing, be strict with him too, because humans are creatures of habit! Men subconsciously marry a woman who resembles his mommy.  Not only will he accept you as a nurturing, strict wife, but he expects you to continue raising him the way as he has felt since his childhood and as he is familiar with it. Even before marriage, he must feel what is in store for him if he disobeys you, contradicts you, behaves disrespectfully or does not behave the way you expect of him. So that he knows you are even stricter on his upbringing than his mommy, as a preventive measure, spank his bare butt extensively at least two days a week, even though he was a good boy! Set clear rules that he has to follow meticulously. It is necessary so that he never questions your authority and is always aware of his subordinate role. He will thank you for this by not only loving you warmly and deeply, but also adoring you, even deify you! He will do anything to satisfy you and make you happy! He is and will always be a little boy inside and will obey you like a good little boy. Every time he doesn't obey you, you let him feel it painfully by pulling down his pants and panties and beating him extensively!

[happi-speech]

Ok now the agent, subject, AND ergative are looking all the same now lol. 😅😭

Currently confused on how to parse the difference between an object and an agent lol

[suffarustuffaru]

Not meaning to throw any shade at Rem, but I hate how her character ended up being restricted to only loving Subaru. It became her personality and her reason to exist

Meanwhile my man Otto has layers and fun dynamics with everyone WHILE also being codependent and hopelessly in love to Subaru (in my point of view)

I hope that now Tappei will be able to balance Rem's character and give her another personality trait besides her love for Subaru

ok so if anyone else is seeing this, this is referring to a poll i made a few days ago pitting rem and otto against each other bc theyre both the resident codependent subaru devotees and they do parallel/contrast each other a bit 👍

but yeah anon… not to affect the poll results or anything wkdndnd but i agree a lot with you!! i have mixed feelings on rem bc i do love her a lot—im halfway through her and ram’s prequel novel and im enjoying it a lot, and also i liked her the moment i watched season 1 of the anime for the first time. shes an intriguing character with a well written backstory and her own set of flaws and traits. but i think the big thing is her and ottos relationships with subaru, while subaru is first place in both of their hearts and subaru comes first before anyone else at this point, rem and ottos flavors of Dependency are different?

like with rem, i think its the point that her whole being ends up revolving around subaru. not that otto isnt like that either, of course, but otto has Way More of a life outside of subaru. otto has a whole group of people from the emilia camp to marone and his family that he cares about other than subaru, and on top of that, ottos job in the emilia camp is to communicate with others both within and outside of his camp. then theres his dp, which is also dependent and ABOUT communication. when it comes to rem and otto, theres absolutely no competing on this, otto is the one with more of. a Life. not that rem doesnt have other people she cares about and other people she talks with and other people she likes (and also rem was unfortunately Gluttonyed), but the top two closest people in her life were always ram then subaru. otto got lucky with his loving family, bc rems Entire Life has molded her into being dependent on others. shes told by her family that the only reason shes alive is bc ram saved her. ram is the only person who loves her. she envies ram and then she feels so guilty after her village is destroyed and rams horn is gone (especially when rem is initially. kind of Glad that rams horn is gone). so rem places her worth on serving the people she loves—ram and subaru. rem has spent her WHOLE LIFE like this. remsuba as a relationship has its ups and downs but arc 3 rem is, while sweet and well meaning, shes not the healthiest. remsuba isnt the healthiest. and then arc 7-8 comes in and yeah while rems pov of subaru and the whole situation is Understandable from what little she knows, yeah its not the healthiest either (and also i dont forgive her for being mean about natsumi wkfndnd).

not that ottosuba is the Healthiest given they seem like theyre going to become. a bit Toxic in arc 8 if they keep being stubborn, but the big difference is in how otto and rem devote themselves. bc rems problem (in arc 3) is that she enables subaru a little too much. i mean sloth if exists for a reason, she ran away with subaru and RAM AND EVERYONE ELSE DIED. ottos problem is that hes 1. obsessed with opposing subaru and 2. not straightforward with his feelings the way arc 3 rem is. bc at least pre gluttony rem is gonna straightforwardly be like “id do anything for you” and “i love you” etc etc. like yeah ottos like “youre my friend!!” but hes also gonna complain nonstop about subaru to his face and say shit like “ill leave at the first sight of danger!!” RIGHT AFTER RISKING HIS LIFE FOR SUBARU. and also even then arc 8 rems siding with subaru on louis so shes enabling him in that respect too (even though arc 8 rem is different from arc 3 rem of course). ergo, rem is the one who wants to support subaru Unconditionally. even if its not what youd consider the right decision. otto tries to help subaru get what he wants, but if otto doesnt agree he starts getting aggressive. rem makes herself pliable and into a bit of a doormat for subaru, otto starts getting out the pitchforks and tries to control things bc he thinks his way his best for subaru in the end. that, and while subaru does go first in ottos heart, hes STILL loyal to the entire emilia camp as a whole (minus roswaal). thats why he wanted to leave vollachia, he wanted to save the ENTIRE emilia camp.

but like you said anon—while the point is that rem ends up centering her whole life around subaru, i feel that tappei handles otto (who has SIMILAR PLOT BEATS) with far more nuance. like while otto will literally do anything else besides actually say “i love you” or “id do anything for you”, his arc is more straightforward and consistent than rems. again, rem got gluttonyed and a bunch of different stuff have happened with her so of course her arc has been more Dramatic in its changes, but with otto he grows and changes but at the same time he doesnt change At All. his arc 8 self is doing stuff hes been capable of this whole time, vollachia and subaru just bring out his more hidden traits. the narrative is just way more consistent with emphasizing that while otto thinks hes in the right, hes also Wrong in a lot of ways. his mindset rn is Not Healthy and i feel that the narrative shows that more with him than it does rem a lot. like the writing literally goes out of its way to shit on otto a bit for being a little messed up in the head, while you have to read more into rems plot and then some audiences just completely miss the point of her character. that and—yeah, rems reasons are all very understandable, but i feel that tappei romanticizes her a bit too much. all you have to do is look at sloth if bc sloth if seems a Bit too fluffy to me despite the absolute Dark Backdrop. like yeah. subaru rbds back to arc 3 at the end. but i feel like sloth if just sweeps a lot of the dark underbelly under the rug. ottosuba as a dynamic to me just feels more Equal than remsuba does, which is probably a bit strange HAH bc ottosuba as a dynamic is based on Conflict (especially when you remember ottosuba across the ifs too) and their power dynamics in arc 8 are likely going to get crazy at some point.

plus its like—the way the whole louis situation has been handled made me think that tappei wouldnt even bother examining the Problems with louis and subaru + rems relationships with louis, but luckily arc 8 has been getting into that more. so like i dont completely trust tappei with female characters (he has a habit of. fumbling the bag a bit with them sometimes, imo. he gets out such great complex main female characters then he starts messing up with their writing like halfway through). but like you anon, i hope that rem gets far more character development. the poor girl has spent her whole life basing her worth on others….

and well. again, i think the difference in how the writing treats otto vs rem is probably also bc ottos a boy and rems a girl. so of course otto consistently gets a bit more nuance, and of course certain parts of the audience just see rem and think “waifu who would do anything for you” rather than “this is a traumatized girl who means well but has poor boundaries and Codependency Issues”, and some people see otto and think “he doesnt love subaru that much lol” and sweep his own codependency and Issues under the rug. and then you look at the narrative and, like you said anon, otto is allowed to have fun dynamics with everyone while still being Fixated on subaru. rem hasnt had much of a chance in that category yet.

[i-luv-carl-grimes]

☾꙳all the things I hate about you☀︎꙳ pt.5

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Chandler Riggs x Fem! reader

Warning: swearing

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Hi everyone! sorry it’s been so long, ill try my best to post every time I can but I do have a really big school trip coming up (it’s out of state) so I’m getting a lot more work than usual so my apologies if updates are slow

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we made it, I was now only a few days away from being a part of something incredible and most importantly I, me, Y/n L/n was going to see Chandler fucking Riggs in person! how amazing right?  At least that’s what I would say if I hadn't already promised I wouldn’t bother or talk to him unless needed to 

I and my mom decided to take a small break and go get some food at the airport, I thought that now would be a good time to call F/n, I clicked her contact and listened to it ring, and ring, and ring some more “Hi this is F/n sorry I couldn’t pick up the phone im probably busy” before the voicemail sound started playing I hung up, F/n always responded always, no matter what she was doing, but I just brushed it off and decided to text her 

‘hii I just got to Atlanta call me when you’re free!’

I then took my last bite of food and me and my mom left 

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after what felt like hours, we got to our new house, my god it was huge! “go ahead and find a room N/n (nickname)” my mom said and I nodded putting in my headphones and played f/b (fav band) before grabbing 2 boxes one filled with clothes the other filled with hygiene products,

I opened the door with a bit of struggle and almost dropped my boxes looking at the entire, I was a HUGE fan of big houses and the way they look so this was amazing, I ran up the stairs forgetting I had 2 boxes in my hand, let’s just say the moment I had reached the top of the stairs my arms were sore

after passing 2 other rooms I opened a door to see a room with 3 windows one leading toward the roof, I sat the boxes down and lead up against the wall, I grabbed my phone out of my pocket only to feel disappointment fill me as there was no response from f/n, 

“Y/n come here!” my mom said and I slowly made my way downstairs taking out the headphones as my mom talked to a woman there was a boy standing next to her he was looking down but when he lifted his head up and we locked eyes I imminently ran back upstairs and behind a wall covering my mouth with my hands, 

I had just locked eyes with Chandler Riggs, CHANDLER RIGGS IS AT MY DOOR,  

“Please come in, I’ll go get my daughter” I heard my mom say as footsteps filled my ears, my heart was racing my breaths were heavy sweat dripping down my head,  “hun?” my mom said, and turned her head to see me sitting on the ground looking like a nervous wreck.  “are you okay Hun?” she asked and violently shock my head before standing up and pointed to her ear she rolled her eyes at my childishness and leaned down,  “Chandler Riggs is literally in our house mom, no I am NOT okay,” I said and she laughed.  “come on Y/n you 14 you need to stop being so shy” my mom then pushed me forward so I was standing at the top of the stairs, I could feel Chandler and his mom stair at me, I dug my nails into my hand as I felt my mom erg me to go down the stairs so I did I walked down slowly till we were both standing Infront of them, and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't lift my head up not for a second when my moms hand went to my shoulders forcing me to once again lock eyes with Chandler, HOW CAN SOMEINE BE EVEN CUTER IN PERSON OMGGGGGGG

I was internally screaming when I saw Chandler’s face turn into something that looked, disappointed?  “this is my Daughter Y/n” my mom said and I looked back down and gave a small wave.  “like Y/n L/n? well isn’t this a surprise you going to be working with my son right?” she asked and I nodded,  “I’m Gina it’s lovely to meet you” she said and I opened my mouth,  “its nice to meet you too” I said quietly shaming myself for not looking at her while she talked.  “y/n has always been so bashful my apologies” my mom said and once again I shoved my nails into my hand.  “oh that’s Fine, Chandler why don't you introduce yourself?” Gina said and my heart began to race more just by hearing his name,  “oh there’s no need, Y/n has told me so much about you” I looked up at my mom with a ‘why would you say that look’ and she chuckled.  “she has always loved, what was his name? Carl? since she was little” my mom said and the more she did the more I wanted to jump off a bridge.  “Hi I’m Chandler” GOD HIS VOICE WAS NECTOR FROM THE HEAVENS OMGGGGGG AHHHHHHH’

“it was lovely to meet you too but y’all are probably busy with unpacking so we’ll be off, heres my number if you need anything,” Gina said and handed my mom a piece of paper.  “Thank you for coming over I’ll see you soon,” my mom said and they left

I just made eye contact with Chandler Fucking Riggs, not once BUT TWICE, wait...why did he look at me like that? was there something On my face? maybe my clothes? did I look at him weirdly? did he think I'm weird? 

did I seriously just ruin my first impression with the person I have admired my whole life

GOD DAMMIT Y/-

[otherhearted-culture-is]

Hi um im mads😁i have a few (maybe a lot) of questions.

So im having trouble finding my identity. So i know and accept that im human, but sometimes (ever since ive heard abt therians and otherhearted ppl) i have the erge to run on all four legs and i get a few animalistic insticts. Ever since this, i awakened as a therian May 17, but i dont think im a therian anymore cause doing more research, i might be otherhearted.

Ive taken some quizzes and idk what to do. Im positively sure im otherhearted but i cant tell to which animal. Idk what animal i connect to, but i get the animalistic instincts of that animal.

So in concludion, the main thing i need help with is figureing out the animal im connected to.

If you dont have the time or answer to respond, that's totally fine and i just tried to reach out (not getting my hopes up on a response)!

Have a great day🩷

Interesting! Up until recently, it hadn't occurred to me that someone could know they were otherhearted without knowing their 'type in the same way otherkin often do, but you are the second example I have seen this week. And like... why not, right? Why wouldn't it happen? Not sure why I never thought about it before. Though it's very different from my experience, so I'm curious what it feels like. If anyone knows of a personal essay or the like going over that, let me know!

Anyway, enough of my aimless musing, here's my advice:

I think good old fashioned Research will probably be your best friend here. You know what instincts you're experiencing, so search for animals whose behavior matches those as closely as possible. Read about any that stand out as potential hearttypes in detail. Keep in mind that it is possible to have multiple hearttypes and/or be 'hearted with a clade instead of a specific species.

Also: I think the majority of advice geared towards figuring out one's theriotype should be portable to this, so seeking out posts about that might help you.

I wish you good luck! And thanks for that image, I will be stealing it and sending it to my friends immediately after I post this.

[capeta]

The erge to gush and ramble about your comic @ceephorsshitshow is insane fr. Like I cannot believe how incredible your story telling is and it fits so perfectly with your artstyle im insane

[brehaaorgana]

re:mdzs, i could be totally wrong as im not a native speaker, but as i understand it re: sibling order, sometimes it's more about the overall birth order than your own position in it. for instance my classmate has 2 younger brothers and while she can refer to them as being her younger brothers #1&#2, its also understood (at least by our teachers) when she says erdi/sandi bc even though there is no first didi, SHE is first in the birth order shes dajie, erdi, sandi. hence why in the mdzs case, re: 3zun, lan xichen may have a gege and a didi but its understood to be a trio and that he is the second, therefore jgy is the third (not first little brother to lxc, or second to nmj). the only thing that changes is the reference point (i.e is he older/younger? hence why jgy may be referred to in fanfic as nmj&lxh's “sandi” but iirc nhs refers to jgy i believe in cql as “san-ge”, bc jgy is older than him. lxc can be erge from jgy's perspective, erdi from nmj, bc he's still second overall of three.) as i say, take this w a grain of salt im not a native speaker, but i could ask one of my teachers for clarification if no other native speaker weighs in. and sorry if i misunderstood ur question lol

You didn't misunderstand! My gut feeling is that it would make sense like...

If LXC is speaking OF JGY to someone else, then he could be san-di, as in "the third brother of us three brothers." It's that I don't think LXC would directly address JGY as san-di, because he would just be a "didi." (Setting aside canon, bc I don't remember if he ever actually does use that in any form. If someone can confirm novel usage that'd be great.)

Like in your example, does your classmate directly address child #3 as "san-di" when talking to her second little brother, OR does she call him "er-di" directly, but he is "[The] san-di [of the siblings]" when referring to her family unit as a whole's birth order and to a third party?

I guess I'm asking "is the pronoun of direct address relational to your own relationship to the person, or is it fixed on birth order?"

Because imagine you have 5 sons. Is son #3 "san-ge" or san-di? Would it be Da-ge, er-ge, san-ge, si-ge, and wu-di? Also wouldn't san-ge refer (generally) to si-di, not a si-ge? Would he directly address son #4 as "Didi" and #5 as "er-di" (possessive, direct) but then in a third person present context say "si-di and wu-di"?

[jdjdjrrj]

TADC AU "The Glitch."

Hello folks, Im here to present you all my Au, im kinda excited to show you all this lil' proyect that had me brainstorming for an while now, so without further wait, let's begin!

[Warning: implicated murder.]

After an few months of pomni being trapped in the digital circus, things were "okay"...well, as okay as that it can get, at least, but that was bound to change real soon.

One day, in the deepest parts of code in the three dimensional circus-themed simulation, Where all The coding takes place, something unexpectedly happended, an catastrophy Error in the simulation tooked place, wich alerted Caine's programm while he was explaining the new adventure to the humans, so after he was done, the Ring master Ai and bubble went to where all the coding was created and stored in.

And that where they found *it*....

Glitchy

Caine tried to eliminate the Glitch, but unfortunaly for him, bubble and everyone else in the digital circus, The Glitch was faster and with just touching Caine, it absorbed him and bubble along, and causing Both of the ai's ti stop functioning.

And while, in more "normal" situations", this would end with the simulation shutting down since Caine is the sole reason everything still works, it didn't happend here, because Glitchy had absorved and gained Caine's reality warping powers, now it was the only reason of the Digital's realm is still active...to everyone’s unknown (for now) Chagring.

Because Glitchy felt an itch...with the powers of basically an Deity, it could do *anything* inside, it was the ruler of this realm, He was greatness! An GOD....yet it wasn't enough. It needed more.

Because due to Caine's own storage, it showed a little bit of "The Human World" and Glitchy, being the lil' power hungry and greedy b(Censored), wanted to also have all control of that too, Because right now, it was aware that it was just an King in an small island (literally and figuratly speaking) But It didn't know how, and not matter how much it would snap it fingers it was Frustating it...until it found out about the 5 humans still trapped in the digital circus, with the jester one still trying to found an exit.

So Glitchy took this as an opportunity to find The way out and become an true God....but first, It decided to have do some experiments, since Caine's programm was about making adventures, Glitchy!ERG, with it's newly Absorbed reality warping powers, changed the entire simulation to something more akin to it, got itself an avatar (wich is basically ERG'S normal attire, except just being the helmet and the coat with the gloves, the rest not being present, like Dusttale!papyrus.) introduced itself to the humans, and then....well, I think It's obvious what happend next.

Tl:DR: Caine and Bubble (**Truck noises**) dies, everyone is gonna have an bad time, and Glitchy is an complete C(**delphin noises**)

Well, that's all for now, Have an nice day and Goodbye.

[taelovesjohnny]

muted ( the outsiders) chapter 1 Late At Night

here is another story I’m writing with a friend!

I was walking home, it had been a long day at work. If your wondering, I dont go to school anymore. yes I got parents, and yes, they dont really approve but i didn't give them a choice. So anyway, im walking home, my muscles are sore. And im awaiting the fluffy pillows on my bed. My name's Millie. Millie curtis. Im 15, the only girl in the gang. i have 3 brothers, Darry, the oldest one he's strong handsome and very protective of me. Sodapop, he's 15, movie-star handsome, and the brother i can tell anything to. Last but not least Ponyboy, the youngest of all 4 of us, he's 13 loves movies, and books. and my parents, very nice people. they care for everyone that  turns up on their doorstep. 

Im almost 2 blocks away from home, just passin' a dark alley way, when I here footsteps behind me. I turn around and see it's a greaser boy. He's wearing boots, a leather jacket, and jeans. I get along good with other greasers. Most everybody thinks im gorgeous, not me. I think im just a typical, average girl. I keep walking. not thinking anything of it. Suddenly, i feel his hand on my shoulder. I spin around, and look up at him. Im short around 4 feet 4 and I hate it. have to look up to everybody. 

so this dude starts to kiss me. i try to push him back, but he has a strong hold on me. I've never seen this guy in my life. What kind of person does this. I mean, socs i can understand, they do this to everybody. But greasers?? I thought we were better than that. He's trailing down my neck, I'm trying to get out of his grip. I can't, which is kinda' surprising, I am strong for a person my size, and i can pack a good punch in a rumble. I guess this new dude, has done some serious weight lifting. 

" GET OFF!!" I scream. 

"Now baby, why would i do that, you have such a pretty face, i can't resist."

" Your're sick!"

" Hold still, or im gonna do something we're both gonna regret."

" Please, I beg you, please don't do this."

But I knew that it was hopeless, once somebody had a person, they could do whatever they wanted, espeically to girls. The next thing i knew, he had pushed me into the dark alley. And pushed me to the ground. God Dammit. I didn't have my blade. But he did. He took it out, and cut my clothes off, and rolled me to the corner of the alley. It smelled like cat poop, and trash. But that was the last thing on my mind. His blade was trailing down, from the bottom of my ear, to the bottom of my neck. silent tears were rolling down my face. He was now naked and trusting himself on top of my and r@ping me. I didn't know how he could do both things at once, but he continued to cut me and r@pe me. and all i could do was lie there. I struggled for a good portion of the begginning but now my strenght had gone. I don't know how long he was there but it felt like hours. When i finally got off, he silently put his clothes back on. 

" Bye, Bye Kitten,I hope to see you 'round again"

and then he spit in my face. I was left there, no strenght, no clothes, and friends or family near. I just layed there, in the mud. Hopefully my family would get worried, and come look for me. Hopefully. I dont remember when, but at some point I went into an uneasy sleep. It was filled with nightmares.

Dally's Point Of Veiw.

I had just moved to Tulsa, Ok. My parents had abused me ever since i was born, and i finally had the sense to run away. Not that they cared. They probably didn't even know i was gone. I had packed up and moved out. I was living at a bar, no problem, i was used to the noise. Anyway, It was a dark night, perfect to go find so trouble, or make some. I was walking a long a street, when i spotted a girl, just perfect to be messed with. She looked innocent enough. I had the erge to make her life miserable. I dont know why though. Maybe she reminded me of my sick mother. who always acted like she was god or something. 

At one point I was blinded by rage, and put my hand on her shoulder, the next thing i knew, i had her down on the ground. And i was r@ping her. The thoughts going through my head were mercyless. She deserves it. I didn't care how fucked up her life would be after this, I just needed to let go of some steam. when i had finished, i threw on my pants, and told her

" Bye, Bye Kitten, I hope to see you 'round again." 

and with that, I walked off. back to the bar. to go get drunk