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In this moment, Teddy doesn't think she's ever trusted Nolan as much as she does right now. The one thing stabling through the chaos. She feels his arm come around her, protective and tense, pulling her against him as the impact of shattered glass rains down, slicing through the air. Teddy flinches, eyes shutting tight as she raises a trembling hand to shield her face, her shoulders stinging with the sudden slice of a shard. "Fuck!" she gasps, a raw sound of both pain and fear. But her gaze quickly darts to Nolan, catching the blooded line on his cheek.
She opens her mouth to say something, anything, but as masked figures pool into the street, Teddy's caught in a moment of confusion and terror. "Who even are..." they're locked in a second of hesitation as the figures blend into the chaos of the crowd but that single second of hesitation is ripped away as gunfire starts. The crowd's screams merge into one overwhelming wave, Teddy frozen before Nolan's grip tightens and he yanks her back with such a force that it nearly knocks her breath out.
When he pushes her into the broken storefront, the crunch of glass underfoot sends another shiver of fear through her. "Nolan..." Teddy's words are cut off as her gaze lands on the bodies strewn across the floor, blood mixing with dust and glass shards. For a moment, her mind blanks, caught in the brutal reality sprawled in front of her. But then Nolan steps in front of her, blocking her view, his hands firm on her shoulders, his voice cutting through the chaos like a lifeline. Her gaze fixes on him, her focus reeling as she nods. "Right, yeah. Okay, keep moving." the words barely escape her as he's guiding her again as they rush for the stairs.
Each step feels like it pulls her deeper into a relentless nightmare, but she clings to Nolan's hand, fingers wrapped so tight she can feel his pulse beneath his skin. They climb higher, but even as they rise, the chaos beyond the store doesn't quiet. Every scream, every burst of gunfire seems to reach up to them, clawing at her nerves, setting her teeth on edge. When they reach the next level, Teddy scans the space desperately, searching for anything that leads to the roof. There's no sign of a fire escape ladder, no hatch, no clear path up.
"Fuck." she breathes, voice barely audible as her fingers tighten around his. She tugs him into a nearby room, her grip slipping free only when she rushes to a set of doors, throwing them open with a hope that feels thinner with every second. The fire escape outside is barely hanging on, the metal warped and rusted, the first few steps crumbling, more of a hazard than an escape. Her gaze flicks to Nolan, catching his eyes as she runs a hand over her face, pausing when she notices the blood smeared across her palm.
She lets her hand fall back to her side, swallowing down the rising panic. "I think your legs are long enough to skip the first steps." she mutters, a shaky grin shot at him. "Maybe you can make it across and pull me over?" she offers, her voice a mix of urgency and doubt, fully aware they're running out of time. And then the sound of footsteps echo from the floor below, too fast and too many to be anything friendly. Looters, masked figures, she can't tell, but the threat feels too close. "Go, quick. We can do it." Teddy urges, shoving at Nolan's arm in a rush, to get them moving.
Nolan wishes they could stop so that Teddy could catch her breath from the shock of what's happened. But they can't, and so he continues to pull her along, holding her upright as they trek through the treacherous streets. "I don't know! We just gotta get outta," he gestures wildly as they run, doing his best not to outpace her but maintain the sense of urgency. The very real fire at their back urging them on. He nods at the suggestion of back streets, already pivoting them towards what he thinks might be a path when another explosion rocks the ground they stand on and he tightens his grip on Teddy, hunching over her protectively as glass shatters from a nearby window, shards flying in every direction. He squeezes his eyes shut, wincing at the cuts that slice at his cheek. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
"That's in the other direction!" he shouts over the discordant noise surrounding them. "You're right about the back streets, they're our best–" bet. Words cut off as masked figures emerge and Nolan swears, already tugging Teddy back cautiously "We need to get off the streets, Teds." It doesn't matter where but his only focus is on getting them both out of this mess. They can find people later. There's a tense moment, when the figures stand still, having pooled into the crowd. The seconds feel like a string, pulled taut before it snaps and everything speeds up when they begin firing into the crowds and the screaming starts.
He doesn't think, he just does. Nolan tightens his grip on Teddy's arm, practically hauling her back. "We gotta go up!" He yells, trying to think quickly as he shoves her into a blown out storefront, the door hanging off the hinges, glass crunching beneath them. There are bodies on the floor, unmoving and bloodied, covered in debris. Nolan spins around, trying to see any sign of life before his gaze falls on Teddy. Her gaze on them. "Teddy. C'mon, look," he moves to stand in front of her, two bloody hands on her shoulder to draw her focus. "We have to keep moving." Nolan's voice contrasts the chaos outside as he tries to reach through the fog to Teddy. Which he hopes is enough incentive to get her moving again, his heart pounding as he takes her hand, already pulling her into the store, towards the stairs he sees leading up to a second floor. "The roofs, Teds – best bet." He explains as they begin to climb, his heart seeming to beat in time with each rushed step.
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most offputting twink youve ever seen in your life
#orikan the diviner#the infinite and the divine#i am once again inflicting chromatic abhorrations upon you all#he laughs like a crow and would refuse to spit in someones face because they dont deserve to touch him even in that way#he. looks very dramatic.#..yknow. ive kinda dealt with being told to draw nicer things and cuter things my whole life and. always struggled with it#very recently have been trying to draw more freak shit and. i am realising just how much that criticism has held me back#im fucking terrified [see i showed my partner this first and when given the stamp of approval i just said 'really' in shock like four times#but. im enjoying it more. i want to do more freak shit like this#anyway. the divinerrrrrrrr
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o yeah btw i liked these guys from the latest crk update..... detective gays.... macaroni and cheese....🤭
#i finished the story it was fun#whyd i have to get invested in the cookie npc yaoi... need them to kiss#i thought cheddars design was kinda boring (esp after the golden cheese update where every design slapped... hes also cheese...)#and he looked rly similar to almond so i think they couldve made him look more diff#but i still liked them LOL... esp macaroni cookie he's sooo cute#tsk macaroni cookie does everything... hes even an attack dog... what do u do cheddar cookie?#ur lucky to have such a cute smart and useful hoobae...😙#i saw some cute fanart of them on twit so i'm happy :)#joking i dont think cheddar is completely useless but it makes me laugh bc he has the#'my job here is done ;)' 'but u didnt do anything' *dramatic exit* vibe#at the v least he's good bc he has faith in his partner...😙#if they arent already dating theyre def gonna start dating... doesnt take a detective to figure that out...#like stop playfully bantering in front of me🙄#oh btw i liked their kr voices so much#cheddar's voice was... insanely good how could they just use this voice on an npc#like his voice makes up for any complaints i had on his design#and macaroni sounds cute... i looked it up and apparently its jeong ui-taek?? who also voiced archbishop cream and 1 of captain caviars crew#voicing a bunch of cute npcs but no playable cookie yet...#im curious how they sound in other lang tbh...
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Do Howdy and Barnaby ever get together in your human au 🥺🥺
of course they do, who do you think i am
oh BOY do i have things to say about human!Laughingstock! im so unwell about them allow me to talk and talk and talk and ta-
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so in this au they're like... the ultimate slowburn. their feelings for each other slowly simmer and grow over the course of *checks nonexistent watch* a lil over a decade i think. it's not very dramatic - just soft & silly w/ just a heap of pining and a pinch of angst for Flavor
it starts when they were teens - Howdy had a lil crush on Barnaby in middle school. and how could he not? Barnaby was cute, hilarious, and kind. at this point, they weren't friends! Barnaby knew Howdy's name, but only because they'd shared a school since elementary (as with 6/7 of the other neighbors) & speaking from experience, you just Know Those Names. Howdy slowly "grew out of" this crush, especially when the friend group started forming and he & Barnaby became actual friends.
that crush would fluctuate over the years. It starts out strong and then softens into just this hum in the back of Howdy's mind. always there, often easy to ignore, just... part of him, in a way.
Barnaby has a similar experience. when he and Howdy became friends, he got a lil crush - how could he not? Howdy was cute, laughed at all of his jokes and had a few of his own, and was endearingly eccentric. but at the time, Barnaby didn't recognize the crush for what it was. so he elected to ignore it until the crush dwindled to something easily manageable, something he wouldn't realize is still there. as with Howdy's, it'd never fully go away
and its noticeable enough to their friends that they'd all kinda side-eye how touchy Howdy & Barnaby are with each other (Barnaby is a physical guy, but damn. if Howdy is nearby they Will find a way to be touching at all times), the way they always laugh at each others jokes, the way they always ask "where's [x] / is [x] coming with" whenever the other is absent. but the group couldn't be sure if they were looking into it or not. it's too subtle. over time they get so used to it that they don't bat an eye - Howdy is Barnaby's best friend after Wally. of course they're close!
but then there's this one college party Howdy drags Barnaby to (and by extension, Wally). they're drunk off their asses, Wally's edible has kicked in, the party is pretty chill and everyone is having a decent time. all three of them are on the couch, and Barnaby and Howdy start drunk-complimenting each other. naturally, this feeds their mutual attraction, and one thing leads to another! they make out on the couch. naturally with Wally sandwiched between them, snacking on chips and committing the moment to memory (it's a surprise tool that'll help them later!) neither Barnaby nor Howdy will remember this
now, something i'd like to state for Barnaby in this au! he has had a lot of relationships - from one night stands to actually dating someone for months. sometimes the one night stands were a "he takes someone home after a date, & they leave while he's sleeping and ghost him" situation. with actual dating, the other person always breaks things off after a few weeks, if not days. it breaks Barnaby's heart a little bit every time. to the point where in his mid-20s, he just... stops dating. he avoids other people's advancements towards him, he always takes a friend with him to bars/etc as a buffer, he becomes an expert at gracefully turning people down
("why, pray tell" no one asks "do they always leave him? he's such a catch!" that he is! when he was in school, it was his friend group. he'd try to introduce his 'girlfriend' to his friends, and it'd be an immediate "eugh, you're friends with those freaks? no way!" as an adult, people found it off-putting how (by societal standards) unusually close he was with Wally. also, again, a "weird" friend group. they'd think it's too much, or just not their scene, or 'why don't you date your little blue haired boyfriend', etc. Barnaby never holds it against Wally or his friends. he has the mindset of if that person was the one, they would accept every part of Barnaby - and his friends are indeed part of him. Howdy has also dated around a little, but to a much lesser extent. he's too busy! he doesn't have time for that!)
but the ball really starts rolling in their late 20s. something the group does together - as a fun lil rare hobby - is LARPing. they get really into it! Sally made them all custom costumes, Julie helped make the weapons (like a giant sword for herself), etc etc. they fully commit to the bit (even Frank <3). so at this event's point in the timeline, Eddie is fully integrated into the clique, but that's unimportant - just to show where we are!
so they're all doing their thing, it's a pretty big LARP event - there's always way more people than our dear neighbors, yk. they're just part of the crowd! & there's a big battle hosted, the group is split between teams, but Barnaby & Howdy are on the same side! yay! during the battle, Barnaby is "mortally wounded." Howdy half-drags him away from the main battle under the cover of their teammates (including Eddie and Julie) and sits him down by the tree. now, Howdy & Barnaby are the ones who get into the roleplay the most. they get lost in the sauce! they perform the hell out of everything they do!
& since Barnaby is "dying", he really acts like it. Howdy acts accordingly, but again, they get a little too emotional, a little too into it, a little lost in the sauce. genuine tears are in their eyes, Howdy's voice is genuinely shaking a little as he holds Barnaby in his "dying moments" (Barnaby is holding the sword between his arm and his side. he has ketchup on his armor.) Eddie and Julie are getting choked up just watching this happen. and as Howdy & Barnaby look into each others' tear-filled eyes, those little feelings that have been so quiet for so long come right back babey! full force! but then they all get hit with "arrows" and have to die right there and then, and the moments over. but! both Barnaby & Howdy walk away from this LARP session grappling with Partially Realized Feelings.
Barnaby struggles with this the most, since yk at this point he's sworn off dating. he's being careful with his heart! but when he tells Wally all of this, cause he tells Wally everything, Wally's like "oh. yes, i know! remember that one college party where you two kissed for an hour". and then he goes on to point out every instance where he's thought "right, Howdy and Barnaby are in love" (bc Wally is way more observant than he lets on! he saw that shit! his peepers were peepin!)
BUT IT'S STILL A SLOW BURN BABEY!
Barnaby and Howdy don't approach each other about this. they're both in the boat of "well, i'll just keep going and see what happens" to the point where they're practically dating without ever saying anything to each other. Howdy notices how Barnaby lingers around the store more. Barnaby notices how Howdy keeps turning up at his work to talk more. (they already chat so much...) but they still! dont! say! anything! but they both Know! they're not emotionally circling each other they are Dancing to their Own Music!
and Barnaby is letting himself believe that this can work because, well... Howdy already accepts him as he is. Howdy is part of the group. Howdy loves Wally just like the rest of em. Howdy has seen Barnaby at his (presumed) worst and didn't even flinch! as for Howdy, well, he just thinks this is right! his whole life no one has really caught his eyes or heart, but Barnaby is different. he's always been in Howdy's peripherals. it feels natural to love him so deeply. Barnaby slots into his life like the final piece of a puzzle!
there's a lot of stuff that happens in this inbetween state - Howdy's store burns down & almost takes him with it, there's some family drama that needs to be handled, The Crash happens, etc etc etc - so it's a while before they "actually" get together. but they're both patient! they've waited this long, even if they didn't know they were waiting. neither of them are in a rush. they're young. they have time.
#oughhhhhh so normal about them sooooo so normal (lying)#'do you know how they get together' yes. obviously. its not dramatic or a big thing or anything#they're just at a function together - maybe there's a little late evening art show in town that wally is participating in#or an afterparty for one of sallys successful plays#but in my mind barnaby and howdy are ofc sitting together off to the side#Flirting. yk how it is. barnaby's like 'hey can i practice some pickup lines ;)' & ofc howdy agrees yk yk#they're all terrible btw. howdy laughs at every single one. barnaby is on an emotional high. the rizz is strong w this one#one thing leads to another - barnaby says a terrible line essentially asking if howdy wants to ~come home with him~#but like. howdy agrees. and immediately the tone between them goes from lighthearted & joking to dead serious & tense#everything between them has gone unspoken until now but Now Theyre Saying It#suffice to say they leave the party early! they're giddy giggly lil bitches about it - acting like teens sneaking out yk yk#GOD THEY'RE SO FUCKING AGHHHHHH THROWING THEM FULL STRENGTH INTO A WOODCHIPPER#sorry. sorry. im calm now. thats a lie. i will proceed to explode#but anyway anyway#so that was a whole thing & basically long story short Barnaby has the morning of his dreams#Howdy makes him and Wally pancakes and they all have a nice quiet breakfast together. The Domesticity🤌#im gonna go shove my head in a blender now. excuse me#rambles from the bog#wh modern human au#gonna leave that as the tag#but yeah their story is just! slow! its a soft descent!#meanwhile frank & eddie are stumbling through their feelings like newborn fawns#but yeah and howdy & barnaby continue to take their time#its a while before barnaby is like 'hey wanna move in with us?'#howdy '....yeah sure'#and Boom! Howdy moves in!#and they actually get married a while later without anyone but wally knowing. they do it for tax reasons initially.#since they're not ready to be Married married but! they! want! the! benefits!#they keep their own last names and dont have rings bc again! theyre not ready for that yet!#FUCK IM OUTTA TAGS I HAD MORE TO SAY! TUMBLR INCREASE YOUR TAG COUNT! AGH
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Thinks about how. Gloreth only starts looking at Nimona differently/strangely when her parents call her a "monster". Just throws that label with such a negative connotation on her. Gloreth fucking fights for Nimona immediately in the beginning saying that she's her friend and never once looks at her with ridicule until her mom just holds her by the shoulders and tells her she's a monster, straight in the eye, straight in the face. And just the word is enough to cause the change.
Nimona's getting fucking attacked and prodded and Gloreth doesn't even feel sorry for her just because she's now re-contextualizing everything around her but with that word. I'm so sick. She looks not in hesitance but at disbelief before she runs away. She sees Nimona trying to defend herself from literal Danger in any way she can (she's just a kid and she's fighting with people who won't listen, never will, people that she can't get through) but just sees that as more proof of her being violent, monstrous. She sees her friend all alone, with the odds and the world stacked against her despite them being. so similar but just tells her to go back to the shadows.
And like. Of course she believes those words calling Nimona a monster and takes them to heart. Her parents, the ones she would probably trust most are the ones that told her that. And she's young, she doesn't know much about the world or much better. And of course, her parents and the whole village don't know any better. They didn't see what she saw. They don't know or feel the need to know much more than the definition of the word "monster". But it hurts. God it hurts. It's wrong. It's not fair. It's really not fair.
And it causes this whole legend that will stay with Nimona to ridicule her for generations and generations and birth this system that she's trapped by and causes everyone to be so brainwashed. The one that makes people scared and build walls. That births unecessary distrust.
God. Even in the scroll illustrating Nimona and Gloreth, Nimona is portrayed as such a bigger and scarier threat than she ever could be or would be, until Nimona internalized and gave into those images and despair of course. It's not fucking fair.
Thinking about how when the villagers saw Nimona as a "normal" person they were happy for her just living her life and playing with her friend, she was just another kid being happy like she and every ("normal", apparently) person deserves to be, and they were allowing her to be happy then when they find out what she really is they hate her. They call her a monster and drive her out immediately. They don't look into the details that contradict the stigma, they just feel betrayal when they weren't even the ones who were betrayed (Nimona couldn't fucking help being who or what she was. And she was her own person. She was still. A someone. Why do things have to be different now?). I'm so sickkk.
Thinks about how Nimona feels so hopeless as to just. Accept and yield to that label. That label that was passed down to Gloreth. To the whole world. Such simple but awful words. Aughhhhhhhhhhh
Another post I saw talks about how this is a movie about how hate is taught. And oh my god it is. Hate it taught. It's done so simply yet so, painfully effectively. So devastatingly. And that hate teaches people to hate the world back. God I fucking loooove this movie
Also Nimona's such a Creature /pos /affectionate she's so relatable I fucking love her and I'm insane okay that's the post bye
#nimona#nimona movie#nimona gloreth#this is all to jsut say the trans allegory is INSANEEEHAUEORBHAEOH it. touched me.#watched this movie with some irls after never hearing of it befroe in my LIFE and. as a person who had. a very miserable june at home#and is still having kind of a miserable time at home#this movie made me feel. very accepted and loved :)#lmao at one of the emotional points with nimona one of my irls like dragged me in for a hug#because i was laugh-sobbing very loudly because being dramatic is fun LMAO exagerrated reaction y'know#and they said it's because they couldn't tell if i was actually crying or not#and while i don't think i was in that moment#i think i was genuinely crying at some point#not in an obvious way. just slight tears. and not the laughing kind#and it was great. what a great movie <3333#the fact these themes are also. extremely prevalent in another piece of media im currently hyperfixated on is sooo unfair you can't do that#also unrelated but i love how casually ballister and ambrosius' relationship is portrayed#it's so nice to see it just. be there. and be wonderful#all in all yeah great movie i am now sick for life <3#also i spent this whoel post misspelling “nimona” as “nimora” i'm :skull: good thing i reread and edit before posting
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i wish i could remove the word “adopt” from kept peoples’ vernacular lol
#they constantly say shit about ‘adopting’ people and it’s so fucking weird to me#like it’s this cute and flippant thing and a sign of enjoying something#or whatever#and especially in fandom they use it for their blorbos and say they want to adopt fictional children and i hate it#adoption is not serious to people who are not adoptees at all and as adoptees we are taught to downplay the severity of our experiences#because if we say ‘hey that’s not funny’ then we get told told we are being too sensitive#we are a marginalized community that’s not even recognized as such and it absolutely fucking sucks and our trauma isn’t funny or cute l#joking about adopting people and characters is weird if u know what adoption really is#it is a LEGAL process that changes our identities and erases all biological lineage and seals our records (sometimes forever)#adoptees are 4x more likely to have mental health issues and substance abuse problems and we are more likely to be abused by our parents#and yet kept people wct as if we are not real people. we are constantly dehumanized in many ways#either adoption is romanticized or it’s a joke and either we are not human as our problems are brushed off#or we are not human and get verbally abused whenever we say something about how experiences aren’t always sunshine and rainbows#not to mention the fact that we are infantilized as well#it’s just… adoption is a different way of experiencing life. like my worldview is entirely different than someone who is non-adopted#there are things that have never even crossed their minds. they couldn’t imagine not knowing what their parents look like#or knowing their siblings or cousins or having multiple birth certificates or having a price tag over their head#yet adoption is just casual for them. it’s no big deal. YEAH IT’S NBD BECAUSE U ARENT ADOPTED!!!!!!!#keep our experiences out of your fucking mouth!!!!!!!#but someone will probably say im being dramatic or too emotional or whatever for being upset#like sorryyyyy. my bad! how overdramtic of me to be upset about not having the same rights as other people and not laughing along with them#god fucking dammit#adoptee voices#adoptee#adoption#adoption in fandom
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the way this ep had me crossing off my bingo "mistynat win" right before a HUGE MISTYNAT LOSSWIN (win but oh lord at what cost) will be funny EVENTUALLY. like remind me in five years i might laugh. not now tho
#i was watching like oh my god . oh my god. the laugh. she looked so overwhelmed and stressed out#and misty's weirdo dramatics made her laugh and relax and changed the vibes in that entire room#its fine btw its fine its fine. fid i mention how fine this is lol its fine#not even ready to talkabt lottienat dont even. talk to me#im going on fcking. ao3#yellowjackets spoilers#yellowjackets blogging
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girls when they.
#i dont really know how i got from point a to point 37 but here we are i guess#tsukuyo amane but i take a pair of scissors to her head and chop it all off#i was originally going to just try to draw her and tsukasa with blue and green clothes respectively to lean more into that but#idk i guess now i just have one thats like. going to walnuts or something on a date or whatever#and now because of this ive got a whole idea on that#where ashley and her just like rent out walnuts for a night for just the two of them on a gay little date or something#where they make it a huge romantic deal or whatever. very dramatic. manaka is laughing at them from the kitchen#anyways ive been thinking about them and their friends again can you tell.#magia record#tsukuyo amane#ashkuyo technically but ash isnt here visibly#snyways im sorry im not good with clothes or fashion i have no idea what does or doesnt look good or go together
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so should you, you ancient fuck 🤣
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No... No... Netflix, no,, please, no... please tell me it's a joke
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please don't make a big joke out of la liga. It's already enough of a joke, but it's my favorite league and my favorite sport so ahhhh...
please netflix why 🥺🙏
#they do it once to f1#and then they do it to la liga#PLEASE#now there r gonna be fans who don't even care about the beauty of the sport#oh lord jesus#im on my knees praying#but you know im gonna have to watch it to see how much they butcher and over-dramatize this sport for views#premier league- bundesliga- watch out#you're next#fc barcelona#me rambling again#football#real madrid#la liga#laliga#netflix#my friends its all a big money game#and theyre laughing ALL the way to the bank#Youtube
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one thing abt torchwood is the dialogue can be so corny and edgy and stupid and it's soo much fun to write. dude torchwood's like a telenovela to me HSFJDSFHKDSJF
#sss#im having owento withdrawals i havent written them arguing in a minute#i LOVE how owen yells at people hes like me when i was 16 n i'd say edgy miserable shit to my mom and she'd laugh at me#which was traumatizing but also i dont entirely blame her cuz the way i expressed myself 😭 anyway owen's like that to me#i had sooo much fun writing silly dramatic dialogue for them in my one fic it was so freeing#like im usually rlly focused on writing realistic dialogue#so leaning into the way its Like That was fun. yeah#txt
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#im to embarassed to talk abt him but omg im gonna EXPLODE#cutest boy EVER in the world EVER EVER EVER#his cute glasses and his pretty eyes and his smile lines and crows feet and the way the hairs at the front curl into a heart shape#the way he sits and the way he stands and the way he talks to his family and the way the big t shirts he wears sits on his waistband and#hes insecure about his body and his acne but hes literally so gorgeous I have no idea why he is#goddddd cutest boy in the worldddd i like him so much it makes me feel sick#at prom (26th june) he tied some loose fabric around my wrist and its still there now#his jeans i see him wear all the time cus theyre his favourite like he has favourite jeans im àaaaaaaaaaa#the way he throws his head back when he laughs and the specific “ha-HAA” laugh he does when he isnt expecting it#his stupid chai latte that he really likes#how he always has to say goodnight 3 times before he stops talking#how he uses the purple heart emoji rather than the regular ones#i had a dream once that we were laying in my bed when everyone was asleep just whispering and giggling and he left in a hurry back to-#wherever he was staying and we were laughing and when the door clicked behind him i just felt so light#UGH HES SO CUTE#his big dramatic expressions and how everything becomes a story#the stupid facial expression he pulls where his tongue goes out and hos eye brows arch when he makes any kind of dance move#the way he giggles when hes about to make a joke#(richie tozier voice) CUTE CUTE CUTE#omg his VOICE. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god man. oh god. help me. god be with me. please.#hes playing troy bolton rn so he keeps singing HSM and im just AAAAAAA I CANT. I CANTICANTICANT#the way his instinct is to grab my wrist/lower arm/hand whenever anything happens#OAIAHAUAGAH GUYS. GUYS I WILL NOT SURVIVEEEEE#his eyes are like. slanted? idk how to describe it but theyre lower on the outside and theyre soooooo gorgeous#ughhh both his eyes and hair are like so-dark brown theyre nearly black and its so fucking pretty i cant do this#at prom i had to lean in to talk to him & vice versa and at some point we were sat towards eachother with his legs kinda like barricading-#mine yk. ugh. he was so sweet and so cute the whole time. like helping me walk in the heels and opening doors for me and following me around#UGHHHH I CANT. GUYS. HELP.#☕#beverly says stuff
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please please please let my phone not be on its shenanigans anymore. my stupid pleading isnt gonna do shit but i don't wanna confront my parents about my phone being technically broken it stressing me out bad idk if will they'll yell at me
#ughh its making me so scared#what if they decide to not let me have a phone because “You were supposed to take care of your old one”#what if I get punished??#will they be mad?? shocked?? disappointed?? i didnt do anything to it i found it like this this afternoon idk how it happened#will they listen to me about that??#who will??#maybe my mom#idk about my dad#whats gonna happen too?? is it possible to repair??#probably#am i being dramatic rn omhyg#well this isnt pairing up with the fact report cards are gonna be next week!!! laugh track#theyre going to get mad at me for some reason#theye mad at me theyre mad at me idk why but they are#im doingsomething wrong im doing sm#closet rambles again on tumblr
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reddit is a very interesting platform cause what do you mean someone expressed their thoughts about the story and a person replied to them 'it's just fiction, calm down'
#why is this happening to orv all the time 🥲#this one actually made me laugh because of how ironic it is 😭#is this also an orv arc#and that someone is me btw#im sorry for being too dramatic for kim dokja i just love that very pathetic man#orv#omniscient reader#omniscient reader's viewpoint
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venting so much i ran out of tags lmao
#i think im hallucinating ?????#i have my headphones on (listening to boyfeel on repeat n choppin up some paper)#and keep feeling / seeing shadows in my peripheral vision#im probably just dehydrated and having bad floaters but i dont like it :)#today has also been bad dramatically awful#life isn't serious there's no reason to feel this heavy#oop very emo thoughts incoming#life can't be meaningful or ill miss my parents too much but can't be meaningless or im living without them for nothing#im just. struggling very hard this year. idk#i had so much health bullshit going on for months that i put off going to a psych n now im so busy that it feels bad taking time off for it#and im also scared of getting on meds bc the idea of being dependent on something that i might not have access to is.. auuughhh#idk dude my adhd has been debilitating lately and i feel so stuck and sometimes i think i have ocd bc my compulsions are so fucking bad and#all my mental bullshit with my breathing has slowly been driving me wild and peaks my anxiety#and sometimes i worry abt being bipolar bc my mom's mom is and my mom's best friend told me she thought my mom might have been#bc the way my moods are so low or so high is exhausting it feels like i haven't had a “normal” day in so long#but also atp when im happy i feel manic bc idk how to healthily experience happiness anymore#idfk y'all !!!! im also very nonverbal these days#ugh and still going back n forth on telling my therapist ive been suicidal again bc i dont want him to have to report me or anything idk#a few months ago i made a joke about offing myself and he got rly serious n said he'd have to take action if im serious so im leaning no#like. i wouldnt actually kill myself. i just don't want to exist sometimes in this life#its just been very very very very very very very very very very very very very very hard lately without my parents or grandma#and even after all these years it's still heartwrenching to think about continuing to live this life without them#like. i just want to make them laugh. i just want to feel their arms around me in a warm hug. i just want to dance to their favorite songs.#i don't want to think of them and see their dead bodies anymore. i want to remember them healthy and smiling.#i would take care of them again in every lifetime but fuck dude. i just want to remember their good days instead of the end. can i please#please fucking invision them at their best. i want to remember the dad that played baseball and video games and whose laugh filled the room#i want to remember my grandma who was so sassy but kind. whose button nose crinkled when she smiled. who taught me to happily be dramatic#i don't want to remember them being frail. i want to forget the frustration i saw in their eyes. i want to forget seeing them struggle#(insert sadness about not remembering my mom at all)#just. fuck dude. my life is simple and i am safe so i shouldn't complain. but things feel so fucking hard sometimes. i feel so heartbroken
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God what's that guy's name again. In Fire Emblem. The slut who wants to be a jock
HOW COULD YOU..... HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME......
#AND I AM SO SORRY THATS HOW I INTRODUCDD YOU TO HIM BUT THAT MADE ME LAUGH REALLY HARD#STARES AT MY HANDS HOW COULD THIS BE........ HOW COULD I BE THE SYLVAIN MUTUAL......... WHAT WRONGS HAVE I COMMITTED TO BE TITLED THIS WAY..#i kid im just being dramatic this was like getting hit with a bus and then run over with a bike right after#no genuinely i do like syl a lot except he makes me feel things incomprehensible (contrasting things mind you)#answered#anons
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