#im just trying to share my brainworms

[diamo-chan]

Just one tiny long hc scenario

Imagine moving in with Felix into Blackthorn manor for whatever reason...because it feels more comfortable living in a house rather than an abandoned icy castle. Everyone makes you feel welcome, except for Escell. Its not even anything he says -even though he says plentily too much - it's his whole aura. To make matters for him remaining staff members treat you as a part of the family, which means with the same autoritary respect. So you're sitting at the table being served by Withersby, have all your wishes granted at hearts degree and don't need to worry or do anything while escell looks at you from across the table the way one would look at a cockroach sitting on an extravagant buffet.

Personally, ignoring Escells existence, I would feel terrible if there was a butler taking care of my stuff. I'd at least want to help. So MC goes to Withersby to ask if there's anything they can assist him with, any kind of work that he might put onto them, so he can do more important stuff. At first, he is reluctant because, pray tell, what if anyone of the anguis house sees that he's treating a guest like a maid/servant. But MC is persistent, and they mean well, so the old man gives in.

He shows them how to do whatever task he chooses, whether its paperwork or cleaning one of the rooms in the long abandoned wing of the mansion, putting the paintings and inventory back to place, trimming in the garden to redesign the hedgemazes layout or setting the table before meals. All without speaking of cause, which doesn't make the task of learning easier but... it goes well over time, and theres always a smile on th butler's face when he sees them.

Still, Escell continues being an arrogant jerk... because it's in his essence to be a prick to possible love interests (*mistakes*) of his children. Until at some point, Withersby brings the Archmage a strong cup of coffee to work through the night. The mage finds a little note on the tray under the cup that reads, "If you continue being rude to MC, I will spit into your food."

And Escell looks up to the Anguis butler in shock, but the elderly man has a perfectly neutral and calmly threatening pokerface.

While Withers may not blame Escell for what happened 20 years ago, he was still a part of the Anguis staff long before young Escell joined the house. And there are certain rules and standards to uphold... such as manners.

After all, he noticed the looks Felix has been throwing MCs way for weeks. The necromancer's never subtle enough for the butler to miss the hints. And he will not have the bitter, salty, divorced noble treat a possible future member of the anguis household with such disrespect.

[brainworm-blitz]

happy ace week to all the aces that were actually horrified/devastated to realize they were ace. btw.

I love u.

[scummy-writes]

Everyone has been super nice about that fanfic across all my social media, and so many kind words pretty much Immediately has left me like this:

I was constantly convincing myself that no one would enjoy it, because sequels are so daunting to me for multiple reasons, so nearly immediately having that disproven has rendered me overwhelmed (in a positive way)

I am very bad at expressing thanks, but thank u!! For reading it and enjoying it!! Thank you for the encouragement and the lil confidence boost!

I hope to write more gilbert in the future. Right now, I'm going to not write for a week or two (but still be active in here) and then think about other wips I want to finish - roomie made a request about a month or so ago, so thats gonna be finished first.

Thank u!!

[the-kipsabian]

i think 1,6k in about an hour is good enough considering how i feel physically. plus i lost my groove so

time to slip back to bed for a nap and daydream how to continue this fic lmao

i havent slept at all so obviously the right choice is to get up and write, right?

[ganondoodle]

since seeing a post from a mutual yesterday i was thinking about how grateful i am that i can now, confidently say something like -im taking demise away from nintendo- or -hes MY character now- while knowing that the people following me will understand that thats not actually possible and also i dont mean that literally literally (duh)

bc (while i have mentioned it in the past and im not trying to fish for sympathy with this, the memories ... and trauma really does come back every now and then) there were people once that imagined i said that about a popular character in the fandom i was in when i was a teen and proceeded to try (and nearly succeeding bc i was already struggeling alot with depression, anxiety and undiagnosed autism) to bully me into killing myself; perhaps it wasnt their actual goal, but the shit they did (alot of them were adults too), was absolutely insane, but i've only been able to see that wayyyy after the fact

like even if im remembering wrong and i did word it wrong or weird or in a way that was easily misunderstood, i was a teen, with english not as my first language and it still was some fandom shit that ultimately did not matter and never in any scenario warrented that level of harrassment, i dont even think i ever told my parents bc i thought i had to deal with it alone since i 'caused' it too and since then just ... wanting to forget it ever happened

while i am much, much better now, and slowly learning to manage my mental health struggles too, i do wonder just .. how much of how i am today was shaped by that horrible experience, like the way i overly try to pre-apologize and put doubts on every thought i write out, or the panic i feel when something does go outside my usual range (mostly twitter really ..) was immensely worsened by that .. among stuff i probably dont even realize

funnily enough, i made my account on tumblr to try and flee from all that was happening to me (even if they did stalk me at first .. even here) and hey, im still here :D

i guess what im trying to say is, i am very happy to still be here, i am grateful to be able to be myself, even with its downsides, even with my problems, even if the things i do are passable at best, even if i will never "make it big", even if i am annoying at times, even if i do mistakes still, even if i am .... horribly bad at replying to the awesome people that message me-

there are, at least a few people, who enjoy, or even care, or heck, even think about what i draw and write, which is .. still mind boggling to me and i might never be able to truly believe its all real, there are people who are able to see beyond my flaws, forgive me if i do missstep or overreact, and just be aware that even with everything i share about me, there is lots you dont know that may inform why i feel a certain way about something, but thats okay, i am human, i am here, there are people who enjoy my brainworms, and perhaps even think i, as a person, am nice

i am so grateful for that

some things are good

[washisart]

im having ginhelios brainworms at the moment and was wondering about your thoughts/headcanons on their relationship from ginkga’s perspective? stuff abt how he started developing feelings for helios and what he thinks of him and whatever else you’d like to ramble about :]

Helios is basically Gingka's rebellious phase but without going emo (it likes vanilla but rebellious, teenager things)

Though my yapping is a bit long but bare with me here. Mostly just headcanons and fill in the void in this ship that sorta stuffs.

Okay imagine this: post-Fusion and early-Master Gingka Hagane trying to swipe his emotions about his father's existence in his life under the rug with the bey battles and his new found fame as that poster boy. But now he learned a better way to hide it and make his positivity more believable: A new tactic to ignore the elephant in the room. After his father is alive, how could he stay mad? Yet deep down, he found himself outrageous for wishing his father stayed as a memory.

I think to Gingka, Helios is really special in a way. He sparks something in him-A desire to get to know someone more in such a short time. From someone who causes harm to his friends to someone he would literally do the extreme for a chance of survive.

When he found out Helios's supposed grandfather lied to him, he immediately see the similarities. They were driven by a bestowed responsibility. Gingka took to heart of his "mission"- defeating L Drago and Helios with restoring his civilization. And he saw how Helios retaliate to the lie. It sparks something, alongside hope in him. They have many thing in common! Helios's compassion is what solidified it. He said "I don't want anyone else experience the pain of our ancestors" and that's when he fell. His consciousness immediate trusting in Helios, even almost willing to let himself fall so his new found ally can live and save the world.

After destroying the meteor and on their way home, they spent time talking to together. The realization of how alone they were prompted them to open up to one another about their life, their desires and fears. Helios brought up the idea of him paying for what HE did yet Gingka told him he would defend him no matter what, even asking his father for help. Just so he can keep Helios free to slowly process everything a bit longer. That shaken Helios up a bit.

Thing happened, they bonded and started dating almost immediately after getting off the ship. It wasn't clear who confessed first, but it's clear that Gingka scope Helios away while he was kept under strict- surveillance for a week or two because of his grandfather's crime. This some what annoyed and amused Ryosei alot, seeing his boy talked back and disobeyed the adult, even him for his "friend"s sake.

You can see it in his eyes whenever Gingka looks at Helios. It marvels at the sun boy with affection. He wants Helios to spend his short free time get to know the "Earth" with his gang. But even Gingka didn't realize that he hogs up the guy's attention most of the time. They just slips and got lost in the crowd together, getting themselves a date at a near by fast food restaurant, walking along the shoreline and sharing tales. Gingka is sweep like a wind and Helios follows just right behind him, almost content to let himself be dragged everywhere on their little date.

It was a two weeks short they were together before Gingka continue the international tournament and Helios went his separate way to regain that sense of normality, yet they keep in touch with each other through video calls every weeks. There is that break up later up but I'm saving it for another post.

[dicevires]

ive suddenly fallen in love w ur heracross gijinka naotora... r u willing to draw more of her 🥺🥺

HI 😭😭😭😭 IM SO SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY I just want you to know that this made me so, so, so happy when I first read it; I don't usually get a lot of interest in my OC or PKG art, I was really happy to receive this kind of message 🥺  I wanted to respond with proper art but I've been so busy & kind of forced my PKG brainworm into hibernation so I could focus on more important stuff 😭 I don't know if you're still here or you'll see this, but sorry for taking so long to reply!!! I really appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts with me, it truly made my day 😊 I feel like maybe you wanted more um... comic stuff that shows her personality & interactions 🙈 I was hoping to get a Mega Evo design down for her & then the second one; i was just color blotching with a different grip on my pen (trying to fix so it doesn't put as much strain on my fingers).. I will prob delete later in the year because they're just scribbles, but just in case Anon saw I wanted to put it out there for now ;;;; TL;DR TYSM FOR THE WONDERFUL MESSAGE I will draw more of her!!!! 💙 (eventually) ((i promise...))

Naotora

[sugar-omi]

SAME ANON AS THE ONE WHO SHARED A MINI SCENARIO OF POP/ROCKSTAR MC DISPELLING RUMOURS ABOUT THEM AND COVE DATING AND AAAWAWSWA IM HAVING TOO MANY BRAINWORMS ABOUT THESE AU VERSIONS OF MC AND COVE GOING THROUGH SECRET RELATIONSHIP SHENANIGANS I-

TWINS 🤝🤝🤝🤝 pop/rockstar au, no matter who's the star is so good... omg i was reading 'bitten contract' (episode 122), and spoilers utc for those who are reading but aren't caught up

but imagine cove and mc pretending to not get along or trying to act normal, and just like in that episode, cove and mc go outside to "have a talk" and imagine someone walking out and seeing them kissing n talking abt how much they miss each other n wanna spend time together (imma be honest im imagining derek as the one to catch em. ik he's not oblivious but he's just my lil pookie i love him)

i love the idea that everyone knows, but them sneaking around is so good too

[eldritchmochi]

I am re reading coping skills and just needed to say thankyou for the food once again because omfg my lil cane user heart is so full, I cant stop imagining the rest of the nein meeting coping!essek and like how they all react to him both in kink and outside, and like how they react to caleb having a partner, many brainworms. Thanks for writing and sharing!!

okay listen, i am *also* excited for the rest of the nein to meet essek in coping skills. its going to be a ton of fun even if i really hate writing things with the full ensemble cast 🥲🥲

a lil teaser of THOTS on how it's gonna go for ur lov and patience:

- jester: absolutely decides shes esseks new bff (shes not wrong). does in fact offer to peg essek, but not the first time they meet she has manners caleb!! (its the second time they meet, and even tho essek expects it he still chokes on his spit and how forward she is). shes also incredibly nosey about esseks health, given she is in the medical field directly herself, which essek both hates and finds refreshing (its so much easier to explain his health to someone who has the bg knowledge)

- veth: immediately shovel talks essek, then basically adopts him when essek gets all prim and proper and politely mean "id like to see you try" and veth is like okay youve got teeth you can protect my boy too im counting on you heres a toddler (luc is delighted by esseks ability to make things float and essek is delighted by the fond looks he gets from caleb over veths shoulder)

- fjord: dubious at first but warms up to essek when essek relaxes enough to join razzing caleb. definitely warns essek about the impending pegging offer from jester, promises to distract her if shes overwhelming

- caduceus: is the one to spot essek flagging at the neins holiday party, sits with essek as caleb is distracted catching up with the rest of his friends as quiet company "its good to see him happy"

[aihoshiino]

I'm at peak doomerism rn how is this series gonna climb out of the abyss that we've been in and are continuing to see. Even if we get the best outcome (aqua rejection) there's a lot more that needs to be done to lay this shit to rest.

i would very much like to not be known for being having brainworms for a show that ends in inc*st full on please akasaka im begging

i was going to make a joke here about how i'm a person who likes shoujo manga, romance fantasy webtoons and weird eroge so the incest barely even makes me blink anymore but. honestly, i think that is actually Not A Joke.

I totally understand if people have too much of an incest squick or are triggered by incest and just have to get the fuck outta here or even people who are just tired of anime being fucking weird about incest and are dropping the series as a result. Life is too short to read manga that doesn't give you incurable brainworms. But like I said in my previous post, I think talk around the series is sort of... missing the bad writing forest for the incest trees, if you don't mind me torturing that metaphor a bit. But I recognize I can only really say that because I'm both pretty desensitized to incest as a topic (two of my favourite creators are, as previously mentioned, Kunihiko Ikuhara and Yoko Taro LOL) but also because I really like art that challenges me and makes me feel a bit uncomfortable. If something gives me strong feelings or I have a strong negative reaction to something - especially a kneejerk, moral judgement - then it gives me the opportunity to both interrogate why I felt that way and to try and articulate, even if it's only to myself, why I felt the way that I did what it was about the work I thought did that to me. I think it's made me a more open-minded and more well-rounded person in terms of what sort of art I'm able to consume and enjoy and I'm happier for it.

However, I fully acknowledge that this is NOT an attitude shared by everyone, especially in modern fandom climate and even more especially so for younger folks, and there are plenty of people reading Oshi no Ko for whom this is probably a whole fucking lot to process!! And there are even more people outside the fandom who are just hearing out of context explosions and random panels of the twins kissing and thinking what the christ is going on over there. It's a mess!

Ultimately the only thing you can really do is focus on the parts of the series you like and continue enjoying those, if you can. I'm sort of at a place in my life where I just unashamedly love the things I love without really worrying all too much about anyone else judging me and I think it's really good to try and cultivate that kind of attitude, too! Like, at the end of the day - does other people turning their nose up at OnK including this plotline take away the things that originally made you love it?

[hughesquinn]

Are there any fics you want to talk about in particular? Is there something you’ve been working on or haven’t started but have been thinking about that are giving you brainworms?

THANK U ANON okay so like. i actually have a lot of fic ideas i Want to write but just. absolutely have not written so im giving u a LIST

and btw all of these fics would hopefully be at LEAST 10k so I can explore them enough <3 adding a break bc I talked so much

- COLLEGE AU WITH THE DEVILS!!!! so specifically. this would be with jack because we all know im a whore for him. this would primarily focus on him in college + getting together with nico. like i would want it to be dealing with a semester in college (or an entire year) where he starts the semester and meets nico, a new foreign exchange student and then his teacher sits him at a table with nico and says he can help him

so then ofc they become friends and jack introduces him to his friends and THEN. winter break and nico cant go home for break (? strange reason id figure it our) so jack offers to bring him to his house for break

and so then how i decide what happens after this depends on whether it would be just a semester + winter break fic or year long fic bc if its just winter break fic,,, then nico shares jacks room, they do a lil flirting You Know How It Is. and then on Christmas he gives jack a gift and jack realizes then that he is actually in love with him and then they fuckin kiss under a mistletoe like the cliched bitch i am

- GIRL JACK!!!! so i Have started this fic and I think i have close to 1k for it but it is smth im obsessed with as i am also mostly a female (gender is weird LOL) but so really my plan for this is just broadly follow career from draft to now but obv. rewrite what i please and have jack be girl

and then of course. i would focus on her + brothers bc i am Like That and i would want to forcibly include some of the canucks also being like protective older brothers to her

like. I want to have a scene of jack luke nico + marino and then quinn brock elias and one other guy maybe? going out after the first hughesbowl and then some dude is creepy as hell to jack (possibly when quinn goes to restroom? and jack is at the bar? idk) but id just want to add the canucks being like older bros to her <3

but i would try to primarily also focus on how HARD it would be for her. like in this au specifically she is the first girl to join the nhl and the ONLY one and i mention how insane the pressure is since she is also #1 pick so. ya <3

- CIFFEE SHOP AU!!!

I actually have notes for one in my phone im such a whore for them <33

^ that plan is from January so likely if i do this id update it and shit but ya that is basically an au <3

- and finally (bc ive talked so much)…. RETAIL AU. like i fucking despise retail so much and id want to take it out on the devils. but imagine…. Jack and nico as coworkers…. there is mf Tension between them…. luke joins and he is cashier :]

and then also there would be a point where luke goes on his break so jack takes over the register and some guy fuckin yells at him <3 because jsck asks for id because he’s buying alcohol bc it is the law <3 and guy yells at him so much he cries (is just me venting LMAOO)

but yaya ill stop now bc ive talked so much

[nyxofdemons]

OHHHHKAY I FINALLY WATCHED THE FIRST EPISODE OF HAZBIN ON YOUTUBE AND . HM. HM. MANY MANY THOUGHTS HEAD FULL

okay okay. please dont hate me. i was underwhelmed

LISTEN I CAN EXPLAIN. the first thing that stuck out to me was the,,,, dialogue? in some scenes its GREAT but initially i was sort of jarred by it, i feel like it's going wayyy too hard on the exposition at the cost of immersion. it just feels noticeably clunky in scenes

the SECOND thing, i both LOVE and dislike the music. i love like 65% of happy day in hell but vaggie's sudden interjection, plus the sequence where the background changes and charlie is like rolling along with all the random sinners singing felt. aghhhh i don't have a new word a lot of it just feels CLUNKY to me !! help !!!

i DO enjoy the characterization, from the get go a lot of it seems very very clear and tightly written. alastor remains my favorite character and the implications of vaggie making a deal with him have me MAJORLY intrigued i am SO curious about their dynamic in particular .

i. fucking. LOVE. ADAM. OH MY GOD HES GREAT. his speech style his outrageous personality HIS TAKEOVER OF HAPPY DAY IN HELL MADE ME SOOO EXCITED, THAT WAS THE BEST PART OF THE EPISODE TO ME. ive seen criticism of him as 'uhh the writing is so dumb and lazy if the angels behave just like the sinners' but i literally dont give a fuck he is ENTERTAINING (and if i wanted to be serious about it i COULD say something about the juxtaposition between the angels and sinners seemingly having the same brand of humor but being WILDLY different in terms of worldview and philosophy. the angels who are self-obsessed and think theyre the greatest things to ever exist vs the sinners fully embracing themselves as the WORST things to ever exist, and charlie somewhere in the middle. oooooh i just KNOW this is gonna be a whole thing for my brain to chew on)

okay okay im sure theres more i could say but . hhhh. brainworms only. i think my official stance, for right now, is that i am fully optimistic that the rest of the show is gonna be awesome, but, as for right now... i think i actually preferred the youtube pilot to this first episode. i enjoyed the set design more, the character animation more (it feels stiffer in this one?? hazbin pilot and helluva boss both have a way more BOUNCY feel to them, i think, and i just adore it; i felt like it was missing from this one a bit), and most ESPECIALLY the dialogue. i way preferred the dialogue in the pilot than in here.

i DID absolutely love the expectation subversion of adam and lilith, though. that they eagerly wanted to share the gift of free will with humanity, rather than trying to orchestrate a cataclysm on purpose. i really enjoyed that.

(also, my final note: the voice acting is... okay. to me. i feel like some of the voices are sort of forced, and no matter how good he is, i am sorry, but i can NOT reconcile that voice with husk's face and design. it just feels so jarring every time he opens his mouth like my brain is struggling to connect that that's where this voice is coming from. im sorry mr david)

[420technoblazeit]

hi it's the person who asked what you thought about the writing. i actually love the fact you wrote a whole ass essay if you have more thoughts pls share those too. the brainworms are real and i have them too 😭😭😭

ok it's the "thoughts on the writing" asker back after actually reading the post. right off the bat i think you have a really good point about watching more shows :O i don't watch a lot of shows, the last thing i really got into was the magnus archives. which is sorta a ridiculously high standard to set things to (magnus archives my beloved). at the end of the day any criticisms i have are more nitpicks so i'll try to take a step back and not be super harsh and yeah, i think most of the issues come down to pacing. they did the best they could with 8 20 minute episodes. i wish characters like husk, angeldust, and vaggie had more screentime, and charlie and alastor had more development but... realistically, there just wasn't time. things felt rushed bcs they WERE rushed, the writers had to fit a lot into a short amount. overall good take i say :] thank you for sharing!

oh i remember tma! i liked that podcast but i preferred it when it was standalone statements and i kinda lost interest at season 5 but it was pretty good. ty for the ask im thinkign about hh nonstop it's fuckign killing me tbh. yk the meme of that knight protecting a princess from attackers that's me protecting all my followers from the 50+ huskerdust rbed fanarts i have saved in my drafts

[hows-my-handwriting]

as someone who was watching pac rim literally every single day at one point i'm obligated to tell you how insane i am about your au <3 one thing about jaeger names is that they sound a lil cooler when they consist of 2 two-or-three syllable words paired together like striker eureka or crimson typhoon, so maybe thinking about it like that will help your process!! keep 'prowler' but try substituting volt for something like voltage, electron/ica, vanguard, banshee, deadstar, stampede, intercept, sierra, etc. and switching the order of words around^^

(oh and i truly hope this doesn't come across as pushy or condescending bc that isn't my intention at *all*, i just thought i'd share some suggestions for this great au!)

FUCK YEAH. dude i love those movies with undying passion.

i am definitely renaming the prowler and i will definitely keep the two syllable thing in mind >:3

im glad someone enjoys the crazy brainworms swimming around in my brain

[coffinsister]

Honestly I really love occult horror and indie games Thicc with story so to get to play it when I'd heard about it on tumblr and find out it was really good was awesome! I hope there is a storyline for investigating the conspiracy but if there's multiple endings depending on how you approach the story thatd also be so cool 👀 (like if we track down mother/father and find out what they knew) or work to start a new life plagued by the charm and end up dealing with more occult horror or work on more personal based horror with the siblings' back story? Like holy shit it has so much potential and I'm super inspired to write my own stuff bc this game pings my curiosity serotonin to no end (also forgive the ramble im super excited :'3)

Oh don't apologize at all please! I adore this game and I love getting to talk about it always so don't worry if you ever wanna drop by my askbox just to rant about it I'm always more than happy to do so

I have gotten so many tags and asks and dms more so at the beginning telling me they tried the game because of posts I made way back when the game had just come out so the satisfaction of sharing something I like and seeing it get picked up by others is unmatched I'm so glad you decided to try it for yourself and found out you liked it through seeing it on Tumblr originally

I really love games that dramatically change depending on your decisions I don't really think that's what's gonna happen here just because nemlei doesn't seem to be into making that kinda stuff

But still if there's just decisions that all lead you to discovering new things like that then I would completely adore replying it and getting all the endings

I specially like the idea of there being the option to interrogate the parents and find out what they know I think the siblings are gonna encounter their mother again just by mistake tbh

And hey if you ever do write your own stuff and publish it make sure to let me know I would love to read it :3 tbh I wrote my own first piece of this like two days after finding the game because I was so excited for it and just couldn't deal with there being no more content this game gave me all the brainworms so hard

[osmiumstack]

hi hailey!

what helps you stay motivated and keep drawing? i practice everyday but i wish i would improve faster and it gets frustrating sometimes lol.

your art is really wonderful and i love seeing it, thank you for sharing. i hope i can draw like you one day :3

ive been through burnout so much through doing art for school and i genuinely just do it as a hobby now. i am not studying art in college but i did a kind of intensive thing during high school where i had to narrow down what i was doing into a thesis statement. i would get burnt out during the summer because of this and it helped me determine that i didn’t want to do art as a profession.

dont get me wrong!!! it is super important to do the “boring” things to understand fundamentals, but these can come at any time. there isn’t a one size fit all approach to improvement. doing still lives and painting heavily based on observation has helped with being able to translate things onto paper, even though i really didnt like it at the time. i try to break down things into very simple shapes and build from there. some people use guide lines, it really is just about what works for you.

i think now i only draw things that are brainworms, i guess, so its enjoyable. my best advice is to keep it fun! having the drive to do it consistently is hard but keeping it fun and doing based on feel has helped me avoid burnout now. i’ve been fairly dedicated to drawing for 7+? ish years now which is actually crazy thinking about it. it comes with time!!! im still working the courage to start doing big paintings again, but i dont quite have the space to do it (physically and mentally). i do feel kind of silly just doing photostudies most of the time now, but i simply just dont have the gusto to tap into it while doing an engineering degree (save me).

if its any comfort, with all pieces ive done, not sure if its universal or not, there always is that awkward middle stage. not everything will be exact, but rolling with it is something i’ve learned and i think this has helped so much. there is beauty in imperfection and the ephemeral, and i always have been fascinated and afraid of the uncertainty of starting something. theres an awkward stage everywhere, think of it like art puberty ? im crazy. but maybe i am not.

tldr!!

keeping it fun and doing what feels good is a great way to keep the drive going, even though fundamentals are important. burnout isnt the end of the world, and the process of creating something has the potential be very personal and taxing. the most important thing for improvement imo is just keeping at it and celebrating the journey! the fact that you are chugging away at it is very lovely and i know you’re going to find your epic beautiful showstopping spectacular art swag! u probably already have it >:D