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crowkip · 4 months ago

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yeehaw, baby!

#if u know me u knew this was inevitable #kon el #conner kent #tim drake #timkon #im gonna ramble after the boring tags ok #dc comics #fanart #western au #superboy #OK !!!! ITS TIME #so kon. obvs is a cowboy here #definitely a bit of a magnet for trouble but not an outlaw #still not the sort of person the son of the drake family's supposed to be talking to but yk kon's gonna try anyway #on tims end it pretty much follows the same events as the comics bc if it aint broke dont fix it #<- in terms of the whole sneaking out at night to do his own secret detective work thing at least #i have a whole silly story for the rest of it but im not gonna get into it all here lmao #but yeah i love cowboys and actual cowboy history vv much so this probably wont be the last u see of this au ദ്ദി ˉ꒳ˉ )✧#for now this post's rlly just for goofing around with design ideas #my art

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inkskinned · 1 year ago

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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

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beautysnake · 6 months ago

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What he doesn't know wont hurt him.........

#narilamb #narinder #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl narinder #my art #I was having trouble drawing the marker so a friend had the big brain idea of using a stock image #finally back home after being out of town for like a month and a half and im trying to get used to my work tablet again #its been so long #so if stuff looks weird thats why asdlfkjsd

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hotdogmchiggin · 3 days ago

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Company Mandated Fancy Fits on the Tulpar 😏

Also had to include the REAL star of the show (and a bonus)

Based off of this and this. Thank you very much joetastic for being inspirational 👍

The REAL reason this is late

#just pretend I posted this like 6 days ago 😁👍#<-got distracted #sorry I’m Afflicted with The Curse and everything just takes me a long time #also right now I’m just kind of being experimental with my workflow and style right now so stuff is just naturally taking a bit longer #mouthwashing #mouthwashing fanart #anya mouthwashing #mouthwashing anya #nurse anya #curly mouthwashing #captain curly #mouthwashing curly #swansea mouthwashing #daisuke mouthwashing #jimmy mouthwashing #myart #anyway my new years resolution is to put more WOMEN in SUITS and MEN in DRESSES #had fun drawing this but still not too sure about the rendering style just yet. probably just gonna keep playing around with shit #IM DOING IT SCARED but im DOING IT #im also still trying to figure out how to Social Media #am i doing it right #GRAAAHHHHHHH I NEED TO BETTER UNDERSTAND FORMATTING POSTS #i have a more serious mouthwashing piece in the works but wanted to get this done first lol #honestly I have a buncha sketches I should post too #i like them but they’re not really composited very well if you catch my drift. been having trouble with sketch page layout recently #which is kind of antithetical to the idea of a sketch page but you know how it is with spaghetti #i doodled the others on the side and liked how they looked so i just put some color and basic shading on them #edit: realized i forgot to change the color of the ‘lapel’ on jims shirt lol

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voidheartkisses · 7 months ago

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sorry these are super rushed I just really wanted to draw goth lam- I mean goat

colored version

#cult of the lamb #digital art #cotl #doodles #the one who waits #art #cotl lamb #cotl fanart #cotl narinder #cotl goat #narilamb #not a ship #annoying as hell #their crowns would have beef #Im naming the goat black phillip #DOUBLE TROUBLE

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puppppppppy · 1 month ago

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this place is so fruity

#ive had this in my drafts for MONTHS #im not really that confident in how the pose looks so I settled on stopping here #I wish I got to see them interact more but it was so exciting to see Franziska being nicer and a little conscientious since the last game #i knw the main idea in the games is to help ppl we barely know and go thru all this trouble than just dismiss it bc we dont think #its worth the effort but theres also the way this shapes how characters interact and develop relationships with each other #even though i know maya and franziska are like strangers to each other given how theyve barely talked to each other in canon #using what the game tells me abt them and thinking abt how they would interact in a believable way than what they already have #is something i really appreciate abt the ace attorney series. in canon these guys only ever have a reason to interact bc of #circumstances that force them to. canon is a suggestion to me and if smth fanon feels believable to me i could not care less #aa #ace attorney #doodles #my art #myart #franmaya #maya fey #franziska von karma

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improvapocalyps · 9 months ago

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You have 90 minutes to complete. (original poem: r.a.)

In participation of the MCYT Recursive Exchange 2024 hosted by @mcytrecursive!

Inspired by know that all my love will be your breath (i will save you when your lights go out)

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1. Have you ever been in love? (Please circle your answer.) a. It's me and him b. Our hearts beat in sync c. Our lives intertwined

2. Do you understand what you’ve done? (Please circle your answer.) a. I couldn't do anything b. I lost my balance c. I doomed us both

3. It's been god knows how long since you felt phantom hands on your neck and there is no one in sight. If you were soul-bound to him and both of you died at the same time then why are you still waiting in the void? Please answer clearly, in full sentences. (Not a correct answer：I just wanted to see him one more time).

4. Define two (2)： Fate | The feeling of his forehead against yours Curse | The moment you realise he isn't linked to you anymore

5. True or False： i. It was your fault. ii. You wish you had met him under different circumstances. iii. You can’t regret a single moment that you had him. iv. You would do it all over again if you could. v. It ended long before either of you said anything.

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sketch cover thing for imgur link:

#team ranchers #team rancher #rancher duo #jimmy solidarity #tangotek #trafficshipping #mcyt recursive exchange #events #fic fanart #my art #“canary has butterfly-shaped wings it cant do a dramatic spread like that” watch me. (draws dramatic wings) (sorry)#“you have 90 minutes” have been rattling in my brain for so long ever since i suddenly remembering a web weave using it (yes the beeduo one #very glad i can release it (using it in art) from its confines (my mind)#hm i suppose the title would be more in theme if its abt limited life ranchers #← havnt watched limlife yet #but! happy with what i come up with. lil bit proud even #had so much trouble with the panelling and layers in p2 cause it looks too busy (explodes)#also punching the floor bc i only noticed the “yes-no” pair(?) in the original poem when im already half-done w/ the comic #me when making silly comic makes you do poem analysis #i dont even go there ← does not have enough poetic braincells

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kvetch19 · 1 year ago

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#im having trouble #finding out #who these people are exactly #pls tell me if u know #if theyre awful ppl #ill delete it #i think i saw something #about #murder #???#but i dont speak #turkish #(?)#upl #aesthetic #camo

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modmad · 2 months ago

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don't look at me

#I'M EMBARRASSED ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM OK #Click Clack #Thespius Green #Great God Grove spoilers #ggg spoilers #Great God Grove #ggg #mod art #im so in trouble i shouldn't have drawn so much 2 days in a row #BUT I NEEDED TO EXPRESS. MY LOVE.

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macroglossus · 2 years ago

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this is like. such an extremely specific gripe but for her birthday my best friend wants me to draw her in different cartoon styles. which is hard bc i’m not used to drawing in other styles but fun! except the ISSUE is that for steven universe i drew out a sketch in my own style bc it’s kinda intricate. and now i have to pare it down so much to fit in the su style. and it’s annoying bc i think in a style i’m comfy with it would be so cool and pretty 😔

#but in the su style. idk man #rargh #also it needs to be finished by tomorrow and it. will not be #IM HAVING TROUBLE #and i have to do several other as well. i mean i don’t HAVE to i want to

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nestedfeathers · 5 months ago

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it must be hard, seeing what others dont

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crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington · 5 months ago

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he loves him... ill make a drawing where ethan is being nicer... its like a really affectionate big dog that ur dad did not want but now he really likes it but he still acts like he doesnt care and hes all flippant about it LOL

whenever i draw wintersberg i cant help but draw it in a joking way because i feel like the dynamic has so much potential of "im so tired i want to go home vs i want you" 😭 karl loves him very much and ethan loves him too, he wouldnt tolerate karl if he didnt...

karl loves him very very much and ethan appreciates that but it makes him flustered alot , in any wintersberg au i draw karl (obviously) did not propose to use rosemary as a fighter jet so i think ethan would also just have a very deep appreciation for karl helping him get her back

i think karls love language is a lot more physical and hed make ethan lots of little trinkets and make rosemary toys as well and ethan would think its really sweet, hes also a very touchy guy and always likes to be holding at least some part of ethan LOL

i actually dont think heisenberg would actually say the words "i love you", i think its really difficult for him but he defiently DOES love him

ethans love language is with words and acts of service (sacrficie ?) i think ethan would be very willing to do anything he can for karl if he knew it was very important to him, he throws around "i love you" very often and i think at first karl would try and play it off like "i know you do" but after awhile he doesnt skip around it and accepts it 😭

they support/ depend on each other because after re8 i dont think ethan would be in the best place and i dont think karl would be able to manage on his own considering hes been living in a little village with barely any technology for 100 years

they have each other to lean on...

whilw i dont think their relationship would be perfect (karl doesnt ever really say sorry, ethan has major trust issues) it defiently has potential and i think they could be very cute together...

i like the concept of ethan helping karl adapt to modern life and i think its very sweet

#ethan winters #karl heisenberg #wintersberg #thank u for listeninf to my wintersberg ramble #if u have any hcs please share #im not very good at explaining things in my head #i try my best #wintersberg is a very jokey ship to me and its a lot of fun #so i have trouble explaining the geniune side of it #not saying there is no geniune potential for love in that ship 😭#i just personally have trouble thinking of it

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skrs-cats · 10 months ago

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set after leafpool dies, before the bonus scene w jayfeather dealing w that grief gets resolved. guess who was bitter over a certain cardboard character bitch not being included in that

#welcome to my blog where i *gets hit on the head by an anvil and i fall to hell*#do NOT underestimate lionblaze fans. there are five of them and theyre all fucking stupid #warrior cats #lionblaze #leafpool #squirrelflight #hollyleaf #jayfeather #to the anons in my inbox this is why i havent responded am sorry... will get to u guys when im done w this monster #art #im also having a lot of trouble figuring out the alt text for this. if anyone wants to help itd be greatly appreciated T_T #added ID in alt text! ty curlfeatherstar!!!!! (made a few minor adjustments since that is still in fact leaf in the third image-#squilfs walking towards her!)

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frosted-co0kies · 5 months ago

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