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shiftedspecies · 22 hours ago

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ailuranthrope transition

i’ve recently been interested in archiving species transition plans & essays by transspecies folks and figured it was time to make my own. i’ve broken this large plan into a few categories including bodily, wellbeing, and lifestyle. i’ll likely make a follow up to this post as i transition, or if i come up with more ideas.

browse my species transition tag to see more ideas from the community.

cw (genital) piercings, body modification, hunting, kink. 18+

bodily

-body mods: i plan to get a full body sleeve (in between my existing tattoos) of spots and/or stripes. i am also looking to tattoo paw pads on the tops of my feet & the palms of my hands. while vertical paired upper lip and labret piercings may simulate the look of fangs, they're personally not for me. i have 20mm stretched ears & a few other piercings that are affirming, though. (i'd also like to get a large gauge labret piercing & stretch it, but this is more related to my being a horse.) i'm looking into large gauge genital piercings too. i am into a lot of mods but not for species reasons (thumb spines, subdermal implants, split tongue).

-dental: i am also not interested in cosmetic dental procedures (they cost too much imo + i am not the best at oral hygiene), but they are an option. i am, however, interested in custom fangs.

-surgery: human-gender wise i present as a man, but animal-gender wise i'm definitely a female of my species. i mentioned hrt above, but i got top surgery a few years ago and that was more for species reasons than gender reasons. i don't want to do much else in this category, but i have considered metoidioplasty and/or a hysterectomy.

-voice training: i have an advantage here in that im on hrt so hitting a low snarl is pretty easy. but i have been working on projecting my speaking voice and my confidence. i want to maintain the ability to make higher pitched noises as well, so im not just focusing on low pitch.

wellbeing

-working on/maintaining my flexibility and introducing more movement to my day to day: living an anthro life means that my body gets very stiff, and it will continue to stiffen as i age.. unless i work on it! i'm working on a daily morning stretching plan as well as finding additional activities, like dance or swimming.

-similarly, strength and endurance: us big cats are intended to take down prey & we are ambush predators! we also have large territories to walk. i walk a lot already as a college student, but i am hoping to find a new favorite trail to hike! i used to rock climb and i hope to get back into that.

-posture: my body holds positions it does not like to hold. this lifestyle change and those mentioned above involve a bit of research on my end about the muscular and skeletal structure of my 'type and humans. doing this research will show me what is going to be more comfortable for my body.

-allocating more time to rest: so far i've talked about "im going to x im going to z" but i also need to give myself more time to decompress. i'm guilty of disrespecting the human needs of mine, but even more so my felid need for downtime.

-increasing hydration: cats are prone to dehydration & instinctually i neglect this need too. however, dehydration comes with consequences that i would like to avoid.

-vitamin intake: ensuring i get enough vitamin c, d, omega 3s, and collagen/biotin is very important. felids typically produce their own vitamin c, but my body cannot so i need to make sure i supplement that. vitamin d is needed for calcium absorption & bone health. because i am on tesosterone, and have chronic depression, i take this anyway. i cannot do the movement activities listed earlier if i do not keep my bones healthy. collagen/biotin are for nail and hair health. omega 3 supplementation is necessary because my diet is currently lacking them. one day i hope to obtain most of this through diet, but some supplementation will always be necessary.

lifestyle

-forming a social group of animalfolks: although i lean more towards solitary felids, i do think emulating animal social structures would be beneficial to me (i'm also a horse, and other things). additionally, i plan on telling the important humans in my life that i'm an animal.

-sourcing my own food: i come from a family that hunts, and plan to get my small game & fishing license. my partner and i are also about to garden. get your hands dirty when it comes to food! it is affirming (and a variable diet including wild foods is better for you from an evolutionary standpoint.. although i guess we dont fully understand the implications of domestication on diet yet).

-incorporate my animality into my kink & bdsm life: i’ll keep this part brief here (i’ll expand elsewhere), but i need to accept all parts of my animality. i’ve been working on this one for quite some time now.

-nudity: i hope to find more avenues to wear less clothing. around my apartment & appropriate settings. i’d also love to find somewhere to swim nude.

#species transition #transspecies #physically nonhuman #clinical zoanthropy #adult therian #adult alterhuman #lot of these will get their own post eventually

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pencildragons · 6 months ago

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watching house md with my mama every night and each time i have to watch that [INSERT SLUR] write with a frenzied passion on his whiteboard or have A Moment Of Inspiration mid conversation, i am FILLED with the urge to quote WE NEED TO CHECK THE PATIENT'S ASS comic/textpost, except if i do that i will have to then explain what it means, why it is funny, and how i know it, which means i will need to Reveal my tumblr and tbh i don't think EITHER of us are ready for that conversation

#house md #hatecrimes md #i have a really distinct combination of exploitable reaction memes in my head that i might create later on #however i fear i do not have the time to waste making memes in powerpoint at this point in time #but yeah i get home from the uni library at 8 or 9 pm. i sit down and watch 1-3 episodes of house with my mum and eat my dinner .#i go to bed at 11 i journal for 45 minutes and then it is midnight and then i sleep for six and a half hours LMAO #im having the time of my life. but at what cost #gregory house #greg house #words of wyrm

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palms-upturned · 1 year ago

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Like three of my coworkers in the past month have tested positive for covid, every day I see new ppl on my dash mentioning that they’ve caught covid, every day I see and hear from ppl who have come down w something that looks like covid but the test came back negative but also they can only afford to test once bc tests aren’t free anymore and the more accurate tests are also more expensive so there’s no way to know if it was a false negative, and yet nobody masks anymore. hell world hell world

#meg talks #like i feel like im losing my mind. i will admit that ive probably gotten too bold abt going out in public #but at least i never go out without wearing a clean n95 #and then i immediately look around and see no one else is wearing one and im like well fuck me i guess.#i refuse to get on an airplane or have anyone come visit me via plane bc fucking every time someone ik gets on a plane #they come back with covid #and i just keep thinking back to the start of the pandemic and the efforts to flatten the curve #and how if we’d just fucking. done it. if the lockdown wasn’t lifted so fast. we could have killed covid #instead we’re going on four years of this. and ppl just act like life is normal again #well it’s not normal for me. catching covid could ruin my body and cost me my job and then what #but nobody cares bc most precautions protect other ppl around us more than they protect ourselves #and nobody gives a shit abt the disabled #nor do they want to think abt the fact that they are one covid infection away from being disabled themselves

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jiyongssi · 3 months ago

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i am today years old when i realised this man got his keith haring tattoo covered like that. i genuinely just realised today that it was done in 2018 and idk what it meant for him but that tattoo was the reason i actually liked him because - keith haring; and im like oh. a BIG oh.

#his life his body ofc #i have no rights to be curious but i fucking loved that tattoo thoooooooo it was loud and bright and everyone believed #he supported what keith stood for #i really only noticed because i kept rewatching zip daesung bigbang episode and i caught him pulling down his sleeve and the red was gone #why does being a fan has to come at pathetic costs like this #why is my brain keep reflecting on this. why am being a fuckhead.ohmygod i need life #but im already crammed with work rn but i still somehow found time to obsess over this shit jfc

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shinkai-kaiju · 1 month ago

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i think genuinely i will actually kill someone if i have to stay here any longer. like actually.

#2 weeks into having my own room for the first time in my life (real) and. instsntly have to give it up for a relative #we dont. have a big enough house for this anymore!!!#but what bothers me more is that im still getting yelled at for stupid shit. i clean my room. i do dishes and i cook. and i make #all my appointmentd and let everyone know every week up until the day of the appointment. that i made an appointment #tf you mean 'didnt tell you' dont you dare gaslight me you old man i have it in writing that i told everyone #and then j get jn trouble for canceling the appointment after being told!! to cancel it!!!!!!! JUSR SAY YOU WANNA YELL AT ME FOR SMTHN DUMB #AND DO THAT. DONT ACT LIKE YOURE IN THE RIGHT???????????#STARTS FROTHING #oh fat ass round mouse in the kitchen we're really in it now #delete later #i keep getting told to get a real job. d thentold i need to go to school and cant get a job bc none of the jobs i want are real #but im also a horrendous leech that costs money. but also i need to give all my money to py for things even though i dont have a real job #im a burden but im also not?? allowed?? to leave???????#im a grown ass man with dick and balls and i think i should just end it all really. the whole universe. sayonara you weaboo fucks

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tunapesto · 1 year ago

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cosplaying is healing me personally (killing my wallet, also)

#mmmmni love having expensive hobbies HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHHAAJHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHYAA #Tbh for most of my life all i did was draw so like #i get surprised when shit costs stuff #w drawing #esp digital it s kind of like an investment #where u buy one device then after that have fun go crazy #w cosplay it's like . paying up Per character and Per accessory which is Yay #amazing even #and then i picked up cooking #it's consumable so obviously . youd have to buy shit all the time #im just very . i forgot the word. cautious about my money and end up spending it on dumb shit anyway #i am a hoarder at heart #but also deeper inside said heart is just a monkey brain that smiles when yellow color sad when blue color etc #simple minded activities of a person trying to feel something after being numb for a long time #also trying new hobbies because i fear the passion i had for drawing has been spent #i still do it because its what i do best and itd be a waste #but like yeah i kind of hate it sometimes #its cool when it turns out nice then a few hrs later i dont wanna look at it ever againnnnnnnnn #truthfully #i want to restart my brain #maybe itll do better on its 2nd try

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artemisbarnowl · 4 months ago

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Me, when in the small city where I live: "20 mins to work is TOO LONG"/this place is SMALL and nothing should be more than 15 mins away"

Me, visiting Melbourne: "if I do not get this hot chocolate (one hour away) my life is meaningless and empty"

#im actually having many feelings about being here and what that looks like and why #because i already want to go home #i DONT actually i just wish i was staying in the city and all my friends we're close by #and that.....all the things i want to do didnt come with stupid travel time and also that the things i do alone actually meant something #having a nothing matters when you're alone sorts time #what does it matter if i spend an afternoon at the park or eat a cool flavoured ice cream #i want to share my experiences #and there is no one here with which to do so #so all of this is pointless #i don't know how to enjoy a thing for its own sake on my own #even with so much practice #this is probably part of why im still a bit insane about my ex #there is a friendly window to the life i want to live but its being denied because I didnt want it #i didnt want it because of the cost and the....retrofitting to make it the window i actually want instead of an imprecise facsimile

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prozach27 · 8 months ago

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#ok I’m so proud of myself bc this involves finance which is something I avoid at all costs but like I did it!!#my work failed to process my check which I should have received yesterday. I’m now expected to get it next week #and part of growing up poor is like. idk. this learned helplessness or defeatist attitude with money problems #like ohh it’s my bad I should’ve had more savings to cover waiting an extra week or longer for my monthly check #and historically I just shut down and panic while doing nothing bc this is my biggest possible stressor to come across #but!!! being around rich people? I’ve learned they negotiate!! and demand to not be inconvenienced!!#my work was like ehh I’m sorry too bad so sad about your check and I was like actually no #I explained how this impacts my ability to pay rent. my credit score. how they didn’t inform me in time to stop bill autopay #and asked what their detailed plan is to fix this #and within an hour admin was scrambling. four different people emailed me apologizing for the mix up #and they worked it out with finance to get me a $2000 loan to get me by until the check hits #but I was like actually no. I won’t be paying interest on this because I shouldn’t be penalized for your error #and so they GOT RID OF INTEREST #0% interest cash advance essentially that covers all my bills #I picked up the physical check for the 2k today so it’s legit thank god #I thanked everyone involved and remained extremely polite #and they said if there’s any other questions you have please let us know #so I was like actually you know what lmao #I explained that I’ve incurred fees for overdrafts and returned items due to bill autopay that I couldn’t cancel due to them informing me #basically the day of my check being late #and so I specifically said I’ve incurred $270 in fees at this point as a result of your error and I shouldn’t be expected to pay this.#and!! they just said… okay!!! I just got an email that they’ve processed a secondary check for $270!!#so like?!?! what?!?! is this what life is like when you don’t shy away from discussing money?!#im genuinely shocked. this is a life lesson. I never would have imagined this outcome #thank god I decided to not take it lying down

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hyp3rfixation-h3ll · 1 year ago

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jsyk . if you ever get mad at traumatised people engaging with a completely sfw , non-k!nk / fe.tis.h related coping mechanism that sprouts from childhood abuse / neglect or just general stress, and label them a freak or bully them or anything along that lines, you're ableist, a complete cunt and i dont like you. this goes double for if you completely REFUSE to understand the concept of what the coping mech is and why its helpful. traumatised people dont owe you normalcy and we sure as fuck dont owe you an explanation 👍 and if you disagree w/ me you can piss off

#the captain's rambles #mental health #actually ptsd #this is about a very particular coping mechanism i have that i dont bring up on THIS blog for a friend's sake but i have a sideblog 4 it #im starting to really open up about it bc its not something i should be ashamed of . it's me taking care of myself #i dont care about what others say anymore . it's not gross to heal your inner child #i dont talk about my mental health here often except in passing when im discussing how my adhd and autism affect my life #but there's more than Just those two. im adhdtistic + have bpd ptsd and osdd (the specifics im not sure of but we Are plural)#anyways this is me firing shots to keep the rent down bc i just gave some1 i follow reassurance and i want to reiterate the msg here #ableists are Not fucking welcome here. leave your hatred at the fucking door and if you cant get with the times then get out #you dont even have to understand me to just be kind. it costs 0 dollars #im just praying this reaches the actual target audience #and that the people who engage with media in a way that actively trigger my flashbacks Dont grab ahold of this post #theyre on my dni. for a reason .

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autisticlee · 1 year ago

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how to make business plans: spend 2 weeks looking for a website to make a visual plan guide that you can collaborate with business partners, but you end up nowhere because all of them require paid subscriptions to do more than a few basic things. except you don't want to pay for these because you don't have a business yet and therefore no money!!!! but you need more than basic features (basically you can only put 50-100 items on your board with free account and i will definitely need more)