#species transition

[vanillayoteart]

Mana Dragon Species Transition Therapy

Sequel to this piece, 22 Months in and she's more dragon every day! Something for rey-skye from my weekly streams!

[wanderingcritter]

As someone who's transmasc nonbinary, getting bottom surgery just isn't really something that appeals to me. Not sure why, I certainly have other forms of gender dysphoria, but Ive simply never felt discontent with what I was born with down there and currently have no plans to modify things.

However.

If it was possible for me to have a sheath I would POUNCE on that opportunity so fast omfg.

[a-minke-whales-tale]

Today I was swimming with my monofin in the harbour and as I was swimming I passed close to a couple I didnt think was going my way and I popped my head up to apologize and I gave them a startle as they apparently believed I was a seal!

I guess it makes some sense, dark fin, dark suit, dark hair and only briefly would I lift any more of my face to breathe before it was back in for another 15 seconds or so in the murky water. And really just my fin and bum would generally breach the surface as I swam and it is a motion that, while very natural to a cetacean, would be completely foreign to how a human swims. Or I guess in this case close enough to a pinniped for people who dont really know how one swims.

[a-minke-whales-tale]

Amusingly I was considering to ask similar myself.

For myself my focus is on the long term goal to make a whale-suit that would let me return to the water. That is in fact actually the porpoise of this blog was to document that process, in both the design and eventual development and construction of the suit. In much of the tag of #whale_suit and #species_transition on my blog is most of the work and planning I have done, though other stuff has been shared personally with Ike and Sonar. I have also been working to develop for myself a monofin with the goal eventually to make one that looks properly as a minke and works as such too so I can continue to swim in the water. I do love to swim with my monofin and it helps me very much with the dysphoria. Otherwise there is a lot I can do on land especially just laying as a whale and using whale names for things. My apartment is my tank, meals are feeding times, my food is fishy (though much of it is actually fish), my couch is my slideout.

transspecies folks-

if you are actively transitioning/aiding your species dysphoria, what are you doing? be specific please.

[dreamyintersexouppy]

wanting to keep the bunny tail plug in while she breeds you should be a valid reason to get all three letters for vaginoplasty for free

[malinastharlock]

Transition goals: I sometimes wish I was an adorable bloodthirsty Jurassic Park style Velociraptor.

[mutantceri]

Research Note 131: Decisions 1

I'm writing this sobbing inside the firing room for the proton treatment. It's the only place in this damn building I could close the door, and no one hear me. It doesn't help that with the longer neck my gasps and sobs resonate and make so much more noise than they would as a human.

Fuck, am I seriously acting like I'm not human anymore? I'm nothing. Not a dragon, not a girl, not a person. Nothing.

… I guess I should explain. I am days away from the big doctor's appointment. Friends of mine call it the crossroads. Many complain about how much their doctor grills them about this point. The reason the doctor grills them is simple.

If you continue treatment past this point, no matter how you are getting your treatment, the point is to make you fully animalistic. This means totally the species you are transitioning too. More pain, more extreme changes, more aggressive treatment. Less ability to function mentally… human. If you decide not to cross and stay "anthropomorphic," you still must maintain the current dosage treatment for the rest of your life. Issues with dosage and progression are likely, and it can be a massive struggle staying "between."

So, why am I crying? Because normally I'm assisting others with making this choice and then helping facilitate it. I've thought about this day quite often in passing. I always distract myself with work or writing or friends when I do and the thoughts drift by.

Today, with the appointment so close, and with a light work day, I couldn't avoid it. Especially after watching another patient breakdown, and having to drag them up out of themself back to being okay. "I can't do it, I'm not allowed to be me, to be happy!" they said multiple times. Obviously, they were wrong, and I built them back up.

But am I allowed to be happy? I've had so many issues with treatment, with compatibility, with my body, and how broken it is. Would I even be able to be happy if I was fully transitioned to a dragon if I remained as deformed and broken?

Am I careless enough to leave my work as I become to big and too unstable to work in the clinic? To not be able to help others as I would want to be helped? I'm not the only person that knows the device and technology, but I am one of the few. I may not be the best at helping the patients, but I try! Will the next person do the same as I'm off being a lizard?

All of this built up and broke me when I walked out of the treatment room. I couldn't hold back streaming tears as I walked the hall to the firing room. And I make it worse by burying my face in my hands and clipping it with my claws. Like my own body is prodding me to make a decision.

-Ceri

I'm scared I'll regret it. I'm scared I'll become something I never wanted to be. I'm scared… I'm scared I'll lose the ability to communicate with my friends… To be able to interact with all these wonderful species of beings.

I'm scared of… myself.

[Personal Note transferred to Research Note account of technician/patient mental insight at lab direction]

[grumpybunny-edith]

Gwen's Bunny HRT - Month 1 (Part 1)

I look at my reflection for what feels like the hundredth time today, waffling on how to do it. All the other girls have already gone through all this, and compared to their one-month photos, I feel... Behind. Delilah had already started growing fur in some places, and Edith already had a little bit of tail growing in. Sure, it looked a little weird without any fur on it, but... I’ve got nothing there but soreness. Is it even worth celebrating? Like, “oh yay, my ears look longer if you squint and my teeth look a little sillier”.  

I take a deep breath and dig my toes into my carpet, feeling pain flare up in them. It just started a couple days ago — maybe it would be better to wait until something came of it? Until walking on my toes didn’t hurt so bad, or even felt better than walking on my heels? 

I feel a tiny impulse at the small of my back, my spine apparently doing its best to wiggle at its base. Am I... unconsciously wagging my tail? The soreness that comes with it matches what the other girls had talked about. I smile, showing my reflection my weird teeth and the pain subsides a little. 

���Bunnies wag their tails when they’re upset,” Edith had told me once. It’s warming to feel how right she is, to feel like I actually belong, even for a second. It’s not that the other girls haven’t done a good job of making me think so; it’s just hard to see all of them so far along and then to look at myself. 

I set my phone down and stare at myself for a while. I imagine the fur suddenly sprouting up all across my body, shiny and soft. I imagine my ears getting so tall they graze the doorway. I imagine my tail, tiny and fluffy, poking out just about the hem of my sweatpants. It makes me smile and laugh at myself, and I feel a bit of pride in my teeth. They’ll look better coupled with everything else, I think. 

I hear my phone buzz, trying to avoid convincing myself it’s because my hearing has spontaneously improved. I laugh it off and check what it was. 

raeraebun: Hey girl!! Today’s one month, right?? Where’s the update??

I smile and blush instinctively. Rae and I don’t chat that much, but every time we do it lifts my whole mood. She’s also dropped by my place a couple times because she “made too many brownies and just had to make a delivery”. 

wen-kutesuli: Hey! Idk if I’m gonna do it today honestly lol 

raeraebun: Aww, why not? i mean like do whatever you want obvi but. you okay?

I sigh. I know I can probably tell her, it’ll almost definitely be fine, and she probably has something great to say. But it doesn’t make it any easier to say it. I’m almost embarrassed to still feel the way that I do even after her and Edith’s constant preaching of “loving yourself wherever you are”. 

wen-kutesuli: Yeah I’m okay lol. Just kinda 

wen-kutesuli: Wish I had more to show, I guess? 

Rae’s response comes quite literally instantly. 

raeraebun: GWENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

raeraebun: okay 

raeraebun: lemme show you something 

When Rae comes back after a couple minutes of digging, she sends me a picture of some random girl with hair like her own, followed by five closeups of a pretty standard human ear. 

raeraebun: so like

raeraebun: this was from january last year 

raeraebun: Id been on hrt for like. a month and a half to the day

raeraebun: I had taken a picture of myself every day since starting my regimen

raeraebun: and didnt see anything until that picture when FINALLY 

raeraebun: my ears had grown the tiniest little bit. 

raeraebun: I didnt stop screaming about it all day lol ashley got so sick of it 

raeraebun: and yk what happened next?

raeraebun: they stayed just like that for three more weeks LMAO

Rae has this way of making people smile and cry their eyes out at the same time. 

raeraebun: so... be nice to yourself? its not gonna happen all at once, and thats ok. every little bit is worth, like

raeraebun: I dunno 

raeraebun: a thousand parties

wen-kutesuli: That’s a lot of parties 

raeraebun: and you earn every single one of them :) 

I sit in stunned silence so pleased I don’t know what to do with myself. My body wants some kind of release, and I let it have one, laying face down and kicking my feet so quickly and so hard into the floor it probably upset the people below me. 

raeraebun: you dont have to, but we all wanna celebrate with you :D 

wen-kutesuli: Thank you 🩵 Maybe I’ll do it 

raeraebun: YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

raeraebun: GO GWENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!

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Thank you to @flightlessbirdgirl for helping me decide on Gwen's username and for letting me bounce ideas off it!

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[mantisgodsdomain]

Now that we are being followed by people, we need to make some thoughts and opinions clear so that people are not later Shocked And Disgusted or whatever by thoughts we have held for many years. We think it's weird and also bad to treat queer people like they're a different species from cishet people, and we think that treating things like Having A Sexuality makes a character better than if they have a different sexuality is bad no matter what way you put it.

We also think that, if in your setting queer folks are widely accepted and straight isn't a "default", it may be worth noting that, say, a straight woman might need just as much self-discovery to work out she's straight that a lesbian does nowadays. In the same manner that, in Ace Attorney, Larry Butz needs to tell Phoenix that no matter how many photos of handsome men he shows him, he's tried, he's just not attracted to men,

[rcrisdraws]

Blorbo posting on main time-

[dandelionsresilience]

Good News - July 1-7

Like these weekly compilations? Tip me at $Kaybarr1735! And if you tip me and give me a way to contact you, at the end of the month I'll send you a link to all of the articles I found but didn't use each week!

1. Footage reveals 'miracle eagle chick' in flight

“In an unprecedented display of extended eagle parenting, the two white-tailed parents skipped this year's breeding season to continue to tend to their year-old offspring. The youngster's wing was broken when the nest fell to the ground during unseasonably wild weather last year. […] The fully-grown chick was being fed fish by its parents, caring behaviour that the eagle expert described as “unprecedented” for the birds. […] “If an immature bird was to reappear near its nesting parents or any other pair the following year [after dispersing], it would likely be aggressively chased away. That’s why this is so exceptional.””

2. Rare wild horses back on Kazakhstan’s Golden Steppe after being saved from extinction

“For the first time in at least 200 years, wild Przewalski's horses have returned to Kazakhstan’s Golden Steppe. [...] Przewalski's horses are considered the last truly wild horse left on the planet as other species like the American Mustang are descended from domesticated animals. The species were once common across the vast steppes of Central Asia. [...] The zoo will also be sending some Przewalski’s to Mongolia in 2026 where a reintroduction programme has seen their population boom to well over 850 animals.”

3. For one Austin summer camp, public transit is part of the adventure

“[... “O]ver 90% of the kids will tell you that their favorite part of ATX Kids Club is riding the bus.” That’s the program’s goal: getting kids to have fun on public transit so they’ll grow up using it. The nonprofit’s summer camp, which takes kids ages 4 to 12 on field trip “adventures” around the city, uses Capital Metro buses as its main form of transportation. [...] Before camp, [the field trip leader] said, he believed in stereotypes about transit being dirty and “scary” — but his experience with Austin’s bus system has been the opposite so far.”

4. Brazil Prevents Meta from Using People to Power Its AI

“[…P]ersonal photos of Brazilian children are used to build powerful AI tools without their knowledge or consent. In turn, others use these tools to create malicious deepfakes, putting even more children at risk of harm. […] The Brazilian government’s decision is a powerful, proactive move to protect people’s data privacy in the face of swiftly evolving uses and misuses of AI. Yesterday’s action especially helps to protect children from worrying that their personal data, shared with friends and family on Meta’s platforms, might be used to harm them in ways that are impossible to anticipate or guard against.”

5. Ambitious Living Shoreline Project Combats Coastal Land Loss in South Carolina

“Living shorelines stabilize coastlines by reducing the impacts of waves and rising sea levels. They are made of materials that promote the growth of marsh grasses and commercially important species like oysters and crabs. […C]oastal sites could offset almost 80 percent of tidal habitat loss with careful conservation and management. […] Young people in this AmeriCorps program receive training, a living stipend, an education award, and connections to potential employers.”

6. Pahranagat National Wildlife Refuge announces proposal to modernize water infrastructure

“Under the refuge’s proposal, the Service would improve 4,400 feet of an earthen water delivery ditch, rehabilitate 1,200 feet of Upper Lake Dam, develop 100 feet of new diversion channel into critical nesting habit for federally endangered southwestern willow flycatcher, modernize current water monitoring stations and improve 640 feet of the Pahranagat Ditch Drain. […] The improvements will result in significant habitat improvements for multiple bird species, [… and] also enhance flood control holding capabilities of the Upper Lake for the Pahranagat Valley.”

7. New chemical process separates textile fibers for easier recycling

“A combined team of chemical and biomolecular engineers [... have] developed a way to chemically separate fibers in textiles, allowing them to be recycled more quickly and cheaply than conventional methods. [... T]hey found they could break apart the textiles in as little as 15 minutes. They also noted that the process [breaks down polyester and spandex into] organic compound[s] that could conceivably be used to create more polyester. [... T]he material integrity of both the nylon and the cotton were retained, suggesting they could be used to make new batches of clothes.”

8. Pongamia trees grow where citrus once flourished, offering renewable energy and plant-based protein

“[Some Floridian] farmers are turning to the pongamia tree, a climate-resilient tree with the potential to produce plant-based proteins and a sustainable biofuel. […] Pongamia trees also don't need fertilizer or pesticides. They flourish in drought or rainy conditions. And they don't require teams of workers to pick the beans. […] The legume is now being used to produce several products, including Panova table oil, Kona protein bars and protein flour. The legumes also produce oil that can be used as a biofuel, largely for aviation, which leaves a very low carbon footprint[….]”

9. Trans candidate celebrates receiving more votes than anti-trans campaigner Posie Parker

“An independent trans candidate says that she hopes receiving more total votes than anti-trans campaigner Posie Parker at the general election will show trans children that they are loved. […] Bristol Central was won by Green Party’s out bisexual co-leader Carla Denyer, while Parker received just 196 votes, equal to 0.5 per cent[….] Elsewhere, trans candidate Sophie Molly secured 225 votes standing as an independent at the other end of the country, in Aberdeen South[….]”

10. Ohio zoo celebrates birth of critically endangered western lowland gorilla

“The Columbus Zoo said the gorilla was born June 29 and first-time mother Sue is "very attentive and providing excellent care to her little one, who she nuzzles and cradles closely." […] “With tiny hands and beautiful big brown eyes that melt our hearts, this baby is absolutely precious—in regard to both the cuteness factor and what the baby represents for this species’ future. We are proud of the dedication of our care teams who diligently work to provide the gorillas with top quality care and wellbeing while continuing the legacy of the Columbus Zoo’s renowned gorilla program,” said Audra Meinelt, curator of the Columbus Zoo’s Congo Expedition region.”

June 22-28 news here | (all credit for images and written material can be found at the source linked; I don’t claim credit for anything but curating.)

[a-minke-whales-tale]

Updated drawing of myself based on my own body. I know a bit more of my head angle and how thick the material can be. I also accounted for that in the time prepping to return to the water and while in the water, I will not maintain my current weight which means things will fit differently. These changes mean the suit will be a fair bit smaller 2,85-3 meters or so (I admit I would really like to be in that 3-3,5 meter range I percieve myself). It also means an estimation of my weight is a fair bit lighter by around 60 kilograms which really isn't bad as that should increase my own manuvuerability and ability. With my being a littler smaller though, my flippers do look to me just a bit too big even and they are further back on my body. I am not sure if I will modify my head geometry to try to reproportion things or if thatll just slowly get wierder (though I may slide the blowhole back some just for a shorter breathing tube).

I also added some surface colour things like the transition begween my white and dark patches and a couple of the white shoots we sometimes have. Still I tuink I am a pretty whale.

[asgardian--angels]

Just wanted to thank you for taking the time and effort to put together the long climate/environment post, especially the online resources. I've wanted to replace the neglected/dead non-native plants at my place with native plants for months, but didn't know where to start my search for species except to walk around my local nature preserve trying to find something that isn't invasive lol. I'll be able to start (re)introducing native plants this month because of you :-)

Thank you for the kind words. I'm glad the post has been helpful and inspiring. If you'd like more directed guidance on native plants, I can probably point you in the right direction if you can give me a general area to work with (state would suffice!). In general, go for keystone species- those that are common in your area and support many kinds of insects- or pollinator favorites, or host plants for rare/imperiled butterflies/bees/moths.

[feyres-divorce-lawyer]

y’all i think evolution researched too close to the sun

[carbonateddelusion]

@intrusiveprince

This is Mariposa (they/she)! Their whole deal is obsessive love over their childhood friend, Rea (they're t4t girlies). They're also the daughter of a god of suffering and evil, Teuflisch, but they don't know that.

She was a relatively normal person (albeit still harboring deeply obsessive, repressed feelings for her memory of Rea) until her girlfriend raised her hand to hit their child, Polilla. Something went awry in Mari's brain and she snapped, dedicating herself from that moment onward to the planning of her girlfriend's murder. After the deed was done, she found herself feeling empty and lost... and then she rediscovered an adult Rea working at a coffee shop, and it was love(?) from that point onward. Mariposa's yet to make an actual move or even become her friend, being too fixated on making sure everything is PERFECT and lines up correctly for them to be lovers, but that doesn't stop her from obsessively stalking Rea. Something she is.. surprisingly good at, for someone who literally glows at least.

I'm still developing her but I love her a lot <3<3

I should mention though, Teuflisch and Rea are @peapod20001 's characters, not mine :> and so are what species she is (devil, clown, and reaper)

[mutantceri]

Personal Note 3?: Reality

I walked into the doctor's office today as a patient, not staff. I've done it before, a year before today, to start this process to be, me. But today is different, because today I get to decide who I am going to be. What I get to see. How I am going to be.

A lot of us have shown our ideal selves. Written, drawn, and even commissioned artwork of how we *want* to be. What comes out on the other side of a process that makes us ugly, and broken. Ideally, we want to be something specific, not just species, but exact features. But as I sat with the doctor, those choices didn't seem to be coming up. Nothing about color, or style, or size. Just how far we wanted to go. What type of accommodations am I willing to make.

Unfortunately, in reality, even if we get to choose to be ourselves, we don't get a choice of what the process delivers.

Genesight has shown what I'll become, and what will never come. I'll never be a skinny lizard. My skin won't change color. Scales will never develop. And my wings will never be able to support me.

It's made me think of all those others whose transitions haven't delivered what they wanted. Yet, it's still what they needed.

Reality doesn't reflect the want; it reflects the need. No amount of magic, science, or hope changes what reality delivers.

I thanked the doctor, bundled myself into my car, and cried for at least half an hour. Those tears weren't just for me, but for everyone who has to face this reality.