#im feel kinda ill rn too
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maribor 27/12
#joker out#i wasnt really feeling the concert last night😫#it was a bit messy#jan was sick#cameraman was obsessed with girlie right next to me so he was in front of me 99% of the time#people were fucking ferals☠️#im feel kinda ill rn too#nace jordan#bojan cvjetićanin#bojan cvjeticanin#kris guštin#jure maček#jan peteh
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Lately ive just been so busy with stuff (sigh) my motivation is totally not there rn, but i wanted to try drawing seigaku in my style!
i think they turned out pretty okay, but i think if i had more energy id change some things :333
#honestly im not rlly focused on tenipuri rn but i feel like drawing them always gets me out of artblock lollol#theyre not completely accurate but idrc+ i just think its fun to play with their designs#i thought about explaining my ideas for these in the tags but honestly im unsure lol#i feel like most of them are self explanatory?? kinda??#like kawamura seems to have rounder features in the show. i think. and a :3 mouth. but with inui its like. idk#with inui i feel like he looks like hes 30 years old lmao i just get the vibe#also i like giving tezuka very messy hair. i like to imagine he styles it perfectly but it gets messed up from wind or something lolol#also i thought abt doing all the schools but honestly thats wayyy too much for me lol. maybe ill try it out eventually#anyways. enough YAPPING or whatever the cool kids say#prince of tennis#prince of tennis fanart#tenipuri#tenipuri fanart#idk what else to tag.#seigaku#idc. go be free#sheetzking#unculturedswine69
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have u ever seen a comic book panel so beautiful it made u wnna cry?
#its a little on the nose but KYAHHHH#its fffff its literally him its literally duke thomas like actually himand not thw evil fanon twin that wears his face#and??? like it summarized 2 big ole points in the duke discussion circles and shows that hes come so so far#he can actually rely on others and he felt like he was invisible and AAAA its too early 4 me rn ill come back when i ahve the right words#but like even tho this is kinda bare minimum i feel so so vindicated and im so glad the writing did a minimum amount of research b 4 writing#him and this was the perfect story to put him specifically in bcs the villains motives seem to foil dukes own#also i love the little detail of duke offering him food and to talk ot thru its so consistent to his character#its literally not even a full comic but i feel so happy i could cry#I WILL B TALKING MORE L8R work 2 do rn..#the signal#duke thomas#batfam#dc tag#thought bubbles
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'Chopper' Family HCs
Should they have a surname like the Wheels family? Something something Chopper maybe
Holy shit we got a full-quartet
my characters now 👹👹👹
Okay!! So its either:
[ 1) They're all siblings, the order goes like this: (new edit): Runi -> Dizzy -> Sparky -> Zoey (although methinks dizzy is still older bye.) ]
[ 2) Runi and Dizzy are sibs, Sparky and Zoey are sibs, theyre cousins ]
Scenario 1 (and this post is full of this one lmao)
They don't have parents (I imagine them having risky jobs like rescue workers. what if one job went wrong?) Mom was a firefighter, dad was an EMT.
Runi and Dizzy has seperation anxiety purely because of that (Runi manages it better than Dizzy though) Zoey and Sparky was pretty young so they dont really know
Their parents knew Grand Albert and Poppa Wheels. Also Paul too I think
At first Dizzy was kind of against to becoming a rescue worker (for all of them) because what if the same thing happens again?? But she wanted to become one. Then later she changed her mind.
Anyway enough with the angsty stuff
For looks, Dizzy and Zoey took up after their dad. Runi and Sparky took up after their mom
Runi is aroace and Dizzy is bi bc i said so. Runi is he/they bc i also said so
ALL of them have extreme sweet tooth. they would eat pure sugar. They also love spicy stuff (Zoey is really good at making spicy burritos)
(during his firefighter training) Runi got a scratch all across his mouth (ty @/worldairportwonders 's doodle for the insp) and it damaged their vocal system badly. They had to cover his mouth during that time for the treatment, why not spice it up with a cool looking mask? Thats where his mask comes from. Although their voice is now a little raspy.
Zoey is really interested towards biology. She collects dead bugs, plants, etc. to cut them up. On the other hand, Sparky doesnt really like them so Zoey sometimes annoys him with it
Runi loves chemistry, mainly fire interests him. They watch lot of vids about fire experiments, chemical reactions, etc. He never tries anything with fire though (they also watch Curie's experiments)
All of them likes drawing in some way.
Runi left first to become a firefighter. He always dreamed about becoming one
Dizzy left next, to join SW. hard for her at first but after seeing Runi she did it
Zoey left next to become a doctor
Sparky stayed at their house, but he got a hose installed etc etc. there
Then Zoey and Sparky both joined SW :] Runi didnt though, but years later he joined the new generation team
About their house, they had a base-like house on a mountain (like Dizzy's base in season 2) It's not used as a living space now since all of them left but they still go there for reunions etc.
Runi and Zoey are good with cooking, Dizzy and Sparky are good with baking
Whenever they bring someone they're dating each of the family member has different reactions. Runi is chill, Dizzy stares at them constantly, Sparky is nice but also wary, Zoey will try to test them.
When they play Splatoon (they play it. actually majority of them play it. because i said so) Dizzy mains Dynamo, Zoey mains Glooga Dualies, Sparky mains Hydra, Runi mains Range Blaster. These mfs mastered slow weapons and theyre the best defenders
Uhhhhh I don't think I have more rn. I'll reblog when I have probably
#If this is wrong im too tired to check the lore rn sorry#ALSO!!! RUNIS SQUARE-SHAPED LIKE DIZZY#correction im lazy to retype the whole thing: all of them#rant incoming kinda off topic but uh. still related#also sorry but dizzys old design look MUCH more like his sibling (shape thing is the main aspect)#(there is also something more i cant really name. but you get it.)#(im sorry but everytime i see the new design i feel like boiling with rage bro. again im really sorry)#i dont think im ever gonna put that designs pictures in my posts 😔#ill reblog but. not a post#/half joke but also lowkey /serious lol#anywayyyy#super wings#headcanons#season 9#dizzy#zoey#sparky#runi#rescue rangers#mission teams
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WIP Whenever
Thank you for the tag @jashonja
Finally got smth that isn't just stick figures, ik the hair nd sht is weird, trust the process skdhsksksms (knowing me, this is by no means an indication of the final product)
Dunno if I'll keep the flower or if I'll just throw gore in there or not... I kinda wanna but also kinda hmmmmm subtlety is fun.
Tagging @aleksxo @defira85 @beecreeper @quacaserous nd anyone else who wants to
Somebody remind me to do the accessories I forgot em... Earings nd rings my beloved
#feeling cute might kill my fav npc again#yk how it is#might do 2 versions#maybe add a dagger nd n eyepatch here nd there#some gaping wounds nd copious amounts of blood#the normal stuff#also yes i work in browns cuz the greys r too bright nd hurt my eyes#dark mode but like eye protection version#already noticing i forgot stuff#oh well#the strings of fate idea continues to be stick figures until i found out what i wanna go for#rn im thinking just portraits#cuz ofc i only do portraits#but like the pfp kinda style yk what i mean?#also i want to make an elli paperdoll...#and i just found like THE inspo for minthara stuff...#bro someone gimme time i have too many ideas#rip to all the other rotting wips#cant i just quit my job#wip#fuck it im throwing it into the main tag#durgetash#behold my poor wip#actually i think ill make ellis hair longer
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Must be nice to be an adult right abt now,,... . (/hj /hj)
(this is abt Sparklecare Btw)
#me rambling in tags#I STARTED CRYING OVER THIS BRO. /SRS (/nm /lh)#Not exactly abt the age rating be raised-#it makes sense and im not mad abt it#I WAS HOWEVER upset abt how many members in the community im seeing just. Leave .#its good to respect KCs boundaries n stuff#but it just kinda feels like everything (around me atleast) is falling apart rn .#ive been fixated on this comic for so long#and seeing members ive grown familiar w/ in this community#just basically leave is so disheartening Even if it makes sense ;;#I don't know how else to put it into words-.#but I'm just disappointed ofc that im not allowed to read it anymore :‹#(that wont stop me tho)#(wont be interacting w the main blog but I'll still be reading it 💯)#(i also wont stop drawing my Sparklecare OCs either :v)#me rambling#text#I also may just be hella emotional rn bcuz im dealing w Other Stuff too#but y'all get the point of how im feeling 💯#Ill just be waiting 2 years for it Which hopefully won't feel very long#me venting#ig#★ spider chirping
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i get to see my beloved tomorrow its crazyyyyy 🩷🩷🩷🩷
gonna stay with him for 2 weeks !!
#p#must focus on the good of that n not The Fear™️ but tragically its my nature </3#ill be gone for 2 weeks n im remembering me even at like middle school age being so bad w sleepovers#but im not 11 n i can hug my bf n this is so cool ‼️‼️#flying is kinda scary too cuz my ears like to be fucked up n i hope ill get to the right places etc but otherwise that shld be ok#just kinda long idc#i feel like one of those rly anxious dogs. give me a cbd treat n that like pressure vest thing for when theyre scared at storms or w/e#i wish my crying person era wasnt happening rn its bad timingggg#ok enough of being scared n weird itll be so nice im gonna explode
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(gripping the sides of my head) Pick-ups tonight Will Not Kill Me. They will Not.
#ramblings#theres only supposed to be 2 which isnt actually bad but like. OJNDFGNKG ok its not them#but there are these 3 puppies isolated in one of the kennel wings that cannot go out back/ be near the other dogs because#theyre not yet fully vaccinated i THINK ? and they were only marked up til today and i realllllyyy dont wanna have to run pickups on them#not that ill Die but its like. grimaces . itll be a Pain and i kinda just feel way too stressed rn idk idkkkk#theyve been here like. two ? other times now ? and both other times they only left after the weekend was up#so theres a chance they wont be picked up tonight and i hope thats the case#ill survive if they are im just. exploding gif
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idk lmao its just the fact that im in some degree of pain or discomfort 24/7 gets to me sometimes. haha. and it feels like theres this unfathomably big divide between me and everyone i know because i get to watch them have careers and go to parties and live their lives while i spend all my time curled up in misery in my room. and i really really realllllllllllly try not to let it get to me. but sometimes! it fucking gets to me.
#personal#sick tag#i was having a good morning :( and then BAM �� UNFATHOMABLE STOMACH PAIN#and ngl im letting myself be pissed abt it a bit#like even on my good days im doing much better than i was. but. my Best is still fucking awful#and its going to be like this forever and ever. im 26 and already too sick to work or have a social life.#i legit cannot think of the future sometimes bc comprehending how ill feel at like 40 or 60 is terrifying. if im already this bad.#anyways ykno that tiktok like:#‘i can feel my bones and its fucking nauseating. UH! sorry gang :) that was kinda a lot !!’ me rn#sorry gang this is kinda a lot but also bitching is helping the Pain
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i am. thinking.
#like okay. j have been. questioning certain things for a while okay. and then a coupke of months ago i saw someone make a post#and it said that they were a median system. and when i looked it up i was like. huh. yeah thats. hm. but that was months ago and idk.#i dont wanna say anytging abt any kf this bc what if im not at all. but also what if i am.#i just. dont know. everythings kinda bad rn and this whole confusion isnt fucking helping.#and right now im in so much pain i just feel like doi g something stupid and reckless and probavly dangerous to distract myswld from it.#or maybe ill take some edibles. that might help actually.#whatever. might make shit worse. and i dont think sh whilst ur high would be a particulary good idea#sorry this js all way too much iversharing im. very kinda out of it i think ive been dissociating a hell of a lot reccently
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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol#this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable#im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work#property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me#like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well#and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for#Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too#like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and#down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy#last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just#feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b#put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back#down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then#that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her#i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better#on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out#dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really?#ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious.#i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles#but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol#unrelated
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Puking and shaking on the streets was not on my list but we r off to a great start for the new year it can only go better from here
#tw health#delete later#setting a rlly low bar#idk how to put it into words but it was kinda scary I don't like feeling so weak#i think ive been overthinking a little too much the past few days and now my gut bacteria aren't happy and they're bullying me#but teehee more on being scared of going out with people bc what if you're dying on the streets quietly and they're walking too fast ahead#and you can't keep up bc you're lightheaded and nauseous and you don't have the strength in you to call out and they're walking too fast#i feel terrible im worried ill puke again#but im too tired to get up my arms feel weak#new years resolution don't end up in the hospital for reasons other than annual check up and work is looking a little shaky rn
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im so bad at separating the art from the artist
#it takes me MONTHS to be able to enjoy their character or the music or whatever they do instead of just seeing what they stand for#i didnt rb any gifs of noah for months and now im getting back into byler and stranger things cuz i miss it but its still so hard for me#i see him and i dont see will i see a zionist and i am just filled with disgust#his face has become a reminder for me to do my daily clicks#and yes i did just obsess over yellowjackets for like 10 months straight but a big reason why i stopped byler posting everyday is bc of him#which sucks cuz i fucking love that ship and i LOVED analyzing it#and im seeing everyone else just byler posting constantly and it makes me feel kinda crazy#like are you just mentally good at separating the art and you dont support him or are you a fucking zionist too#theres so many noah apologists in the byler fandom.....#and blogs i loved too!!!!!#gathering my clips for the s3 gifset rn thats what caused this ramble#theres a solo shot of will that i love and it would be such a good gif but i dont think ill put it in#im turning anons off for a bit#yall were fuckin mean last time i spoke about it i literally almost deactivated
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on one hand completely ignoring your emotions is soo good for my mental stability and productivity but man i miss staring at the ceiling and listening to sad songs on loop
#idk if depression is the right word but yeah that author was right you become comfortable in your sadness you start loving it because#it becomes such a defining part of you#if i don't engage in any bad habits throughout the day i start to feel so uncomfortable and wrong and unfamiliar#that i crash and do something old me would've done again :(#the bounce back time has significantly improved tho so that's a relief#also lol who am i kidding pms will come soon im sure#but anyway#i physically can't listen to waiting room rn i listened to the opening notes and it was like#like a dam about to burst#so i just closed the gate very fast#i can't be sad rn because then i will feel lonely and then i will miss people and they won't miss me and ill cry the gasping for breath#i don't know what to do with this emptiness in the middle of my chest crying#man i hope this doesn't have any long term consequences#also i hope one day being good feels like me again and rotting in bed becomes unbearable again#i used to be so active like not physically but idk just like engaged with life more#curiously excitedly#well there's no going back now but i do hope i find a good balance#i was reading normal people and kinda rerealised that woah this sadness will always be a huge part of me. you only get#one childhood and. welp it got too real too relatable#i hope i don't turn out like her every self help book ive read says kids follow in their parents footsteps but god i hope not#this is why boys will always be so scary to me#future seems so bleak sometimes like not my 20s they'll be fire im sure but after that. am i even capable of being loved long term?#if the person who knew me the most well can move on from me in a flash. well then. i don't have anything more to give this is all#what has this post even become oh god. whatever. ill keep trying to be smarter first interesting second hopefully lovable will follow
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tw ed in the tags !!
#im feeling sooo awful abt my body today its crazy#i dont wanna relapse but also i have prom and grad coming up so its very very tempting#silly side note but ive been friends w some moots on edtwt longer than I've known some of my irls and that's crazy to me#anyway i was looking at tweets of me being so majorly uber excited abt final hitting 45 kg T-T like man omfg#feb 23 me was the skinniest id ever been and i was thriving !!#and i highkey wanna be that again#was my hair thinning and did my face look so gaunt it scared me at times? yes#did i also feel my prettiest + have the most external validation from strangers etc ever? also yes !!#i feel fat and ugly rn but I'm also just very averagely weighted#but i have a naturally broader built but i feel like i look bigger even if I'm not ?? 9ufdkjhjs#anyway its scary looking through old tweets bc I'm talking abt skipping lunch like everyday and stuff like that's scary !! don't do that#but also it makes me wanna do it again like if i could look like that again... id genuinely kill myself for it#i was kinda also p healthy back then LOL only ate god food#cardio every evening + muscle training every morning#anyway teehee thats all i very much dislike my body rn and i hope i can lose a bit so i don't feel like dying <3#i have hope bc im only 5kg off what i used to be so !! shouldn't be too hard yaaya if i can just get back in the 40s ill be happy like a 47#i got this !! hopefully will not destroy myself in the process yay#tw ed
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Well it's official rex still makes me blush and giggle and twirl my hair like always
#jane journals#self insert talk#💙 oh captain my captain 💙#i was talking to a friend jude#i put way too much fucking thought and time and LOVE into rex ad my s/i to ever give this up#they are a PART of me#part of who i am and how i define my self shipping#goddd i feel like theres still so much to say but im kinda sillay rn ill say it later but ougghh REX 🥺🥺💘💘#he seemsto be a less popular f/o of mine but idc#hes my biggest f/o forever and ever my husband#my stars and moon#if u all only knew the half of whats in my mind!!#if i could write brea into the fucking series youd all see#youd laugh and CRY but its all up to me which sucks#but whatever im doing my best#i am and will always be my url bye bye
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