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chimisart · 1 year ago

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I wish I had the time to make lots of art, life has been so busy!

Heres a sc of a piece featuring Wind and Time that I haven’t been able to finish. It’s stuck being just a sketch for now!

Hope everyone is doing well!

#linked universe #lu fanart #lu time #linkeduniverse #guys im going insane #i need sleep #my art is dying #and like what #the state of the world rn

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scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde · 7 months ago

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albus "I hope I die first, because I can't live without you" potter

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scorpius "I hope I die second, so I can save you from that grief" malfoy

#i spent a very long time debating which way around they would be #had me sweating #do you love someone so much you cannot live without them #or love them so much you hope they never have to live without you #personally am the first ✋🏻 my fiance better fucking die after me i cannot be doing that #i know im fucking jinxing it rn #absolutely horrendous we cannot die at exactly the same time im suing #if we do die together in a car crash or smin just know that that is the best case scenario for us lmfao #jilys death is honestly the dream 🤞🏻😍 take us out together or dont take us out at all #i cannot imagine scorbus dying seperately im gonna be honest #imagine one of them at the others grave im going to throw up #absolutely not #headcanon that they die by fucking up a potion or even just dinner and setting their house on fire and dying of smoke inhalation together <#hashtag romance 😍😍😍😍😍😍#scorbus #hpcc #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #harry potter #its 6am i havent gone to sleep yet hope this is coherent 😚😚#harry potter and the cursed child #albus severus potter #scorpius hyperion malfoy

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rapidhighway · 10 months ago

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every time I come back home I experience new mental illnesses -_-

#its not even bad rn it's been nice #there's just so much horrible stuff underneath it all though and i think i just can't handle it #i think im just grieving my entire life every time I come here #and I've been just having these thoughts i guess intrusive thoughts about everyone dying tragically for the laste few days and it's #NOT FUCKING HELPING #idk it's nice we're all nice and both is happening but there's always some new info dropped on me that they just.#expect me to process by myself and i just end up crying at night all the time cause like what am i supposed to do #yeah sorry for venting again i was getting a bit better at not doing tht but i neeed it rn ToT #k i think i just need to go to sleep and maybe ill forget everything tomorrow or something idk #vent #vent post

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Actually, on the topic of the baby fever. God it's so frustrating. Bc when I was like 14 ish I was Adamant that I never ever wanted kids. And my dad said smth around the lines of "that'll likely change" (probably from his own experience with this) and I was like NO. it WONT.

And then eventually, age 21-22 ish, I admitted that Okay, I still don't want to have my own kids, but someday maybe I'll adopt...

And Now, 27 years old, I got the general baby fever on occasion. It Did fucking change. And I don't know if I actually WILL bother with having my own kid (I still don't want to go through the hassle and massive body changes). But god. I do see a fucking baby and feel that stab of longing. It's almost like my damned hormones betrayed me or smth. Maddening!

I shall simply write fanfic about it.

#speculation nation #pregnancy ment/#honestly though i hadnt felt the wish to have my own until after my dad died #and i realized just how small our family is getting. and just felt this stab of NEED. to continue the line. continue the family.#my family's fucking dying around me i need to add to it. need more family. yknow?#so i dont actually know if this is. because of hormones or because of grief or What #but it was enough for me to put the hysterectomy idea on hold. bc id been genuinely considering it back in like. april? or so.#but then this happened and now im like. fuck dude. i dont know. but the uncertainty's enough to keep me from doing it.#yeah i dont wanna deal with periods anymore. but also. i need more time to decide.#i think no matter what i do want to raise kids someday. once im more stable (financially and emotionally)#but whether thats adoption or putting myself thru fuckin body torture. well i'll just have to decide. later.#maybe the deciding factor will be my own body aging lol. if i wait too long. my body will decide for me. who knows!#i Have thought about what id do if i got accidentally pregnant. especially relevant back when i was sleeping with a trans woman #and used to be id abort no hesitation. but well. i mean abortions illegal here anyways rn so id have to go to another state #but if i decided it i could make it work. it's not That far of a trip.#but. when i thought about it. the concern was less about the theoretical baby. and more about finishing school.#thinking 'man itd be fucking awful to finish school if i got pregnant right now'. but not. hesitating over the baby.#if i was out of school and relatively stable and i got accidentally pregnant. then. well. Maybe.#so me doing my dad vash au where he gets accidentally pregnant and goes all in with it #thats me. sorting out my feelings on it i guess. putting them somewhere.#idk. it's a lot to think about. i dont want to condemn a child to my genetic problems. but at the same time...#i dont know. To Be Decided Later.

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alaskan-wallflower · 7 months ago

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brody grant,

thank you for getting me through my flight but you did not get me through throwing up my guts in a paper bag.

negative aura fr

#can you tell i’m delirious #i haven’t slept at all #im so fucking delulu rn #i wanna sleep forever god #i made it tho at least!!#glad i didn’t fucking die #listening to still breaking up while dying would be a pretty fire way to go out tho…#anyway #i can’t even see my keyboard my eyes are closed #sorry for typos

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possum-tooth · 10 days ago

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took a nap bc my body isnt used to cold medicine and had an epic gay sex dream

#can i go back to sleep please.....#i really shouldnt bc i slept like 9:30p-8a then again like 10:15a-a couple min ago :/#like ik my body needs the rest and needs the sleep bc i barely slept over the weekend + monday night + tuesday night but. girl thats extreme #but also what else am i really doing </3 #anyway woke up and checked snap and they posted. so i replied to it LOL #it wasnt bad they work in a bakery and said smth ab too much bread and i was like 'theres never too much bread' or smth so.#hopefully they get a chuckle out of it. i really wanna see my friends rn :( but my bfs maybe sick and im still recovering so i wouldnt wanna #bring anyone over here bc its a den of germs rn. i should go to walmart and get lysol spray and just spray Everything down #anyway. i hate being responsible. maybe we'll see them this weekend of my bfs not dying like ive been the past couple of days #talk tag

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im-still-watching-anime · 1 year ago

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i remember breathing oxygen once….it was nice hope i get to do that again some day

#im dying of the allegies #allergies #this is the worst they’ve been in YEARS #and im house sitting rn so i dont even have any allergy meds #im never going to get to sleep like this #i want to go home and put myself into a medicated humidified coma #alternating no breathing and no breathing (nosebleed edition)#so many nosebleeds #and they don’t even have actual tissues here #the lack of breathing wasn’t enough apparently and my skin has to get murdered too #i am going Through it lately #and i just wanna go home

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lo-cinno · 9 months ago

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Hi

I’m fucking dying

#just spent like over 3 hours detailing two clocks in one drawing #i. i cannot do this. i dont got this.#this is only one drawing bro #i have to make multiple as well as write an at least 50 page thesis on the project #i have like only a little over a month left ughhhhhhhhhh #im gna go into some deadass horrible burnout after this istg #i also have to make a trailer/survey/idfr what else #i miss tumblr i miss my games i miss bring able to FUCKING SLEEP #sobbing crying wailing throwing up on the floor running up the walls laying on a train track going insane #so yeah if anyone has been wondering why ive completely disappeared #this is why #im dying from my final college semester #i do not live #if i do succeed in completing the fucking drawings imma post it on my art blog for yall to see bc i need you to understand bro this is pain #im fucking putting myself through the five stages of grief and torture rn #anyways good talk hope yall have a good one see you when i next decide to appear if im not dead by then

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micamone · 7 months ago

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hey guys

#vent #just... gimmie a sec im gonna put it in the tags i cant find the readmore on my phone rn #im havin a straight up not good time but not the worst in the house!#the worst is my cat. whose old and dying. and i have no money to put to sleep to fuckin put us both outta this misery #typical. she cant get a heart attack and go fast like my moms dog #shes gotta wail and be ill for a month while im recovering from one surgery and trying to get ready for the next #its also an amazing time for my ocd that i learned i have from artists on hear explaining what it is to send me into spirals #over germs. but shes just 20 with teeth and respiratory issues her whole life and been struggling with constipation #so i KNOW how shes dying. shes backed up and hungry and dehydrated but feeling bloated still and not eating or drinking.#shes probably got arthritis and has been moving like a geriatric for a while but its to the point now she wont even lay down. shes just #perched on a pile of towels in the bathroom dozing and occasionally crying for me to come pet her. im so fuckin tired #and theres nothing i can do! the vet i could find a timeslot for in a reasonable time said 500$. so thats cool. im paying 1000$ for me in #a week for my stuff and its just. god all she and i are doing is crying and it sucks ass #she wants company for comfort and i dont blame her - so the fuck do i!#but i cant sit in the bathroom with her my damn legs keep going numb. and my roomate 1) cant emotionally buoy me thru this #and 2) has a long work day tomorrow and its already mad late. sigh #dont try to offer me condolences ive worked thru her dying already its just now we're botb exhausted in the form its taking #if anything i just need another distraction to keep me from spiraling over something again #edit: ARUGH AND THE OTHER CAT THROWING UP IN THE OTHER ROOM. GOD DAMN IT #the younger one has so many allergies and wont stop fucking eating things off the floor babygirl i am BEDRIDDEN you gotta stop eating shit #off the floor!!!!!!!! you have specialty food for a reason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#awesome it was right in my bed

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thekidsarentalright · 2 years ago

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have been in salt lake city for 3 hours now and all i can say is it is hot and miserable in this hotel room and i am blowing everything up <3

#i havent been able to sleep bc i am just Warm and Sweaty like oh my god this is hell on earth #im literally gonna like. ask my sister if we can go to walmart and buy a fan bc jesus christ im dying 😭#idk how her and her partner are asleep under blankets rn theyre sick for that <3 #txt

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izzy-b-hands · 6 months ago

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My doctor messaging me at 12:30 in the morning to tell me she wants to do a telehealth visit abt the side effects I'm having with my new Lamotrigine dose (including worse insomnia than my usual insomnia, as u may have guessed lmao) is. something.