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#house md#gregory house#james wilson#hilson#long post#longpost#screencap#s05e17 “The Social Contract”#amazing interaction#wilson thinks that when he doesnt filter himself its a “reality” things he saying#very close to the position of “im not an asshole im just being real”#which makes sense only if you dont have much experience#and it seems wilson only does it with house#a georg of any data pool#and yeah babe this is still social contract you not escaping it by just labeling it differently#hes even arriving at that point at the end there#and house was already “there” earlier in the episode hes just doing it back to wilson now#im unwell and house would not cure me
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I argued with some random asshole on the internet a while ago and I noticed I made them feel really bad with my anger, I decided to at least get them some groceries as a apology gift because I know they struggling too, few days ago I went over to talk about the situation while calm and to properly apologize, made sure to let the person know that they don't gotta talk to me that it's ok if they don't want anything to do with me, they agreed and added me to a group chat with their girlfriend and then proceeded to berate me for the next 4 hours straight taking turns to call me names 😭 and I'll tell you what. To be called creepy and obsessed for sending the money and get berated for that too??? Like I know $50 isn't like a huge amount nowadays but it was half of all the money in my bank account at the time. And it was a tough decision to make because I am already struggling to pay rent and because I'm too disabled to work. I snapped out of it immediately, like wow no wonder I got mad at them in the first place.
The moral of the story is, don't try to fix things with the worst people you have ever met, your gut feeling was right, there's a reason why you got angry. It will only harm you and make you harm them, too, when you eventually get emotional and pissed off over how they treated you and then use it against you. Whatever you do won't be enough and taken as the worst possible thing to do. Simply fuck off. That's the best outcome for everyone that will hurt the least amount of people.
#also like#this is completely unrelated to the point but i have called them a stalker multiple times#and while talking to me they started bringing up that i have been feeling bad lately and if im still dating my boyfriend and are we happy#like what is that about?#how do you see my posts why are you asking me this its kind of freaking me out#or telling me that me and my bf are trying to be them like????????#we dont even think about you and when we do we just laugh at your dumbass in call we do not care LOL#either way this is so insane and i need to vent it out and share my experience to people because what on earth#for context i have blocked them on all social platforms so they have to be following me on burners just to keep up with me#which is definitely normal behavior#my little oniisionling incel stalker saga
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I'm an "AroAce Stereotype" I'm Romance averse/Repulsed> I'm Sex repulsed I'm non-partnering I hate the idea of marriage in all forms I don't want a QPR at all I'm loveless I'm someone who gets uncomfortable at sexual talk and sex jokes I'm someone who often has innuendos or sexual concept fly over my head. I'm someone who can't tell when someone is flirting with me I'm someone who can't pick up on romantic or sexual tension I'm someone who finds "shipping" to be annoying I'm someone who says "They just seem like friends to me" I'm someone who believed that attraction could be turned on or off I'm someone who can't make sense of romance at all and cant figure out what makes it different from every other relationship. I'm someone who thinks romance is stupid and sex is gross and I don't understand the big deal everyone makes about it I'm someone who never was upset to find out I was AroAce but rather relieved as I have a genuine fear of being stuck in a romantic relationship that i do not want. In all cases I am not an AroAce who can be considered "normal" by the standards of allo society.
I'm not just a stereotype for you to shit on. I'm not the reason aphobes are aphobic I'm not a problem that you need to erase and refute to be accepted by allos. I'm not an experience that you and ignore as "not really how aspec people are" just because You are not part of it. Stop leaving us behind. Stop throwing us under the bus. We deserve support too. We deserve to not be demonized and shunned because we're an "stereotype". We are not the problem. We are not a problem to be fixed. start fighting aphobes on their logic instead of trying to make up for our existence.
#text#ace#aro#asexual#aromantic#aroace#arospec#acespec#aspec#mostly talking abt aroace experience because thats me#but this can go for other aspec identities too#aphobia#im just tired of other aspec people agreeing with the oppressors that certain experiences are wrong#and promising that THEY aren't like that THEY are normal and shouldn't be ridiculed#but never do anything to protect the rest of us from ridicule#because really they just want to protect their experience they dont care about the wider community#and it's frustrating#because we should all be supporting each other because thats how things get better#if we tell aphobes there are exceptions then suddenly all aspec people can become an exception#because they dont care about us being socially acceptable aspecs they care about us not being aspec period#they dont want us to exist because then they have to question their world view and that dont like doing that#so they'll play nice with the ones they can pretend are normal before they decide that you're not good enough either
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random CrossCode sketches I did months ago when I was playing thru the game. Lea my sillygirl :>
PLAY IT IT'S PEAK FICTION
this one I did purely from memory of the squad
And obviously the best one I did lol
(i sucked at drawing that thumbs up hand hhdhj)
#pinyatart#crosscode#9/10 gaming experience besides a lot of the puzzles being hard af for some reason. everything else is chefs kiss perfect#it's useful having a very large backlog of art i never post to social media that i only send my irl flesh friends#it's like im giving you very old leftovers that somehow still taste good and didn't give you food poisoning. i think#when it comes to drawing i have two sides: draw like it's your last damn day on earth or do fuck nothing and play gacha games like a loser#the latter is beating my motivation's ass to hell. save me
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double trouble
#detroit become human#rk1700#the boys....baby boys....woobies...#listen i just think nines would have such an overprotective streak for connor..#he protecc and he want to attacc. connor will teach him well#my favourite headcanon is nines quietly admiring the hell out of connor and learning from him and his mistakes as well#choosing the most optimal way to exist within society. hes so impressed with connor who is bumbling terribly but doing his best#connor has the experience and higher social relations but nines is much quicker to catch on#they both admire each other and are pushed forward by each others existance and improvement#ive seen a few fanfics where they have that dynamic and its my favourite#they work so sweetly in a brotherly bond it warms my heart (though i am a shameless rk1700 enjoyer)#anyway thats enough rambling#i wish there was a dbh fandom still#im just throwing up doodles now with no thought of making any solid pieces yet#my art#dbh#rk900#connor detroit become human#also i know theres zero consistency with the art style and keeping them looking the same but fuck that i dont have the patience rn#also also lmao i just noticed but the top one looks like hes trying to kiss connor but no that was a continuation of bottom left sjdjfjdj#feel free to interpret it any way yoy want hajdjfjfjd
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Ind. Sundown you are Everything to me
#her corruption arc... tastee#goes from naive children's show star to Absolute Bastard#sundown summer is 3'11 and it WILL steal your girl#and your man. and your partner. and your money. and your social security number#not your life tho. nah she'll have its bestie do that#scribble garnish#forced idiots <3#oc#original character#tried out some new brushes w this one!#fucking with textures and more abstract coloring???#im still learning!!! and experimenting!!! im not satisfied but this feels like im on the right track!#she can be yuor angle... or yuor deble....#not even 4 ft tall and yet its rizz is off the charts#she is part of worlds weirdest lesbian throuple <3
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Thsi is so awesome
#retail neopets will never have what neoclones do.#sorry gonna rave here for a bit but idk maybe its like when you beat a game and have fun restarting ut#*it#but retail neopets not as fun to me as GC now#i cant even care about the new neopets plot coming up#GC is a more limited experience but it also feels Better#i dont think id ever actually done any of the daily quests on retail but i have to on GC to make money since i dont have#Food Club privileges and its Fun#the games are fun‚ restocking is not impossible or unfair and its fun to bring down the market#people can do stuff like this with their shops#its fun ! im not social but i bet thats better too since its less people#idk. i loves it#talkys
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me at 14 wondering why i love alice oseman books sm:
me at almost 18 faced with the terrifying reality that i might be ace/possibly aro: ..
#i do think i experience romantic attraction to some extent but it's so inexplicable for me idk??#like i can't really imagine myself in a relationship but i always attributed it to a mix of social anxiety and body image issues#but i also kind of can but it doesn't feel like me like it feels like someone else?? who is also me??#and like i have no basis of what romantic attraction or even a relationship feels like obviously because all i know are my own experiences.#and also every time i've had a 'crush' on someone it goes away once i actually become friends with them#so i can only fixate on like hypothetical people because it's safe and nothing will come of it#but when i actually am faced with a real person i lose interest#i dont fucking know r u picking up what im putting down here??#alice oseman#radio silence#aled last#solitaire#tori spring#loveless#georgia warr
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MY ARTIST ASS THE SECOND FOUNDERS CUT COMES OUT
watch the speedpaint over on my youtube - https://www.youtube.com/shorts/ozSuzIrUyZA
#im going fucking feral#genloss ranboo#art#generation loss fanart#generation loss#genloss#gl ranboo fanart#gl ranboo#me literally two seconds after i finish founders cut#founders cut#kaeruudraws#ranboo is an evil genius why do they make me feel all the emotions#i cried my damn eyes out when he said “thank you” at the end like whatttttttt#i am feeling feelings and i dont like it#speedpaint#generation loss founders cut#generation loss the social experiments#generation loss ranboo#*dies in now hyperfixating on genloss again*
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Im probably forgetting some but im curious :D
#Teen titans#Teen titans dc#dc comics#polls#No one say anything abt 3 im conducting a social experiment#Im fully aware i know.#Half my reading list is titans im aware u do not need to tell me#putting it on this blog for a larger sample size
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i find wei wuxian, jin guangyao, and xue yang really interesting as foils of each other for a lot of reasons, but a big one to me is the ways they relate to gentry society
jin guangyao is extremely aware of his vulnerable position with relation to the gentry, and he's very conscious of the hypocrisy involved in the classism he experiences. still, he tries to operate within those constraints to rise in status within the gentry -- and he eventually succeeds! he becomes chief cultivator and head of the wealthiest clan around! but he never stops being hyperaware that everything could be taken away from him in an instant, a fear that is eventually proven to be justified
xue yang reacts in the exact opposite way. instead of the constructive way jgy operates to climb the social ladder, he's purely destructive. he was abused by a member of the gentry, so he'll destroy a whole clan in revenge. he saw the injustice of how he was treated because he was poor, and he decided to burn it all to the ground in revenge
so if jgy is working within gentry society, and xue yang is working against it, wei wuxian is a third option -- completely separating himself from it. sure, he had the benefit of being adopted by a gentry clan, but we saw how well that worked out for him in the long run, and he was never allowed to forget his origins. like the other two, he's very aware of the hypocrisy of the gentry and is a direct victim of it, but instead of playing by their rules or burning it to the ground, he just. fucks off. if he'd been left alone, he could've probably stayed in the burial mounds indefinitely. he wouldn't have been happy, but that's more about missing his family than missing his status. and at the end, he has married into a gentry clan again and is begrudgingly accepted by gentry society, but he's more aware than anyone how conditional that acceptance is. his fondness for rogue cultivators and his cottagecore fantasies show that he's not really concerned with class and status, he just wants to be free and happy with the people he loves, separate from the concerns of high society
#mdzs#does this make sense? i hope it makes sense#wei wuxian#jin guangyao#xue yang#basically they all came from the streets and were unprivileged#but then took that experience in different directions#jgy: i was abused because of my social status -> i will play by their rules and turn the game against them to become better than them#xy: i was abused because of my social status -> so i'll raze them to the ground#wwx: i was abused because of my social status -> so im just gonna do my own thing#this isn't to say theyre not affected by the social conventions theyre surrounded by#like wwx still has some kind of busted ideas#like thinking that doing laundry is beneath him#but this is just my take on their broad strokes relationship to the themes of class#i find it really interesting that both mdzs and svsss involve protagonist/villain combos who come from similar origins#coming from poverty and the streets and being abused bc of it#the difference being that class is a more prominent theme in mdzs#and the cycle of abuse is a more prominent theme in svsss#so it plays out slightly differently
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"tme/tma is terminally online brainrot" "everyone who discusses transmisogyny using tme/tma is a rube or a grifter" "tme/tma is gender essentialist fascist bootlicking" youre not making it out of the bucket.
#jeady rambles#like what are we doing here? 'help im one of the good ones transmisogyny isnt real and i have amab socialized privilege. pickme pls'#work on your fucking internalized transmisogyny instead of throwing ALL transfeminist transfems under the bus holy shit#your experiences arent universal#transmisogyny
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people are discoursing about the laios and shiro fight bc that was always going to happen but i do hope that wave crests quickly and we can all come to see it as what it is: literally one of the best written fights between two people who are both entirely justified in their actions and acting without any malice or cruelty of all time
#theres a tendency - especially in action and faction based media (which a lot of fantasy is or is in dialogue with) - to depict fights only#as happening between someone who Is Right and someone who Is Wrong#and getting to see a full on beatdown between two dudes who are both acting in an entirely understandible way and who both dont actually#want to hurt the other at all - to the extent where their desire to maintain a positive relationship with each other is the SOURCE of their#conflict in the first place - is just so cathartic to see#like unpopular opinion but sometimes you do just need to Fight someone to work through issues youre having#like irl i would not recommend that extent of Force obviously#but if you're two people in a situation where neither has active power over the other sometimes the healthiest option involves expressing#and receiving genuine anger that is not filtered through a social buffer#like sometimes you just need to yell that someone is pissing you off by how much they invade ur time and space and sometimes you need to#yell that someone is sabotaging your ability to interact with them by not expressing any discomfort with your behaviour ever#AND MOST IMPORTANTLY SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO BE YELLED AT#BECAUSE it sucks. it sucks to experience and until you can both share that space of feeling awful with each other youre not gonna get past#it and you're not gonna understand each other's pain#i think they're both wonderfully well written characters and its a testament to their depth as people that i can so easily understand why#and how both of them are behaving the way they do#im still only like halfway through the manga but it is like my favourite character interaction scene so far#fred says a thing#dunmeshi
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having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!
#persona 3 spoilers#minato arisato#hc and au nonsense#lizzy speaks#happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳#i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at-#him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know?#and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^#something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls#you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations#and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4#and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are...#that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!)#the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES#objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written#but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently#specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship#it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc#it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but#eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses!#regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself-#into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here.#the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go#“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons#anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍#have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙
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also to everyone contacting me about the tiktok--I have seen it, the reposter did not contact me before posting on tiktok but has since contacted me on instagram and they obeyed my repost credit policy so i'm tentatively ok with it!
#im so conflicted about reposts lmao bc on the one hand i have like concrete proof espc with this tiktok that it draws more people towards me#bc several people have specifically told me they found me via that tiktok. which is cool obv i love getting more engagement#but on the other hand it does remove a certain level of my autonomy over my work yknow#like when i post on my self-run social media i have the ultimate control over my audience--who sees it who comments what is being said etc#and when it's reposted even with credit it removes some of that control. which is like. not HORRIBLY bad in the context of fanart#but i know also that i am a person with polarizing opinions and given how much of ME is tied up in my art i am sort of conflicted about#allowing people to remove me from my own content. yknow#like from personal experience whenever i get a popular credited repost on instagram i do get a ton of new followers#but i also usually get a huge surge of transphobic comments. so. yknow. 2 sides of the coin ig#anyway as for this specific repost they didn't violate my policy and i'm not going to change my policy just yet so were good#thank u all for pointing it out to me tho!#personal
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why is it so hard to find good info abt cluster b and/or their symptoms -.-
#lua talks#trying to find out if what i experience is actual paranoia or not#bc even tho i often have thoughts of being watched and that im endangered; they're not as strong as the examples i found online#and the stronger thoughts are related to people close to me rather than strangers (which i do experience but a lot less intense)#and its almost always triggered by rsd/social anxiety; which makes me think that it might be just those rather than paranoia#also read up on bpd but its so hard to find good info abt it#man i cant wait to be able to afford help. hope i can find a good doctor tho :')#anyways#another day finding out another way i may be mess up#tbd#maybe
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