#im doing it off and on now i…. i got lazy….
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𝓹𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓾𝓹
— ( do note this ask was sent before my rules post was out but ill let it pass bcz it doesnt break any rules )
ah hello ! !! this is the first time im writing for jingyuan sama ..! hopefully its to your liking anon .. <:D tho i did self indulge a lil much on this ... hopefully you still like it x_x
also , yes .! i love ryona . i dig it a lot .. please dont b scared to req anything with dark themes .. i will be cheering you on !
pair — reader x jing yuan
wc — ~1k
contains — sub bottom char, dom top reader, established relationship, gn reader, possessive reader, jealousy, (false) cheating suspicions, reader is kinda fucked up in the head, size difference (smaller reader), thigh humping, dry humping, reader is pretty forceful
you couldn’t stand it.
the way he would ignore you sometimes, when you two just wouldn’t be able to have some pda for the sake of his reputation. it pissed you off.
you want to love him! show him off, maybe. hug him, kiss him, hold his hand.. all in public. but you can’t — because he has a reputation to uphold here. and what made you more mad is the fact you’d hear your own colleagues talk about him. how they want to get with him.
what pissed you off the most about today, though? you heard someone spreading rumors. dating rumors. not between you and jing yuan, no. (you would’ve appreciated that, really) it was between him and some other woman — one that he’s been working with for a good while.
you clicked your tongue, entering his office. even just from your face it was obvious you were in a horrible mood.
“oh?” he started, with that usual lazy smile of his — “my dear, something on your mind?”
he shifted in his seat, adjusting himself so you could sit yourself beside him — which, you do — letting out a tired sigh. “rumours about you again, love.” you respond.
“mm, it’s the one with that woman, i assume?”
you click your tongue again. just hearing anything related to her set you off — c’mon, now.. it’s not like they’re actually together.. your dearest would never, ever betray you in such a way.
but you see the way that woman was — how she was smiling and all. laughing those rumors off, all while clearly enjoying the attention she got. it disgusts you. it worsens your mood more and more as you thought about it.
the general could sense your frustration — almost as if he read your mind. his expression softened a little bit, this time looking at you. watching you biting on your nail, whilst the other hand was balled into a fist, resting on your thigh.
“hey,” you looked back at him. the frustration was clear in your eyes. even you, yourself didn’t get it. what were you so angry about…? you can’t help but take it out on him. “you love me, right, jing yuan?”
“of course I do.” he replies — it’s short. it’s obvious. but in your messed up little head, it felt like nothing but a lie.
“prove it.”
“wha–?”
“prove it, i said.” you lean into him, a hand against his stomach. the gold part of his belt felt cool against your palm. for a second, it gives you shivers.
“here..?” the general’s voice was filled with uncertainty. “the door is still unlo–”
“that doesn’t matter.” you interrupt, “they’re not allowed to come in, right? locked or not. just tell them to leave if someone knocks. simple.”
jing yuan gulped down, eyeing the door once more before giving in — fumbling with his belt. slowly but surely getting that corset-like piece of armor loose and discarding it completely.
he’s so obedient whenever you were mad…
“c’mere.” you pat on your thigh, inviting him to sit on it — he does, obeying you. you were upset, he didn’t want your mood to go even lower. though, due to jing yuan being bigger than you, he was quite hesitant on putting his entire weight — he knows he’s quite heavy.. but you insist he sits down properly.
he felt shy all of a sudden — putting his hands on your shoulders, nuzzling his face into your neck. you didn’t know if this shyness was a result of the position, or the fact the door was very much unlocked — maybe both.
you had a hand on his lower back, as if inviting for the white-haired general — your free hand decided to run through his hair. it’s so soft… how could you not?
jing yuan lets out a whimper, hips moving on his own. slowly but surely running them up and down your thigh. his own legs shaking. you slip your hand into the side of his pants — feeling around his waist. he jolts at your cold hands, letting out a small gasp. those hands of yours continue to trace through his body, feeling his breath grow a little faster. feeling all over his back, his hips, his waist, him. just him.
you wanted to escalate this, though, you heard something. something he feared. a knock at the door.
“jing yuan, sir?”
a voice is heard, calling to the general. you could clearly hear his breath hitch. “a– ah.. who—nnh–!”
those hands of yours continued to tease him. featherlight touches all over his body, teasing him by slipping your hands into his pants every now and then — watching your darling general explain why the person couldn’t come in — stuttering on his words, trying to reason with them..
you felt mean today. you were in a shitty mood, after all.
he lets out a sigh of release when they finally decide to go — whoever that was leaving his office alone for another time. finally, he gets to calm down.
“i love you.” you whisper into his ear suddenly, “you love me too, right? you wouldn’t go for that woman, right? right?”
why did you doubt him, even?
you don’t know, nor did you care. all you wanted to hear was an ‘i love you, too’ from the general.. your general.
his weight was kind of crushing you.. but you didn’t mind it much. you pressed a kiss onto his neck, sucking into it to form a hickey. then another… and another. it didn’t take too long for his entire neck to be covered by them. you loved it.. marking him up as yours (as if wasn’t already..)
“m’gonna–” his grinding was growing a bit more desperate — damn, already?
“go on. show me how much you love me.” — those words made him whimper, closing his eyes. you pulled on his hair, yanking his head so jing yuan was looking at you — grabbing his face with one of your hands and inviting him into a messy kiss — tongue being forcefully shoved into his mouth.
“i love you, i love you, i love you.. mmMH—!” he said between eager gasps, feeling his orgasm washing over him. you could, too — that warm feeling on your thigh.
he wraps his big arms around you, moans being muffled by the kiss. he just couldn’t get enough, can he? he wouldn’t even care anymore if someone came in and saw him this way. neither did you. at least they’d know you were his.
“i love you, darling. please ruin me..”
hsr masterlist ♥︎
#♱ library of ruins .#♱ rabbit hole .#✸ astral express .#✸ cloud knights .#✦ jing yuan .#hsr#hsr smut#honkai star rail#honkai star rail x reader#sub hsr#jing yuan#jing yuan x reader#sub jing yuan#dom reader#sub character
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day 20: collar leash
#the real reason rem merc’d him#im doing it off and on now i…. i got lazy….#dnkinktober#misa amane#l lawliet
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it's zoro's birthday!! happy birthday big guy, may you say many more insane things to your enemies in the coming years
#one piece#zolu#comic#a while ago I reread some of the earlier arcs in one piece and was caught off guard by zoro's dialogue in the daz bonez fight#finally got around to making a comic abt it#boys fluctuating wildly between chatting shit n making jabs at eachother n having a sweet heartfelt moment#they have the range#the weird shape next to zoro's face in the second panel used to be a question mark#umm but it didn't get erased fully apparently#and im too lazy to do anything about that now that i've noticed it so enjoy!#oh also when luffy says baaastard hes imitating zoro saying temeeeee#does quite have the same feel...“baaaa” like a sheeps bleat vs the kinda drawl-y rumble of “meeee”...oh well
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nothing like recording your own voice to make you uncomfortably aware of your own accent 🙃
#i know i do the utah ''nells'' instead of nails#i know my ''eh'' tends to sound like ''aa'' for some reason#still got caught off guard hearing my voice saw ''meggy sweat simming to freeze''#as opposed to ''MUGGY sweat SEEMING''#...i guess the point is just to get an audio version out#but im going to be uncomfortably aware of my lazy vowels now...
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i need brownies so fucking bad rn
#⠀ᶻᶻ⠀turn it up!⠀#unrelated croomf has pissed me off to immeasurable amounts. reduced back to oomf#overthat#anyway#DY piece tn i need it to go#and also this song is soooo minhui i threw up everywhere#decided for better or for worse that kit will be implemented here instead of in the group w kyun.. kyun works best on his own for me idk#he’s not gnna have a massive part (for now) and i dont plan on him leaving 127 to join BB or anything so he’ll def stay on the side#buttttt i did start up a little gogo piece through his eyes#i rly like the idea of never writing in gg’s pov does that jst make me sound rly lazy#BECAUSE!!!!! IM NOT!!! well i am but not w this hear me out#he puts on so many faces with everyone and even if with some he’s more ‘him’ than with others he’s never really actually#gone the whole way bared his soul the whole shebang to everyone bar like one person. so he’s kinda lonely AS EFF!!!#and idk i js like the idea of him being (when u get down 2it) a stranger. he doesnt even wanna show himself to the narrative IJBOLLL#sooooo yeah. it does kinda sound like a cop-out 4 if he acts like a different person in every piece but i think ive been p consistent so#that one person was in dream btw.. he left partly because he was bored and felt like he’d end up going nowhere and#partly because he was HUMILIATED by doing all that he needed to pack his bags and get the fuck out its kinda funny#mention ** to him and he’ll look like that pic of that one 2000 yard stare soldier its serious#worse than saying ‘hyeonmin and jaehee are in the same room rn haha’ to yijun.. but barely anyone will ever find that out#ANYWAY! i like to think kit + cherryade are the closest to seeing minhui as he is right after redacted explosions gunshots#‘im on fire and i’ve got to break out’ + ‘i've had enough of this got to break it through’ LIKE ITS HIMMM!#and dont even mention the ‘got to leave all trouble living life on the double’ I HATE THIS OSNGGGG#They made it for him. IDGAF if it came out in 2001.#ok sorry for yapping i might go make toast
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(cleaning the shower) wtf wait does he even do anything for this household
#scrib talks#okay umm this is kinda a vent so uhhg one second#cw vent#vent post#um. so my dad. does like. nothing for the house#he pays rent. but SO DOES MY MOM ????#and my mom cooks and she cleans and shit#you know. things that keep us going#and every child in this house cleans#we're actually in charge of the general upkeep of the house#but I was cleaning the shower and realized my dad doesn't do shit#he goes to work he comes home he goofs off and then goes to sleep (rinse and repeat)#SO WHY TF IS HE ALLOWED TO CALL US LAZY AND SHIT. WHAT#anyways bizarre shit that I thought was weird#in the past he got upset abt us asking him why he didn't do the dishes cuz he worked in fast food and did that all day (not a good excuse t#but for a good few years he did other kinds of jobs and nothing changed#but now he works for the school and gets pissy when we speak loudly (everyone in the house does this. btw. that's how we talk.)#BUT HES THE LOUDEST PERSON IN THE HOUSE#IM GOING TO EXPLODE#double standards !!!!
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monachan haul has arrived ✨safely✨
#ft. the gigo collab merch that i had proxied s o b s#‘how many albums did you buy m y g o s h’ j-just these 3…#thanks delivery guys for not notifying me when haul pt 2 was delivered lmao now my mother’s mad at me for not showing her what i got :(#‘just show her man’ d u d e she’ll lecture me about wasting my money— wait nvm i’ll show her my lls gk dvd that came in maybe that’ll help#im gatekeeping monachan from my fam idc if we’re related y’all c a n ’ t have her#b u t on another note the mona album standee looks really cute beside the new sena natsukomi standee#mona looks taller than sena in it but they just. look really cute next to each other aaaaa#though. yk. speaking of the gigo merch and stuff… man. i think i went to that arcade last year lmao#i didnt go up to the floor with the food and stuff since i was only there to play crane games and i was too lazy to climb the stairs#but seeing posts about the collab reminds me of the 1000 yen i spent trying to get ena pjsk nui in the mzen crane machine#i had. like. 4000 yen at the time and around 1/4 of it went to that machine… never forgive never forget#‘why didnt you withdraw more money then’ w e l l the debit card was with my bro and i broke off from the family to explore by myself s o—#and that was how i spent my birthday last year. on the 4th or 5th (cant rem) floor of gigo trying in vain to get enananui#that doesnt have anything to do with monachan but i needed to cry about it somewhere ig lmfao#m a n. what am i even doing with my life lmao#o k that’s enough of being annoying for one night see y’all for daily nagisa in a few hours byeeeeeeee
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pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:
the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon
to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)
the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon
pretty much everything about that gible
blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)
boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen
pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character
#sorry ik i keep bringing up the throwaway line but like. its SOOOOOOOOOO bad holy shit#the heracross one isnt aaaaaas bad tbf bc they really make up for it in the sinnoh league#but aside from one ep in the miniseries we never quite get an episode where oshawott proves itself in a battle#i still love that episode bc it still kinda feels like an apology for all the oshawott bashing in bw but i am a little :/#that battling didnt even come up once#ive kiiinda eased up on gliscors benching episode bc at the end of the day it isssss pretty good to her. also its the best animated one#but its treatment like what i mentioned that still really drags it down to me#and also like. i know ppl praise gliscor being so powerful after the episode but i really dont get why we couldnt have just#had a gliscor training arc onscreen. but ig we wouldnt have that stupid ass gible plot that went nowhere now would we#but like.... we had such a huge stretch between that episode and the league. i really dont get why we couldnt have had a mini arc#where gliscor realizes shes not pulling her weight that well and really starts hauling ass#she doesnt really even sweep in the paul fight. she gets beaten immediately by ninjask#the drapion part was awesome tho yayyyy#but my point is that it wouldnt really change much if gliscor just stayed and got stronger on its own#have the bench episode be a wake up call for gliscor rather than a goodbye one and she becomes super competent#like im not just saying this bc gliscor is my favorite character in the entire show. i feel like its straight up kinda lazy and less reward#rewarding#imagine how the drapion fight could be EVEN MORE cathartic if we saw gliscor struggle and fight to get better throughout the show#as much as i like that specific battle and ash vs paul as a whole... it just kinda proves my point that sending gliscor away at all#was kind of a shitty move#like ohhhhh ash's team is all getting revenge for lake acuity yay!!!!! oh one of them was kicked off for the sake of a shitty gible plot th#which really only served to make shitty piplup bashing jokes and only actually had a conclusion in the league itself#by which time it was too late to actually do anything else with it. yeah we kicked someone off for that. but shes back now!!!#like it doesnt weaken the battle THAT much. in fact theres some value in how ash went out of his way to make sure gliscor could be there#so her defeat could also be avenged. and its still my fave battle in the whole anime. but it just proves to me how pointless that was reall#echoed voice
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does anyone out here have a dad that isnt an asshole all the fucking time. like is it even possible.
#thinks we're ungrateful and incapable and lazy for lemme check. being disabled#and then when we rightfully call him out on his dick behavior he gets mad and slams things and mutters under his breath#and is like 'oh great so its MY FAULT'#and tries to push the narrative that now we've upset him and he's gonna feel like dogshit for the next two hours like.#congrats. that's how we live our whole fucking lives because of you. im always thinking about what he's gonna get pissed off at next#and how im not enough for him and how he's gonna be mad i couldnt do something#when he says shit like 'we need to teach them to sponge-wash the dishes'#like we're morons. like we dont know#we tried to LOAD the dishwasher and got so nauseous and yucked out we had to switch off every couple items#and both heaved over the trashcan#you think im not doing it specifically to make you upset? you think I CAN and im just choosing not to?#god he makes me so mad. and sad. and full of grief.#and worried for my sister#because she's bipolar and his provocation has a very real not unlikely chance at making her suicidal#it's such a mess#and its unfair for her and its unfair for me
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i actually love the comeback of bucket hats and mom jeans and big glasses and fanny packs and clunky shoes personally. i was born to dress like a dorky tourist from the 90s
#ever since middle school i have tried to follow trends and felt fundamentally like i qas doing it wrong and it didn't work when i did it#i couldn't pull it off it was forced and dumb even when i dressed and did my hair exactly like everyone else#so i gave up on being trendy bc it was never fun and didn't work#but i was so excited when mom jeans came back bc they're actually comfy then i saw cool fashionable people w fanny packs and i was like :0#no way!!#then i found a cute floral bucket hat at goodwill and i was like hm why not and it actually rocks ngl#i finally got a new pair of glasses bc of headaches and i went ahead and got some big af 90s looking ones and they actually look good on me?#i know im lowkey dressing like a high schooler now but im finally having fun with my clothes and enjoying the way i look#also i got a haircut and its a bit retro and fun and finally my hair isnt in my face bc i tried bangs and i actually look nice for once#also the great thing abt the dorky 90s tourist style is its really practical and easy#like im comfortable and i have storage and my hair looks good no matter what with zero maintenance#i still dont wear makeup ever tho lol#but im glad there's finally a way to be fun and fashionable for lazy dorky people lol#i know some people complain abt the bucket hats and fanny packs and stuff but idc im having fun finally#this has been a shitpost
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todays dragon cookie is: rock
#hi. ive been gone. no excuse im just lazy#i got pitaya on my second account it is my little pookie bear#but like foaming at the mouth tryna get them on my main#come home pookie#pitaya dragon cookie#dragon cookie#cookie run#dailydragoncookies#i had a fucking bad week and i forgot to do anything#tuesday was fine. i can make a proper meal on my own now!! ik thats kinda dumb but IM HAPPY#wednesday i had the day off college bc period cramps#thursday i did a half day but i couldnt stop crying for some reason so i went home#but im great now!!!!
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actually im kind of thinking abt how all the main players in the AU are probably way more mentally Not Great than it may appear at first
#like Alex is constantly worrying she isn't doing enough for her family and pushes herself way too hard physically and mentally bc of it#no one expects it out of her but she kind of just got herself into that mindset and ends up hurting herself by pushing too hard usually#(Rana is working with her to help break the habit)#Herobrine lived in caves for like 7 (I think. im too lazy to go check the rough timeline rn) years straight#like i already dont have to explain why thats bad on its own but hyperfixating on a dead civilization that long#to the point where you almost entirely forgot your first language is Worse.#he's had so many spider bites and eaten parts of spiders that he's literally just immune to the venom now#Rana you'd think would be better off since she's like the traditional happy cheery character but I guess that's also why she's Not#being happy is a choice to her. she's lived through some of the worst shit but she keeps persisting because the world needs more love in it#she's going to be happy out of spite despite all the odds and she wants to give that to others as much as she can#this girl walks in and out of the Nether every other month for potion ingredients like how 'okay' can she actually be really#Steve is probably like the most normal by comparison#but im not really sure how sane you can realistically qualify yourself to be when you've previously done DIY top surgery with a sword#that was not a fun day for neither Steve nor (pre transition) Rana but it worked! please dont do that again#no one else do it either neither of them would recommend it#he's not traumatized from that or anything but ill be damned if the gender dysphoria didnt win that day#but at the same time so did he. via the use of like 20 healing potions#thanks Rana#minecraft au mastertag
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#i got the worst mark ive ever gotten in a physics test today and i have my entrance test in ten days#im so fucked im so incredibly fucked im so bad at physics i dont even know why im doing a physics degree when im so atrocious at it#and it really doesnt help that all of my friends have gotten offers apart from me and i am proud of them i am but what about me#im so selfish i should feel happy for them but im so jealous and insecure and i really dont think im gonna get into uni#and my parents arent helping because they wont be satisfied unless i get into one of my top two choices BOTH of which have entrance tests#and they're asking me now why i applied to the unis that i did as if i havent picked them since july and my ucas was sent off a week ago#so i dont know what they think theyre doing except making me feel worse and worse#and maybe if i tried harder and wasnt so lazy then i would pass the entrance test but because im the perfect combination of stupid#and arrogant im not good enough to actually get in without working hard but i dont feel enough pressure to force myself to study
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How much pokemon can I play at work instead of working local fool thinks
#fanya.txt#im so tireeed#ive got tge back at night shifts jet lag and also have no energy/motivation for anything either uargh#like. everything on the computer is done dont get me wrong#everything time sensitive ia done#i just have no motivation to clean the lobby. do the fire rounds. kitchen prep and preparation of the actual breakfast#nothing needs to be acutely started b4 4 am which is in 2hrs#so for now im just kinda. melting into the office chair#wondering if ill have a smooke b4 i do my 7floors of fire rounds or after#no no after youre right#and as long as i enter the kitchen at 4am to refill ice and do the actual prep work then ill be done and ready to make the actual breakfast#by 5am no problem#but everything else uarghhh#paperwork is done. fixed a few customer profiles that didnt process correctly when the night payment went through. but usrgh the active stuf#dont wannaaa#both from pure laziness but also bc my knee has been giving me shooting pain on and off now for the past almost week#and im not excited for that to kick on once i actually get up and do the physical part of my job#so im delaying work until i acutely have to do it to actually have time to get through everything w/o stressing me half to death#which is 4am#so here i stand. well. sit. im sinking into this office chair so bad
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shout out to ND for making it incredibly hard to get caught up on COVID boosters; I think that may be why this time having COVID is kicking my ass so hard
#text post#i at least have been getting up to go downstairs but today i don't even want that and i hate that#my throat is killing me and there is Zero energy in any limbs and i slept for shit#bc apparently at this stage i should have been sleeping sitting up to help the throat (i am sitting up in bed now aksnfkgn)#butterscotch weed hard candy do ur work and numb my throat a bit pls#it keeps it from hurting as much and my god i have never been more grateful for weed aksndkfng#thank travis for travis but instead it's thank ppl who fought for legalization for it being legalized#i feel so lazy!!! sitting in bed!! gnashing teeth and frustration!!!#there is i think? a woodpecker outside tho and that's so cool#bc the last one i saw and heard was at my great aunt and great grandmothers place while they were both still alive#they claimed to hate the guy but after the fake owl didn't scare him off he just got to Stay aksndkfng#aunt Betty and great granma pls lend me some strength here bc im a Baby TM when sick like this aksndkgngn
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👁👄👁
#lmao... i dont want to vent especially bc its something super stupid but if i dont get it off my chest ill feel worse 😤#so feel free to ignore ✌😊#that feeling when youre friend got into art and she now has a better style than you :)#i love having poured 15+ years of my life into art and drawing and still not having a discernable art style :))#AND I HATE THAT IM FEELING JEALOUS bc her art is so pretty and shes doing so well with it and im so happy for her#I also know that im actually feeling angry at myself bc the reason im not like her is bc im not trying hard enough#but god just thinking about doing a fraction of the work that she pours into her stuff makes me want to curl into a ball#and sleep until the trees are blooming again#i need to change my sleep schedule... and my diet i know im not eating properly and thats probably not helping in my low energy#or maybe my low energy is just a lie and im lazy... anyways this got too depressing
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