it's taken me a while to figure this out, but i can use whatever pronouns and labels i want and still be a boy at heart. i can do whatever i want. no one can stop me.
i am a nephew/son, but i am an aunt.
i use he/him, they/them, dress gnc in a butch/twink way, am called mademoiselle and kinda preffer it over monsieur, i am Latina and not a fan of being called latino or Latinx/e, am HISpanic (pronouns). i use neos. i can sometimes vibe wiht she/her more than he/him.
i'm trans ftm, transmasc, enby, genderfluid, bigender, androgyne, and vibe with msot other genders (including transfemes/mtf expiriences). i'm a boy. a part of being a girl still carries wiht me.
im christain. i am not a fan of religion. i respect other cultures and religions and often like to learn more abotu such and of proper customs and etiquette. it's cool.
im aroace and bisecual/romantic. im not angled aroace. whether i fit that definition or not, i do not wihs to label myself as such or be called that.
i don't like certain parts of my body do to dysmorphia or dysphoria or both. i wouldn't give up other parts for anything in the world.
i lvoe myself. i hate myself. i'm learning hwo to better understand myself.
I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT FOREVER
YOU CAN TOO!!!!
I AM RIDING THIS HIGH AFTER A PARTICULARLY BAD NIGHT!!!!!
LIVE LIFE AND LIVE FREELY MY WONDERFUL BITCHES!!!!!
-R
oh wow, this is awesome! hell yeah, brother!
do whatever you want forever, because this is YOUR life, and you deserve to feel comfortable in your own skin and body.
juno thought process
rich in iron -> if i had alot of them i could make a sword -> arnt livers dangerous to eat -> other than human livers -> wait in the dungeon meshi chapter about marcille recovering from undine attack she eats kelpie liver for the iron -> i guess it is safe to eat -> wqhat kinhda sauce would it taste good wiht or would it taste better just plain & grilled -> i wonder if it tastes like iron and in turn blood that would be awesome cause blood tastes good (because of the iron in it) -> i should drink some blood -> where could i get blood -> wait holy hell theres blood in me -> how do i get it out with minimal pain so i can drink it -> wait isnt there a thing where if humans drink like a tablespoon of blood they throw up -> that is just a tale of the weak & i am strong and superior -> i love myself and being me im so awesome and cool and narcissisistic which is very based and makes me way hotter and cooler than i would be if i wasnt
i love my gay elf walking sterotype (not rlly im trying to make him special and unique)
he WILL have sex wiht your dad :/ jk,,, he is taken
His relationship is special and awesome and full of nuance, cannot be labled becuase it is so particullar and strange. Some may call them friends, some would call it 'toxic' (it is not!') and some will get it and be cool. fuk spelling
so long storys short i [OOC: These characters have no canon ages, but the one speaking and “Marshmellow” are both female] have this rival whos had it out for me ever since the beginning. well call her “marshmellow” since thats what she looks like
ANYWAYS
ever since she started going to my old school she’d always been showin’ off just how much better than me she is at everything. everyone always completely ignored me and flocked to her whenever she entered the room, and sometimes she even had the AUDACITY to make her spite extra obvious like that one time where she stole my pickled onion off my lunch tray or psyched me out and made me miss the round-winning kick in some big soccer tournament. or when we were competing in a bread race and she fucmking SNEEZED on the side of the bread that i was supposed to eat. and then was all “kUrOmI~cHaN aReN’t YoU gOnNa EaT tHe BrEaD. Go On KuRoMi EaT tHe MeLo BuGgErS”. or when she got lost on a field trip so i got off the bus to go look for her and when she found her way baxk without my help she LET THEM LEAVE WITHOUT ME
and our rivalry led me to start this cool biker gang of ppl like me and meet my sidekick (17M) who well call eggplant for funsies. and eggplamrs family is DIRT POOR and one day i stole some bread from the market for them and got caught and thrown in the dungeon and had to lie about why to make sure they didn’t get in trouble too (for what? STARVING?? BECAUSE YOU DIDTN FEED THEM???). and nobody i knew visited me because they were too busy SIMPING FOR MARHSMELLOW. and to this day they all owe me 8 birthday parties (except my homies theyre cpol)
but one day i escaped and me and eggplant found a cool magical artifact in the same castles treasure room that could help me cast spells on humans that would bring their dreams to reality in rlly fucked up ways and if they enjoy it i get a black note and if i get a humdred of them i can play this special song that will summon this ancient evil to KICK MARSHMELLOWS ASS
and i went to the human wrld to enact my plan and ended up scoring a room in the most AWESOME house with djffjdjfhshfsh the most handsome most awesome most loving human EVR!!! youve prolly already heard of him since litrrally everyone has. and me and eggplant share a room
and ever since we started this journey hes been my sidekick, doing all the housework, going out adn fetching me stuff when i ask for it, paying the remt for our room, and letting me use him as a punching bag to vent my anger. and we fly around the human world together in search of black notes and he sniffs out humans dreams. and i dont say it often but im glad hes so willing to just sit there and take it all. is what i WOULD say if he he didnt suddenly decided he had enough of it and LEAVE. TO GO STAY WITH MARSHMELLOW (oh yeah marshmellow followed me to the human world and made friends there who shes also staying with. theyre collexting pink notes which dont really do anything but stop me from getting blsck ones)
and he says hes happier living there than he is living wiht ME. and i had to work my ASS off to get him back but its all cool cuz i punished him accordingly later <3
but while i was still tryna get him back i thought of how good our friendship was before then and realized i never treated him like that before coming to the human world and thought for a split second that i might not be being the best friend
prolly gonna keep doing it anyway bc thats just how this cruel world works lol. but i cant get ot outta my head so i might as well ask. aita?
thanks dude wiht sunglasses n everything??? just kidding i cant wear sunglasses ive got these fuckass huge circle glasses instead ur just gonna havet o picture it for me. i think ive just immediately shot myself in the foot here im gonna go get some waffles from my freezer
mari, actually!! we used to be in a server together where they shared some cool sketches of nene and mizuki! they said it was a free mobile rhythm game so i immediately downloaded it. learned what vocaloid is that evening too lol. somehow, somehow, it ended up overpowering the massive (third) pokemon hyper fixation i was in. went to bed that night hearing the tap sfx and knew i wasn't getting out of this one so easily. two years later and im still in sekai hell.
my first unit was leo/need!!! they were so cute aaaaauuugh i love them... absolutely adored luka (still do she's just like me fr.). i think i watched n25's next? then vbs, mmj, and wxs last. (i didn't think i would connect to the theater troupe and i, to quote, "think they have the worst songs in the game". rui halloween event changed that attitude very quickly).
uhhh silly things i did.... did not understand what events were for at least a month. maybe more. i tried grinding to unlock the kamikou festival final chapter (i was captivated by mizurui even then) wiht a team of only leo/need 1* cards. (i did not get it). thought that speed six was ideal because "if i change it it will mess with the timing". did not know there was a gatcha until a month and a half in. did not know you could train cards until two months in. did not know what mastery rank was for at least half a year. or skill up. i could however clear hard from day one and got to master within a month!!
So. Its still better that “im my mom now” or “im now have a cool gun and new talent” but...we just reset Ruby. We just reset her. She now again Ruby Rose who just herself with a little bit Summer stuff. This is not a “i get it i need to work thought my mistakes” or or something like this. It just “what if im just going to choose me?” and “i like to think we did at least a little good...right?”. I not sure if we going to get vol10 Ruby will talk to the Yang that “hey...i saw our mother and she just...run away with Raven on the mission”. Ruby got depress because she tired of doing “not enough” and people not seeing that she in “not good shape”, run away, got torture, drink a tea because she was thinking she will stop exist, WE FIND OUT THAT SUDDENLY she was obsessed about her to be just like her mom, finding out that her mother lied (kinda info that we already knew kinda, outside of the fact that she run away WIHT Raven \me trying to do poly jokes\) but remember that Summer told her and Yang that “i love you just the way you are” and now she Ruby again. The same Ruby from...idk volume 5-6.
Jaune is still alive and get back his younger body with just a bit white hair lines. He remember probably everything, but im not sure if we going to get vol10 SOMEHOW we will see some side effects from all this. COWARDS, HONESTLY. I have a hard opinion about this guy, but they really coward with not keeping his Ever After Timeskip look.
Neo is commit “going into a tree” because “she need to find herself”. Cool. She need just “fix herself” with “the tree”. Nice. Love in it. (no)
AND WE JUST GOT A HALF EPISODE WITH LORE ABOUT BROTHERS. IN THE FINAL EPISODE. LISTEN. I MAYBE dont talk about Summer too much but you know what? I want to take more flashbacks about her and Raven that about all this lore thing. Literally final episode. I was SCREAMING because WHY. WHY THIS. I FINE with another scene with Blacksmith and talking about how good Little is and how baaaad Cat is and all that jazz, but...when you have possibility that you will not be able to continue your story...this is not the time for LORE HOMEWORK. YOU LITERALLY HAVE A CHANCE TO NOT BE ABLE TO END YOUR STORY. RWBY CAN BE ANOTHER SHOW WITH NO PROPER ENDING. NO “we want 20 volumes” NOT EVEN ONE MORE SEASON, THIS CAN BE YOUR ONLY SEASON. THIS IS NO THE TIME FOR LORE ABOUT THE GODS. “KILL YOUR DARLING” IN WRITING WHEN YOU HAVE A HARDCORE SITUATIONS LIKE THIS.
Also from what i can tell...did we skip this whole sityation, that we had in ending at the volume 8? Or there was a timeskip and people are already safe (WOW) or people still in the desert and they just...in Vacuo now?
Conclusion for rn, because i kinda not in the mood and i dont want to just scream and be angry at every parts - Love this flashback with Summer and Raven (with a little bit Taiyang, miss this man.). Love Curious Cat full form, looks really cool and wish we see more this form (ALSO A WHOLE NEW MODEL FOR A ONE EPISODE FOR A COUPLE MINUTE-). Hate...what ever going on with the tree, i do not like this whole “suicide is a progress and a good thing” (this whole decision to make suicide metaphor was a mistake in ALL levels), like new Ruby song. Fight was...nice i guess? Sad for Neo because no matter what i think about her as a character and about her story, she do not deserve ending like this with this whole “she will find her way”. Sound like “suicide will fix her mistakes”. Little also have a new model for a one episode. HATE LOREDUMPING AT THE FUCKING FINAL EPISODE THAT CAN BE A FINAL EPISODE FOR A WHOLE SHOW WHAT ARE YOU DOING TEAM.The only thing that was important for progress in this volume - was Yang-Blake getting together finally, getting a little bit Summer story and Jaune experience in Ever After, even if he still have his vol7-8 look. And also get rid of Neo?
Do what ever with this information. I just going finish my work and going to sleep. Maybe will write something more about this episode after i will rewatch 20 times again as always, but not today.
THIS WAS HIDDEN IN MY ASK BOX IDK HOW I MISSED IT BFEORE.. IM ASSUMING THIS IS FROM WHEN I FIRST WATCHED TRAIN TO BUSAN AND I NEED YOU TO KNOW. I AM TRULY FUNDAMENTALLY CHANGED AS A PERSON.. like not only was it a PHENOMENAL zombie film and i won't think about the zombie subgenre the same way again but also its message about what it means to be human which really is a core idea that should be at the center of every zombie film wasj ust so so so beautifula nd had me sobbing at the end and i love that we get an ending that in spite of everything ends wiht hope and i cannot stop thinking about it just in general... and seok-woo learning what it really means to be a good father and figuring out whats important to him when the world starts to fall apart and su-an's unrelenting kindness in the face of the end of humanity and the fact that her father can be so cruel or maybe not even cruel necessarily but just acting out of self-preservation and she is the light in his world and she keeps telling him that the only way out is through kindness and he's afraid to see what that could mean in a way and just in general the way the film shows how destruction and violence only lead to more destruction and how deceiving others is ultimately pointless and how kindness and love are really the only way to make it through tragedy and how you cannot survive an ordeal like this without a reason to continue living and the reason is love and other people.... and as a zombie film too the mechanics it introduces are fantastic, the entire idea of it being set on a train and the world outside the train versus the world inside being so drastically different and i love the creature design where the zombies don't attack unless they see someone it's so interesting and from an internal narrative point it's just so cool, this means the virus is actually pretty easy to contain and it means that wearing camo gear might actually help against zombies which again is just an interesting thought and when i tell you i GASPED when the small group of survivors on the train realized that they could travel through the cars of infected when the train was going through tunnels because of the low visibility THAT WAS SO COOL!! like what a neat idea!! what a fucking amazing design to put in your monsters!!!
and the way the movie is written it's just so beautiful... i love the boy's baseball team and i love the two old women on the train, the sisters, and i love seong-kyeong and her husband and i love how every person in the film feels so real and i LOVE the conductor and how he is determined to do his job as best as he can even as the world falls apart around him, and he keeps his train on the tracks as long as possible and he does everything he can to save everyone he can and AAAA ahg im probably not making a whole lot of sense right now but this movie is really just SO so good. i think it's probably the best zombie movie i've seen and it's one of my favorite pieces of zombie media ever. it really gets to the heart of what zombies as a concept are supposed to be about and it delivers on all fronts. from beginning to end i couldn't take my eyes away from this film it was incredible.