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I'm all caught up
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ponyboy who was for sure a why? why is this that way? how? what does this do? kid n darry who wanted SO bad to be the type of brother who is like cool! I can teach my kid brother somethin! but rapidly devolved into 'cause I said so' older siblin at an ALARMIN rate
#he pulls out the cause i said so n ponys like hey they never works for me :/#n darrys like thats cause ur a kid#n ponys like well u are too🫵#n darrys gotta be like yeah well ik older so what i say goes#when they were younger they were just such stereotypical siblings i fear#n darry n pony had a BIG age gap#so pony would start askin a thousand questions n darrys like ohhhh im gonna swing on this kid shut UP#n then has to grab himself by the shoulders n be like ah#well im 14#n pony is 8#maybe i need to calm down#(it only half works)#the outsiders#ponyboy curtis#darry curtis#the curtis brothers
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the energy the joy the vibes... i think i'm feeling loved
#the way it just. fills you up. every part of my body is warm. theres a buzzing in my ears that's soft and melodic.#the tears in my eyes simmer. bc they fall with a smile. and it feels like im floating. even though im more grounded than ive ever been.#the snow outside my window glistens with hope. it's a blanket. a shield. from the outside world. it's peaceful. it's calm.#but it also rages within me. keeping me warm. fueling me to keep going.#there's a sense of rightness. in my soul.#dnp#c.text#dan and phil#phan#dnptit
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the colourised versions has me on my knees




#i am :))) cool :))) calm :))))) n collected :)))))))))) on the outside :)))))))))))))#n yet internally VERY unstable !!!!!!!!();£:&):&(;#i do believe im not gonna survive this one 🥲#jungkook#jeon jungkook#jeongguk
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once again in that era where im emotionally tired and cant seem to draw things for myself unless its an edit grgrr so fake screenshot edit of two old nerds be upon you i love him a lot

#i may be calm abt him on the outside#but just know im screaming and bouncing off the walls on the inside ok#f/o#self ship#self insert#self shipping#selfship#🌙anomaly hunters🌲#might change their ship name at some point idk#screenshot edits
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it's been snowing a little
#haiz goes outside#i had to trudge through so much deep snow to get to the bus stop...#also i had to drive a car through a really intense snow flurry yesterday :((( i did not like that at all#shoutout to the sami radio and the calming power of joik to be the only thing that keps me from panicking#and chanting to myself that im an ok and safe driver. on the fly dbt
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daredevil is coming back in a week and everyday that passes my bones vibrate at higher intensities
#outside im calm but inside im the feral meme#the wait is almost over yalll#im SHAKING#daredevil#daredevil: born again#marvel#matt murdock
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STOP ASSOCIATING EVILNESS WITH UGLINESS AND FATNESSS GRAAAAH IM KILLING SOMEBODY OH MY GODDDDD RIPS THE WORLD APART WITH MY TEETH
#talking abt a char: “erm if you’re ugly on the inside you’ll be ugly on the outside too!”#SHIT THE FUKC UP KILSS YOU TO DEATH SPRAYS YOIR BLOOD EVERYWHERE VIOLENTLY#IM NOT CALM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#bunnierambles
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God I love thunder SO MUCH
#rambles#uh anyways accidentally stuck myself outside by my woodshed#so now im watching lighting! (I didn’t realize it so close over my house)#and once it calms down I’ll go back I guess#personal I suppose#Ive seen some cool lightning though so HOLY FUCK#SICK ASS BOLT RIGHT OVER LMAO#gotta ramble or I might get a lil scared
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Let her grieve
#since we've been uh. deconstructing prism's mental state..have some sad ship art.#it's been a hot minute since I last properly did digital art but i have found my drawing tablet pen and.....oh it's good to be back#sigh i just. i don't think i want prism to grieve alone she deserves better than that#her bobots are gone...phoenix go hug her...please ..#i originally had her crying but idk..the pose changed by the time I finished the sketch she looked more exhausted#and i was like yeah i'll roll with that and she probably just calmed down or something#also um! never drawn two human characters ineract before (properly/intimately) so! obligatory it might look a little off#and directional lighting. god im not used to doing it outside realism#i digress... i love they#ieytd#i expect you to die#[agent moose's art]#agent phoenix#roxana prism#roxanix#creator and me
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˙ . ꒷ 🍰 . 𖦹˙—
#im currently at my sister's place. she wanted me to take care of our dog while she and my mom goes home to sort through their stuff#i have a very unpleasant headache after waking up early after no sleep. walking to the psychiatric for an appt. then having minor issues to#get here bc the train tracks were... smth?? and the train was late and idk. it ended up being painless to get here#then i went to buy groceries and then took the bus here. since i've been here once it is easier for me to navigate skskks#now im here and im happy to be with my dog :3 i havent seen him for an entire month :(((((#but it feels weird to be all alone.... i dont like it actually :// i mean if i didnt have my dog here it would be AWFUL#i dreaded a bit to take my dog outside bc she lives on the third floor and he cant walk down the narrow stairs. so i have touse the elevator#but that went fine!! its still not as easy as just opening the door and then go straight outside tho T-T!!!!#idk. i realize that im just.. a person who dont like change. i have lived in the same place my ENTIRE life. i havent moved once.#and even if it isnt as nice anymore bc um literally thousands of ppl have moved in the past couple of years... it isnt as calm at all anymor#BUT. i fkn love the environment and scenery. there are so many beautiful and pleasant places to walk. and sit. i just love and need to walk#i know every road and walkaway there.. i know which trails are calmer and nicer etc. we have parks and forests and all that#here is like just housing areas. like apartments and houses and stores and schools. and roads. roads everywhere... cant find a path without#a road next to it ://// it isnt calm at all bc there are always cars :( and um idk how im supposed to go for walks when there arent anywhere#to go. so yeah what im saying is that even if the place i live has gotten worse.. i still feel. like thats my home.#idk how to live anywhere else. and to think this might be the year i HAVE to move. i .. dont know how to adapt and settle into another place#i LOVE where i live. i love how its built and the neighborhoods and everything. i feel so so attached to that place. i know this is life etc#but since i have lived there my entire life and just now being away from it in a place that has 10% of what my home has im like.#idk it feels really bad and im just not into life at all rn. i wanna live in a place i like and just rot into it. never leave.#i dont like change... im realllyyyy homesick rn T-T esp being alone without my family sucksssss i hate it
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as cute as apple pie!!!!
#or peach pie#in this color coded case#yall im trying to make words from my brain but theres these loud ass frogs outside my house#they might be the tiny frogs that sleep on my flowers#idk theyre so noisy tho#i guess thats good tho so ill know theyre still alive#i care for them so#i love how ant tries his best to look cool collected and nonchalant#and he does have that air of calm intrigue to him#but he also just looks like such a little pookie bear like i cant take it srsly#just wanna give him a lil smooch on his smiley cheek#when he was mimicking dillon and watching the enemy team warmup all intimidating like#and he just ended up looking like some small curious fellow who wants to join their game of catch#but is too shy to say so#ant trying to be tuff: 🙂
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al and smunker live every day hoping talon doesnt ever need consoling or otherwise positive words on his character because well you are very smart, you're funny but usually not on purpose. Not very outwardly or consistently nice enough to be noted as such either. Your bad days can be very bad. But we do love you without any hint of deceit or resentment or mere tolerance. If it was anybody else we would have been sick of it, but we just want you happy and loved even if you never ever get "better." It's hard to pinpoint exactly what about you makes you special in that regard, but you are. You are wonderful but dont ask for any concise one word descriptor evidence.
#talkys#need to clarify that talon does have inprovements on his mood its not like he's hashtag evil to his boyfriends#all the time forever ...he does become a bit more calmed and loving! and a bit more considerate#but he still needs a lot of patience some days#i think from the outside that may be Something#like oh to have people who will be there for you no matter how much you push and bite and claw#tbh in al's case part of it is absolutely because he feels both maternal/paternal toward talon but he'd never tell him that#al loooooves taking care of people in that way#i guess its similar to how parents sometimes have those ''i love you but i dont like you'' sentiments#(he DOES love AND like him but i hope this makes sense like if it was anybody else al would have had him leave already)#(he even almost does at the beginning. its smunker who decides to give him more chances)#but thats what i mean. its like theres an unseverable connection there#and that sounds Bad or like theyre trapped with him but thats also what im getting at...theyre not#they really do love and enjoy their time with him its just that even then they cant pinpoint or put words on Why#oc text
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ARCANE DAY
Episode 4 and 5 in the tags and:
SALO BEING A VIKTOS FOLLOWER??? CRAZY. ALSO BOTH VIKTOR MISSING JAYCE AJDHSKSJ also cait has kinda calmed down... and I am sure she misses vi so I KNOW this is going to happen to her soon.... we aren't getting much of her feelings yet... she's still too onto Jinx to catch up on where ambessa is going...
DID JAYCE JUST KILL SALO??? WHAT HAPPENED IN THERE
Also vander not recognizing vi at first until she gives up fighting.... incredible ALSO vander and silco being miners and vi wearing her gauntlets that were initially thought out for miners.... damn
This is my favourite episode so far....
Episode 6 here:
Sky really being there..... of course she is....
Ambessa training caitlyn.... of course thats her new daughter akdjskms Tunnels in your eyes.... GIRL!!!!!!! THAT'S WHAT YOU DON'T NEED RIGHT NOW also the guy outside is a mage... ambessa is such a hypocrite
Vi and Jinx vs ambessa and cait.... this was always about class war don't get it twisted SINGED!!! TRAITOR!!!!
ARE THEY GOING TO SEE VIKTOR???? I looove how viktors touch on their faces leave "scars" so recognizable
Did isha just take the gem from vi's gauntlets??? Omg I wasn't expecting viktor to build a hippie commune to be honest omg he looks so good.... with the blonde underhairs.... and I do believe that's the same blanket....
And of course viktor knows who vander is.... nvm he diesnt know omg viktor asking for Powder.....
We are getting viktor horsegirl montage.... omg the vander momtage I can't..... omg they wanna stay.... singed is gonna fuck all this up NOOOOO 😭😭😭 they are already there I am going to kms
CAITLYN STOP THIS MADESSS!!! ✋️ CAITLYN!!!!! VI KILL THIS MAN!!! OMG CAITLYN...... mongoose... yeah.... and fuck you too.... CUPCAKE!!!! ABOUT TIME!!!! CAITLYN I SAID STOP THIS MADNESS WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!!! And jayce too 😭😭😭 we're never making it out of the fissures
It's such a shame the spit on here won't work like on challengers.... one can only pray I guess
Jinx experiencing the "there's nothing more undoing as a daughter" moment.... incredible
"Your absence provided a vacuum I was able to fill" TO VI???? I KNEW THAT HAND HOLDING IN THE COMMANDER SCENE WAS SUS AKDHKASJ maddie exists and ambessa knows that and still.... it was not filling her mother's void...
YES CAITLYN!!! YES!!!!! VI is so hot I am distracted... ambessa was right.... now what the fuck will jayce fuck up??? Thats the question... NOT ANOTHER CHILD!!! jayce is a menace... the guys smiling at jayce are viktor... maybe the child even....
JINX KILL THAT MAN!!! NVM VANDER KILL THAT MAN!!! JAYCE YOU FUCKING MORON!!!!! JAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHEN I GET YOU JAAAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Isha what are you going to do omg 😭😭 did she kill vander... another powder... my god another week...
That was such a good fucking episode too.... and caitlyn didn't go insane when finding Jinx that is a step forwards but viktor can't be dead... no fucking way... he was giving himself away for the people and he was going to finally die by saving vander and look at what we got... no wonder viktor hates his guts. Jayce you were so good in act one.... what happened..... alright. Christ.... another week....
#FUCKING MADDIE?????????????? NO FUCKING WAYYYYYYYYYY#fucking maddie??? yes she is fucking her. christ. jinx was right vi should have hit before all of that.... maddie bet her to it 😭😭😭#i have tears in my eyes aldjaodjsk no fucking way what the heeeeeeell ooooh my goooood nowaaayyaaayyyaaaayyyy#and cait looks so pretty....... she is still focused on jinx.....#omg isha..... jinx gave up jinx??? what...... ambessa is making hextech... so jayce is still missing.... well she is trying#and mel is still missing too.... christ and ekkos friend is sympathetic to jinx... mmhmhmmmmm also ambessa clocks everything aldjakaj#cait has calmed down.... what is happening... she is now only violent towards jinx i guess. ambessa is opening that wound over and over oof#THE MIDDLE FINGER AKDBAKSBKANSKA sevika is unifying the underground i knew it!!! yes!!!! jinx show up!!!!#cait paying homage to her mother while rictus beats up some guy.... her suffering meking her an enabler to those actions... yeah#oh no..... they know.... isha lighting the fire like jinx did.... sevika getting her arm cut... ISHA BEAT HIM UUUP!!! JINX!!!! omg singed..#enforcer vi becoming part of her hallucinations... its so over... also silco... jinx kill this man. not ambessa... omg jinx run....#she likes iiiit yeeeeahhhh.... ekkos friend... . and THE BROTHEL LADY... SHE KNOWS WHO SHE IS!!! SHE IS SO GLAD!!! WARWICK!! FUCK SHIT UP!!#OMG HE RECOGNIZES HER!!!!! HE SPEAKS!!!!! WHAT A FUCKING MASSACRE OUTSIDE BUT HE DOES RECOGNIZE HER!!!!#CALL VIIIII THROW A PARTY WE ARE A FOUR PEOPLE HOUSEHOLD NOW!!! FIVE WITH SEVIKA!!! COME ON AT LEAST TRY!!!#his eyes changing color... singed you are nothing compared to a fathers love... jinx complaining about not really having killed powder....#she didnt and vander recognises that.... amazing omg........#THE CAIT IN BED HALLUCINATION AND JINX THERE!!!! its so weird seeing them both like this.... jinx wanting to help him.... ofc...#THEY GOT VANDER???? also you know whats funny... the cape makes cait look like silco... it looks red even#why is singed based.... OMG MEL!!! HER BROTHER!!!!! OH MY GOD VIIII LOOKS SO GOOOD!!!! HER GAUNTLETS ARE PAINTED BLACK TOO AKDBAKS#bitch mittens (not even diy) damn vi she got you hard THE BITCH SLAP omg vi... your big sister duties...#singed actually venering vander.... do not help the opressor singed!! i just said you were based!!! IS MEL PREGNANT?!?!??!#she does enjoy her puzzles..... oh of course he is an hallucination.... the first time he appeared behind her....#silco and vanders old hq..... omg MORE DOOMED YAOI...... vander apologised but silco didn't read the letter 😭😭 as vi reaches for jinx omg#vi wearing her enforcer plaque without the plaque.... slay but why. no vander no loke he is a dog akdhaksj IS VANDER THEIR ACTUAL FATHER#NO FUCKING WAY A LOVE TRIANGLE AND EACH ONE GETS OME DAUGHTER AIDHOQSJOSAKL i need a fucking moment....#well its not vanders.... BUT THE SAME CUP AND STRAW FOR POWDER OMG!!! THE FATHERS THAT STEPPED UP!!!CONNEL GET RECKT!!!!#bedrock and blisters my fucking god. vander and silco wanting to build a better zaun for her daughters... AND JINX AND VI ARE GONNA MAKE IT#vander looking at the woman she likes whos hair is purple: ive always liked the name violet. im going to be sick!!!! my god!!!#MY GOOOOOD!!!!!!! VANDER HUGGING VI!!! THE SHOT OF HER OFFERING JINX TO JOIN WILL END MEE!!!!#watching arcane
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we JUST got an upload yesterday why do I miss them sm today……..
#just rewatch a video and maybe you’ll calm down girl#went outside today so i just need to look at my photocards and think about my show again later#got the dreaded are they together question again today except it’s from my contextless sibling that just knows im obsessed with them#so now it’s known that I unfortunately stan a couple essentially but they just don’t get it 😔#dnp#blossoms.txt
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halo does not like being snarled at even just a little lip curl she started barking but with her shrill throwing a fit upset bark not her aggressive scared one. jm more worried about her starting a fight than the shelter dog who's been pretty gentle and not concerned with babou and only warns halo if she gets too close suddenly and then immediately is happy again and not too focused on her. halo is just poorly behaved and is jumpy and easily annoys other dogs by how she runs around in circles whining and she paws at faces when she's playing or anxious -_- which she hasn't done to dogs outside her family but still her personality makes me so scared help I take her out on a leash only which is easy because she already is used to staying in my room on days my mom's boyfriend is home because she hates him to death
#dogs sre so much work inm sorry i don't think I'll get one myself outside of my family's dogs for a long time#plus im definitely getting cats in the future my favorite animal and i cant relax with dogs around my cats help#halo was sweet and ignored the several stray cats at my grandparents house but to babou she keeps play bowing at her and is obsessed#itfreaks me out stay sway from her and calm down... i saw you swing that opossum around.#she's better now it's easy to tell her off for that at least#babou is sweet for only lightly smacking her sometimes.. she's hardly scared anymore and walks around shaking her tail happily#she used to hide but halos much easier to make get qlong with the cats than berserker..#it's so nice and carefree for babou these days without berserker and kayas crazy asses#chewie doesnt give a fuck about the cats at all momo would rub against him and chewie would be like 😐#he scratched him as a puppy though as he was momo's first dog... chewie is the most gentlest ever now
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