#im almost out of the trenches..

[camelspit]

showed up late to first period bc i was printing shit for a project in the library and then proceeded to not realize we had a test in that period because i kept working on my project. and had 8 minutes to do the test. im so done this is absurd

[churrobird]

its so funny to follow people who main ships with the same guy that you main other ships of. we are like ships in the night, you and i. we are not enemies, rather cousins who only see each other at the family get together but we have a baller time when we do

[lunarconjunction]

Soundwave sketches because I've never drawn mechs before and I desperately want to draw so much stuff for The Echo Garden by @altraviolet

[homosexual-work-account]

Getting queerbaited in the big year of 2025, Bobby is STILL dead after weird behaviour from the cast that could imply he’s still alive (???) Athena is STILL miserable and selling the house despite saying she wont ONE EPISODE AGO and Angela Basset is probably leaving because Bobby is STILL DEAD, Chim relieving the same arc for the third fucking time, doing NOTHING with Hen, Maddie’s only story was getting brutalised because they dont know what to do with her, not a single one on one Buddie conversation despite it being one of the MAIN EMOTIONAL STORYBEATS OF THE SEASON, goofy ass baby name, the Texas plot line meaning nothing because it changed fuck all, all important storylines getting resolved off screen, Buck relieving the abandonment arc for the seventh fucking time, Ravi still getting NOTHING to do, OOC Buck and Hen and Eddie oh Tim Minear hell is HOT for you

[xagave]

My sense of time is so wack and I'm sure part of it is because I'm always so busy that the days fly by but checking up on an artist and seeing that their last homestuck post was a fairly long time ago is very jarring

[nickbutnodick]

me and the friend i made in geometry class continuously trying to figure out if the other is transgender

[weaverofink]

Guys I'm so tired.

[velvetjune]

Another case of Dr Darling being hilariously enthusiastic about the fbc’s latest morally questionable efforts with scientific research, but I love that his passive aggressive complaint got censored. I just know someone was feeling annoyed and petty at the callout

[geddy-leesbian]

Y'know, I've read your pinned post so many times, but, gurl, is there really nothing you can do for your condition? Does it just keep getting worse? :<

I can’t even imagine going through that—it’d be a total nightmare. Feels like body horror, really

Honestly, there's not much to be done about it, but it's not the end of the world.

The good thing about it is the "intermittent" part of the name. Other forms of porphyria are chronic and have a more constant impact. AIP is completely asymptomatic outside of attacks, like to the extent it's almost undetectable. When my sister was diagnosed a genetic counselor met with her and my mom who asked if I could be tested since every woman on her side had it, and he said that there was no way to test me until I had an attack. Because it tests for elevated porphyrins in urine, and AIP doesn't affect anything outside of attacks, it will always be a false negative if it isn't done during an attack. Sometimes it can still be a false negative even during the beginning or ending of an attack too. (Now the mayo clinic can do a more reliable test by checking a blood sample for the actual genes, but that's relatively new and it takes several months.) And attacks aren't always frequent. My sister had super frequent attacks as a teenager, but stopped getting them at all by her mid twenties. My mom also has it and she only has about one attack a decade. Some people will only have one attack in their entire lives.

Attacks can be avoidable. Sometimes they're not, but there's triggers to avoid. My second attack this year was completely preventable. There was a day I forgot to eat (yay ADHD med appetite suppression :/) and fasting is a huge trigger. I don't remember if I did anything that might have triggered the first, but at least I know the second was my fault and not just random chance. Overall the triggers aren't difficult to avoid either, day to day, diet is the only thing to worry about. High carb diet and don't cut sugar out entirely, very easy for me to adhere to.

And yeah symptoms just magically stop after attacks end! One night I went to bed with severe pain, dizziness, hallucinations, delirious, then woke up almost perfectly fine. I had some lingering neurological symptoms for a while, but those are gone now too.

I did discover there's now a new drug that actually prevents attacks (before the only treatments in existence would help attacks once they started, but there was nothing preventive) which for 2 seconds was a big relief to know there would be an option if I kept getting them, but...

I learned it would not be an option for me so I just have to avoid triggers and hope I'll be like my mom and only have to deal with it once a decade 🥲

Also weirdly flattered anyone found my post interesting enough to reread! I mean if I'm stuck with a rare disease, at least it's an interesting one!

It's not usually so body horror/nightmarish either. Usually it presents more like a bad stomach virus than anything else. For my sister, her main symptom was always severe abdominal pain and she'd basically be fine with meds. I remember visiting her in the hospital a couple times and she was never close to how I get during attacks, just a bit tired but pretty much herself. My mom got a little fucked up mentally her last attack, but vomiting was her worst symptom and she didn't really have neurological symptoms outside of her feeling a bit out of it. Even outside of my family, abdominal pain and vomiting are the most common symptoms.

I'm just an unlucky outlier that doesn't vomit at all but gets alllllll the neurological issues instead. Which does have a silver lining, I've never had to be hospitalized for it. My mom always does because she can't hold anything down and gets dehydrated on top of everything else, and doctors are stupid assholes that either refuse to believe her when she says she has AIP and won't run the test (the urine test is easy, every single hospital lab can run it, it's just the blood test that takes specialists and a long time) or believes she has it but doesn't know what the proper treatment is and are too arrogant to admit that and just push meds that at best don't work and at worst actively make it worse* 🙃 so I'm glad that I can at least be at home on a couch with my cats instead of being stuck in a hospital.

Thank you for the opportunity to ramble 😊

* there's literally an online drug database for porphyria patients with these classifications

And my mom's been given a medication that's in the definitely porphyrinogenic category during an attack 🫠

[heart-diamonds-court]

hes back! i still cant believe hes back!

[lelianaslefthand]

anytime i post about That Elf i feel so annoying as if he's not my pfp like literally "likely place for him to be" scenario imagine being normal

[desertdragon]

T/////Eight story amounted to basically nothing so I guess I'm back here to the other stupid as shit game I give too many chances on a more full time basis again (minus still writing my As///u/////Lil////i fic I love that thing too much and people in my DMs are counting on me for more)

At least I'll always have my friend and her best ending

And her faggot

EDIT: Ok it was nonsensical and full of holes like swiss cheese but now that i've calmed down this was always a goofy silly dumb game that cares less about taking itself seriously as it does being cool and fun, so while im disappointed and im allowed to be disappointed, im not running away with my expectations on this like others have. Tekken is still fun and will always have a place in my heart. And I do appreciate receiving some things I've always wanted regardless of my upsets with their execution flaws. They were finally able to make me feel like my favorite characters have closure on some level regardless, and that has to be commended.

[cheekinpermission]

Y'all who started following me within the last 8 months - 1 year don't realize how good you got it. This is how I used to draw circa 2023.

Erin got so much plastic surgery done its craaaazy

During the events of Chapter Six (no major spoilers!)

Yuu and Grim can't even afford fruit so how do you expect them to buy skin care products HMM?

My single greatest contribution to this fandom

[theafrochick]

chat why didn't anybody tell me about the glare off your glasses. i feel like im going insane because its just a passive debuff on me. i KNOW my eyes got like exponentially worse since i got glasses and now like i can see the light on the lenses and its tweaking me out. i feel like i can't see shit :sob:

[eatyoursupper]

Wow. It's 2024 and I'm listening to a new twenty one pilots album in my teenage bedroom while playing my Nintendo switch

[mybreadsmybutters]

they should invent a not doing my assignments that doesnt completely fuck up my gpa