#im alive and this is what im working on lol
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#oc#gabe#thinkin about what gabes canon used to be and how i should keep it for an au#im still alive not that anyone missed me lol#ive been playing lots of shadow of the erdtree#and am off to a little trip for the rest of the week#sanity and mental health? in free fall for sure girlies#ive been in this art slump for 9 months already bwehhh#everythings just kind of terrible lately isnt it#hope anyone reading this is having a wonderful day#hoping august is a better month so i get out of this one drawing a month cycle#i have bobbies to draw and this snail pace is not working for me
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my sister sent me this
original here
#resident evil#rebhfun#albert wesker#biohazard#re5#resident evil 5#okay im still alive but#she said she wants to know what you guys think abt her work lol
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this literally refused to post for a few solid minutes. i miss him.
#epithet erased#epithet fanart#rick shades#wizard.png#BROTHERRRRRR#something that pissed me off sm while drawing this#while coloring i use a color to fill in everything#and go over it l8r#so i grab a random purple i think vibes close enough to his color#im thinkin#it should be fine to color over i probably wasnt that close#i grab an image of rick shades to colorpick from to kinda get my colors together#like i havent drawn this man in forever i cant remember the last time i did#literally fucking#like 1 degree of hue and saturation off from the purple of his hair#i had to change my fill in color#which like cool i guess i can do that??#made me so mad man#tbf i play what the hex for funsies#and spend like half my time alive staring at color palettes#anyways i gotta. sleep.#i have work and it is 6am LOL
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MY APPLICATION FOR STUDY ABROAD GOT ACCEPTED IM GOING TO CHINA THIS MAY LETS GOOOOOOOOOOO
#i love being alive#also i was writing my scholarship essays#and i talked about how im gonna use this to go apply for work at noaa#and it was such a funny feeling of ''wow look at me talling like i know what im doing'' lol#hopefully all those work out#worst case ill open commissions to help cover travel
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carefully crafting my outfit to look as sweet and innocent and unfireable as possible in hopes of making my boss feel too bad to fire me for breaking the work phone
#he left my message on read on my last shift when i told him i broke it so im guessing its not gonna be a hahaha dont worry about it these#things happen reaction when i inevitably talks to me about it today#WHO USES AN IPHONE WITH A THIN CASE AS THE WORK PHONE ON THE WAREHOUSE FLOORS ANYWAY IM SORRY BUT THIS WAS BOUND TO HAPPEN EVENTUALLY#got the cute embroidered pinafore dress over a frilly shirt and baggy knitted cat cardigan. fluffed my hair as much as possible put a little#cute headband on and cute earrings. even concealered over the dark circles under my eyes to make me look more youthful and innocent. maybe a#bad move tho maybe the dark circles wouldve made me look more pitiful#is this excessive and pointless MAYBE BUT I HAVE TO DO WHAT I CAN IF IT HAS EVEN A FRACTION OF CHANCE AT KEEPING ME EMPLOYED AND ALIVE#i literally dont even knoe if its legal to fire me for dropping a phone anyway lol. but the lack of response to my message means i hsve no#idea what the consequences are#i also madr the mistake of peeking at the order errors spreadsheet and my initials were on there A LOT and i know for a fact that gets peopl#e fired because thats what happened to my old coworker#starting to think maybe i need a new job if this one feels so unstable all the time. also everyone there unintentionally makes me feel like#im stupid which i also dont appreciate too much lol
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Do you have any tips on how you line art? Any artist you look up to until today 🤔
ngl "any tips" is kinda vague lol idk anything abt like, how u approach art or how ur setup is etc and how my ink comes out is like. entirely procedural and mechanistic like that. yes i've liked the line thickness variation since my brush inking days and cater my setup and find brushes to work with that, but yeah like. idk it's like any other thing of art u do, u find the thing u like doing and u keep at it intentionally
though that^ is one thing that i've always been kinda conscious abt; "lineart" is for if ur piece wants colors and is gonna be about the colors. what i do i call "ink". it's the main course it's not the accessory for the coloring. and that's how i approach it too, as its own thing that doesn't need to or have to play nice with anything else, which means if i want to express anything in a piece i have to be able to do it with just my inking. texture, intensity of the lighting, weight, impact, there are ways to communicate all of that with ink, and i'm still learning with most of these things! it's kinda a language and u find ur own voice with it and nobody really speaks it in the same way.
as for artists i look up to yoann's spirou art was my ink bible for almost a decade and guided my brush inking style literally until i quit the medium (i did say i'm a filthy bédé acolyte lmao). more recently while messing around with the dip pen kinda style of inking i was literally drawing a one piece dj so oda's style was what i was working with the most, but in that sphere early ygo art (especially mignola-adjacent back then) and tegami bachi make up a decent amount of my ink dna. i never really tailored my ink to approach urusawa's style but i learned a lot of how to do certain things in ink (esp. facial features and expressions) from his work. not super relevant since i don't do it a lot a lot but i've always been enamored with the bg work in yotsubato! and it's kinda how i imagine inked environments in my head always
#not art#ask#u can see how much of my study in inking is just comic-related lmao#inking for an illustration is a different approach than inking for a comic too. the shapes u work with will be different. u usually#won't have access to the kind of motion-describing lines comic work affords u. in exchange u can pack ur piece way denser#i hold ''comic art is closer to handwriting than to painting'' very close to my heart. if u apply painting rules&guides to comic art#it pretty much never works. most of the times ur abstracting ur subject and communicating the idea of it way more than#trying to directly capture it. its why ink and comic are kinda intrinsically linked in my brain. the two things come together naturally#thats actually a sticking point for me lol one of the adages that haunted me as a baby artist was ''draw what you see not what it is''#❌ WRONG FOR COMIC u ARE drawing the truth not the reality actually. iconography! linguistics!#anyways thanks for the uestion if u clarify on where in doing ink or lineart ur finding troubles then maybe we can come together and#troubleshoot together. im no scholar nor am i an art savant But i Have been doing ink for almost two decades and im still alive#so im actually immortal and no art woes can defeat me. we ball
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last line tag
tagged by @jesuisici33 @thewolvesof1998 @daffi-990 @jamespearce9-1-1 @lover-of-mine @hippolotamus @disasterbuckdiaz 💖💖
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It’s a good few weeks, and it feels like everyone’s back on track, settling into their lives again, figuring everything out one day at a time. Buck’s happy. He has his awesome girlfriend, his best friend seems finally more at ease, even if the divorce is adding some stress, and his other best friend is happier than ever with his mom around. Everything’s finally starting to go great.
And then it all gets disrupted again.
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no pressure tags: @elvensorceress @gaydiaz @diazass @thebravebitch @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @arthursdent @diazblunt @911onabc @spagheddiediaz @housewifebuck @gayhoediaz @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @monsterrae1 @honestlydarkprincess @underwater-ninja-13 @eowon @exhuastedpigeon @weewootruck @loserdiaz @evanbegins @steadfastsaturnsrings @ladydorian05 @malewifediaz @pirrusstuff @theotherbuckley @911-on-abc @spotsandsocks @hoodie-buck @giddyupbuck @wildlife4life @fortheloveofbuddie @nmcggg @diazpatcher @jeeyuns
#the alive shannon fic#last line tag#buddie wip#buddie fic#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#clearly struggling to segue into the bombing lmao#my wips#skipped wip wednesday so have a lil line haha#thought id have the bombing written already but need to start getting ready for work so i guess writing's done for today lmao#i might be a little absent from the writing games in the next few weeks bc im just so exhausted lately lol#this scene I'm writing is so disjointed and out of order rn and i hate it i need to find more time to write it properly haha#but pls keep tagging me i love reading y'alls wonderful snippets!!#also what do we think shannon's job could be bc im trying to figure it out and have no clue lol#(also i have to actively remind myself of ali's existence and i can't wait until the break up so i don't have to anymore lmao)
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I've been away, but I've been busy!
January & February wraps from Patreon, Twitter, and commissions! 🎀
#there might be some more lost in the between lol#i never know what fits here so i end up forgettig to post anything... sorry!#but yes im still alive breathing and working#patreon#commissions
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so fucking busy the rest of the year. being alive is awesome :]
#i have 4 classes this semester and 2 of them r music relateddd i love my major#my financial aid package FINALLY PROCESSED after like 7 months lol#so i just have to figure out disbursement#i have surgery in october to have a hysterectomy and oophorectomy#and then i am gonna be out of work for 4 weeks (but still doing classes lol...)#and i have 2 more cohorts to facilitate#and a training video and some projects to pull together#and a brainstorm session tomorrow#and im going to a baseball game for work on thursday!!!!! exciting!!!!!!!!!!#and if my finaid is as much as theyre saying it will be my rent for the rest of the year is paid#which would mean all my paychecks can go directly to#medical costs and other bills n savings#which puts me so fucking closer to moving out next year#if i play my cards right i can pay all my debts between now and march/april of next yesr#and then i will be able to fucking!!!!!!! move!!!!!!!#wait guys im emotional i had a shitty medical procedure i had to endure as part of pre op a d#literally in the last hour im back to feeling so fucking energized#ohhh my gd i love being alive please please please lef this work out#im gonna stART PLANNING W MY FRIENDS FOR A SPRING TRRIP NEXT YEAR?#AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! maybe even planning another trip w 19 bc i saw a cool cabin to stay in LMAO#just. yells. oh my gd#please please let this work out even 50% of the way of what it looks like it could be
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goku dies? AGAIN?
#what the fuck lol#dbz#dragon ball z#cant they like... not wish him back this time?#or wait maybe with the other dragon balls?#i forget how the rules work lol#but im sure they'll explain it to me here eventually#because i mean i know he's alive again EVENTUALLY
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hii everyone !! i’m super excited to be doing this again ! i know i’m putting this out a bit later than usual in the holiday season, but hopefully the form being open for a bit longer than last year will help balance that out lol.
you can fill out this form if you’d like to receive a christmas / holiday card from me this year :)
friendly and important reminder that no one will see any personal information that you choose to enter on the form besides me. also! some things are the same as last years’ form but there are also a few new things i added. i’ll be shipping internationally + domestic. if anyone has any questions, feel free to dm me or send me an ask !!
(also yes i drew the banner myself i am artisté™️ thank u very much) (jk procreate is just a goddess that allows me to be adequate)
#holiday cards#christmas cards#im so excited!!!#allwaswell16#alwaysxlarrie#now that i actually have my license rather than a permit#i can actually drive to the post office whenever i want without having to wait for my mom to be available#AND i don’t work in retail anymore so i have MUCH more free time to do these#what a time to be alive lol
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tease tidbit tuesday💀
tagged by @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @daffi-990 @fortheloveofbuddie @disasterbuckdiaz @hoodie-buck 💖
hi! so, yesterday I randomly opened the doc with the buddie death cast au - which is a fic I started writing last summer on vacation and never got back to it but then made progress lol it's gonna be MCD, which i know is not everyone's thing so feel free to ignore this 🤣 it's basically buddie in the universe of the "they both die at the end"/"the first to die at the end" books so it's gonna be sad, sorry lol (I never even read mcd, idk why i'm writing this but this idea just wants to be written i guess haha) gotta put this weird mood I've been in lately to good use and finally write this 🤣 not sure if I'm happy with this snippet, but it all needs editing, the first two snippets were written on my phone and haven't been edited yet lol
I posted two snippets so far, gonna link them both snippet 1 | snippet 2
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“Is all of this clear, Eddie?” she asks in the end.
“Yeah, sure, whatever.” he says shortly. He should've just hung up immediately. Or cancel this stupid subscription after Shannon died. Sometimes he wonders if maybe people who get the calls and coincidentally get into accidents, for example, just give up and refuse to fight because they think it’s their time. Not like Shannon could do much, her injuries were too severe when they got there, but the point stands. Maybe they get more reckless, thinking it doesn’t matter anyway.
There’s a short pause on the line, but then Jane speaks up again, her tone softer, more sympathy seeping through.
“I know it’s not easy to accept, if you’d like some help with that, on out website you can find therapists and grief counselors specializing in-”
“Listen.” Eddie interrupts. He’s spent enough time in therapy. He’s not doing it on his supposedly last day. “I know it’s all bullshit. I don’t care. You said what you had to say, I listened, for whatever reason.” he rolls his eyes. He really should’ve hung up, or not answered at all. “Is this conversation over yet?” he asks and is met with another moment of silence. She’s probably wondering what everyone else always is: why is he even spending money on this if he doesn’t believe. He has an answer ready to go, but that’s not what she asks.
“Can I ask you a question?” she says quieter, whispering, probably not allowed to go too much off-script.
“Sure, why not.” he shrugs. He’s wide awake now, anyway, he’s not in a hurry. Not like he’s dying anytime soon.
“If it was your last day, how would you spend it? You don’t have to answer, just think about it.” she adds quickly, her tone much softer and gentler now. Eddie’s mind immediately supplies a picture of Christopher and Buck, just a casual hang-out, like usual, maybe going to the movies, or the aquarium, or the planetarium, something fun for his kid. And later a gathering with the rest of their family, maybe a barbecue at Bobby and Athena’s, with Maddie and Chim, and Hen and Karen, all their kids, just everyone having fun together. Yeah, that’d be a perfect day. “There’s no harm in spending today just like this, if possible. Just in case.” Jane adds, still whispering. He doesn’t tell her that’s more or less his plan, anyway, for the evening after his 12-hour shift. During which nothing will happen to him, because Death-Cast doesn’t know shit. “Well, lastly, Eddie,” Jane’s voice is back at normal-volume, tone strictly professional but sympathetic, as she recites the end of her script, “on behalf of everyone here at Death-Cast, we’re so sorry to lose you. Live this day to the fullest.”
Eddie hangs up without a word.
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no pressure tags: @elvensorceress @gaydiaz @diazass @thebravebitch @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @arthursdent @911onabc @housewifebuck @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @underwater-ninja-13 @eowon @loserdiaz @evanbegins @ladydorian05 @wildlife4life @nmcggg @diazpatcher @lover-of-mine @king-buckley @monsterrae1 @thewolvesof1998 @puppyboybuckley @weewootruck @buckaroosheart @spagheddiediaz @steadfastsaturnsrings @exhuastedpigeon @jesuisici33 @theotherbuckley @rainbow-nerdss @malewifediaz @giddyupbuck @diazsdimples @jeeyuns @epicbuddieficrecs @pirrusstuff @honestlydarkprincess @hippolotamus @spotsandsocks
#tease tidbit tuesday#death cast buddie au#buddie wip#buddie fic#buddie#wikiangela writes#my writing#fic snippet#my wips#angst#buddie angst#mcd#i don't know how yet but eddie will die in this one bc apparently ive been in the mood to break my own heart lmao#i wanted to say maybe i'd share smth happier tomorrow but i don't think i have any happy wips im actively working on rn???#there are happy wips in general but im not really in the mood/inspired for those rn#ran out of happy when i finished the natalia fic i guess lol#who even am i lmao what's with all the angst and sad im usually all about fluff 🤣#(gonna share some more of alive shannon tomorrow!)#btw if you haven't read the books and have questions hmu but also i'll try to make everything clear in the fic lol#but also SO recommend the books they're so good and so sad and I think about them like at least once a week (the prequel wrecked me)
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miyako calling aqua and ruby her son and daughter...WAAAAAH AUGH girl you are working so hard ;-;
then BOOM ex husband time. oops. awkward.
#I dunno if they technically divorced or if he just went off without any big show which is prolly what he did but damn#im hoping the twins get a moment to realize just how much miyako does for them. you both got mommy issues twice over so go give your good#alive parent a hug ;-; i still mostly think the twin thing is funny lol im just laughing at the chaos. but hey at least rubys doing better?#at what cost tho...I do kinda feel like ruby's genuinely pumped again but like miyako says she still puts up a front of positivity and the#thing she takes joy in now is um. NOT gonna work out for her so I just cant help but feel it'll come crashing down again so yeah#oshi no ko#onk 124
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like out of all the many, many traumas ive given elspeth my favorite has gotta be the deep roads lol. and specifically the way she never really got OUT of them. yeah so maybe her body did but not HER. shes still down there with ruck and helspith every time she closes her eyes. and during future expeditions when she goes down into the deep roads for real, it doesnt feel like some horrible nightmare it feels like REALITY and its the surface and love and warmth and alistair thats nothing more than a pleasant dream. one shes always going to wake up from. bc even in her happiest moments she's never not aware of the darkspawn digging up towards her just a few miles under her feet. and never not feeling the eyes of the deep roads looking at her, gleefully waiting for her, and knowing its not going anywhere
#i love shale but for elspeth's worldstate i dont recruit her bc im so obsessed w the dynamic of it being elspeth/alistair/oghren/the dog lol#oc: elspeth#tay plays dao#she got SEVERE shell shock being down there in the dead trenches after the realization that came from helspith's poem#why shes never seen any female darkspawn and why there apparently arent as many female wardens either#and like. Understanding that death is the absolute best case scenario for her.#alistair had to 100000% step up as the leader because she was completely out of commission. barely able to breathe let alone fight or lead#going from this unstoppable warrior who NEVER loses her nerve or control on a battlefield#to nearly dying to the broodmother bc she was so fucking terrified. bc all she could see was her own fate mirrored back at her#finally FINALLY understanding what it means to be a grey warden. and then trying to reject that reality with her entire body and soul#she pulls herself out of it enough to get out alive but she never had a moment of like... triumph over the deep roads where she had a burst#of courage and saved the day or whatever. thats not usually how trauma works and so alistair carried them thru that#thru the broodmother and the anvil and branka and back to orzammar just as elspeth was beginning to put herself back together#afterwards the lack of closure to what was one of her ''weakest'' lowest moments rly weighed her down with guilt and shame#and its only a year later during awakening when she finally reconciles with having NO choice but to go back into the deep roads#and being able to kill the mother. THAT helped. that restored some small part of her#gave her the strength to start going back down there when the need arose. resigned to an early death but ready to put up a fight#but ye. still such a fundamentally devastating thing she went thru which altered her entire personality to the point where she starts fully#embracing being a warden (bc how can someone who's seen what shes seen and done what shes done be anything else???)#and INSISTING alistair take the throne despite having always been supportive of his desire not to. even if it means she loses him.#bc its a last ditch effort to save him from the fate she's completely surrendered herself to#sigh. this game man.#i need dadw to Confirm that the grey wardens have found a cure and alistair and hof are safe because jesus christ. my girl NEEDS a win
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there's a certain quality the harmonies of like... early to mid 2000s alt rock has. which i am obsessed with... like i wanna do that. i NEED to figure out how to write harmonies that sound like that
#ari opinion hour#i sort of understand it but not necessarily well enough to do it on command#i think i sort of achieved the sound of it with my blaseball winter exchange song i did for snow but specifically only in the very last bit#like only with the 'im not alive anymore' part#(which sidenote i wish id had the second half faster + w more drive but its not like that was like a full recording which i could do)#i think i just need my music to have more teeth in general cause it scratches an itch that i think i must have developed due to some aspect#of music school. its probably my dissatisfaction with the attitudes in the classical world#<- which understand i say that in the same way that like my jazz prof does. the classical world doesnt have enough teeth nor enough#understanding of the way in which music is like. another art. and art needs to be able to have teeth and use elements normally regarded as#''undesirable'' on purpose because art is there to make you feel emotions and not just the positive ones and not just sadness or anger in#terms of the negative ones#art is there to make u feel ALL extant emotions and that includes boredom disgust fear jealousy pity cowardice apathy overwhelmedness etc#also the classical world i find often forgets what the word ''play'' means#i am of the opinion that perfection is a waste of time if i wanted perfect i'd ask a computer to do it for me. i want real#anyway. i forgot what this post was even about lol point is i need to figure out how to write harmonies that have that soaring quality that#like. you can hear it in like helena by mcr and wake me up by evanescence and stuff. and frankly most of the songs on three cheers for swee#revenge which i am listening to now for the first time. i need to learn more about this stuff maybe ill listen to the evanescence album tha#song is from next.#or something i should really be working on my essay but theres no way i wont have it done in time which is good i think i just mostly have#to worry about sources and stuff but even that should be relatively easy i think
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Guys why is rain world so good (<- rewatched some scenes and teared up on all of them)
#rat rambles#rain posting#god man. holy shit. fuckkkkkk#rain world may not be one of my token big interests but god does it just hit me so fucking hard whenever I do engage with it#I also think after rewatching some stuff that my general takes on how rain world's world works have shifted a smidge#which is also giving me some more ideas for saint hcs#I feel like the biggest thing Im seeing differently now is the concept that the saint has no beginning or end#one big theme of rain world is the way that all cycles eventually come to an end#societies iterators and even the lives of the animals that wander about#theyre trapped but within these cycles they still move forward and eventually fade just like everything else#but the saint doesnt. they never can. in that way they are a paradox#for when even time itself eventually fades what becomes of the being who will never be allowed to slow in their decent?#overlapping onto themself infinitely until what is and isn't them becomes irrelevant#have they lived many times or were they ever even alive to begin with?#at the end of the day they will never know. its a peace they wont ever find#as they are simply a lil guy who is stuck in a real mind boggling situation#anyways thanks pebbles dialogue for helping me get a better grasp on saint stuff have fun being dead buddy#it also makes me feel even worse for the echos because theyre likely in similar positions#not the exact same given Im sure none of them had the powers to fly and ascend ppl but still#in my minds eye tho theyre more themselves than saint is#for better or for worse#the rest of the echos are stationary. unable to move forwards or back#while the saint continues to spiral onwards and onwards in ways that break the very core of this universe#or smth like that idk. Im just rambling abt nonsense at this point lol#but yeah I imagine the sain to be both trapped and stretched across time#most things exists whinin cycles of cycles but the saint takes that concept to the extreme#most things much more so develop and change as time moves forward but the saint kind of just is#but like. is a lot. like there's a lot of them. but that them is stretched like super thin#they overlap themself and keep stretching to infinity#and with that sort of overlap it makes sense that in what conscious state they do have they simply experience each overlap eternally
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