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I literally said "Did you get the angst fucked out of you? Probably yeah"
one breath, without pause
because I went to therapy today where we're working on me feeling more attractive and its working but I realised that maybe getting laid might help
I realised i was a lot more sexually repressed than I thought I was
and I'm like 'huh'
a few orgasms (all by my lonesome) later and I'm like
'hUH'
anyways.....what character would ask u this after they fuck u real good?
#need that belief fucked into my head#new cognitive rewiring#neural pathways made by a dick in me#im a virgin btw#anyways...I think this is#Ran#sanzu x reader#hanma shuji#hawks smut#gojou satoru x reader#bd/sm kink#bd/sm blog#bd/sm daddy#bd/sm community
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"the mortifying ordeal of being known"??? why don't you think about the hornifying ordeal of being BLOWN you fuckin,g NERD
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SAAGGEEEE your corrupting art blurb UUUGGGGHHHHH TOO FUCKING GOOD
thinking about the same scenario of him being overwhelmed & so deeply in subspaceā¦ but making him cum for the first time ever & heās so whiny & doesnāt know whatās going on & feels so good when he cums he just doesnāt know what to do šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«šµāš«
DYLAN LISTENNN
i havenāt rlly written too much corruption kink stuff bc iāve been focused on other things, but now im fully in the game.
iām thinking about an inexperienced, virgin!art donaldson whoās never had a real orgasm before.
wet dreams? sure!
butās heās never been conscious to experience those releases; just woken up to warm, sticky boxers and a funny feeling swirling lingeringly around in his stomach.
maybe heās never explored that sector of life before due to something like: barely repressed religious guilt, or the fear that itāll be too intense for him to handle, or just plain business..! but the point is that heās never experienced that hot, all-consuming, pulsing rush of pleasure that floods through your body when you come undone..
so when he finds himself submitting in your arms, the two of you tangled in your bed while he mindlessly seeks friction against your leg and kisses you, his eyes fly wide open when he feels a bolt of something good shoot through his cock in his briefs.
āoh,ā he whines against your lips before he pulls back and swallows thickly, āoh, god..ā
you look to his eyes and chuckle softly, catching your breath while your hand snakes down to grope his bulgeā rewarding you with a sharp moan and a jerk of his hips.
āyouāre so sensitive,ā you whisper, your hand giving two tugs on his clothed cock before art is grasping for your arms, his legs starting to tense.
ās-somethingās coming.ā
he says it in a way that makes him sound utterly terrified but completely elated, simultaneously. heās quaking against you, letting out little moans into your neck that are rapidly increasing in volume and frequency with each passing half-second.
fuck, heās already teetering on that ledgeā so overcome with the new sensations that he canāt squeeze his thighs together hard enough to stall his crossing of the finish line.
sweat is prickling on his skin almost uncomfortably, and heās melting into your frame as he buries his face in your shoulder. his blonde curls brush your jaw and cheek. another tug on his erection sends him hurtling toward the end of it all before he can even properly grasp the build-up. poor thing.
āiā¦ i feel really weirdā.. i canātā! i think im gonna..! gonna-!ā
he yelps, before his vision completely whites out. his fingers curl into your biceps and his legs kick out and spasm as he lets out another broken cry. his voice comes out mangled through the heady waves of dopamine and the surge of emotions.
heās never felt anything like it.
nothingās even come fuckinā close.
not a win on the court for a sparkling medal or trophy, not a bite of his momās special cooking, not even cry-laughing at patrickās dumb jokes.
nothing.
this is everything.
god, how did he miss out on this for so long? what was life even like before this type of ecstasy?
heās gushing into his underwear (heaps of held-in loads finally pouring out), rocking against your leg as you gently work him through it with a smile on your face, and he canāt quite seem to think of an answer to either of those questions of his..
itās all too much in the best way.
āoh fuck, fuck fuck fuck, im cumming,ā he gasps, sounding laughably bewildered and unsteady, his touch growing almost painful on your limbs.
he doesnāt mean to grab you so hard, but the feelings are consuming him wholly and he needs to clutch onto something before heās sure heāll float away. he needs you to ground himācomfort him, help him, teach him.
he canāt believe whatās happening, and now heās only got one thing left on his mind as the aftershocks make his head spin:
howās he ever supposed to survive sex?
#šø - ask prompts#š - mutuals#:3 thank u dylan btw hehee#i love virgin!art#can u tell im passionate abt this#idk i just think heād be sobbing as he puts it in for the first time#finishing inside you after only the first three inches slide in#like yes deflower that man#corruption kink#sageās asks#art donaldson smut#art donaldson x reader#art donaldson x you
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im not even joking when i say that this stupid butch helped me learn to let loose and be more butch too
#tlt#the locked tomb#gideon nav#gideon the ninth#griddlehark#tlt art#shes literlaly my fucking fave#im just like her#not the total virgin part tho she can keep that#new brush btw#gang gang we out this art block (for now)
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ok!! haha! being a single virgin for the vast majority of my 20s has been funny & all but it's getting old much like my avoidant attachment style & myself in general so uh who want me !!
#must be a woman must be semi close to chicago or rich enough to travel semi frequently#I know late 20s isnt old btw but its old to be a virgin let me be a little annoyed about that please#im serious by the way im losing my virginity this year & fixing what is wrong with me in general#lets just ignore how my last tumblr relationship went shall we
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moodboard by me Ė . Żšš. Żā
#moodboard#by me#works as a laptop background btw#the T is for my bf i love him sm#girlhood#girlblogging#coquette#dollcore#female rage#this is what makes us girls#balletcore#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#ldr unreleased#waifcore#girl blogger#girl interrupted#black swan#pink aesthetic#2014 aesthetic#2014 tumblr#the virgin suicides#hell is a teenage girl#im just a girl#coquette aesthetic#dollette#vs angel#female manipulator#female hysteria#bunny aesthetic#lana del ray
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BlitzĆø, incredibly drunk and crying: Stolas, I have something to confess to you
Stolas, thinking he's about to admit his love for him: yes, darling?
BlitzĆø: I- I'm a virgin!!!
Stolas:
BlitzĆø: *crying*
Stolas:
Stolas: he's drunk isn't he
Moxxie, from behind the fridge: oh yeah, definitely
#btw moxxie is getting revenge on all the times blitzĆø stalked him#rae shitposts#helluva boss#helluva boss incorrect quotes#hb#blitz#blitzĆø#blitzo#stolitz#stolitzo#stolitzĆø#moxxie#stolas#stolas x blitz#stolas x blitzo#stolas x blitzĆø#iM a ViRgInā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļø#no babe ur not
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my friend just told me that whenever they see x files stuff its just "that one guy being girlypop"
#and i can't argue#mulder is the poppiest of the girls#he is the wifeiest of males#he puts the 'f' in fbi#thats if f was for femininity#fox w(oman) mulder#fox mulder#mulder#the x files#im not being mean to him btw#just in case anyone wants to argue#go look at how he sits while talking to lauren kyte#in shadows (s1e6)#and the way he asks scully if detective white is a virgin?#typical girlypop gossip
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Yuhh so Sabolaw but Sabo is aromantic?
(I'm so sorry if I depicted being aromantic inaccurately! I read 1 article and 1 reddit thread so please correct me on anything!! But back to the narrative!!)
These two idiots first meet in medical school and even though they only knew each other for at most two months before Sabo dropped out, they knew that they were soulmates. They just click in a way even they don't understand.
They find it easy to stare out into the sunset and not say anything. Sabo felt comfortable leaning on Law's shoulder and asking himāa diehard doctor/surgeonāif medicine is right for him.
Law, in turn, would reassure his silly blonde friend that he would succeed no matter where he went. It was a matter of deciding where he wanted to go, when and how. Law was the one to fill in Sabo's drop-out form, except Sabo's signature and press send on the email.
Post Sabo dropping out and swapping degrees, their favourite activity is sending little letters to each other's dorm rooms in university. They write these really long letters detailing how their week went and whatever they find interesting.
Sabo would go on about his new degree and Law would bitch about his uncle. They could just as easily text each other, but they would rather not use their phones too often. Besides, they found letter-writing intimate. It forced Law to keep his handwriting neat.
At first, Sabo thought it was a romantic sort of crush. It was nice because it was the first time he felt such warmth for someone. When Sabo told Ace this, Ace noticed something a bit... not romantic.
He asked if Sabo wanted to kiss Law and touch him sexually and Sabo immediately said no. He got heart flutters whenever Law wrote back but they were not exclusive? It's the same heart flutters when he attended Luffy's highschool graduation or when he picked up an autographed copy of his favourite writer's book... Hmm.
It really is not personal. Sabo tried to reason. Sabo never had crushes on anyone and personally found the concept rather silly. People fall in love? He knew a good working relationship needed more than just that but why did everyone focus so much on... What? Love?
Sabo doesn't get it. He thinks it's strange but he would be upset if Law rejected him. At a certain point, Law said he was pursuing a relationship with someone and Sabo did not feel jealous or scorned or anything like that, really.
"Will we still be friends?" Sabo blurts out. They meet up occasionally. They text for that.
"Why, of course," Law replies easily. "A relationship's just one part of it. It just means I have more to write about in our letters, beyond my uncle and Sora."
"That's good."
Law pouted.
"I mean our letters!" Sabo clarified. Law huffed. Law really hated his uncle and loved Sora and he was afraid Sabo thought he was boring. "Please don't ignore me! I'm sorry for the mixup! Law!"
But on a more serious note, Sabo found that reassertion of friendship more reassuring than he thought it would.
Sabo very confidently concluded the thing he's feeling is a platonic crush. He needed to workshop what it means but he liked the way it sounded at least. It has the intensity of feeling but also complete lack of romance he feels towards Law.
It wasn't romantic but Sabo cared about Law. Law was up there on the list of people Sabo considered important, second to himself and brothers. Sabo valued Law's opinion, not just of his personal character but of everything in general. Law's happiness was his own.
So it damn near devastates Sabo to see that one day, long after graduation when they started working...
It started with an unreplied text. And then an unreplied letter. And then a growing pile of unreplied letters...
They still met up. Law was busy, Sabo knew. Being a doctor was busy enough but a surgeon? Insanity. There was a reason why he dropped out of medical school!! But Sabo supposes something is wrong.
Law looked away more, almost to the point where they barely looked each other in the eye nowadays. Sabo knew Law still listened to him but he would suddenly blush, get jumpy and fuss over stupid things. Sabo wished he knew how to comfort his distressed friend, his precious soulmate whom he would do anything for.
#sabolaw#revolutionary sabo#slawbo#one piece#trafalgar law#jacqueline's aromantic sabo au#i will update my tag when I have a better name for this idea lmao#btw this is unironically based on my perspective on romantic love albeit dramatised for a fic haha#my single virgin ass is simply uninterested in sex and romance even though i write a lot on it#for some reason this concept intrigued me#hmu if there's anything u reckon i should read on this lmao#I'll update you if i make any progress on this!#the idea is like im aware ppl hc luffy as aroace but like what if sabo too?#idk if sabo is asexual as well because im aware aromantic and asexual r two diff things#i shall ponder ab it
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i'm going to california for a week this summer š š thank god
#no im not religious btw#girlblogging#just girly things#lana del rey#coquette#lizzy grant#black swan#girl interrupted#girlblogger#girlhood#this is a girlblog#the virgin suicides#this is what makes us girls
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Spoilers 4 the new BSD chapter
{^u^} Bye Kenji ill see u when u come back! And if u dont come back ill still see u bc im gonna kill myself and meet u in hevaen or whatevr!!!
Rip to u, Kunikida, and Jurichiro btw, yall will b missed dearly by an unstable teenager.
They WILL b added 2 the shrine now
#you can be emo and catholic posting#this is a joke btw#kenji miyazawa#bsd kenji#bsd#bungou stray dogs#i wont kms over this im just being over dramatic#he will live#he will li ve#he will l ive#h e will live#he w ill live#he wi ll live#he wil l live#he will liv e#he willl live#chapter 118#virginity corner update coming soon!#expect Kenji posting in the near future#i started tweaking out when i saw that he died#i had to do a lap and stuff#dean winchester in my head and watching me do this crazy actually
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I can't deal with this
Like I just love how in Dante's last room of his summer alt Eiden was riding his dick but Dante was moving too and so Eiden has to tell him stay still let me do everything
And Dante is like no
And Eiden is like huffing this is my thanks for saving me let me make you feel good
And Dante is like nah I'm gonna make you feel good
And liek I'm fucking crying at these two I so done with these dumbfucks why the hell are they arguing in the middle of fucking asdkmvoeprkingvpouibnp39uirqepnwidn;amcv; (ćļ½Š)ć
I fucking hate Dante BTW\
This motherfucker did 1 ONE thing that made me become obsessed with him
I wish I could remember how I reacted to hiim wwhen he first appeared in chapter ten.
How the fuck has it been two years since I started playing what the actual fuck (āÆĀ°ā”Ā°ļ¼āÆļøµ ā»āā»
Fucking cowboy event Fucking Dante flirting with Eiden
I still remember kicking and squealing when that happened and suddenly Dante was all I could think about
aaaaaaaaaaaa
#nu carnival#dante dante dante dante#I need to unlock Dantes rooms#I somehow have three alts plus his OG SSR#But the only room fully opened is his Summer alt#BTW why does Dante walk away after getting Eiden off#Like Eiden asks him need some help with that ( Ķ”Ā° ĶŹ Ķ”Ā°)\#And Dante scampers away#Is this a top thing Im missing#Or Dante being some kind of virgin#I need Dante experts to tell me Ė( Ā° ā½ćĀ° )
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wwhat if they. had pokemon
pokemon the characters might have idk it is unpolished and also spoilers from the novels kind of
#sorry. i hav e a thing about me where if i like something enough ill start thinking about pokemon they would have.#anyways uh. au where everything is the exact same but they have pokemon also#also sorry i use showdown for everything pokemon team related so its a bit crunchy#the collar on minouās silvally is a crest btw from pokemon rejuvenation#also play pokemon rejuvenation its fun#also also im very sorry i traced the pokemon. i am not drawing that dog normally#and i was just lazy about celebi#the executioner and her way of life#shokei shoujo no virgin road
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actually, you know what.
this is from a deleted chapter of shttdd. i had to cut it for a number of reasons, but this scene was one of the first i pictured in my mind and it works perfectly with the idea i still have about the relationship between peanut and his mother.
so. here it is, a deleted and rough draft of an excerpt from the story as well as a headcanon. enjoy <3
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He finds her sitting on the bench at the stop, a bit of the excitement already faded, if anything in the calm of the wait in the rigid December cold, as Larry sits next to her.
Ever since he was a child, he has barely ever set foot in a church, except maybe a few times that he had to fetch Johnny for some Greasers meeting, so he certainly is no reliable source. Still, when he looks at his mother like this, when she isnāt running from one place to the other, he canāt help but think she looks sort of like a Madonna ā in the good Sunday dress her mother had left her, smile sweet but with some undefinable glint of sadness in the corner of her eye.Ā
His knowledge of the story is vague, but he struggles to believe them, when he hears people claim Mary had happily and unconditionally accepted sacrificing her youth for a child, no matter how much good he wouldāve done for the world or how much she wouldāve been adored or even how much she wouldāve loved the child. Larry is no Jesus, but he knows for sure that, despite treasuring him and loving him to death, his mom has never stopped grieving the teenage years she had to give up for a kid that only ever stopped her from flying away.
Ā«The Espositos are so nice, inviting us all there.Ā» When she speaks, her gaze is lost in the streets in front of her, and she might as well be talking more to herself than to her son. Ā«Itās nice to stay over there, with people who care about you. Itās nice.Ā»
There has always been something ironic about the way she loves and celebrates Christmas, especially since sheās never had a good relationship with a Father that has never cared about her and the only holy water in their house has only ever been the spit on good old Christian ladies condemning her to the stake. Everything she loves about the twenty-fifth of December, Larry has only guessed, is that, for a day, she can pretend not to be in charge, to have someone to rely on.
Ā«Who else of your friends is there?Ā»
She purposefully puts it casually, but the question stabs Larryās heart sideways nonetheless. However, just like she did, he nonchalantly tries to list of all his Greaser friends that Hal might have invited for Christmas. Ā«Well, usual, I guess. Leftyās back in Rome for the week, Vance is with his sisters and his momā¦ most of them will stay at their own house I think. Iām not sure about the Pucinos, since Rickyās dad just came back anā all that. But I donāt think anyone else is coming. I wonder if Johnny and Lola will come, after all I think itās jusā the two of āem. I might go see them in the afternoon.Ā»
At the last two names he finds himself biting the tip of his tongue, some bad feeling in his throat, the doubt that he wouldnāt have been able to avoid the topic if he said it nor if he didnāt.
True to his expectation, at the sole mention of Johnnyās name, his momās features harden, her eyes still into the distance; not even looking at him.
What a great way to start the day.
A huff escapes his mouth, but the knot in his trachea doesnāt go away with it. Ā«Mom, I get that you donāt like him, you donāt gotta do this every single time.Ā»
Ā«Itās not that I donāt like him, itās not personal!Ā» She shakes her head energetically, as she always does, but Larry knows exactly where this is going anyway, and heās awfully tired of this shitshow that opens its curtains any time he just happens to mention Johnny.
He rolls his eyes, sparks of irritation jumping in his chest, head falling in his hands as all the blood flowing to it makes it heavier and heavier. Ā«I canāt believe weāre having this conversation at a fuckinā bus stop.Ā»
Ā«I just,Ā» Shrugging frantically, she keeps following her train of thoughts, deaf and blind to her sonās reaction, only her own heart beating in her head. Ā«donāt think you should trust him as much as you do, yāknow.Ā»
His arms open, and heās not looking at her either, too busy trying to hear his own voice over the roar in his ears. Ā«Heās always taken care of me! Always!Ā»
Her argument is always the same, repetitive, stubborn; he must have taken it from somewhere, after all. Ā«For now! You canāt rely on that kind of guy!Ā»
Ā«āThat kind of guyā.ļæ½ļæ½ Her and Johnny might have interacted two, three, four times at best, and certainly sheās never seen him rush at his side, or waiting for him to wake up in the infirmary, or introducing him to the higher ranking members of the clique, or pulling him away from bulliesā grip, or fighting back by back with him against older kids jumping them. She doesnāt know him, doesnāt know them, and, after leaving him wondering in his earliest childhood if she had ever wanted him around at all, she is definitely not in the position to judge whether Johnny actually cares about him or not. Ā«What ākind of guyā would he be, huh?Ā»
Still, she goes on, undeterred, if anything more determined to make her point come across. Ā«Heāll just chase the first thing that excites him! He can only enjoy things as long as theyāre good, but heāll leave as soon as he doesnāt have fun anymore!Ā»
This time, Larry snaps. Ā«Oh, cāmon! Just ācause dadāĀ»
Their eyes finally cross. Suddenly, they are but two sixteen years old staring at each other, both lost, confused, horridly lonely. Heās said the one word that heās never supposed to voice, that is meant to stay stuck between the teeth sheās kept gritted since the day she found herself alone sixteen years ago. As soon as Larry has let it out, it has pierced into her gaze, breaking the glass of her eyes that she had tried to keep together with superhuman effort.
What an asshole that he is, isnāt he.
Taking back his words is impossible, now, or, at least, thereās nothing he can do to glue those pieces back together, fragile like crystal in his rough and indelicate hands. Ā«Momā¦Ā»
Ā«You know what? Youāre right.Ā» She turns her head away again; her voice is coarse, older than the thirty-two years old sheās supposed to be, as shaky as the little girl she never grew out of. Ā«I canāt believe weāre having this conversation at a fuckinā bus stop.Ā»
Apologies are stuck up his throat, blocking his breath, but he knows better than to insist; for once, he should just be an adult and shut his mouth.
He just wishes this wasnāt such a minefield, one where they are only ever condemned to hurt each other.
When they get on the bus, itās wordlessly, silence heavy on Larryās stomach and his momās eyes passively laying on the window as the buildings slide behind it, gray snow that clashes with the colored lights, five broken for each one shining. She is often silent when somethingās wrong; when he was younger, naive and unable to grasp why she should have been upset at him coming back home just a few minutes too late, he would stare at her from the couch, dread in his throat as her face wouldnāt soften for hours, waiting for her to give him a smile, to tell him that it was okay and she still loved him.
Growing older, though, heās learned to be patient, to test the waters slowly and let her know that sheās safe peeking out of her own head. Lightly, making sure that his own uneasiness doesnāt leak through ā she doesnāt need a child to comfort, right now. Ā«Mom?Ā»
Not an answer, a gesture, a gaze.
He takes a breath; just another try. Ā«Mom, Iām sorry. I shouldnāt have brought that up.Ā»
Finally, she turns to him. At first, thereās still something cold, distant in time and space, like her soul is only now realizing what body sheās finding herself into, like sheās seeing him for the first time, at birth. However, it warms soon after, thin lips curling in a soft smile, that Holy Mary tender and bittersweet gaze, as she caresses his cheek. Ā«Itās okay. I just wish you didnāt turn out so much like me.Ā»
This is another thing that she tells him often; in all these years, though, Larry still hasnāt found quite the right explanation. All he can do is laying his head on her shoulder and let her stroke his hair, pretending for just a second that they can be just as happy together as any mother and son would be.
What would they be like, if they were okay?
#im still so very fond of this you just DONT GET IT.#how was taht epic ao3 tag? misuse of catholic imagery? yeah. just like that#also btw the sadness in the virgin mary's smile is something that i have read nowhere so it might as well only be me projecting since middl#school on every religious painting i see. anyway#odyposts#canis canem edit#bully scholarship edition#bully canis canem edit#bully cce#bully#peanut romano#headcanons#headcanon#writing#idk if this should be a new tag. it might happen again or maybe not. idk#odywrites
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what if i lost the will to live like. as a joke. what then.
#i am fine ftr im just. exhausted haha#NOT to overshare about my personal life too much but my dog is dying. my horse is being given back to his og owner this summer / fall.#my dads kicking me out in two years (in favor of his girlfriend and her kids bc he would rather live w them!!!)#his alcoholism is driving me crazy bc hes treating me like absolute shit and berating me constantly#and stealing from me š#ive lost my healthcare benefits + now have to either raw dog therapy out of pocket or loose my therapist#a therapist that took me a year of being on a waiting list to get in w btw#and idk i just genuinely feel like a loser rn like. im a 23 year old unemployed fat virgin who plays video games all day like. š§#where is this going for me. what is the point of it all. in two years im going to be fucking homeless on top of all that#unless some miracle happens bc as is i am too disabled to work.#im just reaching a point where i deeply dont care anymore. whatever happens happens im done fighting it#and ik its the abandonment issues talking here but knowing my dad is planning on abandoning me. š#thats two for two on parents leaving me. my entire family has at this point so like truly i cant trust any relationship#like if my PARENTS find me that unbearable. and my best friend who knew me my entire life thought so. then truly every relationship#i ever have is on a fucking timer like. idk if any besties r reading this im sorry i promise this is in no way a dig at yall#bc you guys do really make me feel loved and secure in a way no one else has but. id be lying if i said i wasnt still scared#anyways enough oversharing#i really am fine and safe rn btw like. at minimum u guys r stuck w me until arc*ne season 2 comes out š#my post
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Big open spaces are the devil. Nooks and crannies are my friends.
#closets. under sinks. in between the small space of the bed and desk. under the desk.#these are some of the lovely places i hide when i feel an anxiety attack coming in or when i get too scared of the open room#idk if its a helpful coping mechanism but it does make me feel more safe#i dont like it when i think people might walk in and see me#also the shivers are worse btw for those of u that remember my disaster virginity losing escapades#im not thinking abt it as much since im on vacay which is nice. but ive started to shiver and twitch in temore general anxious thoughts#*in response to
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