#im a mess rn and i have nothing to do

[crownonacat]

[Thank you for letting us read you 🐑⚡️]

[stormbreaker-290]

In other news:

[qrtem]

im going through the horrors

[orcelito]

I'm going through another character arc

I'm becoming worse

[violentviolette]

worst thing ever is when my room is messy so its giving me anxiety and i cant get anything done but also i cant clean the room because im so anxious and cant get anything done. so i just sit in moderate discomfort and distress for 2+ weeks trying to fight the sisyphean task of tidying up my desk

[apple-os]

its ironic seeing some ppl having talked abt me like im some kind of evil beast as if they werent legitimately ableist towards me

"you did something wrong! but im not going to tell you what it is because i dont like you. and here are all the superficial reasons why <3" like okay but if there's something i did wrong i'd like to know because newsflash. i am fucking autistic!! i can't pick up on social cues!!! you never fucking told me i hurt you!! nobody did!! not even once before i was cast out, like seriously?? who treats ANYBODY like that??

i'm also trans!! and queer as fuck!! i make jokes about queerphobia as if i am a queerphobe sometimes to be silly!! i'm not a queerphobe, obviously!! if you have an issue with the jokes i make or things i talk about just tell me??? like it's not that hard

not like u didnt totally chat abt sexual shit around a minor anyways tho so rlly i shouldnt care lol it's not even funny i am so glad you're out of my life, even if it was in the most bullshit and mean way to end that very short-lived "friendship" like okay ur friend insults me to my face and i find out youve been talking about me behind my back, without addressing anything civilly, nor directly...and you still think you're in the right, despite all that?

if i had an issue with you while we were still friends, i would've told you and talked through it. you didn't have the decency to do the same for me, therefore 0 respect. therefore, we never should've been friends in the first place. kinda hope someday u see this and rethink the way u handle shit like this. ive heard from people that you've treated others like this before, so maybe dont. it's not healthy to talk about people with your friends, behind their back, without bringing anything up to them, especially if it gets to the point where you dont want to be their friend. just fucking tell people your problems next time like jesus christ

my last post abt this shit was prolly very OTT [i have bpd, long story short] but this is like. genuine. be nice and open-minded, people deserve a chance to redeem themselves, especially if you haven't pulled them up for their hurtful behaviour prior

this is probably the last post im posting here. read tags if u dare .,,

[galindatopland]

really really need to get back on mood stabilizers

[olli-online]

[nerdie-faerie]

So I'm supposed to be in London tomorrow for a 9am meeting. Just went to check my ticket which I specified I wanted to arrive at 8am for..... and it departs at 11:35pm and gets me there....... the day after my appointment 🤦‍♀️

[dandyshucks]

i want to draw specific digital art ideas but i want to write but i want to draw things for other ppl but i want to start my next crochet project but i want to play a video game that's been sitting in my steam library untouched for ages but i want to draw in my sketchbook but i want to - etc etc etc 😭

[widevibratobitch]

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[the-kipsabian]

so ready for the funny number fic lmao

[im-smart-i-swear]

Does Jiro has ghost like abilities (possession, ability to levitate things, etc etc) or does she just live in Shiro's head?

when i created this au, i thought the best option would be for her to be unable to interact with the physical world in any way(including possesion), beacuse i really wanted to lean into her isolation and how it affects her....... and while thats something i still want to emphasise here, lately ive been toying with the idea of jiro being able to impact the physical world somehow(though it still being fairly limited). i think letting her have some control could have a lot of potential! buuuut i also have no idea what abilities i want her to have lol

For now i think im not gonna give her any telekinetic abilities, bc i feel like it would be giving her too much power......... if she could throw shit, shed go APESHIT with it. it would made things too easy for her. i'm sorry babygirl but i'm NOT giving you the possibilty to throw knives and other sharp objects, i dont trust you to not kill someone:/

i really like the idea of her being able to temporarily posses her old body in certain circumstances tho- maybe when shiros uncouncious?? or like when hes is very tired or heavily injured she can kind of 'squeeze through' and take control back for a few minutes???? idk. i think this could be a very cool ability to give her- it cant be frequently used but can also be very helpful, and also theres so much potential for ✨shenanigans✨here>:) oh god i could put these fuckers in so many Situations with this..........

uhhh. so basically i think all of her influence on the physical world are through shiro. shes here bc of her connection to her old body, and thus its the only way for her to interact with anyone besides him- and shes NOT HAPPY about this(neither is shiro).

[infomercial]

im the least depressed ive been in a while and i feel so weirdly guiltily over it. i feel like i have so much more opportunity and space and mobility. im getting so much done that ive been meaning to do for so long and as im doing it im wondering what was in my way? why couldnt i do this when he was still here? why couldnt i have made the situation better?

his death was looming over for me, and had so much of my life on hold (i dont hold that against him, i couldve tried harder to find a balance) and now the bad thing has happened and i can grieve him and feel it and learn from it and move on and thats gonna be a lot of work but im no longer in this suspended state i get to get moving again... ive lost a lot of momentum and time and ive got a lot of good habits to rebuild but i have something new to do. maybe thats just serving as a distraction for now, im not sure. ill make the best of my distractions right now. i remember how necessary they were when my mom died.

but i feel like this is supposed to hurt more than it does (and it does hurt, i do miss him. i always will.) im so used to being in this mode of waiting for the terrible thing to happen that im like...... whats next.. and theres a ton of work to do. a lot of catching up. but everything feels so doable, so in my hands. in my control, im not used to this

the biggest pain for me rn is ive got a good 10 days worth of dishes to get through... pray 4 me

[neodazed]

enhypen - 🎀 - raw offer

enha!xfem!reader - letting them hit raw for the first time

includes: hee, jay, jake, riki (cuz i didnt think it fit for sunoo and hoon that much, and i have a longer similar fics for won coming up)

warnings: unprotected sex (obviously), breeding kink, mentions of actual breeding, rough sex, pull and pray, creampies, lowkey implied noncon BUT ITS CON, reader is different in all lol, lmk if i missed smth

guys dont mind the header not being pretty im in a depressive episode rn my asks are open tho

masterlist

HEESEUNG

Top three raw lovers in Enha for sure.

Like, he has been wanting to do it raw since your very first time, but that was unfamilair terrority for you, so he didn’t push it.

But you were able to see it.

The subtle distaste on his face every time he unpacked the condom, and positioned himself, feeling the latex keeping him from feeling your pussy around him.

Maybe he couldn’t help it, maybe he did it on purpose, so you’d feel bad and just give in to his (your) desires.

Whether it was intentional or not, it was working. You got that damn Plan B after pills, you doubled the punctuality of your already instense everything shower, and now you are ready.

Well, mostly. Still nervous, and thinking about all the possible way this could go wrong, or like, what if it won’t even feel any better and you did all that for nothing? Embarassing. You better see those dark bambi eyes roll back to know it was worth it.

His reaction to this is already paying off a big part though.

‘Oh yeah? You did that just for me?’

You nod, a little shy under his deep gaze. He’s currently hovering over you in bed, after a long makeout session you literally broke with saying “I bought Plan B”. First, he was taken aback, then he started to smirk like he is doing now, which you weren’t sure what kind of smirk was, somewhat unusal.

‘You want me to fuck your little pussy raw?’ Heeseung tiltshis head to the side, one of his hands already in your tiny sleeping shorts. It’s kinda weird, because that wasn’t originally your idea, but…you do want it, right? So you nod, not even sure if it was a real question.

He suddenly grips your jaw, harsh, and forces a firm eyecontact.

‘With words, Y/N. Answer me.’

Oh so it is.

‘I-I do…’ — Clearly still not enough — ‘I want you to fuck my pussy raw’ A messing blush that you are, seriously. Way too crude.

When he pushes in, you start to get why he’s kinda obsessed with this idea.

He’s obviously a lot more into it now, judging by the way he’s snapping his hips forward, and bruising your tights by gripping them so hard.

And…

‘Fuck, I’m coming inside. I can, right? — He answers his own question before you could even breathe — Of course I can. I’m filling you up, I’m- gonna breed you full’

Wait, pause.

Full? Breeding? That’s not-

Suddenly, he’s roughly rubbing your bundle of nerves, and the words on your throat die and evolve into whimpers of pleasure. He takes that as a firm ‘yes’.

His cum is hot inside you.

JAY

God, you're both so into it.

You were literally just both hesitant to bring it up without sounding like an absolute freak to the other.

Because it wasn’t just the feeling of each other without layers — it was the feeling of the risk, the possibility.

What would happen if he actually ended up impregnating you? No one really cares about that in the moment when a specific wish slips out of your lips as he drags the red, angry head of his cock to your cervix and back with every thrust.

‘Please, Jay, i-inside’

His hips shatter, pausing for a minute.

‘Inside? Baby, are you sure?’

Despite his question, he’s still not stopping entirely, his slower, but deeper thrusts keeping you both on edge.

‘Yes, yes-please, come inside’

No more reluctance, just his hand finding your throat, pinning you to the bed and pounding his big load into your eager cunt. When he pulls out after the last thrust, he sees his cum drip out of you. Might be the prettiest sigh he’ve ever seen.

Yeah, he might have ran for Plan B after this, but it was pretty hot.

JAKE

You and Jake are at a party. You came with some of your friends, but as the night went on, you eventually separated from them.

Some shots down, a little bit of dancing (your back aligning with Jake’s chest and ass grinding back against his crotch), he pulls you into a bathroom upstairs. No questions, just sloppy kisses, dress pushed up, belt hitting the floor, boxers and panties pulled to the side.

You are both tipsy, so even you, who is usually the more thoughtful and cool headed one, loses focus, which results in you only noticing that Jake is bare, when he has already pushed the swollen head past your rim.

‘Jake, wait! You didn’t put on a condom!’ You gasp, grabbing his shoulders.

‘Babe, we don’t have a condom!’ He whines into your neck. He stopped when you told him to wait, but he is still half-buried inside of you, and doesn’t make a move to pull out.

You’re ready to scold him and tell him to pull the fuck out, but when you make eye contact with him, you already know you’ll let him. Because damn he’s good at this whole ‘desperate, almost crying but holding on’ look.

And yes, he was a whiny mess.

‘Ah, Y/N, fuck. You feel so good- why haven’t we done this before?’

And you would smack him for that if it wasn’t so good.

RIKI

It all started with running out of condoms and the sentence ‘I’ll just grind down, I won’t put it in’.

And now Riki’s long, thick length is sliding through your folds, drawning out low groans of him and soft gasps from you. He is pulling your soaked thongs aside with one hand, and grips himself with the other, pumping his whitish liquid out of the angry head of his cock onto your mound.

He also leans down to give those sloppy kisses of his just in the right moments, and the way he licks into your mouth and pushes his hard shaft against your clit makes you want to suck him in like a vacuum. Or whatever.

And, you know, it might have been too slippery, you might have been too lost in the moment to notice that he is, well…inside. You both let out probably the filthiest sound so far.

Warm. Hard. Pulsing.

Warm. Tight. Gasping.

Feeling each other deep inside without anything in the way had to be the hottest thing in the world.

And you couldn’t move.

‘Should I pull out?’ He asks, but he is still pressing you down, and he has pushed all the way in now.

He should. You’re not in the situation to just do it like this, but…

‘No, don’t’

It’s all a blurry mess of chase after that.

Long story short, he cums into your more than one time, and you leave your pretty white rings around even more times by the end.

[vanishintoyou]

me as im actively ignoring my exam on sunday, a deadline on monday, a deadline-less project i took like 2 weeks ago, a few applications i should be working on (but dw i got plenty of time 🤓) all while i have to also go to another city on monday (+ some other personal projects that i promised to myself but :'>)