#nowadays i dont do that. if ppl dont like me for who i am they can find someone else to be their friend

[apple-os]

its ironic seeing some ppl having talked abt me like im some kind of evil beast as if they werent legitimately ableist towards me

"you did something wrong! but im not going to tell you what it is because i dont like you. and here are all the superficial reasons why <3" like okay but if there's something i did wrong i'd like to know because newsflash. i am fucking autistic!! i can't pick up on social cues!!! you never fucking told me i hurt you!! nobody did!! not even once before i was cast out, like seriously?? who treats ANYBODY like that??

i'm also trans!! and queer as fuck!! i make jokes about queerphobia as if i am a queerphobe sometimes to be silly!! i'm not a queerphobe, obviously!! if you have an issue with the jokes i make or things i talk about just tell me??? like it's not that hard

not like u didnt totally chat abt sexual shit around a minor anyways tho so rlly i shouldnt care lol it's not even funny i am so glad you're out of my life, even if it was in the most bullshit and mean way to end that very short-lived "friendship" like okay ur friend insults me to my face and i find out youve been talking about me behind my back, without addressing anything civilly, nor directly...and you still think you're in the right, despite all that?

if i had an issue with you while we were still friends, i would've told you and talked through it. you didn't have the decency to do the same for me, therefore 0 respect. therefore, we never should've been friends in the first place. kinda hope someday u see this and rethink the way u handle shit like this. ive heard from people that you've treated others like this before, so maybe dont. it's not healthy to talk about people with your friends, behind their back, without bringing anything up to them, especially if it gets to the point where you dont want to be their friend. just fucking tell people your problems next time like jesus christ

my last post abt this shit was prolly very OTT [i have bpd, long story short] but this is like. genuine. be nice and open-minded, people deserve a chance to redeem themselves, especially if you haven't pulled them up for their hurtful behaviour prior

this is probably the last post im posting here. read tags if u dare .,,

[yumenosakiacademy]

i told dad tht its odd tht he n others perceive me as being a massive anime fan when i barely watch any nowadays n hes like but u still WATCH SOME n its like yea n its not much. casual fan but its not my Everything anymore. n he got mad at me bc 'some' is still more than 'any random person' like ??? who cares

[itsalwaysdark]

and also it doesnt even matter if i miraculously get a job tmrw bc we don't have a car . and im too out of shape to walk anywhere bc everything is far away . so i genuinely dont jnow what to do

[snekdood]

cool

cool

this ones very appropriately named "leave"

fucking awesome.

WOW! AMAZING.

oh, cool, a ton of txt files from 2017 I apparently didn't know about.

wondering how triggering everything in these is !

[astoldbysteph]

i feel like people aren't gonna like what i am gonna say but after numerous talks with rp friends, i think it's important to at least yap a little about this.

i know this you don't owe anyone anything girlypop coochie queef purrrrrrr 💅 attitude is seen as the standard to follow not only in rp spaces but pretty much anywhere (especially online) and idk guys, i think this is doing more damage than good. rping is a hobby, yes, but it's a hobby that involves us collaborating with people in order to have fun and sometimes i feel like there's some inherent selfishness and carelessness that along with a severe lack of communication, is slowly eroding the rpc as a whole.

every day i hear a new anecdote about admins failing to take their group off the ground because of flakey members. or people retreating into their shells and not being able to fully enjoy writing with others due to people ghosting them after three hours. i feel like every single person that does the 1x1/indie thing has a story where they plot someone, make a discord server or set up an established thread, and then they never hear from their writing partner ever again. and this ain't cool, guys.

stuff happens! we all got lives and responsibilities like work and school and family life that sometimes prevent us from being as active as we would've like. or some days we just don't feel like writing for whatever reason and that's valid. this ain't a job, but it is a collaborative hobby so i am sorry to tell y'all this, but we do owe at least a lil bit of common courtesy to people who take the time to collab with us.

chats with friends and fellow rpers have me feeling like the rpc as a whole, in my opinion, has a communication problem. group people don't talk to their admins or don't like plotting with other members. 1x1/indie people are used to dropping stuff unannounced and talk even less between each other. roleplayers in general avoid making the first move and prefer letting the other party do the work. like dang y'all, not to be a hag on main but back in my day!!!! there was more of a willingness to talk to others. now everyone is more 'secluded' which i think stems from bad past experiences so we kinda end up stuck in a cycle that messes with everything as a whole.

idk where i am going this but i keep seeing people posting stuff talking about this or sharing similar sentiments or stuff happens to me and i end up making my brain work overtime to try and figure out what happened and what i can do on a personal level to change things and help others stop feeling discouraged and have a better time writing and chilling with people

and also before i forget because my wife reminded me!! it's ok to drop stuff or plots or people and its ok to take ur time to reply. we all got stuff to do or we are tired or sad or obsessively rewatching degrassi or just dont feel like writing and that's so valid. all sane people get it and would be understanding if you hit them up like hey! idt i have muse for this or sorry i took forever! but people don't even do that nowadays and it leads to people quitting, feeling discouraged, OR WORSE, adopting the same mindset. talk to ppl!! rpers are super nice and if you run into a weirdo i will beat them up for u

[dailyfigures]

idk how unpopular this is fr but by mfc standards it seems unpopular so: a lot of prize figs have pretty good production value considering their price point and dont deserve a lot of the hate i see them get. like it feels like ppl who hate on prize figs and gsp and such just want the hobby to be as inaccessible as possible

strongly agree | agree | neutral | disagree | strongly disagree

i'm personally not really interested in prize figures anymore but i am so glad they exist! the taito mikus nowadays are sooo beautiful for example, there's so many really cool prize figures!

almost all products in the world come in different prize and quality ranges, i don't understand why that would suddenly a problem for anyone. imagine someone hating on the dishes they sell at target because they bought their dishes at fucking......i don't know any expensive tableware brands.....ok either way that'd be stupid because if you value luxery tableware so much then target tableware isn't for you!!!!!!! silly!!!!!!!!!!!

i think i got a little away from the point but yes. i personally am currently not interested in prize figures but it's cool they exist and they do make really nice ones and i love that people who don't have hundreds to spare or don't want to spend hundreds on plastic decorations can also enjoy the hobby!

send me your unpopular figure opinions

[miiilowo]

just as like a little psa for my followers who have been hanging around for a while: while i dont blame myself for thinking i may have had NPD a while back, im not so sure nowadays. definitely had the symptoms and it all lined up quite nicely and Had been lining up for a while, but now that im not in public as much and not in a weird relationship essentially none of them are there. and who knows. maybe i do have it and it just isn't as clear given those factors being missing. however !!!!!! i cant comfortably say that i think i may have it anymore. it is something ill bring up to a professional when the chance arises but i just wanted to put it out there for ppl who have stuck around for a bit. i may have been wrong. i know not. put it on the backburner OK thank you i am a little older now and like .5 percent more wise (i also deleted a bunch of posts about it bc i dont want them being incorrectly circulated now that im less confident about whatever is wrong with me)

[justhereforsubsevika]

Tbh I’ve noticed that most sexual content whose self titled “queer” nowadays just blur the lines and push purely lesbophobic ideas. I’m a lesbian and I have to say I grew wary of ppl who are supposedly part of my own (larger) community because with inclusion of trans notions came the disrespect of homosexuality, which feels like a huge betrayal, as they seem to forget that lesbians aren’t into penises…. I definitely saw a MAJOR shift in the last decade in how lesbian sexuality is talked about…

Okay look im personally not into dick but that doesn't mean lesbians cant like dick, trans lesbians have partners who i assume would perform sex acts with their partners penis, and that doesn't make them less of a lesbian.

Me personally if i had a trans gf id probably just strap her in the ass a lot coz i dont like dick, but that doesn't make her less of a woman for having one.

Also, this rhetoric of "trans people are diminishing homosexuality by including dick in lesbianism" is weird because a lot of trans women dont have their dick anymore, they have a pussy. So like??????

Idk what a strange ask, do i give off the vibe that id agree with this transmysoginistic idea?

Also like... Idk id have a dick if i could. And a lot of lesbians feel like this, like they'd have a dick but maintain their womanhood coz they wanna cum in their partners. Some lesbians wanna be cum in by their gf so ofc they'd still like dick.

Idk am i rambling here? At the end of the day it doesn't really matter the parts it mainly matters who its attached to, if the person's a woman then some lesbians wont really care if they have a penis or a pussy.

[cryscendo]

i was gonna reply to your comment on my post but i thought id bring the discourse straight to your inbox instead alskfjdslk its not like we're telling teenagers to go out and discover some weird kinks of their own right this second lmao but they absolutely have to learn to be comfortable with the fact that people are going to be into kinky shit they think is weird and thats its not in fact a moral issue and also none of their business lol

like when i was a kid everything was so fucking raunchy and im not saying it was better but everything has to be so fucking sanitized now and thats not good either. when i was a kid online in the 00s people would literally link you to shock porn videos as a joke and that was just an accepted norm. nowadays there are so many ways to tailor your online experience to you and people are just ignoring all these block and filter functions and look at shit they know they dont like and bitch about it when they had every opportunity not to see it

and it goes back to the fucking rocky horror discourse like god forbid youre trying to portray a queer character in a way thats anything other than the most palatable beige blank slate that ever was. god forbid a queer character acts or dresses or looks or behaves in a queer way aksfjsld they want everything to be so fucking boring and palatable to 1) encapsulate every single queer experience on earth in a single piece of media and 2) be tolerable to straight people because theyre under the illusion that there is any acceptable way for a queer person to be to a bigot other than dead. both are a useless endeavor and they need to quit wasting energy on caring about either

like god fandom just feels so bleak nowadays and i know part of it is bc of how fast things move and no one can hold longterm interest in stuff anymore but a huge part of it is how flat out prudish people are all of a sudden

let ships be problematic let queer characters be weird let sex be kinky lmao let fandom by fun again my godddd

sorry for the rant aklsfjkdshfdk i apparently had a lot to say but hey i love you thanks for complaining with me xxxxx

omg i’m so sorry i meant to respond to this earlier than now!!! i saw it originally when i was waking up for work and thought “ooooh she’s making some banger points i’ll respond to that on my break” and then i just… forgot. so here i am now better late than never 🥰

i’ve always had a bit of a problem with the incessant need to sanitize fandom. i’m not saying ppl can’t curate their fandom experience to appeal to their interests, because obviously, they absolutely can. HOWEVER i do think it has become much more policed than it once was.

i think kink, and understanding its place on a fundamental level (especially within queer spaces), is something that takes maturity to fully understand. like with the rocky horror thing, the use of sexuality and kink is inherently different than what a young person of today might perceive it as. it doesn’t particularly surprise me that people are so sensitive to it, because they simply don’t understand their roots — they’ve formed this concept of queerness that pleases them, and therefore find other demonstrations of queerness to be antiquated or “back-pedalling” (even though we both know it isn’t). i think it’s dumb and immature to try to dictate “right and wrong” ways to be queer, but i’m also not all that shocked that it’s happening.

all this to say, queer characters don’t have to fit into the boxes that we deem as “appropriate”. just like how real queer people don’t owe an explanation for who they are, these queer characters don’t HAVE to reflect every queer person that engages with their media.

personally for me, kink is a MASSIVE component of the queer experience. so because of that, i like my favourite bitches to be kinky but that’s just me 😌

absolutely feel free to rant anytime your opinions are literally always correct to me <3

[enden-k]

Seeing you mention that you hate when people over-explain things made me think of hc for Alhaitham and Kaveh duing their student years (bc i don't think it could happen nowadays with their 'genius' status)

(Also this kinda just turned into me rambling at 2:00 am about them being nd, sorry if this doesn't make much sense, words are hard)

But like why can i see alhaitham also hating when people unnecessarily over-explaining things to him vs kaveh who had a habbit of doing just that, not bc he thought people are dumb, but bc he feels like he just sucks at explaining things (im probably projecting, but adhd brain makes words hard, there's a reason he isn't a linguists) and when you can't explain things well, people assume you don't know what you're talking about, then rejection sensitivity kicks in and now he's rambling/repeating himself and probably not helping them understand any better then before

But also like, imagine at first they but heads over this, until it clicks that they're both nd (im talking like withing hours of their initial meeting, they haven't even left the library) and like alhaitham knows kaveh isn't trying to talk down to him, and Kaveh doesn't feel the need to try and explain things as much. They just get each other.

Tldr: they're adhd vs autism and adhd/autism solidarity

(for ppl who dont know, this is in reference to an ask on my other blog where someone brought up the topic of tone indicators for me)

anw this is interesting, sorry if i cant say much bc i lit just woke up and my brain is still struggling to turn on ajsjshd also idk much about adhd stuff to comfortably babble about it without worrying i get smth wrong so, id only be able to add to it by just self projecting rambling about haithams perspective as a fellow autistic lil guy 💦 but yeap

[astronnova]

Okay but I wouldn't purely blame LMK for the flanderization of Tripitaka. All the flanderized depictions in fan works I've seen are from people who actually read the book and made fan art of the original source. And both versions of Trip develop into better people, anyways. Also, it's a little hurtful to say that most people don't analyze what they read, no? Granted, it's a kids show so much of the fanbase are minors, but like...kids will be kids.

my bad that it came across as hurtful! thats not my intention, i meant it as more of an objective viewpoint on something that's become widespread online and irl then just an insult to people.

unfortunately, a lot of people within the uhhh lets say 15-early 20s range dont... dive as deep into literature as they should. you ever heard of that one meme about "the door is blue because the author liked the color blue" ?

this is just one of many, and you couldnt go anywhere online without seeing somebody make this kind of joke. schools dont even really teach deep analysis of literature recently (i should know, ive been in multiple english lit classes and most of them don't dive as deep as you could and should. the only one that does that is with my most recent professor), and this stuff happens in highschool. yknow, during students most formative years of learnin stuff.

kids shouldnt just get a free pass on choosing to ignore the main point of a piece of literature because "kids will be kids". literature is the backbone of critical thinking, most people develop that skill through reading, and stories have a greater purpose, especially classical ones, than just "heres a show that provides constant stimulation with no reason".

i probably sound a little crazy or something, and im not articulating this as well as i could due to me taking *checks notes* two melatonin like 30 minutes ago BUT anyway tldr for that section is that a lot of people just dont dive deep into literature and its true meaning. a lot of folks like only looking at the surface level bits because its so much easier and simplier than writing an 1000 word essay about the importance of a certain theme within a piece of classical literature or something

steering this back to monkie kid,

the thing i explained above i think is one of the sources as to tripitaka, and sun wukong's, flanderization within the monkie kid fandom. instead of looking at the characters with the original intent of the religious text, its looked at as more of a "well he did X so he's a bad person". its too literal for a religious allegory. trying to apply strict "real world black & white morals" onto characters like this just wont work and will end with every character from the original jttw with the label of "bad person".

i could go onto a whole rant about how the recent decline of deep analysis of literature is the reason so many people seem to prefer "childrens cartoons" (because of the easier to understand morality/lessons) over, say, classical work or hell even some modern classics. this isnt an insult towards ppl that like "kids cartoons" btw, like look at my whole blog its just about cartoons LOL . i think theres more than just that one reason as to why people, at least online, gravitate towards childrens cartoons (likely because theyre more fantastical rather than trying to cater towards "adult gritty realism" and are animated, which is hard to find nowadays with all this "live action remake" junk), but i do think its one reason.

again, my bad if i sound like an ass or something or if i dont make sense, its like 12 am and i shouldve been asleep like an hour ago but im easily distracted LOLOL . but yeah, i think the source of the flanderization is just people misunderstanding the point of the original text and trying to apply modern storytelling conventions to something thats meant to be a big ass metaphor for enlightenment

[rpfisfine]

do you hate miles?🤨

i was wondering when someone would send me an ask like this yeah i dont like him to be honest. i know ppl on here have largely moved on from the fateful 2016 interview and it has been discussed to death and yeah he immediately said he was joking etc etc but i dont think its weird to think you shouldnt have to feel pressured to like completely forgive and forget and absolve the sins of a male musician saying something that made a female reporter feel unsafe or objectified or 'caught in an increasingly distressing situation' or act like its some sort of unheard of and unimaginable offense that has never happened before in the history of music interviews and one someone’s favorite musician who can do no wrong in their eyes could definitely never get caught up in (esp given how gross in general the music industry is towards women). OR even go so far to say the reporter did it all for attention i cant believe this is even a discussion that has ever been had in any form ever like genuinely nothing makes me angrier than ppl who literally turn into blatant sexists whenever their favorite white guy's reputation is even mildly put at risk ive literally seen one person on here say the whole interview was made up and exaggerated and that she just wanted to 'join the me too movement' which is like Okay man i think you might just not have any respect for women in real life maybe. even watered down and not as extreme its a take thats more prevalent on am tumblr than i thought or previously imagined and i hate how bad it makes the fandom look like i trust that everyone on here is a reasonably intelligent and empathetic human being who has at least a basic tumblr education on the fact that victim blaming is bad so we dont rly need to turn around and immediately go 'she just misunderstood what he was saying' or 'she just didnt get his sense of humor' like Alright

i hope im articulating all this reasonably well like i think its literally fine that ppl have accepted his apology and moved on and are able to enjoy him as an artist and/or as a person too thats awesome and im happy for the ppl that i follow that have this kind of relationship with him. even if it wasnt for the interview thing he stil wouldnt be for me i used to be a pretty big fan of his music when i was younger but nowadays since ive found different music i dont rly pay any attention to him. im glad he was able to spark alex creatively but thats as far as my enjoyment goes of him to be yonest

also ive just realized now that all this makes me look kind of contrived given the fact that ive written milex before and i dont rly have like an impenetrable explanation i literally started writing for jamex around the time the car album came out bc i found out all my fav jamex fics had gotten deleted by their author so i wanted to fill the void and then one day i was like wait am i good enough yet to write a functional milex fic (plus i was hoping to get more ppl to notice my writing and milex offers a pretty easy way to do that) so then i wrote 2 and i was like ok i am cool. i dont intend to write another fic for them

hope this makes sense i probably forgor to say like 10 other things i wanted to say but thats okay

[oraclemoontarot]

ahh ur cool to chat with.

im sure kpop has set ways but lately im uncertain as to what they are aiming for... loved enhypens recent comeback it was so cool, did u see it yet? but again theyre an other group I can only really like and its so strange to me when theres teens who r obviously much younger than myself overly obsessing and being possesive over the idols bc i had exactly the same stance about western bgs during the 00s. now im kind of just enjoying them for the music and dont feel the need to deeply obsess over every detail but tarot blogs r so fun to ask qs and find out stuff we couldnt find out about one direction etc etc. it honestly seems so long ago the 00s and its weird bc when u find a new group and theyre so young i have to check difference in age gaps nowadays (lowkey wish there wasnt an age concept at all in society bc then it wouldnt matter). but ngl it is so awkward, like even seeing how ppl nowadays still flock to harry styles home town (yes also did that myself). yet kpop in general has so many cool themes and vast difference in terms of performance styles as well.

ik its only awkward if u make it awkward but ppl kinda take obsessing abt idols way too far. yet we have all been thru that phase so i get it but kpop stans seem next level crazy sometimes in a good way sometimes in a bad way, i also dont get how such delusional obsessions can lead to building closer relationship with said idol like u aint just going to make friends if ur crying over them in front of them yaknow? and other stuff like going to their hotels or following them whilst theyre out in their downtime. i dont think theres ever just been a non crazy time for idols at all. i cant imagine what their dorm rooms must be like cause I bet they all been doing other adult / human things lmfao. yet the way their fans overreact to mere dating rumors is ridiculous atp. or say for instance idols future spouses as well is the topic that seem to get ppl most riled up when it comes to thee sorts of readings. lowkey sometimes i ask why do i need to know but i ask anyway bc why the fuck not then i think its childish of me lol

aw tyy so are you!! I haven't watched their mv or listened to their album yet (if it wasn't a single), but I heard parts of it online and it does sound real good, I used to be an engene so maybe it's a sign to listen to this comeback.

no I get you so much here especially. Being a fan(girl) is so so much fun, you get to watch content, listen to music, learn about the members, go to concerts, collect merch, and meet other fans. There's a whole culture and community around it that, when you first get into kpop, it's so exciting. It's unsurprising people would get obsessed at first.

But yeah, I personally get really excited watching their content or over an idol (ahem haechan) when on my own, but whenever I meet them in person it's like all that excitement disappears and I'm like, 'oh, they're just a guy/person...', and it's really chill. I don't at all know how people think following them around, partaking in every single fancall, and getting overly excited and emotional would lead to them getting close with them.

You know, I think this obsessiveness dies down as we mature/get older. It's like we have other things to focus on, we become more grounded with less free time, and distance ourselves a little more.

Please, just imagining they're probably lying in bed scrolling through videos etc. while at home is kinda funny. They likely do what we do anyway as they're people at the end of the day, it kind of makes you see them more... normally?

We're alike haha. Yeah it's fun, especially with ideal type readings etc. but then you take a step back and think, am I doing too much? 😭

[atcmbmb]

hate having to post this but i have had zero interest in being here purely due to utter lack of responsiveness/interaction, gonna do a clean-up as a result. removing blogs that have liked/asked for starters yet left them hanging. removing blogs that have ignored/forgotten my dms. removing older mutuals who never replied to any calls or sent any memes. my rules are clear — i don't do reminders, and i do not want to be mutuals if you're not interested in actually writing. i dont EXPECT anyone to rp with me if they dont want to, but if you read my rules and still followed/followed back, or if you liked a plot/starter call, then i am completely confused as to why this keeps happening to me. why did you even follow me.

most of all the running pattern in this modern rpc of just forgetting about (or lbh, ignoring) dms, starters and the like, with zero consideration or qualms about it, is bizarre to me. id feel so ashamed if i asked someone for plots then left them hanging for weeks after they sent me a bloody list, yet apparently its the norm to do that nowadays. ppl who do this: i hope you realise how utterly demoralising and humiliating it is for the other party. maybe im a boomer, but i cannot believe this is how people treat each other in the rpc now. this wouldve never flown a few years ago.

[ihavenothingtodo10220]

do u ever think how in life we are told to aim for so much success and reach our full potential but then every other average person including celebs, idols etc etc are or have already done so, so why should we also need so much wealth or why should we need to put ourselves out there.

im constantly torn between wanting a simple affordable life that id be happy with maybe in the countryside (but its not affordable nowadays to live simply we still have to slave away) and the other side is that i have a need to constantly prove myself and to gain some type of recognition cause we are always told from kids to aim for the top paying jobs etc etc, most of that is what celebs have or do. i mean it cant always be that great what do rich ppl keep buying for each other dont they run out of things to own eventually cause they already own most rich people items?

fair enough if celebs and idols have talents but i dont im not even remotely pretty enough to do whatever it is they do but again its alwayd the what if i wouldve done things differently, maybe it would feel less narcissitic to want a bit of what celebs have if i already had done something differently yonks ago

the other issue is i no longer feel so attached to society if at all like i dont care to succeed i dont care to fail, im neither fussed if im alive or dead it just dont matter to me anymore, in the end the only thing thats going to happen is i will eventually pass away so no ones exactly going to miss me even in death or heaven as people still have their own lives i wouldnt or havent been anyone special at all

its almost saying how it only matters if its someone rich and famous so we have to be a somebody in order to be remembered otherwise we generally end up being a nobody as it is the way the internet goes into meltdown when celebs pass away as if it wasnt to be expected at some point. but if we arent on social media or we dont have a following we honestly do not matter even if we dont have partners or social group either like im so irrelevant no one gonna notice bar immediate family if i stop existing rofl

the way we have to do everything via a screen and screens are everywhere doesnt help me at all cause i feel further distanced from folk and like i dont belong, i dont need nor want a following but its almost being forced on all of us like people.

even idols cant do anything without needing to show their fans but the idols wouldnt notice every single fan to ever exist would they? all the interactions with celebs that fans have is always monentary or beifly. stays even treat bangchan like a long term permenanttherapist friend. yet neither if them truly know one another, so why do we get so attached to the idea of having thoughts and feelings towards someone whos never going to know us so again it dont matter if we do or dont exist as long as these idols and celebs briefly have enough fame for them to get by

but then what am i someone who just does nothing for a living cause i dont want what others want out of life if that makes sense? i either end up feeling like im from the wrong era dont belong with my generation dont belong with next generations would probably have preferred being in previous generations when things were simpler and affordable

sorry if this ask is a bit morbid, nihilistic or pessimistic i have so many mixed thoughts and feelings about existing lately what do you think? i mean obviously there is much narcissism in the world as it is so wouldnt we just be adding to it? am i just having nearly mid life crisis early? idfk anymore

Honestly people tell you to aim high because not only is it the best way to survive, but also because you can easily improve things. Many people who’ve done a lot were considered sub par, and the main reason they did was pure spite to the people who looked down on them and had more, and then they eventually became those people. It’s a cycle, and it’s human nature. And in this society, whether we like it or not, only the successful can truly be sure they can make it. Even middle-class families can easily crash and burn in the blink of an eye with losing their job and end up without anything to eat. But the successful don’t really have to worry about that, because they have a lot to fall back on. Things are also getting more and more expensive, and only the wealthy can really keep up with that. It’s sad, but reality.

And yeah, I think fans put so much pressure on idols because they’re just that. Idols. They idolize them and see them as these perfect beings far above any and everything, and they delude themselves into thinking they can be with them one day. So if an idol makes one wrong move, or dates someone, that false image comes crashing down. You don’t see that in the west simply because we don’t idolize celebrities to that same capacity. To us they’re not necessarily idols, and they’re much more open about their humanity.

[camo1000le]

The EVOLUTION of the silly boy

Feb 2022 - May 2023

If you wanna read me ramble look down lol

This is why I dont wanna be mean to ppl who can't draw fat unless it's quite obvious if comes from beaing mean- I myself couldn't (and you can argue I still can't) for a long while, but I wanted to! And I tried! And I practiced!!

I've been silently fighting for more chubby mikes for years before I even could draw it lol, not in here bc I'm shy of rambling? But is insane how you would think the mikes of the fandom are so diverse but. No. They're not...

I, also, was (and still am) quite shy of my design and interpretation for the same reason, i babygirlfy him too much. You all make him.metal and rock and tired with life and my Mike likes all of that too i swear!! But. He's also silly and is trying so hard to have his childhood back by... letting himself be childish and cringy and all of that for the first time. Surely a lot of you get that?

Anyways, I really need to do a *literal* redraw of the first one 'cause that's the base AU! While the other is Emily! Mike AU(s). That outfit he has on 2020 is still very dear to me, base Mike is still very dear to me... I just.gosh i hate fnaf sm and i love fnaf sm at the same time.

I just LOVE that you can see all the ideas of 2020 still in there. Just better... my boy didn't change. Just evolved, and turned autistic for some reason

And ofc his mentality changes with the AUs. Base mike uses more thigh clothes/still tries to please will at 18+. While e!mike prefers loose ones, i just love little changes like that. I love AUs so much.

Actually b!mike is a big fan of thigh jeans (likes how he looks on them) while e!mike prefers bell/loose ones, he likes thigh ones too but he's shyer

The jackets have lore! The black one was a gift from William when he turned 18, while the green one is Henry's. It's like. A metaphor that Michael tries to copy his parental figures as best he can bc he doesn't know how else to be a good son. That's also why he dyed his hair is the 2nd one (the first one was supposed to be just brown) bc Henry has black hair.

This is how the black jacket looks nowadays:

The jacket has sm lore for being a jacket lol

I just wanna end with.

My boy is like a babygirlfied slasher.

He's 1.93 and weights 130kg and is fucking strong at the arms but he's also so sweet. Look at her. Just a big Baby, let her rest from the horrors