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#im a fucking failure#people are dying and suffering#and what do I do? im just a cry baby that is afraid to communicate with my mom#like wtf how can you be so fucking pathetic#grow up
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#idk#spotify#newjeans#blue moodboard#core#kpop aesthetic#hanni pham#haerin#kang haerin#hanni#nostalgia#what the fuck#pink#kitten#kpop#normal people#beautiful#heart shaped#i love people#im a fucking failure#i lied#uwu#lolz#why am i like this#remember
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2 Years Sober
I have been sober for two years and I want so desperately to break that. I miss how fast every week went. That year of my life feels like a second in my memory. life has gone by so agonizingly slow. I don't want to do it anymore. I just want to be on my death bed.
#journal#acedia#tw depressing stuff#sober#sobriety#struggle#i want to relapse#recovering addict#depression#depressing shit#im a fucking failure#if there was alcohol in this house id be drunk right now#trans#transgender#lgbt#asexual#aromantic
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Are we ever going to actually talk again?
#i just wish you missed me#even a bit#i wish we could talk#genuinely about things#i know youre done#youre moving on#youre done with me#i guess i should start moving on too#but i just cant#i cant#im so fucking pathetic#i wish youd read these#i wish youd tell me you still had aome kind of feelings for me#i wish i could hear you tell me you loved me again even if you didnt mean it#i cant believe how stupid i am#you probably dont think of me at all#im so easily forgettable#and im stupid#the things i say never make aense#im a fucking failure#mine#im just gonna try to stop bothering you.#i think everything i say makes you annoyed at me#and im stupid and cant figure out the right things to say#im sorry ollie#i miss you#im sorry for ruining everything#we would have celebrated our 5 years together in 5 days#i cant believe ive lost you
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Failed my science quiz
#im a fucking failure#i'll never get anywhere in life#i should stop while i can#i'll never get into college#im a failure#i have a 2.800 GPA
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heize is a good artist
#there regular podt beyond the nonsense im about to yank out of me#i keep going to diff ppl for comfort#and its. its not that theyre not wrong when theyre talking to me#but. i need a hug#im so fucking pathetic for acting like a child but#i swea reverything wouldnt feel so awful if i was#tightly held together for a bit#im a physical person u can comfort me with all the aords in ur vocab#it wont stick till u at least squeeze my hand#most importantly i need to be held#thats so!!! pathetic!!!!#arughhh im not fit for life someone take me out im not good enough#im not cut out for this im just disappointing everyone#im a fucking failure#i want to give up#im tired and my shoulders are heavy#and my back hurts and i just want to feel lighter for once#i feel like theres a stupid huge anvil on me and rveryone who comforts me pats that like its my ahoulder#ugh this us pathetic i need to be strategically eliminated#gata#sorry to everyone who knows me#im just. im fucking tired
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*weird noise outside*
My partner: Was that a huge bug? Can you check? I'm scared?
me, already in my everyday beekeeper suit: sure
*I return, dejected*
Me: it was a dead leaf >;(
My partner: Oh, okay, I feel a bit better :)
Me, throwing my beekeeper suit in the trash: I'm a fucking failure
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the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.
capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.
now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.
and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.
and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.
and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".
it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"
#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility#but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion#that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone#i am an environmental educator#so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering#that people are going through#without doing my research and providing real ways to help#this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning#to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering#unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this#and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this#and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity#(complaining)#and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself#for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion#i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out#rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually.#my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free#is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY.#anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i#which is more than their CEOs can say
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Thinking about his brain
#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dale dimmadome#art#digital art#fanart#doodle#He spends like all of his time irrationally terrified of going back to poverty#this was inspired by a panel change I had to make to the next comic im working on teehee teehee#originally I was going to have a funny gag of him describing how awful he felt#but I decided to change it because like. He would never admit that he felt bad#feeling bad is a sign of weakness. a sign of failure. a sign that he needs to try harder#like its not just Devs problems he's ignoring. he treats his own body pretty awfully too#not to write that entire thing off as a trauma response tho hes still objectively awful for not listening to his sons wishes#and he wouldn't have done the same if his own leg got as severely injured.#Having a leg amputated is scary he would have tried to salvage it#then again that is still arguably his fucked up version of love#I have thoughts ok!!!#he is so traumatized
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Not above literally begging people to throw me a bone at this point I need a win hahah
#If anything#im way past that point#Literally did make a post a month ago like#“Oc friend applications here i am at my Wits End”#Figuring people would appreciate the honesty#It got like#Three bites#One person followed up#Im a fucking failure
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desmond & friends modern day assassin sequences…..I miss you……..
#specifying ‘and friends’ because I hate William Miles with my whole heart and he is not included in this sentiment#anyway vaguely this is nyc so the cops are probably wasting taxpayer money by fucking around in the subway#komiks tag#assassins creed#shaun hastings#desmond miles#this is almostttttttttttt shaundes#but I didn’t continue the dialogue far enough to make it really flirty. There’s a hint of flirting happening.#someday I’ll have to actually do a longer form fan comic to land my favorite ship AND my favorite narrative elements in the same#go (the horror and dialogues on free will and what we owe each other past/present/future & also what failure means AND-)#this ties into my second favorite relationship dynamic: clay and desmond. obvious. clay might live in my head rent free a little more than#Desmond does because that end of game reveal in AC1 is a top 10 games experience to me and I think about it all the time#ANYWAY IM OFF TOPIC NOW. desmond picks up snacks at a bodega on his way back
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Wouldn’t it be so fucking funny if we finally get to meet Steve’s parents in s5 and they’re like…typical suburban parents
After making them mostly monsters in fanfic like guys fffff half the time we make them emotionally abusive and/or neglectful, the other half physically, and then like if you’re on the dark web then 3% of the time they work for the lab and Steve’s like a failed number…
For like, the vibes ya know
…But then we actually meet them and it’s a pudgy office dad with glasses married to an “I can be cool >:(‘ mom.
-“Steve, I thought you said your mom doesn’t trust your dad…looks like they love each other?”
Steve: “???wym, of course they love each other. But obviously she doesn’t trust dad on trips cuz he got lost in a Texas airport once, duh.”
-“ok, what about when you said he’d kill you if he found out you drink?”
Steve: “Yeah??? I’m literally underaged and if he found out I’ve been watering down his $200 liquor he’d be so pissed 🙄”
Like, TO BE FAIR Steve’s dad telling him to get a summer job to figure out the value of money or whatever is pretty typical like baby boy didn’t work in high school 😭 and he’s like pouting and huffing about in scoops
He has a fancy car that his parents trust him to drive and take care of
And him not wanting to work for his dad is valid of him like imagine his dad is trying to be supportive like “if you ever need a job son you can come work with me :)”
and steve would hate that cuz to him it would feel like he didn’t deserve it or work for it, working for his dad feels like it means he failed to make something of himself
And like Steve’s not a bad kid, he’s a teenager who just hates his first job cuz customer service sucks, does stupid kid shit like drink and go to parties, and feels like he missed his chance to makes something of himself that he and his parents can be proud of just because he’s a little behind than the rest of his peers
I relate to that so hard
Like bro said he was having a party at his house and it was just like…4 people he invited with a six pack. No music or anything just chillin on lawn chairs and shooting the shit
Even his home is in warm colors 💀
But we love the angst 🤌 the drama 🤌 and torturing our favorite character
#Texas airports are huge#steve harrington headcanon#steve harrington#I too was a teen who felt like a failure because I had everything#I had a supportive family#and I got rejected from ALL but one university#who said I needed to do a math course in summer if I accepted cuz I fucking suck at math#I felt so anger at myself and my older brother was like don’t worry about money or a job just try your best#and if it doesn’t work out we’re here :)#and it’s like I KNOW but I need to prove to myself that Im capable do it on my own#anyways#this turned into a projecting post…#my bad guys#bee speaks#steddie#harringrove#stancy#stoncy#platonic stobin
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need more cyberverse wavewave fic of these two losers like i need oxygen. husbands who are cringe but somehow think the other is way worse (they're both horrible )
#almost captioned this my bttm bara husband who gets on my fucking nerves or whatevr#thankfully i did not listen to . erm. the demons#soundwave : once again shockwave fails to surprise us with his ever increasing failures at even the measliest mission#soundwave's electrical impulse: meow hi meow#shockwave: im gonna fucking Kill you .#shockwave's electrical impulse: im gonna touch you#idk man i just want fic ok#'then write it'NOOOOO!!!!!!!!#shockwave#soundwave#wavewave#tf cyberverse#transformers#maccadam#cyberverse soundwave#cyberverse shockwave#sketch#meep
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like literally if you don't care about boycotting then fine you don't care, no one can force you and you're still a free human being live your life, just don't fucking act like a whiny baby when you see people actively trying to organize to put pressure on specific targets bc hum... IT'S NOT FUCKING ABOUT YOU THERE'S A WHOLE GENOCIDE HAPPENING YOU FREAK
#re my last post and that stupid fuck. especially annoyed bc they have a french flag in their bio like UGH why is this country producing#so many failures#bee tries to talk#im sorry that your little fragile self has to see posts organizing a boycott in the eurovision tag !!! how will you survive ???#eurovision#palestine#free palestine
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Hi I’m bored hello
#headcanon that kuai liang hasnt even hugged anyone since birth someone please show him some affection and by someone I mean Hanzo#I forgot to draw his scar fuck im a failure (sorry to all kuai liang lovers)#subscorp#kuaihanzo#scorpion#sub zero#mortal kombat#mortal kombat fanart#mk fanart#my art#doodle
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