#ily ptsd (kinda)

[hauntingblue]

Zoro saw the kuma bomb and went well... we might need some help....

[barrenclan]

Still kinda shocked we only had three cat deaths during the Defiance stuff, but hey!! We made it out!!

NOOO THE BOY IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT!! YOU SAVED THEM WITH THE POWER OF NOTHING REMEMBER???? AGH

had to take a biiig pause at the rainhaze slugpelt panels. geez. the emotions make them stop

NOO BLACKNOSE DOESN’T KNOW?? DON’T MAKE DAFFY THE ONE TO TELL NOOOOOOOO

strange way for them to reconnect, but hopefully plum and bee can take this time to work together and get over their differences!!

GOOOD THE EGRETTAIL STUFF. glad we could get closure on them, i loved the little stuff we got from their relationship, and egrettail seeing her like another kit she took in?? aaaa… egrettail ily

LET’S GOOOO REDSTAR TIME!!!! FUCKING GET COOTSTORM!!!!! byebye loser time for us to book it!

oMG NIGHTBERRY KNEW??? AHHHHHH. that makes me wonder.. did cypressfoot die and just.. close her eyes, accept it?

i’ve broken into a million pieces and glued myself together. so many emotions all in one package. ty

Believe me, if I could've spared more of those cats, they would've been on the chopping block.

Unfortunately Pinepaw now has some big Survivor's Guilt and PTSD splashes to deal with, which sadly won't be going away for a very long time. Poor boy.

Well, Blacknose does know, in a sense. But dementia often causes people to forget about deaths of a loved one, especially after such a traumatic event.

We're gonna get into a lot of Nightberry lore in the next issue. But while Cypressfoot did try to fight the foxes, she wasn't surprised when felt teeth around her throat. Only pain, and fear, and sadness.

I'm glad you liked the issue, hehe.

[oleander-nin]

That thing that SS Cake said about Raph is true! Dug through my database to find the screenshot lol

Raph ptsd canon (?)

Also, to Cake (if you see this):

Don't tell yourself you're not as good at analysis because you're not a writer! I don't write, and idk how good my character analysis skills are, but they're two completely different things! Everyone starts by just putting things out there, there's no initiation or prerequisites. Most of the coolest most talented people I've met on Tumblr are surprisingly just like everyone else. Just people that sit down and do things they like to do. It's quite reassuring to find that out personally.

Sorry Ollie I'm barely talking to you at this point- you're kinda the messenger lol

ANYWAYS- I LOVE YOU OLLIE- SORRY /p

(AND SS CAKE IF YOU'RE READING THIS I THINK YOU'RE COOL <3)

SCREAMS, THANK YOU BITTY

don't have much to say here since this is for SS Cake, but ily bitty/p, and I don't mind being a messenger between y'all👍

[sewers-headmates]

HAPPY DAY OF THE BIRTH tis your fave doctor who nerd back again. polycule ship, 9th doctor/rose tyler/jack harkness? ily bro /p

NINEROSE NINEROSE NINEROSE … and jack also ig /nsrs (kidding i love this polycule)

ALSO THANK YOU FOR HAPPY BIRTHDAY WISHES

Name: The Doctor, Doctor, 9, Nine, Ninth

Age: under wraps (he doesn’t really count anymore)

Gender: genderfluid, presents masc

Pronouns: any

Sexuality: pansexual

Species: time lord

Source: dr who

Roles: protector

cisIDs: time lord, regeneration, PTSD, autistic, socially awkward

transIDs: transHarmless, permaHappy, transClingy, transDPD

Other Labels: polyamorous

Appearance:

Name: Rose Marion Tyler

Age: 19

Gender: female

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: bisexual

Species: human

Source: dr who

Roles: soother, energizer

cisIDs: blonde, ADHD, ambitious, brave, hyperromantic, social, DPD, british

transIDs: transImmortal, transHypersexual, transAutistic, transOCD

Other Labels: polyamorous, kinda the glue of the three

Appearance:

Name: Javic Piotr Thane, Jack Harkness

Age: 38

Gender: male

Pronouns: he/him

Sexuality: omnisexual, fem preference

Species: human

Source: dr who

Roles: caretaker, protector

cisIDs: brown hair, time agent, con man, NPD, god complex, ADHD, problematic silly man /lh

transIDs: transOCD, transDelusions, transBlueEyes, transToothGap, transShapeshifter

Other Labels: polyamorous

Appearance:

hope you enjoy the disaster polycule!!! they are a mess but they love each other

-mod richie

[whatsnewalycat]

Hi! I just saw an ask where you said you were doing EMDR. Can you tell me a bit about your experience with it? My therapist has also been recommending EMDR to me and I am very intrigued but also kinda cautious because the premise sounds absolutely ridiculous. Has it helped with trauma responses? Do you feel any better?

😘💕ily

It has helped so much. Like I know it’s just a stupid brain trick, but it works.

Most of the time I do ART (accelerated resolution therapy), which is very very similar to EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing).

EMDR utilizes bilateral stimulation (with eye movements for visual stimulation, headphones for audio stimulation, or taps/vibrating paddles for touch stimulation). The therapist asks you to recall the traumatic incident while doing whichever method of stimulation you choose. I don’t know the science exactly, but the L-R stimulation does something to your brain that makes it easier for memories and associated memories to come forward. You allow your thoughts wander wherever they do and see what comes up and communicate it with your therapist. Your therapist guides you through the process of reframing your traumatic memories and the thoughts you have about yourself because of those traumas.

From what I understand, ART is very similar, but the reframing you do is basically recording over the traumatic memories with a memory of something more positive. We do the eye movement thing and I think about the memory, letting it play through and allowing anything else that comes up to play through. Once we get through that shitshow, he asks me to “rewrite the scene with what I wanted, needed, or deserved.” So I play the memory over again and again the way I think it should have been until, when I think about it, my rewrite is what plays in my head. If anything residual comes up, we do some visual imagery stuff to cover it and burn it and blah blah blah.

I hate it and I love it.

Throughout this process, I’ve had a few memories come up from my childhood that my brain completely blocked out but my body still reacted to. When this happens it’s fucking upsetting and earth-shattering, but finding the root of my trauma responses helps me understand myself more, and the therapy blunts the effects of the trauma and how I react to triggers.

My trauma responses have improved markedly. When my children cry or get upset, or when men raise their voices around me, or when my husband tries to initiate sex, I don’t get triggered. I can’t remember the last time I had an episode of derealization. Not only that, but I can recognize why I had those visceral reactions to whatever stimuli triggered me.

It has changed my life for the better and as someone with c-ptsd I 100% recommend trying either therapy. It helps in a way that CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) never did—although CBT definitely helped with my anxiety, depression, and intrusive thoughts.

If you want to learn more about EMDR and how it works, there’s this book “The Body Keeps The Score” by Bessel Van Der Kolk that dives heavy into it. This dude is like the Forrest Gump of trauma work and is suuuuper insightful in the results of ppl with ptsd/c-ptsd doing EMDR.

ANYWAY SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG. I’m just real passionate about mental health. I encourage you to try EMDR and/or ART if you struggle with ptsd. Every time I go it’s like FUCK OK FINE I GUESS but I am so so so glad I started because I’m miles away from where I started.

[usaigi]

🏳️‍🌈💎 for whatever hyperfixiation you want

💎 are there any fun facts or trivia that you would like to share?

Jessica Henwick, the actress who plays Colleen, was invited to audition for Xu Xialing in Shang Chi but turned it down because she has hope they're bring back Colleen. I personally really hope they do, I'd love to see her as Iron Fist

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you? (I got this one twice so I'm going to split up my response, here's the other half)

Misty - She keeps not showing up in the comics arcs I'm reading so atm all I got is lesbian for Colleen. Misty ily bb I'll be back

Luke - Bi King 💪 It's not weird to cuddle your bros, man. You've just been brainwash by the patriarchy 😒 (But for real, growing up in Georgia in a religious community and going to marines, then the police academy and the prison, Luke spend a lot of time having to unlearning toxic masculinity and still struggles with being vulnerable with his friends. As the group's protector, he often struggles with feeling like he has to suppress and hide his emotions to be their rock) PTSD & OCD

Elektra - Half Cambodian half French, raised Greek. BPD/NPD with murderer tendencies but she's working on it

Layla - Coptic ✌️ Bi 🌈 "oh cool, we finally have a muslim on the team. yay diversity." "I'm actually coptic orthodox" "Shucks. Are we sure we shouldn't hire Ms Marvel?

MK - Sephardic Jewish + Cuban + Guatemalan & PTSD DID BPD Autism. "Wow that's a lot of labels" "Yeah, it was buy one mental illness get 3 free. The alters sale was steal too." In general the system's identities as cishet partly because of Marc but also because of heteronormativity and the fact they're happily married to a woman but some part identity differently (Dani as a lesbian, Mr Knight as AroAce. etc etc). & I think it would be super funny if this was not canon in the AU, this is just what Jake thinks is going on and how he explains the H4H relationship to his system and Layla. Layla, of course, is confused at first b/c.... Wow....Americans. And then she meets Claire and realizes she's bi too

Felicia - colombiana mami 🇨🇴 "Hey isn't it kinda of stereotypical of you to be Colombian and a narco[the King Pin]?" "Mami, if I were a narco's wife, maybe. But this is just feminism. Why should a gringo make all the money?"

send me a ask about my media hyperfixation

[tortoisebore]

i just know these next two chapters are gonna be so worth the wait and all your hard hard work is gonna pay off !!! you’re writing is soso good because you care !!!! and sometimes when we care a lot, we struggle just as much !!! but it’ll be worth it in the end !!! ily and your writing so much and i’m so excited for what you have in store for us :)

this is so nice i’m 😭😫🫶💖💞🤲💓🫶

thank u for saying this!!!! i’m not a writer by any means, i just do this for fun, so it is always hard on some level but it’s been particularly hard to write remus’ chapter!! it’s like……,piecing together his entire life and detailing his past enough that who he is in the present becomes more clear & we can finally understand his motives in the entire story leading up to this point…….within like 10,000 words fhfhfhffhfh and i do care so i do wanna do it right but it just…..,won’t come out fhfhffh

and first draft writing is always bare bones and kinda bad but this first draft feels particularly bare bones. like i’m having trouble finding remus’ voice outside of the part of the story we’ve already covered ughhhdhhthrh i’m gonna k*ll him before it’s all over i swear he’s on my last nerve rn

on the other hand sirius is working w me wonderfully like he’s somehow being easy breezy beautiful while we write like 10k words of childhood trauma & ptsd & severe attachment issues 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃

but it’ll all work itself out soon and it will be worth it!!! i love them so much i cant wait for u all to read all about their lives before they found each other 💓🫶💖💞🤲✨💖💞

[holding-monsters-hands]

hi u already KNOW who it is but i have a kinda outta the ordinary one. like yk i ship dennis x rocky n if u have no interest in it or r uncomfortable w it you don’t have to write this but could u POSSIBLY….make a hc list of rocky x dennis stuff. like general stuff maybe sum romance or very sweet stuff, maybe angst in the middle or something here n there i’ll take anything u have to offer guh ily muah

ABSOLUTELY I LOVE THE DYNAMIC YOUVE CREATED FOR THEM ITS SO CUTE <33

Dennis x rocky HCS

Dennis is rocky’s #1 helper! whether it’s reminding him to take his meds, to eat, or just helping him get up in the mornings, he’s always there <3

Rocky just, absolutely adores dennis and constantly lets him know that through acts of service or verbally

actions wise he’ll help clean up dennis’ room whenever it’s messy and dennis has no urge to clean, or just by fixing his messy hair and making it look all nice.

verbally, rocky is the cheesy nicknames KING- and it always flusters the hell out of dennis, stuff like “Handsome, big man, sweetheart, cutie, etc.”

another thing they do is try to plan little dates for themselves just to keep things exciting! although the dates themselves are pretty toned down, usually just cuddles and a movie or a candle-lit dinner!

Though I need to mention that rocky does have some.. rough days. He’s getting old, especially his mind- and there are times where he forgets where he is, and what’s going on and just spirals into a confused breakdown.

It’s mostly PTSD related, however dennis immediately tries to come to the rescue- going to give him gentle reminders as to what’s going on, where he is and that he is completely safe and loved.

it doesn’t work immediately most of the time, but it does help get rocky to deescalate. And he just.. appreciates his silly boyfriend so much <33

[cursedmyuu]

Trying to relearn how to use this app. I haven’t used tumblr consistently in god, probably over 5 years by now?? So it feels weird to jump back into. I used to be really good at tagging for organizing purposes but its not as intuitive for me now. I will get there! Its kinda nostalgic though, feels like I’m a teenager again with all my unstable, disregulated moods (ty ptsd and audhd ily) and using this tumblr again.

The biggest thing, I think, is making my timeline more lively again. I used to follow so many blogs on my old accounts, I have to rebuild that up again. And also kill this art block. I’ve been doodling here and there, but most of my time is catered to my mental healing journey, work, playing ffxiv to distract my brain, and my kitties (which now has the lovely addition of two 9 week old kittens and the not so lovely subtraction of a beloved elderly pet. Still miss him lots 💗)

[overtxure]

‘ i’ll be right here. don’t worry. ’

soft angst starters

   Sheets clung to her sweat soaked frame; her breathing rapid as pallid digits clawed at the fabric encasing her–trapping her, almost–as she fought her way free. Azure oculus still had not adjusted to the black hue that surrounded her, and in her panic, appendages reached forwards, seeking anything of comfort.

   She was drowning; drowning in the void. The soldier could feel chaos’ embrace around her throat, dragging her back to the depths of Valhalla–the screams of the souls she could not save resonant, imploring for their new goddess to return. Lightning’s hysteria became audible, filling her ambience as she cried out for help–for anyone. No, not again. I don’t want to be alone. I don’t want to go back there.

   As soon as the darkness had come to pull her back, something else found its way around her body, seeming to pull her back towards the light. The presence was warm and inviting; familiar. Grasping at the new aura she sensed, the warrior fought against the chaos that threatened to drag her under, until she fell into the arms of her savior–Hope.

   She didn’t have to see him in the darkness of the room, or hear his voice, to know it was him. His scent engulfed her senses, and as his body pressed against her own, they fit like two pieces of a puzzle made for one another. Appendages wrapped around the silverette, firm enough that it were surprising she had not hurt him. But she didn’t care. He was here. He had saved her again, just as he had before. 

   Head buried into his shoulder, the pinkette began to slow her rapid breathing; the silverette’s fingers combing through her pink locks, soothing her panic. It’s okay, you’re safe.

   His words of solace kept her demons at bay, reminding them that even when she couldn’t fight them, there were always someone around who would. Lightning felt his brims press to her forehead and eyelashes kissed her cheeks, the despair that had trapped her earlier, all but vanished into the same darkness it had escaped. She wanted to apologise for waking him, but she knew he would scold her for it, so the words fell away. It weren’t the first time it had happened, and as much as she wished it would be the last, it were possible it weren’t. If only she were strong enough to fight her own battles, like she once had been.

   “Don’t let go,” she muttered, slight desperation detectable on her tone, when she felt him ease his grip on their embrace. She knew she would only sleep peacefully tonight within the safety of the walls that were his arms. 

   Lightning felt her counterpart shake his head–a silent promise he would always be there, as the two fell back down onto the bed, his embrace never faltering. I’ll be right here, don’t worry.  

[deadwriter16]

Bkdk

starting off with the obligatory…man what are some headcanons i haven’t shared?

deku is both the more possessive and more jealous one. people think it’s bkg but nah it’s deku you wanna look out for

bkg never gets over the feeling of being undeserving and has a hard time forgiving himself. he’s not even sure if he really ever did but thankfully deku has forgiven him and loves bkg enough for the both of them

deku is an absolute slut for the holiday season, and basically all the holidays ever. bkg thinks every single one of them is pointless except for japanese holidays of course, cause he actually believes in them. but he’ll indulge in izuku’s western holiday traditions because he loves deku

bkg has more nightmares than deku and also has more severe panic attacks and PTSD symptoms. on bad days a hug or even a handshake is too much and deku, despite being a touchy person, will always back off and kinda be like bkgs guard dog on his bad days. deku will bite anyone’s head off for coming near bkg if he needs to

bkg is asexual and deku is demiromantic. deku has never experienced romantic attraction for someone other than bkg and while he is horny for kacchan he doesn’t actually give any fucks if they do the nasty or not…so they just don’t. or they do, if bkg wants to. you’ll never know it’s their business lol. no seriously though deku is super supportive and bkg loves him sm

the first time deku got into a bad accident and landed in the hospital after they started dating he woke up and saw the absolute pain and horror in bkgs eyes, realized that he made kacchan cry, and he didn’t even need bkgs lecture on self preservation to stop being so reckless. deku got the lecture anyway and listened carefully to it cuz he was like I deserve this I made kacchan cry

bkg got all the relationship firsts except saying i love you first and proposing. ily because he had a very hard time saying it while deku could say it all the time, though eventually bkg was able to say it, and proposing bc deku beat him to it. but bkg got confessed first, kissed deku first, asked deku to move in, took deku out on the first date, etc. he had to give deku this one thing

bkg and deku confirm every rumor the tabloids spread about them just for fun. they like to spread misinformation so heroes weekly readers thing bkg cheated on deku while pros off duty readers think bkdk are pregnant from a quirk accident

ask game: https://deadwriter16.tumblr.com/post/672342582601383936/stealing-fizzychocolatemilks-ask-game-cause-its

[willel]

I just thought about Hopper actually talking to Will about PTSD and his experience of going to war and coming home and everything was different and he was different and *cries*. I was reading a jopper fic and like 20 yo hopper is talking about how he feels 'unthere' being back in Hawkins and I'm just like. This is Will post s1/s2. I just want them to have some MOMENTS so bad ok. Thanks ily for listening.

Funnily enough, Hopper already brought up soldiers and PTSD to Joyce and Will, but Will was walking far ahead of them cause he wanted to get the hell away from Hawkins Lab as soon as possible. Also Hopper passed it off ass "I know some FRIENDS who suffer from that, the doctor is probably right."

Hopper totally gets what Will is feeling.

I can picture Will having a panic attack and even though Jonathan is about to jump in to save the day, maybe Hopper slightly jumps in and gets Will to breath, kinda like what he did for Joyce twice in the Upside Down when she was panicking/having a meltdown

[bluewormonastring]

My live reactions to season 2 (episode 4)

SPOILERS OBVIOUSLY KIDS READ AT UR OWN RISK

Y’all I’m so excited you have no idea but my sister said at least one of these episodes is sad so fuck me I guess

Oh shit getting right back into it

“Did u mean to do that?… was that on purpose?” Lmao stede ur goofy

No we don’t just banish people

Alright look I’m not a fan of Ed right now but ya can’t kill stedes boyfriend smh

Awww Izzy I love you

“AT LEAST HES STILL GOT BOTH LEGS” “YES- oh he can’t hear you he’s got no head… you’ve got a head though… which you should… look after”

Oh my poor izzy I love you you’re perfect and fuck anyone who says otherwise

“Your complimentary dinghy awaits you port side” “fuck off” “alright rude”

I DONT LIKE EVERYONE BEING MEAN TO ED AND I DONT LIKE THAT JIM AND OLU ARENT STANDING NEXT TO EACH OTHER

“Do you want your sammy?” *slaps it away* AWWW STEDE BABY U LOOK SO SAD

“You’re not a fucking mermaid” OH MY GOD OW MY HEART

When Ed went “here I go again” I naturally instantly went “ON MY OWN GOIN DOWN THE ONLY ROAD IVE EVER KNOWN” and then he said “on my own” and I lost my shit and then he said “goin down the only road I’ve ever known” and I lost my shit even more

OH MY GOD ITS THE FUCKING BUNNY

OMG TATTOO TOUR TATTOO TOUR THATS SO CUTE

OH MY GOD THE FUCKING BUNNY WHAT NO IS IT OKAY OH MY GOD

Oh my god is that one of the lesbians

Awww cute lil reunion

Buttons respectively what the fuck are you saying

OH MY GOD ITS ABT TO BE THE SHIPMATES FORMER SHIPMATES LINE

Anne Bonny ur so fine I love you

THE HANDSHAKE ICONIC

STOP THIS SCENE IS SO FUCKING GOOD LIKE IT WAS GOOD IN THE TRAILER BUT PHAHHAHAHA “Jesus Christ here we go… hi” “I wasn’t looking for you by the way I-“ “oh man I don’t care if you were” “you two know each other? What are the fuckin odds?” “Very high apparently” “shipmates” “former” “well you should both stay for dinner” “oh well I don’t wanna make HIM feel UNCOMFORTABLE” “him? Oh look you do whatever you want. You’re good at that.” “Oh well… I could… potentially… I could have dinner” “whatever” what a fucking scene

Cackling at the energy seeming off oh my god u all need therapy lucius being paranoid izzy screaming at the statue blackbeards crew having a cute little ptsd moment

Oh shit I forgot that all three of those are a result of Blackbeard

“They just need to be reminded that they have value, that this is a safe space” “they’re definitely planning something”

Cackling I love how they’re telling this story Ed is trying so hard to downplay it “well ACTUALLY I was planning on killing him myself” “more like relented”

“Well I got the crazy notion to shave it off. Immediately regretted it” STOP STEDES FACE

“For what it’s worth, I like your beard… the length” AWWWW STOPPPP

OH SHES BEEN STABBED

I LOVE THE LESBIANS YALL KINKY

Cackling at Ed and Stedes faces while the knife thing is happening

“You’ve gotta close your eyes cause it’s a surprise” “no fuck that we’re not too into surprises these days”

The absolute horror when they revealed the pinata and Lucius hiding the knife behind his back is so funny

Living for Ed smoking weed

ANNE NO MAAM

Kinda crushed that it was buttons who interrupted them

ANNE BONNY IF YOU FUCKING THROW UP ON HIM ILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU THATS SO GROSS

SHE POISONED HER WHAT THE FUCK

“So you all think we’re plotting against you” “yep. Yes. Yep which in hind sight maybe was inaccurate I don’t know you tell me”

“Are you saying this is like… a space… that is safe” “yeah babe”

Izzy lmfao ily

OH MY GOD HE FELL AND HES ARMY CRAWLING AWAY

I love how buttons is just… there

OH MY GOD ED FINDING OUT ABOUT MARY

Crying at the scene with him under the blanket

“I never expected a headbutt either but I received one” “Oh god yeah throw that back in my face why don’t you. Nice.” “I WILL ACTUALLY BECAUSE IT BLOODY WELL HURT” “GOOD IM GLAD IT FUCKIN HURT IT WAS SUPPOSED TO HURT THATS THE POINT OF HEADBUTTS” “alright”

OH MY GOD THE I LOVE SCENE AHH OH MY GOD

THE LESBIANS INTERRUPTING LMFAO ED LOOKS SO DONE W THEIR BULLSHIT

CACKLING I LOVE THIS DYNAMIC “YOUVE NOT EVEN GIVEN EACH OTHER A LITTLE HANDY” “A LITTLE TICKLE”

“He gave me a proper tonguing in the kitchen” lmao

I love stede and Ed’s faces after “it’s you who’s scared that you’re too old to go back to pirating”

I mean the cuckoo clock never really had a chance did it

And just like that Ed and stede are buddies again

Motherfucker set her house on fire lmao I love the lesbians pt 10000000

OH MY GOD THEM ALL WORKING TOGETHER TO MAKE IZZY A LEG AWW HES A DICK BUT HES THEIR DICK OH MY GOD HES CRYING BECAUSE NO ONES EVER BEEN THAT NICE TO HIM BEFORE

AWWWWW IVE MISSED THEIR CUTE LITTLE BANTER INTERRUPTING ESCH OTHER MOMENTS THAT ARE CLEARLY IMPROV THATS AMAZING

FUCK OFF BUTTONS IS ACTUALLY A BIRD PHAHAHAHAHA

“For the next unicorn” STOP IM SOBBING

Okay kids bye bye see you next time

My live reactions to season 2 (episode 1)

SPOILERS OBVIOUSLY KIDS READ AT UR OWN RISK

Holy shit I’m so excited

Oh my god

Oh my god

Oauxbwkxjwhz

LOVE THE BLACK SCREEN W A SHARP CUT TO THE BEACH 10/10

OMG WE GET THE STEDE AND IZZY BEACH SWORD NOW? SO SOON? YOU SPOIL ME OFMD

Omg he’s been stabbed this is for sure a dream sequence

STEDE THATS MURDER EVEN IF ITS JUST IN YOUR HEAD

“You absolute twa….” BEST DYING WORDS EVER ILY IZZY ALWAYS AND FOREVER

THE SLOW RUN TOWARDS EACH OTHER OMG

AND STEDES FACE AND HIS VOICE AND AWW BABY

AWWW THE WAY THEY CRASHED INTO EACH OTHER

“BABE” HA FOWIHXBWNA I WAS NOT PREPARED

“I KNEW YOUD FIND ME LOVE”

“Fuckin love the beard mate”

Oh we’ve started farting lovely

OH MY GOD I WASNT PREPARED FOR HOW ID FEEL WHEN IT CUT TO HIM WITH EVERYONE AWW MY BABIES IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH

“Cant be worse than you moaning ‘Ed oh ed’ all night” ILY PETE

Iconic title screen as always

“DEAR ED” AHHHH

SPANISH JACKIE ILY

Instantly taking an interest in the Swede as we knew would happen but still iconic

Ugh I love Leslie jones did I mention I love Leslie jones

Nat looks so scared aww baby

I love wee John being security

And host stede aww baby

I live for black Pete dealing with working in customer service

And all of them tbh

Aww poor buttons he needs his ocean and Livy

I’m ngl for a second I was like “where’s Fred armisen- oh wait”

ITS THE I THINK OF YOU OFTEN LINE YESS

HELLO YES I ADORE IZZY HANDS HE CAN DO NO WRONG IDC WHAT YOU SAY IVE MISSED MY BABY BOY

Ahh the wedding

“Demon? *shakes head* I’m the fucking devil” AHH

Guys were only 6 minutes in and this post is already long as shit so buckle up (if ur actually reading it lmao my ass would be like nope too long”

THERES MY VICO HELLO VICO ILY AND MY JOEL FRY ILY BABIES

Ah yes ye olde put trauma in a box in lock it

Awww fang baby boy someone give him a hug find him Lucius

Omg it’s the “you dumped him” scene

“Did everyone get some cake” because he’s still our precious little angle

HE JUST SNORTED RHINO HORN IS THAT A THING WAS THAT A THING IN HISTORY HUH

NO ITS THIS SCENE I DONT WANNA WATCH MY BABY BE SAD

Yes hello I love Izzy hands I would protect him with my life little baby boy

Vico looks so done w his ass

Someone give my baby a hug

Ily fang

The tears in his eyes during “unhand me” aww Angel

AWW IZZY

CONNOTHAN O NONNATHAN WE LOVE YOU YOU PRECIOUS LITTLE BOY UR ABSOLUTE PERFECTION YOU ANGEL

I love the friendship Jim and that girl have

Oh shit Jackie

“BOO CAKES” JACKIE

Stede honey you’re not intimidating

“I know that guy we had breakfast together” “you’ll be having a lot of breakfastes together” “oh okay 🙂” ily Swede

HIM DOING AN ED IMPRESSION LMAO “could be. Could be mate.”

“You’re my hero” 😞😕🙂😏

Swede bein a cute lil double agent

AWW SWEDE “my time with Jackie has been the happiest of my life. Her love has helped me locate parts of myself I didn’t even know existed and reclaim others that I have long missed” ILY

“Tonight is my turn to perform the husbandly duties”

“That’s another toe” ED YOU STAY AWAY FROM HIM LEAVE MY BABY ALONE

“Who am I to you” aww Izzy Angel baby he’s accepting it OMG “I have love for you Edward” IZZY YOURE SAYING IT OUT LOUD IM SO PROUD OF YOU BUD

IZZY YOU DID NOT JUST SAY TALK IT THROUGH YOU HAD TO HAVE KNOWN THAT WAS A HORRIBLE IDEA

OMG AND THE SHIFT IN THE MUSIC AS SOON AS HE SAID IT

IZZY RUN

RUN MY BABY BOY RUN

“As a crew” OH EDDDDD

ED DONT POINT A GUN AT JIM

OR ANYONE ELSE

THAT INCLUDES YOURSELF EDWARD TEACH BORN ON A BEACH

“They think ya crazy” cackling his face omg

Go taika absolutely slaying this scene

The way the camera is all like jittery is so good

Jim’s like “beard” makes their chin look like… not caved in but idk like it looks like they have a rly bad overbite yk

“Everyone knows why” “I don’t. Enlighten me” “your feelings for stede fucking bon-“ *GUNSHOT* ARE U SHITTING ME EDWARD NO WE DO BOT SHOOT FRIENDS

OH MY GOD HE MADE FRENCHIE FIRST MATE HOLY SHIT

Oh my god Izzy my poor baby Izzy oh my god how dare you hurt my Izzy

LMAO SWEDE

“FUCK THOSE HAMMIES UP” LMAO

There’s like no way there’s actually anything valuable in that chest

WE GOT TO SEE HER TAKE A NOSE FOR THE NOSE JAR YESSS

OH SHIT INDIGO

“Now give me back my blue shit STEVE”

Susan’s hot

DONT HURT SWEDE

Oh good okay we’re cool

I feel like she’s lying tho

But for now we’re cool

AWW FANG

AWW JIM COMFORTING FANG

“WANNA HEAR THE STORY OF THE WOODEN BOY” AWW

Living for vico using they them for the puppet

“DO THE VOICE” AWW

OMG VICO THATS ICONIC

AWW YAY THEYRE LAUGHING NOW THOSE ARE MY BABIES YAY

Living for buttons reuniting with the ocean

Okay roll credits cheers yall see you next episode

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the issue with mike’s love confession to el in season 4

this all revolves around michael wheeler. mike’s recurring problem in seasons 3 and 4 has been vocalizing his love to his girlfriend. he’s said it when he was surrounded by people which he claims was “heat of the moment”. yet it’s shown time and time again that he can’t get it out to eleven unprompted. (keep in mind that the only other person shown on the show to also have this issue is nancy, who couldn’t express her love vocally to steve because she wasn’t actually in love with him.)

this perspective contrasts greatly with el, who can vocalize it and mean it. this says a lot based on her neglectful and abusive childhood and how she really only starts to learn what love even is at the age of 12. eleven is being open and vulnerable in the relationship and this is clear in the show. mike shouldn’t have any reason to believe that his love isn’t being reciprocated by her.

mike’s monologue to el in the s4 finale is riddled with cliches “i feel like my life started the day i found you in those woods”, untrue statements “i’ve never felt scared of you”, and overemphasis “i’ve loved you every day since. i love you on your good days. i love you on your bad days”. overemphasis of phrases is used a lot in persuasive techniques to convince people of things. (kinda like the “we’re friends. we’re friends.” in which mike was trying to convince himself.) within mike’s confession, he finally gives his reason for not being able to say ily to el. it’s this: “i’m scared one day you’ll realize you won’t need me anymore. i thought that if i said how i felt, it would somehow make that day hurt more”.

based on mike’s excuse, he knows that he loves el, he just can’t say it to her, but he still wants her to know it. he tries to make her feel loved more through his actions than his words. by this point, eleven also knows mike loves her, but she wants to hear it. mike is hyper aware that he’s dodging these words: “i’m sorry i don’t say it more” ummm you never do. mike is anticipating that eleven will eventually leave him and when it occurs, he’ll feel better knowing he didn’t tell her that he loved her. 🤔 but the thing is, the day she leaves him will already hurt mike bc he understands intrinsically, without speaking aloud, that he loves el. interesting.

it’s important that this issue doesn’t have at all to do with will specifically, it’s about mike himself and his internal battle with the way he feels about eleven. mike’s character during the past 2 seasons has been about obsessing over his girlfriend, unless there is something deeper there (internalized homophobia, repression, and hiding from truth).

there were many other ways for mike to explain why he was not able to vocalize ily to el, and here are a few

- the whole parents not loving each other reason. this explanation actually circulated around quite a bit on social media before volume 2 was released. this really could’ve been given some time had it been explored. however it wasn’t mentioned in the slightest.

- vulnerability: it can be hard to say the word “love” bc the person trying to say it can feel weak and exposed to the people that they’re admitting it to or even any people that happen to hear them say it. but mike does say that he loves her in front of many close family and friends in s3 so this argument has no support.

- ptsd and trauma: again, another super valid and realistic way that his inability to express his love verbally could’ve been shown. yet in mike’s case, he’s one of the characters on the show that is seemingly unaffected by his life events. as finn once said in an interview “deep down there’s some trauma, but that doesn’t come out”.

basically, mike doesn’t mean it, not in that way. which he doesn’t think is okay or acceptable. given the way he reacts so hurt to the bullies in s1 when they make fun of will by insinuating that he’s gay, i’m sure mike’s at least partially aware of what will was subjected to by lonnie. bc of the time period and what his best friend went through, he does not want that for himself. so he pushes it back, and tries to reverse his thinking, his actions, his feelings. and when the opportunity arises for him to be normal and get a girlfriend, he jumps at it.

but why doesn’t he just lie about it right away then? maybe cuz of what happens early in season 3. with the help of max, el establishes that lies in relationships are bad, mike eventually stops this and isn’t able to vocalize romantic love to el. but in s4 he learns through will that el lied to him while she was away and even on their first day back reunited, so maybe he takes that as being okay to also lie and do the same to her again. at least in a moment where it comes down to saving her life right ? 😃 also… anyone else curious if mike is gonna be able to say it to her in season 5 just normally now?

this season seemed to showcase that mike ultimately would’ve rather had el leave him than live his life even further in a lie by not meaning what he’s feeling and what he says to her. it was building up to this in episodes 1-5. the desert scene with will was really helping him come to this realization, and after all, in a week he’s flying back to hawkins for who knows how long and spending more time away from her. the only time he would put up with this big of a lie, worst case scenario, is if it were to possibly save her in life or death situation. voila monologue

but idk lol

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okay i’m gonna make this one on here and not @vergaytim cause i have legit 5 followers on there while there’s 700 of you (damn) here, and the overall message of this is fucking important. if you want to you can skip the story, and please take note of the tws!!!

having a mental illness is okay. taking medication for mental illnesses is okay. seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist/therapist is okay. if someone ever treats you worse because you tell them something like this, i’ll send a nice punch their way. i did karate for a few years, sooooo...

(tw: mental illnesses, ableism/bullying, medication)

fun fact about me! i have a fuckload of mental illnesses! i’ve had ocd ever since i was in about fourth grade, and that was the first time i ever really came face to face with a mental illness besides from social anxiety. no one told me i had adhd until i was in eighth grade, even though i had been diagnosed with it for quite a while. i do have a reliable diagnosis despite not being tested, but let’s just say living with a psychologist for 15 years is long enough. i suppose my mom knew i had adhd ever since i was in middle school, maybe earlier, but she didn’t tell me. i don’t really know why she didn’t, because honestly it would’ve helped a lot with some self esteem issues i had to know that there’s actually a reason for this and this isn’t bad. now, my mom not realizing how bad my adhd is, that’s another thing for another time. why does my neurotypical brother get fidget toys but i’m not allowed them? i don’t think i’ll ever know. to sum myself up, i have mild social anxiety, ocd, depression and adhd all diagnosed, and i’m self-diagnosed with ptsd.

ever since i was young i was always one to stand out. i desperately wanted to fit in, and as soon as i met people with a common interest of mine, i wanted to become friends with them right away. why? i just don’t think anyone else really wanted to listen to me. over time people’s interests change, and mine did as well as my friends’. but the difference between us is that while they were going on with their lives and getting involved in many things, i’d jump from interest to interest, and that would be the only thing i’d talk about. i didn’t want to talk about anything else except for that one thing. i don’t think any of my former friends had ill intentions, but only a few months after i had been diagnosed with adhd, there were some things that eventually started to go around between everyone. there was a kid who i knew in elementary school who also had adhd, and a lot of people knew that. i haven’t seen him since fifth grade, but my ex friends were speaking ill of this kid, and tying it into adhd. now i wasn’t exactly a fan of this guy either (he kinda bullied me in first grade) but it really annoyed me. something to know about me is that i don’t know when to shut my mouth, but i’m glad i didn’t then. i simply told them that i had adhd too, so if they’re talking bad about him for it they’re practically doing the same to me. the responses weren’t exactly fantastic (ie: that makes sense), which is why they’re all former friends, and the aftermath was worse. i was being treated differently, like i was an outcast all over again. luckily i found some better people who wanted to listen to me, and i wanted to listen to them. 

recently, i started medication to help with my anxiety, depression and adhd. for some stupid fucking reason, being medicated for mental illnesses is seen as bad. why? a very fucked up reason that i don’t quite know. my brain doesn’t produce some chemicals and shit to help keep me sane, so yeah, i’ll take some extra adrenaline and dopamine if that’ll help. if you think medication for mental illness is bad, get the fuck off my page! i’m watching that follower count too- i hope it doesn’t drop a ton after i make this post. that just means a bunch of shitheads are following me, and i don’t want you here! same goes for people who bully people for mental illness, or just bullies in general. go away!

thanks for reading my rambles on here. it means more than you’d think, and i just wanna spread the message around- THIS IS ALL OKAY. YOU ARE NOT ANY LESS OF A HUMAN BEING FOR WHAT YOU ARE DEALING WITH. ily you all, stay safe <3