Kim dokja is the only character to consistently make me tear up (be it canon or a fanfic I AM WEAK)
Just mention something troubling him and ill be like 'noooooooooooooooOOOoo not again UEUEUEU' (knowing damn well this was what i was getting myself into from the start. Like please, kdj cannot have a break it, its as if its a part of his character to secretly be miserable while having everyone around him want nothing more than a genuine smile from him (and it is (basically texbook canon), really.))
Example: I've just read 10 long(ish? I like to read idk whats long anymore TT) chapters of yjh pov just hoping kdj would stop trying to shoulder everything alone, and would stop brushing away his care like it wasnt there.... Ending with yjh finally confronting him (basically in the form of a confession but yknow, theres more going on. it was kinda painful to watch, amen) and kdj just shuting him down like "youre mistaken about your feelings" AND LIKE. MANAGING TO SLIP OUT OF YKH'S LIFE IMMEDIATELY (he ran away #typical)
Now, i know damn well kdj has been hiding many things from yjh. Even yjh knows BUT I KNOW BETTER THAN YJH. BUT EVEN IF I KNOW BETTER, SINCE ITS YJH POV, IM AS IN THE DARK AS HE IS, SO. COOL. But i just know ill be able to fucking sympathise for the squid bastard because when have i ever been able to blame kdj for anything after learning about his side of things (bro is complicated in every universe, but i love him for it UGH)
All of this to say, when the author's note (after kdj fucking being dismissive and withdrawn and running away from #looove&peaace✌️) said "I can't wait to write KDJ's POV. If it crushes everyone, then it'll be a job well done," I GOT TEARY EYED JUST FROM ANTICIPATION. And i know from experience of reading (the)orv(™) and other fics that IF THIS IS WRITTEN WELL (and until now it's been written well enough to my liking /hopeful /pos), I WILL get all emotionnal really quickly and cry at the stupidest thing just because its kim dokja and he deserves the world.
So yeah, wish me luck 👍 (both so the fic keeps being good and for my poor soul..) ty
--- the fic !
(fic is 'Surely it Was Fate' by an [Anonymous] author on ao3. Its 800k+ words and I'm only 10/105 chapters through so I am reluctant to recommend it yet, but until now its been good so im crossing my fingers for the rest lol.)
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Since you are also a fan of LU Four, I need to ask if you have a favorite headcanon.
ASDFGH HOW CAN YOU ASK ME TO PICK JUST ONE I HAVE SO MANY FOUR HEADCANONS AND I LOVE THEM ALL
SELECTED RANDOMLY:
Though Four enjoys all aspects of smithing, each of the Colours has an area that they most enjoy and do best at!
Blue - fiddly and repetitive tasks like making arrowheads and links of mail and reattaching broken pieces
Vio - complex fine detail tasks like making buckles or decorative details for commission pieces; he’s also the one who does jewellery but he complains about it
Red - the early steps in heavy shaping for armour and weaponry, hammering things into shape
Green - the finishing steps like sharpening, polishing, attaching hilts and checking balances
THANK YOU FOR ASKING - !
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do you have a discord server?
Yes I do! I have a lot actually omg .
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Updates on My Fics
So, I was initially planning on saving this for whenever it is that I finish chapter 6 of Dearly Departed, but it's occurred to me that I may as well post this here, now.
Uh, basically: I'm not writing as much as I used to.
Which is a very silly thing to say, it feels like, because before November I was writing nothing. But TGCF has really inspired me to write stuff! And I have been so touched beyond words at the response my fics have gotten. I try not to let people's opinions influence how I feel about my writing(or myself), but it's been very heartwarming.
Anyway, for the past few months I've been practicing writing every day. Up until maybe the middle of January, I was writing probably an average of 1-1.5k words a day. Which is a lot. (Dearly Departed in particular I was working on every day for like a month and a half straight.) And it felt really good, but quite frankly, it's not sustainable. I don't even mean that in a burnout way (although I did hit that with Dearly Departed, which is one of the reasons why it's been a while without an update), I just mean that I can't maintain that level of enthusiasm forever. I really like writing fic, but eventually my brain just wants to do other things. Also, I've been unemployed, which should finally be changing soon. I'm about to have a lot less time in my schedule.
So what am I saying? What's the point? Basically, I want to just put it out there that I'm not writing as much as I was before. That probably means slower updates. I'm not doing a schedule or anything, and I'm not dropping anything, but it's basic cause-and-effect, y'know?
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