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#I COMMITTED THE CARDINAL SIN OF NOT CHECKING MY GIFS FIRST ON MOBILE YET AGAIN im so...#good thing its only been 15 mins#CURSE YOU TUMBLR WHY ARE MY GIFS ALWAYS SO FUCKED UP ON MOBILE ?????#ill have to see if the size has anything to do with it#in any case. i am too tired for this tonight. mitski will have to wait til tomorrow again... sob...#if any gifmakers out there see this by any chance DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHY???#wizardofgoodfortune
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Arcane preference reacting to a s/o with a mental health issues (eating)
My disclaimer, as someone with this issue, Iâm sorry if this isnât what you wanted. Iâve actually been thinking about it for a while, but I was a bit cowardly about doing it, so Iâm taking the opportunity now. I donât want to go out of character, so Iâm sorry if some characters come across as harsher than others. Unfortunately, I know I should write the name of the illness, but if I post it that way, Tumblr will take it down.
Jayce:
- Heâs academically intelligent, but it takes him far too long to notice that somethingâs wrong. But you canât blame him, itâs something so far removed from him that he couldnât have understood it sooner.
- When he does realize, his first reaction is panic.
- Jayce canât feel like just a blade of grass; he feels emotions deeply, taking on any blame, especially if something happens to the people he loves. His first thought is that he did something to make you feel that way, inadequate.
- But once the panic phase ends, the responsibility phase begins.
- He does the grocery shopping, he cooks, and his workouts become more regular, where he has you climb onto his back while doing push-ups or holds you in his arms during other exercises.
- He doesnât know why you do it, but the quickest way to show you that your weight isnât a problem is by showing you how easily he lifts you.
- And maybe, if you feel up to it, he can hold you in his arms with one arm supporting you while he cooks, letting you taste various ingredients.
Viktor:
- Unlike Jayce, it only takes two suspicious behaviors in a row for him to understand whatâs happening. Itâs something far from his world, sure, but he recognizes it.
- And he confronts you. He doesnât beat around the bush, doesnât stammer; he might even sound angry because he doesnât understand why youâd hurt yourself like this and willingly give up your well-being.
- I wonât lie, I doubt that an open discussion about something this delicate with him wouldnât lead to at least one hysterical cry.
- But heâs not brutal for the sake of being brutal; his suffering and frustration turn into anger. It takes him a while to calm down, but he wonât accept compromises.
- Youâll have meals together at home, either returning to your rooms together or straight to the house, so no one can see you and you wonât feel bad.
- And he wonât force you, he tries to handle it with as much care as possible, but thereâs no day that goes by without him getting up from the table if you havenât eaten at least two food items per meal.
- He loves you too much to see you hurt yourself in that way, and knowing that he can't do anything about it makes him feel powerless.
Ekko:
- It takes him a weekânot to understand, but to process it.
- Having grown up in total poverty, the idea of giving up food âfor whimâ makes him react in a way that is only human.
- And the whole thing is too distant for him: everyoneâs skin is grayish, 90% of the population of the Lanes has missing limbs and monstrous prosthetics, and everyoneâs goal is to survive as long as possible. What does it mean that youâre against your own survival??
- As unsupportive as he might be regarding the issue, he becomes incredibly vigilant and concerned.
- Heâll always make sure youâre warm enough, that youâre comfortable, and no matter how frustrated he is, heâll always try to stay close to you, even just holding you in bed until you fall asleep.
- Every single comment you make about your body, heâll respond with, âDonât talk about my partner like that,âÂ
- no one can speak badly of you, not even you.
Vander:
- The most understanding: he was young once too, and although in his size meant an advantage, he and Silco snuck into various galas when they were younger, and there, even though he never had these problems, he would feel a strange sensation seeing that he was the biggest in the room or that it was hard to find someone to steal clothes from that would fit him.
- He doesnât lecture you or anything like that, he doesnât get angry despite how he grew up; he just feels sadness for you that you canât see how little that complex matters and how beautiful you already are.
- His compromise is vegetables. If you donât feel like eating every meal every day, it doesnât matter, but at least four days a week, you have to have three meals.
- And for the rest, heâll cook, making sure to prepare the best dishes made from vegetables so that you donât feel guilty and your body doesnât deteriorate.
- But he doesnât support your illness, he simply ensures that you get everything you need and never go below the necessary intake without having you feeling guilty about it.
Silco:
- Hoping that the most attentive and watchful man in the lanes wouldn't notice how, suddenly, meals go from moments of lightness to something you try to avoid at all costs is a bit foolish, but he says nothing.
- He waits for as long as necessary, basically to see how long it lasts and how much you're not planning to talk to him.
- When he realizes you wonât, not anytime soon, he waits for you to be alone in his office, where youâll find a slice of cake on his desk. Sure, itâs a low blow, but itâs also the fastest way to get you to confront the issue without too many escape routes.
- Heâs a big fan of the saying âdirty laundry is washed in the family,â so if you act strange about meals in front of others, he wonât allow questions or jokes, but in private, he wonât accept ânoâ for an answer.
- He has enough problems already without you crying from hunger pains or having psychotic episodes due to sugar deficiency, so as long as you're under his watch, under Zaun's eye, he won't let you live with unhealthy standards.
- During meals, he becomes the strictest. He doesnât say anything, but one look is enough to make you think twice about contradicting him. In the evening, though, when your mental health is most fragile, he becomes gentler, comforting you as much as you need.
Jinx:
- You find fertile ground, but like any good bearer of the same issue: she feels she can do it, but you cannot.
- Being with her or in her space becomes like a live-action version of Thumbelina: sheâll leave sweets, chocolates, things she knows you like to encourage you to eat so you canât hurt yourself.
- She usually forgets to eat herself when sheâs caught up in her studies and work, but if she has someone to care for, it doesnât matter how, sheâll make sure to remember. Even if it means setting a few colorful bombs with timers.
- She feeds you. In the most visible, worst way. Itâs easy that if you turn your head, youâll find a cookie shoved in your mouth unceremoniously.
- And every single tight-fitting outfit disappears from her lair. Magically, whatever clothes you pick up from her pile fit loosely, but if you ask her about it, sheâll claim she doesnât know what are you talking about.
Vi:
- Want to see Vi in a panic, becoming super protective and possessive in a way? Just wait for one episode, and youâll see everything you havenât seen.
- Sheâll check on you at least three times a day, and in the evening, when you have pain or a crisis, sheâll run back and forth from the room, thinking about everything she can do to help you feel better without making you feel guilty.
- During meals, sheâll hold you in her arms and insist that you eat, but not aggressivelyâin a way thatâs almost frightened: sheâs always been used to fighting big, real monsters, but even when it came to her sister, she could never defeat the invisible ones, and the fear of failing or hurting someone she loved again terrifies her in an agonizing way.
Caitlyn:
- Like Jayce, sheâll also try a more physical way of reassuring you, like body worshipping when youâre alone or working out with you to show you that your weight doesnât matter.
- She doesnât know how to react; she realizes it quite quickly but fears that by acknowledging it, she might only make you feel worse.
- One day, she gathers the courage to ask if everything is okay and tells you that sheâs noticed those behaviors. When you open up to her, telling her about the issues, she doesnât respond right away and simply hugs you.
- She becomes more caring, making sure that you donât have to attend banquets or dinners where you wouldnât feel comfortable, bringing you food in your room to eat together, and sometimes even leaving the room so as not to put pressure on you.
- When you mention a craving, she immediately springs into action to get it for you, even if you complain that you werenât serious. Once she understands how your condition works, she orders everything in three portions, so she can eat with you and then be the first to say that she wants more, asking if you want to share the third portion.
- If you have fat accumulated in any area, sheâll knead it with her hands while kissing you, to let you know that she loves every inch of you.
Mel:
- She notices you're having a crisis before you even realize it yourself.
- Sheâs a ruler, but what she learned from a young age is that a leader must appear reliable and look good, so even if unconsciously, she too sometimes experiences small crises when she feels like she isnât looking perfect.
- No conversations, no lectures, just an increase in cuddles, moments of intimacy, and later, she brings home sweets.
- âThey were a gift to me today at the council,â she lies, but sometimes she says she got them for both of you.
- She doesnât want to make you feel like youâre in the wrong.
- She knows that when youâre ready and if you want to, youâll bring up the issue with her, but for now, the best thing she can do is help you get through the episode with euphoria, love, and treats that encourage you to listen to your hunger rather than the illness.
Sevika:
- Like everyone in Zaun, the idea that someone would voluntarily give up food is simply incomprehensible to her.
- But she wonât comment on your problems. She doesnât intend to invalidate them, but she also wonât encourage it.
- âAre you sure? Thatâs a bit too little,â will be her comment when you eat something ridiculously small, before making you a proper portion of food herself. If you try to argue, sheâll respond with a smug smile, saying that if you eat that little, youâll end up breaking when youâre in bed together.
- If a crisis is particularly bad, sheâll try to finish her work as quickly as possible to be able to stay with you for the rest of the day and not leave you alone.
- As much as possible, sheâll try to get the best, freshest, and most natural food, to reassure you that you donât need to worry, but sheâll never insist that you eat if you say you donât feel up to it.
- Sheâll gesture for you to come sit on her lap and keep you there, occasionally offering you things she knows you like, telling you that sheâs really craving them, and if you want them too, sheâll go get them.
#jayce x reader#viktor x reader#ekko x reader#silco x reader#vander x reader#jinx x reader#vi x reader#caitlyn x reader#sevika x reader#mel x reader#jayce talis#viktor arcane#ekko arcane#silco arcane#arcane vander#jinx#vi arcane#caitlyn kiramman#mel medarda#sevika#arcane x reader#arcane headcanon#arcane 2#arcane writing
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How do you make your stamps? :0
Disclaimer: this is an obscenely long explanation, with pictures. Efficiency is stupid
So, for the static ones, I make a 99x56 px file on ibis paint x. Other programs are probably available online but I don't use them.
After that, I either upload an image I want to make into a stamp, or I draw one.
Then, I find a frame I want to use. Ill upload them here but let it be known I stole all of these right from deviantart
Most of them are from Lil-Devil-Melii on deviantart. The rest i have no idea. They're not all 99x56px but you can crop the canvas it's fine
Make sure to erase the edges of the picture , so they're transparent. It's not as cute otherwise
Upload those frames over your image in whatever art program you're using and viola, stamp.
For moving ones, it's a lot harder. Mostly because I refuse to download Photoshop.
There are a couple ways to do this. Some are simple animations, like with flashing text and whatnot. For these, you download the individual animation frames from your art program. Make sure it's transparent.
Then, upload each frame to ezgif.com under the option "GIF maker." You can play around with how fast each frame goes and whatnot but in the end, it'll be a stamp with some rad text that moves. This is easy, and doesn't make me want to shit my pants and cry. If you're new, do this. This is fun. This is good. This does not kill me inside
I made thatâ stamp with this method :)
this next one is how we turn gifs into stamps. This one makes me sad. It involves math and sucks. But we gotta do it. For the vibe
First, grab your gif. I'm using this cow gif because it's awesome
Then, I resize it using ezgif. Literally everything for this will be using ezgif. I am a simple man
At this point you should decide what frame to use. I'm using this one because its the first one I clicked
Figured out what size the inside of the frame is. That's what I resize the gif to, so the edges can be transparent. The inside of this one is 93x50 px, so those are the dimensions I'm making the gif.
Figure it out by putting the frame into ibis paint and realizing the canvas to fit just the inside of the frame, then seeing what the dimensions are. But there could be easier ways
Woah it's so small now
Then, still on ezgif, I go to the "crop" option.
Make sureeee to upload the smaller gif
press the button that says "extend canvas size", and then put the "width" and "height" as the dimensions for your FRAME. This'll put a bit of a transparent border around the gif. For this frame, I did 99px and 56px.
The "left" and "top" boxes show how many pixels the cropping happens from the edges of the canvas. The formula for finding that is
(width of gif / 2) - (difference between gif width and frame width / 2) = left box
For me it's (93 / 2) - (6 / 2) = 43.5
Then you do the same.for the height, which for me ends up being 22 from the top
This is reallyyy touchy and annoying though
Here's my result , with no visible difference
Okay so THEN you go to the "overlay" option, under "effects." And upload your frame. If the cropping was done right, you shouldn't have to move the frame at all and can just download it
Here's my result:
if you don't care about transparency, you can resize your gif to be the same size as the frame, and then put the frame over it. But I'm a slut for transparency
Anyways. I'm sorry if anything was unclear, it's two am. And I hope this was helpful :) these really are fun to make once you get it down
also if anyone has an easier way to make stamps from gifs, please god tell me
#web graphics#old web#neocities#custom#custom blinkies#stamps#page decor#web resources#da stamps#deviantart stamps#blinking gif#How to#tutorial#How to make stamps#Spacehey#deviantart#rentry graphics#old internet#early internet#stamp collecting#ezgif#stamp making#stamp template#Stamp frames#blinkies
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âi love you, but that dick is a plus.â â ËïœĄâàšà§â
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who in enha has the biggest dick? (hyung line only)
warnings: enha hyung line x reader (seperate !!), smut, unprotected sex, blowjobs, missionary, p in v, talks about dick sizes, dacryphilia, mdni !!
others: enjoy this for now, cause ive been losing motiv for a couple if days cs its been hectic asf đ ill post more content soon. but for now this is enough to feed yâallâs horny selves đ«¶
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lee heeseung. this man đ. heâs big alright. 6â0ft tall heâs got big hands, feet, etc. meaning to say heâs got a big dick too. 8 inches when soft, 9 1/2 when hard. i feel like he wouldnât be as thick as jay or jake. but this man is for sure long. i also bet he and jay would have big balls. heâd prolbably have shaved hairs that were slightly the same as sunghoonâs not too hairy or too shaved down. heeseung is the type to love blowjobs. sucking down on his long cock, just to have him push your head just to hear your whimper and gags. heâd like to fuck you in missionary just to watch his cock slowly go in and out of you whilst watching your teary eyed face.
park jay. heâs thick for sure. 7 inch when soft, 8 1/2 when hard. thick girth and a mushroom tip that would be an angry red type of color. the base would be a little tanner than his skin, and for his hair, i bet he shaves it every 2 weeks max. its neat and not so hairy. gotta be clean to satisfy his girl (>.<) jay would also be the type to be the softest and most loving in bed. he loves reassuring you and talking you through it. this man would also have the best aftercare. jay could also go rough and hard, only if he would be in a bad mood or jealous. (weâll discuss this soon !) overall, jay just has big dick.
sim jake. thickest. 7 1/2 inches when soft, 8 when hard. jake isnât exactly the longest. but he beats them in girth. heâs a thick boy. even just the tip inside your already stretched out so wide. his base color would be a little darker than his skin tone. he has a big tip that whenever he was hard it would be such an angry pink and constantly leak pre-cum. jake would not have any hairs at all. poor baby always feels so guilty whenever he sees you in tears as soon as an inch of his dick stretches you out. always shushing you and reassuring that the pain would be gone.
park sunghoon. i feel like he would be the biggest. a positive, 8 1/2 inch when soft. a solid 9 when hard. sunghoon would most like be the one to know his dick the best, and also use it correctly. his dick is girthy with a usual peachy color on his tip. the base color would be a the same color as his usual skin, and he would most likely have a neat shave, something like the hair still being there but at the same time itâs not too bushy. sunghoon would also have some best dick game. there is never a time you wonât be pleasured after being with him. he would also most likely HATE wearing condoms. unless that is, you want him to. anything for his girl <3 but for me i think he wouldnât really like it cs he wants you to feel every inch and vein of him pulse inside you :0
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yall ive been busy this is all i could come up w rn. its not my best work, but ive just been too lazy. iâll do better soon đ
#ellaâs thoughts â ËïœĄâàšà§â#enhypen#jake sim#enhypen jake#sunghoon hard thoughts#enhypen x reader#sim jaeyun#lee heeseung smut#lee heesung x reader#lee heeseung#park jay#park jeongseong#jay enhypen#jay smut#sunghoon smut#sunghoon x reader#enhypen smut#smut
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Embarrassed?
Tom sat there staring down at his phone, typing like his life depended on it.
"if this is true I will literally trade anything to get bigger, you can make me a dumb jock, make my dick small, Ill even take being a walking joke, you can take anything you like so long as I can get huge!"
He had stumbled upon a site called "give'n'take" which was claiming that it would allow him to trade something he currently has for something he wanted. He had seen claims from guys claiming to of turned into their dream self over night by giving up something that they never really liked about themselves anyway.
But it was Hard for Tom to pick something he wanted to give up, he had almost won the genetic lottery in his eyes. A fat nine inches down stairs, 6.5ft tall, a good amount of body hair, not enough to be annoying but enough to drive guys wild. Everything had made him a walking stud that oozed confidence with every step. All but one thing that is. Tom had loved bodybuilding ever since he could remember, he loved the look of huge guys and he loved the idea of being one, but on his 23rd birthday he looked in the mirror and saw after years of work he looked nothing like a bodybuilder. sure he had some size but there was no real mass. He just looked like a guy who played sport on the weekend. He wanted to be so much bigger. He got hard imagining himself being the guy who had to turn sideways to get through a door or who rocked up to a house party in gym shorts and an XXL stringer tank top that clung to him like it was about to snap. Unfortunately his height was against him, his long muscle fibers took ages to develop and when they did it was so evenly spread out it didn't look like he had done anything at all.
He'd do anything to be bigger, he'd be happy with anything taken away so long as he was huge. So he left the choice up to the people behind the screen.
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The next morning Tom woke up and instantly felt strange, he felt off balance some how like his body had gone up 30 pounds over night and when he got up and looked in the mirror he realised...it had.
"HOLY SHIT" Tom yelled out into his empty apartment.
His body had beefed up and become more defined without any more work. He couldn't worship himself for long though as he instantly began investigating to see what had been taken, but it didn't appear like anything was missing at all.
He was still packing, he hadn't shrunk in fact he might of even gained an inch or two and he didn't have any issues remembering anything from his engineering degree or any day to day stuff. The thought crossed his mind that maybe they had forgotten to take something, or maybe because he wanted to be big so badly they cut him a break.
Tom's worries melted away as he smiled and flexed his newly enhanced biceps.
"mmm, not as huge as I was hoping for but I'll keep working on it"
Tom picked up his gym bag and decided to head out to see what his new size could do, and to stick to the habit, he didn't want all this new size to make him forget to work out and end up losing it all in a few months.
Tom arrived at the gym and changed into his workout gear but he looked and felt different was he...bigger? nah, he thought to himself, its just him getting used to being this big although as he stared at his new size in his reflection a new thought entered his mind.
"Maybe this tank top is too tight...I probably shouldn't be such a show off and buy some looser clothes to cover up"
He shook his head and decided to think about it when he got home, right now he just wanted to see how strong he had gotten.
As Tom worked out something weird was happening, he knew how to exhaust his muscle, he new how to overload the weight and really make it feel like work but as he added weight with each set it felt just as easy as the last.
He'd occasionally see his reflection in the mirror wall and he looked like he was getting even bigger, and his tank top felt even tighter than before. Surely it was just the pump he thought to himself as he continued to lift and push his body.
He sat down at the cable row and put the pin almost at the bottom of all the plates, surely this would be a struggle for him. Tom leant back and pulled when suddenly.
Cutcshhhhhhh!
the sound of ripping fabric rung out in his ear as he felt the shoulder strap snap and felt the fabric split across his back.
"aw shit" Tom said as he stood up and took of his shirt.
Immediately he saw his reflection in the mirror, he looked huge. His muscles bulging he couldn't help but pull his gym shorts up and flex, this is what he wanted to be an absolute tank...
but, everyone probably thought he was a dickhead flexing outside of the changing room, he thought to himself. He started to wonder if he was that guy now, the guy who'd workout shirtless and annoy everyone in the gym.
He noticed a few dudes looking at him like they were waiting to get on the machine. His face turned a slight pink on his cheeks and he was flushed with embarrassment.
"oh s-sorry" Tom stuttered as he quickly tried to move out the way
Originally he thought he'd just move on to the next exercise but he realised he was shirtless and bolted for the changing room. Once inside he gazed at his reflection again.
"maybe...I shoulda asked to be just a little smaller, fuck now I gotta walk outta here shirtless"
Tom couldn't get a grip and didn't no what had come over him. He had never felt a shred of embarrassment in his life but now he was worried what people would think about him being shirtless in the gym.
The changing room was empty and Tom took the time for a few more poses before he was gonna make a run for the exit. He flexed his arms as hard as he could and felt the blood rushing into the muscle, but it was strange, the muscle wasn't just pumped up, it was like it was still pumping up. He tilted his head and watch in the mirror, slowly but surely his shoulders and arms were expanding, his chest was filling with mass and size. He saw his already huge legs slowly expanding out into colossal pillars as they stretched his shorts. He could hear the fabric starting to strain and quickly bend down to get his gym bag.
The moment he leant over he heard the changing room echo with a large tearing sound as he felt the tightness relieve across his ass. Tom's face turned bright red as he quickly reaches around to make sure it was just the shorts he had split and not his underwear.
He let out a sigh of relief as he felt his underwear was still in tact, he stood up and took a step hearing has his massive thighs tore and split his shorts with just one step. He was almost at the door when he saw his hulking figure in the mirror.
He stood frozen admiring his huge body, he flexed his entire body at once loving how huge he had become, he noticed his underwear was straining and the fabric was starting to become see through and then he remembered....he had to walk through the gym like this to get out....
A wave of embarrassment washed over him, everyone was gonna be staring at him
Tom quickly grabbed his bag and made a break for it through the busy gym. He had hoped to run but his body was so big that was almost an impossible task, so jogging was next but even just a slight jog left him out of breath and gasping for air. By the time he reached the door he had multiple people staring at him confused as he was huffing and puffing like he had just run a marathon.
He swung open the door to the gym and bumped between two guys that were on their way in. Tom tried to apologise but the only noises that came out were him gasping for air and trying to catch his breath. He flashed a quick apology wave as he climbed into his car which was luckily parked right in front of the entrance.
Tom looked down trying to slow his breathing and catch his breath when he noticed his huge hard on. His dick was like steel, the thought of everyone staring at him....judging him....
Tom started his car trying to ignore it but he heard the two guys he had just bumped into talking, muffled by his window.
"bro did you see that guy, there is just a thing as too big"
Hearing those worse Tom felt a swirl of shame and embarrassment swell in his stomach and work its way to his pelvis as he started taking deep and slow breaths.
"I know right dude, and the way he was so out of breath just walking through the gym, and working out in his underwear? what a loser"
the two men walking into the gym laughing as the door shut behind them
The words echoed in Tom's ears, he couldn't help it, he gripped his steering wheel so tight he thought he was going to break it, he bit his lip and closed his eyes as his dick began to twitch and erupt. Tom let out a pathetic moan as he looked down to see not just his underwear soaked but his car seat and thighs caked in cum.
Tom looked into his rear view mirror, his head, traps and shoulders completely blocking the view, his face was flush as he felt more embarrassed than ever before in his life, He started his car and quickly reversed out.
"god...I'm such..."
His dick instantly got hard again.
"fuck, I'm so big....I'm...too big"
Tom started panting as he drove out of the parking lot.
"I'm a fucking big, freakish, loserrrr--eerruuuuughh!!"
Tom couldn't help unload himself into his underwear and over his car seat thinking about how pathetic he was...
Well...he did say he was happy for them to take anything, His confidence seemed like a fair price.
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I can't stop thinking munch!spencer x reader who's insecure about having thick thighs (it's me, I'm reader)
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hi thank u for requesting!! i tried to be ambiguous about readerâs size but if it doesnât come across that way lemme know and ill fix it!!!
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cw: 18+ smut minors dni, afab reader, face sitting, munch!spencer my beloved, insecure!reader who i took to be a little self indulgent sorry, fluff, hurt comfort but no hurt lol
this is also not proofread sorry
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the thing about spencer is if you have any fear or qualm about anything, his main verbal form of comfort is information. and itâs not a bad thing, not at all. finding comfort in the facts is what spencer hopes to achieve when he spews his tidbits. itâs just, sometimes itâll do more harm than good, or even worse, do nothing at all.
thatâs where youâre at right now, sitting in spencerâs room with your legs tucked under you while he sits up at the head of the bed. the top buttons of his dress shirt are undone, tie strewn somewhere in the room. youâre still fully clothed albeit in a loose t shirt and some panties. the want in his eyes is undeniable, his question still lingering in the air.
you werenât exactly the most confident person, but was anyone really? did people really wake up in the morning, look at themselves in the mirror and say, âwow, i look beautiful today.â? tell themselves theyâre going to have a good day because they said so?
so when youâd spent your whole life living in the shadows trying to blend in and just do your job, one day an ever observant spencer reid saw you struggling to carry your coffee and your bag into the bullpen and came to your rescue before it could spill all over you. you were a mumbling mess, uttering thank youâs and iâm so sorrys and iâll be more careful next time. but his gaze on you was unwavering, even in the face of your uneasiness, and firmly but softly told you nothing was wrong, and suggested that maybe you and him should get coffee before work to avoid this rush next time.
falling in love with him was too easy after that.
spencer never failed to make you feel cherished, loved, safe, always going above and beyond to care for your needs and wants. the trust you had in him was immense and you knew he would never steer you astray.
so sitting in front of him on his bed while he adorns a small smirk asking, no telling, you to sit on his face, made you falter a bit.
âyou want me, to sit on your face?â
he nods, âyeah.â
any thought youâve ever had vanishes from your brain, âbâbut, wonât it be uncomfortable? for you?â
ânot at all.â
seeing spencer be surprisingly calm about this is having the opposite effect on you, creating the unsettlement in your gut. like heâs been thinking about this for while, has wanted you at his mercy in a way you havenât experienced before, has thought through all the facts and possibilities and ruled with absolute certainty that this was what he wanted, needed. and right now your body is betraying your mind as the heat pools between your legs.
but that brain of yours, a blessing with its vast knowledge but a curse at how easily a single thought can send you into a deep spiral, is working overtime to convince you that this isnât really what he wants.
he can see the cogs working overtime and scoots closer to you and places a comforting hand on your thigh to rub soothing shapes with his thumb, âwhatâs going on in that pretty little head of yours?â
ânothing i-â you stop before you can get too deep.
his eyes look at you expectantly, luring you to continue.
âwhat if i hurt you?â
âthat is literally impossible.â
âwhat if i suffocate you?â
âthen that would be a great way to go out.â he chuckles.
you lightly slap his leg, âstop that.â
he gestures you closer to sit curled into his side, a comforting arm smoothing you up and down. âif you really donât want to do it thatâs okay i donât want to push you, just want you to feel good sâall.â
you ponder for a minute, ââŠyou would tell me if itâs too much right?â
âi would,â he nods, âbut i wonât need to.â
he squeezes your hand in reassurance, and you remember that spencer reid would never lie to you.
which is why you say, âokay.â
his eyes light up like a carnival, âyeah?â
you take a deep breath, âyeah.â
âcome here,â cupping your cheek to bring in and kiss you.
it starts off slow, deliberate. like he wants you to know how much he appreciates you placing your trust in his possession, and how gently and carefully heâs going to take care of it.
you hike a leg over his lap to straddle him and wrap your arms around his neck, letting his lips mark you like a road map. he moves down your jaw and uses his nose to nudge your neck away, giving him better access to litter the skin with love bites.
the moans spilling from your mouth spur him on, he starts subconsciously bucking his hips up causing you to grow restless for more.
he senses this and motions for you to lift up on your knees above him so he can slide his body down flat between your legs. the warm palms of his hands rest where your thighs meet the swell of your ass.
you look down at the sight of him laid out for you, and catch his shit eating grin staring back. the dichotomy this position gives you with a sense of power to be over him like this but the vulnerability at feeling so exposed caused a swirl of emotions for you.
âhey,â he squeezes his palms laid on your ass, âif this is a lot, thatâs okay.â
âno, no.i think i want this. iâm just scared.â you softly admit.
ânothing to be scared of, angel. itâs not like i havenât eaten you out before, itâs just a different position,â his hands move closer to your core, âlet me make you feel good, please.â
you stare into his eyes once more, being met with nothing but trust and lust for you. with a deep breath, you nod your head.
he smirks again, âalright sweetheart, take a seat.â
you slowly inch your body up his own, hearing him outwardly groan as your cunt came into his line of sight.
âjesus fuck, you have the prettiest pussy.â
you preen at his words once youâve reached the position, and you hover in hesitation. he wraps his arms under and around your legs and gently pulls you down.
and he attacks you like a man starved. his tongue licking a full stripe up your cunt, letting it swirl around your clit. the feeling is so intense in this position you have to lean forward and brace yourself on the headboard.
with a gasp you whine out his name, âoh my god, fuck.â he continues to use his tongue to barrel you towards your peak, knowing exactly where to touch and lick to rile you up.
he can tell youâre still holding back, feeling the tense muscles in your upper thighs harden under his touch. with a sharp tug he pulls you to be seated fully on his face, and he lets out a deep groan that vibrates through your whole body.
youâre fully at his mercy now, held down by his large hands and his mouth working so hard to make you see stars. the pleasure is overtaking all of your senses, when you look down to meet his eyes theyâre staring right back at you, reveling in your ecstasy. a languished moan leaves you as you tangle your hands in his hair and pull.
he laps up your arousal with urgency, tongue moving in such a delicate and intricate way you would think heâs writing a love letter with it.
the coil in your gut starts to tighten and you can feel your peak coming fast, âspenceâŠâ you whine.
he hums in response, silently acknowledging what you mean. one more slow lick up and down your slit was all it took to push you overboard. the endorphins rush over you like a tsunami as you try to ride out the wave of your orgasm.
spencer doesnât stop his motions and continues to work your overly sensitive clit, gripping your legs tighter to him as he prevents you from escaping.
âshit, oh god baby, you need to stâstop.â you brokenly moan out. you tug on his hair hard as you try to release his grip on you, and after a few minutes he takes pity and lets you go.
you let out a big and tired sigh as you flop to the side of him, one leg still draped over him as youâre both panting heavily, attempting to come down from the heat of the moment.
he smoothes out the leg over him with his hand and turns to face you, face plastered with a stupid grin and glistening with you.
âsee? that wasnât so bad.â
you scoff breathlessly, âi think maybe youâre trying to kill me.â
âmaybe,â he laughs, â but you liked it right?â
you nod bashfully, âdid youâŠlike it?â
his eyes widen, âare you kidding? you looked so hot it drove me insane. youâre always so beautiful but having you like thatâŠi like making you feel good, it makes me feel really good, and that is a win-win.â
you smile at him and move closer to fit under his arm and into his side, your hand resting on his chest. he tightens his arm around you and whisper, âi love you.â
âi love you too,â you say through hooded eyes. your hand starts trailing lower, âmust have been really good for you seeing how painful this looks.â you softly say, gesturing to the aching bulge in his boxers, the dark patch stained by precum.
his breath hitches as you inch closer, âbaby, no itâs okay. you donât have to do thââ the sentence gets cut off when your hand gives him a tentative squeeze.
âi donât have to, but i want to. i should thank you somehow for making me feel so good,â your voice dropping an octave in lust, âwill you let me show my thanks, honey?â
you stare at him with the sultriest doe eyes heâs ever seen, and heâs thoroughly convinced in that moment that you are, in fact, trying to kill him.
still a great way to go out, he thinks.
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triple-dog dare | lsm
âBambi.â
The sternness of his tone surprised both of you, so much so that when you snapped to look at him, both of you froze. Your moon-sized eyes were further proof that your childhood nickname still rings true to date, although your being the deer made him the oncoming car in this scenario.Â
He didnât love that analogy.
Recovering quickly, he pulled the Ace from his sleeve: the surefire way for one of you to get the other onboard:
âI triple-dog dare you to come with me.â
pairing: lee seokmin x reader summary: when you're left off the guest list to seokmin's parent's thirtieth anniversary party, you're content to keep your questions to yourself and stay home. seokmin, on the other hand, is not content. in fact, he pulls the one card he knows will always win. au: childhood best friends to lovers genre: fluff, angst, smut type: one-shot rating: 18+ only. minors do not have my consent to interact. wc: 13k cw: pov switches, complicated sibling dynamics (seokminâs), there is in fact one (1) bed, halmonis gone wild, stupid childhood nicknames, fingering (v), oral sex (m receiving), multiple orgasms, implied penetrative sex (p in v). reader notes: afab, uses she/her pronouns, wears a dress/heels to the party, is implicitly an only child. the setting is intentionally ambiguous, so she's not implicitly korean and/or asian. there are no descriptions of body shape/size, complexion, etc. a/n: thank you to the incomparable @daechwitatamic for beta-ing this! it's been a long damn time since i've written anything, so this might not have seen the light of day without jo, the hype-man. on that note, i suck at summaries; just read the fic, lmao. svt masterlist. svt permanent taglist. multi permanent taglist.
For being the walking disaster that he is, there have been shockingly few moments in Lee Seokminâs life where heâs needed to shove his oversized foot into his oversized mouth.
Prior to the incident at your apartment, the last time heâd embarrassed himself like this was when heâd asked his oldest sister, Soyeon, in earnest whether or not she was pregnant, only to learn that she was just bloated; and heâs just an ass.
To your credit, youâre far from cruel when he slips up, but that almost makes it worse. You visibly deflate when he asks his well-intentioned but ill-fated question, rather than letting him have it the way his two siblings would have done.
The day in question went like this:
He asked, âDid you reserve your room yet for the 31st? If not, we can double up. Itâll be a lot cheaper.â
And you blinked, stunned like youâd been slapped. âHave I what?â
It dawned on you both at that moment that, for whatever reason, his parentsâ thirtieth anniversary party was in fact news to you. Two things then happened at once: you tried to hide your surprise and the twinge of pain that comes with being excluded; and he racked his stupid brain to find any explanation for why you had to feel either one of those things.
The best option he found was to gently toss his middle sister, Seonmi, under the metaphorical bus.Â
âSeonmiâs been working on something special for them. You know how she gets,â he waved dismissively. âSo obsessed with finding the perfect napkins â â He wiggled his fingers for emphasis. ââ and creating custom cocktails, that she misses the forest for the trees.â
You didnât look convinced. Likewise, you didnât look any less uncomfortable.
Fuck.
âIâm sure it was an honest mistake.â To drive his point home, he reached from his spot on your couch to give your knee a reassuring squeeze. âI have a plus-one, so itâs not like itâll be a logistical problem. You belong there as much as we do.â
And he meant it, wholeheartedly.Â
All his life, the running joke has been that Soonyi and Minseok Lee have four kids: two biological daughters, a younger son, and his otherwise unrelated twin, who spent more time sleeping on his top bunk than in her own home next door.Â
The way he saw it â and the way heâs sure his parents would see it â is that no family gathering is complete without you. Thatâs a hill heâd die on if need be.
You shifted in your seat, which caused his hand to slip off your knee, whether or not you meant for it to happen. Glancing uneasily out your window, you worried your bottom lip between your teeth, mumbling, âI donât knowâŠâ
Seokmin frowned. You didnât see it, though, and therefore werenât moved by it. Instead, you cycled through your anxious thoughts at high velocity. If he was still touching you, heâd be worried that your sparking brain might catch him on fire.
âWhat if itâs not a mistake? I mean, what if itâs a couples thing?âÂ
He couldnât even classify these questions as rhetorical because he wasnât meant to hear them in the first place. Though you asked out loud, each one of them was for your ears only. From his half of the couch â miles away â his frown deepened, unbeknownst to you.
âYou know, Seonmi follows me on Instagram; sheâd know that Kai and I broke up a few months ago. Maybe she doesnât want me to feel awkward? Even if I went, and I didnât feel weird about that, her expecting it to be weird might make it weird, right?â
Fuck.
Youâd spiral all day if Seokmin didnât stop you. As much as he loves how thoughtful you are, he knows better than most that you have a tendency to take it too far, inflicting that relentless consideration on yourself until it wounds.Â
âBambi.â
The sternness of his tone surprised both of you, so much so that when you snapped to look at him, both of you froze. Your moon-sized eyes were further proof that your childhood nickname still rings true to date, although your being the deer made him the oncoming car in this scenario.Â
He didnât love that analogy.
Recovering quickly, he pulled the Ace from his sleeve: the surefire way for one of you to get the other onboard:
âI triple-dog dare you to come with me.â
Begrudgingly, youâd conceded, just like Seokmin hoped you would. You sat with him while he figured out travel plans to the mountain resort, helped him visualize what the hell he needed to wear to an event like this. When the time came, you sent him half the cost for the room he booked, even though he repeatedly insisted that you didnât need to chip in.
Now, that unsolicited sum sits untouched in his Venmo balance. You sit next to him on the night train out of town.
Sit, he thinks, is a bit of an understatement. Youâre barely upright, so exhausted from your work day that his shoulder and side are bearing most of your weight. His arm went from tingling to numb an hour ago, but Seokmin doesnât mind. There isnât a burden he wouldnât carry for you, up to and including you yourself.
Besides, heâs not worse off for being left to his own devices. In fact, he keeps himself thoroughly entertained by taking selfies of the pair of you. The aftermath will stay securely in his camera roll â largely because youâd kill him if you saw how squishy your face is, pressed against his coat, or how your little pout trembles slightly, almost as if youâre trying to talk through your sleep â but he still finds it worth the risk. This mochi-cheeked version of you is one of his favorites.
When Seokmin has amassed enough silly photos to comprise a dossier, he tucks his phone back into his pocket with a self-satisfied smile. Youâre still out cold, so you donât stir at his subtle movements or the sound of the concession trolley rattling your way down the aisle.
The girl manning said trolley is significantly outweighed by the thing itself. She hardly looks old enough to have graduated high school, he figures, and he canât imagine how it is that sheâs working at this hour â or how she got stuck doing this job, when it takes all sheâs got to maneuver the giant metal contraption through all the train cars.
âAnything, sir?â She asks politely, albeit slightly out-of-breath.Â
Even though sheâs speaking to him, her gaze is directed squarely at his hat, leading him to believe that she may also be too shy for her job. Nonetheless, itâs been two entire hours since his dinner, and heâs on the brink of starving to death, so he coughs up a few bills in exchange for several different snacks.Â
She could do him the kindness of assuming his massive pile of food is for sharing, but she doesnât. She gestures to you and whispers, âAnything for your â?â
Seokmin intercepts the question, knowing exactly where itâs headed: in the same direction as the million others like it that heâs heard over the years.Â
ââ parole officer?â He supplies with a smile, âNo, this nap is fueled by a lot of crab rangoon. Sheâll be out for the duration, I fear.â
Both halves of his response seem to stun her, which means he has to cover his inevitable laugh with a fake cough.Â
This bit of yours will truly never get old, although the implications that prompt it did a long time ago. It was a stroke of genius on your part, dodging inaccurate references to your relationship status by offering up something too absurd to converse around.
âYou two make such a cute couple,â an Uber driver once told you.
âHeâs not in a relationship,â youâd politely corrected him. âHeâs in witness protection. Iâm duty-bound to keep him and his identity safe.â
The silence turns awkward, so Seokmin thanks the girl and gives her a smile he hopes says, âyouâre allowed to run away from me now; I wonât take it personally.â She bows her head a little too eagerly, then skitters off with a grimace, like she pulled something in her neck.
Alone again with you, he wiggles gently upright in his seat so that you can rest more comfortably against his pectoral, rather than his shoulder bone. Even though youâre still asleep, Seokmin swears he hears a quiet mmpfh, as if youâre expressing gratitude. He bites his lips to keep from smiling, knowing that smiling in your proximity is one step away from laughter: the only thing youâve never been able to sleep through.
Instead of giving into the urge, he murmurs, âYou should get paid royalties whenever we use that joke. Being as smart as you are should pay off.â
Now, he knows heâs not simply hearing things because youâre just barely loud enough to overcome your own mumbling.Â
âAgreed,â you sigh on an exhale before slipping to sleep off again.
âWell?âÂ
There are two beats between his first question and his next: the unfilled gap youâve left in the conversation and the cabâs trunk shutting firmly. ââs that cool with you?â
Seokmin stares at you, staring at him. His expression is soft, like your lack of responsiveness is something to be fond of, rather than annoyed by. Itâs unexpectant, too, leaving the door wide open.
You blink. âSorry â I â What did you say?âÂ
Hitting him when he least expects it, you shift your suitcase from your dominant hand so you can gesture properly to the bright, poorly crocheted bucket hat flopping over his forehead. âItâs a bit hard to hear you. That hat is so loud.â
His quizzically raised eyebrows drop in an instant. Likewise, that airy smile of his flattens into a straight line.Â
Bullseye.
âIs it me that you hate?â He asks, tone dead serious as he points his finger towards his own chest. âOr is it the very concept of whimsy?â
Youâre too busy biting back a grin to protest when, without being asked, Seokmin reaches out and takes the handle of your suitcase into his own hand, as well as the garment bag youâd draped over your arm. Before turning away to abscond with both sets of luggage in addition to his own, he shoots you an incredulous look. It dissolves entirely before his face even disappears from view.Â
âThis is an objectively delightful hat,â he mutters, nonetheless, in furtherance of the bit.
He spots a member of hotel staff standing on the sidewalk directly outside the hotelâs double doors and pleads his case to them. âShe made me this hat, you know,â he announces, gesturing back to you with a nod.
The valetâs uniform hat casts a shadow under the lamplight, but it doesnât do enough to hide the expression on their face. It is abundantly clear â even in the dark â that they didnât hear a single word Seokmin said before he offered up that bit of trivia, seemingly apropos of nothing. They muster up a customer-service smile that doesnât reach their eyes and tell him itâs a wonderful hat. Meanwhile, you roll your eyes from behind because nothing either of them just said is true.
That hat is the byproduct of delusions of grandeur and innumerable skeins of color-conflicting yarn. You made it for yourself, believing that you were the kind of cute and kitschy person who could pull it off; and inconsolable weeping Christ, were you wrong. It was â no, is â your greatest fiber arts failure.
Frankensteinâs floral monster would be in a secondhand shop somewhere if youâd had any say in the matter. It isnât because you didnât. Seokmin ârescuedâ it from the âto donateâ pile on your bedroom floor. Since then, heâs worn it at every â public â opportunity, season be damned.
Admittedly, heâs exactly the kind of cute and kitschy person who can pull it off, but youâve decided out of sheer pettiness to keep that appraisal to yourself.
You take your time catching up to him, both because his long legs make it hard to keep pace; and because the room is reserved under his name. After all, heâs the welcomed guest, not the reluctant party-crasher. The receptionist is already handing him a white keycard when you finally reach the desk. Seokmin holds it up between his index and middle fingers, closed-eye grin sparkling in a matching shade of ivory.
Though the journey up to your shared room is long, the real trip is being confined to an elevator with mirrors for walls.Â
No matter how hard you try to avert your eyes, you manage to keep finding some new, horrible angle of your stale, post-train state. Itâs torture. Three versions of you stare back with deep, dark undereye circles; and all you can think about is how dull your complexion is â especially in comparison to Seokmin, who may as well be bioluminescent with the way he glows from the inside out.
Itâs joy, you know, his primary state of being and something he radiates like no other. Heâs happy to be here, happy that youâre here, and happy to be happy. Whether or not he means it to be, itâs infectious. Now, you feel yourself starting to smile, too.
Despite your quiet observation, you must have missed him looking at you. Seemingly out of nowhere, he carefully sets down your belongings, raises his now-empty hand, and cups the right side of your jaw. Unaware that youâve frozen solid, he swipes his thumb carefully over your cheek, tilting his own head to the side and frowning.
âI got you bad, huh?â
You blink.
âThe zipper on my coat,â he explains, laughing. âLooks like it took a bite out of you when you used me as a pillow on the train.â
For reasons you canât possibly explain, the only word to roll off your tongue is a sheepish, âSorry.â
For a second, Seokmin is just as confused as you are about whether youâre needlessly apologizing to him or his coat. He chuckles quietly at how easily distracted you both are, then he gets back to the point: âDoes it hurt?â
âNo.âÂ
Your response comes unnaturally quick. Your pulse does, too, when you finally make eye contact with him. After clearing your throat, you give him a half-hearted smile, ignoring whatever medical event you seem to be experiencing. âI didnât know it was there until now.â
He hums in acknowledgment, then rescinds his hand. You watch in silence while he re-encumbers himself with your luggage and turns back to face the elevator doors, which open almost immediately.
Seokmin steps out easily, like the weight of your respective burdens doesnât mean a thing. âIâd say this way, please, but Iâve already forgotten the room number,â he admits with a sheepish laugh. âThe keycardâs in my pocket.â
You take his cue and reach into the front, right pocket of his coat for the keycard. As soon as you see the room number, you snort.
âYou booked room number 218 because thatâs your birthday, and then⊠what? You forgot your own birthday?âÂ
âIâm deeply flawed.â He sighs, put-upon. âNow, letâs go, Bambi. It feels like you packed a weekâs worth of bricks.â
Thereâs no time to point out that you never asked him to carry your suitcase or bag for you in the first place. Likewise, thereâs no opportunity to ask exactly how many bricks is a weekâs worth. Heâs on the move again before you can blink, energy evident in each step regardless of how late it is.
Once again, you follow Seokminâs lead. Despite the signage, which is clearly visible on the wall, he walks confidently in the wrong direction, prompting you to grab him gently by the elbow and steer him the opposite way. His smile doesnât falter; he plays it off as if he was just testing how closely youâre paying attention.Â
It takes several turns down several additional hallways before the pair of you reach your target. When you come to room 218, you tap the keycard against the reader, causing the lock to click open. You turn the handle, push the door open into the room, and step awkwardly out of the way so your personal bellhop can get by.
âThis is what I was trying to tell you when you so viciously insulted my favorite accessory.â Seokmin nods his head towards the center of the room. âAll of the rooms Seonmi included in the reservation block have a king-sized bed â singular. The rooms outside the block are criminally overpriced for ski season.â
Itâs far from the first time youâve doubled up, so you shrug. âJust like old times, right? Like, when you thought your house was haunted, and you forced your way into the top bunk with me?â
âFirst of all,â he says as he sets both of your suitcases down and places one hand on his hip, the other pointing at you. âWe were six.â
After locking the door behind you, you toe off your shoes, smirking at him from over your shoulder. âWhatâs your second point?â
âIt was haunted ââ He insists. Then his stern expression melts into something smug, the way it always does when heâs about to blatantly rewrite history. ââ and you asked me to come up there because you were scared.â
A laugh slips out of you automatically, but you selflessly decide to let him have this. Crossing to him, you pat him on the bicep, patronizingly simpering all the while, âYou are the brave one.â
Even though youâre both cowards, and he knows it, he pockets this little victory with a pleased hum and a grin.
Turning away from him, you make a beeline for the closet area near the door. There, you shuck off your coat and hang it up, out of the way. While you do, Seokmin passes you both your garment bag and his. From there, the pair of you work in efficient silence: you, pulling your respective formal wear from their bags and smoothing out any wrinkles; him, tucking away your extensive collection of toiletries in the bathroom.
When everything is in its place, you turn back around and notice for the first time how beautiful the room actually is. Though the shades of the floor-to-ceiling windows are almost completely drawn, the snow-covered mountains are at least partially visible through the gap in fabric. If you had the time, youâd spend all day tomorrow sitting on the forest green, velvet chaise directly in front of the window, staring at frosty peaks so massive, they feel close enough to touch.
To your right, an electric fireplace heats the room, while a portrait-framed television hovers on the wall above the mantle, flipping through famous artworks as a screensaver. In between flashes of Van Goghâs Almond Blossoms and Klimtâs The Kiss, you catch a glimpse of Seokminâs smile reflecting on the black screen.
Awestruck, you turn to him and sigh, âDonât let me get used to this.â
He jerks his thumb to his right, gesturing towards the bathroom. âDonât judge me if I steal one of the bathrobes. Theyâre probably more expensive than half the shit in my apartment.â
âI wonât, but theyâll bill you for it when they figure it out,â you warn him. âOn that note, do you need to shower or anything before I start my skincare side quest?â
Seokmin shakes his head, causing the crocheted abomination to flop. âAll yours. My hairâll get weird if I donât deal with it tomorrow before we head out.â
And with that mental image of his insurmountable cowlick, you quickly grab your pajamas and shuffle off towards the bathroom.
The first few seconds after you close the door are spent gawking at the insanely intricate, geometric tile pattern in the walk-in shower. Thinking of how much time it mustâve taken to lay each one of them, you set to work on your own tedious task: your ten-step regimen of cleansers, toners, serums, and moisturizers. Seokmin says otherwise, but you donât think any of them truly make a difference. As stupid as you know it is, the routine itself is therapeutic, even if your skin is no more bouncy and glowy than it was before.
When itâs all said and done, you emerge from the bathroom to find your best friend stretched out on the half of the bed nearest the door with his eyes fixed on his phone screen. Itâs the side of the room he always chooses, claiming that itâs to protect you from any intruders, but you know the truth: heâs too much of a freeze baby to sleep near the window, and he knows you like it cold.
âFeeling refreshed?â He mumbles to the best of his ability; his sweatshirt hood is pulled up and drawn so tightly that it squishes his cheeks and chin, restricting his movement.
Chuckling quietly as you go, you pad over to your half of the bed and slip under the comforter. Like a moth to a flame, the other occupant sends his last text, tosses his phone to the side, and scoots closer to you, eager to siphon whatever extra body heat he can. His head winds up on your shoulder, while your cheek rests against the top of his head.
âBefore you tell me that I look it, Iâd encourage you to stare long into the abyss that is my under-eye circles.â
When he laughs, itâs merely a puff of air from his nose. âYou never look as tired as you feel,â he says distractedly, fiddling with the drawstrings of his hoodie. âPretty miraculous, given how little sleep you get.â
That comment warms you up so thoroughly, you wonder if he can feel it. Then, you wonder if that was the point. You intend to tease him for that, but then it dawns on you how fidgety heâs being. Itâs rare for him.
âYou okay, Thumper?â
It feels silly, using that nickname after so long. Your clumsiness stuck around for the ride, continuing Bambi into perpetuity; but he grew out of his companion name when he hit puberty, and his giant feet were suddenly proportional to the rest of him.Â
Heâs certainly no bunny, nor is he a child, but the low ebb of anxiety rolling off of him reminds you of the scared little neighbor boy you used to know. It fits, even if it is silly.
At first, Seokmin begins his explanation without peeling his gaze off his restless fingers. âApparently, Seungcheol and Mingyu are in town.â Then, his eyes slowly lift up to find you peering down at him. âThey want to meet up to go snowboarding before we leave.â
Ah.
There it is: the top-secret look in his eye that only you can decipher. The one heâs been practicing for years, at your insistence, for moments like this, when he needs to be talked into something. When he needs to be brave and avoid missing out on something heâd love, solely because it freaks him out.
You respond the same way you always have; the way you once pinky-promised you always would: âI triple-dog dare you.â
He sighs deeply, neither fully resigned nor relieved, but then he nods. His head knocks slightly against your shoulder as he does. âIâll do it.â
And thatâs that; itâs settled.
Or so you think.
A beat passes in silence, until Seokmin suddenly pipes up again, âBut youâre going to have to hold my hand on the chair lift, or Iâll pass out and fall to my death.â
âDeal.âÂ
You grab his hand now in consideration of your promise and scratch affectionately at his palm. Surprisingly, his thoughts havenât made him clammy. His skin is even softer than usual, likely due to the expensive hotel lotion heâs undoubtedly now harboring in his suitcase. Tongue firmly in cheek, you look at him sideways.Â
âJust â leave the hat in your suitcase, okay? The snow will be blinding enough.â
Seokminâs been dressed and ready for at least thirty minutes, but youâre still standing exactly where you have been for the last forty-five. Face pinched, you turn this way and that in front of the mirror, smoothing fabric thatâs already wrinkle-free, apparently for the hell of it.
âIâm oh-for-three.â Your exasperated sigh is punctuated by your bare, right foot stomping on the carpet. It doesnât make the impact you likely hope it will, at least sonically. It does, however, speak volumes about how close to the ledge you are.
âAll of them looked good,â he says earnestly. âI think this one is my favorite, though, if that means anything.â
Apparently, this is the wrong answer. Your wild-eyed gaze lifts from your own reflection until youâre staring him dead in the eye through the mirror.
âWhy did I even pack this?â You ask, âDo you see this?â
Suddenly, you lift a manicured hand to point at your neckline, from which heâd admittedly been averting his eyes. âThis is too much cleavage for a family function, isnât it?â
As quickly as you glanced at him in the first place, you go right back to fussing with your dress, thankfully missing the way he swallows thickly.
Fuck, now heâs staring â but youâre the one that made him look in the first place â and he can feel heat rising to his ears, a dead giveaway. His sudden silence does enough to communicate his struggle. He has no idea how to respond without vaulting over the boundaries of your friendship.
Is it hot in here?
Deciding to rely on his usual tactic, he jokes his way out.
âIf you think Iâll ever side against tiddieâŠâ He forces a grimace, shaking his head gravely. âThen you really donât know me at all.â
You laugh loudly, and whatever one-sided tension filled the room snaps like a twig. Better still, the smile you give him stays on your face while you reassess your dress. Seokmin takes it as a personal victory that you commit to his choice, rather than cycle back through your options for the second time.Â
While this means that youâll both be able to hit the open bar sooner rather than later, the biggest upside is that he no longer has to keep excusing himself to the bathroom so you can change again, and again, and again.
You finish up quickly, tossing on jewelry, and then turn to him. His shoulder keeps you steady while you slip into your devilishly high heels. Seokmin pays them little mind now, however; his attention is drawn to the accessories youâve chosen. Sure, they match perfectly with the rest of your outfit, but thatâs not what strikes him. Itâs the fact that everything youâve picked was gifted to you by his parents at one point or another.
Unable to stop himself, he reaches out and gently taps on one of your dangling earrings. âEighteenth birthday,â he muses to himself.Â
Then, both his gaze and his hand lower to your necklace. He skims his fingertip along the delicate, gold chain, inadvertently making you freeze up. âChristmas 2019?â
You shake your head slightly, though it barely counts as movement.
âAh,â Seokmin corrects himself. â2020.â
Sensing that heâs somehow made you uncomfortable, he reels himself back in and clears his throat. âShall we?â He asks, furnishing you with a bent arm to loop yours through.
You take his cue, link your arm to his, and sigh, âI suppose we shall.â
The walk to the elevator is quiet, in that neither one of you says a thing. Seokmin can hear the gears in your head turning, though, without any conversation to drown them out.Â
You step inside that glorified, mirrored box; and for a few minutes, he lets you work through the thing he knows ruined your sleep last night. That is, until he hears your breathing come a little quicker than usual.
âHey.âÂ
It was supposed to be a jumping off point. He was going to go from there and reiterate that you belong here with him. The plan was to reassure you for as long as it takes to get you to believe it, but you look up at him almost helplessly, and his Etch-a-Sketch brain is wiped clean in an instant.
The very best he can do is smile and offer a single word: âHi.â
âHi,â you whisper back, eyes twinkling.Â
Your plagued frown curves slightly back in the right direction. The creeping shroud of doom lightens, if only a little bit.
âThatâll do, pig.â You swat his arm, but he says it again, emphatically, âThatâll do.â
Halfway through you scolding him for quoting Babe at a time like this, the elevator door reopens, ready to regurgitate the pair of you out onto the ballroom level.Â
Unlike the lobby, which sits only one floor below, this floor looks like it was ripped straight from the pages of a fantasy novel. Everywhere he turns, thereâs something new â and vaguely elven â to look at. Fairy lights hang in perfectly spaced arches from the lofted ceiling, delicately illuminating the exposed, wooden beams above. The chandeliers â plural â are crafted out of antlers of some kind, cutting between rugged and highly refined.
As stunning as it all is, Seokminâs mind snags on a single conclusion. Youâre the one who voices it, though, much to his surprise.
âThis is the most Seonmi thing Iâve ever seen in my life,â you whisper to him, all without taking your eyes off the extravagance in front of you. âIs this a dress rehearsal for her wedding next year?â
He bites down on his lips hard to keep his laughter to himself. Of course, youâre dead on. Nothing about this space feels like his parents, who are supposed to be the sole focus of this entire event. He already found it odd that they agreed to such a big to-do in the first place â especially when it would require their loved ones to go out of their way, literally and financially â but this isâŠ.
âAm I being petty, or is this kind of⊠selfish?â
Petty, no.Â
Psychic? Probably.
âYouâre right, and you should say it.â Seokmin nods and withdraws his arm from yours so that he can drape it properly around your shoulder. âThis way to the beer, please. Weâll need it.â
Merely four steps in the direction to the bar, and a screech rings out from somewhere neither of you can locate. In fact, Seokminâs head is turned the opposite way when someone launches themself at you, damn near ripping you from his hold.
âOh, my god! I knew youâd come!â
Soyeonâs relief in seeing you is palpable. Seokmin can practically feel his bones being crushed as she hugs you tight, swaying from side to side. He catches a glimpse of your expression, which barely peeks through the curtain of his oldest sisterâs hair; youâre far happier now than you were in the elevator.
His sister kisses the side of your head. âI missed you so fucking much. I love my residency program, but I hate how far away it keeps me.â
A solid minute passes by like this. When it starts to get unbearable, Seokmin clears his throat, hoping to remind his sister that she hasnât seen him in months, either; and heâs also standing right here.
Instead of greeting him, Soyeon shoots you a wry smile. âWho is he today? A fugitive youâre harboring?â
In tandem, the two of you appraise him with thoughtfully narrowed eyes. See, this he didnât miss: being both of his sistersâ least favorite younger sibling.
âOh, no, though I can see why you think that.â You shake your head, then reach out to pat his shoulder patronizingly. âIf anyone asks, this is a foreign diplomat, and Iâm the interpreter he canât understand a word without. Best not say hi to him; he wonât know what youâre saying.â
Soyeon nods, though Seokmin wonders if she truly gets what youâre trying to achieve. Not quite, he realizes a moment later. Instead, she covers his chin with her hand so she can squeeze both his cheeks at once.
âHeâs adorable,â she coos. âDoesnât look old enough or mature enough for diplomacy, though.â
Seokmin rolls his eyes. âWell, we canât all be doctors, can we?â
Again, in tandem, all eyes on him widen with feigned shock. Between overlapping gasps of âhe does understand!â and âsomeoneâs been studying!â, he shakes off his sisterâs touch and scowls.
âIf youâre going to keep bullying me, can you at least do it at the bar? That way, I can numb my suffering with booze.â
At this, Soyeon drops the charade and pulls him into a hug like a vice grip. She holds him so tightly that his vision starts to get spotty. Itâs not until he gently pats her back, begging for air, that she lets him go.
âI missed you too, Thumper,â she swears, prompting you to snicker.
Now, heâs annoyed for a completely different reason â one that makes even less sense to him. That nickname hasnât bothered him in the last decade, so it shouldnât now. Then again, the only person whoâs called him Thumper since middle school is you.
The rules are different for you, if they exist at all.
âAnd I promise to catch up with you later, but Iâve got five thousand questions for Bambi, and the answers arenât half as juicy with you around.â
Just like that, his plus-one is subtracted.
As much as you love Soyeon, sheâs no Seokmin. With him, talking is easy; he never rushes to fill silences, doesnât steer the conversation with a white-knuckled grip.Â
On the contrary, his oldest sister comes forward with a pickaxe, smashing through small talk while she mines for the wild stories she thinks sheâs missed out on since moving away.
You donât blame her, really. If you spent all your hours in a hospital, only sleeping in the lulls between other peopleâs trauma, youâd probably become just as intense â the human equivalent of a cracked-open fire hydrant â in the search for closeness, too.
In the thirty minutes you sit with her, you brief her on all the cliffhangers youâd left her with the last time you saw her.
Yes, youâre still stuck with your lease in the same apartment; and the old lady next door still regularly sets off the buildingâs fire alarm by accident.
No, you decided not to stay with Kai and havenât spoken since the breakup; he needed more of your time and energy than you wanted to sacrifice for him.
No, Seokmin still hasnât gone out with anyone that you know of in months. In fact, itâs been so long since either of you have touched on this topic, especially compared to how little time he and the last girl were together, that you canât even remember her name.Â
Beyond that first, limited fact, you keep your mouth shut about the rest. Itâs not your business to share; and it wouldnât kill her to ask Seokmin about himself for once.
The longer you spend with her, the more frustrated you find yourself getting, although you keep this fact to yourself, too. Soyeon and Seonmi have both spent their lives fussing about Seokmin, talking about him like heâs some helpless baby, without doing much to get to know him.
Thatâs it.
If you were at all confident that Soyeon would take the initiative, youâd let her find all of this out on her own. She wonât, you know, but maybe itâll sink in if she hears it from you.
âSeokminâs doing really well, now that you mention it,â you offer, though she barely mentioned him in the first place. âHe got promoted last month; heâs now lead architect on that massive commercial lot downtown. Apparently, itâs still a secret, whatever it is theyâre putting there. Must be something special.â
Seokmin is something special, you all but yell inside your head.
Soyeonâs eyes brighten.Â
Nobody loves secrets quite like she does. You wait for the barrage, anticipating all the questions to which youâll have to respond with âseriously, I donât know,â but they donât come.
Instead, she puts her drink back on its coaster, reaches out, and squeezes your wrist with her slightly chilled hand. âIâm grateful that heâs always had you, Bambi. If he didnât, I donât know if heâd lean in to opportunities like that.â
The look on her face tells you she means it. Maybe thatâs what makes your stomach sour: that she can sit there, hearing of Seokminâs accomplishments, and still find a way not to credit him for them.
Anger ignites inside of you. The flames lick up your esophagus, ready to explode, and you suck in a breath with every intention of letting her burn.
But then an arm slinks around your waist. Seokminâs head bumps slightly against yours until youâre cheek to cheek.
âI hope Iâm interrupting something.â
For a second, you think his slight tipsiness caused him to misspeak. Tilting your head to the side the best you can, you look at him out of the corner of your eye and catch his very subtle wink.
Soyeon opens her mouth, but Seokmin makes his wish a reality.
âSorry, sis,â Seokmin says, entirely unapologetically. âI just found out that the band takes requests; and Iâll be goddamned if Bambi and I donât show you clowns the meaning of dance.â
It takes no encouragement whatsoever for you to slip off your stool, get to your feet, and inch your way closer to his side. Then, like a starting gun was fired, the two of you bolt clumsily away from the bar, with you shouting âsorry!â over your shoulder as you go.
Your heels skid against the dance floor when you finally reach it, but Seokmin steadies you before you can eat shit in front of god and everyone.
âYouâre way too expressive, you know that?â The fact that heâs out-of-breath doesnât keep him from laughing. âI couldâve seen that grumpy turtle face of yours from space.â
Unintentionally, you prove his point, drawing your eyebrows together and frowning. âI do not ââ
ââ Also, I lied,â he interrupts yet again.
This, coupled with the everything else going on, leaves you too stunned to speak.
âThis band is all trot, all the time. They donât take requests â trust me, I tried â but if you stay here with me long enough, we can kill two birds with one stone.â
Seokmin doesnât wait for you to answer because he knows itâs a yes. He doesnât wait for you to assume your position, either, and instead holds your left hand in his right before placing your right on his left shoulder. This close, you feel the urge to tell him how handsome he looks with his hair parted off his forehead. You donât, however.
The music swells behind you. Seokmin leads, and you follow, swaying slowly and moving across the floor.
âTwo birds?â You remember to ask, one eyebrow arched.
His right arm lifts. âSpin,â he whispers. You step under his arm, then twirl. While youâre facing the opposite direction, he continues, âThere. Do you see it?â
âOh, my god.â
You do.
The bar stool you were just occupying is now filled by Seokminâs great-uncle, Hajoon, while his new and much younger girlfriend, Yunhee, hovers near his shoulder. Even from this distance, you can see the look of abject distress on Soyeonâs face, totally unhidden by her attempt to seem engaged.
You return to your position in front of Seokmin, your hand accidentally landing on his bicep, rather than his shoulder. Flustered by the deceptive bulk there, you immediately scoot your palm back to where it belongs.
He leans in so that only you can hear him. It doesnât feel necessary at all, given how loud the bandâs horn section is, but you donât recoil this time.Â
âThey had me trapped over by the appetizers,â he explains, low voice making you shiver involuntarily. âEvery time he started a story with when I was your age, I wanted to point out that Yunhee hadnât been born yet.â
You canât help the laugh that erupts out of you and therefore canât pull your head away from Seokminâs ear in time to save him. Instead of wincing or complaining, he looks at you and breaks into laughter of his own as soon as your eyes meet. The effect doubles, and before you know it, both of you are teary-eyed.
âHow the hell did you get away from him?â
Itâs a feat you've never once managed. Uncle Hajoonâs inability to read a room is equal parts due to his horrible hearing and his tendency to never stop talking. Even if he did leave space in the conversation for you to excuse yourself, youâd never successfully get the message across.
Seokmin lifts his arm again but not for you. He takes his leave to spin himself, simpering as he goes, âThatâs where Yunhee came in handy, actually. I didnât know she had it in her, but sheâs not as much of a dud as we initially thought.â
âOh?â
âShe told him that I should be able to dance with my girlfriend, and he shouldnât keep me any longer.â He shrugs. âIt didnât seem like the time to correct her.â
All the heat in your body goes straight to your cheeks. Nonetheless, you attribute it to the dancing and choke out, âNo royalties for me, then.â
âNot this time.â Seokmin shakes his head. âI said that Soyeon was trying to catch up with everyone and would love to hear his stories.â
You bite back a grin. âYouâre a bastard, you know that?â
âMaybe.â He smiles with every single one of his teeth. âBut youâre free.â
âSurprisingly so. I havenât felt the Eye of Sauron on me at all yet.â Just in case your statement serves as a jinx, you glance around the room for Seonmi. The tension youâve been keeping in each one of your muscles slackens when, once again, your radar is blip-free.
âDinner was supposed to start ten minutes ago. If I had to guess, sheâs either leaving a scathing Yelp review or personally waterboarding the chef as we speak.â
âBoth at the same time,â you counter, earning a wry smile. âShe inherited your momâs self-assuredness. If she believes she can, she will.â
After the pair of you dance through two more songs, the band breaks, and the hotelâs battalion of waiters come in, bearing domed, silver trays. Seokmin takes off in a hurry for your assigned table in the far corner of the ballroom, so famished that he barely remembers to tug you along behind him.
Through the meal and all its complimentary wine pairings, you do your best to focus on the conversation. Seokmin introduced you to the few people sitting with you that you havenât had the occasion to meet yet. While he does what comes naturally to him, charming them with ease, you struggle for the first time to pay attention to him.
A few tables over, Seonmi sits down with her fiancĂ©, joining the company of her parents; Soyeon and her date are there, too, leaving Seokmin out by design. Like an insane person, you can only watch her, rather than Seokminâs blatant theft of bites from your plate. She laughs at whatever jokes her mother cracks, but youâd recognize that look of veiled angst anywhere. She isnât happy, you realize. You canât avoid the feeling that youâre the reason why she isnât.
Time passes, somehow too quickly and too slowly. The plates are emptied, then cleared away by the wait staff â except for your half-empty glass, which is your third. Much like the other guests at your table, the joyful buzz youâd been feeling so far leaves, too.
All thatâs left is you, Seokmin, and that ominous, storm cloud you canât seem to shake.
âYouâll probably feel better if you talk to her.â
Heâs always more observant than you give him credit for. You snap out of your zoned-out stare across the room in order to look at him. You frown. âI doubt it. She already looks pissed. Me parading my presence here despite her isnât going to help anything.â
âBambi,â Seokmin sighs, not impatient but gentle. âSheâs not exactly warm, but she has always liked you. Thereâs literally no reason why she wouldnât be happy to see you ââ
You open your mouth to argue.
ââ that happened over twenty years ago, and you really need to stop feeling guilty about it ââ
You close your mouth, cross your arms self-consciously, and sink in your seat. Despite yourself, you glance over at him and catch the way heâs looking at you. He doesnât need to say the words out loud for you to hear them.
Itâs either the unspoken dare, his reassuring, soft-eyed smile, or all the blasted merlot that does you in. Youâre not sure which of the three was the coup de grĂące, and as you slink off towards her table, you realize it doesnât matter. For one reason or another, youâve decided that fear isnât going to get the better of you this time.
Seonmi somehow senses you coming. Even without the band underscoring your movement, your timid steps across the mahogany parquet shouldâve been impossible for anyone to pick up on.Â
Must be an older sister thing, you think, being doomed to keep a perpetual eye on others.Â
She doesnât say anything when you slip into the chair next to her, which doesnât bode well but isnât a deal breaker, in and of itself. The important thing is that she doesnât get up to leave. You tell yourself that this is a good sign. The knot in your stomach begs to differ, however.
Say something.
Say anything.
âEverythingâs⊠lovely, Seonmi, seriously.â You gesture around you, smiling, but she only gives you a cursory look. âYouâve really outdone yourself with this one.â
Seonmi takes a sip of her cocktail â something bitter, the petty voice in your head assumes â and lets the corner of her mouth rise slightly. If itâs the closest thing youâll get to a smile, youâll take it. She hasnât granted you a proper one in the decades since you got gum in her favorite Barbieâs hair.
âThanks, kid,â she sighs, setting the drink back down on her personalized, cardboard coaster.
You canât remember the last time she called you âBambiâ, let alone your real name. Just like Seokmin, youâve always been a child to her. Apparently, you always will be, no matter what you do.
Her grip around the glass remains rigid, not unlike her overall posture. Condensation weeps under and around her manicured fingers, uninhibited. You watch those droplets soak through the coasterâs design, darkening her parentsâ initials and wedding date, while you mull over whose turn it is to talk.
Ultimately, as is usually the case, Seonmi makes this decision for you. Without so much as a glance at you out of the corner of her eye, she muses, âIt was a lot of work, getting all the details ironed out.â
You pick up on the subtext immediately. One of those details wouldâve been the guest list; another, the invitations. Seokmin assumed it was all an accident and said as much to you no fewer than a hundred times, but this little comment from his sister blows his assurances to smithereens.Â
Your exclusion wasnât an accident at all.
Suddenly, somehow, the room is twenty degrees colder. You shoot a panicked glance over to where Seokmin was just sitting, wanting nothing more than to slink back to his warmth with your tail between your legs; but heâs not where you left him. In fact, heâs nowhere to be found.
Fuck.
âAh,â is the best you can do.
And then the two of you sit awkwardly in silence while the seconds age in dog years.
You shouldâve brought a drink over with you so youâd have something to do with your hands. Or your phone â except you left it on its charger, you idiot â or a time machine, so you can revoke your bullshit decision to walk over here in the first â
âHe deserves that, donât you think?â
The combined suddenness of her voice and the switch in topics makes you jolt ever so slightly. You try to pass it off, to pretend that youâre simply adjusting the skirt of your dress, but your efforts go unnoticed. Seonmi is too busy pointing casually ahead, drawing your focus to the center of the dance floor.
Like absolutely no one else is watching, Mr. Lee twirls around his laughing wife, his heart-shaped smile beaming so brightly that it almost hurts your eyes. The love of his life has to hold one of her hands over her mouth to keep her laughter from bursting out; the other hand is raised with the rest of that arm, allowing her husband to spin himself underneath. When heâs halfway through, she surprises him, drops her arm down, and embraces him fully, giggling all the while.
It almost makes you tear up â Mr. Leeâs unabashed, silly love, and how much it reminds you of his spitting-image of a son; the way Seokminâs motherâs eyes sparkle in the same blissful, radiant way his do. Maybe the same canât be said for his older sisters, but itâs abundantly clear where Seokmin came from. Itâs even clearer where he should end up.
âYes,â you breathe, and it almost sounds like a laugh because of course, he does. Before you can stop yourself, you ask, âIs that really a question?â
No, you realize too late, itâs bait.
Without batting an eye, she counters, âIs it really so hard for you to let him have that?â
Seonmi turns her head to look you dead in the eye. Confusingly, despite her words, thereâs nothing in her tone or gaze that reads like malice. If anything, the slight furrow of her brow shouts concern.
Your mind is spinning too fast to keep up with. Whatever her next move is, youâre too dizzy now to see it coming and too disoriented to follow it. With the knot in your stomach tightening further, you stammer, âIs â what?â
âGod,â Seonmi drops her face into her hands. âYou donât get it, do you?â
A fish on dry land, all you seem to know how to do is open and close your mouth. You may not be literally flailing, but with the state your mind is in, you may as well start.
âSeokmin loves love.âÂ
She says each of these words slowly, like sheâs trying to hammer each nail through a thick skull.Â
âItâs the one thing heâs wanted most since he was a kid, yet I can count on one hand the number of short-term relationships heâs been in. He doesnât ever bring anyone home to meet us; he doesnât bring anyone to weddings, or parties, or holidays; he just brings you.â
Of course, youâve been right there through all of his situationships. Heâs always scant on details when they end â and youâve never pressed for any â but you know better than anyone that nothing has stuck long-term.Â
Youâve never thought about how odd this really is, but with Seonmi spelling it out for you now, you canât come up with a single, good reason why someone as objectively incredible as Seokmin canât make these things work â or why, even as you rack your brain, the only constant you can find in his life is you.
She glares now, as if sheâs daring you to speak; as if youâve got anything sheâd deem worth adding. The bulldozer revs up again, whether youâre ready or not: âYouâve always been the only person he saves space for, whether or not thereâs a place for you, and he has no room left in his life for someone to love him like that ââÂ
Seonmi points again to her parents, who are circling slowly on the dance floor, talking softly to one another.Â
âSo, what is it? Do you truly not see what heâs missing, or are you choosing not to because you like his attention?â
Your eyes burn with tears, but you canât let them fall, and you canât wrap your head around why that is.Â
Who are you hiding them from: Seonmi or yourself?
The longer she stares at you, the muddier it gets. You donât want her to be right. You donât want to be the kind of person sheâs describing; but thereâs something awful whispering in the back of your mind, saying that you might be.Â
Youâve left every relationship youâve been in, telling everyone who asks in the aftermath that you like being on your own better. But thatâs bullshit. Itâs not your own company that you keep when youâre single; it Seokminâs.Â
He makes sure that you never spend a day feeling alone, that heâs always available over the phone in the rare times heâs not physically with you. As his best friend, he treats you better than every single one of your exes ever has. Like youâre worth more than anyone else will credit you.
What kind of friend are you if you feel relieved whenever his relationships expire?
Seonmiâs hand drops, landing half-heartedly clenched on the tabletop. Just the same, her voice drops until itâs almost a whisper.Â
âI am begging you,â she pleads, eyes narrowing desperately as they search yours. âIf you donât want him, someone else will. Please just â get the hell out of their way.â
By the time you reach the elevator, all youâre left with is a blur. Youâve already forgotten how the conversation ended, or which one of you was the first to get up. If she said anything else to you, it was drowned out by your own hammering pulse and a looping chorus of voices validating your biggest fear, stating in no uncertain terms that you donât belong.
Youâre shaking when you reach your floor. Heels clicking under unsteady footsteps, you make for room 218; and as you go, you shove your hand into the well-concealed pocket of your dress for the keycard Seokmin forgot to grab himself on the way out earlier.
Heâs certainly not in the room when you finally step inside, although you have no clue where heâs gone. Itâs for the best. The door closes behind you, and with no one to see it happen, you burst into tears.
All rational thought flies out the window, shaken off by the tornado of utter confusion tearing through your brain. You grab your suitcase, needing nothing more than to be anywhere else, and begin haphazardly throwing your things back inside of it.
Why did you still come with him, knowing it wouldnât end well? It wouldnât be the first time youâve told him no; he wouldâve listened if you truly meant it.
If you didnât mean it when you initially tried to squirrel your way out of this, why not? Was it just your friend asking sincerely that won you over without a fight; or was it because you knew, deep down, itâd hurt to see him bring someone else?
Why would it hurt?
The answer to that will crack the foundation of everything the two of you have built, but only if you admit it to yourself. It canât threaten you if you donât say it out loud, donât make it real.
So, you wonât.Â
Youâll bury it deeply enough to forget about, repour the concrete, and tiptoe through the rest of your life with your best friend still at your side.
That is, if your friendship survives the weekend â rather, your sudden departure from it â at all.
âHalmoni, itâs time to go back to your hotel, okay?âÂ
He coos this, as if heâs pleading with a toddler at bedtime, because thatâs exactly what it feels like to wrangle the drunk, 80-year-old clinging to his arm.
Physically, she needs to hold onto Seokmin to keep herself steady. Mentally, sheâs ready to run and has made several attempts to do just that when she thinks his guard is down. Itâs no wonder the hotel staff cornered him and begged him for help; sheâs too wily for those who donât know her.
The manager had at least done him the courtesy of hailing a cab. It sits out front, warm and waiting, while he shepherds his grandmother through the lobby.
ââ and another thing!â She slurs.
There is never not another thing. She shouldnât bother concluding her sentences in the first place; sheâs never done talking.
âI told your sister â I said, Sunny ââ
Seonmi, he dares to presume, although he doesnât dare to correct her.
ââ you canât have stuff like this ââ She gestures animatedly, albeit vaguely around her. ââ in places like this and expect retirees to pay for it! I said â oh, what did I say? â Ah, I said, âfind me the cheapest motel in the area, or Iâll be staying in your room with youâ ââ
Her kitten heels hit the brick outside with an angry thwump.
Seokmin canât help himself. âShe didnât go for that?â
âNo!â His grandmother squawks.Â
The driver sees the ball of a woman wobbling his way and quickly exits the cab, skirts around it, and flings the back door open for her.Â
âI canât imagine why, halmoni,â he lies through his teeth, which shine down on her in his best, least sincere smile. âYouâre a blast in a glass.â
She roars with laughter, even while two grown adults work together to pour her into the backseat without bumping her head on the doorframe. âGlast in a blass!â
âExactly. Can you â?â
He gives up before he finishes voicing his request; itâs no use. Instead, he bends down to hug her and finagles the buckle of her seatbelt while sheâs too distracted to fight him off. That click is the most beautiful sound heâs ever heard, after the clunk of the door shutting her in.
By the time Seokmin turns to the cab driver, his grandmother is fully slumped in her seat, pilled peacoat rising and falling with every wine-laced breath.
âI am so sorry.â He sighs, which devolves into a sheepish laugh, and fishes all of the cash out of his pocket. No tip could possibly cover the emotional toll of this ordeal, so he does his best and gives the driver everything he has.
The driverâs eyes widen. Seokmin gets the impression that he doesnât quite understand the task heâs undertaking.Â
Poor bastard.
Seokmin continues, âMy grandfather is at the inn already; he didnât feel well enough to come here, but heâll be ready to get her inside once you drop her off.â
âSounds easy enough.â The driver smiles and holds out his hand to shake.Â
Seokmin reciprocates, and he declines to explain just how wrong that assessment is. He thanks the man and chirps a quick goodbye to his grandmother before rushing back inside.
Walking into the ballroom, he hopes to find you and Seonmi laughing about whatever misunderstanding had gotten in your way before. At the very least, he expects you to still be sitting next to each other at the same table. That would be good enough, he thinks; he could assist in repairing the situation from there.
The problem, it seems, is beyond his help. Neither one of you occupies the same table. If his quick scan tells him anything, youâre not even in the same room.
No matter which way he turns, he canât spot you. His sister, on the other hand, is near the far corner, having what looks like a nightmarish conversation with their parents. There are approximately five billion things Seokmin would rather do than get in the middle of that, but you donât have your phone on you, and he has no other way to find out where you went.
Above the heads of the two women, Seokminâs father catches sight of his approach. They lock eyes; thereâs something insane in his fatherâs gaze. The older man shakes his head, mouthing âno.â
Seokmin stops short, raises his hands with the palms up to get across his confusion, and mouths back, âBambi?â
In response, his father extends a single finger and points upwards. He then makes a shooing motion with his hand. His wife and daughter are so engrossed in their argument that neither of them catches the pantomime or Seokminâs quick exit, back the way he came.
On the elevator ride upstairs, Seokmin worries. The most likely explanation is that you went to find your phone so that you could find him â but you havenât texted or called him in the time heâs been looking for you, so he supposes it isnât likely after all.Â
Maybe, he thinks, the wine caught up to you. Youâre not as strong a drinker as you think you are. While he walks down the hallway to room 218, he steels himself. Even though you both hate it, heâs ready to hold your hair if he walks in and finds you with your head in the toilet. That dress looks too good on you not to be expensive; heâd rather talk you out of your embarrassment tomorrow than have you shell out for dry-cleaning.
You didnât deadbolt the door behind you, which strikes him as odd. In fact, you didnât even close it properly; it isnât latched. All he has to do is tap on it for the door to open.
âBambi?â He calls out before stepping inside entirely, thinking itâs only decent to confirm in advance that heâs not an intruder. âSorry for disappearing. I had to pour my grandmother into a cab â it was exactly as awful as it sounds.â
The faint rustling sound he hears isnât coming from the bathroom, which is both dark and unoccupied. Part of him wants to take this as a good sign, but the rest of him wonders if heâs walking in on a burglary. That flicker of fear is followed by a stupid sense of validation:Â
You always laugh at him when he cites this as his reason for choosing the bed closest to the door; you claim itâs statistically unlikely. Finally being able to say âI told you soâ after a robbery wouldnât make either of your belongings magically reappear, of course. That said, it might make him feel a little better.
But the figure rooting through your suitcase isnât a bandit at all. Itâs you with your coat on.
âUm,â he starts, unintentionally startling you. âWhat isâŠ.âÂ
His question peters out when you look up at him. There are broken mascara tracks down your cheeks, as if you tried to wipe them off without actually looking at them. Above them, your wide eyes are wet, like youâre seconds away from crying all over again. Even worse, youâre trembling.
Seokminâs only instinct is to reach for you. Before he can wrap his arms around you, you jerk away from him. âPlease donât.â
So, he stops, though he doesnât understand why. This is quite literally the only time in your life that youâve pushed him away.
âWhatâs going on?â Ideally, heâd project calm at a time like this. He just sounds desperate. âWhat happened with Seonmi?â
âShe â um, she didnât â It wasnât that bad; Iâm just⊠You know how sensitive I get when I drink wine.â
Like a switch flips, a half-hearted smile takes over the bottom half of your face. Itâs not real; if it was, your eyes would light up and crinkle at the corners. Whatever that look is, itâs bullshit.
Seokmin gestures to your suitcase, where everything you brought with you has been unceremoniously shoved. âSensitive enough to, what, run away? No. Iâm not buying it. She said something â or did something â to make you this upset. Bambi, what happened?â
His urgency is selfish, he knows it. Seonmiâs always been way too intuitive for her own good. Thereâs no way she hasnât noticed the way he looks at you when you arenât looking; how god-awful he is at acting platonic.
He tries â has been trying, for a long time now â to shake these feelings off because he knows youâre not emotionally available. Because he knows who heâs supposed to be for you, and how devastating it would be if he threw your friendship away.
That devastation is right in front of him now; and itâll push you out of his life forever if he doesnât shut it down. He has to get in front of it.
You strike first, though. âSeokmin, why didnât you bring anyone else?â
There are two ways for him to interpret that question: with the emphasis on anyone, meaning not you; or as an escape route. For your sake, he chooses the latter.
âShe gave me a plus-one, not a plus-two,â he says softly.
Despite his tone, it must hit you like a punch. You nod curtly, once. âGot it. Basic math. Thanks, Seokmin; that was never my strongest subject.â
Foot, meet mouth.
You immediately set back to work, reaching for the lid of your suitcase to close and zip. Before he thinks once, let alone twice, his hand darts out and flattens against the mesh inner pocket on the top, preventing you from doing so.
âNo.â He shakes his head firmly. âNot happening.â
You donât scowl at him the way he expects, nor do you even stop to look at him. Itâs far worse than that; your eyes start swimming, focused helplessly on your suitcase.Â
When you speak, your voice cracks. âI shouldnât have come in the first place. I knew that this invitation shit wasnât an accident; I knew I wasnât welcome to ââ
ââ You came anyway.â Seokmin doesnât mean to snap at you, but the point is moot. Softening at the edges, he quickly continues, âAnd Iâm glad that you did because I donât want to be here with âanyone elseâ.â
Itâs not the whole truth, so it may as well be a lie. You know him too well for him to get away with it; it was stupid of him to try. Your head turns, and the slight narrow of your eyes says it all.
I triple-dog dare you to tell me the truth.
This fork in the road has two dead ends. His only options are to do just that or double down and lie straight to your face, while you see straight through him. Either option pulls the pin, he figures, so itâs no longer a question of who gets hurt; itâs who gets hurt worse.
Seokmin jumps on the grenade.
âI donât want to be with anyone else!â
It comes out too loudly, startling you. In a way, itâs angry, too. He wishes could project that anger onto Seonmi for starting shit, as usual, but the person heâs maddest at is himself for putting you both in this position.
For the first time ever, he canât decipher the expression on your face. Heâd shove his foot into his mouth to try and keep himself quiet, but his adrenaline is firing on all cylinders, and he canât seem to stop shouting.
âAnd Iâm really fucking sorry to say it because I know you donât want to hear it, not from me or anyone else. So, you can leave, alright? Iâm not going to stop you.â
The force of the surprise almost knocks the air out of him, so quick that Seokmin canât process whatâs happening until his back is flush to the wall behind him â until your hands, flat against his white button-up, curl to grip the fabric, and you kiss him so hard that he sees stars.
Youâre surprised too, it seems. When you pull away, chest heaving, you freeze in the same way he does. Eyes searching the otherâs, unsure of what to do now that twenty-plus yearsâ worth of boundaries have been blown to bits.
You whisper, âAre you still sorry?â
Of the five million feelings swelling inside of him â fear, kind of; joy, yes; fucked up by your blown-out pupils, definitely â regret isnât one of them.
ActuallyâŠ
He cups your face in his hands like water from a spring, drinks down the sight of you in this new and perfect light. âIâm only sorry that it took me this long to tell you,â he confesses before kissing you back twice as hard.
Youâd ask Seokmin to pinch you and prove to you that youâre not dreaming, but the fear you feel at the thought of waking up is too overwhelming.Â
Even if it wasnât, he canât help you, can he?Â
His hands are far too busy.
Your pretty dress is long gone now, having been shucked off and tossed somewhere out of sight. In its place, itâs Seokminâs body that now drapes over yours, warm in touch and tone, like molten gold.Â
His middle and marriage fingers curl inside you, working you up again; and all you can do is cling desperately to his hair, whimper, and wait for the fall.
âI take back what I said earlier,â he murmurs between nips and kisses at your neck.
You canât ask him to elaborate. Youâre too close to careening over the edge for the second time tonight; too busy babbling fucking nonsense.
His simper against your throat reverberates all the way down, lights up your every nerve in tandem like a switchboard. âOnly an idiot would tell you to be less expressive.â
The pad of his thumb swirls over your clit; its movement synchronizes with his middle finger inside of you, targeting your weak spot. He presses down on that spongy patch of nerves, and your hips buck involuntarily, a hallmark of your body begging for you while your words fail.
âYou were right, though.âÂ
You summon all your concentration. âIâm always right,â you counter. Seokmin pulls his mouth away from the underside of your jaw just to look at you pointedly. âYouâll have to be more specific.â
He picks up the pace of his ministrations, pulling no punches. Youâre teetering on the ledge with no real ability to lift your own neck; your head crashes back against the pillow as you wail, clenching and gushing around his fingers.
âI do know how sensitive you get,â he snickers before slipping his fingers from you and sweeping down to kiss you sweetly.
The ringing in your ears has barely subsided, but youâve decided not to take anymore of his teasing laying down. Slipping your fingers from his hair, you move your hands to his shoulders; and with whatever muscle control you still maintain, you flip him off of you, onto his back.
âHow long ââÂ
You climb over his lap and straddle him, placing your palms flat against his chest. Itâs as much a show of dominance as it is a carefully disguised trick for balance.Â
ââ have you been waiting to say that?â
Caught red handed, Seokmin shoots you that trademark, heart-shaped smile. His cheeks were already flushed from the effort he just expended on you; that perfect pink only deepens when he blushes and laughs, âWhat, you think I canât come up with killer lines in the heat of the moment?â
You scratch your nails gently down the lines of his abdominal muscles. âNope,â you purr.
Sitting up on his elbows, Seokmin tilts his head to the side and narrows his dark eyes at you. Youâre nowhere near used to seeing him look at you like this, like youâre something to be devoured. The feeling of being wanted so badly makes your stomach flip.
âGive me some credit, wonât you?â He asks, voice low. âYouâre a knockout; youâre naked in front of me for the first time; and itâs a miracle I can talk at all when I feel this concussed.â
When you lean in, he licks his lips expectantly. Youâre close enough to kiss him, of course, but you stop a few millimeters shy of your mark and watch him fight the urge to pout. His eyes search yours, almost pleadingly.
âIs that why youâre still not naked?â
Seokminâs next move is to reach for the black briefs heâs still got on, but you stop him, encircling each of his wrists with your hands.
âAh, ah, ah,â you tut with a patronizing shake of your head. âYouâre fired. Iâm in control now.â
If the little sigh he lets out is any indication, he is very much on board with your self-promotion.
He takes your cue and reels himself in, allowing you to move further down his body, your fingertips hooking under his elastic waistband and tugging as you go. When his length finally springs free, you duck your head to take him into your mouth, beyond eager to feel his weight on your tongue.
âOh, my god,â he groans, eyelids fluttering, while you swirl your tongue around his head. âFeels s-so ââ
The rest of his sentence gets stuck in his throat; you take what you can of him down your own throat, working whatever remains with your hand.Â
Seokmin wants so badly to watch, you know he does, but heâs sensitive, too. His head tips back, eyes closed and mouth hanging open.
Itâs messy, the spit dribbling down your chin and the sound brought forth by the suction of your mouth around him. The obscenity of it all spurs you on. Nothing inspires you quite like Seokminâs breathy whines and low moans, though. Above all else, itâs his reaction to you that slicks the inside of your thighs.
Youâd give him the ending he deserves, right down the back of your throat, but you feel his fingertips graze your shoulder, beckoning you to look up at him.
Voice rough, he pleads, âCome here.â
With his steadying hands on you, you move back into your original position with your bent knees on either side of him. You immediately spot the indent his teeth have left on his lower lip, which is now slightly swollen. Delicately, you brush your thumb over the mark. âOh, youâre a goner.â
Seokmin looks at you pointedly. Though you tease, youâre even worse off: drunk on the taste of him, as much as the sight of him underneath you, wanting you just as badly.
âAlright, alright,â you concede. âI am, too.âÂ
The hand you use to wave dismissively at him then reaches down between your thighs, fingers wrapping around his cock and lining it up with your entrance.
âBut Iâm taking you down with me.â
And you do.
So thoroughly that you barely recall him staggering off to the bathroom when all is said and done, the wash cloth he returns with to clean you up, or the way you slump into his waiting arms before promptly falling asleep.
You sleep so soundly, in fact, that you donât stir when the sun blares through the open curtains. Likewise, when Seokmin carefully maneuvers himself out of the tangle of your limbs and places your head on a real pillow instead, youâre none the wiser.
What finally gets to you is the clatter of the expensive, hotel-issued shampoo clattering against the floor of the shower, echoing off the tile like a sonic boom. You sit bolt upright in bed, staring bleary-eyed in the direction of the bathroom.Â
As if on cue, Seokmin pokes his head out of the doorway to see if you managed to sleep through the noise. Damp hair splays over his forehead, hanging just as loosely as his lazily-knotted bathrobe. If you werenât still too sleepy to function, youâd love nothing more than to grab him by that tie and drag him back to bed.
âShit. Iâm sorry, Bambi,â he coos, though his mouth is full of both toothpaste and a toothbrush in a distinctly greener shade of blue than usual.
You merely point at his mouth with a half-powered look of distress, otherwise unable to put your suspicion into words. He doesnât get it; he glances down at his chest, looking for what he assumes is a stray glob of paste.
When you finally do speak, itâs a prayer: âPlease tell me thatâs not mine.â
Seokmin blinks at you, then down his nose at the toothbrush heâs using. He cocks his head to the side, opens his mouth to assure you it isnât, and finally, when the realization makes his eyes widen, he groans.
You wail, âNoooooo!â
Memories of your last trip together clash before your mind â specifically, attempting to navigate a drug store in a foreign language while you shopped for the replacement toothbrush Seokmin is currently holding.
Ears bright red with embarrassment, he ducks back into the bathroom. Immediately, you hear a rush of water from the tap, which nearly drowns out his feeble cry of âIâm sorry!â
âI know itâs an honest mistake, but how do you make it twice?âÂ
You collapse back onto the pillows and bury your face in your palms; and you stay that way, even when you hear him padding softly over to you. The mattress shifts under his weight as he makes his way, one knee at a time, until you feel him looming over you. His hands reach out and gently pull yours from your face.
Before you can get any ideas, Seokmin flattens himself on top of you; a weighted blanket, smelling like vanilla and spearmint. He folds his arms across your chest and props his chin up on the top of his right wrist, bright eyes sparkling as he peers up at you.
Suddenly, you find it very difficult to be annoyed with him. The worst part is that none of this is by design. He always just looks at you this way, not to get out of trouble but because youâre you.
Your hand reaches out of its own accord and brushes the remaining damp strands off his forehead. When your touch lingers, Seokmin leans into it, warming your palm with his cheek.
âHey,â you say, after failing to come up with anything better.
He beams. âHi.â
âWhy are we awake at this hour?â
That smile of his evaporates slowly, giving way to a grimace youâve seen before. âSeungcheol and Mingyu want to meet up at the ski lodge before the post-brunch crowd gets there,â he explains. âAnd I told my parents weâd get breakfast with them first, since yesterday was⊠well, mostly a disaster.â
âAnd it will conveniently provide you with time to think of a way out of snowboarding?â You chuckle quietly and pat his cheek.
Seokmin shakes his head firmly, then stretches his neck enough to kiss you.
âNo,â he mumbles defiantly against your lips. âI never back down from a triple-dog dare.â
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ah hello ! !! this is the first time im writing for jingyuan sama ..! hopefully its to your liking anon .. <:D tho i did self indulge a lil much on this ... hopefully you still like it x_x
also , yes .! i love ryona . i dig it a lot .. please dont b scared to req anything with dark themes .. i will be cheering you on !
pair â reader x jing yuan
wc â ~1k
contains â sub bottom char, dom top reader, established relationship, gn reader, possessive reader, jealousy, (false) cheating suspicions, reader is kinda fucked up in the head, size difference (smaller reader), thigh humping, dry humping, reader is pretty forceful
you couldnât stand it.
the way he would ignore you sometimes, when you two just wouldnât be able to have some pda for the sake of his reputation. it pissed you off.
you want to love him! show him off, maybe. hug him, kiss him, hold his hand.. all in public. but you canât â because he has a reputation to uphold here. and what made you more mad is the fact youâd hear your own colleagues talk about him. how they want to get with him.
what pissed you off the most about today, though? you heard someone spreading rumors. dating rumors. not between you and jing yuan, no. (you wouldâve appreciated that, really) it was between him and some other woman â one that heâs been working with for a good while.
you clicked your tongue, entering his office. even just from your face it was obvious you were in a horrible mood.
âoh?â he started, with that usual lazy smile of his â âmy dear, something on your mind?â
he shifted in his seat, adjusting himself so you could sit yourself beside him â which, you do â letting out a tired sigh. ârumours about you again, love.â you respond.
âmm, itâs the one with that woman, i assume?â
you click your tongue again. just hearing anything related to her set you off â câmon, now.. itâs not like theyâre actually together.. your dearest would never, ever betray you in such a way.
but you see the way that woman was â how she was smiling and all. laughing those rumors off, all while clearly enjoying the attention she got. it disgusts you. it worsens your mood more and more as you thought about it.
the general could sense your frustration â almost as if he read your mind. his expression softened a little bit, this time looking at you. watching you biting on your nail, whilst the other hand was balled into a fist, resting on your thigh.
âhey,â you looked back at him. the frustration was clear in your eyes. even you, yourself didnât get it. what were you so angry aboutâŠ? you canât help but take it out on him. âyou love me, right, jing yuan?â
âof course I do.â he replies â itâs short. itâs obvious. but in your messed up little head, it felt like nothing but a lie.
âprove it.â
âwhaâ?â
âprove it, i said.â you lean into him, a hand against his stomach. the gold part of his belt felt cool against your palm. for a second, it gives you shivers.
âhere..?â the generalâs voice was filled with uncertainty. âthe door is still unloââ
âthat doesnât matter.â you interrupt, âtheyâre not allowed to come in, right? locked or not. just tell them to leave if someone knocks. simple.â
jing yuan gulped down, eyeing the door once more before giving in â fumbling with his belt. slowly but surely getting that corset-like piece of armor loose and discarding it completely.
heâs so obedient whenever you were madâŠ
âcâmere.â you pat on your thigh, inviting him to sit on it â he does, obeying you. you were upset, he didnât want your mood to go even lower. though, due to jing yuan being bigger than you, he was quite hesitant on putting his entire weight â he knows heâs quite heavy.. but you insist he sits down properly.
he felt shy all of a sudden â putting his hands on your shoulders, nuzzling his face into your neck. you didnât know if this shyness was a result of the position, or the fact the door was very much unlocked â maybe both.
you had a hand on his lower back, as if inviting for the white-haired general â your free hand decided to run through his hair. itâs so soft⊠how could you not?
jing yuan lets out a whimper, hips moving on his own. slowly but surely running them up and down your thigh. his own legs shaking. you slip your hand into the side of his pants â feeling around his waist. he jolts at your cold hands, letting out a small gasp. those hands of yours continue to trace through his body, feeling his breath grow a little faster. feeling all over his back, his hips, his waist, him. just him.
you wanted to escalate this, though, you heard something. something he feared. a knock at the door.
âjing yuan, sir?â
a voice is heard, calling to the general. you could clearly hear his breath hitch. âaâ ah.. whoânnhâ!â
those hands of yours continued to tease him. featherlight touches all over his body, teasing him by slipping your hands into his pants every now and then â watching your darling general explain why the person couldnât come in â stuttering on his words, trying to reason with them..
you felt mean today. you were in a shitty mood, after all.
he lets out a sigh of release when they finally decide to go â whoever that was leaving his office alone for another time. finally, he gets to calm down.
âi love you.â you whisper into his ear suddenly, âyou love me too, right? you wouldnât go for that woman, right? right?â
why did you doubt him, even?
you donât know, nor did you care. all you wanted to hear was an âi love you, tooâ from the general.. your general.
his weight was kind of crushing you.. but you didnât mind it much. you pressed a kiss onto his neck, sucking into it to form a hickey. then another⊠and another. it didnât take too long for his entire neck to be covered by them. you loved it.. marking him up as yours (as if wasnât already..)
âmâgonnaââ his grinding was growing a bit more desperate â damn, already?
âgo on. show me how much you love me.â â those words made him whimper, closing his eyes. you pulled on his hair, yanking his head so jing yuan was looking at you â grabbing his face with one of your hands and inviting him into a messy kiss â tongue being forcefully shoved into his mouth.
âi love you, i love you, i love you.. mmMHâ!â he said between eager gasps, feeling his orgasm washing over him. you could, too â that warm feeling on your thigh.
he wraps his big arms around you, moans being muffled by the kiss. he just couldnât get enough, can he? he wouldnât even care anymore if someone came in and saw him this way. neither did you. at least theyâd know you were his.
âi love you, darling. please ruin me..â
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Alley Drunk! Danny AU- Pt. 4
[Pt.1] [Pt.2] [Pt.3]
Danny blinked down at the cart, where a red hoodie and pants with red stripes along the side laid over the lip of the cart. Considering theyâre in this universeâs brand of Marget- seriously, who names a store Target? If anything in Amity Park was named that, Skulker would have wrecked it in five seconds flat- itâs hilariously on brand. Though, to be fair, this was Gothamâs version too, which meant a lot of security guards (who definitely doubled as goons for the Rogues, Danny was sure) and the vibes were spooky.
âIâm guessing redâs your favorite color.â
Instead of the humorous way he meant the sentence, Jason looked up anxiously and Danny immediately hated himself a little bit more.
âSh- I can put it back..?â Jason hunched in on himself.
Danny tracked the movement with clearer eyes than heâs had in a long while and ancients, does it remind him of how Dani was in front of Vlad all those years ago. And Danny has spent his entire half life being not like Vlad, so heâs not going to start now.
âNah, you should definitely add some more stuff. This is no where near enough clothes.â
It really wasnât. Danny had taken Jason to the store to pick out clothes- âTherâs a second hand store down the streeâ, ya know,â Jason had mumbled when they went through the doors- but the kid had only tentatively put in a small red hoodie and some pants in the cart. Now he had to put this in a way thatâll wipe the stubbornly hesitant look on Jasonâs face off.
âThink about it this way, then. Youâre repping me now, and while I might be the alley drunk, Iâm not the poorly dressed alley drunk, yeah?â
âOh. Thaâ makes sense.â Jason nodded to himself determinedly, and the kid strode over to the t-shirt section. For all of his confidence, he still glanced back to see if it was okay with Danny.
Well, Dani was the same way before she found her confidence (when she knew Danny wouldnât abandon her or hurt her) so Danny just gave him a thumbs up before reaching into the rack and sweeping an armful of clothing straight into the cart. Then, he strode over to the jackets and grabbed the ones in Jasonâs size and slightly bigger. Oh, he has to grab shoes. Heâll leave that for later, but Danny was going to get those ratty trainers off of Jasonâs feet and into the nearest trash can if it was the last thing he does.
The halfa hummed, pausing at the first decidedly not miserable sound heâs made in a while. Dammit, if that wasnât a sign of Dannyâs attachment to Jason, he doesnât know what would be. To be fair⊠Danny already committed murder for the kid, which was pretty much something he thought heâd never do, so in for a penny out for a pound or whatever.
He put a significant amount of the budget aside for the section labeled âJASONâ so Danny shopped without a worry. Charlieâs ill-gotten assets were a good monetary compensation for his crime of existing near Jason or existing, period.
He picked up toiletries, toothbrushes and the like, when Jason came back sans t-shirt. Instead of a shirt- Danny had actually hoped that Jason would try to get multiple shirts- Jason was clutching a book.
Before he could even voice anything, Danny plucked the book out of his grip and put it into the cart with a disarming smile.
âOh, good idea. We should get you books too. Wanna go pick out some more?â
âUh- yâre just gonna get a book, just like that?â
âMore than one book, I should hope. You are going to school, right?â
ââŠYeah!â Danny couldnât fathom ever being excited at the thought of school, but as Jason bounced away to peruse the admittedly poor selection of books, Danny couldnât help but think that maybe he should give this education thing another try. Who knows? Maybe itâll be less stressful now that heâs not Phantom.
Danny walked to the aisle next to the books and promptly proceeded to shove every single piece of stationary he thought was nice- pens, gel pens, cooling pens and pencils, a thick stack of notebooks, flash cards, etcetera- into the rapidly getting full cart.
Jason came back with three more books- nice, the classics- and froze at the sight of the cart.
âOh, hey. Getting all of those?â
âWhaâ- whaâs witâ the stuff?â
âSchool supplies! Quality education starts with quality supplies, you know!â Danny said, a sliver of the grin that used to come so easily to him making an appearance on his face. "Don't worry, I budgeted. See?"
Danny handed Jason a piece of paper, confident that the kid would know if it was good or not.
"Where'd... ya get all of this?"
"Hmm... here and there."
Jason looked up at him, squinting suspiciously. "I hear' Charlie's gone poofed up."
Danny shrugged and put a calculator in the cart. "Oh, I'm sure he's busy."
Yeah, Danny thought vindictively. Busy being dead.
"Ya sound like a walking con," Jason said as he visibly decided to give up fighting against Danny's spending. "We nee' food."
"Gotcha. Well, if you need anything else, just bring it into the cart."
"I want veggies. Frozen, 's cheaper."
Danny nodded, resisting the urge to ruffle Jason's hair.
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"Hey, you's the Alley Drunk, right? 'Bout that boy you've been toting ar-"
Danny punched the guy in the face, dropping him like a stone. He looked up slowly and swayed.
"Any of you ask about my kid brother again, and I won't bother with being drunk when I hit you."
Rapid nods. Danny shuffled away, satisfied.
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Two weeks later, after a school day, Danny finds Jason heading to the bathroom with a box of...
"Hair-dye?"
Jason, who was marginally more relaxed and assured that Danny wasn't going to kick him out, nodded.
"Dye's fadin' n' I dun wanna get nabbed on the streets for having red hair."
Danny blinked. "You have red hair?"
"Sure do. See? Roots are showin' again." Jason pointed at his scalp where Danny could see the hair was getting lighter.
"Right. Well- I'll leave you to it. Let me know if you need help, kiddo." Danny said, desperately hoping he hid how off kilter he was feeling well.
"I don't need help, ah've been doing this for ages." The kid went into the bathroom and closed the door harshly. When the lock clicked and the faucet began running, Danny let himself slide down the wall into a crouch, hands cradling his head.
Red hair. Blue eyes. Tan skin. The facial features. The intelligence and empathy.
Danny chuckled hysterically under his breath.
Was Jason this universe's version of Jazz?
"Fuck."
#danny phantom#batman#dc x dp#dpxdc#danny adopts jason todd#jason todd#bamf danny phantom#alley drunk! danny au#danny: i'm grieving#jason: wanna bet?#that's right jason's this universe's jazz fenton#this universe's danny fenton died and that's why danny can exist here without causing issues#danny: i have adopted a random child#danny: this child is jazz wtf
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do you have any fic recs?
yes!! so many!! please check the tags for each!
all time favorites:
way down we go: an absolute classic. werewolf harry, chronically ill utterly miserable draco, post-war in small town america. enemies to lovers slowburn with protective harry and hopelessly gay draco.
in hopes that you may drown: SO much of my art is based on this author's harry and draco. such a lovely fic. post-war, draco raising delphi and absolutely perfecting the stressed yoga mom vibe. harry is instantly smitten.
in our blood: about haunted houses, parenthood and growing to care for each other. I love this one.
you'll still find stone: arranged marriage. draco expects the worst and harry is an absolute sweetheart. angst but so heartwarming. (mind the tags!!)
ANYTHING by corvetteclaire! their blood link and in the mirror series are severely underrated and genuinely took my breath away. some of my favorite writing and plots.
inside grey eyes: so so beautiful. quite dark and yet exceptionally hopeful. all about draco's recovery from a nightmare situation and harry's unending support. (mind the tags!!)
anything by tessa crowley!! an absolute gem in the fandom with an impressive variety of works.
the mirror of ecidyrue series: perfection.
in your arms, rests my world: âYou make me feel safe, Potter. You keep me safe.â yeah..yeah. (mind the tags!!)
anything by toxik_angel tbh..one of my favorites is infairitance even though itâs incomplete; fairy draco is a game changer
oxytocin: angst, angst, angst, and so much cuddling. slowburn in the best way possible.
Soup-pocalypse and The Great Curry Cataclysm: i read this some time ago but i remember adoring it.
Diffraction Patterns (I Don't Know How to Forget You): another incredible old read .
everything by beloved @rockingrobin69 !! this is one my favorites ever i never stop thinking about it
fluff/humor:
manlet: PLEASE read this one! so so cute and adorable and hilarious ft sweet giant harry and tiny angry draco and wickedly funny narcissa. will definitely open your eyes to small draco.
screw you: extremely funny and extremely hot.
like a star across my sky: SUCH a good fic! feels like a romcom.
title of their sex tape: as funny as it sounds.
flirt: really sweet. disaster flirty draco and awkward yet charmed harry.
married to a brute (ongoing): genius and hilarious
smut:
it beats me black and blue: absolute perfection. no notes.
let me roll it: so delicious. clueless mess draco and grumpy harry who hates everyone except draco.
his little something: size difference excellence
scenes of surrender: a combination of smut, love, recovery and caretaking
a perfect fit: hung harry and size queen draco
come up for air: veela draco
fawning for you: harry is completely obsessed with draco's videos. very cute, muggle setting.
burning the ground: creature fic
ongoing/other faves:
one elephant at a time (ongoing): i recommend this fic to EVERYONE. genuinely incredible. think yellow wallpaper, jane eyre, crush by richard siken, and the author mentions being inspired by my dark vanessa as well. so essentially a modern romance with a dark gothic backstory. every single sentence in this fic stands out to me. every characterization, every conversation, is just so honest and genuine. also!! draco has a cat called lady di!! and he loves to wear earrings! (mind the tags!!)
within the hollow crown: more of pre-drarry tbh. such an interesting plot!! harry grudgingly cares for an increasingly spiraling draco who is except under close and constant watch by the dark lord-every second of his sixth year. currently has an ongoing sequel.
imperfection (ongoing): another fic by robin! and another of my all time favorites, so so lovingly written and so tragic and lovely and heartbreaking. really digs into draco's psych and his manic mindset and constant spiral BUT there is light at the end of the tunnel and so much love surrounding him even though it's hard for him to see it. (mind the tags!!)
saviour series (ongoing): wouldn't necessarily call this drarry? more of a stockholm syndrome gothic novel type of fic but i recommend it all the same. the writing is truly extraordinary and the pacing is incredible. will leave you breathless. part one is complete. (mind the tags!!)
perspective series (ongoing): the original books with alpha harry, omega draco in gryffindor, and an adorable friendship dynamic between the golden trio and draco. really sweet, and super interesting. no romance as of yet but there are little moments.
tales of the potters: very interesting take on the arranged marriage trope! i recommend all of this author's works; they have a gorgeous way with words and their work really brings harry and draco to life.
the veiled boy (ongoing): one of the most intriguing recent fics i've read. really delves into character dynamics in such a realistic and refreshing way and draco is so endearing in it. every chapter has gorgeous illustrations.
never in extremity: reread this one recently. equal parts heartbreaking and heartwarming. (mind the tags!!)
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succubus!reader x nerdy!ellie
summary: ellie is desperate to lose her virginity that has been looming over her her whole college career.
toniâs note: i made it guys! i promised this back in october and itâs the end of january⊠but itâs here.
cw: this is pure smut, no plot at all lol. 1.8k words
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ellie has not a single regret about what sheâs about to do. ellie is in college and is still a virgin, at this point she didnât think sheâd ever lose her virginity. until one of her friends joked that she should summon a sex demon, that it was âthe only way sheâd get laidâ. it wasnât meant to be taken seriously, but desperation makes people do crazy things.
she read in an old book she found in the library about one in particular, the book had a picture of you drawn in and ellie thought you were absolutely gorgeous and perfect for her. what was the worst that could happen?
ellie lights the candles around the circle she made on her bedroom floor. she chanted your name 5 times like the book told her, then after 20 seconds the candles all blew out and a gust of purple smoke floats in the air. you pop out the smoke looking even more perfect than the book describes.
âwho dares summons me?â you say in this slow sensual voice that ellie feels course through her body. you look around the room you were summoned in before your eyes rest on a short girl with black rimmed glasses on her face. ellie is looking at you with those pretty green puppy eyes, mouthed formed into an o shape.
âa girl? well thats new,â you walk closer to ellie sizing her up. âyour cute⊠tell me what you want from me.â âi-i,â ellie is literally speechless. shes staring up at you, the lady demon whos probably gonna take her virginity. you have long horns on your head and a cute skinny tail, but the best part is that your completely naked. breast out in the open, nipples standing at attention, nothing covering your cunt and itâs just begging for ellie to drop to her knees to taste you.
âdid you call me here to waste my time?â you ask her putting your hands on your hips with a quirked brow. âno no! i-i want you to take my virginity.â ellie says playing with her fingers. you hum, âok ill do it. but you have to sign a contract-â âyes yes! anything!â you spawn a paper out of thin air, âdont you wanna know what your agreeing to?â but by the time you finish your sentence ellie has already signed the paper.
after she is done signing, the paper disappears. âi wanna let you know i-iâve never done this before. well i almost did in my fourth year of highschool but that was a missed opportunity-â ellieâs nervous rambling was cut off by you running your hands over her shoulders and ripping her shirt open exposing a blue sports bra underneath. ellie gapes at you, suprised at the sudden intrusion. you push the ripped shirt off her shoulders. âdo you wanna touch me?â you say voice softening seeing how nervous the poor girl is.
she nods vigorously trailing her hands up your tummy to your breast. âyou can touch me however you want.â you say smirking at her. ellie feels like she can hear your voice inside her head, a slow sensual voice with a rasp that can only be described as wild and sexy. she feels a rush of arousal pulse through her as she pushes you to lay on her bed. your eyebrows shot up, you feel her start to kiss down your stomach swirling her tongue around your navel before her head dips between your legs.
you buck slightly when you feel her inexperienced tongue flicking all around your cunt. she takes your clit into her mouth rolling and flicking her tongue all around it (like they do in the videos she watched before the summoning). you can feel her breathing heavy against you. she pushes two experimental fingers into you feeling how wet and tight you were. you taste sweet like honey and something else addictive that ellie canât name, ellie suspects its part of your demon powers.
you grab her hair squeezing your legs around her head trying to contain your moans, no human has ever made you feel so good. you might just⊠like this girl. sheâs cute and gentle. and she looks at you like your aphrodite instead of a sex demon.
you feel yourself about to cum when you push her head from between your thighs. ellie is looking at you, chin covered in your juices looking pussy drunk with her glasses fogged up. âare you ok?â she asked you, looking genuinely concerned. you want to coo at her but instead you flip her over taking place in between her legs this time. you peer up at her with this look that looks like you want to devour her. you pull down her sweat pants and underwear licking your lips at her slick pussy.
you give her clit a sweet kiss before using your thumb to rub circles on it. ellies moans out loud when she feels your abnormally long tongue enter her. your tongue is reaching places her fingers couldnt possibly reach. she chants you name which only encourages you to move your thumb faster on her clit. ellie grabs your horns and pull before locking her ankles together keeping you still as she grinded on your tongue feeling the knot in her stomach ready to explode. you let out a groan as ellie tugs on your horns. âim so close.â she says before her body goes rigid.
you pull away from ellie, swallowing her essence, seeming to have had an energy boost. âis there anything else you wanna try?â you say rubbing up and down her legs. she nods getting off the bed grabbing a box from under it. in the box are sex toys but ellie pulls out a girthy purple strap. âoh,â you say eyes widening, âyou wanna use that on me?â you ask with that same sensual tone from the beginning. âyes.. pleaseâ
she puts the strap on before she feels you push her down on the bed straddling her. you hover over her dick grabbing it and running it up and down your slick cunt. âyou want me to fuck you?â you say placing a hand on her chest still hovering over her. ellie nods her head grabbing your hips panting in anticipation, âyes pleaseâŠâ âask nicely,â you say leaning down licking and biting her ear. âplease fuck me. please.â ellie says bucking her hips. the tip of her dick pushes into you, you moan sitting completely on ellieâs cock.
you are bouncing and riding with no sign of slowing down. ellie is running her hands over your body, transfixed at the way your breast bounce as you ride her. when she sits up, she wraps her arms around your waist, holding you close to her as she kisses your neck and chest leaving marks.
you grab ellieâs face, tilting her head to the side so you can have access to her neck. you use your tongue to lick and suck marks into her neck until you get a little too excited and nick her neck drawing blood. ellie letâs out a groan followed by a guttural moan, completely dazed. you lick at her neck getting all the blood up before humming and planting a kiss on the mark.
ellie is gripping your ass meeting your thrust with her own desperate ones. âare you close?â ellie asked desperately, leaning to kiss you again. âvery.â you coo out, kissing her using that long muscle of yours, twirling your tongue around hers.
you let go and ellie is staring in awe at the beautiful look you made while cumming. she lays back on the bed, exhausted and satisfied. when she feels your very sharp nails trail up her stomach and latch at her sports bra causing it to rip as if it was being cut by scissors. âmore.â you whisper with a wide grin.
âwhat?â ellie asked wide eyed. âi want more. i think im going to keep you.â you whisper in her ear.
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I, Ellie Williams, am allowing succubus y/n to take on a human form and co habitat with me. I will fulfill her needs of sex so that she may stay by my side and use me for a long as she wills.
signed: ellie williams
#wlw#lesbian#ellie williams#the last of us#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams smut#loser ellie#ellie williams tlou2#ellie x fem reader#ellie x reader
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lowkey super anxious to post this but im missing you guys so much <3
i plan on a solid return soon! i just wanted to get off my chest whats been going on:
Earlier this year, I dealt with an awful situation of my kinky stuff leaking into real life. My insane coworkers found my content and as I was serving on the clock, proceeded to show my customers and all the staff. then i was fired. Im traumatized to say the least but I over came it.
Come mid summer, I planned so step back for a little bit to move apartments no more than a couple weeks. What happened was both my job (i worked with close family friends so stressful) and a really bad situation with a companion found about my kink stuff. i never expected or was prepared for the humiliation, deception, and pain that would come from my fetish journey
My last job was such a loss. I had been blessed with a cute job as a medical office assistant without any credentials (i wasnt doing anything out of my capabilities of course) it was so peaceful and perfect compared to the drama of my last gig plus working with familiar people felt just like home honestly. Then I got covid. I was out for 2 weeks, at the same time i was moving into my new place. I tried calling them back to let them know I was cleared and ready to get back to work. I received a humiliating text. I was dismissed. That turned into a crippling anxiety of them confessing to my family what I do in my past time
The following week I was met with more disappointment. Ive said this before but I dont have many people in my corner. It used to suck to admit but I stand with pride now knowing those who are around me love me 100% regardless what I do or dont do.
One of my dearest dearest friends, who I had previously communicated what I do (not to a full extent they always respected it) called me very dramatically only a week before I planned to see them (they live across the country and we ALWAYS visit each other when in our cities) It still doesnt feel real tbh, the call only last 40 seconds. I was informed that âI was going on the wrong pathâ and could no longer be associated with. Thatâs alls that happened. 8 years down the drain
I was informed by outside sources that my hometown opps had gotten hold of my content (who my ex friend still associate with but I despise bc theyâve always been obsessed with me but in a bad way) and they had confronted him about being my friend. he pussied out and cut me off. they also mass reported my last instagram accountđĄđ€Ź
I had to take some time back to seriously debate if these loses were worth it. I was swallowed with so much anxiety knowing that an uncomfortable amount of people in my zip code knew what ive been up to. its already complicated being into this and while at the same time not being in a plus size body. thats another conversation tho
That debate has turned into me accepting these events as the universe weeding out people/things that no longer serve me. This has shown peoples true colors, if I am not to be associated with because of my sexual freedom, body acceptance, and undoing of fat phobia then PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE.
Im recovering â€ïžâđ©č but my heart and hedonism canât be helped. i love being a kinky lil gut slut. its helped me grow in so many ways from acceptance to living an esoteric dreamy life. i love all the hot girls and guys that i see on my timeline. they hype me up and vise versa. i love this little corner of the internet. my fellow freaks keep me going. iâve been so on and off online but every time i come back to the sweetest words and support. thank you guys for your patience and consideration
my anxiety is to the roof as im typing. its crazy that these privacy problems havent been within the actual community. funny. if your still reading this I love you extra. ill be streaming on ig on my comeback day!
new ig acc @missfertileandferalđ
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â°â†When you discover a mysterious hole in a restroom inside the Crown castle, you're ready to catch the ill-doers of whatever forbidden exchange is taking place and take them straight to Victor. Little do you know, your curiosity would lead you to give more and more of yourself to that ridiculous cause, night after night. And you might just end up enjoying it.
â William, Harrison, Liam, Elbert, Alfons, Ellis, Jude, Roger, Victor x f!Reader
âą rating: ïżœïżœïżœ E (MDNI) âąÂ tags: Glory Hole; Anonymous Sex; Corruption; Hand Jobs; Blow Jobs; Oral Sex; Come Eating; Come Swallowing; Deepthroating; Masturbation; Dirty Thoughts; Smoking; Objectification; Overstimulation; Penis Size; Multiple Orgasms; Ruined Orgasms; Vaginal Sex; Vaginal Fingering; Size Difference; Large Cock; Creampie; Breast Fucking; Dirty Talk; Squirting/Vaginal Ejaculation âąÂ wordcount:  5,836 âąÂ masterlist
a/n: I've had this idea for a while now and here it is, finally. One of the longest smuts I've written and definitely one that I'm proud of. Enjoy!
⟠⯠â NIN - The Wretched
Visions of Temptation 2024/KINKTOBER DAY 2: Glory Holes
NINE NIGHTS.Â
Among the many things you've been warned about when you first started living at the castle, you couldn't help but be curious the most about one thing. That infamous communal restroom located at the very end of the left wing's top-floor corridor. Remoted and basically isolated from the lively parts of the castle, if it weren't for the obscene rumor Alfons shared with you, you might not have discovered such a place exists at all. Actually, you're still not convinced if it truly exists. It's all too much like the hedonistic bastard to mess with your head like that.
That's why you're on a mission to do a little investigation on your own.
Arriving at the dimly lit location, your anticipation is flattened by the lack of anything obscure to be found. The restroom hardly differs from the ones you've seen around the place: well-maintained and designed accordingly to match the elegant style of the castle. One side is for the ladies, the other for the gentlemen; two different entrances, a wall separating them right in the middle.
You don't know why you even bother going as far as peeking an eye inside the stalls, but nothing appears to be amiss there as well.
Apart from one thing.
You nearly missed it in the sparse light, but the cut-out hole in the wooden wall inside the second stall stands starkly against the otherwise well-polished surface of it.
Suddenly it all clicks, and you remember Alfons' words.
"Rumor has it that around eleven in the evening, people go there to partake in rather... scandalous exchanges. Both parties are provided with anonymity and everything that takes place inside the restroom stays there. We might be a modest group of inhibitors here, little Robin, but everyone has their needs. We don't judge which part of the partition you choose to be on."
This has to be about drugs! As outrageous as it is, it perfectly explains the hole - large enough to serve for the purpose of one such "exchange", the wooden wall in-between separating provider and client.
You chose to linger around here just early enough to be able to leave without witnessing what does - or does not - happen in the established hour, and just close enough to it in case if, for some reason, you'd want to stay and find out for yourself. This means you can perfectly well remain waiting in the stall, catch the culprit red-handed, and take him straight to Victor. You're sure he knows nothing of this, it can't be otherwise.
1.
You don't have to dwell in your thoughts for much longer, because in the perfectly tranquil air around you, you're able to pick up the soft noise of the door opening on the other side. Readily, you prepare to grab hold of whatever is inserted through the hole and see if your hunch is correct.
Little do you know, the sight will make you reconsider at once. You blink your eyes several times when you look down.
It takes you everything not to scream, barely being fast enough to clasp a hand around your own mouth, as soon as you realize what you're looking at.
Whoever is on the other side of the restroom is currently giving access to a certain part of themselves, and by the way it stands erect and demanding attention, you can imagine just one possible scenario of what the person on your side of the partition is expected to do with it.
The breath hitches in your throat. Will you be found out if you were to exit right now? Even if you won't be seen, even if anyone else could have been here, in your placeâŠ
A very dangerous thought fills your head, and you know listening to it should be the last thing you do. Still, for the sake of getting to the bottom of this and not disrupting any of it just yet, you start to think it might not be that bad if you justâŠ
Hesitantly, your hand reaches out until your fingertips can almost graze the very tip of the cock in front of you. Eyes falling closed for a second, nine different faces flash through your mind. Nine possibilities. It's as if this changes everything between you and the mysterious man on the other side, when in reality it changes nothing at all. You think back to your fellow Crownmates, as if trying to see if the thought of any of them pushes you away, but to no avail.
You might have lost your mind. Fingers slowly curling around the hot flesh in front of you, the initial contact is far easier than you thought. You start pumping the hardness in your fist right away, noting the way it slightly swells in your hand, despite already seeming quite aroused.
The slight tremble of your fingers is perhaps a welcomed side-effect of the adrenaline coursing through your system, as the cock in your hand is very receptive to your actions. You wonder to yourself if the person on the other side is used to this sort of thing. Or maybe it's his first time here too, his curiosity getting the better of him. Just like you, in a way. However, he's clearly being able to get off on that thrill. It must be contagious because you become bolder with your movements and your eyes are no longer shy to the sight in front of you. It's embarassing not to be able to take your eyes away, but you can't help it - there's something so fine about it; the size and shape of it, the saturated pink color of the glossy tip, the small bud of precum threatening to spill over with excitement on the next enthusiastic throbâŠ
In just a couple more strokes, the object of your admiration closes the spectacle with a rather grandiose final act⊠The vigorous spurts of its culmination leave a milky-white trail down the crevices of your fingers as you marvel at the sheer amount he came.
Giving him one last base-to-top stoke, nice and slowly, you catch yourself being so captivated by the obscure display that you're almost disappointed when it all ends and you snap back to reality.
Time to splash some cold water on your face.
2.
The sound of a grandfather clock announcing eleven in the evening is coming from afar but you still hear it without mistake. You've found yourself in this cursed place again, albeit with hesitation. Going back to the events of last night leaves you with mixed feelings. For one, you swear you're being fooled with. Is this Alfons' sick idea of having fun? Luring you to some shady place, provoking you to commit unspeakable acts⊠You bet there are no other parties even involved in this to begin with. Who knows what the hole really is for, but to use it the way he did⊠it truly takes an unhinged imagination, you have to admit. Now you just have to find him back at the scene of the crime - God knows they always come back - and this time you won't be so generous. It's not exactly a plan that you have but you'll do something, anything.
Still, you can't help but notice there was something off about last night's mysterious visitor. He didn't quite strike you to be anything like Alfons. Not that you want to spend too much time thinking about what he's supposed to be like down there, or the specific mannerisms you can tell him by, orâŠ
Suddenly there's movement and you hold your breath in anticipation as you prepare to look down.
This isâŠdefinitely not the same cock.
This can't be.
Without thinking much, you grab a hold of the sizeable appendage as if to explore it more. Maybe the limited light is playing tricks on you.
Your thumb grazes a slightly protruding vein on the side, something you might have missed yesterday, or you might have not. Though the visual difference is becoming less and less the more you overthink it, the feeling of it in your warm palm is notably different. You don't even know how you get on your knees, but you try to make the most of the new angle.
The stranger, whoever he might be, seems to enjoy the way you're fooling around, much to your own surprise. Almost as if he wants to encourage you to explore more, to do whatever you want. Soon enough it becomes awkward to just examine him like that when he's probably here to feel pleasure. Even in your stubbornness to recognize him as the man from last night, you start stroking and massaging the girth in your closed fist. Stimulating the sensitive skin on the head makes it pulse so tantalizingly, and running the fingertip of your other thumb down the protruding vein almost tips him over the edgeâŠYou don't mind this reaction. What's more, you pretty much want to finish what you started.
Unexpectedly, the length of the stranger's cock retracts almost completely back inside the hole with just its head sticking out. The sturdy repetitive motion indicates that the man is taking care of himself while still giving you access to the product of his upcoming climax.
What does he want you to do with his cum? Does he want to paint your open palms white, or maybe if he could say so, he would prefer to color your lips white with his come?
The moment he finishes with what seems to be a glorious orgasm, your sticky fingertip has almost made it to your mouth in a rush of curiosity. You have no idea what's the use of doing something like this when he won't even be able to see it.
During your haze, you think you see a painted glossy red fingernail as you watch the cock of the stranger disappear.
You must be imagining things.
3.
Fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me.
You guess that the third time is saved for the shameless.
This is exactly what you are, as you find yourself kneeling on the cool tiles on another late night. The initial shock of finding yet another unfamiliar piece of flesh left at your disposal is washed away by the growing sense of thrill that you're starting to get familiar with, more with each passing night. Combined with just a little bit of "since you're already here".
You wonder how fast can you make this one cum. All this time and you're yet to use your mouth, maybe now is a good chance to try it.
Thankfully the other side knows nothing of the fever rising up to your cheeks. Not feeling eyes on you helps you be bolder with your actions, and you feel like an absolute tease. Once you pop the well-formed head in your mouth, your tongue shows no mercy to the painfully erect cock.
A few agonizing slow licks across the length of it seem to be the last straw for the stranger. But not in the sense you're expecting.
In a flash, your mouth is left to hang open and empty; like a lollipop's been taken away from you. A cold shiver runs through you. Did you go too far? Was it not to his liking?
You're not yet fully seated back on your knees in confusion before he gives you a "second chance". Almost as if you're starved, you hurry to take him in again, saliva overflowing from the corner of your mouth and lubricating him for some earnest bobbing of your head. You're going to pleasure him properly this time.
Except, this leads to the same result.
The pause is shorter now, and you get the impression that he's toying with you. Does he want you to please him, or does he not? Which one is the truth?
You fall for his tricks time and time again, because you just can't help it. Awaiting for him to stick his cock back into the hole is rather humiliating but each time your mouth salivates more with the eagerness to welcome him deep inside. He only stills when he's noticeably on the verge of orgasm, and you take him as deep as he lets you. You're a bit tense at this point - should he snap his hips and thrust further in, you're likely to choke on him.
Drinking down on every last drop of his come, you don't know why you're so relieved that his last gesture was not a lie. You just know that you're left to yourself once again. And the whole ordeal has made you horny.
4.
Another day passes in your busy life as a fairytale keeper.
Most of the missions you're assigned are fast-paced enough to keep you fully occupied; senses being constantly put to the test, mind projecting gruesome pictures you've seen through the day and turning them into words at the end of it, once you sit in front of your typewriter.
Yet there are those little pockets of time when the world slows down for you and your fellow Crown members. Traveling from location to location; gathering in the foyer waiting for Victor⊠It's easy to zone out.
Your gaze moves from Liam's pretty lips curling in a small laughter as he conversates with Harrison, to Harrison stretching out while he listens; to Elbert's tall frame as he looks out the window next to them, to Alfons staring at him, putting one leg over the other as he stirs the steamy liquid in his cup. Which ones? Which ones of them have visited that place? You have very little to go off of. Someone's hand enters your field of vision. Delicate, long fingers drumming against a hard surface. You dart your gaze to another. Roughened palms. And another. Concealed by dark gloves.
Skin textures. Shoe sizes. Limbs stretching out.
It's not until someone asks you if you're alright - "You've been terribly quiet all this time!" - that you shake off your inappropriate thoughts and scold yourself for having them in the first place.
The next time you find yourself in the stall, you're almost glad to give head to someone who's clearly cutting to the chase. There's not much shuffling or repositioning from the other side of the partition, and you're able to focus on the weight in your mouth.
Tonight's stranger is no less well-endowed but you'd say he's a little more on the thicker side compared to your previous experiences. Accidentally grazing him with your teeth makes you hear an annoyed single stomp of a shoe against the floor tiles on the other side. This only motivates you to do better, and you truly do your best sucking him off.
Your ears pick up something different this time. This quick striking noise reminds you of a match being lit⊠Even with the task you're focused on, your senses remain sharp, and you swear you can smell cigarette smoke.
Here you are, sucking off some guy while he treats himself to a smoke. Things can't get any cruder from this point on.
But you don't mind it at all. This is of mutual interest for both parties, that's only fair. So you don't think much of it your hand makes its way down south, searching underneath layers of clothing until it finds aching hot flesh, begging to be pleasured.
Getting off to your scandalous adventures has been common practice for you the last few days, but it definitely feels better to claim your pleasure here, at the core moment of it.
The closer you get to your own orgasm, the faster your head moves back and forth. All it takes to send you over the edge is the feeling of hot cum being disposed in your welcoming mouth, and you join him by coming there on the floor, unknown to the stranger.
He loses no time removing his spent cock. You can hear the grinding of a heel as he stamps out his cigarette. And he's gone.
Now you're left to wonder why it feels so good to be used by someone on their smoke break.
5.
Tonight sees you crossing yet another boundary.
Things are going on in a less formulaic fashion, with no hurry at all, and it's not that you're not enjoying it- quite the opposite - but you can't help being curious about something. How bad would it be if you were to gain just a little bit of pleasure for yourself from all of this? Surely you won't be found out if you were to share another piece of yourself with the stranger on the other side different from your mouth and your hands. You're far from the thought that some of the female staff don't know about this place. So you don't hesitate positioning yourself upright and facing the wall, close enough that your body is pressed against it.
You don't ask for much, just to feel that delicious hardness against your swollen folds. The very first contact shoots sparks of pure ecstasy through you. The angry-red tip of the man's cock graces against your clit and you nearly mewl out in pleasure. So you do that again, until you're practically grinding yourself on it like a tool conveniently left for your pleasure.
You'd feel selfish and guilty about this if it weren't for the fact that your actions are getting the stranger off as well. You've already slicked him up with your saliva thoroughly, given him attention which has been enough for others to reach their peak. This one seems to have a rather high endurance, but interestingly no other method of play gets him going the same way as you pleasuring yourself on him. Is this what he wants? You're afraid you're not able to stop now, at least not until you cum. Which happens all too soon, with your legs shaking from overstimulation as the cock underneath you remains swollen and upright and poking your folds again and again while you try to catch your breath.
And then he cums. Just like that, without assistance from your side⊠Or maybe it's your pleasure that did it for him? This is a strange one, for sure⊠But you like him.
6.
The cock you're currently stoking with both hands is long and elegant, with a rather pale complexion, further emphasized by the blue-ish veins at the base. You can't help but be gracious with your ministrations as you pleasure it, and surely enough, it doesn't take enough to push the man it belongs to over the edge. He spills thickly in your hands and you kiss the tip of it, careful as not to overstimulate it too much⊠But when you expect an early end to tonight's rendezvous, it seems like it's far from it. Without any indication of him leaving, you realize he's still pretty much hard. So you resume your actions, albeit timidly at first.
It quickly turns into you full-on sucking him off, seeing that your hands won't be enough anymore. His ample length is a little too much for you to take, so you're relieved once he successfully fills your mouth of his cum, a lot less thicker this time. Except, it's still not over. Such a greedy bastard, exploiting you for greater and greater pleasures each time.
Taking in a large portion of breath and exhaling slowly while you contemplate something, you finally decide to take the next step. You can do what you did last night⊠but facing the other way around, and maybe, just maybe adding a little bit of penetration to the mix.
It takes little effort nesting him inside your tight core because of how wet you've gotten in the meantime, much to your own surprise. Fine, you can be greedy too. Leaning forward until your palms are flat against the opposite wall of the cramped room, you soon fall into a steady pace fucking yourself back and forth on the man's cock that's once again rock solid and pulsing deliciously inside you.
Despite the high libido of the man, he prefers remaining rather still while you move your hips on him, never breaking his reserved and elegant stance. Huffing out a weary emission of air as you're left to shoulder all of the work, you focus on your own pleasure instead, since you're on the verge of cumming.
Your orgasm is rudely interrupted by the other party's own orgasm as he slips out of you and sprays your aching folds with his emission. Already having taken what he was after, he soon exits your sight, leaving you to your own devices as you finger yourself to a rather unsatisfying orgasm on the floor.
7.
Still holding a grudge from the previous night, your storm in the restroom determined to be as ruthless as you need to be and claim your own pleasure first and foremost.
Little do you know, however, that tonight is going to be another test for you.
You're making yourself familiar with yet another stranger tonight - despite being ready to bet that it's high time you're met with a repeat - as you test the waters on this new shape presented before you. He's thicker than any of the previous men. Hell, he's thicker than anything you've ever seen. The massiveness of it in your hands and how he dwarfs them honestly intimidates you. But you remind yourself of your resolve and decide to remain firm as you slowly take things further with him.
Spending too much time on oral is not a part of the plan as you don't want him coming too soon, but you discover that it has nothing to do with your plans anyway. Fitting him inside your mouth proves to be a challenge, and the pathetic way you just soak him in saliva and withdraw every time you take a little more than his head in your mouth makes you feel embarrassed.
Slowly rising to your feet, you accept that you might have to spend a little more time in here tonight. You hope your legs can take it, as you take off your underwear and stretch yourself open for the big intrusion.
Piercing yourself on his tan cock knocks the air out of your lungs as you feel so, so full of him. Without any option but to take it slowly, you massage and grope at your forms as you try to relax your walls around him as much as you can.
Suddenly the thick knob on the wall which you've been using similarly to the previous two nights becomes rather animated as he withdraws until nearly slipping out of your tight entrance, only to quickly thrust back in. Perhaps he got bored with your excuse of a service so far. Clasping both hands around your mouth, you have no choice but to receive his thrusts, the pace quickly building up, as you have to do your best to remain on your feet. Opting for leaning on the opposite wall instead, you have to choose between balance and keeping your mouth shut, as both prove to be hard to achieve at the same time. The man thrusts in and out of you, without a care in the world, and you don't notice how your hands are sliding further and further down until you're practically bent over the tiny space.
This man is an absolute monster. Time goes by in a haze as you find yourself cumming and again around the thick cock inside you, drenching him in your juices until they begin to run down your legs and onto the tiled floor. His stamina is insane - the fact that he can keep going while you're a wrecked mess is scaring you, and you don't know how much more you can take.
When you can't move anymore to meet his thrusts, thankfully his own pace becomes broken in telltale signs of his upcoming orgasm. You need his cum inside you like a trophy. You worked hard for it.
His load is nothing short of pure virility, copious amounts flooding up your insides and joining the rest of the fluids on the floor in a display of utmost obscenity.
You barely make it to your room on your doe legs.
8.
The previous night left you with a pleasant soreness between your legs and the size you're working with today is too big for you to even think about repeating the same scenario. It's gifted in length; pinkish and with a lot of foreskin. Another new one, much to your surprise. And another absolute monster of a cock.
Since your wrecked pussy is off-limits, you begin to worry about pleasuring this one - especially when you think back to how utterly greedy the last two visitors were.
An idea pops into your head.
You start off with the usual, lubricating the shaft with the wetness of your tongue as you suck, massage and kiss every sensitive spot. And there seem to be plenty of them. It's been some time since you've had such a receptive cock in your hands. It's quite lively with its constant little twitches as you get distracted taking it further in your mouth, almost gagging on its generous length. But enough of that.
Using one hand, you unbutton your shirt while simultaneously stoking the cock in front of you, not wanting to ignore him for a second. Once your breasts are freed, keep your kneeling position but get closer to the wall, hotness rising to your cheeks. Carefully, you guide the large cock to the valley of your breasts.
Another enthusiastic twitch. It's like he falls inlove with your idea right off the bat.
You're happy to see that this works with him to say the least, trying to move your body up and down as you press your breasts together using both hands. The slickness you coated him with provides a nice slide, but for a good measure, you drool down some more of it, watching the erotic display of his cockhead peeking through the gap of your tits on every slide.
Oh, this one is more than enthusiastic. You can tell he won't last much, but you're ready to blame that on the method you use on him more than anything. Is he a boobs man? Would he be just as enthusiastic if you were to let him fuck the crux of your thighs?
"Ahhh! NghhâŠ"
You freeze for a split second as you swear you hear an audible moan from the other side. Everyone so far has shown so much self-control and was careful as to not let out a sound too loud, and yet this one seems to be unable to hold back.
Needless to say, it motivates you.
You donât even have to keep going for much longer until the cock between your squeezed breasts erupts and paints your chest white. You lean your head down just a little bit more and you're able to give his angry-red tip a playful lick for goodbye. There's no urgency to satisfying your own need, as you're better off taking care of it in the plush covers of your bed back in your room, for a change. Somehow you're sure that your playmate for the night would have wanted that for you too if he could speak.
9.
With a little over a week's worth of sinful adventures behind your back, you feel the need to take a moment and question how you got here. As scandalous as it is to think that there have been eight different members of Crown visiting that shady place for the same dirty purpose, you strangely find peace in the fact that there's at least one of them you're yet to have come in contact to, in this way.
In this very moment, you're still able to face each one of them individually and not die out of shame, because he could be the one.
So you have to leave it at all. For the sake of your sanity, you have to refrain from going anywhere close to that restroom again.
The cackle of the typewriter dies down as you're ready with the evening's workload of documenting Crown's missions, and now the call of your bed is all too strong to resist. You throw yourself face-first into the soft duvet and realize how cool and nice it feels against your skin. Have you overworked yourself, or is this heat trying to tell you something else? A familiar urge builds up in your lower belly, and you open your eyes just to see the wall clock's hands marking exactly eleven o'clock.
With the material you've gathered from those past days, it should be easy enough for you to find relief on your own. So once your hands slip inside your panties, each finding a point of interest, already soaked in liquid desire, your mind drifts off to a familiar place.
But nothing seems to work. As exciting as everything that has happened to you has been, it's nothing compared to the real thing. Since when you've become like this? A thrill-chaser, being only after what feels good without a care in the world. Much like a certain someone that got you in this mess, to begin with. And now there's a dangerous thought creeping into your head.
It's more of a gamble, to be fair.
Nine nights. The chance of all nine men visiting the hole one after another without a single one of them repeating or skipping is significantly small. Small enough to bet your dignity on it, it seems. Fingers still glistening with juices, you make a bold decision, telling yourself that if anything, you can try and resist touching the final ninth man, should he turn out to be tonight's visitor.Â
The hole in the wall is not occupied, and you admit to yourself that you feel disappointed. You're close to turning on your toes and going back to where you came from, but then you hear footsteps approaching, on the other side. Sleek dress shoes, if you're correct. He's taking his time.
Where you expect to find someone's aching hardness, you find an entirely different body part. You stare down in confusion as you see a gloved hand thrust out through the hole.
"I know you're in there. Why so hesitant?"
This isâŠAlfons' voice.
But why? It's taboo to break anonymity like this, and he's wrong if he thinks that you'dâ
"You can remain silent if you wish, of course, given that you can hear me at all. Though I have this feeling that this might be no other than Miss Robin herself."
Your head gets dizzy. How does he...? No, you shouldnât fall for it.
After a moment spent in silence, he chuckles.
"Of course you won't answer me. If you're wondering why I'm revealing myself, I'd simply tell you that not all of us are ashamed to admit they have needs, little Robin. Why, I'm sure the person supposed to be on your side of the wall must have far greater needs, no? That's why I decided to be generous tonight and offer nothing but pleasure to that lucky individual. Go ahead, I'm lending you a hand."
Clad in a shiny black glove, Alfons' hand makes a sultry come-hither motion at you, and you swear it looks lewder somehow than if he'd left you with something other than his hand instead. Your folds are still dripping, the heat in your lower belly prompting irritating tingles all over. It would be oh-so-easy to lift your skirts and descent right on his ready palm, your pussy already bare as you left your underwear all the way back in your room.
Hesitantly, you approach the wall and do just that, shivering a little at the unfamiliar texture. But unlike the solid slabs of flesh you've taken the previous nights, Alfons' fingers donât behave. They don't wait to be ridden to completion while you get used to their shape in your insides. Right from the beginning, Alfons zaps and twists his fingers inside you, discrediting the generosity he so fondly talked about just a minute ago. It's exactly what you tried to achieve alone in your bed. But deeper. And so much more relentless. And exactly what you've been missing.
"That's a good girl. You're taking them in so greedily."
The naughty sounds of your juices muffle most of your whimpers as the flat of his palm repeatedly hits against your swollen lips. Even through the glove, he's scarily precise. He aims for your sweet spots and makes you see stars in no time, until you can no longer find meaning in the dirty things he says.
"Aww, are you squirting on me already? Here I was ready to bet you'd need far more than that. Have those gentlemen been neglecting you? Did you find them rather lacking?"
You hear the sound of water hitting the tiles but you pay little mind to it as Alfons keeps grinding his middle and ring fingers against your sweet spot, scratching something inside you that's been tormenting you for a week straight. You have no name for this feeling. You just know that he ruined you from the very beginning, by telling you about this place, by luring you in here.
The only thing you can think about as you succumb to a violent storm of an orgasm is how much better his cock would feel hitting that same place inside you. How long does he intend on keeping you here, if this is how you start out? The whole night? Would he want to make you do something perverse, fitting of his ways? You care little about that as pleasure spreads all over, making you feel so light.
You immediately get down on your hands and knees, a wicked idea on your mind already, as you're ready to deviously entice him by licking his digits clean. But they disappear before you get the chance to, making you almost whine at the loss. Your pussy still throbs, so well taken care of, yet so neglected at the same time.
"Now, wouldn't you like to finally see for yourself? If I'm one of them, I mean. The ones you've already seen here before."
Blinking your eyes, you feel the weight of his words coming down on you. You've completely forgotten about that at this point.
Even without being able to see him, just being able to pin a name to the person behind the wall makes you imagine everything so clearly. The facial expressions you've seen him do, how he reacts to certain things. The piercing stare of those dead fish eyes when he knows he's right.
"Too bad I'm not in the mood for that tonight. I guess that leaves you no choice but to come here again if you truly want to find out the answer to that question, no?"
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downstairs neighbor
danielle marsh x fem!reader ; fluff
synopsis: in which you party so often that you get another complaint, but this time it's from a very pretty girl that really has you considering shutting the whole function down.
warnings: alcohol and weed mentioned ; readers an asshole at first but danielle is danielle so reader goes through a whole crisis ; yeah they're adorable, basically black cat and golden retriever trope sorry not sorry ; anything else i didn't mention ; not proofread
a/n: get it because usually it's the upstairs neighbor but i'm quirky so its not... ok nvm ill delete my account i gues ... anyways FIRST DANI FIC UNDER 10K! guys im so in love with her i need to be put into an asylum do u see these pics of her LOOK AT HERR!!! i need to die like rn
danielle has settled in quite alright into her new university. she's moved in with one of her close friends from high school, decorated her side of the room, and all of her professors are oddly sweet--much better than the professors from her old school.
she makes it to the first friday of the semester, deciding to settle in and watch a movie, maybe call her mom and dad later if she doesn't doze off. but when she hears muffled music and disturbing footsteps from downstairs, she pauses the show she's two minutes into and gets out of her bed.
hanni's on the other side of the room completely slumped, her headphones peeking out from the blanket sprawled on top of her with no care in the world as to what is happening downstairs. danielle purses her lips before getting out of bed and slipping the university sweatshirts over her tank top.
she looks back over at hanni, whoâs still sleeping, before heading out into the living room area, past the kitchen, and out the door.
when she reaches the floor below, she follows the noise, it gets louder as she steps through the corridors, and then she stops in front of what she suspects is the source of all this disruption before knocking on the doorâno response.
âhm.â she mumbles, knocking again in a little patternâstill no response.
before she can knock again, her fist in the air ready to hammer a little harder on the door, it opens.
a girlâprobably her ageâanswers it, eyes narrowed at danielle. sheâs slightly taller, but still, danielle feels a little small with how scrutinizing she checks her out.Â
âdid kazuha invite you? yujin? or was it jungwon?â the girl looks at her with raised brows, expecting an answer with a slightly bothered look. it seems like danielle had interrupted their little⊠event? whatever event it was, did they really need to have house music being blasted so loudly?
danielle rubs her thumb against her pointer finger, trying to steady her nerves. âoh, no, i um⊠wasnât invited,â she says, her voice wavering slightly. the words sound even more pathetic out loud than they did in her head, but thereâs no taking them back now. she pushes on, though it feels like her confidence is slipping away with every syllable. âi was just wondering ifâwell, if you could turn the music down? my roommate is sleeping and itâs just⊠really disturbing.â
the girl in front of her snickers, a look of disbelief crossing her face as she sizes danielle up. itâs clear she finds the request ridiculous, and danielle feels her cheeks heat up in embarrassment.
âyou know what, this isnât even my partyâhey y/n! come out here!â the girl calls over her shoulder, her tone dismissive as she waves danielle off like sheâs someone elseâs problem now.
you hear your name being called, and with a sigh, you push yourself up from the couch. the group you were sitting with whines in protest as you leave, but you roll your eyesâtheyâre all drunk, their complaints nothing more than the amplified nonsense of intoxicated minds.
âwhat is it, yunjin?â you call out, rubbing your eyes as you approach the entrance, the taste of the cheap beer sakura handed you earlier lingering unpleasantly on your tongue. âwhatââ
the words die in your throat as you spot the girl standing just inside the doorway. sheâs probably, no, definitely new hereânew to the party, new to the scene. youâve never seen someone that makes you stop in your tracks like this. her long eyelashes flutter as she looks up at you, her big brown eyes sparkling with a mix of nervousness and something else you canât quite place. sheâs dressed in baggy sweats and an oversized university sweater, the logo stretched across her chest in signature block letters. thereâs an air of innocence about her, something that feels out of place amidst the environment both of you are in right now.
you take her in, noting how pretty she isâadorable, if youâre going to be honest with yourself. she looks like a lost puppy, especially with those pleading eyes and the subtle bite of her lipâ
you push the thought aside, telling yourself it doesnât matter. youâre just here to deal with whatever minor inconvenience yunjin has decided to dump on you.
âwho are you?â
âum, my name is danielle, i live right above.â she has an accent, something strong and similar to that girl yunjinâs been bickering with â was it lily? no, bangchan? hell no, she hates him and his little group. ah, hanni that short girl that came complaining during your second party of freshman year, yunjin still brings her up.Â
âright, what do you want?â you ask, sensing yunjinâs departure when you feel her brush against your shoulder. âis there a problem or?â
âwell, yeah, kind ofâŠâ sheâs actually adorable, especially when she avoids your eye contact like that. âitâs kind of loud, you know. i was wondering if you could turn down the volume a bit? thereâs a lot of thumping i can hear from above, i canât imagine how it must be for the downstairs neighborsâŠâ
âyou must be new.â
âsorry?â
âyouâll get used to it.â you say simply, poking the inside of your cheek before starting to close the door. âi recommend a pair of some good noise cancelling headphonesâand a signature study spot. see you around danielle.â
you feel a strange pang of guilt, something unfamiliar and uncomfortable twisting in your chest. youâve done this beforeâbrushed off peopleâs complaints, shut the door on them without a second thought. but thereâs something about her that makes you hesitate, something that tugs at you. maybe itâs the way she looked at you, those big brown eyes wide with a mix of hope and desperation, like she was really counting on you to help. you give her one more glance, catching that puppy-dog expression that makes your resolve waver for just a second. but then, before you can think twice, you close the door on her, shutting out the sight of her pleading face.
â
danielle spends the whole night tossing and turning, the faint vibration of the music seeping through the ground and into her restless mind. itâs not loud enough to keep her fully awake, but just persistent enough to keep her from finding any real rest. she considers going back downstairs, maybe trying to have a proper conversation, coming to some kind of compromise. but every time she thinks about it, the memory of how things endedâthe snickers, the dismissive attitudeâfills her with embarrassment, making her shrink back into her bed.
the next morning, sheâs awake before the sun, the lingering fatigue making her body feel heavy and sluggish. still, she forces herself out of bed, the need to talk to someoneâanyoneâpushing her into action. with a deep breath, she reaches over and starts shaking hanni awake, the clock not even close to ten a.m. on a weekend. hanni groans in protest, burrowing deeper into the blankets, but danielle is relentless, her fingers poking at hanniâs sides until her sleepy roommate finally stirs, blinking up at her with bleary eyes.
âwhat the hell man? the sun is still rising!â
âwhat do you know about the downstairs neighbor?â
âw-what?â hanni mumbles, rubbing her eyes as she turns to lay on her back and squint at her roommate. ây/n? is this about her?â
âthe girl directly below usâtaller, mean, arrogant, tattoo on her arm and wrist, kind of pretty, nice lips, and jawline⊠ugh! her!â
âthatâs y/n, but youâre reaching with the whole kind of pretty part. petty? yeah, more accurate.â
âlast night i went down and asked her toââ
âyou went to her place? to do what, complain?âÂ
âyes!â hanni shuts her eyes and sinks her head deeper into the pillow, sighing softly again. her roommate is new, she canât be harsh, and plus, itâs danielle.Â
âdani⊠the ra is literally in love with her, and y/n uses that so she can party and get high in her fuckass living room.â
âwhat?â
âdanielle, mo dani, please listen.â hanni sits up, blinking hard as she reaches out ot put a hand on her friends shoulder. âyouâll get used to it, you can use my old headphones and iâll show you my favorite cafe.â
âyouâre just going to let this slide?â
âwell until y/n stops flirting with jiyoung; thereâs nothing we can really do other than cope every fridayâand sometimes saturdayânight.â hanni explains, flopping onto the bed and returning to fetal position. âcan you put the blanket over me, please? iâm tired and cold⊠please.â
danielle frowns before covering her roommates body with her weighted blanket, sighing before she returns to her bed, laying down and recollecting all her memories from the night beforeâof you.
â
youâre late. of course youâre late on the second week of classes, as if last weeks twenty minute surprise appearance wasnât humbling enough.Â
as you rush out of your apartment, youâre met with jiyoung standing right by the exit, as if sheâs been waiting for youâshe probably has. this has happened at least once a week last year. she greets you with her signature smile and a small piece of chocolate, a gesture that would be sweet if you werenât in such a hurry. you force a smile and mumble a quick thanks, but you know whatâs coming next. the compliments, the small talk, the forced out, clichĂ© lines she always uses. itâs all part of her routine, but you really donât have the time for it today. you need to get to class.
fifteen minutes later, youâre finally free from jiyoungâs conversation, but youâre also running dangerously late. again. you sprint across campus, your heart pounding in your chest as you mentally prepare for the inevitable stares and the professorâs disapproving remarks.
when you finally reach the classroom, you throw the door open a little too forcefully. the room falls silent as heads turn to face you, the sudden interruption catching everyoneâs attention. you freeze for a second, cringing at yourself when youâre caught in the spotlight, before the professorâs voice cuts through the silence.
âlate on the second week? what was it, kim⊠no, yangâŠâ he trails off, squinting at you as if trying to remember your name.
you clear your throat, feeling your face heat up. âl/n, l/n y/n,â you correct him, trying to keep your voice steady.
âwell, youâre lucky iâve just started the lecture. please hurry and take a seat, youâve already made quite the impression.â
âsorry, sir,â you mumble, pinching the bridge of your nose in frustration as you scan the room for an empty seat. most of the rows are full, and the weight of all those eyes on you makes your skin prickle with discomfort.
finally, you spot an open seat in the fourth row from the top, right at the edge. you hurry over and drop your bag beside the chair, quickly unzipping it to pull out your laptop. your hands move with practiced speed, signing in and opening a page for notes before setting your bag on the empty seat next to you. you look up, hoping to catch up on what youâve missed so far.Â
and thatâs when you see her.
danielle. sheâs sitting just two seats away from you, her gaze locked on yours the moment you look up. her big brown eyes, framed by those impossibly long lashes, are full of recognitionâand something else you canât quite place, and why are they sparkling? your jaw tenses as you force yourself to look away, zipping up your bag with a little more force than necessary. three seats. thatâs all that separates you from the girl who showed up at your doorstep last friday, the one you dismissed without a second thought. and now here she is, sitting way too close for comfort, her presence making the air around you feel heavier.
of course you blindly chose the spot next to her. the new girl who filed a complaint, only to have the door shut on her. itâs just your luck.
you catch her in your peripheral staring at you for a few more seconds before she redirects her attention towards the professor. you let out a breath of relief, now you just have to get through the next hour and fifty minutes near the cute girl you were an ass to.
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as soon as the class ends, youâre out the door without sparing a glance at danielle. she watches you hurry out, noticing how you started packing up your things five minutes before class was even dismissed. itâs like you couldnât wait to get away.
you make your way to the engineering building, where you know your roommate yunjinâs class ended a bit earlier. when you spot her in the lobby, you walk up with a bothered look on your face.
âgood morningâŠ?â yunjin greets you, her smirk showing sheâs amused by your expression.
âyou wonât believe whoâs in my sociology class,â you say, still reeling from the encounter.
âeveryone takes sociology, even the finance freaks,â she replies, shrugging as if itâs not a big deal.
ânevermind.â you roll your eyes, scoffing. âwhatever, letâs grab a bite. iâm hungry.â
âyou always are,â yunjin chuckles, stepping beside you.
the two of you end up at your favorite local thai place, sharing a large bowl of fried rice. itâs a familiar routineâsince freshman year, youâve known one bowl is more than enough to satisfy both of you. the memory of that first time, half-drunk and thinking the portions would be small, makes you smile despite your lingering annoyance.
as you chew on your second bite, glancing at a notification on your phone, yunjinâs voice cuts through your thoughts. âso, whoâs in your sociology class?â
âdanielle,â you reply, not looking up from your phone.
âwho?â
âthe girl from friday.â
yunjin frowns, trying to recall. âat our party? there wasnât anyone i didnât knowââ
âno, no. the girl you made me deal with. she knocked on the doorâbig eyes, long lashes.â
âoh, her,â yunjin hums, finally understanding. âwhat about her?â
âi closed the door on her that night after she complained or whatever. i didnât think much of it, but then i was late to class because jiyoung wanted to talk to me, and i picked a random spot⊠turns out it was three fucking seats away from herâdanielle.â
yunjin laughs, thankfully before she can take another bite of rice. âseriously?â
âshut up.â
âthatâs hilarious. you think sheâs going to give you shit?â
âi mean,â you poke at your rice, hesitating, âshe doesnât seem like she willâŠâ
but even as you say it, the thought nags at you. danielle doesnât seem like the type to hold a grudgeâpolite and sweet even when you were being arrogantâalmost too good to be true. she looks like she belongs in a fairy tale, with her princess-like appearance and demeanor. meanwhile, you feel like the ugly villain in her story, lurking under the bridge, ready to cast a spell or something like that. the more you think about it, the more ridiculous it seems.
âthen youâll be fine, you were fine shutting the door on her anyway.â
you were fine, but that version of you was under the influence of cheap beer and too focused on going back to your conversation than dealing with someoneâs complaintâeven if it were from danielle.
âi guess.â
â
the next time you host a party, the volumeâs turned down by two notches. you tell yourself itâs because yunjinâs been saying âhuh?â to you more often, but deep down, you know thatâs not the real reason.
youâve also decided to stick with one can of beer instead of three. even yujin seemed surprised when you declined the second.Â
these parties used to be at jakeâs place, but he argued they should be at yours since the ra is madly in love with you, and your place is slightly bigger. you were against it at first, but socializing never hurt, and it made you happy to see others happy. youâd also be lying if you said you didnât enjoy the occasional expensive drink that someone brought when their paycheck had been a bit fatter that week.
now, youâre leaning against the counter while minji rummages through a cupboard, searching for spare plastic cups. you take a sip from your spriteâthe second can of the night, and surprisingly, neither has been alcoholic (you donât count the bitter can of beer, itâs only five percent alcohol). yunjinâs voice cuts through the music just loud enough for you to hear, âyou think that girl will show up again? give you shit?â
âiâd hope not.â you pretend itâs a truthful statement, your tone firm, a little snarky, and a bit confident, but thereâs a small part of you that hopes she does. you catch yourself imagining her showing up in her oversized sleepwear again, her eyes wide, her voice so soft and sweet it makes your chest tighten a little.Â
âand if she does?â
âiâll shut her out again.â
âand if you show up late, then sit three seats away from her again?â
âignorance.â you sip on your sprite again, licking your lips to savor something that actually satisfies your tastebuds.Â
âyouâre good at that.â
âaw, thanks.â you say bitterly, hearing yunjin snicker as she tears open a new pack of red plastic cups. âasshat.â
your orange-haired roommate leans against the counter across from you, then says, âi think jungwon brought penjamin.â his infamous pen, the one you took way too many hits of last time that it had you seeing the stars.Â
ânot again, i donât trust myself.â
she laughs at you again, âi donât trust you either, letâs stick with a hit or two instead of five.â
âand you need to stick with a few drinks instead of passing out on the floor again. youâre lucky you were leaning against the couch.â
âwomp womp.â you canât believe her, what an idiot.
âsay that again when you wake up with your legs in the fucking blinds, or something. i still donât know how you donât have liver damage, and doesnât that affect your performance on the court?â
âconditioned to drink and score threeâs.â
âwhatever.â you sigh, then hear a few knocks from the door.
yunjin raises her brows, then chuckles, âhey, itâs your lovergirl.â
âsheâs not myâ ugh. be right back.âÂ
lovergirl, yunjin is going to wake up upside down in her closet if she keeps it up. thereâs no chance that sheâs attracted to you in the slightest, not with your first impressions. the thought makes you a little dissapointed, but you shake your head, youâre being ridiculous again.Â
you shake the thought away, forcing yourself to focus getting to your door and not tripping on the shoe that had been blindlessly kicked off. thereâs a quiet anticipation simmering beneath your calm exterior as the music gets more faint in your ears. you tell yourself youâre being stupid, but the truth is harder to ignoreâthereâs a part of you that wants her to be at the door, even if itâs just to scold you again.
you open the door, and there she isâmiss lovergirl herself.
âanother party?â she asks, her tone light, almost teasing.
âare you going to tell me to shut the whole thing down? still haven't invested in headphones, have you?â
âactually, i wasnât going toâthe shutting down part, i have headphones being delivered tomorrow.â she replies, smiling. maybe your brows furrow, just a little. âbut the music is a little quieter, that i noticed, so maybe my efforts did pay off.â she pauses, then adds, âanyway, my roommate told me thereâs no getting through to you about these parties. so, i came here to give you this.âÂ
she holds out a keychain with a cardholder attached, and you see a picture insideâa photo of you and your little brother at your high school graduation. heâs about twelve in the picture, braces on and cheeks still chubby. itâs one of your favorite photos, and your eyes widen as you take it from her slowly, almost carefully.
âwhereâd you get this?â you ask, voice a bit more cautious than you intended.
âyou dropped it under your seat last lecture. seemed like you were in such a rush to leave, or to avoid meâŠ?â she tilts her head, batting those impossibly long lashes.
you realize sheâs not in her sleepwear this time. sheâs dressed in everyday clothesâa zip-up over a fitted white shirt, jeans, and some well-worn sneakers. a nike cap sits snugly on her head, her long, wavy hair flowing down in a way that makes you look twice. sheâs wearing light makeup, and it strikes you for the first time how nice her lips are, andâ
âum, thanks,â you mutter.
âitâs no problem.â
âare you going to ask me to turn the volume down now?âÂ
she shakes her head, adjusting the backpack slipping down her shoulder. âno, but i'd appreciate it. youâve already made baby steps.â
if it had been anyone else saying that, youâd have rolled your eyes, maybe even scoffed in their face. but thereâs something about the way danielle says itâso genuinely, so kindlyâthat catches you off guard. youâre used to sharp words and snide remarks, not this⊠breath of fresh air, this three a.m. glass of water in the form of a person.
âright, okay,â you manage to say.
âwell, i'll get going then. my roommateâs friend is coming over to watch a movie with us, so weâd appreciate it if you could maybe turn it down. but, thatâs up to you, mate.âÂ
âoh, okay, yeah.â you feel like youâre melting into a puddle. what is going on with you? âiâll see what i can do.â
ânight then.â
ânight?â
she walks off, your eyes follow her until she reacehs the end of the hall. it was the most casual encounter youâve ever had in a bit, and yet, it felt like so much more.Â
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haerin sits back, watching without a word as hanni and minji bicker over the remote, their voices rising slightly above the hum of the tv. hanni has her arms crossed tightly over her chest, a scowl forming when minji suggests yet another sappy romance. haerin half expects them to start wrestling for control, but just before the tension hits a breaking point, the sound of the door lock twisting stops them. both heads turn to see danielle stepping inside, her hand raised in a small wave, a polite smile on her lips.
âsorry iâm late,â danielle apologizes.
âyouâre good,â hanni replies, running her fingers through her hair to fix it. âmovie time? can you choose, pleaseâŠâ
âyeah! let me get changed first, okay?â
âokay, okay, but hurry or else minjiâs gonna have my limbs cut off or something. and we both know haerin would rather watch than save either of us.â hanni jokes, drawing a chuckle from haerin and a playful glare from minji.Â
a few minutes later, danielle is back in an old t-shirt and plaid pajama pants. she drops herself right between hanni and minji, effectively acting as a buffer. she grabs the remote, settling under the blanket as her legs casually stretch across hanni's lap.
âwhere were you, by the way?â hanni asks, feeling danielleâs legs settle more comfortably over her own. âif the bus was late, you couldâve called.â
âmy bus came early. i just stopped by y/nâs,â danielle replies casually.
minjiâs head snaps toward danielle so fast itâs a wonder she doesnât get whiplash. haerin even lets out a small gasp of âwhat?â
ây/n? you mean l/n y/n?â minji echoes, her tone filled with disbelief. âyou went to her place?â
danielle nods. âshe dropped something in the class we have together, so i returned it.â
âand she didnât bite your head off?â minji asks, eyes wide. âyouâre really something, danielle.â
danielle just laughs softly, her fingers scrolling through the endless netflix catalog in search of a movie they all might actually agree on. she seems unfazed by the shock that mentioning your name has caused, a slight smile playing on her lips. she canât quite understand the big deal. youâve been⊠normal, for the most partâpretty normal, actually, in the three times sheâs spoken to you.
âsheâs really not that bad,â danielle shrugs, finally stopping on a rom-com that catches her eye. âi can fix her.â
âyou can what?â hanni swivels her head toward danielle, eyes wide in disbelief.
âwhat?â danielle grins. âshe doesnât bite.â
âwell, her friend yunjin does,â hanni mutters, thinking back to the group project from hell with yunjin, whoâd spent every meeting hungover and useless. âsheâs probably just like the people she hangs out with.â
âno, i bet sheâs nicer deep down.â
âyouâre too pure for this world,â minji murmurs, feeling danielleâs head lean on her shoulder. âsheâs got a bad reputation, you know.â
âwell, she turned the volume down for us,â danielle insists.
âshe did?â hanni raises an eyebrow, surprised.
âyeah, just before i visited her. i told her weâd be having a movie night and said iâd appreciate it if she toned it down a bit. now we can barely feel the bass.â
hanni thinks for a moment. maybe the music is a bit quieter, but sheâs gotten so used to it, she barely notices the difference. minji and haerin, on the other hand, don't deal with the noise oftenâhaerin lives with her parents, and minjiâs dorm is on the other wing.
danielle presses play, and the conversation shifts. they all settle in, pushing the topic of you, the downstairs neighbor, out of their minds as they focus on the opening scenes of the movie.
hanni leans into haerin, a smile on her lips as her legs tangle with danielleâs. âyouâre so interesting, man,â she mutters, half-amused, half-bewildered.
â
there aren't any assigned seatsâit's university, for crying out loud. still, you find yourself three seats away from danielle again, like last time, pretending not to notice her as you settle in, determined not to drop anything today. you set your things down carefully, opening up your laptop and pulling out your ipad, keeping your eyes firmly on the screen.
out of the corner of her eye, danielle watches you fumble with the apple pen, spinning it between your ring and middle finger. she sees it slip from your grip and clatter to the floor beside you. you let out a soft sigh, standing to retrieve it, making your way down two rows. when you straighten up and head back, you catch danielle trying to hide a smile, her shoulders shaking with quiet laughter.
âwhatâs so funny?â you ask, a little defensive.
âyour pen-spinning skills,â danielle says, turning fully toward you with that same amused smile. âslippery fingers?â
âshouldnât you be reviewing before the lecture?â
âi usually get here fifteen minutes early,â she replies, still grinning. âiâve already done that.â
âwhatever.â you drop back into your seat, tapping away at your keyboard as the professor approaches the front, fiddling with the hdmi cable. you open your notes app, trying to ignore the way danielleâs laughter still lingers in the air.
âyou know i donât bite, right?â her voice breaks your focus.
âwhat?â
she nods at the empty seats between you. âyouâre sitting pretty far⊠come sit next to me.â
âiâm not getting up. my stuffâs already out.â
danielle rolls her eyes, moving the desk platform in front of her as she stands, gathering her things without a second thought, and before you know it, sheâs dropping into the seat beside you. you werenât expecting thatâher choosing to sit next to you so boldly. but there she is, right next to you, with that grin stretching across her face as she adjusts her notebook.
âthere, lazy bum,â she teases, her tone light, eyes flicking back to the professor as he sets up the projection.
you find yourself staring, caught off guard by how close she is. she smells sweetâlike cherries, with a mix of amber and jasmine. you quickly shift your gaze back to your laptop, opening your calendar and planner and, almost instinctively, the tab with the jacket youâve been eyeing for weeks.
when you steal another glance at danielle, sheâs put on a pair of glasses. stupid, adorable glasses that make her look even cuterâsomething you didnât think was possible.Â
you canât help the small grin that creeps onto your face as you focus back on the slides on the big screen, but your mind is still partially with her, sitting beside you, close enough to feel the warmth radiating off her skin.
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for the next month, sociology becomes your favorite classânot because of the subject, but because it means you get almost two hours near danielle. sheâs just as sweet as she looks, always greeting you with a warm smile and tossing out casual small talk that somehow feels more personal every time. she compliments you now and then, little things like âyour hair looks nice todayâ or âi like your shoes,â which leaves you more flustered than youâd care to admit. soon enough, it's routineâyou both leave class together, walking side by side until you reach the main lobby of the science building. danielle always waves goodbye with that bright smile, her eyes sparkling, even when the sky is overcast. you smile back, feeling a little bashful, but somehow, it feels right.
sometimes, you even meet up at the entrance of your little dorm complex to head to class together. danielle's just a floor above, so you run into her in the elevator sometimes too. thereâs something about herâsomething so effortlessly charming and magnetic. itâs like sheâs a light, and youâre a moth, drawn into her presence without even realizing it.
what you donât realize is that jiyoung, your ra, has noticed these little interactions. she catches glimpses now and then, her curiosity piqued.
after another class ends, you wave goodbye to danielle, planning to meet up with yunjin, but before you can leave, jiyoung intercepts you.Â
"hey, didnât see you this morning,â she says, her tone casual but her eyes narrowing slightly. âi havenât been seeing you around as much, actually."
"oh, yeah⊠iâve beenâŠâ you start, your gaze flicking past her to danielle, whoâs almost out of the building. jiyoung looks in the same direction to see danielle as well, her brows furrow just a bit. you continue, âum, spending more time with this girl in my sociology class."
"right, danielle? sheâs on the floor above you, right?â
âyeahâŠâ
âhm,â jiyoung murmurs, more to herself than to you. âyouâve been spending a lot of time with her, havenât you?â
âi mean, yeah. sheâs nice andâwhy does it matter?â
âyouâre not into her, are you?â
the question catches you off guard, like a punch you didnât see coming. you stare at jiyoung like sheâs lost her mind. âw-what? n-no, no, sheâs justâ you know, weâre friends. weâre friendly.â
ânothing more, right?â
âi mean, no, but even if it were⊠why does it matter to you?â
jiyoungâs gaze drops to the floor, and she mumbles, âi donât know? i mean, you said you didnât even want to date.â
you pinch the bridge of your nose, exhaling in frustration. âlook, iâve got to meet up with yunjin. iâll see you around, okay?â
you turn to leave, but jiyoungâs soft scoff stops you in your tracks. she hesitates for a moment before speaking again.
âby the way,â she says, her tone light but pointed. you turn your head slightly, just enough for her to see the edge of your expression. âyou canât party this weekend. thereâs been an increase in complaints.â
you pivot to face her fully, opening your mouth to argue but then closing it again. you bite the inside of your lip, letting the frustration simmer before you finally nod, muttering a resigned, âfine.â
jiyoung watches you, her expression unreadable, as you walk away, but you donât look back. the weekend suddenly feels a lot quieter than you planned.
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even if youâd wanted to party, it wouldn't have been an option. yunjinâs gone home for the weekend to help her sister, and youâre stuck in your dorm, feeling sicker than youâve ever felt.
the day started off fine, just a light headache that you shrugged off. but somewhere between the gym and a quick grocery run, everything went downhill. by the time you made it back to your place, it felt like your body had been run over by a truck. your head throbbed, every limb ached, and a wave of dizziness nearly had you collapsing against the wall as soon as you stepped inside.
you barely made it to the kitchen, dropping the paper bag of groceries onto the counter before stumbling toward your bedroom. the cold hit you like a slap to the face, making you shiver uncontrollably. you rummaged through your closet for the thickest sweatshirt and sweatpants you could find, pulling them on with shaky hands.Â
you didnât even think to check your temperature; the pounding in your head and the chills wracking your body were enough to know you were in trouble. grabbing two ibuprofen from the drawer, you swallowed them dry with a couple of forced gulps of water, then collapsed onto your bed.Â
you pulled the covers around you, but they did little to stop the violent shivers. your teeth chattered, and you curled in on yourself, hugging your knees to your chest as if that would somehow keep the cold at bay. every breath felt heavy, every blink longer than the last, until finally, exhaustion pulled you under.
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the music is noticeably quieter these days, sparing your hearing and everyone else a floor above or below you. really, itâs all danielle's doing. she's somehow found your weaknessâthose soft, pleading eyes and that gentle voice asking you to turn it down. itâs a saturday night, and normally sheâd hear the faint beats of charli xcx or troye sivan vibrating up through the floor, but tonight thereâs nothing.Â
danielle seems to be the only one in her shared dormâand probably the whole buildingâwho feels unsettled by the lack of music. the silence is almost unnerving.Â
âfinally, i can take a nap without those headphones on,â hanni sighs, dropping face-first onto her bed like a log.Â
danielle, leaning against her bedframe, bites her lip. âdonât you think itâs weird though? no party tonight?â
âweird? dani, this is a miracle,â hanni mumbles, already half-asleep. âitâs been months since she hasnât partied, and that was only because we were all gone during summer break.â
but as hanni's breathing evens out and she drifts off, danielleâs frown deepens. it is weird. youâve never missed a saturday night. she doesnât even have your number to text and check if everythingâs alright.
minutes pass, and her mind races with possibilitiesâmaybe youâre just tired, or busy with something else, or⊠sick? before she knows it, danielle is up and moving, driven by a strange concern she doesnât fully understand. she tucks hanni in properly, pulling the blanket up over her instead of letting it dangle off the bed.Â
once she's sure hanni is comfortable, she heads for the door, slipping on her slides and grabbing her key. she feels a small surge of determination as she steps into the hallway. if somethingâs wrong, she needs to know. danielle isnât sure what sheâll find out, but she's already halfway down the hall, her feet carrying her to your place almost on their own.
she gets to your door quickly, fixing her hair because youâre somehow the only person who makes her feel the need to fuss over her appearance.Â
danielle knocks twice, softly at first, just enough to be heard over normal conversation, but there's no answer. she waits, listening for any sound from inside, even from your orange-haired roommateâbut nothing. she knocks again, a little louder this time, about the same level as when you party. still nothing.Â
determined, she finally bangs on the door with all her might and shouts, "y/n! hello?" her voice echoes in the hallway, and a few curious heads peek out from behind their own doors, wondering whatâs going on.
there's a long moment of silence before she hears a faint, âcoming! coming...â it sounds like you, but groggier, almost as if the sound is muffled by the door between you two.
danielle waits, her heart pounding in her chest, until the door opens just a crack, and you peek out, looking utterly exhausted.Â
ây/n?â
âw-what, what...â you murmur, your voice barely more than a whisper, and slightly slurred, like youâve been asleep for days. "whoâ danielle? what are you doing here? there's no party," you mutter, breathing heavily like youâve just run a mile. "you donât have to⊠have to yell at me."
âiâm not here to yell at you, i never yell at you, silly," danielle says softly, a small smile on her face. "can i come in?â
you hum in agreement, and she pushes the door open further, stepping inside.Â
the apartment is dimly lit, with only the glow from the streetlights outside and a small lamp in the living room. danielleâs eyes dart aroundâsheâs never actually been inside before, just caught glimpses through the doorway during those parties. itâs surprisingly clean, smelling of lavender and fresh laundry instead of the stale beer or weed she expected.Â
you stumble forward, catching yourself on the kitchen counter, your legs shaky and unsteady.Â
danielle rushes over, her hand reaching for your arm. âare you okay?â
ây-yeah, iâm fine," you mumble, but your voice is rough, strained.Â
she flicks on a light, and you wince, shielding your eyes with the back of your hand. danielle guides you to the couch, sitting you down gently. you slump back into the cushions, and she takes a closer lookâyour hair is stuck to your forehead, cheeks rosy, and thereâs a dullness in your usually sharp eyes.
without thinking, she presses the back of her hand to your forehead, feeling the intense heat radiating from your skin. âyouâre burning up,â she says softly, concern etched in her voice. âhow long have you been like this?â
âiâ i donât know⊠iâm so tiredâŠâ you murmur, your eyes fluttering closed for a moment.
âletâs get you to your bed,â danielle suggests. âcan you show me?â
you nod weakly, and she helps you to your feet. you sway slightly, leaning heavily on her as she tries to steady you. youâre taller, heavier, and sheâs not exactly built for thisâbut she does her best, slipping an arm around your waist to support you.
your head drops forward, and you breathe slowly against her shoulder. danielle's heart races as she feels the warmth of your breath, and when you look up, your faces are inches apart, close enough that she can feel the heat radiating off you. her cheeks warm up, she wonders if your fever is contagious.
but she shakes it off, tightening her grip on you. âcome on,â she whispers. âletâs get you to bed.â
you lead her to your room, and sheâs a little surprised by how tidy it is. the walls are painted in soft, earthy tones, the furniture minimalistic and neatly arranged. polaroids and film photos cover the walls, snapshots of you and your friends, some of family, too. thereâs a warmth to it, a sense of calm that she hadnât expected. she notices a movie poster above your bedâsomething she doesnât recognize. you collapse onto the bed immediately, curling up into a tight ball, yanking the nearest blanket over you with a groan.
danielle watches you for a moment, then quietly slips out of the room. you lie there, thoughts buzzing in your foggy mind. how did she know you were sick? why is she here? did she come just for you? did you forget something? but the craziest thought of all is that danielle is in your apartment, just the two of you. the realization sends a tiny thrill through your chest.
she returns a few minutes later, carrying a bowl, a bottle of medicine, and a thermometer. she sits beside you on the edge of the bed, nudging you over gently so you're lying flat on your back, your tired eyes meeting hers. she sets the bowl beside you and slides the thermometer into your mouth. you stare at her, feeling a bit dazed, and she offers a small, reassuring smile.
when it beeps, she pulls it out and checks the screen, her brow furrowing slightly. âyouâve got a fever, itâs pretty high,â she murmurs, setting the thermometer down and reaching for a water bottle. âi kind of went through your place to find this, i hope thatâs okay.â
you nod weakly, letting her help you sit up on your elbows. she presses the bottle to your lips, and you sip slowly, a few drops spilling out and dribbling down your chin. you reach up, embarrassed, to wipe them away, but danielle just grins at you gently, wiping them with her sleeve.
she places the bottle down and dips her hand into the bowl. you lie back, too tired to care, hearing the soft sound of water being wrung out. then, without warning, she presses a cool, damp cloth to your forehead, and you wince at the sudden chill, a small whine escaping your lips. danielle clicks her tongue softly, using her thumb to swipe a stray drop of water away from the corner of your eye.Â
âi know itâs cold, but itâll help bring your fever down,â she explains gently.
you feel her hand slide down, and suddenly her fingers are wrapped around yours. her thumb brushes over your knuckles in slow, soothing circles, and you let out a shaky breath, feeling a warmth bloom in your chest. you hum softly, the tension easing out of your body.
"is it okay if i stay for a bit?" she asks quietly. "i don't want you to be alone, but this is your place, after all."
âp-please,â you whisper, gripping her hand tighter, needing the comfort. âplease stay.â
she smiles warmly, nodding, and you feel the weight of her presence, steady and calming, beside you. âiâll stay close then,â she promises softly. âdonât worry.â
â
you wake up with a low groan, feeling like youâve just been hit by a bus. every muscle in your body aches, and your head throbs just a bit. blinking against the dim light filtering through the blinds, you sit up slowly, rubbing the sleep from your eyes. you look around, trying to get your bearings.Â
your gaze falls on the bowl of water beside the bed, with two rags soaking in it, and the thermometer resting on the edge. memories from before you passed out come flooding back, and your cheeks heat up at the thought of danielle sitting by your side, taking care of you. your heart does a little flip at the memory, and you shake your head, trying to steady your thoughts.
thereâs no sign of her in your room. sheâs not in your bed, and you exhale a breath you didnât realize you were holding. honestly, if you had woken up to find her next to you, youâre pretty sure your heart wouldâve just exploded right then and there.Â
with a bit more urgency than necessary, you get up and make your way to the living room. your steps are quiet as you peek around the corner, and there she is, curled up on the couch. sheâs asleep, head resting on a pillow, her zip-up hoodie pulled over her legs like a makeshift blanket. the sight tugs at something in your chest, a mix of guilt and gratitude. she stayed the whole night.
you hurry back to your room, grabbing another blanket from your bed, and return to her side. you drape it over her carefully, making sure not to wake her. danielle shifts slightly, mumbling something you canât quite make out. her face softens in sleep, and you find yourself smiling without meaning to.Â
the morning light slips through the blinds, casting a warm glow across her face, illuminating the soft curve of her cheek, the way her lashes fan out against her skin. she looks peaceful, so pretty in the soft light, and you let yourself enjoy the sight for just a moment longer than you probably should.
you let out a small sigh and decide to leave her be, tiptoeing away quietly. but as you move, you canât help but glance back one last time, her serene expression etched into your memory. then, feeling a strange mix of comfort and nerves, you head to your room to get yourself ready.
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danielle wakes up only thirty minutes after you, sitting up a minute after sheâs blinked herself awake. she sits up and catches you on the floor by the coffee table, knees drawn to your chest, a bowl of fruit and two pieces of toast in front of you. her vision clears, and she catches you popping a blueberry into your mouth, scrolling absently through your phone.
"good morning..." she mutters, stretching and rubbing her eyes.
you turn at the sound of her voice, surprised to see her up already. she's quicker at waking up than you; you would have stayed in bed for another ten minutes at least, but the pounding in your head forced you up earlier. "hey, i didnât think youâd stay the whole night."
âi just wanted to make sure you were alright," she explains, moving to sit next to you, mirroring your posture, knees tucked in. "i checked in on you during the night to change the rag on your head and everything, seems like youâre back to normal.â
âyou didnât have to, danielle,â you say, feeling a wave of gratitude mixed with embarrassment.
âbut i wanted to.â she shrugs lightly, her eyes softening as she looks at you. âhow are you feeling?â
âi took two advils before brushing my teeth," you say with a small smile. "feeling pretty great now.â
âiâm glad. your fever was pretty high.â
âwas it?â you raise an eyebrow, grabbing a piece of strawberry and popping it into your mouth.
âyeah.â she picks a piece of kiwi from the bowl and eats it. âi was worried.â
you turn your head, meeting her gaze directly. her eyes look a bit tired, her face bare of makeup, but she still looks goodâso natural, so effortlessly beautiful. a thought crosses your mind: you owe her for this, for being so kind and caring when she didnât have to be.
";ast night i didnât hear any loud noises from downstairs," danielle continues, âthere wasnât a party going on, and i got a little concerned.â
you chuckle, setting your phone aside, resting your cheek against your knee. âso you came because⊠there wasnât a party?â
âit was pretty suspicious,â she insists with a playful grin. âthen you opened the door looking like youâd just fought a bear, stumbling around. it was kind of funny, and cute.â
her compliment catches you off guard. you turn away quickly, pretending to be more interested in the fruit than you are. "thank you, danielle," you mumble. "i owe you."
âitâs nothing,â she says softly. "as long as youâre okay, thatâs all that matters." her words feel like a direct hit to your heart, itâs as if cupid had a gun instead of a bow and shot you right in the chest, making you feel strangely warm and fluttery inside.
âyouâre so⊠hey, what about your roommate? isn't she wondering where you are?â
âoh, hanni,â danielle giggles, checking her phone for any messages but finding none. âshe was passed out before i left last night. it's not even ten yet, so sheâs probably still asleep.â she stands up, and you rise with her, feeling a slight pang of disappointment. âbut i should go check on her, and fix myself up. i probably look like a mess right now.â
you look perfect. it almost lips right off your tongue, but you manage to shut your mouth.
you lead her to the door, wishing she could stay a bit longer, just a little while more. âof course,â you say, feeling a knot tighten in your chest. âthank you again for everything.â
danielle places a gentle hand on your shoulder. âitâs nothing,â she says warmly. âiâll see you around.â
you open the door, watching her step outside, but she turns back, hesitating. before she can say anything else, you speak first. "hey, danielle?"
âyes?â
âare you free later?â
âiâm free all day,â she replies, though she adds, âbut i might run errands with hanni.â
âright, well.â you play with your hair nervously. danielle tilts her head, noticing the shift in your demeanor. âyou should come over tonight. iâll cook you dinnerâto repay you, of course.â
she chuckles, a faint blush coloring her cheeks. âthatâs quite intimate,â she teases. âis this your way of asking me out?â
âuhââ your heart races, but you nod, swallowing hard. âyes. and i'd hope your way of accepting is⊠coming over around six?â
danielle's smile widens, her eyes sparkling with amusement. âiâll see you then, as long as youâre not sick again.â
âiâd count on that if it meant having you take care of me again.â
she glances away, hiding a smile, and you catch sight of the tiny moles on her face. "you're really good at this," she says softly.
âiâm really not,â you admit, âbut itâs you, so i thought iâd try a little harder.â
she rolls her eyes playfully, then steps closer and presses a soft kiss to your cheek. your skin heats up instantly, heart racing faster than before. she pulls back with a grin, waving as she says, âsee you tonight, six p.m.!â
âsee youâŠâ you reply, still stunned as you watch her walk down the hall. she glances back twice, each time your smiles mirroring and growing wider.
you wonder if you should cut down on the weekly parties, maybe dedicate more time to being with her. but that might be getting ahead of yourself. for now, all you know is that you have to prepare the best dinner ever tonightâsomething that might just earn you another kiss, maybe on the lips this time.
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Ateez 'n free use (+ somno)
Everything has been consentually talked about beforehand, in passing and seriously !! Mwuah. Lots of smut under the cut. barking. foaming at the mouth.
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Wooyoung. It doesn't take much convincing for him to agree, even the words would have him nodding eagerly. He doesn't even question the trust you two have cause you're both in sync like that, maybe he hands his heart out to you on a platter, despite his own head telling him he could end up with it broken (he doesn't care cause he knows he loves you to the moon and back). But if you are just as agreeing as him it'll have his heart soaring. He definitely uses you most days, happily too. He'll tease you; not letting you cum as he gets himself off. But it doesn't last for long when he's between your thighs a minute later. Over and over again and throughout the day. Teasing you so you'll find a reason to ruin him for the evening.
When you both first started, I can see his eyes flashing with everything he'll want to do or want you to do to him. When he realizes you're not saying it as a joke anymore (like you have done before), he completely folds, he's just a whole sub for the first day you guys try it out, whether a bratty one or a good one, he cries for it either way. He gets himself worked up the entire day because it caught him off guard, so whenever he thinks about anything you're doing, calling his name- specifically the nickname you use for him- god, he's throbbing. Telling him to pick up his mess that he left like some guy who can't clean up after himself with your mad tone that reminds him of how you fuck him up when he's being a brat. He'll most likely hide away during practice to try and jerk off (knowing him, he probably also sent you an audio message of it to see if you'll be the first to cave and just brutally use him) but it's just not working :( he gets so frustrated, on the edge of being mean because he's so horny. He snaps his tone, and his attitude sours into something whiny and needy.
He gets borderline bratty when he's so horny. So, at some point, when you're doing your skincare, he pushes at your lower back to bend you over the counter just the slightest, his hands sliding to your hips when he comes to grind his erection against you, a shuddered sigh falling from his lips. His head falls over your shoulder blade. "need this, please, 'm gonna make you feel good too, just want to be inside so bad" he'd mumble as he wiggled your pants down, giving you the opportunity to stop if you'd like. He wouldn't waste a second to jerk his dick out of his own pants and line up to your core. He notices you're also wet, so you've probably thought about this as much as he has all day. You truly don't know how much that drives him crazy. And knowing that you're always ready for him has him driving his cock all the way in you.
Only stilling for you to adjust to his stinging size. But he doesn't sit there for long because he's trembling with his hands placed on either side of you, his hips grinding your ass forward cause of his pelvis. It really doesn't take long for him to cum, especially if you're telling him how needy he is. How he can't even wait til you're done to fuck. "n-no, don't move, please- ill be quick- let me cum-" He whimpers and agrees with everything you say. "You're right- you're always right- fuck I'm addicted to you- I'm your whore- oh god-" lost in the way you feel around him as he drives his hips all the way to meet yours in sloppy liquidy slaps. His hands grip the counter around your stomach tightly, his fingers turning white from the grip, caging you against it. His eyes clenched close every so often, strangled gasps choked from his throat. He paints your walls with his cum, slumping over your back and shaking ever so lightly in the afterglow. You don't get to cum because he already did before you. He verbalized that when he tried to rub circles over your neglected nerve bundle. You swipe his hand away, going on to wash your own and continue your skincare, even with him still inside. He loudly whimpers, knowing he's in for a long night for every rule he's broken today. :((( he's sorry!(no he's not)
When you brutally and completely obliterate him later, tied to the bed and shaking after every edge or orgasm he has. You finish him with an unhealthy amount of kisses to his face and aftercare that has him cuddled up on your stomach, his face digging into your side. He falls asleep like that. It's really no for long when he wakes up, jolted from a pleasant and not very wholesome dream. Your hand is already stroking him over his shorts, cupping and pushing against his hard on that's imprinted and leaning against your hip from where he's halfway thrown over you. âAre you awake now? So needy woo, even when you're asleep, trying to hump me like a pillowâ he whimpers when you laugh at him, pushing his thighs apart for more friction and shoving his face back into your chest. âCome on baby, you want to cum again? So early?â your hand stops for just a second, enough for his teary and tired eyes to blink up at you. Your hand slipping past his waistband and jerking his sticky tip. He's loud and definitely more affected like this. Choking on a sob when your nails scrape against his length and veins. He cums with a guttural choking gasp, jerking forward to stimulate himself the rest of the way with your palm. Staining his shorts with semen. He's definitely fucking you when he wakes up later. Even if you're still in deep sleep. Two can play that game.
Mingi. Oh. Oh! It takes a good hard minute for it to click. He loves it, though. Of course, he trusts you (a little too much), and he'll shyly ask if you trust him as much too (and you do!). It also doesn't take much convincing for him. He gets so turned on from the idea. Just imagining being able to get off whenever you're around. You might actually be fucking more often because of it. Like, every day. His libido is crazy. But what drives his will is the idea of being buried balls deep in you. And with somno??? Oh lord.
You're asleep when he comes home from practice, and he just really wanted you. Even when he tried to wake you up with a gentle pat to your shoulder, you don't even greet him. Turning over away from him. He knows you're not ignoring him on purpose, too tired to respond to the outside world in your head. He didn't think about using you in your sleep until he was choking on a cup of cold water. Remembering the conversation you had on the phone earlier. âYknow mingi, if I'm ever asleep when you get home, I don't mindâ.
He's slipping himself between your legs on the bed, carefully. Of course, he notices when the only thing you're wearing is his shirt and underwear. Watching you sleep on your stomach with a pillow propped under your chest comfortably and your arm shoved under the pillow where your head lays. Missing the way his body would be next to yours even in your unconscious state. He'd coo internally, pushing your thigh up so it's leaning up on the bed some more, your core and ass sticking out from the angle through the tight fabric of your underwear. He'd slip his fingers into you, pushing the thin fabric aside, working you open with quick and gentle scissoring motions. He'd praise you with his own tiny breaths when you clenched around the digits. Watching your face scrunch up from the feeling. Your head digging into the pillow some more and pushing back against his hand that's rubbing against your cunt. He knows your cue and clumsily pulls his fingers out before you can cum, whimpering in your sleep.
âShh, im putting it in now princess, don't worryâ he'd kiss your neck, leaning over you. Ready to please with something bigger and more fulfilling. His knees placed on eitherside of your hips just as he pulls his pants down. He lines his tip, holding your panties aside so he can slip in comfortably. It's so easy when you're relaxed. So pliable around his big cock when he sinks in, his hands gripping your lower hips. And holy fuck. Mingi is definitely doing this again. His eyes cloud as you swallow him in, every inch being lubed up easily. He sets a slow pace, pushing you further up the mattress with his bigger body that cages over your own soft and completely willful one. His hips rock forward, every so often to pull all the way back until his tip is around your ring and just slide in. He groans under his breath, quiet in the night. Your own sounds are whimpered and small due to the pillow in your face. Your face scrunches, and mingi feels you stirring, moving in your sleep as you begin to wake up. âHey sleeping beautyâ he shushes, leaning over you to prop his hands on either side of your head instead, making sure he doesnât slip out. ââm just using you like you told me toâ he would sigh into his words, stuttering every so often when he bottoms out again and again, his hips dig and prod so good, burying to the hilt and pushing his tip into your cervix. âPerfect pussy, was made for me..â he groans, fingers digging hard into the sheets. âmingi..â You finally whisper, driving his heart rate higher, he hums to answer you, thrusting his hips down quicker.
Groaning at your walls fluttering. You're cumming with a shudder, pushing your ass back against his thrusts. âmingi-â you heave, shoving your face into the pillow. With a few extra sloppy thrusts, mingi stills with himself buried to the hilt inside you. It pools deep inside you, leaving you warm and sticky and oh so full. âTaking it soooo good, just like that..â he praises, soft breaths fanning against your face. He slips himself out to lay beside you, just to lay down for a bit. Your eye peaks open, meeting his sweaty face. âHi, I missed you,â he chuckles.
San. He's so excited and so ready for it whenever, just nodding along and mutually agreeing on the topic. He'll want to know you're fully in it, even going out of his way for consent first at the start of the day. Like, always asking for consent even if you tell him to just use you already. Trust is easy when it's always consented beforehand. He loves you a lot, wouldn't even debate with you on the subject of who loves who more. And it isn't even a question when he trusts you blindly all the time.
He wants you to initiate that first time, so when you pull him out of the room as soon as he's off stage, he knows the way your feet stomp, n the way you grip his wrist in your hands. He bows his head at everyone who passes, all of them seemingly put off by your behavior. But it doesn't matter cause san is about to get high off of you. His face in shoved into your core the minute his knees hit the floor of the bathroom, his pants creasing, he's still sweaty from performing on stage, but who gives a fuck when your leg is thrown over his shoulder. Pussy drinker !!! He swallows so hard and his tongue licks everything up, throat vibrating when he moans over your clit. You're tugging his hair and his scalp burns in the best way. You cum shortly after, and he devours it all. Pushing him into leaning against the wall so you can slot to your own knees and drop his pants, his buckle cluttering against the floor. His head gets thrown against the wall when you take him in your mouth, he palms your head but doesn't dare to grip it. The pace you set on his cock is yours to control and yours alone. He moans airily, thrusting his cock down your throat, I can see san preferring head to be messy, especially when you go down on him. So make those nasty gargling sounds and slurp him like you're thirsty. âY-ah- you couldn't wait?â He asks through a moan, hands wrapping around to pull your hair out of your face. Ever the gentleman as he plunges his pulsing tip down your sloppy mouth. You hum around him, as if that's an answer. He cries, âoh- just like that- ughâ you hum again, he thrusts hard, cumming just as harshly. You swallow everything and more, overstimulating him when your cheeks hollow as you pull off him with a pop. He's pulling you up to sloppily make out. You stop him, finger over his lips when he chases you. âWe have to get back baby, I can't be late.â
n somno? He's the one to initiate it. He's coming back to your shared hotel room after doing a live. Exhausted and just wanting to cuddle. The first thing he hears when he moves into the bed next to you is you calling his name, hand reaching around for him. âSan?â You whisper. He heeds your call with a kiss on your cheek. Intertwining your wandering hand with his. âI'm here babyâ You turn over your side, humming with content when you fall back to dreamland. Something about you calling him, just needing to feel his hand over you, god, it's ridiculous, but he's hard. He tries to breathe, to ward the boner away. But you look so pretty in those shorts, and your top is so silky falling off your shoulder like that.
And soon enough he's giving into his desires and working his cock with his hand that isn't in yours. Tugging himself off and hiding his noises, it's not enough, of course not, cause it's not your pussy, he's just not in it, even when he spits in his hand and uses his precum. He can't even focus, turning you over to lay flat on your back, his hand slipping from yours. You stir, just slightly, eye peaking open to look down at him over your waist, he holds himself just above you, pecking the skin where the shirt rid up on your tummy. He kisses your hip that's free of the cloth on it, trailing kisses everywhere. âCan I pretty? Can I please have you right now?â he whispers so sweetly. You nod, despite still being groggy. âlet me sleep still okay?â. You don't have to tell him twice, he kisses just under the swell of your stomach, appreciatively, dipping his hands into your shorts and undies to pull them off in one go. âJust let me do it all, don't worry your pretty head about anythingâ Pussy drinker !!!! His face is buried inside you, grinding his cock against the white sheets, you hum and moan quietly, urging him on.
He brushes his nose against your clit and indulges himself on working you with his tongue and his fingers, praising you through breaths when you come to the edge, he lets you cum with a gaspy call of his name, encouraging your thighs to almost suffocate him when he laps up your juices. He crawls up to you with one more appreciative kiss against your clit, pushing his cock in with ease, neglected and so red :( he practically falls apart above you. Snapping his hips a couple of times to be as close to you, pushing himself to cum from all the strain he's been putting his poor cock through. He pants when he cums, your name falling off his tongue like a sinatry, all the while you hardly stir, eyebrows scrunching at the warmth of his load gathering in your cunt. You're so warm, he falls atop you with a sigh, stilling inside. You're both definitely going for a second round, cause he woke you up and now he's the sleepy one.
Seonghwa. Oh! Okay! Oh god. He loves the idea, although a little nervous at first, all mutual agreements might end up with you both already going through a list of things that is completely fine. Would want to know everything you don't like and do like beforehand. He's so happy to know you trust him, although it took a hard time for him to open up to you, he's completely and wholeheartedly in it as soon as he knows, communication is the first thing with him and then trust. It's very sweet for a while until you guys actually get to doing it.
Uhm, I also see him as a pussy drinker, sorry not sorry. He wants to be buried in you all the time. But it isn't until you're propped up on the couch, the tv playing in the distance, he's been needy for affection lately and maybe you haven't noticed it as much, he shifts against your hip, head leaning over your shoulder, watching your eyes slump close and flutter from his breath on your cheek. For a second you think he's getting up when he slips down the couch, but the next he's throwing your legs over his shoulder and tossing your pants. When did that happen? âGo on love, keep sleeping, don't mind meâ you do mind. A lot. He kisses your inner thigh. Even as he pushes his hair behind his ears softly and sticks his tongue out to lick along your entirety. You buck as he swirls your little bud, sucking on it. His eyes are closed in bliss, hands gripping your thighs so tightly.
He eats you out like a man enjoying a five course meal, knowing every sweet spot that has you seeing stars, even without his fingers you cum with his name on your lips, but he keeps going, nosing your thigh before he's diving back in. He has you there in mere minutes again, you can't even focus on the dream you were just in. I can see seonghwa with his head buried in your thighs for hours with a few breaks in between that has you thinking he's done(he is not) trying out every little thing he thinks of, how quickly he can get you there and how easily you come undone if he just puts even his fingertips in. He teases you with his words and edges you on. Every so often if you're just doing something casual, he'll stick his hands down your pants and make you cum on his fingers. âThat was a good one love, you sounded so prettyâ you hate him. But it's no different when you straddle his waist when he's laying on the bed, his own phone in his hands.
He greets you gently, it's really innocent at first cause you're touchy and seonghwa loves it when you're touchy. When he notices your hips are wiggling back and forth over his lap, he places his phone to the side to watch you, you're just,,, just there. Hovering above him, he can feel the heat of your body over his own, your head on his chest as you pretend to relax with him. He knows what you're doing, and he lets you, his cock stirring in his silky pants at the thought of being inside you. Your finger scraps against the hem of his pants, he moans quietly. You pull him out of his slacks and pump him the rest of the way to make him fully erect, his hand lulled to the side as his phone continues to play the video he was once watching. You pump him slowly, watching his tip pebble with sticky white drops. He watches you come up to hover your hips above him, lifting your oversized shirt to the side. It's then he realizes you're not in anything other than the shirt. His lip perked up into a smirk, it's quickly wiped away when you sink down on him. His mouth falling agape. Screw his phone, it's already gone, across the bed. His hands guide your hips in lazy swirls, pretty moans falling from his mouth. His eyebrows furrow and he's just so pretty as you lifts your hips and drill them down on him, cutting off his moans every time you do so. His fingertips dig into your waist, pleading for you to keep going and helping you out when you slow down. Taking it at your own pace until he swings you forward and thrusts up into you.
It's you using him, but he needs to be buried to the hilt the entire time. âKeep going- mmâ His cock throbbing against your insides and hitting so deep cause he's so long. He can get loud but it's mostly breathy moans. When he cums- and it's inevitable- he's crying from the overstimulation of you continuing to hug his cock in your cunt. He watches you swirl your hips forward to chase your own orgasm, pleading for you. âSâtoo much please please- cum on my cock- need it so badâ Not to stop, but to get there with him as he sputters with tears down his cheeks from how good he feels. You cum quietly, falling over his chest and leaving yourself buried in his neck, he whimpers. Your hips continuing to swirl. He grips them, stopping them so he can get some relief. When he's softening inside you, he kisses your head gently. Picking up his phone to continue scrolling.
Hongjoong. Again! He loves the idea. It doesn't take any convincing. He might be the one to bring it up first. It'll start off with free use and gradually get to talking about the somno part. He'll tell you he wants to know your thoughts before he voices his own, just so he isn't pressuring you into it. He buzzes with excitement and also just so much love. He's always wanted you both to feel comfortable enough to get to this part of your relationship. And when it finally comes up, he just uses and abuses it after the initial agreement. God. He loves knowing you trust him to do it to you whenever, and he vocally tells you he loves the idea of you using him when you feel like it. Despite being shy with how he says it. It doesn't take much time for him to fall completely for you and trust you with his entire being.
I see him using you all the time. Whenever he can get his sneaky fingers around your hips and dig his boner into you. Casually talking about his day when you're standing at the kitchen counter, well- he's already pulling your dress up and slotting your underwear down in a swoop. His nimble fingers slotting into you quickly. âWhat was that? Go on angelâ he'll want you to talk through it, telling him about your day through whimpers and stuttering. ân then she- oh god joong just like that-â youâd end up a mess, and he hums, encouraging your words. Pulls out just as you're about to cum. And then he kisses your cheek and pulls your underwear back up. he's the worse. Ugh. You'll have to be the first to fuck him up. He's talking as he drives, a quiet tone to his voice in the peace and quiet, completely oblivious to the heat in your eyes. He stares at the road and practically jumps when you lean over into his lap, his hand goes to hold your head, on instinct.
âBab-â you're pulling his zipper down. oh! Oh!!! OHOHO. He quirks in your grasp, cock springing to life the quicker you jerk him off. When you spit on his length that's when he moans lowly, you slap his thigh. And he jolts. âPay attention to the road.â Fuck him up!!! Despite reaching that edge with only a few short tugs and your painted lips swirling over his tip lightly, he doesn't cum at all cause you're already at the destined location. He hates it, he drove as slow as he could and yet he still didn't cum in your pretty mouth :( Grumbled whines under his breath as he shoves himself back into his jeans. The fabric hurts. And you're smirking at him like the devil. You're playing a dangerous game. And when he gets you alone in a house full of people you know, he's got you crying, pretty mascara running down your face and throating his length until your nose brushes against him.
âhngh- You did this to yourself angelâ He clicks his tongue, head thrown back against the door. It's lewd and it's definitely free use for him when he uses your head to jerk himself off on your tongue. He takes a good solid time getting there, shoving his load down your throat and pulling out enough to watch the rest spurt over your lips. Swipes it off with his thumb and puts it back in your mouth. âsuck,â if by chance he's sleeping or resting, which is rare. You won't be the one to do it to him often, on the other hand he'll want you to. But he definitely won't make you. So one day when you've had it rough, just tug his sweats down with his back resting against the bed, a soft edge to his face when he sleeps. pillow slotted under his grasp and head thrown to the side. Oops, he's already hard. Morning wood. Or was he just having a nice dream? You're already on him in seconds, bottoming him inside til your pelvis meets his. His eyebrows furrow and his breathing picks up. Gasps falling out of his parted mouth, his hands twitch every so often when you call his name quietly. As if he can hear you in his dreams. Your name is the only thing he says every so often, jumbled and under his breath when he moans prettily.
Whenever he twitches too much inside you, and his face scrunches you stop so he can't cum just yet. He'll whimper and whine, throwing his head back and around. His hand comes to rub his face and then fall back to his side, right next to your knees. You swirl your hips against and practically write your name on his dick. He'll stir the second time you edge him, waking him up to one of the best sights. âAh. m- fuck- cummingâ he whimpers, pistoning his hips up to meet yours, he continues to do so even when he cums, load splattering against the sheets when it pools out of you, he tells you to keep going, encourages it too. Sloppy the whole time, overstimulating himself so he's hard again, throbbing and moaning loudly, his cheat shuddering with every breath he takes. When you cum he's pulling you down to shove his tongue down your throat, catching every sound and vocal cue with his fingers rubbing against your clit. He overstimulates you in the process too.
Yunho. Might genuinely take a couple of times to talk about it more than once. He just wants to know you're the one completely fine with it. (cause he is!) He'll work his way up to it, sleepy sex and telling you he'll handle it the whole time. And when he feels the need to be buried in you, he'll always ask beforehand, tell him he doesn't even need to ask, cause he always will. He trusts you with his heart, so of course, he trusts you completely when it comes to sex. You both are completely in tune.
It's mostly casual when it happens. It usually starts because you're in a position he likes, letting his imagination go on for a bit, you're on your tummy on the couch, feet kicking behind you and typing away at your phone. He could feel like a perv for the way he's looking at you, oblivious to his growing hard-on. But he can't help it when he crawls over you to lay on your back, his dick pressing into you through his sweats. You go to question him. He smiles shyly. âNothing baby, just want to be close to youâ yeah uh huh sure bud. It's fine for a couple of seconds until his hips move, and he's sighing in your ear. You just let him get himself off, typing away. Ignorant to the way it's just not working for him, he slips your shorts down, and you only slightly help with lifting your hips. He'll immediately go at it, kissing your shoulder and neck, appreciation on his tongue when he tells you he'll be quick. He slips himself out and bottoms inside with ease. The stretch is perfect.
Yunho has a big cock but you take it like a champ, he always has you prepped for him too. It's just so easy to slip into you. His hand snakes under your waist to pinch your clit, you jolt away from the sensation, dropping your phone. It slides too far from your reach. It's not long of yunho's soft pace before you moan at him to go faster. Through a gaspy groan he laughs, his large palm holding him up on the arm of the couch and the other spreading your thigh farther open for him to watch you suck him inside. His pace quickens, it's enough for you to feel satisfied, throwing your hips back to meet him. The slapping noises are lewd, consuming the entire living room with just you two. Yunho is just big in general, so the tiny couch(that needs to be replaced) hardly holds his size. He's using his foot to push himself harder into you, his knee bending the couch harshly. Soft grunts and heavy pants coming from his chest, it reverbs off your back, although he's leaning over you he's still close.
His other hand circling your clit and swirling the bundle. You cum with a guttural whimper, his name quiet on your tongue. âgonna fill you up real good baby,â he smirks through his words. âYou're gonna keep it in, yeah?â You nod your head, whining from the sensitivity. Yunho cums with your name chanting off his lips, hips stuttering above you. If you do use him while he's sleeping he's more likely to move with you, meeting your hips as he ruts in his sleep. Eyebrows pulled taunt and mouth agape. He lets out the prettiest groans. He cums with one final loud moan, fisting the sheets, and completely and wholeheartedly falls back into sleep. It's like he didn't wake up at all, and he didn't! Make sure you clean him up tho. Carefully. I see him using you more than you using him, only on occasion though. When he's sleepy and just wants to feel you around his cock. So hard he can't take the strain anymore, he throws your thighs over his lap, already pantsless both of you. Your sleepy body leaning into his warmth.
He kisses your calve, propping both of your legs over his shoulder before he's sliding in. He's already prepped you with his fingers. He's a bit more quiet then, focus on just having his way with you(because you let him) but also to see you unravel with him with no filter or anything blocking you from letting it all show on your face? He really likes it, like. Really. Likes it. His sloppy hips are more likely to make you wake up, or the stretch in your legs as you're bent over him, sandwiched between him and the bed, his thumb drawing figure eights on your clit to reach you there faster. Your whine is scratchy, signaling you're close. He'll coax you with words even if you can't hear him âgo on baby, cream around meâ He groans right in your ear when you tip, hands reaching out to hold him close because you've suddenly woken up to your legs shaking and an orgasm wracking your body. Yunho often cums with you and this time is no different, he's stilling with his chest shaking from his breathing. Curling his hips forward so he's all the way in. Keeping you full with his essence.
Yeosang. It takes sooo many words of affirmation for him to even think about it. He's just a bit too scared of the idea of you not being in the mood or enjoying it. He puts your pleasure before his all the time and when you tell him to just use you to his heart's content he just really can't :((( baby just wants you to be in it as much as he is. He wants to know his pretty baby is feeling as good as he is, and eventually, he'll tell you that himself when you bring it up again. You're free to use him whenever !!! He'll always be prepared and ready for you. He gets turned on by you, even mentioning you want him in that way. (He loves being the one you want even if the situation isn't sexual), so when you tell him to imagine, you're always wanting him (and you do). His thoughts on it will shift.
Once again, he doesn't act it out much when it comes to free use. On the other hand, I could see him turning over in his sleep, waking up from a sweaty dream. He can't get the thoughts of dream-you out of his head, so he does what you've recommended you both do before, kissing your shoulder to see if you'll wake. You don't, and so he goes on, trailing them down your collar before he's at the hem of your shirt. He's slipping himself under it. Sucks on your boobs while he jerks himself off :( I don't really see yeosang using your cunt as you sleep; he prefers to see his pretty baby up close to see your eyes flutter. But maybe on a special occasion if he really really REALLY wants you, he'll push you to your side so your back is pressed against his chest, pulling your shorts and undies down enough to push his cockhead in. He sighs so prettily and makes sure you don't show any discomfort from the stretch, his pace is slow and sleepy, just trying to get there from a few thrusts in your warm and wet hole.
He'll use his fingers to rub soothing circles around your clit. Paying special attention to the way your body reacts cause you can't really use your words. When it comes to sex like this he's quiet. Not very vocal cause he's so focused on driving his hips in and out of you. His length soothing in its pace against your cervix. Your eyes flutter when you feel the heat of needing to cum, waking up in the movement of yeosangs thighs against your ass. âYeo-â you cry quietly, cumming tightly, the fluttering around his length has him airily groaning, your hand reaching to hold his that's kept on your waist to hold you close. He hums, broken and short and breathy. Before he's speeding up his messy pace and cumming inside. He stills and doesn't bother moving for a good minute, even as you turn your head to pepper kisses on his temple, his face shoved into your neck. Genuinely could see him almost falling asleep like that, buried inside you and completely comfortable. But as soon as he feels you wiggling he'll get to cleaning up. Also the type to just let you use him whenever you want too, he'll gladly just sit back and let you.
He'll be on the couch with his phone in hand, probably in one of the many dressing rooms waiting for the rest of the guys to get back. You drop to your knees in front of him and he immediately fumbles, eyes dashing to the door. âI locked it, don't worryâ you pull the zipper of his brand new pants down, the leather straining against his thighs. His cock throbbing in your tight grasp, pumping him to stand full. He'll throw his head back against the couch and bite his lip to hold his moans when your mouth wraps around him. Getting him there quicker than he can proudly say, he'll whimper and hold his own hips down. Noticing every sound and how loud it seems to him. He'll hold your head, gently, following you with it against the back of it. Your pace is rough and brutal, getting him off with sticky noises and humming against his tip. He might actually start whimpering through his bruised lips.
âSl-slow down-nngâ oh my god he feels a bit bad when his hips thrust up against your throat. Eyes scrunching with pleasure, his hips don't know whether or not to pull away or to keep drilling up into you. So he's squirming on the couch, little sounds escaping here and there when you swallow around him. He warns you when he's about to cum, his hips driving away from you and digging into the couch. His hand fisting against the back of your neck shakily. Your name is the last thing he says before he's seeing stars and shooting his load on your tongue, if you swallow it up greedily he will definitely start shaking from the stimulus. âJagi- ah.â His hand curls, your lips popping off him. He completely deflates on the couch. You'll have to do the cleaning up, be gentle though he gets really sensitive.
Jongho. It really is about trust with him. It will take a lot and so long before you guys even get to that part. Trusting you completely will be the most fragile part of it, jongho doesn't necessarily wear his heart on his sleeve so when he gets into it with you, he really has to think about it on his own for a good couple of days. So when he comes around and brings it up again, you tell him he doesn't have to agree for your sake. But he genuinely is agreeing because he loves you, and he's beginning to love the idea of being used by you when you need him. He just always wants to provide in every way possible. He'll only want to use you on the most stressful of days, though.
His cock is there for you to use and abuse to your content. He won't verbally say it (ever) but you know he finds a certain love for you using him so much. He'll be resting with his head on the couch and his body completely relaxed, drifting away in his own head. He'll immediately wake up to you leaning on his lap. He's no fun for somno, he wakes too easily especially if he feels you on his lap or anywhere near his dick. He'll paw at your hips and sigh knowingly. Eyes still closed and just the hint of a grin on his lips. âRight now?â He'll tease, his sleepy voice just ugh, and the little chuckle he does. Slide down his shorts and help him shuffle them down a bit, he'll help with pumping himself a bit so you can shuffle your own clothing off. Just slow strokes to his growing cock, he shudders when you line him up and use his tip to drag through your folds. Might even get impatient with the way his hips buck. But when you sink down his eyes are slowly opening to watch your joint area. Swirling your waist back and forth on his lap.
He's not very helpful this way; you're the one who woke him from his nap and now you should be the one to get you both off. You're cumming before he is, hips stilling and falling on his chest. He clicks his tongue, a short amount of teasing coming from his chest. His hips stutter, pushing you back down with his strength. He cums shortly after. Just buzzing with domesticity, he'll just be happy to stay like that for a while, but the liquids dripping along his body just won't do for him. You're the one cleaning up cause you initiated it ! Sorry not sorry. If it's a long day and jongho is just coming home, his body is heavy and his head pulsing with a growing headache from the amount of things memorized. You'll be the first thing on his mind, being close to you always blows off steam but he will debate on whether or not he'll want to wake you up or just go on ahead.
So he takes the easier option. Cooing at you gently when you sigh softly, he's positioned right by your butt as you're turned on your side. Youâve definitely fallen asleep from waiting on him. You'll call his name softly, propping your head up to look at him. âShh, just relax and let me do all of it for you, turn your pretty head off for meâ he kisses your lips so sweetly, just a short peck and you're already turning your head back into the pillow he brought from the bedroom, body sighing and falling back. Preps you with his hands and fingers, gently swirling them inside you and working you open for him. Encourages your orgasm when he knows you like a certain thing he does, shushing your soft moans. He always preps you to take him. He likes it better that way. So he's already strained and hard to the touch in his palm when he slips himself out of his jeans. Hissing from the harsh fabric under his breath. He'll make sure to lube himself up with his own spit beforehand so you're not lubing his length up completely by yourself.
Works the head in and gently leans over you, breathing softly above you. He'll swirl his hips to get himself all the way in, stopping to pull out and ease more of his length inside. Eyeing your comfortable state the entire time. His pace will be erratic and slow, just finding what works best for the angle and what makes you squirm around him. Once he finally finds it, he'll encourage it on, pouding into your gummy spot until you're whimpering. Hips stuttering occasionally from the way you clench around him âThere you go, sweet girl, just like thatâ he coos, watching your body shake from the orgams ripping out of you You sigh so prettily when he drills his cock back in, holding your thigh to keep you close even as you pull from the overstimulation. His breath stuttering our of his lungs when he paints your insides. Falling the rest of the way over you. He sighs heavily. Brain shortwiring. He'll definitely be doing that again.
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New Year, Same Bullshit
Pairing: Toxic Babydaddy!Terry Richmond x Plus Size Fem Black!OC
Wordcount: +3.8K
Warnings: MDNI (18+) mature content, such as cursing, teasing, heavily dialogue-centered, use of pet names (Daddy, Mama, baby girl, lil' mama, pretty girl, good boy, etc.), oral (male receiving), P in V, Toxic Dom!Terry *if you squint and turn your head*, cum play *sort of*, brattiness galore, facials *no spa*đ€
A/NÂč: This is a single one-shot with no planned sequels.
A/NÂČ: I'm open to critiques. I am a little đ€đœ sensitive about my writing. Please, don't be too harsh.đ„ș Feel free to bring my attention to any typos. Divider by ME (theereina). Also, this work is not to be plagiarized or reposted (on any site other than here on Tumblr). I do NOT give consent for any form of republishing or rewriting.
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Terry: I hope all is well. My mom told me she has TJ. Hope you enjoy yourself tonight.
Me: I hope I do, too.
Terry: I was thinking about something earlier.
Me: ???
Terry: New Year, new us?
I paused for a second in disbelief. I knew this man was not trying this bullshit tonight. I guess this year's motto was ânew year, same bullshitâ. I sat there for a second and stared at myself in my vanity's mirror.
I could feel the petty in me rising. I texted Terry back with nothing but ill intentions. âNew year, new usâ, huh?
Me: Nah. New year, and new dick. Cheers to 2025!đ„âš
I waited until I knew Terry saw the message and blocked his number. I knew I was pushing Terry's buttons but oh well.
2 hours later
âLele, ain't that Terry?â asked one of the women who came out with me and my best friend.
âAww, hell. Lele, it is him. He's coming this way, and he looks pissed!â my best friend, Tyler, said.
âI don't care. What he gonna do? Whoop me!â I laughed out loud, spinning to see Terry barreling through the crowd.
I stopped dancing when I saw his face. Maybe, I shouldn't have said that.
âTerry, wait? I didn't meanâ,â I said as soon as he stood before me.
âNah⊠You meant that shit. New dick, huh?â Terry said, eyeing me down.
As much as I was scared for my life, I was hoping that this night would end the way I wanted it to. Fuck! I needed this.
âYou think that shit was funny? Ty, y'all here alone, or did she come with someone?â he asked, looking towards Tyler.
âTerry, I didn't come hâ,â I started to speak.
Terry's eyes darted back to meet mine.
âLove, I wasn't talking to you. I asked Tyler. When I want you to speak, I'll let you know.â
âOh, shit. He not playing with her ass,â said one of the women in the group.
âYes, we came alone. No, she didn't come here with anyone. I promise,â Tyler said, looking at me.
âI can't believe you're doing this shit right now,â I mumbled under my breath.
âWhat did you say? I couldn't hear you,â Terry spat, glaring down at me.
âNothing,â I whispered.
âYeah, that's what the fuck I thought. Enjoy yourself, sweetheart. I'll be waiting for you when you get home,â he said, holding the back of my head and kissing my forehead.
âHuh? You don't live with me,â I uttered in confusion.
âI still have my key, and I pay the bills there. Don't I? Oh, okay then. Like I said, I'll see you when you get home,â he said, letting me go.
âOh, and do me a favor, love. Don't drink too much. I need you alert and responsive tonight,â Terry said, walking away.
As I watched Terry leave, I felt my heart racing. There was no calming down from this.
âFuck me!â I yelled quietly as soon as Terry was out of sight.
âGirl, what the fuck did you do this time?â Tyler asked me, handing me a drink.
I looked at the fruity concoction like it was poison. I knew this sugary ass shit wasn't going to do anything to call my nerves. I shrugged my shoulders and swallowed the drink in two full gulps.
âDamn! That man finna tear yo' ass up. Ain't he?â one of the women asked while laughing.
âYou don't even know the half. Tyler, can you keep yoâ godson tomorrow? I got a funny feeling I'm not gonna be straight after tonight,â I asked Tyler, searching her eyes for sympathy.
âYeah, I got my baby. Now, you just tell me what the fuck you did,â she said, raising an eyebrow.
âOh, Ty. I think I fucked up this time,â I said, shaking my head. I pulled her over to one of the couches in the section, hoping that I could talk to her privately.
As I proceeded to tell Tyler what happened, I could see her face shift from concern to amusement.
âWhy do you look like you wanna laugh?â I asked when I finished.
âUh, sis⊠How did he know where you were?â Tyler asked, looking at me with concern.
âI don't⊠I don't know. How the fuck did he know I was here?â I asked, questioning myself more than Tyler.
4 nerve-racking hours later
I had literally spent all night trying to come up with a reason not to come home. I knew that whatever was on the other side of that door was going to beâ something memorable.
I made sure to stop drinking hours ago. His âalert and responsiveâ remark was a warning that only WE understood. My insides were screaming because I knew Terry had a way of breaking me down and putting me back together again in the mostâ sensual and pleasurable way. Yes, there may be pain involved, but I couldn't care less.
I was well aware of what came with provoking Terry. At this point, it was a game for me, and my prize was always the best dick a girl could ever ask for. That was definitely the one thing I missed about having Terry living at homeâ the in-house, on-demand dick. Always hard, and always ready.
It was a little after 4 in the morning. I was pushing my luck coming in this late, but I might as well fully enjoy what may be my last night out for a while. I was either about to get fucked up, be fucked, or both.
After realizing that Terry's truck was nowhere to be found, I scanned the streets to see if he parked there instead. Nothing.
I reluctantly began walking to the door. How was this possible? Even the walk up to my front door was causing me anxiety. Every goddamn step felt like I was approaching the gates of hell. Was I really letting this man make me feel like a child coming home when they know they're getting an ass whooping? Yes.
I slowed my steps and began putting my hair in a ponytail. If it's one thing I knew, this ponytail may save my life. Then again, it may do the opposite. Aww, fuck!
I tossed my heels and purse into one hand while adjusting my keys with the other. Placing the key into the keyhole, I quietly unlocked the door. I paused before opening the door, praying that Terry wasn't standing on the other side.
Sliding inside as quickly as I could, I tiptoed inside the house and locked the door. From what I could see, he wasn't in the living room or the kitchen. I took a deep breath and relaxed my shoulders. I stood quietly in an attempt to possibly hear if he was somewhere in the house. I flattened my back against the door since I was still unsure of my surroundings.
From somewhere to the right of me, I heard something dart towards me. I turned around in a panic. Right as I was about to make a run for it, I saw that the culprit had a tail. I WAS ABOUT TO RUN FROM MY DAMN CAT!!!
I took a deep breath and leaned down to pick up the cat. But⊠As soon as my knees hit the floor, I felt a hand on the back of my head. I screamed out in shock, startling the cat.
âOh, nah. Shit that shit up! I told you I would be waiting for you. Didn't I?â Terry growled, pulling me by my ponytail.
Like I said. The ponytail was a gift and a curse.
âJustâŠâ I yelled, grabbing his hands in my hair.
âTouch me again. I dare you. Imma do more than tie yoâ ass up!â Terry said, holding my face to look up at him.
âTerry, I'm sorry. I was just joâ!â I started, letting my hands fall beside me.
âThat was supposed to be a joke. Ha! We gone see what's funny in a minute.â Terry said, letting go of my hair.
As much as my brain was telling me to run, my pussy was begging me to stay even more.
Terry's hand wrapped around my forearm. âStand up!â he barked.
âPlease, I said Iâmâ,â I said, standing to my feet.
âIf I have to tell you to shut up againâŠâ Terry said, pulling me to face him.
I used the back of my hand to wipe the tears that were now falling.
âI hope you don't think those tears are stopping shit. Ain't no sense in crying. You did this to yourself, Alicia. I was trying to be nice to you, but you just don't know when to leave me the fuck alone,â Terry said, stepping closer to me.
I gulped as he glared at me, blinking slowly. Every breath he released was hot and heavyâ weighed down in anger. It's as if he was battling to control himself.
âYou thought that shit was so cute. Didn't you? I bet you and your little friends had a good laugh at that, huh?â Terry said, leaning down and resting his forehead on mine.
âYou can speak, now. Choose your words wisely,â he said. He straightened his posture and stood to his full height, holding his hands in front of him.
âI'm sorry. I didn't tell anyone but Tyler. I swear,â I spat out as quickly as I could.
Terry paused to look at me. His eyes darkened in lust and anger. I let my gaze drop to the floor.
âNah, you know better. Eyes on me at all times, right?â Terry demanded.
âYes,â I said, trailing my eyes up Terry's body. I let my gaze linger on the bulge that had grown in his jeans.
âUnh unh. You gone see that in a minute. Look at me, Alicia!â Terry said, forcing me to look at him.
I rubbed my forearm nervously. I waited for Terry to say something else. Instead, he turned on his heels and sat on the couch.
Leaning back on the couch, he placed his arm over the back. âBetter yet. Come here and bring your phone with you,â he said, motioning for me to approach him.
I slowly picked up my phone from the floor and walked up to him. I stood between his legs. He dropped his gaze to the floor, letting me know to kneel. I kneeled in front of him while never breaking eye contact.
âGood girl. Thank you for finally listening. Give me your phone.â
Handing him my phone, my mind immediately started to race. I knew if this man went through that phone. My ass was grass!
âTerry, wait!â I yelled, stopping him.
âOh, you must be hiding something. You are crazy as hell if you think I can't go through a phone that I pay for every month. However, that's the least of my concerns right now,â he scoffed, tossing the phone beside him on the couch.
âI just⊠I⊠I know that⊠ifâŠ,â I stuttered.
âDon't even worry about it, love. Because after tonight, it won't matter what nigga is in that phone. You'll know who you belong to. I can promise you that.â
Terry leaned forward, grabbing the side of my face firmly. I gasped in anticipation.
âI don't understand why you choose to play with me, baby girl. Here I am asking for my family back, and your ass wants to play these childish ass games.â
âTerry, baby. Iâ,â I said before he placed his hand around the front of my throat. I instantly shut my mouth.
âLook at that! How sweet. I didn't even have to do it, and you knew.â Terry said, biting his bottom lip. He moaned as he watched me. He was more than thrilled with my natural obedience.
Moving his hand to cup my chin, he let his thumb trace the silhouette of my bottom lip.
âMmm⊠Daddy misses these lips. The way they look, the way they feelâ everything!â
Terry's hand let go of my chin as he sank back into the couch. I watched fervently as he undid his belt. Making quick work of his pants, he freed himself from the confinement of his boxers.
I eyed his dick, waiting for his permission to even touch it.
âI told you you'd get to see it. Unfortunately, touching it ain't an option. At least not right now, especially with that foul mouth of yours.â
My face dropped in disbelief as I began to pout.
âWhat you will get to do is watch me. Watch me while I⊠uh⊠make you wish it was you handling this for me.â Terry laughed while lifting my head back up to watch him.
So, it begins. This is the part where he breaks me.
Terry wrapped his hand firmly around the base of his dick. âAll you had to do was behave, but you just can't. I bet you'll be on your best fuckinâ behavior after tonight.â
Terry's hand stroked the length of his shaft. His contentment was already evident as small droplets of precum began to leak from his tip.
I rested my hands on my thighs, pressing my fingertips into the cushion of my thighs. I was fighting the urge to lick what I felt was mine; however, I knew that wouldn't end the way I wanted. Licking my tongue out, I let it slide across the flesh of my bottom lip.
Terry grunted in response. My eyes darted from his dick to his face. His eyes were low and wanton. He was just as needy as I was. Our gazes locked in fervor, passing a mutual message that intensified the salacious hunger between us.
Terry's hand sped up and tightened around his head. His grunts grew deeper and more primal. He was feigning to cum.
I tilted my head and lowered my gaze, pleading with my eyes. Sitting here with my hands in my lap wasn't enough for me. I whined while wiggling my hips, trying to feel something to help the ache between my legs.
âFuck! You got 3 minutes to make me cum or else!â Terry said, leaning up and grabbing the back of my head.
He didn't even have to finish his movement. My mouth was on his dick before he could even grab me. I was horny, I was needy, and most importantly, I was hungry.
I took all of Terry in on a single inhale not giving a fuck about my throat. I needed this. I let saliva fall from my mouth and down the sides of his shaft. Pulling back, I hollowed out my cheeks and created a vacuum around the head of Terry's dick.
âAhhh, fuck. You⊠you always know⊠ugh.. exactly what to do, baby girl. That's right. This dick is yours, mama. Ahhh, shit. Keep going, baby,â Terry said, stroking the side of my face.
I moaned around his dick. Swallowing his full length again with pride, I smiled around him. Opening my mouth slowly, I sunk down further until my nose hit the patch of hair he grew there. Relaxing every muscle in my throat I let him sit in the back of my throat while I hummed and moaned in pleasure. This⊠this was the ache I was seeking. This was what I wanted to feelâ the burn and stretch of this very moment.
I pulled off of Terry with a pop, watching as a thin string of saliva and cum fell from my lips. Grabbing him mid-shaft, I began to jerk his dick. Fully consumed by my own pleasure, I failed to immediately take notice of Terry's silence.
I looked up to see Terry's eyes closed as he released a slew of low, rough moans. I instantly put my mouth back on him, focusing solely on his head. Using my tongue to massage his tip, I was hoping to push Terry over the edge.
Watching him closely, I marveled at the sight before me. His head had rolled back on his shoulders, and his bottom lip was tucked in between his teeth. As I felt Terry's dick begin to pulse, I took him into the back of my throat again. I wanted every drop of him, and I was going to make sure I got it.
Letting him paint the back of my throat was the only thing on my mind. I started sucking Terry like my life depended on it. His hand gripped the back of my head, but even that didn't stop me. I rested my hands on Terry's legs for support as I put my all into it.
As soon as I felt like the first drops of cum were about to make an appearance, Terry grunted and pulled me back. His dick fell from my mouth and into his own hands. Leaning my head back, Terry stroked himself twice before eruptingâ all over my face.
I closed my eyes, feeling the warm sticky substance coat my eyelashes along with my forehead, nose, and lips. I exhaled as I thanked God that I closed my eyes in time.
âOpen your mouth and stick out your tongue!â Terry barked as I felt him moving around.
I opened my mouth and felt him push his dick inside again. Resting the full weight of his dick on my tongue, he told me to keep my mouth open.
âSmile!â he said as I heard a camera shutter.
Without a second thought, my eyes shot open.
âFor memories. Adding it to the stash.â
Of course! That's what the fuck he wanted the phone for. I pulled back, letting his dick fall out. âI told you that you're mine. Didn't I?â he said, leaning up.
âOh, don't think we're done either. Stand up!â he nodded.
I rose to my feet, wobbling. As I stood before Terry, I went to wipe my face. His hand reached out to grab my hand.
âNah, baby girl. You gone wear that shit with pride. I plan on marking my territory in more ways than one. There will be no creampies tonight,â he warns, standing from the couch.
âBut Terry Iâ,â I said.
His arms wrapped around my waist as he lifted me. Wrapping my legs around him, he turned to walk towards the hallway. My body practically melted into him as I clung to his back. I began to whine and moan while kissing his neck.
âDaddy missed this pussyâ MY pussy,â Terry moaned as his hands pushed the strapless dress I wore up past my stomach. The thin fabric began bunching up.
âAhhh, mmmm. Fuck!â I moaned, placing my hands around his neck.
As we approached the bedroom door, Terry didn't even reach to open it. Instead, he opted for kicking it open.
âDon't worry. I'll fix it!â he grinned.
Walking to the foot of the bed, he laid me directly in the middle. He stepped back and completely undressed himself. God Lord, I missed this body.
I leaned up and began kissing and touching his abdomen. Moving my hands out of the way, Terry's hands went to the neckline of the dress as he leaned over me. In one swift move, he tore the top of the dress in half, continuing to tear the fabric from my body until nothing was left.
While I was preoccupied with my own thoughts, he pushed me down onto the bed. Climbing onto the bed and settling between my thighs, he wrapped my legs around his waist.
Looking at me with the most sinful smirk, he entered me in one thrust. I gasped out in both pain and pleasure. We hadn't had sex in over four months. The feeling of him stretching my pussy out sent my eyes rolling into the back of my head.
âYou gone feel me tonight, baby. All of me,â he said, leaning down to kiss my neck.
Pulling every inch of his dick out to the tip, he inserted himself again. He was clearly on a mission.
Thrust after thrustâŠ
âSo, you gone give my pussy away? Huh? Answer me when I'm talkin' to you!â he said, thrusting into me harder.
âNo!â I yelled as my back arched off the bed.
Using nothing but his body weight, Terry flattened me out again. âNo, ma'am.â He said, pulling out to thrust back in again. âThe fuck you moving for? You gone take this dick. It's yours, ain't?â he asked, kissing my chin.
âYes, this⊠this is⊠ahhh, fuckkk⊠This is my dick!â I screamed out as he pounded into me. Every thrust knocked the syllables from my lips.
âThat's right. This your dick, baby. All of it! Every fuckin' inch, mama! Now, what you gone do with it, huh?â he growled in my ear, taunting me.
âI'm⊠gonna⊠fuckin'⊠take⊠it!â I whimpered. His thrusts began to pick up speed.
âGood girl, and you gone let me cum wherever I want to, right?â Terry coaxed, hitting my g-spot over and over again.
âYes!â I yelled, clawing at Terry's back.
I was so close to cumming, and this shit felt so damn good. Hell, I'd even let him cum on my face again.
âI knew my baby would. Who pussy this is, mama?â he asked, smirking.
âYours! For⊠ever! Terry, please! Can⊠ohhhh⊠can I cum?â I begged as I felt my climax quickly approaching.
âYou better wet this dick up, too. Come on, baby.â Terry uttered softly, talking me through it. âOouu⊠look at my baby,â he said, fucking me through my orgasm.
âTerry!â I moaned out, digging into his forearms.
âLook at that shit! Wet as fuck!â he said, watching himself slip in and out.
âYes! Shit! Ohhh, fuck!â I gasped as he slowed his strokes.
âYeah! Just like that. You ready? Tell Daddy that you're ready,â he groaned clearly at his peak.
âPlease, Daddy! Cum for me!â I yelled.
Terry pulled out, aiming straight for my pussy and stomach. I watched intently as ropes of cum landed on my lower abdomen and the mound of my pussy. Using his dick, Terry began to mix the remainder of his cum into my own. He beamed as he created a disgusting and sloppy mess between my legs.
âI wish you could see it, baby. It's so pretty,â he said, looking up. His eyes roamed over the entirety of my body, lingering on the areas covered in his cum. âYou look so pretty, mama,â Terry praised.
âI know I do, and it's all because of you,â I said, pulling Terry in for a kiss.
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