#ill give her a go on yt first

[the-oceankin-collective]

Advice for younger alterhumans

(Focusing a lil more on therians)

(A bit of rambling )

Please repost

Pt.1 the biggest thing

So let’s start with the biggest thing and that is: some people just hate us.

Now that can be for a variety of reasons.

example: I know someone who hates alterhumans because she was stalked by one for months.

(More below the cut because this is a big post)

List of common reasons:

Some people hate us because those of us who have past lives go against their religion.

Some people just don’t like people who are different.

Some people think we are mentally ill.

Some people think we are zoos.

Some people think we are furries and because they hate furries they hate us.

Pt.2 keeping yourself safe

So this is extremely important if you are a minor Because most likely you live with a parent/guardian.

So how do you ensure you are safe?

Well it’s not that hard

1. Only tell people you trust. if you want to check if it’s safe to tell someone mention therians in conversations and see how they react.

2. Remember that there are community’s online that you can make friends on if you can’t tell anyone irl about your identity. (Therian guide.net is one)

3. If your parents/guardians are supportive you can find fellow therians on international therian day just draw the therian delta in your hand.

Pt.3 what if I don’t have shifts?

So lets make one thing clear not all therians have shifts a good chunk do but they are not what make you a therian/Otherkin.

Also it’s perfectly fine and quite common not to know you therotype/Kintype right away.

It’s also perfectly fine to be mistaken on your therotype/Kintype for example: I went through a period of thinking I was a crow therian

(I do think I have a winged thero/Kintype but that’s a story for another day)

So pretty much it’s ok to be mistaken infact most alterhumans are at first .

Pt.4 The pros and cons of packs

So I was actually a head mod on hiddenwhispers discord server until my aunt discovered I had discord. (as i am a minor I have tak obey her wishes)

So now I am gonna give a overview of my experiences with therian packs

So the first one I joined (foxx_kit on yts one)

There was lots of dark stuff in the heavy vent channel but Everyone was really nice and all in all it was a great experience.

The second one what I helped create

It was good a lot of dark stuff in the vents but still good.

Now for hiddenwhispers one.

So most people were nice and respected me as a mod but we got frequently raided by antis who sent gore and other stuff.

Lots of dark stuff in the vents.

Whisper was really nice and always treated me as a close friend.

So one thing you will notice is lots of them have vents that contain images of sh so that’s a downside.

On the otherhand I made many friends so at the end of the day it’s good unless you look in the vents.

End of post.

So I hope you have learned something from this post.

Remember to eat and drink

luv ya❤️❤️❤️

(🦭mod Zeph)

[cemetery-irises]

WOOO OK

Honestly I got halfway through and I think this is perfect for on-the-edge-of-delirium Andrew. He's not insane yet, but his thoughts are warped.

Starting with a screenshot of a yt comment about the first line because they say it better than I do. (Andrew wanting his self hatred to be proven wrong even though it never can in his mind and turning to his friends for that reassurance)

Andrew is MORE than certain everyone hates him, and yet he starts to lap up any affection he gets even if he thinks it could be a lie. He doesn't think that he'll ever feel good in the end, but if he can be sinful and happy for a moment... That'll be enough. Please.

His mother died without any way for him to say goodbye to her, and so he's absolutely TERRIFIED of anybody else dying without his knowledge. He doesn't want to wake up next to a corpse again. He doesn't want his only friends to leave him.

He wants to "save" his friends. He wants to be useful. He wants to be forgiven for everything. He can't be, but he wants it so badly. If he can save them... Maybe he can be saved too?

He has to talk to people so they don't think he's a monster, but his fear and how much he pushes away people makes him seem like a monster, at least in his mind. He's a liar if he pretends to be anything else.

So the thought crosses his mind to take that inevitable hatred as love. soon that thought wraps its way around his brain like a strange tapeworm. then he has another thought, of taking ANYTHING as love. And that thought wraps tighter until it's all he can think of.

Despite being the furthest thing from selfish, he still feels like he is. After all, this is for his own happiness. And even if it's miserable and scary seeking attention, it still makes him feel some sort of comfort.

He lays himself bare in front of the people who haven't left him. He wouldn't tell them how far he'd go, because that'd worry them. But he'd do anything that they wanted from him.

He still doesn't think it'll be enough. They'll all leave him, in time. But if this love could just last one more moment before he felt he had to disappear and rot away forever... He'd be oh so happy for it.

At this moment, he's still sane enough to have glimmers of self awareness, knowing that these thoughts aren't rational. But he'd rather be safe than sorry, and if losing his mind is what prepares him for the agony of life, then so be it.

Again, he's putting his selflessness into overdrive. But it's getting worse. He's sure that they must want him dead, but they don't. They've never laid a finger on him. Why?

(Does it matter? Take the affection as you're told. Even if they don't use you, be ready and willing for them to at any potential moment. You wouldn't want them to feel let down with you, would you?)

He's sure by now that he'd quite literally do anything for them. They must be more than human, so what can a man less than human do but give them everything?

He'll give them his heart because they always treat it with such care, even though Andrew insists they don't have to.

fuck i'm ill over this

[tani-b-art]

Hammon’s loyalty to the vets clouded her judgment. She blurred the lines with them. If you watched the Chelsea Gray video on the Aces’ YT channel - you’ll get what I mean. It talks about her foot injury. Hammon had a plan for her to come back around August/September. She insisted on coming back early and Hammon caved in. Anyone with eyes could see Chelsea was not healthy when stepped on that court.

Jackie Young got sick earlier in the season and when Hammon was asked if she was going to play, Becky answered with, “If Jackie said she’s good, she’ll play.” Jackie had a horrible game that night and sat out the game vs the Sparks (Martin started). She was hurt after the Olympics, and played through her injury - wouldn’t put it past her in telling Becky she can play.

Instead of saving her players from themselves, Hammon let them make the decision for her. She’s the head coach, she should have done what was right instead of what her players wanted. Gray’s age goes against her in terms of healing and recovery. I am worried that she just made it worse and am hoping that her condition does not turn out mine CP3’s did - because they had the same injury.

My only other concern with Hammon is her loyalty and vibes in the locker room. I fear that she will keep Bell just to appease Jackie Young (FYI, Jackie is BFFs with Bell). I hope she does not protect Bell just for vibes and for Jackie over Kate because even after being 3 yrs in the W, Bell has not improved on her defense while Kate showed more in the first 26 mins she played.

Becky does not like to sign younger players because she knows they’ll demand more playing time. Her and the GM prefer to sign role players. Who’s that gonna be in FA?

If KP leaves, Hayes is the most logical replacement and Tip was more consistent than KP. Tip can also score and defend.

I hope it works out with Kitley and that her college play translates in the W because sometimes, it just doesn’t.

I did question if the coaching staff made recommendations about the rotation, because the 1st half of the season - that rotation was working. Then, after the Olympics, all of a sudden, it changed and it got even shorter during playoffs.

Her main flaw is not holding the players to the same standards. If a starter messes up, bench them. Don’t let them keep playing and keep making costly mistakes.

Stretched too thin! That’s been the name of the game for the Aces this season. And yep I did watch that Chelsea episode. She absolutely came back way too soon. That decision seemed to have been made with Paris in mind only.

Or both the fact that they were struggling majority of the first half of the season without her but they seriously rushed her back too early. And again, that falls back on Hammon. Had she had a tactical plan before this season even started, I don’t think things would’ve turned out the way it did.

“Hammon’s loyalty to the vets clouded her judgment.”

Yeah that about explains it all. The vet loyalty was basically the sole choice they had. So, her vet loyalty wasn’t an option because there was no other solution available to not have to fall back on. I mean, what could be done if Chelsea didn’t return pre the August/September timeframe? The record before then would’ve been well under .500. That clinched playoff spot would’ve been nonexistent. But it was not worth the risk of Chelsea’s full recovery and maybe further damage—but it happened anyway. I remember that Jackie illness too and the response and the performance. These decisions with giving the vets too much agency on their injuries to me has a lot to do with not having any alternatives. No bench depth will have you making or allowing irrational decisions to be made because the situation is critical.

This struggle patch/ slump and champion’s curse (like the Oscar’s curse) I hope doesn’t last multiple, consecutive seasons. It’s only a season (literally and figuratively).

On Kitley’s official playing year: she’ll be fine. The rookie bigs I use as references are Angel Reese and Kamilla Cardoso (especially Cardoso who did suffer an injury early on but came back very engaged on the court). They both transitioned extremely well from collegiate to pro.

[rat-rosemary]

"you can put down the pitchforks" i am raising them higher actually. why does quackity have a room in the manipulative grooming racist's house.

Hey did you know that Brasil is actually well-known for cloning? It's kind of funny because we have a few things that we're really good at but people don't really know. I think Brasil is the best place to get an organ transplant, or at least it was when I learned about it

Also even with some of it's flaws, our voting system is one of the best in the world, I mean do you remember the hell that was on the last US election? Also I really like the laws around the voting day and how it works and I think they're actually really smart. It's kind of sad that there's still some bad and unlawful practices even with them in place

《 Anyhow, first of all, check your sources. Dream didn't groom anyone, the girl who accused him disproved her own accusations with her own posts. Second of all, he has a room because he's best friends with Dream and Sapnap and George. He's one of their closest friends, enough that they don't just want to have a extra room where he can stay in their house, they want him to have a room that is his

Also im answering like this because im a huge pussy and i dont like conflict

And this is a trap so now you need to read about cloning》

Do you know how cloning works? It's actually really cool. So when you're forming you're made of these special cells right? Now I don't know their name because I'm not a native English speaker, but these cells can turn into different cells and thats how a living being forms. But when you're older you still have some of those cells, so you can take those cells and use them to create a copy of the being you took them from by injecting them into (the egg thing? I forgot the name for it) and then injecting that into someone/something that can host that being

(Human cloning is illegal in all countries, if you're worried about that) but the big problem is that those cells that were used to create the new being are old, and on a cell level, that thing is as old as the original

That means that the new being can have diseases and complications that only older things of that species can have. The first clone actually died because of that! You know that sheep that got cloned? Yeah the clone died young of a illness only old sheep could have

In a human that could mean that if you made a clone of yourself in your 50s for example, when that clone was 20 they could have dementia because their cells are 70 years old.

But in plants its very different. For example, all bananas are clones, because bananas do not have seeds (no the black thing inside of a banana are not seeds). Its actually a huge issue because if a banana tree (idk the english name for it) has an illness, like a fungus, it can spread very very fast trough all of the farm because it's just the same tree over and over and it could spread to even other farms and cause a massive extinction

There a type of banana that actually disappeared because of that and it's the banana we used to make banana flavoring in candy, so when you eat a banana flavored candy you're tasting an extinct banana

Also that does mean that all fruits that you can buy with no seeds, grapes, watermelon, whatever, are made with cloning

To clone a tree you just need to cut a branch off and plant it again (there are specific ways to do that with some plants but you can probably find a video on yt explaining how to cut the plant you want)

There's this really cool thing where you can reattach a branch (of for example, a lemon tree) to another tree (for example, a orange tree) with some moss and eventually it will become part of the tree and you'll have a orange tree with one branch that gives lemons

《 Anyway, please don't ever be mean to me I will cry and if anyone tries to make me feel bad for being weak I will trauma dump all over you

Go enjoy your silly block men 》

[ponctua]

First post ???

i finally gained the courage to post, let us celebrate with my ramblings

so like, y'all like undertale, i do too, some of y'all like flowey, like me, some of y'all also like some AUs?? me too! and i've made some, around all our likings, and who is it surrounding??? FLOWEY!! well not mkae him evil or suicidal(thats my other au but i think ill remove it), it would be talking about his regretful decisions, they were so bad that someone(me) had to give him smth💀 but what?? not saving, but.... smth that works like a save, but it's called regret, you come back to whatever massive and dumbass mistake for you to fix, seems good, he could go back to his past and fix what he did with chara... BUT like in any other "would you rather" from yt shorts, comes a terrible catch, he needs to save determination, which is keeping him alive, to go back, and if for example, "accidentally eating vegemite thinking it was glossy chocolate"-20%, and he has 20 or less, if he goes back, he will die right after, it, why? it's like living with negative 5 heartbeats per second, you will die because your heart ain't pumping nor moving like you and your lover in valentines!(because we can agree that some of our lovers are not real, fictionally real but not realistically), ain't it's a good catch, it's like saving money, you have 20, smth is 20, then what do you get? nothing except that thing that will soon enough be eaten or lost.

well... im sure some will ask for the new characters like in any other au, no, not nyan sans or short papyrus, it's the human SOULs! i've tried to make some of them, and the names are boring bc they are normal human children with family or general trauma that made them run here, or were too dumb to know what to do for fun, who are they? here they are! Perservance: Lewis, emo boy(he's just quiet, don't be mean) Integrity: Susie, oldest in age but not first to fall Patience: Marine, the first, but i changed some stuff(from TFH by Brittninja on webtoons!, i asked for her permission on her discord server) Kindness: Alice, also a little young Justice: Clover, he has gun (UTY, i finally asked them if i could put them in my au! play the game!) Bravery: Atlas, our lovely young dumbass, with fists Here's your hints! that's for today!<3

[meiko3323]

Father in her character demo be like:

ok im not by any means a lore theorizer, my brain is much too smooth for that, but every now and then, like a bouncing DVD logo touching a corner, i have a coherent thought. and Arlecchinos demo sparked some which id like to put forth. making it as a text post cuz archons know, i get real wordsy ^^'

spoilers obv if youre not far enough in story.

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now. upon several rewatches of the original and reactions, the first non-Arle voiceline jumped out at me:

"A spark cannot shatter all shadows until it sets all ablaze or else to the other end of light lie still bleak shades"

this made me think back to was it Childes or Wanderers voiceline? where they say that given the chance, the Knave would betray the Harbingers if it suited her. so what if, hear me out, in her quest of retribution she seeks to somehow go against the Fatui/ Harbingers/ Tsaritsa? retribution that is, for the myriad suffering theyve caused to innocent ppl around teyvat. idk abt full on taking them down, as the top 3 harbs are said to have power that rivals archons, but mb put a sizeable dent in their forces, or otherwise impede their plans. she also heavily implied a wish to collaborate w us, the Traveller, in the future at several occasions during the Fontaine AQ. mb she wants to enlist our help in her goal. circling back to that line, i think the spark is obv Father, and the shadows she wishes to shatter i strongly believe are the Fatui/ Harbingers. and unlike me, the line after is confidently saying "set ALL ablaze" = complete eradication of that organization.

my next thought was actually aided by a yt comment under one of the recent vids w her (idr if teaser, demo, or short, likely short) that said sth along the lines of "shes not a wolf in sheeps clothing, shes a sheep in wolfs clothing, forced to blend in w the wolves that took her in". this comment popped into my mind as i watched the scene where she is walking in mb some type of dream or mind world, w numerous children running around, playing and singing. and she has such a soft look on her face as she gazes at them. but then she collects herself w her signature 🤫 to flip the switch to ig we can call it her wolf side, and the scene changes to her against the red eclipse moon thing (crimson moon?). where was i going w this?.. i think the fact that her "natural" or innermost state is her sheep side where she just wishes to run the orphanage in peace and be a good mother Father to the children and she has to actively suppress that and channel her wolf side in order to carry out her version of justice, and ofc keep blending in w her adoptive wolves (harbingers) until the time is right.

finally, her last voiceline of the demo struck me as very crucial:

"I hear that the children love to play by the fireplace, so let us continue to use the name, "House of the Hearth". Still... its flame is no longer needed for you have the strength to defend yourselves"

from what i can unpack, this is obv talking abt her leaving her position as orphanage director and passing that torch (heh) to Lyney. which btw goes in line w a theory proposed by ABD Illustrates on yt regarding pyro characters (and jumping off to predict plot of Natlan). ill link it btw, go give it a watch, its very insightful:

anyway. she wants the orphanage to keep its name after her retirement. she feels that the children no longer need her (its flame) as under Lyneys leadership they can fend for themselves. a sad look comes across her face as she says this. i believe shes not as unfeeling/ uncaring and is more attached to the children than she dares to admit, and is pained to leave them behind in pursuit of her greater goals.

oh and going back to the 4.6 patch trailer, the boss battle bw her and her main trio of children - despite her thinking Lyney is fit to take over, she wants to give him one final test ig to reaffirm her decision, and to give him the confidence boost to take up that post. cuz he is very unsure of himself, and is always anxious of disappointing Father and not living up to w/e expectations he believes she has for him.

omg that was a lot. this was prob a solid hour of pure stream of consciousness. hopefully theres some coherent nuggets in there. most of it isnt horribly deep, honestly prob surface level stuff that might be painfully obv to others. but i wanted to write it out nonetheless

i invite anyone that bothered to read these long-winded ramblings to respectfully share their thoughts/ theories in the comments and/ or reblogs. was there anything i missed or forgor?

thank you for your time ^^

ps: the trailer was phenomenal btw OMG - the cinematography, the music?! i cant wait for tnbee to make an epic remix of it. and ofc for real lore theorists to dig in and drop their videos on it o3o

[necroangelz]

HIA YOU SEEM SO NICE JAJAAHDHEJWV- I remember following you from one of my Tumblr accounts (I have like 4 and have forgotten about the passwords of most of them)- So you may know me from there ig!!

Actually I came back here because I wanted to ask something- What is "Needy Streamer Overload" about?? I keep finding the game pretty intriguing and since you had it on your layout I thought I could ask you- (I also felt that it was a perfect opportunity to try to socialize a bit and meet more people on Tumblr-) Sorry if I'm bothering you! ^^

@.mistysaur

AWWW THANKIEEE 🥹🥹 and yeah I'm pretty sure i know uu from there!!

oh boy. let me see if i can explain NSO without dropping 19 paragraphs LOL

also, don't worry, uur not bothering me at all!! i love when ppl send me asks bc i have a hard time talking to ppl first, so this is also a good time for me to socialize!

ramble under the cut >:3

anyway, at its core, NSO is a game about managing the streamer career of a very mentally ill girl. the player is p-chan, the manager of their ' girlfriend ' Ame or k-angel/omgkawaiiangel, and they basically tell Ame what to do throughout the day. they can hang out, spend time together, play games, go on the internet, go outside etc. doing certain actions gives Ame ideas fur streams. there are many types of streams uu can do, each streaming category has level 1 up to level 5 streams, streaming is what gets uu followers. certain streams can get uu more followers but they would also increase ame's stress...

the player also has to manager her stats, her affection, stress, follower count and mental darkness. there's not much story because the whole game is centered around the players actions if ya get what i mean. the endings center around the effects of ame's stats if that makes sense.

NSO is a very fun game (i guess it's obvious that i love it lmao) the gameplay could get a little repetitive bc it's all the same but the graphics and music are so so cool. the interface is like this little computer and stuff and uu see Ame through the webcam screen and uu select her daily activities through app icons. the music is so catchy and perfectly fits the vibe of the game.

NSO is also a good portrayal of the toxic side of the internet—during some of the worst endings, ame spirals in front of the camera during a stream, and instead of having sympathy for her, her fans are quick to turn on her and dogpile on her instead. laughing at her misery as if she wasn't a person at all. they spread rumors, talk about how they always hated her from the start, doxx her, and then move on to the next entertaining internet personality with no loyalty to ame at all. it shows how people online can become cruel to each other because, well, it's all online, so they believe nothing is important or significant. NSO also depicts parasocial relationships, internet addiction, and wanting to get attention, love, and gratification from the internet. in general i love how NSO portrays the internet because everything feels so... real. the stream chats, the comments under ame's tweets, even Ame's texts to the player, they all feel so natural. like they're all actually said by people who spend way too much time on the internet and hence use slang and ways of speech that are common online. i always felt really bothered that mainstream media, especially those made by adults, SUCKED at portraying the internet. NSO isn't like that

so ya that's nso :3 if one thinks that NSO is something one is interested in, and one is sure they won't be triggered by it (bc yeah this game is super heavy) please by all means check it out!! i don't have any playthroughs to recommend since i don't watch playthroughs, but there's def some fun ones on yt! or buy it!

[dual-fantasy]

first love / late spring is the chase song ever. lately hes been crying like a tall child. please hurry leave him he cant breathe please don't say you love him. one word from you(emma) and he would jump right off this ledge hes on. tell him dont so he can crawl back in. he was so young when he behaved 25 yet now hes found hes grown into a tall child. humpty is a chemma song. he broke what emma gave him but she kept giving more. they make me physically ill oh my god theres nothing left for you is also a chase(could be chemma post breakup depending on how you interpret the use of you in it) but in a really specific way you just have to understand last words of a shooting star is a chemma at their absolute worst song but, again, in a really specific way you just have to understand. chase learnt from movies how love ought to be geyser is a chase song in a season 1 chemma way. no explanation it just is In Conclusion chaseis mitskipilled. all the way. every song in one way or another (additional thing. with more people jumping on the Changst Wagon im gonna start signing off with 🪦🐕 grave dog!!!!!! from the og changst poster under td takes)

chase is mitskipilled in the most severe way ever. he retired from sad and has a new career in business (his yt channel). the land is inhospitable and so is he.

first love / late spring is so real. it's his self destructive properties and the isolation he puts himself through. the assumption he makes that people are going to ignore him so he doesn't care about it to begin with (he cares so deeply though)

humpty is literally SO REAL like that's perfect. it's one of my personal fav mitski songs and it's just so good for them. he's too frail for her to touch. it goes both ways depending on how you interpret it im soooo normal about this

there's nothing left for you is imo him having to come to terms with leaving the beach house and in general having to abandon his self destruction. he has to leave in order to improve but he finds it difficult even though he knows that there's nothing left for him because it's all he ever knew. and I think the sweethearts door is Bowie because I can do whatever I want

I get last words of a shooting star and geyser but in a way I can't put into words without sounding insane. you're real they've very accurate but it's just that people have to get it I can't explain.

toung tied by free throw is chemma breakup but from chase's toxic abandonment issues perspective. at least in my opinion. did she forget she'd said forever when he asked her how long she would stay? and I the dog/the body by sleater-kinney is chase. trust me it's so good.

and grave dog is literally so cute!!!! more people on the changst wagon is awesome :) I'll tag your posts with 🪦🐕 from now on so they're easy to find

[ezziefox]

Writing this because idk what to do

My family isn't the best. We're black, if that tells you anything already. They're not the loving type. They're not the type to care about mental health. They're not the type to see rationally into anything. If you can't do this for them, then they don't know what to do with you, and they feel "sorry for you" when you grow up and have to go out into the real world.

Ffs, my mother literally admitted to her friend on a phone call that I was the first and only person in my family to go around and tell family members that I love them when I was younger. My family, especially my parents, are the type to be like "well I grew up this way so it's an excuse for my behavior and how I treat you".

You know, for the longest while, I thought my mother didn't know that she was wrong for certain ways she spoke to and treated me. But on that same phone call with her friend (we sleep in the same room as I'm visiting overseas and other family occupy other rooms, so I kind of have no choice but to hear her conversations), she said something along these words to her:

(we're Caribbean if the wording sounds weird to you, so I'm trying to put it into a way that would make sense in proper English)

"you see the way how you grew up? With your parents hugging you, and telling you they love you? I didn't grow up like that. So..." Blah blah blah, I don't remember. But it was then that I realized that she is aware that she hasn't been the best mother. But instead of using her experience to better herself, which she should've done from the very beginning when my brother and I were born, she instead uses it as an excuse for why she treats me the way she does.

For example, I was ill a few days ago, and I've never learned to swallow pills, so I usually crush them up if I can to take them. But since this pill was a gel liquid pill or sth, it wasn't supposed to be broken or anything. Instead of trying to support and help me like I guess any other parent would, she belittles me about it, even as her friend is on the phone. And I hear her friend trying to 'jokingly' tell her that it's common for people to just be unable to swallow pills and whatnot, and stuff basically trying to tell her in the nicest way possible to go easy on me. But she doesn't listen, and that's when she speaks to her friend about that whole "how she was raised" thing.

Recently, another issue came up that I can't be bothered to explain since I already did so on a different platform, and I'm feeling frustrated again. What she said and her tone with it completely ruined my mood. I didn't feel like to watch my yt videos anymore, and I also didn't know what to do. I debated coming on here and ranting about it versus staying in my head. But I knew it wouldn't do me any good to let this negativity stay in my head, so hopefully this at least does something.

I don't know what to do or what I want at this point. You never truly know better until you've got it. But idk if I would like a better relationship with someone who comes along, because then it would only drive me insane. It's not like I'm an adult and financially capable of leaving them and keeping them out of my life as much as possible. So if I truly do experience something totally different and better, it would drive me crazy to know that there's even better out there, but I have to be stuck with these people until otherwise. So I'd rather just be stuck with them until I can escape and give my head a break—when I can finally, actually, and more safely meet new people and reshape my life and the people I surround myself with.

So while I do want better... While I do wonder what it would feel like to have someone there for you, who understands you and whatnot, I also don't want it, because it'd be a constant reminder of what I don't have and will never have until I reach of age and stability on my own. And that frustrates and kills me.

It's not only my mother. It's a generational thing, so it's more than just her. But she's the one who pissed me off in this moment. I just wanted to capture my feelings before they capture me.

I may delete this in the morning when I come to my senses ig...

Sigh.

[neonlazycat]

Also this might be kinda controversial, but Moon is right when he says Bloodmoon and Ruin have and WILL kill more people if left alive.

Why does everyone want to be a saint right now??

Lunar killed Eclipse but he was revived so that's okay :)))

Sun killed Bloodmoon and thats ALSI okay cuz he got revived too :D

(I get Earth not wanting to kill people since yall know how she is).

Also let me remind how much Lunar refused therapy from Earth and he kept taking steps backwards but Earth still didn't give up on him .Why are they giving up on Moon?...cuz he insulted her?? (more like he snapped some sense into her . Also she was warned Moon was going to say hurtful things.)

And they know he did it because he wants to push them away from his fucked up plans the safest way possible, not because he hates them .So they thought "Oh Moon is in high distress and anger and lashes out?!?! How dare he! Let's all leave him :)".

Legit it's disturbing how lunar was like "I don't care about him anymore ,even if he apologises ill just walk away 🎀"

Lunar himself acted before almost the same way as Moon is acting now. Earth SAW him torture and kill eclipse (when eclipse wasnt even a threat at all) and still slowly forgave him . But the idea of Moon HYPOTHETICALLY killing irredeemable people (who are an active threat) triggers them??

Imagine leaving your brother and not caring about him (like Lunar said) just because he tried snapping some sense into them. It makes me wonder how strong their bond is if Earth is going to whine about how he called her out , or how lunar will abandon him immediately, (I think only Sun is the one with a slightly better plan, but even then he wants to hold moon back from reviving Solar .Why not convince him to at least listen to Eclipses alternative solution) In fact Eclipse is the one actually doing something atp.

Also we know Moon is not doing this because egotistical reasons he's in deep grief , man is NOT himself. His "family" says they "realise that hes goingthrough it" ,but it seems like they don't and are putting their ego and slightly hurt feelings first. (Wich ironically it's pretty egotistical)

Isn't family about sacrifice. So what he snapped at them? So what they felt offended? Can't they just push past that and try to understand his side?

And if any of you come and say "but moon threatened to kill Jack and Computer when he escapes" I think those are just empty threats Moon said for them to release him . I don't think he's gonna go after Computer and Jack for revenge.

Another argument I've read around is how disturbing is when Moon says "if Solar wants to die after being revived . That's his choice, I won't stop him"

If Moon was so selfish and egotistical he wouldn't care about how Solar would want to live after that .He just HOPES Solar will stay , but even if he doesn't , Moon knows that's not his choice, it's Solars choice.

Or the phrase everyone keeps throwing at Moon "you don't get to decide whether Bloodmoon/Ruin die or not" Oh so Bloodmoon/Ruin CAN decide whether millions of people can die but not Moon...

Anyways I understand that the thing Moon is doing is fucked up but the way his family just decides to turn their back to him , is more selfish than Moons supposed selfish reasons.

Oh well it's just a silly YT show , we'll just have to see how the writers go about it. Maybe I might have missed some parts or misunderstood some things , so take this whole rambling with a grain of salt .

I hate how this fandom just decided that Moon isn’t allowed to have problems.

Lunar has problems? Awww poor bean :(

Earth? OH SWEETIE 🥺 You don't deserve it!

Sun? He’s been through so much!!!

Moon? Nah, he's fine. He's just being selfish.

This man is here, having episodes of psychosis caused by stress and grief where he sees and hears hallucinations, things that do not exist, he cannot differentiate what is real from what is not, he doesn't want to do the things he does and he doesn't know how to stop, he needs help and his family and the fandom just turn their backs on him.

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Half of these words belong to @mxnivinny, she gave me permission to post them <3

[itsleese]

Oooomfg DUDE YAGAMI IS A GODDESS. She’s so fucking talented. Her improvement is GODLY. She has a lot of audios that are stand alones, a few other that have some connection, and then a main series. JUST. YEAH WATcH HER. You can go incognito mode and the videos won’t shot yo in YouTube’s history or get recommenced. But her Patreon is so where it’s at

omg i spend too much on patreon because i’m a horn dog 😵 don’t tell me to subscribe to ANOTHER ONEEEEEEE

[inari-zaheer]

hello!! i hope you dont mind me sending a request lolol, the infomation is on the wiki, yt and a ton more, but i hope your day is going well, but ill get started anyways..

can you do Vi, Caitlyn and Jinx with a S/O who has the same personality as Ciel fro Black Butler??

thanks in advance!!

Thank you so much for the request and have a great day too!♥️

Vi, Caitlyn and Jinx With Ciel!Reader

Pairings:Vi x Reader; Caitlyn x Reader; Jinx x Reader

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Vi

My first thought is that you'd be a dangerous couple

Vi wanting to punch anyone that wronged you and you wanting revenge on the same people?

I pray for the poor souls who cross your path lol

You probably met through Caitlyn, maybe on a party at the Kiramman's that Cait had begged Vi to attend

As soon as you started dating Vi you asked her to move in with you, as you were sure you could not handle the life in Zaun

You didn't want to sound like a spoiled brat, but come on, Zaun's enviroment wasn’t great at all

You'd try to teach Vi how to play chess, as to try to make her understand how your mind worked, but girly can't be sat still for more than five minutes

Everytime she even thought about wanting something you already had it planned and in her hands by the end of the day

If she hadn't got the information on Silco, you'd help her with all your might to find him, as after she told you her story all you could think was abolut helping her avenge Vander's death

She'd be the best at comforting you when things were too much, giving the best hugs and the best reassuring words to make you feel better

Caitlyn

I can see the both of you meeting when you were still kids

Your parents where friends with Cait's parents and you'd always play together

Having chess matches where the two of you being extremely competitive could go on for hours on end until you had to go home

She was probably the one who thought you how to shoot, and when you guys were older it became a frequent date plan

Caitlyn's romantic attraction to you probably started when she realized that all the kids who were mean to her at some point got some kind of payback for it

Random injuries in the playground, toys going missing, them randomly crying after you had a talk with them

She felt loved and cared for

As her parents caring a lot for her image and how she shouldn’t down her level for those people, knowing you always had her back no matter what the situation was always made her heart warm

It was almost a competition of gifts in your relationship, each one of you wanting to give each other something bigger but meaningfull everytime

Not being used to comfort from her parents in her life she'd not exactly know what to do at first, but would always say that whatever you needed she'd give you with all her love

Jinx

Your first meeting with Jinx was kinda chaotic

You went to actually have a meeting with Silco about some partnerships with your family in the topside

And she randomly flopped down the ceiling onto the table to say how attractive you were

I can see you bonding through the revenge aspect

You want someone gone? Your lovely girlfriend did it for you

Making plans on ending your enemies in the most gorey way possible is a common date for you

Jinx is someone who needs a lot of comfort daily, so lots of times she’d search for you around town so you could be together

Crashing any meetings that you have in the day and giving the death glare if someone was rude to you

She didn’t get to learn how to play chess when she was a kid, but is a smart and fast learner

(And i can see her exactly like that meme where she’d be wining by eating random pieces of yours when you weren’t looking just to drive you crazy lol)

[threepointseven]

Hi there, ^^ I would like to request: the bros and what item they would bring to the beach headcanon

HC’s of what the demon bros would bring to the beach and how they’re like!

Im sorry I had to add a second HC, its just that with only it about what they would bring it would be waaaay too short, forgive me! I hope you like them <3

-Your beloved 3.7

Fandom: Obey me

Type: Headcannon's

genre: Fluff

length: eh idk

So let's say you and the brothers visit the human world for a while, yk a little vacation. You suggest going to the beach and they're like ???? Y’all ofc end up going, so now, what would they bring?

Satan:

Definitely an “I don’t wanna go in the water I’ll stay here”

So will most likely bring a book of some sort

Absolutely avoids the water as though he’s allergic until you suggest splashing water on Lucifer as a prank

I just know this man needs SPF 45 just to stay alive

You can see the sunscreen just seeping out of him as he hesitantly gets in the water

Lowkey the type to go home with sand in his swimsuit that doesn’t go away for a good year or two-

Lucifer:

Kinda like a white mom that makes sure her kids don’t get sunburnt or get washed away by the waves

Brings expensive ass luxurious sunscreen from like Gucci or smth

Buys a bunch of rip off Adidas hats that people were selling at the entrance of the beach

He feels like the type to take sunset beach pictures so probably a camera or phone

100% warns you about the ocean saying you might get sucked in or some shit

The type to stay tf away from the water until Satan splashes him and he starts a civil war

Leviathan:

A Nintendo switch, manga, and a Ruri chan plushie for emotional support.

Sure he’s a big bad sea monster but he doesn’t go to a public beach that often

Doesn’t go in the water until someone drags him in

No cause have you seen that one picture? HE’S RIPPED, ILL BE DAMNED IF YOUR ASS DOESN'T OFFER TO PUT SUNSCREEN ON HIM LIKE THIS PALE PALE BOY NEEDS SOME AND YOU GET TO FEEL HIS COLLAR BONES

Probably brings those little umbrella things cause he isn’t used to the burning sun in the human world

Asmodeus:

sunscreen once again, but like sunscreen that’s Asmo approved.

A pretty lil sun hat

NO CAUSE ISTG HE’S THE TYPE TO WEAR ONE OF THOSE V-STRAP SWIMSUITS THAT BARELY COVER YOUR DICK AND YOUR CHEST

Flirts with all the pretty people he sees

A speaker, when he’s not swimming he’s listening to doja cat & Ariana grande

Really only swims in the shallow and helps beel make a sand castle

34 + 35 blasting in the background as you help him put sunscreen on his back

Not sure but probably offers to eat you out/give you head in one of the empty sections in the beach

Beelzebub

HE BRINGS SAND CASTLE MAKING TOOLS DJFWBEMN

He also brings a lot of food, like a lot-

Probably brings half of the McDonalds menu

He’s the type to barely go in the water, build a giant sand castle and get pouty when the tide ruins it

Probably brings crabs back home to cook

Not the type to be obsessive over sunscreen, I actually see him as one of those dudes that don’t mind tanning

The type to bring a surf board and teach you how to surf

a lot of girls probably check him out

Overall 10/10 would take this gigantic teddy bear to the beach again

Belphie

THIS FYCKER YRVHWEFJ

OkaY, first of all, he brings a pillow and sunglasses. That’s what he brings.

He uses the expensive sunscreen Lucifer brings and only goes into the water to get crabs to make them bite Lucifer

Sleeps most of the time and wakes up salty when mammon splashes him with water

Probably goes around the beach destroying some yt kids sand castles (like the unbearable fucker he is)

Has a cynical smile as he ruins sand castles that probably took 2 hours to make and acts like nothing ever happened

He’s also the type to collect shells and put them into a little plastic baggie when he’s not destroying a kids sandcastle

Cuddles with you when You're not swimming in the towels that mammon brought

Mammon

This one brings the fun shit

He brings the little picnic towels for y’all to sunbathe on

He also brings a lil too many water guns, it's like he’s expecting the entire beach to erupt into a water gun battle

Pays for jet skis and forces you to go on one with him

He goes just a bit too fast and accidentally shoves you off the jet ski and leaves you in the water alone since he didn’t realize you were gone-

Tans with you!

He makes all of you have a water gun fight and when Lucifer and Satan refuses he splashes them directly in the face

Brings Monopoly to play when you two get bored

Probably puts a bunch of sand on belphie when he’s sleeping to make him look like a mermaid

[cloudberry-ado]

Right I do this everytime I make a long af post so please as a dire warning if you feel your eyeslids droop and your head hit the back of your chair out of boredom- then excuse me that is my fault there so please think twice before you torture yourself reading this post because I yap until the cows come home (or you might get permanent brain damage probably)

Well to be fair, I don't know a lot of Roxers irl or on the internet so I talk to my mom about Roxette every day lol (funny how she was a fan right from the 80s but i know more songs and stuff in general about marie and per than she does JSJSJ) It IS very hard to find roxette fans which i honestly do not understand why sometimes because roxette is probably the best bands out there for me- no scrap that THE BEST BAND EVER and theyre so criminally underrated and oh my word SO DYNAMIC- (Marie really took my breath away when I saw her especially live) this is just my opinion tho mainly because i am shocked they arent as thought about as other artists are because honestly? Nobody I know can hype me up, headbang for hours and make me go "A banger as always" everytime I hear them and pers songs in general (Här kommer alla känslorna (på en och samma gång) I absolutely loved this one i don't know why it sounds so wholesome and cute despite it being a sad song). Never ever can get sick of Roxette Ive been listening to them every day for years straight and everytime it feels like I'm listening to them for the first time AAA- Now I'll try my best stop rambling now because I will bore you (don't bore us get to the chorus- or the point I should say) sorry sorry I'm just someone who is so much in love with roxette that the fact I can talk like this to someone who knows them properly ah man I always wished that honestly but never got the chance to- ANYWAY ILL STOP NOW AHAJSHJSJS I CANT SHUT UP SOMETIMES

AHEM- Now about GT ehehe (I was actually hoping you'd reblog and give me some recommendations or some juicy info since I actually need to look more into Gyllene Tider (jeez call myself a Per Gessle fangirl when I haven't even listened to GT properly be ashamed of yourself cloudberry)) BUT EEE YOU ACTUALLY DID THANK YOUU- HAH WELL JOKES ON YOU I AM INTO THIS VERY MUCH SO LOLS I feel very privileged recieving GT stuff from you so HEH- INTO IT HERE I GO

Yes I think when I researched about GT on yt it came up before roxette was formed (before 1986 obviously) and I listened to some songs for a while since for some reason young per made me wish I was born during that time period LOL honestly I was incredibly impressed because even back then Per was amazing and he still sounds the same until now! His voice honestly ages like wine lol and he's an incredible singer songwriter and guitarist even way back before roxette- I do know that they have reunited from time and time again (I'm not so sure if this is true but perhaps because of Roxette being slightly inactive for a few years because of maries cancer) and I have heard a bit! Not much but just a little bit and I think they sound really good though I'll have to give them more of a listen XD (and oh come on, per has SO MANY PEOPLE when it comes to people crushing on him, 1970s-now (including me jeez) which i do not judge at all since i can definitely see why JSJJS though my personal favourite look of him was when he did Pearls Of Passion especially in Neverending Love (he looked amazing in that black outfit). So anyways yes! I will definitely check them out and all the suggestions you have given me here and well me personally I actually tend to dig deeper initially when it comes to music so I'll give a good bunch of their songs a listen XD

OKAY OKAY- I HAVEN'T WATCHED THESE YET BUT I HAVE SAVED IT TO MY PLAYLIST SO I DEFINITELY WILL GIVE THEM A WATCH AND LISTEN OFC- But THANK YOU and on regards of how big GT was in Sweden I have heard they were quite successful! It said under one of Marie's biography that her band Strul wasn't as successful as Gyllene Tider (im not sure if this part is true however) so she left and joined gyllene tider for backing vocals yeah? BUT ACK- GOING OFF TOPIC AGAIN YES THANK YOU I WILL LISTEN TO ALL OF THESE AND I WILL UPDATE YOU WHEN I WILL JSJSJJS

But hey no! I love long posts and messages especially anything related to Per! I CANNOT say anything obviously I mean look at the state of this post I've rambled so much I'm sure you're yawning openly while reading this 😭 sorry about that haha but ay I feel you, ive already have a good liking to GT from my own experience so im sure I'll enjoy them as much as I do with roxette! But hey no thats okay either because I don't answer very well either sometimes (enjoying summer rn but school will hit me like a truck lol) and tbh Tumblr hates giving me notifs so sorry if I miss anything! But thank youu I'm so happy I found a roxette fan as well as a GT fan!

Thank you so much again for taking your time out for me like this!

Hi, first of all thanks for all your likes, reblogs and comments! Always feels nice to find another Roxer out there :3

I noticed you're kinda Per's fan, so let me ask just in case: have you listened to Gyllene Tider, his Swedish band? 👀

Hey!! Jsjsj i didn't think you'd actually say something to me lols but awk no problemo it's just, god I love Per so much ive been a huge fan of him since i was...9? First time I heard him was when my mom gave me Roxette! Look Sharp! album and I instantly fell in love with it (along with Per!) but yep I'm a BIG roxette fan and I cannot live without them (I actually cried for months straight when Marie died she was the whole reason why I started singing and making music).

But yes! I know Gyllene Tider, I know Per formed the band and worked in it before he formed roxette with Marie right? I don't know much songs since I'm still focusing on collecting Roxettes albums (Pearls Of Passion, Look Sharp!, Joyride, Tourism, Crash! Boom! Bang!, Dont Bore Us! Get To The Chorus (Roxettes Greatest Hits), Have A Nice Day, Room Service and Charm School. I lost my album cover for Look Sharp and I'm depressed now 😭) but damn I'm rambling now (sorry nobody else knows roxette except me and my mom so knowing you do it makes me so excited because I'm actually obsessed with roxette atp smh) but as I said yep! I did hear a bit of Gyllene Tider and I've watched Per perform with them in the early 80s though I don't actually know much of their songs. I WILL listen to them however since if it's related to Mr Gessle then hell yes this is my music JSJJS I have listened to Marie's band before she came to roxette however (Strul) and I quite liked Ensamt XD other than that please keep talking to me since roxette means the world to me and i never shut up about Per to my mom (she regrets introducing me to roxette now LOLS)

(I'm so happy you dropped and gave me an ask so imma just dance away now

OH-OH-OH)

[disaster-j]

Hi J! Hope you’re doing great (i mean, we’re all recovering from not me ep8)

Speaking of not me, i’m just blown away by P’Nuchie’s directing style, i love her so much her work is brillant so beautiful everything is so thought about & i can’t believe i’ve been missing out on her work for all those year before now!!!

Do you know where i could watch other works she directed? Is it easily available for english speakers?

Hiii im still processing it lmao

She is absolutely one of the greatest directors of her time and I definitely recommend checking out her work! That being said, I do want to warn you that her best works are not everyone's cup of tea so please watch the trailers and read the synopses carefully checking for triggers before going in.

Her debut film The Blue Hour (2015) is what made me fall in love with her work. It's so incredibly executed it blows my mind. The movie also stars Gun and Oab as the main characters so there's the benefit of having familiar faces to help cope with the very bleak and at times quite violent imagery. This movie is very trippy though, Tam has a very loose grip on reality due to some unspecified illness/disorder so the entire time you're left questioning which of the events actively happened and what was just part of his delusions/hallucinations. It's been a couple years since I watched it and have seen it multiple times now but I still am not entirely sure what did and did not happen. A shortened for TV version is available to watch on Netflix in the Thirteen Terrors anthology but I must warn you if you watch the cut version it will be even more confusing than it already is. Also the cut version cuts out a lot of the scenes showing Tam and Phoom's relationship so... Fully subbed versions of the film are available on most illegal asian show streaming sites though so if you can't find any legit ways to watch it I recommend kissasian.

Her current most critically acclaimed work is Malila: The Farewell Flower (2017). Like The Blue Hour, it has a lot of mature and at times bleak themes. This is a film I haven't been able to find on any legal or not so legal sites atm (tho mdl claims it is on netflix and prime so maybe it's available in different countries?) so I can't give you too many details about it. I recommend checking out MDL for details. Or ask Axelle (@piningbisexuals) since she has actually watched it. What I can say is that it is a very artistic film with a lot of depth and explores queerness and queer love. It also isn't a happy ending but it's not really a film you go into looking for cheer anyway.

Then there's After Dark, a collection of four interlinked horror stories. I actually didn't notice P'Nuchie was a writer and director for this series until I went to her MDL page today even though this series has been on my watchlist for some time since I watched the trailer with Jane. All the more reason to watch it now! This one is a wetv series so if you have access to that it should be easy enough to watch. If not, it is available on dramacool as well.

Finally, there's Girl Next Room: Security Love starring Gigie. This was her first time directing a series and it came out really good. I highly recommend watching it, especially since it's just 6 eps and available on yt (gmm series) so it's the easiest to watch. This is also an easier watch on account of there being no violence or gore or death xD

(But I personally recommend starting your journey with The Blue Hour because it just feels right.)

As for her upcoming work, I'm super excited for Forbidden, which is a mystery horror series with Oab in the cast. I love Oab so I would have checked it out as it is but knowing P'Nuchie directed it just makes it ten times more worth the hype.

I also recommend checking out her MDL page for more details about her and her projects!

[shotosprincess]

BAKUGO SCREAMING AND IZUKU

( ˘ ³˘)♥︎ AAAA HIII TYSM FOR REPLYING TO THE BNHA PLAYLIST THINGY FOR FICS I LOVE YOU MWAHMWAH

anyways aaa bet !! ill do midoriya first if you don’t mind bc im currently in such a soft mood and hajdjj i just love him sm :((

— 𝙠𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙤𝙣 𝙤𝙣 𝙞𝙯𝙪𝙠𝙪 𝙢𝙞𝙙𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙮𝙖’𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙢𝙨

inspired by this playlist by nimbus on yt !! pls check them out ansjdjf their playlists r heaven ^^

❝ you never truly understood that about him, the way he continued to put himself through the pain, to push himself, even, past his limits and then some—

plus ultra. and now his arms were all but littered with rough scars of diluted white and blunt tan. ❞

notes ! gender neutral! reader,, best friends to lovers au ,, 2nd person pov

summary: in which your best friend deku shows up at your dorm late at night due to kacchan locking him out. he asks for bandages to stabilize his newly-healed scars, and you ask to kiss them.

genre: fluff !! <33

it went without a doubt that deku had been to recovery girls’ office more times than anyone else at the academy. it hurt, honestly; each time you saw his still-healing figure emerge from the little swing of her door, a sharp pang reverberated starkly through your chest, for though the freshly-scarred over wounds didn’t diminish his beauty in the slightest, you simply couldn’t deny that an empty eddy of sadness settled in you whenever he was in such a state.

and unfortunately for you, he was constantly in it.

his body could only take so much. and he was still so young too—the very same held true for your heart.

it’s been that way ever since the two of you had first entered ua as shining, eager students. though in all fairness you had to admit, he was...different from the very beginning. even as the prelude to his eventual rising and growth in his quirk, he had shone with a certain unmatched brilliance ever since the entrance exams. and over the years you spent together, you had watched him persevere so passionately towards the glow of his ultimate goal; to be a hero who can help others. little did he know just how much he already had. he had always been so excruciatingly oblivious and aloof to even the evidence and affects of his own kindness, and you hated the fact that so many tended to take advantage of it. of him.

though, of course, this did not mean that he was weak in any form. no, if anything he was quite the polar opposite—he had proved it time and time again, and yet it didn’t mean that he couldn’t get hurt too. the dull aching of tiredness ringing in his eyes, the one he tries to desperately to mask, the ragged marks scattered across the pale valleys of his once-scar-barren skin; he wasn’t immune to pain, to injury. and yet, he fought. you never truly understood that about him, the way he continued to put himself through the pain, to push himself, even, past his limits and then some—

plus ultra. and now his arms were all but littered with rough scars of diluted white and blunt tan.

nevertheless, truth be told, you actually admired it a great deal. his sheer determination, the purity of his motives, it was more than laudable. despite all of it, you truly couldn’t help but feel this...magnetic urge to help him. protect him. if you could soothe the pain in any way, even if it would be but a temporary relief—

three knocks clack on the door.

you and izuku’s secret door code—just a silly little something the two of you made up a few months after the dorm system had been put into motion, and all so you could sneak out to the grass-flooded yards of the building and train together.

naturally, you open the door.

“ heyyy there you are! “

your head perks up at the cheery jingling of his voice, all drafts of exhaustion and sleep deprivation washing away almost instantaneously. he might as well be the very personification of caffeine at that point, despite how direly he needed it himself.

the starry shine of his eyes meets with yours as a diluted sanguine seeped colour into his face. he turns his head away awkwardly.

you lean against the doorframe, smiling at him. “ deku...you didn’t tell me we’d be training today. plus it’s a little late right now, don’t you think? i’m already in my pajamas. “

“ yeah, um, sorry about that. kacchan...kinda locked me out. “

“ he what? “

“ he locked me out. “

“ how does that even—don’t you have separate rooms? “

“ well, yeah, but we were racing down the halls after glass today and he...got to my room before i could. well, honestly i have no clue what he’s doing over there. “ he laughs, rubbing the back of his neck.

“ oookay then. little concerning, i won’t lie. “ your shoulders lift in a shrug, arms crossing in front of your chest as your shy laugh matches his.

“ so i was wondering if...you know...i could maybe stay here for a bit? “ his voice wavers subtly, though you’re quick to catch it. the tips of his ears flush with a deepened pink.

you can’t help but silently gush about how cute he looked.

you’re quick to snap out of that too. eyes bursting open with a brilliant shock, you notice he’s fiddling nervously with his fingers as you remain absolutely, positively frozen in place.

“ i’m—what? “

his countenance immediately shifts to one of sheer embarrassment. flustered, he begins to frantically wave his hands in front of him, as if to put some sort of considerable distance between his panicking self and your seemingly-composed demeanour. and as if that would do anything to deescalate the tension which was only progressively building between your equally-timid selves at this moment.

“ ohmygod i didn’t mean it in a weird way or anything! i’m sorry, i’m sorry, i’ll just—i’ll just go— “

you slide against the wood a little bit, pushing your weight against the slightly-agape door, so it swung open even further to reveal the, admittedly, fairly-messy state of your room. draped carelessly on the side of your bed, a sweater you had taken off earlier because the temperature of your room had suddenly decided to heat up an unreasonable amount. countable cups holding shallow pools of hour-old drinks scattered throughout nearly every shelf. a creased textbook splayed out, cover up on your desk.

yep. definitely looked like someone’s lived here.

“ i mean...you could come in if you want. no one’s stopping you. it’s a little messy though, i haven’t found much time to properly clean it yet, with exams coming soon and stuff. “ a small smile accompanies your growing blush, despite how much you were trying to play it off as nonchalantly as possible.

psh, right. as if letting him in your room—something you had never done prior in the history of your friendship—wasn’t a big deal in the slightest.

his eyes shoot wide as his arms flail about. you have to keep yourself from laughing at his silliness.

“ uhm, i mean...only if that’s okay with you! “

“ yeah, yeah, of course! you need a place to stay for now, after all. who knows when bakugou’s gonna let you back in? “

“ yeah, i guess you’re right. well, i mean, if you really don’t mind— “

you playfully roll your eyes, giggling as you shove him into your room.

“ oh, quit it with the politeness. you’re too nice, you know that? “

“ too...nice? “

“ too nice. “ you reiterate, giving his shoulders a little squeeze.

his head lolls to the side as he carefully lowers himself onto your bed, his sweater shifting with the subtle movement.

for a few moments, the space between you is occupied with a simple, comfortable silence. it’s refreshing, really. a welcome difference from all the boisterousness of the academy. you loved the action and everyone’s energy, of course, but sometimes what you really needed was really just a simple break from everything. to do nothing but exist for a little while, to simply be without the constant pressure of having to get up and jump into action all the time. just for a few moments. and so you relished in these said moments spent with him, for who knows when the next time you could ever be with him like this again would be?

and then his voice fills that void of silence, but you’re not disappointed in the slightest.

“ hey. “

“ yeah? “

“ you don’t happen to have any extra bandages, do you? “

“ bandages? for what? “

he clenches his fist, flexing the muscles in his arm. “ for...stability. just in case. i can’t afford for my arms to get hurt more. “

“ oh. well, uhm...i think i have a few spares in my drawer! “ you push yourself off the bed, leaving the comfort the soft sheets brought about, pulling open a tiny drawer. taking out a transparent box of bandages, you jump back onto the plushness, sitting cross-legged directly across from midoriya, who’s already presenting his arm.

your lips silently part as your fingers wrap themselves around the thick ivory fabrics of bandage, rolling them around so you could wrap them around him.

another pause of wordless silence falls.

“ hey deku? “

“ yeah? “

“ could i...could i kiss your scars? “ you whisper, afraid that he’d get mad, though you knew he was anything but the type to do such a thing.

the meadow depths of his eyes kindle a cozy hearth within you as his initial surprise quickly softens, melting away into what could only be described as the most endearing smile to exist.

“ sure. “

jagged patches and uneven streaks of faded cloud white and prominent earthy tans decorate his arms, and you can’t help but bring the rosiness of your lips to meet them. you decide begin with the ones littered along his fingers.

one kiss for the scar resting within the curved dip between his thumb and index.

“ for every time you used just a flick of your fingers to defend everyone back then, when you didn’t even have full control over your quirk. “

a longing sigh leaves him as he reminisces briefly on the memory. you place a soft kiss upon the scar resting at the side of his pinky.

“ for every fist you made with this hand, for every punch you’ve delivered in the name of other’s safety. “

a drop splashed onto his arm, trickling down and tainting the scars etched into his forearm with a subtle, diaphanous sheen. you look up through your lashes, and a prominent gloss coats the kindness of his dark emeralds. your hand comes up to carefully caress his cheek, cupping it gently as the pad of your thumb swipes beneath his eye, wiping away the upcoming tear. your features are knitted together in concern.

“ are you okay? i can stop if you want me to— “

he takes your hand in both of his, squeezing as if to keep you there forever. “ no, don’t. please.“

it’s a tiny whisper, a softened plea into the dark quiet of the night, as if he were ashamed for wanting to be taken care of. your brows curve downward as you pull your twined hands to your lips, tenderly planting your lips where your skin kissed his.

“ hey, hey. it’s okay. it’s okay. “ you hush him, running your free hand through his thick tendrils of vivid, verdant green.

he leans into your touch, nodding at you as if to urge you to continue, which you gladly accept.

you shift a little closer to him, kissing the thick mark of serration painted into the skin of his wrist.

“ for every countless moment you’ve sacrificed for your dream. “

another kiss to the one just above it.

“ for every hour bled into the night that you spent helping me train. “

your fingers dance along his arm, finally stopping at the scar stretching from his elbow and dragging upwards. as per routine, your lips come down to delicately kiss it.

“ for every ‘ plus ultra! ‘ you’ve ever passionately shouted. “

little giggles left the both of you at that.

your touch trails to the scar just beside it, kissing it as well.

“ for every life you’ve ever saved. “

you look him in the eye. holding his arm like this, you were so close to him. and yet, you didn’t want to pull away. if anything, it was the very last thing you would ever want to do. he matched your stare, a certain sense of longing displaying in your gaze as it reflects off of his. the prolonged stare lasts longer than it probably should, longer than what best friends should probably look at each other this closely, this intimately for. the moonlight dimly shines through your window.

and then it happens.

his lips collide with yours in a captivating symphony, hands going straight to twirl through the locks of your hair as you wrap yours in a loose loop around his neck. everything feels as though it had all snapped into place, and the tension you had felt before was all completely dissipated now, displaced into the passion in which this kiss exuded. it was earth-shattering, galaxy-shredding. it felt as if even pain itself could never reach either of you, not in this moment.

this moment was for the both of you, and no one else. in this moment, in his arms, nothing and no one could hurt you.

he pulls away, stunned, lips parted with a saturated red. you stare at him with just about the same level of blankness, of utter shock at what you two had just done.

but then the realization catches up with him, and he is pulled out of the daze. much to your surprise, he doesn’t move away. if anything, he pulls you closer, enveloping both your hands within his just as he did before.

and just as you had done earlier, he brings them to his lips.

“ and that’s for every ‘ i love you ‘ i’ve ever wanted to say to you but never had the guts to. “