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you said you were stuck in a time loop, which was fine. i feel like late-stage capitalism has us all in a time loop, ammiright? you came barging in at 5:33. in the morning. i hadn't even processed the idea of coffee.
but you had this look of utter panic in your eyes. terror like the ocean. you grabbed my cheeks. im in a time loop.
i don't know why in movies the first reaction is to deny it. when someone is panicking like that, it's not appropriate to ask them to calm down. it didn't matter if i believed it, what mattered was that you believed it so much that it was consuming you.
so here we are. i pour you some of the dark roast. "you look like utter and entire hell," i say.
you push your fingers into your eyes. "you always say that."
i try to think of something funny to say that i wouldn't have said on previous time loops, but jokes don't land without the proper timing (lol). "remind me to think -"
"-yeah, of a joke that only works in the future. and before you say anything, i know you're pissed i just stole your punchline." you bolt the coffee, which is wild. it's very hot. you don't seem to notice.
i blow on mine to cool it down. i both am very pissed at you and also i can't see you in this amount of panic without wanting to help. but i'm also not really sure what we are, not since i saw you kiss her like that, no offense. it just was like, kind of rude when you knew i liked you.
and besides. i'm just like, barely a person. i write omegaverse fanfiction. i love the concept of a time loop, but what the fuck am i gonna do? send an alpha in there? i open my mouth.
you point at me. "you're about to ask why me. and then say some disparaging shit about yourself. i'm just a nerd who plays dnd or something. that self-own is slightly different each time." you sigh. "i know you think you can't really help me. i don't know who can help me. i only came to you because you fucking believe me." you check your watch, sigh, and throw your head back. you cover your eyes with one hand. "i've come here on 26 separate revolutions," you say. "you have believed me every time. and yeah, i have no idea how you fit into this but i just -" you sigh again. "i just like fucking talking to someone about it."
"do you need more cof-" i start, but you're already holding the empty cup out. i frown at it. "you're not getting any more until you promise not to bolt this one like an animal."
you laugh a little and sit up, pushing your hair out of your face. "okay, that's new dialogue. but to be fair to you, i'm not usually this rude. i'm still pretty new at all of this." you check your watch again. another sigh. i guess you're cruising for a personal best in the Sigh Olympics.
i almost tell you im not an NPC but i've played enough video games to know i'm very much an NPC. i pour you another cup. "so what happens in the loop?"
"really bad explosion." you mutter into the mug. you put your elbows on the table (rude) and bury your face in your arms like an angsty teenager. one hand floats up while you talk, because evidently you literally can't talk without your hands. "i have to save the day and there's this bomb and i have no bomb training and it keeps moving, you know."
"do i die?"
you peek up from your arms. "yeah. bigtime. you keep trying to run or stay or do anything and you always super die."
"oh."
"to be fair, like, everyone dies in it though.... so you're in good company."
i hate that you make me laugh. i hate that being around you always feels tingly and strange, this electric tension between us. something that is evidently (given how you stuck your tongue down a stranger's throat literally 3 days ago) (well. 3 for me) super one-sided. i take a sip of my coffee and close my eyes.
i die today, i guess. a little spark of panic starts at the top of my hands and starts whipping up my wrists.
"shit," you say. you look at your watch and jump to your feet. "i have to go. if i can come back, i will. i am still trying to figure out when is best to do everything, you know? the order of stuff. maybe morning isn't good for us."
i look up at you and think about how you keep kissing me in the back of my car and in alleyways and in the dark. and i can never fucking get a read on you. and i also think about how incredibly panicked you look. how broken. how long have you been doing this? "i don't want to die," i say.
you glance downwards. "well, you're not really dead, you'll come back in the loop."
"but i will have died." my hands are shaking. i am trying really hard to stay calm.
you push your hands through your hair again. "i really have to go. i will have this discussion with the next version of you, though. it is like, something i am thinking about."
"but i don't get a next version," i say. i don't really have the language for this, because i haven't had 26 tries with you. i only have my memories: you, a week ago. drunk and telling me you loved me in my ear. you, kissing her anyway. you, months ago, throwing up on my birthday, whispering to me i ruin everything i touch, always, over and over. please don't ask. i can't ever fucking have that be you.
i run my finger along the rim of the mug. "i don't want to die in this one."
you seem baffled by this. "i get that but - time will reset, you'll be fine, you won't even remember we talked about this."
"but i know now." i stand up too. "i have to live the rest of this day knowing i could die. knowing i probably am going to."
"you could always die, to be fair."
i feel my hands get out of control. "earlier, you said i always say a different insult about myself. what if you're just going through different parallel universes and those are all just different - but real - versions of myself? what if you're not in a time loop, you're in a fucking universe loop?"
"if it helps, i've wondered this too. also, you're hot in all of them. if that helps."
i point at you. "no flirting. i'm trying to figure out if i die today."
"who's flirting?" you catch my wild hands and give me that long, perfect smile. like we're in this together. "i won't let ya die." you check your watch and sigh again. "well. maybe not this time."
i grit my teeth. you are so not making quips at me while i try to explain the existential dread i'm having. "does the time loop reset if i fucking kill you?"
"honestly i don't know how long it continues after i die, because i just wake up. it could be that the loop goes until the explosion for everyone, and we're all in the loop, or it could be that when i die, the loop restarts. when i die i wake up, is all."
i pull away from you and stalk into the kitchen and start doing all 3 of my dishes. "okay, first, you know i was joking. and secondly, this is exactly my point. you don't know if this is just a parallel universe. maybe in the ones where you died, the explosion happened and nobody reset and it's just you travelling." i have to stop and push my heel into my eyeball. "... how often have you died?"
i look at you. you look at me. you give me this very sad, halfway smile and a little what can ya do shrug. something in that action seems so old and weary that i want to burst into tears.
"i have to go," you say. "really. for real. there's this family of five i save from getting into a car crash. and i know it's like oh but we're all gonna die in the explosion anyway, what's the point. and..." you shrug again. "it matters to me, is all. at least i saved them for now. at least i saved anything."
you pad over to me and wrap me in a tight hug. you always seem so tall against me. i feel your cheek rest against the top of my head for a moment. for a second, it's just us, and the space is warm, and my heart is a little broken hare.
you leave me there, and i stand in my stupid badly lit kitchen with my stupid mugs. i think about you. i start texting my mom that she needs to get out of the city, but it feels pointless.
i don't know what to do. tomorrow is the same day for you. but i have to prepare to die in my today.
#warm up#prose#i just realized that there's a horror film in there about being someone NOT in a loop.#if i wanted to make it longer i'd have them come back like SUPER battered and hellish.#on round like 999#like halfway through lunch like - YOU . I LOVE U . IM SORRY . I RUINED IT BC I LOVE U CANT U SEE THAT#but like. yeah man what happens when someone else in control of ur destiny#what happens to all the versions of u that DO die...#i also wanted a pre-redemption time looper - this person#(who in my brain is they/them)#is absolutelyyyyyy toying with the narrator bc the time looper is caught up in like#an emo angsty '' i can't have what i want bc i ruin things'' self harm spiral#and like literally the way out of that spiral is to TRY bud.#but this is a person pre-redemption. still kind of an ass. still not really listening to her#still a little bit ignoring that they kissed someone 3 days ago#still KNOWS she likes them and DOES like her back. but is just too chickenshit still.#we're talkin that person we've ALL dated that's like ''i can't be with u anymore bc i am Too Broken and I Can't Stand Hurting U"#... i imagine they grow up tho. eventually.
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đïžâ€ evil!Ford x reader
author note: okay im sorry for post spamming but this idea been sitting in my mind for too long and I had to write smth about it, would be glad to read your opinion on that Ford x reader dynamic!^^
so this is a bit of an au situation where evil!Ford is working with Bill now. in this version, reader is Fordâs former ex partner, someone who used to be close enough to him to know his work better than anyone else, including the equation Bill wanted from Ford in canon. Although here Ford doesnât know the equation anymore, but you do
Youâre trapped.
The chair beneath you creaks when you try to move, your wrists aching from the coldness of the handcuffs that keep your hands pinned behind your back. Your breathing is shallow from fighting, your throat feels dry from screaming, but you keep your head high. Defiance in your eyes, even as Stanfordâs gaze burns holes through you.
He sits across from you with his legs spread wide and his elbows resting on his thighs, watching you. You squint, noticing a little glow of that infernal symbol on his wrist. Billâs mark, his new goddamn religion.Â
âYouâre only making this harder for yourself, darling.â
You donât answer, you wonât give him the satisfaction.
Ford leans back in his chair, tilting his head as his eyes drag slowly over you. âStill playing the martyr, i see,â he drawls, unable to hold sarcastic laugh. âyou always did have a flair for the dramatic.â
âFuck you,â you spit.
âOh, but, sweetheart,â he says, standing now. âyou donât get it, do you? you canât win this.â
âYou think youâre protecting them,â Stanford continues. âStanley, the twins. You think theyâll thank you for this? For your stubbornness?â
âYou wonât touch them.â you answer through clenched teeth.Â
Ford crosses the room in a few strides, towering over you now and it feels like his shadow is swallowing you whole. His hand comes up to grip your chin, forcing your face upward to look at him and you donât recognise him, instead of your Ford, itâs a shadow of a man whoâs sold his soul, body and mind, to something far worse than the nightmares youâre used to. Ford digs his fingers into your skin.
âJust tell me the equation, thatâs all i want. you give me what i need, and thisââ his eyes flick down to the cuffs, to the bruises blooming on your wrists, ââthis ends.â
âGo to hell.â
His grip only tightens, and his jaw clenches. For a moment, you think he might snap, might lose that careful control he prides himself on. But to your surprise, he lets out a low, bitter laugh, releasing your chin and pacing a step away.
âAlways so stubborn, itâs admirable, in a way. Stupid as fuck, but admirable. But we both know i can make you talk.â
Before you can react, his hand is in your hair, yanking your head back sharply. You gasp, your neck arching painfully as his face appears damn close you feel his breath against your lips. God, this is not how you imagined kissing Ford. Not after he joined Bill Cipher.
âWhatâs with that fear in your pretty eyes? I wonât bite, not unless you ask.âÂ
âFuck. . . you,â you say again, but the words sound weaker this time and you hate the fact that even after Ford Pines isnât the man you remember, you still feel attached to him.
Noticing your hesitation, Stanfordâs lips curl into a smirk, and then heâs kissing you, if you can even call it that. Ford is forceful, rough, demanding, his kiss is nothing gentle, his other hand grips your jaw to keep you in place he takes what he wants, biting your lips, his tongue sweeping into your mouth and he groans when you make a pathetic muffled sound.
When he pulls back, your lips are swollen and you swear you can taste the metal, your skin burns from how hard he squeezed it.
âI can do this all night,â Ford trails his long fingers down the side of your neck, brushing the pulse that races beneath your skin. âYouâll give in eventually. . . they always do.â
âI hate you.â but you donât believe your own words.
That truly makes Ford laugh, the way you say it so dead serious, with that cute glare when you both know itâs not like that.Â
âHate me?â he repeats in mockery, as if the very idea is absurd. His fingers tighten in your hair, pulling your head back to force your eyes to meet his. âIs that what you tell yourself to sleep at night, sweetheart?â
You glare up at him, biting down on the words that threaten to spill from your mouth.
âFunny. Thatâs not what my muse showed me. Not in your little head, darling.â he talks, savouring every word, enjoying your reaction as you already have panic written all over your face. âlet me tell you, in there, youâre begging for it, desperate for me to fuck you.â
Your heart slams against your ribs and the air seems to vanish from your lungs.Â
âAll those filthy little thoughts you try so hard to hide. I had no idea my ex-lab partner was such a slut?â
You feel mad and humiliated at same time, your face burns, but you clench your jaw, refusing to give him the satisfaction of a response.
âOh, donât give me that look, sweetheart, we both know exactly where itâs gonna get you.â
#gravity falls#x reader#gravity falls x reader#gravity falls x you#gravity falls smut#ford pines smut#ford pines x reader#stanford pines#stanford pines x you#stanford pines x reader#gravity falls ford#grunkle ford#ford x reader#gravity falls fanfiction
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if requests are open would you mind writing fem gojo, fem sukuna, maki, and nobara with a male!s/o who doesnt take anything seriously- like, hes the type to laugh during a serious situation
idk if youll do this or not lol i thought it was a good idea im a big supporter of ur work btw MALE/GN!READER SUPREMACY
Nobara,maki,fem!gojo, and fem!sukuna with a s/o who doesn't take anything seriously
A/n:Thanks, I appreciate the support, gn/male reader supremacy indeed
Nobara kugisaki
She treats you very similarly to how she treats yuji:sometimes she's mad and yells at you, and other times she's giggling and having fun with you
It really depends on the situation. If you're during a mission and the situation is serious, then she'll tell you to stop and take it seriously, but if you're laughing at something stupid, yuji did then she'll just join you
If she gets very mad at you for your lack of seriousness she won't talk to you for a while and wait for you to come and apologize
"Hey y/n, what the heck are you laughing about over here?"
"Sorry, it's just yuji slipped and fell down it was wo funny"
"Really? You have to show me"
"Yeah I filmed it"
"C-cmon guys"
Maki zenin
Sometimes, she wonders why she loves you. Genuinely, you two are just opposites and you annoy her so much most of the time
Unless it's an actually funny situation she'll scold you for being so unserious. Gojo already annoys her a lot and she doesn't need someone else like that giving her even more headaches
She gets mad at you a lot and will need a lot of time to get used to your demeanor, but when your relationship goes on for long enough, she'll get softer and be more understanding.....she still hits you when you're annoying though
"You idiot! We're fighting a curse and you're out here laughing? Be serious for once!"
"I think it's you who needs to relax more maki"
".........."
"O-ok sorry babe"
Fem!gojo
You two are just the same, always being silly and not taking anything seriously. You have so many inside jokes that no one else can understand, but that make you burst into laughter at any moment
You could be on a mission, hunting a very powerful curse, and gojo will just be showing you memes while firing off a red to take care of it, followed by both of you laughing about how weak it was
Everyone else is so annoyed by you two, especially satori's students who just sigh whenever her boyfriend walks into class, knowing you'll just start joking around and they won't get anything done
"Man, that curse was seriously a special grade? Man what a disappointment"
"I know, I'm sure even a sneeze would have killed it"
"Hehe, you're right about that"
Fem!sukuna
She's like nobara in the sense that her reaction to your personality depends on her mood
There are moments where she's feeling grumpy or unsatisfied, so she'll demand you stop being like this around her but also moments where she can be very unserious and laugh too, especially when she's fighting a weak enemy
She would be lying if she said she didn't find your silliness cute, especially when you're this happy because of something she did, but she'll never say it to your face
"Great job, ryomi, you annihilated that sorcerer like it was nothing, it was so much fun"
"I'm glad you found it enjoyable, but did you expect anything else"
"Of course not my queen, I love watching you fight"
"Eh, thank you, and I.....appreciate seeing your reaction"
#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#jjk#nobara kugisaki x male reader#nobara kugisaki#maki zenin x male reader#maki zenin x reader#maki zenin#satoru gojo x reader#gojo x reader#female gojo x reader#female gojo#gojo#female sukuna#sukuna x reader#sukuna#female sukuna x reader#x male reader#male reader
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don't smile
pairing: joel x male!reader
summary: joel does his best to relax reader after a terrifying event
warnings: cursing, violence, mention of hallucinat!ons, top!joel, bottom!reader
a/n: saw smile 1 and 2 and i'm obsessed with kyle gallner now he is sooo fine omfg
you knocked on his door waiting for him to open it. you knocked again and again when he finally did. "y/n. what's up? it's almost 1 in the morning." you stayed silent and hugged him as he wrapped his arms around you even tighter. "come in. sit down baby boy." he whispered in your ear as he shut the door. you sat down and massaged your head as he rubbed your back. "im sorry for barging in on you like this. i've just been having a really weird day and i needed someone to talk to. someone i can trust." you tearfully confessed. "i'm here baby i promise. what's been happening though?" joel asked you as he kissed your head. "i've just been noticing a pattern. like everyone is just...smiling at me. i know it sounds weird or like i'm hallucinating but it feels so real. i'm scared joel." you felt your heart beat go up.
"jesus. i'm sorry you're dealing with this shit y/n. what can i do to make you feel better?" joel got even closer held you in his arms as you cried. you laid your head on his chest as you gathered the courage to talk. "i don't know. i was kinda thinking if... i could stay the night with you." you slowly whispered. "of course baby boy. you know i love having you around." you looked up and kissed his soft lips. "god i missed you. feels like we haven't been together in so long." you said. "god i know. feels like we haven't fucked in so long." joel replied as you laughed and looked at him. "it has been a while huh? you missed fucking my ass?" you asked as joel gripped your butt. "haha what do you think pretty boy?" he grinnned. "you know being here is making me feel so much better. kinda feeling like getting fucked right now too." you grinned at joel as he picked you up and laid you down on his bed.
joel took his shirt off and started kissing your neck and unzipped your jeans. you turned over and pulled his pants down and massaged his bulge. "fucking use my dick baby. it's all yours." he moaned as you stopped teasing him and put his thick white cock inside your mouth. he used your head and shoved his dick down your throat. "god i wanna feel you inside me joel." you begged and joel listened as he flipped you around and gripped your waist. he spit on his hand before slowly entering your tight hole. "fuck i love how your hole grips the shit outta my dick baby." he moaned and pushed himself inside you even harder. he smacked your ass cheeks and pulled you by your hair. "fuck right there daddy." joel loved hearing you moan in his ear. "yeah you missed this fucking dick didn't you?" he whispered. "fuck yeah i want it all in me baby." you replied.
"fucking ride me baby." joel said as he stopped and laid on his back placing you on top of him. you massaged his chest as you entered him and rolled your eyes back in pleasure. joel enjoyed watching you moan as you took his dick and jerked you off while you rode him. "fuck joel i fucking love you." you yelled as he sucked your dick while you continued boucning up and down on his cock. "you gon make me cum baby boy." joel moaned. you stopped and thought of another idea. you laid on the edge of the bed and told joel to shove his cock in your mouth. joel moaned as he fucked your face and came inside your mouth. you jerked off and came at the sound of his own moans. "that dick make you feel better about today baby boy?" joel asked as you laid on his bare back. "that dick can do miracles to anyone joel. that's for fucking sure." you replied and joel laughed as you fell asleep in his arms.
#gay love#men#male reader insert#malereader#male reader#gay#gay reader#gay smut#kyle gallner#kyle gallner x reader#joel smile#joel smut
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hi tumblr user if-you-soul i need to preface this by saying i was actually discussing the god awful mischaracterization this fandom inflicts on HMS with my besties & opened tumblr to look for your reblog of that soul fanart saying "YOU fell for the character's facade that was meant to be dismantled by the viewer!" & got hit w this & it MADE MY DAY. i fucking love this album to death & im a soul fictionkin so these things drive me up a fucking wall
cccc is pretty straightforward while also being purposefully vague & left up to interpretation in many areas but soooo many people take interpretation to twisting the narrative until its no longer what it was & it makes me ask myself did we listen to same tracks here?? where are yall getting these things from???? this got rly fucking long so im adding a cut here voilĂĄ
when people talk abt the mischaracterization in the fandom its usually focused on heart & mind so im INSANELY glad to see someone talk abt the soul shit. cause what kinda crack are people on?? he never threatens to harm h&m except for at the end of TSE where he is... having a mental breakdown? have people forgotten what it's like to have a breakdown??? you say shit you dont mean bc you're splitting at the seams & falling apart. there is no point in the entire album where soul is portrayed as manipulative/entitled/evil/violent/abusive/erratic, which are descriptions a surprisingly large amt of ppl seem to subscribe to? HE'S A VICTIM !!!! & im so glad you said it! i too have been in a kind of middleman position to parties fighting with each other & its insanely detrimental to one's mental health & had me at an incredibly low point so yeah TSE feels deeply personal to me & soul's character in general (waves in soul kin again LMAO), drives me bonkers how ppl describe him.
mind WISHES he was unfeeling. heart calling him an automaton freak doesnt mean he doesnt feel! it means that he just PUSHES AWAY & REPRESSES EMOTION, or at least tries to. like one has to really emphasize that everything between the heart acoustic & the soul eclectic has mind clearly displaying rage & bitterness & all kinds of emotions. even the end of TME says "maybe my existence might be by design, a simple fact that he'll refuse to see" like bro says its a maybe & then immediately claims its a fact yall are falling for his facade so hardcore its not even funny atp. the way people treat heart is borderline gross, he is NOT an uwu baby innocent boy that doesnt know anything & ppl infantilize him so much idek why. heart represents emotion- ALL emotions. & you're right! emotions are so fucking draining & exhausting at times, especially if you're mentally ill! all this weird portrayal of evil mind & innocent heart is so ?? can i quote TSE with neither is wrong yet neither is right. all 3 of them are neither good nor evil. they're people. they're human. the album really emphasizes this a lot.
the juno incident & RoE in general is made to be a much bigger deal by the fandom that it really is. applies to more than one thing in cccc but RoE takes the cake tbh. & yeah! whole is an entirely fanon thing lololol like im pretty fucking sure even chonny jash has said this someway or another. what we call whole is literally just...chonny. i think ppl took dream's "when harmonia shines, atlas beholds her" & RAN. & honestly i like whole hcs but this brings me to another thing: i really feel like cccc fans come up with so many hcs & interpretations for the album that they forget what the canon is in favor of their fanon. there's so much shock gore & gore in general for lowkey no reason in here </3 its so much & for what. fanon is awesome like everyone should be free to do whatever but i do wish ppl would Remember Canon a bit more & separate their hcs from it more. along with the gore. where are yall getting all this insane amount of gore & violence from. i feel like any violence alluded to in the album is more metaphorical than it is physical bc emotions can be felt violently. internal violence. the album is abt the never ending cycle of mental illness getting better & then getting bad again & so forth as a natural part of life & accepting yourself in those moments.
tl;dr u r so correct & i couldnt agree more & you've voiced the way i've felt abt this fandom for ages we lost the fucking plot & kept running anyways lets pause & find it again thank you so much for sharing ur yapsesh with us
Mischaracterization in the CCCC fandom: a yapsesh (alternative title: Erm... What the Gore is Going On?)
Hi. Woaw. I'm actually making that post I talked about.
So. One thing I've noticed in the CCCC fandom is this weird fixation on gore, torture, violence, etc. Usually a level of graphic content that makes your average horror flick look... pretty tame!
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy horror! I even think a horror story based around psychological conflict similar to CCCC could work well!
But is it just me, or has this fandom COMPLETELY lost track of what the characters are like in the source material?
Like. Let's be real. Nowhere in the album does Soul do gruesome surgeries on Mind, nowhere does Mind go ripping people to shreds like Doomguy, et cetera. The closest thing we have to an implication of violence is what most of us call the "Juno incident"- as even "tines stabbed through eyes" is clearly a metaphor with the next line: "that the sides have condemned."
Im gonna talk ab the characters themselves under the cut
I feel the biggest victim of this mischaracterization is Soul. In the album he's... kind of a victim, really. He toughs out being dismissed and fought over and pushed aside and outright dehumanized for so, so long. Are we seriously just... going to characterize him based solely on his lowest point in TSE? Spring and a Storm and Mucka Blucka are also songs where he's present- along with his presence in Just Apathy that the fandom seems to outright deny to keep their characterization of him as some violent, abusive monster. (Which, again, is quite literally never alluded to! He's honestly kind of a victim, if anything!)
Ohhkay. Next topic. Mind. Oh boy I have thoughts on how people characterize Mind.
He's not emotionless. If you believe this, you've fallen for his stoic facade. All of his songs are just. So full of so much rage. Maybe even a little bit of grief and sadness and fear, masked by said rage. He isn't some emotionless robot- (Heart calls him an automaton as an insult, but that's another rant.) and honestly it feels like such a disservice to such an interesting character with so much unexplored depth to portray him as such.
Heart. Oh boy. Where do I start. Heart what did they do to you.
Heart is the emotional side, yes, but that isn't just some... smol innocent uwu baby who cries all the time. Emotions aren't small and cute and timid. They're INTENSE and PASSIONATE and EXHAUSTING. Strong emotions leave you so, so drained, good OR bad. This is so much more interesting than portraying him as some "uwu hai dere!!" type of character. Which is nowhere in the album.
Whole is hardly even a character. Soul worshipping and praying to whole is fanon.
This fandom's weird obsession with creating shock gore and one-upping each other in a violence competition has spiraled pretty far out of control, and it's honestly crazy. How do you go from an album about internal conflict to violence that would make even the cast of Resident Evil cringe? Brah.
Final notes uhhh. Soul is a victim who got pushed to his limit, not an evil heartless abuser. Mind is angry and unstable and hurt, not some emotionless robot. Heart is the entire emotional spectrum, not some innocent baby. Ok i . I think that's all. Have a good one
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Jude chapter 3 silly but kinda detailed summary
ê° ÖŽ Öș âč @ notice âč Öș ÖŽ ê± any pretty translation you may see in here may not be 100% accurate or contain creative liberties due to characterization or narrative flow purposes. this is a sort of summary as well. if you enjoy, though, please consider reblogging, but please donât repost these or claim these as your own!
kate successfully completes sortin out letters so she heads to the port where jude is talking with the foreman. its there she sort of thinks back on her time at raven co and the long and short of it is that jude, as the ceo, is actually really outstanding, and he acknowledges the efforts of those who work hard, produce results and whatnot, and rewards them in turn.
(that said he could work on his wording ,,)
time skip to night after judes done and they all walkin back tgt where kates like âi think iâll be able to have a good dinner todayâ and jude scoffs at her callin her a twit. and shes all defensive like hey whats wrong with wanting to eat good food and judes like when did i say that was wrong?
all of a sudden they stop in their tracks and jude tells kate âon the count oâ three, crouchâ and kates all panicked like tf is going on but jude already starts counting down so she crouches anw (in a panic!)
some guy in a suits out to kill jude. god knows who too bc apparently jude donât know him either đ
Jude: Who are ya? Canât say ya look familiar.
[ insert some lines im lazy to tl ]
Jude kicked up at the manâs chin, causing the manâs body to do one smooth flip before collapsing onto the ground.
Man in a suit: Jude⊠Jazzaââ!
Jude: Nâ like I was sayinâ, who the hell are ya?
ok turns out jude does remember him in the end, its just another dude who broke his contract with jude and was selling up some illegal drugs and whatnot.
Jude: I told ya, didnât I? That if ya breach your contract Iâd show ya so much oâ hell youâd wish you kicked the bucket?
J: I fulfilled that promise for ya. Havinâ a grand old time in hell, arenâtâcha?
omg he pried open the wound on the mans face and he let out a cry to the night sky that could shake anyoneâs soul silly.
kate then thinks or foreshadows (yk how like ikevil stories r kinda told like kate is recalling the past? like âi didnât realize it then, but xyzâ kinda like one of those moments) that what she witnessed that night was but a prologue of whatâs to come bc they get attacked over and over again.
kate and jude get into another argument like âi feel im gonna die every time! im at my limit!â and judes like âwell ur in the way loiterin round like thatâ then jude just yeets off w/o listenin to another word.
she does feel something bothering her tho
(For someone like Jude, he should be able to avoid these grudgesâŠ)
When I thought this, I came up with a theory that relieved me of this unsettling feeling.
(âŠCould it be heâs making himself an enemy of many on purpose?)
âYeah, right,â was what I thought, but also, somewhere in my heart, I felt such a theory may also be true.
shes like thereâs not enough info rn but if i do know anything its that
Kate: At this rate, if I stay with Jude any longerâŠa hundred lives would not be enough!
and so shes like i gotta learn self defense! so she goes knocking on a certain someoneâs door like pls teach me le jutsu of self defense!
Ellis: Okay. ïŒâčâĄâčïŒâĄ
turns out ellis was also thinking of teaching her some stuff abt self defense soon.
so ellis takes kate to the lobby and kates like why the lobby and ellis goes to a bookshelf to take out a book which actually reveals vics weapon collection and takes out a gun, telling kate to try and hold it.
idk if this is a real gun or not (as in it exists irl), apparently its made of silver with a wooden grip.
ellis thinks its well suited for kate. like its lightweight yk. hes like you may need to use it jic. and then hes like
Ellis: But, itâs kind of refreshing.
E: Other than me, Jude seems pretty adverse to putting people by his side.
E: So, maybe he wants to get along with you?
kates like mmm doubt but at the same time she has this question in her mind w/o an answer of why he went and wrote a whole contract and let her stay by his side then? shes abt to cook up a theory in her head whenâŠ
just then jude comes in.
Ellis: AhââJude.
Jude: We got a job to do.
so they head off to some noble mansion.
Jude: How do ya do, weâll be here a while.
Nobleman: Ah, Mister Jude?
apparently this nobleman is connected with the guy in the suit jude beat up in the beginning of the chptr. he made him spit out info.
Jude: If ya just were sellinâ somethinâ shady Iâd let that off the hook. Illegal drugâs some childâs play.
J: However.
Jude raised one leg and rested it atop the long table.
Jude: I seem to recall the contract prohibitinâ the sellinâ and buyinâ of humans, or am I wrong?
ko-fiâïž â commsđ€
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matt sturniolo x ice skater!fem!reader
đ àŁȘË àœàœČàœàŸ You and Matt have a love-hate relationship... too bad that you have to see each other almost every day, since you are his little sister's coach.
warning: a little angst(?), matt is a little asshole, bestfriends to enemies to lovers trope.
a/n: this was really quick but i hope you like it ;) i think im gonna make this a series idk chat; english its not my first language!!! sorry for the mistakes.
Matt parked the car and turned off the radio, he sighed and looked in the rearview mirror where his little sister, Rosie, had fallen asleep on the way to her ice skating practice. Her head was resting on her jacket, she made a 'pillow' by wrapped the jacket between the door and her shoulder. Matt couldn't help but smile a little.
She started ice skating a few months ago and was amazed. She was always very excited to get to her practices and whenever they finished she would get sad. And the reason for that, was you.
Rosie loved spending time with you and always paying attention to you with her big, blue and curious eyes. And she always repeated how pretty you were to his parents and brothers.
Matt, specifically, knew who you were for many years. You were best friends in elementary school until mid-high school, and you guys stopped talking because he became 'too popular' to be spending time with you, his words. Then a year later, the YouTube channel with his brothers, Chris and Nick, blew up and none of you knew about each other until Rosie, for her 10th birthday, begged her parents to sign her up for Ice Skating classes.
And here you were, seeing each other every day...
Matt always treating you dry and never avoiding rolling his eyes every time you spoke. And you, just wanting to punch him in the face and never see him again.
While Matt was a total asshole with you. Rosie was the total opposite.
"Rosie... bub, we are here." Matt moved her knee gently to wake her up.
"mmhm" She muttered opening her eyes and then rubbing them. Matt got out of the car and walked to her door to get her bag and help her get out of the car.
Once that was done, and Rosie couldn't contain her excitement to seeing you. Running and jumping while Matt almost fell with the pink bag.
When you guys enter to the rink, the little girl screamed with joy when she saw you. Matt made a face and you did too, but that was gone when she hugged your legs.
"Alright alright, someone its excited" You said while laughing at the little girl excitement.
â
Two hours had already passed and Matt was already getting tired of listening to you repeat the same thing over and over again. Once you did for final the class, Matt almost shouted hallelujah to the ceiling. He was getting tired.
And so were you, his annoying and exaggerated sighs for you to hear, every time you looked at him and he rolled his eyes... making sure you knew he was pissed. You couldn't give a big fuck, but it was the same in all the classes he brought Rosie.
And you were getting tired of his attitude.
When the girls went to one side of the blichers to untie their shoes. You took the opportunity to go straight to Matt.
When he saw you approaching him, he couldn't help but smirk a little.
"If this is too boring for you, I think is better for you to stop bringing Rosie. You are really distracting." You said while crossing your arma on your chest.
"Maybe you shouldn't be looking at me all the time and start paying more attention to your students. Some of them really need to perfect some skills" He said with a cocky smirk that almost made you throw up.
Before you could respond, Rosie approached with her shoes in her hand. Basically screaming with her eyes without saying anything to one of you guys to help her change her shows.
"I'll do it" Murmured to kneel and help his little sister.
You just roll your eyes in annoyed without Rosie to see.
Hoping that tomorrow it would be her parents who brought Rosie and not Matt.
sorry if this a completely shit.
btw the filter of the photos i got it from this beauty @sirenedeslily đ«¶đŒ
let me know if you want more parts :P or more introductions of the characters <3
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RAHHHH JUST TO KET YOU KNOW I LOVE YOUR DAZAI AND CHUUYA HEADCANNONS OF THEM BEING A DADđđœâ€ïžđđ
Could we have headcannons of Dad!Dazai and Dad!Chuuya and their reactions if we get hurt?? đ NOT HURT HURT BUT LIKE WE GET KIDNAPPED BY SOMEONE AND STUFF âïž
MOST DEFINITELY VROđâŒïžâŒïž
IM NOT SURE IF YOU WANTED IT TO BE SOUKOKU PARENTS WHEN YOU GET KIDNAPPED BUT I DID UT SEPERATLY, I CAN ALWAYS MAKE A NEW ONE FOR YOU IF YOU WOULD LIKE THOUGH^^, WARNING TO OTHER VIEWERS,
TW; THEMES OF KIDNAPPING BUT NOT DEAD DOVE KIDNAPPING
Dad!chuuya and Dad!dazai when you get kidnapped (seperate)
Dazai
- It started off with Kunikida giving dazai some work to do
- HES SO LAZY HE DIDNT WANT TO DO IT AT ALL
- lucky for him, he brought you into work today
- HE WORMS HIMSELF OVER TO YOU AND HITS YOU WITH THAT "heyy [____] can you ple-" HE GETS CUT OFF WITH YOU GROANING
- "COME ON I DIDNT EVEN ASK YO-" "your gonna ask me to run the errands kunikida gave youâ BRO WIPES A TEAR AND PATS YOUR BACK
- âYOU KNOW YOUR OLD MAN TOO WELLâ as he slips a list of stuff you need to get and his kunikidas credit card
- you figured you might need a break anyways so you went off to buy some stuff
- what you didnt know was the port mafia was planning to capture you as a hostage to get information out of the ADA
- after buying that whole mile long list, it was so hard to carry all the bags
- you randomly got pushed into this car that zoomed off right after
- you were so confused but you were NOT complaining, you go comfy in the seat
- âbro bless you guys, you have no idea how heavy those bags wereâ
- when you looked around the car, you realised that the black lizards just kidnapped you
- AND YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO ASK IF THEY GIVE BEVERAGES HERE
- hirotsu has MAJOR VIETNAM WAR FLASHBACKS OF DAZAI, BRO LOOKS AT YOU WITH THAT 100 YARD STARE
- when they bring you back to the pm, they inform the ada that they have you hostage, AND YOUR STILL ASKING IF THEY CAN GIVE YOU A FANTA
- As soon as they finish the words "we have [____] held captive" THE LIGHTS GO OFF
- ALL THEY CAN HEAR FROM YOU IS A "OOHOOHOOHOOO"
- ITS LIKE IN THE SHINING VRO THEY ATE ALL QUIVERING IN THEIR BOOTS
- THEY ARE ALL GETTING DRAGGED AWAY ONE BY ONE IN THE DARK
- AND YOU CAN HEAR YOUR DAD DOING THE "Henesy..... come out and playyy"
- SAFE TO SAY THE WHOLE BLACK LIZARDS NEEDED AN EMERGENCY TO THE HOSPITAL
- HE CHECKED UP ON YOI AND MADE SURE YOU WERE OKAY
- HE SPOILT YOU FOR THE NEXT THREE WEEKS, ALL YOU COULD SAY IN RESPONSE TO THAT WAS "I could get use to this"
Chuuya
- IM GONNA USE THE GUILD FOR THIS SENARIO
- YOU AND Q WERE SENT OUT ON A MISSION AND YOU KNOW THE REST, LOVECRAFT CATCHES YOU GUYS
- YOU DONT GET TORTURED THOUGHâŒïž
- THEY ONLY HURT Q BECAUSE THEY ONLY NEED THEIR ABILITY (POOR BABY đ)
- Unfortunately for you, you had to be taken care of by Mark
- I SAY UNFORTUNATELY BECAUSE BRO DOES NOTTâŒïž KNOW HOW TO SPEAK JAPANESE
-SO THE ENTIRE TIME HES DOING THE "Haro?" THING FROM SCARY MOVIE 4
- you would used Google translate to communicate with the quild
- BRO THE AMMOUNT OF THINGS THAT YOU HEARD THAT MADE YOU WHIP OUT THAT SPEED FACE
- HEARING JOHN TALK ABOUT HOW HE WANTED HIS SISTET TO HAVE THE PERFECT LIFE ANDYOI JUST HAD TO
- BACK TO CHUUYA
- since chuuya is your dad, he taught you how to sneak things for your safety
- lucky for you, you had your phone on you, so you called your dad
- YOUR PHONE BROKE FROM HOW ANGRY HE WAS VRO
- SINCE YOUR IN MARKS CARE, YOU CAN SEE THIS THING FLYING FULL BLAST TOWARDS THE MOBY DICK
- ITS THAT VINE THAT GOES THE "Watch yo jet bro, BRO WATCH YOUR JET WATCH YOUR JET"
- IT WAS CHUUYA AS ARAHABAKI
- AFTER HE TOOK DOWN EVERYONE HE HEARS YOU NEXT TO HIM SAY
- "yo dad why you the 'bro thought school was for one day, HE MAD AS HELLLLLđđ' "
- you get taken down with the rest of the guild after saying that
- AFTER YOU GET BACK TO THE PM WITH CHUUYA, CHUUYA THROWS A WHOLE GET TOGETHER (He spoild you bro)
- AND AT TGE DINNER TABLE YOUR TELLING EVERYONE WHAT HAPPEND WITH THE GUILD
- EVERYONE IS IN SUITS, CHAMPAGNE IN HAND, THAT RICH LAUGH AND YOU SAY SM LIKE
- "AND I WAS LIKE, 'ZOINKS LOVECRAFT, I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE CTHULHU'
- *que the entire port mafia having that rich laugh*
A/N: FINALLY DONE VROđ, THIS WAS ALLATA FUN DOING, SORRY FOR ANY GRAMMAR MISTAKES, IM GOING INTO SCHOOL HOLIDAYS SO ILL BE MORE ACTIVE CHATđđđ
#bungou stray dogs#fluff#bsd chuuya#platonic#child reader#bsd dazai#dazai x reader#chuuya x reader#mark twain#black lizard#port mafia#detective agency#bungo stray dogs x reader
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okay so you said genuine question and im not from around here but i do have an answer! so you've unlocked an unskippable cutscene!
this is a much bigger topic than it appears on the surface, and i might be able to answer your question succinctly and briefly, but it would miss out on a lot of the stuff happening behind the scenes which is actually very important!
since this is going to be quite long (I did a rough notes on my thoughts and what i might say and it was almost 1k. so.) i am going to put the rest under a readmore
but now that you've clicked the button and commited, let's break this into parts for both our sakes.
part 1: moral purity and the loss of 'squick'
so there's been a fun phenomenon happening lately online, and it's the idea that you can assign morals by the type of things that someone likes. that the act of enjoying something or disliking something is an inherently moral act.
this in itself has a lot of reasons behind it, and digging through that history would be an essay in its own right, so im going to glaze over it. but the current state of affairs is that your own personal taste, be it in media, in people, or yes, sexual thoughts (even ones without actions) are in themselves, moral.
no matter the cause of these feelings, the outcome is this: if you find yourself liking or disliking something, there must be some reason behind it. if you find yourself grossed out by something, there is a moral and justifyable reason behind it.
this is, to me, related to the loss of the idea of a 'squick'; something that just grossed you out. 'squicks' didnt have to be triggers, they didnt have to be evil or harming you, they were a preference about something you just personally did not like.
now however, along with other terms, we have lost the idea of a 'squick' and so if you don't like something there must be a reason this thing is evil.
so now you have people seeing things like animal packers, and they are for some reason uncomfortable with them. where we might have once said 'oh well, not for me', we must now have a reason for why we are uncomfortable with this idea.
1.5: the perpetrator and the victim
in any given situation, to prevent discourse from becoming muddied or hard to answer, there must always be a person who is definitively in the right, and a person who is in the wrong.
this is a really normal reaction, it's hard to accept something as not having a clear answer, and so it's easy to find ourselves doubling down on something so we dont have to confess to the worst thing of all 'i dont know'.
Coming from disability advocacy, it's important to recognise that there are going to be situations which are not clear cut, in which nobody has done anything wrong, but people have ended up hurt or upset. sometimes needs and people are simply incompatible, and there's nothing wrong or evil there.
but that is difficult and scary, so instead it's much easier to talk about the victim and the villain. if someone is being hurt (i am looking at something that grosses me out) then someone must be intentionally hurting them (evil gross kinksters)
In this understanding of things, the discomfort itself must be harm done, and if harm is being done, then someone must be at fault. it becomes a matter of who is the perpetrator and who is the victim. So in order for them to be uncomfortable and not be evil themselves, the thing that is making them uncomfortable must be evil itself.
now that we've established these things we can actually get around to answering the actual question you asked:
Part 2: why zoophillia?
if this person has deemed the act that these people have done to be evil or bad, why not just call the act itself (which i am given to understand is hyper-realistic animal packers?) evil?
well what you surely understand, and somehwere in the back of their brain they understand, is that that's incredibly fucking stupid.
if you walk up to the average person and say hey, this person is doing this evil thing, and explain that, theyre going to think you're insane. so how are they supposed to tell the average person that this person is evil? they escelate it to most awful acusation they can think of in the moment.
in most communities, the terrible thing that they will accuse someone of is pedophillia, but in the therian circles, they dont need to escelate it to that point, because there is already a hot button topic they can point to instead.
Zoophillia, as i am given to understand, is one of the most hot button topics in the therian community. it is the group which is regularly aligning themselves with therians, that many if not most therians want nothing to do with.
it's also a group that is often conflated with therians, meaning that many therians have an immediate 'no fuck off that's not us' reaction to it, as a form of self preservation. because as soon as people have made a claim that you may be a zoophile, and you fail to respond in the appropriate way, you will be cast out of your own therian in group.
so the use of using zoophillia as an acusation is two-fold. for one, it makes people take the accusation seriously, and for two, it prevents people from doing their own research and looking into it.
because if you are told this person is evil, and if you support them you are also evil, at that point any questioning on your part is seen as complicity in evil acts. as apologism. this person is evil and if you ask my why, you must also be evil.
so lets circle back a little bit here, earlier i mentioned that the typical claim is pedophillia, which everything i said previously about evil acts is still true of, but you might not fully believe me about people escelating to the nearest most terrible thing they can think of, but the thing is that i have seen this before.
Part 2.5: tired asexual
hello again, youve probably never heard of me before, so let me tell you that I'm Asexual. more importantly, I'm an asexual person who has been on tumblr for a solid decade.
if you werent around in the mid to late 10s, you might not know just how bod aphobia on tumblr got, but i was there for it. and you know what the most common accusation of why asexuals, and anyone trying to discuss asexuality were evil?
because discussing asexuality was pedophillia.
yeah, asexuals. the well known 'lack of sexual attraction' community.
Now I can go into the series of claims that led to this, hell I could probably go diving on my old blog and find screenshots of these actual accusations, but thatâs kind of besides the point. The point here is that the actual reasons people give for it being âinsert evil thingâ are unimportant.
yeah, when i say it to you, a person who i am assuming knows a little something about asexuality, that that was the claim, your first thought is that that's an insane thing to say.
but for a lot of people the first time they heard about asexuality was in this discourse. so their brain is now primed to make the connection of 'oh, okay, asexuality is evil.' and now, when they see people defending asexuality, they're already defensive. they assume youre trying to trick them, or make them complicit.
asexuality is not the only place this tactic has been used though, you see it all the time. it's at its most common in things like homophobic legestation, anti-trans bills, or drag bans.
These people cannot justify the initial action as evil, so they jump to something you are more likely to agree with, and try to argue it is the same thing. this is what we call equivocation.
equivication is an incredibly effective tactic in fear-mongering, splitting up groups of people, and getting something innocuous labeled as morally wrong
'Think of the children' is a good example of this. No itâs not that im transphobic, itâs that Iâm concerned about children. Therefore, if youâre arguing against me it must be because you yourself hate children and want harm to come to them. Â
but not everyone is as obvious as to say 'think of the children' or some other line we've heard a bunch before. they find new ways to say it, and because the current safety tactics are to watch for certain phrases and words, people dont know how to look for underlying beliefs and sentiments, leaving people more vulnerable than ever to this kind of manipulation.
so now i've hopefully answered your initial question of 'why zoophillia', i want to take this a litte bit further and ask, 'what is the end goal?'
part 3: what next?
okay so would you believe me, if i said that until now ive actually been taking an incredibly good faith reading of the discourse so far?
currently I have been presenting this as a misdirection of discomfort, but not necessarily actively malicious. now however, i want to go back to the ace discourse.
bigots on tumblr weren't actually starting shit with the ace community because they really had a bone to pick with asexuals, they were doing it because they were transphobes. Surprise!
this isnt speculation on my part, transphobes have since openly discussed that they used aphobia as a kind of 'gateway' to 'gatekeeping'
if they come out of the gates talking about how 'transexuals are evil' and should be 'kicked out of the lgbt community', then they would be immediately revealed as transphobes and most of the queer community won't listen to them. these transphobic talking points have been around long enough to be identifiable and more easily discussed.
asexuality however was, particularly at the time, very under-discussed. it also wasnt a part of the 'standard' LGBT acronym, which made it easier for them to make the argument that asexual people should not be allowed to be considered part of the community.
aphobia at the time was considered less divisive, you could be more easily convinced that this community you have never heard of is evil, dont question it. theyre pedophiles and groomers, if that isnt enough to convince you theyre evil it must be because you're also an evil person, so don't question it or do your own research. then we might come for you.
This was wildly successful! And now that that campaign has gone so well, they can now openly admit that they were secretly transphobes all along! And wow, you already aligned with us, so you need to double down on hating trans people because the rest of the queer community doesnât want you back after that bullshit!
now maybe you consider this to be a particularly poor faith reading of the current discourse. maybe i had you in the first half, but all of this stuff about secret transphobes and conservatives playing along in ways that are more acceptable seems a little far fetched and conspiratorial to you. a bit of equivication here and there isnt inherently a sign of deeper sinister intentions. isnt all of this a bit of a stretch?
and maybe youre right, maybe im just someone who has seen something similar play out before, and im jumping to defence at something that wont become the same issue.
but isn't it interesting that the people being most vitriolistically upset about all of this, and attacking the creator of these things and accusing them of zoophillia are also misgendering him?
[Tw: Zoophilia mention]
Genuine question: WHY do so many people in this community jump on everything they find weird and immediate label it as zoophilia?!
Like- animal packers, fantasy toys, yiff art, pet play, kink gear, LITERALLY ANYTHING.
Seriously, relieving dysphoria, having "dirty" urges related to your identity, even straight up liking some freaky shit does NOT mean someone is attracted to animals. And it definitely does not mean they are actively harming/thinking of harming real animals.
People really take whatever is too weird for them and try to accuse it of war crime. Be better y'all.
#hello inlaws#yelling into the void#hope yall enjoyed my minor essay#i dont go here but my husband does#transphobia#zoophillia#aphobia#discourse#pedophillia mention#holy shit i just checked and this is almost 2k#i am absolutely putting it towards my daily word count#because i for sure did this instead of writing the story im supposed to be working on#very ready for absolutely nobody but me and august to read this#also i dont want to call you out like this in the main post but equivication is something we should always be aware of#just because its a tactic used by transphobes and conservatives doesnt mean its something that we are immune to#and zoophillia isnt a war crime by our common definition of the phrase#its interesting to note that you also while trying to explain that they were doing a bad thing (unwarranted accusation of animal abuse)#you also used the language of escalation in a bid to try and get people to take the thing they did more seriously#i dont mean this as a 'youre secretly a terrible person for doing this'#i just think its an interesting note#and something we should all watch out for in ourselves#god knows ive been guilty of it
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To get away, Chapter 5
Things we donât speak of.
Not beta read lol
Tw: talks about ptsd and healing, and legend self loathing but are we surprised? No.
âSo.â The traveler said, eyes drooping as he and the veteran walked out of your room. He was still exhausted.
âSo.â The veteran mirrored him.
âAre we going to talk about that?â
The veteran took a deep breath and heaved a sigh. âLink. There are some things we donât talk about⊠things we donât speak ofâŠ.â He took another breath. âThis is one of them.â
âOften, those are the things we need to speak of most⊠you know Iâll understand more than anyone.â The traveler put a hand on his shoulder.
He turned to him slightly, a pained expression on his face. ââŠbut will you? Will you really?â
âHave I ever given you a reason to think otherwise?â
The veteran stalled, looking off beside the travelerâs head. ââŠno.â
âExactly. Let me in.â His grip on the vetâs shoulder tightened slightly. Comfortingly. That pressure was comforting.
The vet pulled him down the stairs and outside. He was never good at talking about his feelings and trauma, and goddesses forbid anyone else being around to hear it. He took a deep breath and looked off, not wanting to look the traveler in the face while he spoke.
ââŠone of my adventures consisted ofâŠâ he paused. âa dream. And that was the only time Iâve ever⊠trusted someone withâme⊠and that wound me up losing who at the time I was so sure was the love of my life. I lost her to this big stupid windfish. The entire thing was fakeâit was the windfishâs dream and i had to wake him up. Marin was gone after that. The island was gone.â He fought back the bile rising in his throat. âItâs all just a distant memory now but-âŠ. All the time, Iâm terrified of waking up and everything being a dream. Itâs like Iâm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like I canât let myself be happy, and I hate it. Why do I do that? Why canât I just let myself be happy?â
The veteran finally looked over at the traveler, tears in his eyes and threatening to spill. The traveler wrapped him in a tight hug. âFear does that, Link. Creeps up on you. Sometimes youâll go ages without thinking about it and then all of a sudden bam. Youâre back in. You feel like youâve been dragged back, claw marks in the dirtâbut you havenât. You donât have to start over every time you have a flashback. And you donât have to stop yourself from being happy⊠you can let yourself be happy. Donât waste your life waiting on the other shoe will drop⊠Cause youâll realize it never will, and realize youâve spent so long trying to survive that you never lived.â
The veteran took a deep breath and his shoulders shook. He was crying. That soft, quiet cry developed into a sob as years of unprocessed trauma and heartbreak came forth, flowing out like a cup of wine left under a running tap. Healing.
âIfâit happened so long agoâwhy does it still hurt so bad?â He choked out, muffled by the travelerâs tunic.
âItâs like a bone.â He said softly. âWhen a bone heals wrong, you have to break it again so it will heal properly. Then you can use it.â He rubbed his back.
The veteran felt small. He realized this was the smallest heâd ever felt in his life. He always saw the traveler as his younger brother. Someone he had to protect. Someone he loved more than himselfâŠnow, he felt like the little brother. Felt like a little boy. A kid. Cradled by his older brother, hidden away from what cruelty lies outside. Safe. The veteran felt safe.
âIâm sorry.â The traveler spoke again. âIâm so sorry that happened to you⊠and Iâm sorry you didnât have anyone there for you then⊠im sorry you feel like you need to be guarded all the time. You donât⊠not with us, at least⊠we are all here for you. Anything you needâŠâ
The vet nodded. He sat up and wiped his eyes, sniffling. âThanks, manâŠâ he sighed heavily, head feeling heavy and thick from crying. He could hear his heartbeat in his ears and he hated it. He hated to cry. Hated feeling small and weak.
âA bone has to be rebroken before it can heal properly.â He remembered. He wasnât weak. He was healing.
âReally.â He spoke again. âI really, really appreciate it⊠thank you.â He hugged him tight.
âAlways. Iâm always here. So are the othersâŠâ he pulled away when the veteran did. A cold breeze passed through them and they both shuddered. âWe should get inside. You need sleep.â
â..i canât go back in there with her. I donâtââ the veteran tried to make excuses but they died on his tongue when the traveler put a hand on his shoulder.
âYou can. Just go in there. You were rooming together anyway⊠sheâs alright. Healed, thanks to whatever powers sheâs got. Go sleep in a bed.â He smiled. âYouâll wish you had a bed to sleep in a few days from now.â
The veteran huffed a laugh for the first time in a good few days. âGot that rightâŠâ they made their way back inside. Everyone had gone to bed by now. They went up to their rooms, the traveler pausing while the veteran went inside. âNight, traveler.â
âGoodnight, vet.â He smiled. âSleep well.â
The door clicked shut and the traveler went off to bed.
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â smut , nsfw , caught in the act
you and dean had something going. something beyond just fucking. everyone knew it, you knew it, he knew it, sam knew it...
sure, sex was the main thing, but to him, it was just a plus. he cared, he loved you, but did he ever make that clear? no. why? because he's dean! he doesn't doâlove. so what did he do? he left. without a word. not physically, given you all were working together, but he stopped talking to you, completely ignoring you, and taking every chance to get away from you, wether it's runs to the storeâwhatever. he just couldn't face you.
but until one night, you and samâ well, you fucked. to put it bluntly.
and dean, being ever so careless, walked in on the two of you. sam? ontop of you. you? beneath him, hands around his neck. but thankfully, you were both under the sheets, so dean wasn't exactly too traumatized. but being dean, was he ever really traumatized by sex? not really. but when it came to his brother, fucking hisâwhatever, made him not only angry, but wellâjust angry.
he didn't even have the right.
but he left as quickly as he came, slamming the door shut. you quickly excused yourself, and sam, being the sweetheart he is and completely understanding you and dean'sâsituation, let you go without a question. you quickly dressed yourself and called out for dean.
once you finally caught up with him, he was outside, the night sky doing so little to ease the tension, and once he turned his back to look at you, you were met with an angry look.
âmy brother? seriously?!â he exclaimed.
you had never seen such a side from dean, to you, more specifically.
âthat's not fair! you haven't spoken a word since we last slept together!â you protested.
he sighed, a long sigh.
âlookâim sorry. okay? i-.. i shouldn't even be mad. but my brother?â he asked, more calmly now.
âi have needs too, dean. you of all people should understand that. after all, that's all i was. right? someone who you fucked when your dick was hard?â you snapped.
and oh did he feel horrible. he immediately softened his expression, and moving closer to cup your cheek.
âno. never. i love you.â he said, more of a whisper, then he pressed his lips against yours. you, immediately kissed him back.
he stepped, and you followed once you too were back in the house.
âif you were so cock hungry, you should've told me.â he said against your lips. âi'm here now, and i'm much better than sam, i bet. now, let's go kick sam out of that bedroom, hm? we'll be needing it.â
helloo!! this is my first ever smut/nsfw post :3 i loooove dean so mucchhhhh!! i just started watching supernatural just for him and he's been my hyperfixation ever since. tell me if you guys liked this:)) i will make more soonnn!!!!!
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good day fellow rodger fan, i rlly love your art it gives me whimsy and joy. do you have any headcanons ab him and glisten, perhaps toodles as well? (family dynamics my beloved actually) if not either way i think your stuff is still so rad.
AHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!! <333 WEEPS TEARS OF JOY.... i do have some headcanons hehehe... in no particular order/organization heres some of my thoughts on them:
- Rodger is a sleepwalker. Very Embarrassed by it.
- Toodles really enjoys drawing !!! She likes to draw with the other toons a lot (especially glisten, but he usually just watches her and then treats her art like the mona lisa so she feels good about herself)
- rodgers reaction to any sort of physical affection is really funny because he doesnt know how to react. He wants to keep his awesome and mysterious persona but also he doesnt want to be rude or anything. does he reciprocate? does he try to get away before it happens??? does he say something or does he keep quiet? Usually it just results in him freezing up and going stiff
- also adding onto above he tends to be paranoid about peoples intentions. bro gets a hug from goob and freezes and hes thinking "is this an attempt to console me does he think im mentally unwell or is he trying to find my weaknesses so he can kill me"
- in general rodger can be a very paranoid person and starts panicking at the slightest threat but hes pretty good at stopping to think and clearing his head. Logically he knows goob wouldnt kill him and doesnt know his secrets but it is a thought that pops up in his head for a brief moment
- toodles is always very quick to jump in and try to help whenever someone is upset. She wants to help people as best she can so ofc she would but the problem is that shes never sure what to say to cheer people up :'] she tries parroting some of the things rodger has told her when she was sad but also from her experience it never works so she tries to distract people instead most of the time. it makes her feel really guilty whenever she doenst try to help or if she fails to make them feel any better
- Toodles is very close with teagan!! teagan is like her fun uncle :] they take care of toodles sometimes if rodger is busy (or cough missing). Tea parties galore!!!!
- glisten is romo-repulsed i know this in my heart ok. [i know ive drawn him doing romantic things i cant explain the nuances to this in a cohesive way im just projecting ontohim as a romo repulsed person in a relationship]
- Glisten is definitely introverted but not in the "ohh hes shy and hates people" way hes just drained when he talks to people even if he likes talking to people. He needs to take breaks from socializing a lot to recharge his social battery especially since hes always so worried about what people think of him but he also dies if hes alone too long
- toodles is actually VERY fascinated with bugs if theres an ant or a beetle or a roach or something in the facility shes gonna beg to keep it and make a house for it so she can "give it a better life" (glisten will not scream or freak out but there WILL be visible discomfort on his face and he will avoid that bug like the plague)
- rodger smokes cigarettes . He knows which employee(s) carry them around and will snatch one from their pocket at the right moment when nobody is looking... he tries covering his tracks and flushing everything down the toilet and covering up the smell but ofc he gets found out when theres a clog LOL.
- There was also suspicion when toodles started pretend-smoking and saying she was doing the thing that rodger did but most everyone else just assumed it was toodles being a silly little kid
okie dokieee thats all ill do for now !!! Thank you so much for this ask GAUH im so happy people are interested in my hcs for them n stuff đ„č
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An Eraser (Bloody Painter x Reader) (7MIH Ending 7)
only about four characters left and then we are done! wondering what fandom to do next hmm.... im also thinking of possibly making a quotev acc so i can more interactive stuff- having polls at the ends of these have been fun but quizzes sound so cool tbh reminder that there are polls at the ends of these to determine the next ending notes: reader is gn, admin is still trying to figure out how he wants to write helen outside of hc posts, hes got a bit of a crush on you cws: none word count: 1775
You reach your hand into the hat and pull outâŠ
An eraser. Not the pink blocky ones you would usually see. No, it was one of those fancier malleable ones. The ones you see artists use every now and then⊠You didnât even need to look around the room- there was only one person you could think of who would have something like this. You shift the eraser between your index and thumb and show it to Helen who only pats his thighs and rises to his feet.Â
âWell damn, alright then.â Jeff said under his breath, seemingly disappointed that he didnât get to delay the surprise of who you got until you were both shoved into darkness. Jeff flicked his head towards the hallway, âClosets down that way, youâve both got seven minutes the second the door closes you got that?â His wide blue eyes darted between you and Helen- who had already joined you at your side. You didnât even notice him closing in on you.Â
You decide not to say anything, instead choosing to walk down the hallway that was motioned towards. Helen kept up with your footsteps, his own nearly perfectly matching up with your own. When you stopped, as did he.
It wasnât until you made it to the closet door that he made his own move, and it was as simple as opening it and waiting for you to enter first.Â
âThank you,â You mutter under your breath and slip right past him. You slink into the back corner of the small space.Â
The door shuts behind Helen, leaving the both of you in darkness.Â
You tap your palms against the wall behind you as you scrape your head for something to say to fill the silence. Helen decided to be kind enough to break the silence for you.
âI never took you as someone who would play this game,âÂ
He catches you off guard.Â
In an instant youâre straightening up and trying to come up with an explanation. Was this an accusation? Judgment?Â
âI mean I donât usually but-â
âIâm not saying that itâs a bad thing, Iâm playing as well,â He gently cut you off. You suck some air between your teeth and fall silent.Â
âYou donât seem like the type to play games like this either, you know⊠I mean, Iâm personally fine playing⊠this stuff⊠but you kindaâŠâ You fail to find the words. âSeem reserved to yourself?â
The air falls quiet once more for a few moments before it's broken for a second time by Helen. âI was encouraged to put myself out for tonight,â
You hum in response and move your hands from the wall to the bottom of your shirt, busying your fingers with the fabric.Â
âYeah? By who? âŠPup right? I only ever really see you hanging around with him,âÂ
Helen nods.Â
You look down to the floor and stare down at your shoes, then to Helenâs- dully noting that he wore boots⊠stained with paint, or perhaps blood. It was nearly impossible to tell in the darkness.Â
âWell, Iâm glad thereâs one person here that you like- or at least enjoy enough! I remember you hardly ever left your room for anything when you first arrived here,â You give him a smile and hope that he could see it.Â
âThereâs two, actually.âÂ
You snap your eyes back up to his mask.Â
âIt was you who gave me the nerve to stick around for the games, if you didnât come downstairs Iâd have gone back up to my room⊠though I do wish I got the chance to talk to you before everyone gatheredâŠâ He paused.Â
âToo many peopleâŠâ He muttered under his breath.Â
âBut I bumped right into you- how come you didnât say anything?âÂ
Helenâs head tilts to the side. It feels like his eyes were raking themselves over your body- from head to toe. You do your best not squirm under his gaze.Â
âYou took me by surprise⊠Nerves is all.âÂ
You hum again and clench your fists into your shirt fabric.
âHowâŠâ You start. Helen rights the angle of his head and you pull your eyes away from his mask. âHow long did youâŠâ
Was he admitting to having feelings for you or did he simply want to be your friend? You work your jaw⊠you could be horribly misreading this. You could make a fool of yourself.Â
âHow long did you have a thing for me?âÂ
Helen only chuckles softly- a sound that only lasts for a few seconds before its quieted. âFor quite a while⊠months, now.âÂ
You open your mouth to reply but heâs already answering your question.
âI wanted to see how long until you approached first,â Helen takes a step towards you. He leans over you with a gaze still fixed right on your face. He smells of paints and iron, and you fight yourself not to scrunch your nose as the scent washes over you. âBut I grow tired of waiting, and thereâs no one here to steal you away- during the party, of course,âÂ
He stops right in front of you, leaving just enough space for you to make an escape if you wanted to. âI was hoping you would take out my eraser, even if we do not share a moment of intimacy having you just to myself for a moment is fine enough for me,âÂ
Your mind blanks for a split second at his words for a moment.Â
You had nearly forgotten the outcomes of games like this- though you couldnât find it in yourself to mind it all that much. You looked at his mask again to try to find his eyes, however you were only met with failure⊠you force your eyes to remain locked onto the maskâs sockets though as you try to find your voice again.
âI will not force anything on you, nor will I act without your word,â He softly spoke and backed up a few inches away from you. You finally release the hem of your shirt and reach forward- lightly gripping the sleeves that were folded and bunched against his wrists.Â
âI⊠wouldnât mind-â You grin up at Helen. Itâs faster paced than what you normally preferred for relationships, but you had found yourself emboldened by the current setting youâve found yourself in. âSo long as this isnât a trick to get my blood for one of your projects,â You teased.
âŠ
âIâm joking of course⊠not giving you my bodily fluids before the first date,â You swat the idea down and pull Helen closer. He allows you to, even lowering his face closer to yours.Â
âI wouldnât⊠Iâve no spare canvases as it is already⊠a work with your matter requires one purely devoted to it,â He mutters into your ear. A shiver runs up your spine as he rested his hands on either side of you- effortlessly freeing his sleeves from the admittedly not very tight grasp you had on them.
Helen pulled away and settled his face in front of you, seemingly taking in every single feature of your face. Youâd swear he could memorize every pore if he could, if it werenât too dark.Â
He was⊠close⊠to say the leastâŠ
Helen peeled one of his gloves hands from the wall and let the finger sprawl across his mask. He didnât take it off or slip it upwards towards his forehead. Instead he shifted it to the side, shielding his face away from the door⊠but allowing it to give you a full view of his face.Â
He looked⊠tired⊠more than you were expecting given the hours you assumed he spent on his paintings. Despite that, his blue eyes were nearly glowing with life. Or at least carried a sense of thrill in them- a stark contrast to the otherwise neutral expression pulled across his face⊠there was a light dust of red across his cheeks⊠faint in the darkness but you could just barely see it thanks to the proximity.Â
Helen remained still and unmoving in front of you despite all of this, though.
Your eyes darted across his face, before his earlier words sparked an idea in you.
You make the first move and begin to lean forward to him, and gently press your lips against his. In an instant you can feel his mouth attempting to twitch upwards into a grin before he simply started to kiss back. Helenâs hands returned to the wall on either side of you and remained. Instead, it was you that decided to begin touching him; by choosing to run your hands through his black hair and move the strays out of the way.Â
You both remained that way for⊠you werenât paying attention- the only thing that caught you off guard and made you pull your face away from his was light flooding into the small room.
âWoah! Damn! Okay!â Jeff chuckled as he stood in the doorway.Â
You shoot a glare at him- you didnât hear him announce how much time was left⊠Did he give a warning? It didnât matter now as your face burned hotter than it had when the door was closed.Â
Helen doesnât seem to pay much mind to Jeff. He only rose to his full height and pulled his mask over his face back to its original position. Only then did he actually turn to face the doorway straight on.Â
âYou didnât knock, Jeffery.â He said lowly.
Clearly irritated.Â
You pull away from the wall and follow after Helen as he steps out of the closet.Â
âDidnât think youâd actually have the balls to do anything⊠damnâŠâ Jeff shot back.
âI owe a Nina some drinks, damnâŠâ You caught him muttering as you passed by. You tried to fight the urge to step on his foot as you passed, instead choosing to focus on Helen, who was waiting on the other side of the hall for you.Â
âHey,âÂ
Helen nods to you. You chew the inside of your cheek as things fall silent once more⊠How does one proceed after something like this with someone as reserved as Helen? You shift your weight between your feet.
âDo you want to go somewhere else? Youâve gotten what you wanted from the party- and game-â You sheepishly smile up at him.Â
Helen studies you hard for a moment.
âI would love that,âÂ
âCool⊠cool nice,â You smile. He takes your hand after your eyes nervously dart over it.Â
You werenât surprised when he started to lead you to the stairs, and even less when he passed by your room and to his.
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YOU HAVE LITERALLY MY THOUGHTSâwell i have a theory of how stick sparked his vision but ill write/maybe draw it later teheeâ i mean what if stick need dragon to harness his power so monkey can see that he is a powerful weapon (with how the place where he stood radiates and glows)?? Or perhaps stick needs the machine so he can talk to monkey first?? In movie stick were unactive when not with monkey right? We also know that only by monkey's touch stick can wake up/turn on (like some battery), so why in their first meeting he out of sudden active annd talk to monkey first?? Aannddd it happened again in the final battle,, but ofc yesh sometimes stick can be conscious too when monkey is conscious,,, grrahhhhh so confusingg. Just some hole from the movie i guess
Although we can sure that stick recognizes dragon in monkey's ceremony,, it means for 5000 years stick was fully awake right?? Scene when monkey and stick talking, dragon and other sea creatures didn't hear/see them (stick's glow) sooo what if stick tried to talk to dragon but his ass can't hear stick over his fruity demeanor
does stick actually have free will to be independent and has merely been sassily playing with monkey and dragons feelings because he enjoys the attention of those two competing for him
WHAT IF THAT REALLY HAPPENED HUHHâ
Let me play with this dragon real quick. Dang he can't hear me. Lol heâs just sitting there all sad and bored. Maybe I should put on some lights show, a little treat for what he done to my place. Phew that was fun, look at his face omgâ wait, he want my power for what now? It's not fun anymore. Oh another playmate! You can hear me? I've been waiting for this moment! Ok i want you, take me and let's get out of here. Oh it's dragon again! Gosh gentlemen stop fighting over me~ im serious stop it <- Stick probably
Just a pretty centerpiece
OH OHMY heres another one, do you think dragon built the machine like it's a dress up game?? "My gorgeous machine," cmon man he act like a mother dress up her kid with a gown machine she picked out, and like a kid playing with their doll and getting mad when another kid wants a turn,, anyway heck yeahh stick is pwettyyy~~
I MEAN LOOK AT THISâ is that a normal reaction when someone tells him that everyone loves his stuff (staff)??
"How dare you! Only me can love him" ahh reaction
GOODDAM YESSHHHHH MORE ANALYSIS POSTT YIPPIIEEEEE
I will live for the next 4 years dw ill be here when you done CANTT AGREE MORE stick is the key, the fundamental, the essential, the foundation, the boundary and the connector on how the protagonist and the antagonist explored, pushed each other, and transform into their better/bigger/stronger version of themselves when with him!!
As their lives revolve around stick.
One had lived with him since the dawn of time, one will live with him until the dusk of time.
Stick, The Monkey King's Plot Device: An Analysis
a matter of Free Will, Creativity, Control, Ownership, Choice, and Consent of an animated inanimate character
aka chronological notes of what happens in the movie with interpretative thoughts
for 5,000 years, stick only ever stood in one place in silence
the crystal palace was either; built around him, or he was left there tho it's hard to believe the center pillar of dragon king's home just has a spot reserved for him. I believe it's the former however it was, he never had a choice
dragon had stick stuck in a machine that will force and use him and his power to create a storm and flood, which is the opposite of what his original purpose was that got him down there to begin with thousands of years ago. an overglorified water meter
monkey was in search of the ultimate weapon, but stick said the first word. he's been waiting and immediately calls him "the most powerful being". this is promptly followed by being complimented not once, but twice from the guy he just met (ie "you are incredible") it is important to note monkey had never any positive assurance in his entire life, yet he says these things to stick, he makes this about stick, rather than himself
stick jumps into action and carries the battle, but he prioritises monkey's safety
he is a go-getter, taking the lead to take his new friend forward. he is a driving force that enables monkey to do what he does. he is excitable, violent, eager to please. stick has never been used in so long, he has a lot of pent up energy just bursting to get out. he protects monkey, but he is obedient to the point of losing his self by taking things literally. this should teach monkey how he works, that he is dependent on his wielder, his master, and that's why he couldn't have left the palace or dragon himself. he is a tool, who's entire existence is in the hands of whoever possesses him. he wants to be used and be useful. he wants to serve a purpose
monkey tells stick what to do, he listens, monkey tells stick to stop, he does so. and stick will do the best possible thing for them to show monkey what they are capable of together, giving him the confidence to trust his weapon as much as stick's chosen to trust him, that no matter what happens as long they communication, they will have each other's back
stick shares monkey's joys and sorrows. he cheers along the troop for his new name and groans when it seemed monkey got sad. they share excitement and aggressive tendencies too
they are more like a single entity with two equal parts rather than a pair, but it's not wrong to call them that either. mind & body, heart & soul, in action they are one, as people they are two, but must be kept together in order to work perfectly. stick is an extension of monkey, and monkey is an extension of stick. they match each others freak save for minor differences in preference and personality. when not in use, stick stands on his own, he reacts similarly as monkey, turns to him, and provides emphasis for the occasional words. he is completely supportive and always by his side if only a foot apart or at arms length, never out of reach
monkey is the same in the way that he values stick's own desires that are seemingly separate from himself. he is considerate of his weapon's wants despite having no impact or benefit to his own except maybe boost his ego. they share an ambition, yet something so minor like playing the guitar is so important to him because it's something stick wants. he didn't even ask if stick wanted anything, he already has him in mind, it was a matter of what and absolute that he gets it
the theme song is sung by stick's voice actor, the singer "ultimate screaming master" aka nan li from voodoo kungfu, an outstanding "world heavy metal music" band. so you could say stick wrote and sang a song about monkey throughout their 99 demons together. I know the lyrics are from monkey himself, the words are his, stick is the music, together they create harmony
stick is bloodthirsty, and he is an artist. both actions are forms of self-expression after lying dormant for millenniums. the same can be said for monkey in that he created an imaginary family, paired with his and stick's signature head-bashing, skull-splitting move, except he does this in sought of attention for being deprived of it his entire childhood, stick has always been the center of, yet was never heard, and the only thought he wants and cares about is from monkey
it was his idea the way they defeat red girl, unpromptly suggested
stick left his "home", because he finally could. he was stolen from dragon, who housed him. he was found by monkey, who allows him to be. stick can't be on his own without his wielder's permission and even then they're in close proximity of each other. monkey allows for stick's autonomy and will to be as free as he can be. he treats stick like a person more than the actual people he interacts with, while dragon still treats stick as property even after discovering he could talk. he doesn't care that stick has feelings, he only wants to abuse his power
Monkey: âWhat's wrong, Stick? You know this chump?â
Dragon: âStick? You never talked to me!â
when dragon showed up, this is the only time stick vocalised in a way that it aggravated monkey enough to close his ears. stick doesn't get to say anything else, and he doesn't have to because no one but monkey listens to him, he doesn't need an explanation to come to his friend's defence. the same way stick is in-between the demons and monkey, this time monkey is shielding stick from dragon. a former roommate, acts like a controlling parent or possessive ex
Monkey, to Dragon: âYou love my Stick, everyone loves the stick, but no one appreciates Stick like I do.â
Stick: â[incessant urgent warbling]â
Monkey: âQuiet Stick, the grown-ups are talking.â
of course monkey isn't perfect either, in the heat of the moment he ignores stick to protect him, and stick never holds a grudge or resentment towards monkey for his blunders, only dragon was met with initial hostility, but then none at all for the rest of the movie. stick is never really even annoyed with his partner, it just seems like he loves everything about him and wants the best for him, because that would mean what's best for himself too
dragon tries to talk to stick to come back, but monkey says he only listens to him. dragon responds with "I don't see a ring on it, honey" which is from the euphemism for a marriage proposal. dragon clearly doesn't approve of their relationship though this implies that in order for them to be together, they need to be wedded
without monkey, stick doesn't have a will. without a person, he is useless. he has no life, no will to life. it's meaningless without monkey, who he's waited for forever
he laughs at his jokes, they share a sense of humour
stick knows about hell. he knows about the scrolls of life and death
he could not have learned this during the 100 demons slaying because monkey would have known. the reason why stick never mentioned "crossing your name to cancel your death in order to become immortal" is that monkey was under the impression he would win the immortal ones' approval by conquering demons like the elder lead them to believe. why stick never corrected him, this wasn't the mission. stick is at his service, not looking specifically for the most efficient way to do things. he is able to have fun and live his best life with monkey and if the adventure ends, what is there left to do? he wouldn't want to be abandoned again. so he answers monkey's questions because monkey asked, not because stick has an obligation to be conscious or aware of how things play out, but because he's literal and needs to be direct with. whatever it is, he will enable monkey's desires, because what he wants, they both do
they argue about bringing lin along, in which stick advocates for her and scolds monkey because he knows her worth and neither of them can read. if monkey completely owns stick, why would he allow him to knock some sense into himself and fight about something like this? does stick actually have free will to be independent and has merely been sassily playing with monkey and dragons feelings because he enjoys the attention of those two competing for him, or does monkey allow stick to be his own person without the restraint of pleasing his ego in that he is cared for even if he doesn't like it because he subconsciously understands he can't do everything on his own and needs stick to be his conscience too, for both their sakes
their expressions often mirror each other, the way they move even apart is in sync, and they exchange glances, like you do with your best friend
stick also knows about cloning, which he also never told monkey that he knows they can both apparently do. the situation called for it so it's pretty reasonable, but why does stick know more about monkey's abilities than he himself does?
steroids, another song by voodoo kungfu, is used during the fight
although apparently stick didn't know enough as "cancelling your death date" only makes you half-immortal, but monkey immediately blames lin despite it being entirely stick's idea
stick is already immortal, he's an eternal object and looks good for above 5,000 years old. he just needs to keep his friend, who he's known for at least a couple years, alive. least he becomes alone again
stick finds monkey's prank on lin hilarious, monkey makes him laugh
stick sings along with monkey while they search for lin, he yells at her after too
monkey considers stick his best friend and family
stick doesn't care to say anything during the entire peach grove scene. not about benbo & babbo, not about dragon, even though he was used to jab at him. monkey is drugged, therefore his mind isn't intact, which seemingly affects stick's behaviour as well in that he isn't very conscious. they both get knocked ou
he jolts awake after monkey does
stick is empathetic, monkey is apathetic. there is a little bit of the other to them in a yin-yang sense, because stick only empathises with monkey, and maybe lin twice on-screen, while monkey has no consideration for anyone but himself, stick, and eventually lin to an extent. they only care for each other, as stick isn't concerned about anyone else, but monkey does in a way. both for selfish reasons
stick cannot be wielded by a baby monkey, he goes to sleep
monkey tells stick to help lin, he shrinks down for her to use
he sleeps again when monkey is kicked through the roof
despite being unconscious, stick extends himself towards monkey to give the elixir
stick is just as excited as monkey is, if not more, and is ready to fight, but when lin falls, he got worried for her too
lin teases monkey, talking to stick, and he laughs with her. he isn't above laughing at his friend's expense and with someone other than him no less, someone monkey handed him over to in the moment. he was trusted with to assist her and wasn't even aware of lin's attempt to steal him away. if monkey was a controlling master and stick the obedient weapon that he is, how is it that he's able to freely make fun of his own best friend? monkey shuts him up, and he complies, but the fact is while he is always supportive of monkey, he is capable of poking fun at and arguing with him too, usually provoked
stick is left alone with lin again, and is promptly sold out
"momentary fling" sir this is a family movie
stick is inactive throughout his entire hold in dragon's clutches. he is nothing but a prize to be won, a tool to be abused. monkey may need him in every battle to win, but stick has been a damsel-in-distress twice. he is handled by dragon, forced back into a machine that awakens and makes him grow. none of this he chose, none he wanted, he can't leave without help. while he is fulfilling a purpose, he isn't doing this out of his own will. he doesn't choose dragon and doesn't consent to being used this way, but it doesn't matter because dragon doesn't need his compliance, as long the machine works and he's useful
they are so happy to see each other, and missed one another so much,,,
stick is devoted to monkey. he enables him, needs him for his entire being and existence. if it were to be anyone in the universe he will always choose monkey. caught in the middle of the final battle, despite the brief grasp dragon has on him, he is able to fight for his self because monkey is there for him to return to and fall back on. to live in utter depravity under someone who only takes from and forces you into doing his bidding, it's not living at all. monkey gives him a life, stick lives for him and gets to be himself because he's allowed to be as much of a person any object is capable of
monkey is incredibly significant to stick. he is his entire world, and the same goes for him to monkey
they're separated again, the last thing he heard was monkey's desperate cry of his name after he couldn't handle buddha's clutch
lin found stick, either by chance or he called out to her. and he shrank for her once more so she could easily reunite him with his monkey. he doesn't even know she's the one who gave him away, but I don't think he'd hold it against her. he's a staff, not human or demon with complex thoughts and feelings. a simple stick who has a colourful personality, vibrant soul, and passion for music
he flies right into monkey's hold thanks to lin
monkey is stick's home, he is his best friend, his family, his life. they are symbiotic and co-dependent, for breaking them apart would leave them wrecked on their own, one completely helpless and the other out of his mind. there is a fear of abandonment within stick and separation anxiety in monkey, but only one of them has the ability to do something about it, and monkey allows for stick to be unbound by his own ego. they're a team, each others comfort
they meditate together, being one with each other, and stick is just as important as monkey because "the world needs us"
to summarise; stick is a deeply emotional, straight-forward, fun-loving, whimsical, thrill-seeking sentient weapon who's been deprived of activity for thousands of years, which affected the way he expresses himself through bloodthirsty violence and screaming, but he does have an ambition to learn and play the guitar, already being a singer himself. it is a creative outlet for him to release all that pent up energy when he lay dormant, and is allowed the freedom to live a life he wants alongside the one person who values and loves him for who he is
in conclusion... they are both crazy, and stick likes that about monkey
#Stick. you supposed to be a tough straight metal (gold) rod#monkey bent him and for jade emperor's sake stick loves it#perhaps stick can distinguish touch. and monkey's is his favorite#THEY ARE SO GAY FOR ECAH OTHER!!!#nobody told them that what they were doing was freaky so they kept doing it. good for them#gosh... ilovethemsm#owiee i hope you okay now. rest well and stay hydrated!!
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a silent voice manga panel
#art#manga panel#a silent voice#nishimiya x ishida#shouko nishimiya#ishida shouya#asv#shoko colors#bye bye#suicides not the answer to your problems#if you need someone to talk to im here for you!
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at first getting diagnosed with cptsd was like, "yay my trauma has been validated (it always was valid)!" and i really thought that was going to be it, but then i started to do research as i do whenever i realize i have something and learned that!! the way i experience socialization is!! quite horrid actually!!
#i have had this stupid fucking rule for myself for years since i was little#''dont speak unless you're spoken to or else something bad will happen. nobody wants to hear what you have to say unless they ask''#I TELL MYSELF THAT ALL THE TIME????#AND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WASNT NORMAL#thats not something that healthy people think to themselves whenever they want to talk to people. they just talk to them#they dont tell themselves not to speak to people for fear of what may happen to them jesus christ spacie#i get so scared when i message anybody ANYTHING#bc everything and anything i wanna talk about feels so stupid why would anyone give a shit#staring at a funny joke i want to send someone for 30 fucking minutes before deleting it b/c my brain is like ''errmm who cares?''#''also they're going to yell at you for wasting their time!!!''#i sent my friend a meme once and had a panic attack (or maybe a flashback?? im still trying to figure out what they are) immediately after#this shit sucks dude. it sucks#at least im processing what happened to me. thats why it hurts so bad rn its been stockpiled for like.#2 decades#im not looking for any sympathy here im just putting it out there#so that anybody who feels the same way i do know they're not alone#ive been struggling everyday for like 2 months now (actually DEFINITELY longer)#it will get better. things just need to be taken one step at a time#i have gotten thru my worst days i have a 100% success rate#how many days have i been alive#7930#lightwork#lets keep it goin#vent#trauma tw#trauma mention#wrote this post thru a flashback btw!! dealing with them is getting easier#before i would be unable to function for days at a time!!!#with one of the most recent ones i had i was so in the thick of it i avoided everyone i knew for a week cuz i was convinced#i was an evil unlovable freak that only wanted to hurt people
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