#if you are not autistic + relate to this feel free to just replace autistic w whatever u want in ur mind

[genderkoolaid]

i don't know what autistic person needs to hear this but they are not watching you. the entire world is not constantly waiting for you to do something weird and laugh at you behind your back. you do not need to constantly self-police whenever there's the slightest chance another person might see you. you have a right to be your autistic self in public spaces. stop fighting yourself for their sake.

[asher-agere]

Hello BSD fans! I’ve just read chapter 120 and I am very concerned. I’ll explain my thoughts under the cut… But you get headcanons as I try to cope!

Thoughts: Akutagawa really showed up just to die didn’t he? He didn’t even get like turned to bubbles and slurped up. He just died- Again- Asagiri leave him alone (╥﹏╥) Also Fyodor really is just thinking about Dazai isn’t he? Last chapter he was very much like “Atsushi you can replace this bandaged disgrace” Then Atsushi had his knight in shining armor show up and Fyodor’s like “Fine whatever. I have to catch a flight. To France. To see Dazai again. Later losers” Like bro? (╥﹏╥) Anyway. My final thought, aka what inspired this post. WHERE IS RANPO GIVE HIM BACK HIS DAD MIGHT DIE

Little Ranpo

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✦ Ranpo wants all the sweets ever! Someone had better be watching him or he’ll give himself a tummy ache. He’ll probably give himself a tummy ache anyway, but his caregiver should try to prevent it! Ranpo can just be really sneaky. He’ll find out where the candy is and just help himself… Good luck to whatever caregiver has to deal with that

✦ When he’s regressed Ranpo gets very self conscious. He can’t think as well and his intelligence is his best asset! Without it… What’s he worth? He’ll desperately try putting on his glasses but he only gets even more worked up when they don’t work. The best solution is to shower him in praise and give him easy puzzles and tasks to do! If he can complete some kind of baby puzzle he feels incredibly accomplished

✦ SENSORY ISSUES. Ranpo is soooo Autistic guys. I think he’d get overwhelmed very easily. His clothes can be so itchy and all the noise is just so overwhelming and he’s hungry and cold and- Just to much! Tantrums happen very easily. The best solution is to give him a lollipop and start taking care of issues! Give him some noise cancelling headphones, change his clothes, give him a blanket. Soon he’ll be all better!

✦ I don’t think Ranpo would like pacifiers or teething toys much. He’ll argue candy would work better. If he wants to suck on something why can’t he have a lollipop? If he wants to bite and chew why not some soft candy? He knows it makes sense, he’s a smart baby! Now give him the candy

✦ Ranpo will be such a polite and well mannered baby! … Until he doesn’t get his way. He’ll be all smiles, walk up to his caregiver and hold out his hand “Candy? Pre’y please?” If his caregiver says no then he’ll pout and go away. Then not come back. This baby can hold a grudge. He’ll hide under his desk. Does he want to be held? Obviously. But he wants candy! The best compromise is to give him juice or milk if they’re in a time crunch. But if there’s time his caregiver should just sit nearby on the floor continuing their work. Don’t give in. Eventually Ranpo will come crawling out. It’ll just take multiple hours

✦ Even if he’s a baby this is still the world’s greatest detective! Puzzles and Rubik’s cubes are a babies best friend. He always wants to watch a detective cartoon! He’ll solve the mystery just a few minutes into the episode then happily babble to his caregiver about all the evidence that he found and how easy it was to solve! If they’ve been watching for awhile and he’s getting bored he might ask for a reward for being so super smart! Candy of course

✦ He also loves cats! He wants cat plushies and cute cat themed outfits! He’s obsessed with the Nyan Cat. It’s a sweet treat and a cat! What’s not to love? He will babble the song for hours. He finds it entertaining and doesn’t really care he’s annoying everyone else to death. It’s a fun song! What’s wrong with that?

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Yay baby Ranpo! (Please come save us Ranpo where are you) As you can tell, I do read the BSD manga! If you wanna chat, feel free to message me! If you have requests relating to it? Feel free to send them!

[build-a-bear-altershop]

Name: (please give us a few options :) )

Age: 18

Gender: Boyspike

Pronouns: He/Him,  Skunk/Skunk’s,  Hx/Hxm,  (Please add more)

Orientation: Gay & Abromantic

Species: Skunk human hybrid

Role: Chaos alter (like college frat guy chaos but not frat guy just so himbo coded)

Cis-Ids: Black hair, White hair (has a thick white stripe down the center of his hair like a skunk), College student, Pot head, Darker skin, Autistic, ADHD, Larger build (like a teddy bear almost feel free to add more :) )

Trans-Ids: TransAccent, TransMUDhoader, TransAnxiety, TransTics, TransTourettes, TransNeedy, PermaAttention (feel free to add a lot more including TransHarmful’s and  TransHarmed just nothing to extreme like heavy abuse related stuff and really hateful things but SH is fine with us)

Likes: Weed, Alcohol, Going on rants about his hyperfixation, Being outside, & being given attention (feel free to add more :) )

Dislikes: Disrespectful people (he cannot stand them in the slightest also feel free to add more)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Accessories

Source: N/A

Typing quirk: maybe a light typing quirk? Like double letters of a certain kind or something like s - z or O - 0 (we can’t decide if we want one or not so maybe give a few ideas)

Sign off: 🦨

From one BAH to another goodluck take as much time as needed

-The Garden.  (@the-transid-gacha)

This guy is such a cutie! Very glad you came to me 💙

Name: Titus/Tito, Jax, Jayden, Liam, Levi, Ellis

Age: 18

Gender: Boyspike

Pronouns: He/Him, Skunk/Skunk's, Hx/Hxm, Peh/Pehm, Thon/Thons, Vae/Vaer/Vaem, Vel/Velvet

Orientation: Gay & Abromantic

Species: Skunk human hybrid

Role: Chaos alter (like college frat guy chaos but not frat guy just so himbo coded)

Cis-Ids: Black hair, White hair, College student, Pot head, Darker skin, Autistic, ADHD, Larger build, Back Pain, Red Green Colorblindness (because he’s part skunk)

Trans-Ids: TransAccent, TransMUDhoader, TransAnxiety, TransTics, TransTourettes, TransNeedy, PermaAttention, TransCaneuser, TransHyper

Likes: Weed, Alcohol, Going on rants about his hyperfixation, Being outside, & being given attention, Hyperpop and Breakcore, Bugs and insects

Dislikes: Disrespectful people (he cannot stand them in the slightest), Strong perfumes, baths and swimming

Typing quirk: Feel free to mix and match from any of these! Doubles up Es, Replaces As with 4; Rs with 2; and Os with 0, Replaces Ws with uu and Vs with u, Doubles up Zs

Example 1: Thee quick brown fox jumps oveer thee lazy dog

Example 2: The quick br0wn f0x jumps 0ve2 the l4zy d0g

Example 3: The quick brouun fox jumps ouer the lazy dog

Example 4: The quick brown fox jumps over the lazzy dog

Sign off: 🦨

picrew

- mod 🐠

[humanoidchaos]

I just had a non-good day and I'm a little bit brown and maybe poisoned.

In my building there were THREE potassium permanganate incidents in one day!

The first one is on me. I dropped the open jar with a potassium permanganate solution (liquid) onto the floor. My colleagues cleaned the floor while I washed my pants and shoes. On our floor's main toilet. While in socks, underwear, shirt and sunglasses (photosensitively autistic) (told everyone my normal glasses had to b). They are still brown with manganese oxide because fuck me.

The second one was a consequence of my actions but in no way my fault. I wanted to replace the potassium permanganate I dropped so I go downstairs to buy some more of the purple solid. The woman at the desk takes the jar, walks to the back shuffles around for a while... 'Oh no!' She overshot by a lot. No big deal, she can sweep it up.

The third was the logical conclusion to the lab party of clowns. As I turn the cap I can hear it grind against the sand texture of the permanganate so I move over to the sink, it can handle mild chemical waste. I turn the cap more and open the jar to reveal it filled to the brim with purpleish black sand. It's all over the jar now, it's making a deep purple puddle in the sink, it. is. on. my. hands.

The strongest purple you can imagine. It won't come off. It will turn brown if in contact with an oxidizing agent. My skin can oxidize. The potassium permanganate is now reacting with my skin to manganese oxide, the brown rock chemical that will never wash out of my pants.

My hands are brown, I might be a little poisoned, my pants are ruined, and cleaning up my own mess took me a day. A colleague saw me bare-legged washing my pants in the sink and made smalltalk about lab accidents and the irreversible stains on my pants.

This was a bad day. But here is an assortment of potassium permanganate related thoughts:

ourple

Hvorfor er jeg lila

Braunstein :(

I am transitioning from william afton to purple guy to a 1800-1900s actor playing a slave

Kaliumpermanganat :(

Fuck potassium permanganate, copper sulfate is my favorite color now

Feel free to transcribe my purple text into greentext or make memes about my horrific experience as I will now enjoy my weekend to spite the permanganate!

[mach1ne-g1rl]

Saw your most recent post on dhmis and tma and I've got opinions to say I believe Computers is an Eye episode because Colin's whole deal is stealing personal info and being smart but its not my strongest I see Jobs as a buried because while it doesn't involve much claustrophobia its more about harmful workplaces and overworking which ties in with the buried in a symbolic sense. I will argue so strongly Death is an End episode. The End is LITERALLY the fear of death smh. While I can see the argument its a Stranger because of Stain Edwards the theme of death is so strong that it isn't that relevant. I see Family as both Stranger and Corruption, Stranger because the whole episode feels very uncanny with the design of the family and set being a "real" place. It's also Corruption because the episode is about toxic family relations. I still cannot believe how you thought Friendship was originally a Vast episode. While I can see why you would assign it Lonely it's clearly a Corruption, it's literally about toxic friendships. Also bugs. Tbh i don't know what to assign to Transport my closest guess is Vast but my argument isn't very strong Electricity is a hard one, I don't think i can assign it to one entity. I think Electracey is a Extinction avatar because she's a robot and the "everything in the home will be plugged in and part of the electric family" line. I could see Charged Yellow being either Eye, Stranger or Extinction. Eye because he's want to find the truth and also green eyes, Stranger because Yellow gets replaced, and Extinction because he gets replaced using specifically technology. The power outage is probably Dark because darkness. Lesley is a Web avatar, I will fight you on this. She's controlling them, she's the literal puppet master. You said that Lesley isn't the main one pulling the string making her less Web aligned but I would argue that makes her MORE web aligned because she's knows she's not fully in control. I interpret becoming a web avatar as not only being manipulative, but accepting your lack of free will. As Annabelle said in 147, "let it never be said that I do not dance the steps I am assigned." Sorry this is long and probably sounds a little rude i just have very strong opinions on tma and dhmis have a lovely day

COmputer being eye was also on my first post but i removed it bc i didnt think it was part of the big Fear factor ? but the way you phrased it does make it work

jobs being buried makes sense too !! my main reason for it being spiral is just Duck calling everything out and then Also going weird ? and then going back to "this is all wrong" very strongly (also the episode is reminiscent of Sculptor's Tool to me with only duck pointing out how this is Odd)

death SHOULD be end ur right , i just didnt think anyone in dhmis seemed very scared of the Death there ? so i thought it wasnt very important but Yeah when you mention it its definitely end ty (Or desolation bc it also feels like . theyre more focused on the grief of losing someone n not the Fear of Death ? if that makes sense=? but i dont rly get the End and Desolation anyway so)

CORRUPTION FOR FAMILY IS SO RIGHT i think i considered corruption for it at one point but i second guessed myself enough to remove it again . and stranger never reallly seemed correct to me but it was the closest and i had no one to discuss with so i ran with it:sob:

IM SORRYY LSITEN OK i hadnt listened to tma in full when i made the first list. i just read the entities wiki page and heard season 5 ..!!!! honestly idk if i agree with corruption bc , while thats probably the deeper meaning of the episode (toxic friends) warren always seemed like just an autistic asshole to me so i never saw the whole . toxic thing ? and he never really actually seemed friends with any of them ?? yea taking advantage of their kindness but i wouldnt call it a toxic relationship bc there never Was a Relationship to me (probably factually wrong n im being ignorant here but its my list and blehh :P im biased towards warren) and im probably just forgetting something bc i havent rewatched it in a while but are there bugs besides warren (are worms bugs)?

transport i assigned Web bc red guy being like . aware of the whole They're Trapped There thing and trying to escape and Lonely bc they're trying to get to other people/ civilization/ community but are just . stuck ? and in some episodes the lonely just takes ppl to endless places that they cant leave (cul-de-sac is the only one i remember) and it just (again) reminded me of that

ELECTRICITY /SHOULLD/ be more than 1 or 2 very true but i just Really hate assigning more than 2 to these idk why ive set that rule for myself but it just feels wrong, disorderly and i dont like it . but yes i can see electracey being extinction (tbh i feel like teachers being avatars/ assinging them patrons/fears could be a whole other list itself) Charged Yellow being stranger i disagree. yes hes replaced but it feels more like . if s1 jon got replaced by s5 jon ? does that make sense ? I HAD DARK For this episode too bc the power outage but it didnt feel like a big fear factor here ? and i just didnt think it was significant enough (the dumb self-imposed rule) Lesley IS web coded i completely forgot annabelle for a second when i made this :sob: ive had too much michael on my mind and i thought being trapped wasnt enough of a theme here ? not like it was in Transport or like Dreams but yea it definitely should be Web

IM GLAD this is long i like hearing other ppls thoughts and input on this silly stuff (it did sound a little rude at times but dw i get it) I think at the end of the day the way we judge these is just Very different? Unless you disagree, i dont think the web series is this "up for debate" as the tv show is bc it just has . Less. There's maybe 3 lines at the start, then the teacher comes in and starts singing about what they embody, then the horrors and the end (only the last 3 episodes rly made me question which Power would be associated with them bc it kinda follows a plot so they could all a little be taken as web and lonely with red guy?) Theres just so many more ways the TV show can be interpreted. These could be judged on the Teacher, the Lesson, the thing that scares the characters, the thing that scares the Audience, symbolism/manifestations, etc. (i think i just went with whatever seemed the most relevant to me / what scared the characters ? but i was also being pretty inconsistent there lmao) i feel like there would probably have to be multiple lists or just one BIG list of everything that could count as one of the entities ? or maybe im blowing this out of proportion and its really simple for you, and only i struggled with this :,) either way it was fun ! and i think thats all that matters maybe the real dhmis tma entities assigning list were the friends we made along the way aww

[larkiethings]

I have a ton of hobbies but I want to tell you about one in particular. this will be long.

I was in the school band in middle school and high school and I played french horn. I was pretty decent at it, I made honor band and got first chair my sophomore year (but the other horn player had braces so like not super prestigious, but not bad either). Then I studied abroad and didn't have time to take band bc I had to focus on ~academics~ to get out of high school on time, didn't have my own instrument or much free time in college so I stopped playing. I was never good enough to join a professional (or semi professional) group and didn't think it was worth it to spend a couple thousand dollars on an instrument that I don't have a reason to play. But i missed it. Music has always been super important to me and it used to be my favorite thing in the world, and while I love crocheting and stuff it felt really bad to think about how all my favorite hobbies, the ones that I made a part of my identity, just weren't accessible to me as an adult. I may have sobbed on the couch for like 3 hours as it hit me just how much of my ennui is related to various group activities that I used to do but don't anymore, not because I stopped liking them but because I simply don't have access. While it's true that many arts and extracurriculars are criminally underfunded in schools, it feels even harder to find some of the same group activities as an adult - we seem to think that if you're not good enough to be a Professional, then you don't deserve to participate at all (and in the case of most concert bands, even the professionals can't afford to live on their art)

Anyway. I got a new job, working in the same building as some of the executives at my company (which I don't wanna doxx myself but it's not your standard corporate hellscape, we technically work for the state and also a larger parent organization so these guys are directors, not CEOs). One of the directors plays horn and practices at work, down in a little used computer room off our tiny library. I've tried chatting with this guy before but he's like. autistic in an old man with a PhD way. I haven't gotten far with him. I am friends with our librarian though so I go say hi after clocking in one morning and he's there practicing, so when he comes out she compliments him on his playing. I remark that I used to play back in high school.

Immediately this man says more words to me than I've ever heard him say. He shows me his two horns, describing all the customization he did on his Yamaha (a cheap but reliable model) and then all the fancy aspects about his other brand that was much more expensive (like 10k for this instrument). then he says that I can play the Yamaha. I say okay I'll go buy a mouthpiece and he says don't bother I have million. He promises to bring in training materials for me and easy level workbooks for me to practice. He finds different shaped mouthpieces and insists that I take the horn home with me and start practicing right away.

He doesn't even know my name.

I know this bc I hear him talking about me the next week (after he gives me the workbooks) and I hear him referring to me as "the new (retired predecessor), but not (the second person they hired to replace my predecessor bc she did the work of 3 people), the other one". I went into work one friday expecting it to be just as slow and unremarkable as every other friday. And I came out of work with an instrument to take home, a promise of accessible practice materials, and encouragement that 12 years without playing is not that much time and I'll pick it all back up.

Anyway there's an ensemble that he thinks is beneath him but he's gotten convinced to play first chair in, and he's got a spot for me if I think I can manage the part. He stops and talks to me about every other day about how I'm progressing. He's even learned my name!

that tiktok that’s like “name a single hobby of yours outside of media consumption” she got em a bit why lie

[drizzileiscool]

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edit: this post is outdated and will be replaced by an in-character post soon!!

yo! welcome to drizzileiscool, one of the only drizzile propaganda accounts to exist (that is currently still active at the time of writing this)

here you will see me post and reblog things related to drizziles, the best emo middle stage water starter from galar!

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blog owner is a minor, please do not talk to me about anything nsfw unless it is related to the conversation

About the blog owner: I am non binary, use any pronouns, and im also bisexual and autistic. I mainly go by either drizzile or sig, but drizzile is preferred if you don't know me from twitter

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[blergeatkitty]

I wish I had taken “Before” pictures, because the underneath-the-kitchen-sink was super disgusting.

Imagine an under-sink area that was disgusting to begin with, with cracked white melamine where the idiot previous tenant had overtightened a bunch of screws, and full of nasty gunge and bunches of grease-stained cleaning products and stuff.

When I moved in (ten years ago, woo!) I had just gotten the divorce papers signed and stamped and had moved here while the X stayed in our fancy old place, rent-free, with her midlife crisis downgrade, Neanderthal-boy.

Psychologically speaking, the technical term for my state of mind at the time was “FUCKED”, but the DSM-V clarifies this as “hot mess with a side order of grief, dejection, and treatment-resistant depression. Also an inglorious helping of self-pity”.

Recently, after years of uncoiling the hot mess, two autistic and depression related work meltdowns that had me on disability for a year and a half in total, a number of different treatments that didn’t work, one that nearly drove me to self-harm (eek!) one that FINALLY worked (you wouldn’t think it, but it was a new research project involving an intravenous ketamine protocol and if you send an ask I’ll be happy to oblige with that story), a bunch of self-care work a truly hip and fantastic psychiatrist, and a few supplements, I finally FINALLY found my SPOOOOOOOONS!

Like, energy, folx.

I found my GAS. My Giving A Shit.

It had returned.

I had enough energy to look around and start thinking about improving my environment, in other words.

It started with my daughter’s room about a month or so back.

She turned 18 a little while ago (yeah, poor kid han’t even turned 8 when all this horrible shot first went down) and moved into her own place with a friend so I took the opportunity to turn her mess (no judgment, it was just a regular teenage mess, nothing special, and I was not about to call her out on it because [gestures helplessly to rest of untidy place that I should have been cleaning had I the spoons] of a room into something she would enjoy coming back to visit anytime (and it would make a tidy guest room and bathroom area as well).

But today I found time to do something strictly for Me.

My kitchen.

And it started with wanting to put up some wall decals to brighten the atmosphere a little. But the walls and cupboards had a thin (cough, decade-old, cough) coating of neglectful grease on them that made me stop before I even got started.

So I pushed a pebble down a hill full of snow and yeah, it avalanched. Looney Tunes style.

No. Malcolm in the Middle style!

Https://YouTu.be/AbSehcT19u0

Wiping down a counter made me realize the spice rack had a greasy feel to it.

Cleaning the spice rack made me think of wiping down the backsplash behind it.

Which made me notice the microwave.

Which led me to notice the OVEN. (Ew).

And the oven and microwave lights needed replacing.

From like, ten years ago.

Cleaning a cupboard surface made me realize the side of the fridge was dirty. Cleaning the fridge made me realize the floor needed mopping and the grout was dirty and gross looking.

And from where I sat scrubbing floor tile. I noticed the sink.

Specifically, the underside of the sink.

And I REALLY should have taken a Before picture because no description I can provide will truly give it Justice.

But here’s a 1000-word substitute for what the upgrade looks like, and I’m sooper-proud of myself:

And the rest of the kitchen looks nice too:

And I even went to the hardware store to get new fluorescent lights for the main lighting because it had been too long since a couple had burned out and needed replacing.

And yeah, I didn’t forget the whole reason I started this avalanche of home care.

I even put up one of the new decals. (The onion, not the birds).

[trans-leek-cookie]

I dont have any specific religious beliefs but I do think inanimate objects have something akin to what we would think of as a human soul but constructed differently in that human souls have death as part of their cycle due to emotions and such meaning they need to rest at some point whether permanent or temporary whereas the "souls" of objects cannot feel in a human way but still have their own meaning, but do not need rest in the way human souls do. Anyways whatever soul is in my pink dolphin plushie is older than time itself I think.

[italian-wall-lizard]

here's my two cents on the recent overturning of roe vs wade:

as i'm guessing all of you know, roe vs wade is a law protecting abortion rights throughout the country (supported by 67% of people living in america), recently overturned after fifty years by these five shitbag "pro-lifers" of the supreme court (with, might i add, an average age of 61), three of which were appointed by our former president, donald trump:

amy coney barrett (nominated by trump): the woman who was appointed by trump in october 2020, going against ruth bader ginsburg's dying wish to wait until the election was over to replace her- also worth mentioning that she didn't know the five rights of freedom in the first amendment of the constitution

clarence thomas: an accused rapist who recently said that in light of the roe vs wade overturning, they should reconsider the laws protecting gay marriage, gay relations, and contraception i.e. birth control, plan b, condoms, etc

samuel alito: accused of sexually abusing a 14 year old, as well as writing against the majority opinion in the obergefell vs hodges case in 2015 (the one that legalized gay marriage). he also suggested that the reason that a team of nearly all white firefighters were denied promotions because of a plot between the mayor of new haven and a black preacher, which just. what

brett kavanaugh (appointed by trump): accused three times of sexual misconduct, one of which was him thrusting his penis at a girl while drunk at a party at yale, another of which he forced a different girl down on a bed, groped her, tried to take her clothes off, and covered her mouth so she couldn't scream for help until another man came into the room and stopped it

neil gorsuch (appointed by trump): voted in favor of the thompson r2-j school district in the thompson r2-j school district vs luke p. case, which was essentially the school district refusing to provide reimbursement for denying luke, an autistic boy, the education that he needed to be able to, quote, "generalize his skills", as well as voting in favor of UPS in the strickland vs UPS case which was when carole strickland accused UPS of being sexist towards her for making her attend one on one meetings with the supervisor telling her to do better even though she made 93-104% of her sales quota and there were many other people (men) in the office who were making less of their sales quota, not denied assistance when they made less than 100% of their sales quota, never called in to have meetings with their supervisor, and weren't counselled at all for poor performance

these five near corpses have made a single decision that will ruin the lives of millions of women (or anyone with a uterus) for decades. these so called pro-lifers are SO pro-life that they've decided that instead of letting you abort a literal fetus who cannot think or feel, they'll wait until the kid goes to school and let mass shooters kill them off because they refuse gun-control. these so called pro-lifers are so incredibly pro-life that they won't do anything to fix the dozens of problems in the foster care system. these so called pro-lifers won't provide paid maternal leave or free healthcare so that the mother doesn't have to work her ass off to pay for having the goddamn baby you forced her to have. these so called pro-lifers will force you to have a baby and say they care about it, until the baby's gay. or trans, or black, or jewish, or disabled, or anything that isn't a straight white christian abled conservative man. "but if the mother's life is in danger then they'll be able to get an abortion!" did you know that the only states to have an "exception" for abortion if the mothers life is in danger are texas, louisiana, idaho, and oklahoma? the laws state that in texas an abortion can happen if it is a "medical emergency", in louisiana it states that an exception could happen if there could be "death or a substantial risk of death", in idaho it states that an exception could happen if it would "prevent the death of a pregnant woman", and oklahoma states that an exception could happen if it was "in a medical emergency". all of these laws are so incredibly vague that it makes me want to slap the governor's of these states across the face. how about if a woman had a 20% chance of dying, texas? is that enough of an emergency for you? because the chance is never 0%, and it's never 100%. it seems to me that these lawmakers are so "pro-life" that they don't care that over 800 women die from maternity related incidents every YEAR. that's not very pro-life of you, is it?

this goes directly against the first amendment. if you don't know what it is, "Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances." did you notice that it said "congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion"? let me put it in simple terms for the five dinosaur aged supreme court members who voted against roe; SEPARATE CHURCH FROM STATE. did you know that all five of the justices who voted to overturn roe are christian? this is not to say all christians are bad, far from it. but a hell of a lot of the political leaders who are christian sure like to reference what the second amendment says about "right to bear arms" but never seem to mention the first that tells them to get your fucking bible out of my rights. NO ONE IS FORCING YOU TO GET AN ABORTION!!!! if you think it goes against the bible, cool! don't get one! no one is forcing it onto you! if it goes against your religion, okay. that's chill, but for the people who aren't christian? or the people who are but who interpret the bible differently? they can get an abortion if they want! if in the future i want to get an abortion, i shouldnt be stopped because "well the bible says this" because i am not a christian!! i do not believe in god!! and while pro-lifers talk about what the bible says, they completely ignore that other religions exist. judaism has a law that if the mothers life is in danger, they must abort the baby because the mother's life is more important than the unborn baby's. the pilgrims came to america for religious freedom, to separate from the laws that forced them to be apart of the church of england. freedom was always supposed to be the basis of america, and that includes the right to not be christian.

you talk of what the founding fathers would say, and this is my response: the founding fathers were a bunch of old white men from the 1700s that believed in slavery and didn't have running water. before you ask what the founding fathers would have wanted, put your smart phone down. turn off your electricity. turn off running water. get rid of anything invented after 1788. now, think: these were the conditions the founding fathers were under while writing the constitution. we've made a couple inventions since 1788, no? why shouldn't we have different opinions? just because they decided they should be the ones to write a paper that controlled everything that everyone in america did doesn't mean they were good people, or even decently smart people. slavery is bad, yes? well they sure as hell didn't think so. that makes them BAD PEOPLE. let me spell it out for you if you didn't pass the third grade, which i'm guessing a lot of the justices didn't: b-a-d-p-e-o-p-l-e

this was never about "pro-life" or abortion or saving children's lives. this was always about control, money, and now we're stuck in this dystopia of a country. are you happy now, amy coney barrett? are you happy that millions of lives around the country are now in danger because you wanted to save the lives of a couple of fetuses the size of literal jelly beans with no brain power? look at what you've done. i hope you live to see the day the consequences this will cause, cause there's going to be a hell of a lot of them.

this post goes out to the thousands of women who have died from at-home abortions. you can't stop abortions, you can only ban safe ones.

[gothichorrorshow]

Typing quirks 

I have decided to do a post on typing quirks because I'm seeing more of them recently. So this is just my ramblings on this.

TQ = typing quirk

Now first of all, what are typing quirks? I guess it can be described as certain typing characteristics.  

TQs can be using random symbols or numbers for letters, replacing letters with other letters, random punctuation in sentences, and more. (I will not show samples as I can't read most of them) 

Speaking of not able to read them, that's the main argument against TQs. They're inaccessible to anyone with trouble processing words (dyslexics, autistics) and to screen readers. 

Now, why cause the trouble of accessibility issues? There's a couple reasons people who use TQs have given. 

Some people use TQs because they get joy from typing that way or it feels more natural. (often neurodivergents, not always) And some people just like the way it looks. 

It's also related to fandom cultures (Homestuck) and leet speak.

Some people claim it's ableist to use them at all, and some think it's ableist to tell people to drop them. But keep in mind some who use them are neurotypical.

For accessibility reasons, some users add translations. Translations are where they retype the TQ text in plain text. 

Translations are better than nothing, but they still aren't perfect solutions. A screen reader would still read the TQ text before the translation.

Also for longer posts, translations can add tons text to the post. This may make it intimidating to read for someone with trouble processing text.  

So what do I think on this? Are typing quirks always bad?

On this one I'm gonna take a middle ground. Feel free to use TQs privately with friends!

Online TQs are fine, but preferably add translations. At least give translations when asked.

Do not use TQs when using disabled or neurodivergent tags. That's just basic accommodation and respect. Don't even use it with translations.

But otherwise they're just harmless internet stuff. If you're willing to accommodate it's fine to use them, but you must be able to add translations.

[miaulogy]

Hello Michi!! Feel free to answer this or not, but what is it like for you to be an autistic person? I'm making/drawing/writing an autistic character and I'm gathering as much info as i can to not cross any bounderies/not be problematic/not be stereotypical. Thank you :)

thanks for asking! i'm really happy you're doing research :3 /gen

so, my experience isn't the same as every autistic person's of course, so if any autistic person doesn't relate that doesn't mean they're faking! we're all different ^^ /gen

i think that as a child, i would get angry REALLY easily, i couldn't control my anger well at all and my mom would just lock me up in my room to not have to deal with me

so, my first reaction would be to break stuff like my books and throw things like pillows across the room

but i've learned to control my anger a lot better now! sometimes i just take a bath and cry a little and i feel a whole lot better :]

i also feel like i can't really understand when people are being serious and when they're joking, my grandma sometimes makes jokes when talking to me and i don't really get if they're jokes or if she actually means it, yk?

i also play a lot with my fingers and can't seem to focus on one thing at a time; when a teacher is talking, i can't just look at them and take all the information, i always have to look at them while doing something else with my hands

so, to do that i focus on the main thing i have to do: listening to my teacher, but if i try to only focus on them i will eventually have thoughts that will distract me from listening because i always do two things at the same time (in this case, listening and thinking), so i play with my hands to replace the thinking part with something less distracting that allows me to listen

does that make sense? lolol ^^"

anyways, when i get interested in something i can't stop thinking of it, a new show comes into my life and i relate everything i do and see to it, seemingly being unable to get it out of my head

that's actually great for creating content, it's really easy for me to make drawings and headcanons when hyperfixated on that thing, but it's very common for me to have trouble sleeping because my mind can't shut up about my fave characters, i usually lay on my bed completely tired and about to sleep but then all the thoughts about my hyperfixation come all at once and i'm completely exhausted physically but mentally i can't stop thinking!! it has taken me hours just to fall asleep, or even close my eyes :(

and oh god!! the sensory issues!!! /neg

i remember being a 7 year old lil guy and scratching the (cement) wall of my room, oh god that made me want to pull my nails off!! i hate the texture of cement walls, i can't pass my fingers through them without biting my tongue and stuff, it's just such a terrible texture! it feels so dry!!

i also remember having trouble with putting on my uniform, i had (and still have) to use a white sweater that had a texture so bad that it would make me cry whenever my mom tried to put it on me! it's a dry texture similar to cement wall's, since i had to pass it through my head to put it on it would asphyxiate me! i simply couldn't stand wearing it, i usually go to school with a random black sweater and with my school's jacket over it (we have a sweater and a jacket with the logo and we can choose which to wear)

on the gender part, i think autism has really affected my way of interpreting it

like, gender is a social construct, and i get why people identify as women or men or non-binary or something else entirely, or maybe in between some of these, but it's hard to get it for myself, especially as a plural

you see, everyone describes knowing their gender in a very complex way, but i just see the words "boy", "enby", and "xenic" and they make me happy, and that's just it, yk?

but if someone asked me what a boy is, what an enby is, or what a xenic is and why i identify as such, i couldn't answer, because i just really don't know JDJSJKS

hmm, i think that would be pretty much it, i really can't separate myself from any of my disorders, they're simply part of who i am ^_^

thanks for reading, have a nice day! /gen

[tinysatansierra-blog]

Markiplier manor is toxic here’s why

So Markiplier manor (Markipliers official discord server) has gotten a surplus of new people in it, this happened a few weeks ago the manor itself though has been up for awhile. originally a members only server it was eventually opened up for everyone and yes there are alot of genuinely good people and the mods are alright but unfortunately its becoming a toxic environment. 

SO EDIT i have discussed with the mods that being said ... im keeping this up as a reminder of we can do better we can help people who are struggling through something instead of shutting them down we can listen to people who are being oppressed and bravely point out new media that only worsens that oppression and stigmatization and not just the mods who i was kind of harsh towards but who are human everyone as a community can do better and this is a large community think of the work we can do just doing the basics like boycotting problematic content and helping those who cry out for it who need it (and noticing and shutting down manipulative/toxic behaviors) ... i dont know if im going to go back to the manor yet tho im going to let this sit give it a week yall can agree or disagree but know that if you try to be an ass your going to get shut down and your feelings are going to get hurt 

lets start with the basics “triggering topics” triggering topics can be anything in particular but it generally means a topic that relates to another persons trauma. Now while it is important to acknowledge a persons trigger words and try to keep the conversation respectable ive also noticed people use it to shut down people who come on freaking out because their dealing with a stressful situation/something traumatic just happened. This has happened to me personally and to a friend with me it was about being pro choice and having to in short make that actual choice. i was discussing this in the bathroom because i (like anyone else who comes in with baggage) did not know about any pro choice discords at that moment and was afraid of being stigmatized or going onto a discord that says its a safe space only for it to be filled with trolls. Mark manor is labeled as a safe space and many people come on there looking for support with me no one told me that the topic was triggering to them (which apparently it was because a friend of theirs had to make the choice not her herself think what you will) they just went to a mod early on when i just found the server as a member a friend (who i wont name) had gotten.... assaulted majority of her werent online and as someone who has been there and yes when she told me it did trigger my own trauma she needed moral support... the mod shut her down and deleted her comments and didnt give her a pointer to any other discord where she could discuss the topic openly and get moral support and be pointed to resources (it actually took me ten minutes to find and confirm a lgbtq therapy chat earlier this year for another individual discussing mental health) this was before i had gotten on for that day but i noticed those messages and i contacted her when she told me what was up yea it triggered my memories and its not fun but I FUCKING HELPED HER i made sure she went to the police to atleast file a statement (while the police dont always help it is good to have it on file) i even made her a plush and shipped it out to her and i would do it again and again because its not good to basically tell another person to shut up because it triggers others not without atleast trying to help them find another fucking place and making sure their actually ok and in a physical safe place  next is them claiming the manor is a “safe space” a safe space is by definition  “ a place or environment in which a person or category of people can feel confident that they will not be exposed to discrimination, criticism, harassment, or any other emotional or physical harm.” you would also think that the manor would be a safe space in the fact that marginalized and oppressed groups of people would be able to point out problematic content and have an open and free discussion about it and how it makes them uncomfortable. especially people of lgbtq community which alot of people in that chat are. yesterday (and this was what caused me to officially turn away from the server) in the patio (which is the members only chat) a Transgender individual pointed out the problematic content that is huniepop and how it fetishizes trans people as well as other minorities now this game i hear tries to make itself out as a “parody” .... its not its a sexual dating sim what would make it a parody is if sex noises were replaced with donkey sounds and the lewd pictures were replaced with poorly drawn doodles of tits or what have you its a game for incels marks hilarious when he plays it because he doesnt take the game seriously my issue isnt with him its with the developer. and if you did not know (which apparently people dont) the character poli is described as “a girl with a dick” the individual pointed this out because they felt like it dehumanizes them and paints them as nothing more than a fetish... and also apparently you can “choose” is poli is trans which kind of gives off the message that people can ignore trans peoples identity if it makes them uncomfortable... or if they dont sexualize them. and the muslim community is more or less in the same boat i come from the bible belt in usa im not muslim i am not trans but i do have a reason for standing with both and i will get to that in a bit so i was raised in a christian household in a christian setting like muslim women were basically told we cannot have sex and any sexual thought is sinful and we will be punished blah blah blah your even more closeted if your gay or bi because then you can face ... violence that being said to make the woman from the middle east hyper sexual like they did is kind of shitty even for a incel pleasing sex game. the individual who thought it would be ok to discuss this in the server because its labeled as a safe space and is generally “lgbtq” friendly thus believing he would have people agree and discuss ... was unceremoniously shut down by their peers and a mod was notified this person was not hostile maybe a bit frustrated because he wanted to talk about it and thought he would have this genuinely helpful conversation and people would listen and spread the word because to have problematic content be popular can isolate the oppressed group even more so WHEN NO ONE WANTS TO LISTEN TO THEM. if a group of marginalized people notice something problematic with content and you claim to be an ally of said group then you need to acknowledge and support what they say. they told him to go to twitter where he could potentially be bullied and written off ... because again its an INCEL PLEASING SEX GAME.(which means incels if you ever dealt with them will go and say anything to justify the game even using slurs and bullying) and to put the icing on the cake to change the topic they brought up robin ... i actually dont know who robin is as i dont really focus much on youtube creators personal stuff (it feels off for me to not personally know an individual but know their personal stuff without having actually talking to them its weird i know its a thing i have in my head) but apparently they recently came out as female and good for them im super proud of him and the patio members were discussing how they were proud of him as well for beginning to wear makeup and making themselves more feminine which would be great if they werent trying so hard to shut down the trans male who was trying to spread awareness on problematic stuff .... something he pointed out ... and something they gaslighted and said he was being hostile. really its almost as if they only care about trans issues when its someone famous discussing them  so what can we possibly do about huniepop being transphobic and the answer is very easy BOYCOTT IT like... yall were up in arms and boycotted jk rowling with snap and a turn do we only cancel the old and ugly? do we only cancel those who we dont think is funny? mark is not at fault he probably doesnt realize it and any comments made on the issue are talked down upon or drowned amongst other comments im not saying to cancel him im saying to cancel the game HARD. ignore the posts bitch at the dev demand refunds for your game. like consumers have infinitely more power than corps want to admit.  so you basically have a community that claims to be a safe space but only if you want to talk about sunshine and rainbows and its highly hypocritical of them to claim safety.  another thing is emotionally abusive/manipulative people hide in the server and the mods dont ever seem to acknowledge it. i cannot tell you how many times ive gotten into arguments with people who seems nice then turn into assholes then claim to be the victim when i or others go off on them. if you recognize my name you know i dont stand down when it comes to having a snarky or rude comment thrown at me if your going to be an ass were fighting i dont care how nice you seemed beforehand and you dont get to call a mod just because i actually stood up for myself or others sorry not sorry dont be a bitch nuff said.  now why would i care so much about problematic content? why would i care and stand by the transgender and muslim people (aside from being ya know... an actual ally and not someone who claims it for sympathy and brownie points?) its because i am autistic i am also able to function well on my own but there is a movie created by the famous singer sia it is called music it is a movie frowned upon by the autisitic community because infantizes and dehumanizes non verbal autistic people i am fortunate and unfortunate in not having to deal with much stigma unfortunate because i wasnt diagnosed until i was 17 alot of answers about my behavior could have been answered if i had been diagnosed earlier but considering society loves the quiet timid female and i functioned “well” for neurotypicals i was ignored. so yea you bet your ass im standing with them and raising awareness about huniepop and their was this one person when i mentioned this point i cant remember there name nor to do i give a shit about them because when i mentioned how autistic people ... how i was in the same boat with music by sia (again i advise that no one target the actress who was under contract target sia and please boycott her so she knows she cant get brownie points or money for a movie that stigmatizes who she claims she wants to “help” (*cough* profit off of *cough cough*) and only serves as a feel good movie for neurotypicals and ignorant people)  they said “i heard people who hated the movie i heard people who found it alright people are ALLOWED to like problematic content” ... and like ... does anyone else see the problem here? its not hard at all to boycott celebrities for making content  and im going to repeat this point  IF A GROUP OF MARGINALIZED, STIGMITIZED AND OPPRESSED PEOPLE CALL OUT SOMETHING FOR BEING PROBLEMATIC AND YOU CLAIM TO BE AN ALLY YOU FUCKING LISTEN TO THEM AND DONT SHUT THEM DOWN I DONT GIVE A SHIT YOU DONT HAVE A FUCKING EXCUSE. if you cant bring yourself to boycott a piece of media and replace it with the infinitely more suitable forms that supports the group you claim to be for your not an ally your a fucking hypocrite  and that is why i left markiplier manor i am still a youtube special ... thingy member and i will continue to be a member to support mark i want people to overall listen to those who speak up against a creator and a piece of media and listen to us all no matter how “good” something seems. .. also there is a video called listen it was created by nonverbal autistic people  and communicationFIRST a group that sia apparently communicated with for her movie... and then ignored  https://youtu.be/H7dca7U7GI8

[heraldofzaun]

This is a post I’ve been thinking about making for quite some time, especially due to looking at how my own personal depiction of Viktor differs from what seems to be the general fandom interpretation - especially after the LoR cards released and gave us a few canonical acolytes.

I won’t beat around the bush here: this is going to be about why I personally believe that associating the Glorious Evolution specifically with headcanons about Viktor or his acolytes being trans, or Viktor performing gender-affirming surgeries, or things in a similar vein is a poor decision, and why I don’t include this interpretation in my writings. This isn’t meant to discourage people from writing Viktor or his acolytes as trans, of course - my Viktor is agender, although he’s not aware of it, and it would be absurd to say that his followers have to be cis - but I think it’s important to look at the implications that come from writing Viktor as explicitly someone who helps people relieve and manage their dysphoria through his work with the GE.

Firstly, no matter how you spin it: Viktor’s idea of the Glorious Evolution has always been painted in a negative light. I’ve done my work to portray it as idealistically as possible, but at the end of the day his goals have always been about removing (at the very least, negative) emotions from himself, as well as mechanizing himself and others.

“Desiring both to revolutionize his field and to eliminate the jealous human emotions which festered inside him, he engineered parts to replace and improve his own body... He saw himself as the patron and pioneer of Valoran's future, a future in which man would renounce his flesh in favor of superior hextech augmentations.” (Original lore.)

“He saw human involvement in any part of a process as a grossly inefficient aberration - a view that put him at odds with a great many of his fellow students and professors, who saw the very things Viktor sought to remove as the source of human ingenuity and creativity.” (New lore.)

“Jayce reported the incident [of Viktor creating a device that allowed someone to “effectively control” another person]  to the college masters, and Viktor was censured for violating basic human dignity - though, in his eyes, his work would have saved many lives. He was expelled from the college, and retreated to his old laboratory in Zaun, disgusted by the narrow-minded perceptions of Piltover's inhabitants. Alone in the depths, Viktor sank into a deep depression, enduring a traumatic period of introspection for many weeks. He wrestled with the ethical dilemma he now faced, finding that, once again, human emotion and weakness had stood in his way. He had been trying to help, to enhance people beyond their natural capabilities to avoid error and save lives. Revelation came when he realized that he too had succumbed to such emotions, allowing his naive belief that good intentions could overcome ingrained prejudice to blind him to human failings. Viktor knew he could not expect others to follow where he did not go first, so, in secret, he operated on himself to remove those parts of his flesh and psyche that relied upon or were inhibited by emotion.” (New lore.)

This, when combined with how Viktor has also always been intended as a more villainous character - his visual design language, voice lines, and how he leans into the “evil Russian scientist” stereotype all confirm that - mean that from an out-of-universe standpoint, we’re meant to see his ideas as wrong and misguided. Multiple other champions have lines specifically about how he’s wrong - Ekko calls him “everything wrong with Zaun”, Camille (who is morally grey at best, and a cold-blooded killer at worst) calls his work “quaint”, implying that it doesn’t go far enough for her liking, and Heimerdinger makes the point that without humans, no one will be left to appreciate Viktor’s work. It doesn’t matter if Viktor has good intentions - the narrative tells us time and time again that his path leads to a very dark place, especially in new lore where he’s comfortable with violating free will for the sake of preventing death.

It seems obvious to me that a character who auto-amputates as a way to cope with overwhelming emotions, who decides that emotions themselves are a burden, who is repeatedly described as having an obsession with the Glorious Evolution regardless of lore, who is described as who you go to when you’re desperate in new lore... is clearly someone whose surgeries (at least of himself, where they are implied to be unnecessary - again, auto-amputation) and end goals are supposed to be read as a violation of human nature and dignity. Here we pivot to talking about trans issues in specific.

I’m of the firm belief that it’s not a good idea to associate gender-affirming surgeries, HRT, or any other thing used for transitioning with a character whose surgeries are supposed to be read as a violation of the human form. This plays directly into the anti-trans idea that transitioning is, well, a violation of the human form. It is not a good idea to write the man who cuts off his own limbs to poorly cope with his emotions as a patron of trans rights. It’s drawing a direct parallel between Viktor’s auto-amputations, which we are supposed to read as not only a very bad thing and the product of obsession, but arguably self-harm, with life-saving medical care.

(There’s also the issue that some people seem to assume that transhumanism is, in any way, inherently related to being trans - but that’s a whole other topic that I don’t feel very qualified to write on. I consider myself someone interested in transhumanist concepts, when applied appropriately (i.e. not ending up in eugenicist territory), but I am far from an expert on transhumanist thought. I think it’s enough to say that no, they’re not related. They’re just two things with the same prefix. Please don’t confuse the two.)

In my opinion, Viktor should not be seen as someone whose work is a direct benefit to trans individuals. (Again, not to say that Viktor can’t have followers who are trans. But please, please consider before making him the person that they go to for help with transitioning. The man doesn’t even have a medical degree, and his canonical work is described as being all about function over form. He’s not the surgeon you want.) I don’t think that Viktor’s gender identity, whatever it may be, should be associated with his obsession with the Glorious Evolution - or at the least, it shouldn’t be portrayed as a positive association. (In the sense of Viktor using the GE/his own surgeries as a positive affirmation of his gender... I’m struggling to precisely define this at the moment, apologies.) The GE is, textually, an unhealthy coping mechanism.

(There’s maybe something to be said for a Viktor who has disassociated himself so far from humanity that he no longer considers gender applicable to himself... but please, be careful if you write this. I’m speaking as someone who’s agender: I’m tired of my identity being used as shorthand for someone or something becoming or being nonhuman. I’m tired of people treating Blitzcrank being reskinned as a they/them pronoun user as something revolutionary, if they themselves don’t use those pronouns or aren’t nonbinary. I’m not going to pretend that I’m the arbiter of what people can and can’t write, but I’m tired of seeing myself - as an autistic and agender person - represented solely by unfeeling aliens and machines and whatever else, and being told that it’s good, actually, because any representation is good representation. I’d like for people to be more mindful in what they write and promote, but I think that this is becoming a tangent.)

I guess it comes time for me to defend my own depiction, then, since as I’ve mentioned above I do write Viktor as agender. I admit that I want to see aspects of myself in the characters that I like, but I also strive to be aware of the implications that these aspects may have. My Viktor’s gender identity has absolutely nothing to do with his idea of the Glorious Evolution - he has no dysphoria that he attempts to relieve through his surgeries, he does not see roboticization as a way to move past the gender binary... he doesn’t even realize that he’s not a cis man, because he hasn’t had the time or tools to introspect on that aspect of himself. (He’d be rather confused if you told him that people generally tend to feel as if they’re a certain gender - he’s just... himself.) I’ve written him in this way to try to make it clear that he has always felt this way about himself - that the GE has nothing to do with it - and that it has no influence on his actions as the Machine Herald.

There isn’t really a good way to wrap this up. Again, I am not saying that Viktor or his acolytes shouldn’t be written as trans, nor trying to stop people from writing that - only that their transness shouldn’t be directly associated with his idea of the Glorious Evolution. I think that we need to be mindful of what kinds of tropes that our depictions can fall into, and in this case a non-mindful depiction of Viktor as trans can seen as equating being trans to what’s easily read as self-harm/a violation of human nature. I doubt that anyone genuinely intends this association, but it can be made regardless, and so I prefer to keep the two concepts wholly separate in my depiction.

If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading. I’m willing to answer any questions that arise from this.

[evilmortys]

hi  i  think  it’s  important  to  clarify  that  i  don’t  hate  rick  entirely!  

i  enjoy  his  antics  a  lot,  i  think  he’s  very  interesting ;  the  complexity  of  his  character  isn’t  lost  on  me  just  because  i  happen  to  take  issue  with  some  of  his  behavior  and  choices  and  do  it  very  vocally---

nor  do  i  think  morty  is  a  perfect,�� infallible,  angelic  character  who’s  done  nothing  wrong  ever  in  his  life.  between  the  two  of  them,  though,  morty  is  undoubtedly  the  better  person  and  i  personally  find  his  flaws  more  endearing  because  they  are  very  human  and  understandable  beneath  the  layer  of  sci-fi,  crazy  adventure  bullshit  they’re  veneered  with.  

he  suffers  with  anxiety.  he’s  traumatized.  he’s  struggling  in  school.  he’s  crushing  on  a  girl  hopelessly  and  unable  to  take  any  real  action  upon  it  due  to  a  lack  of  confidence.  until  recently,  he  was  something  of  a  pushover.  he  struggles  making  friends.  he  has  an  unspecified  learning  disability  (morty  is  very  likely  autistic).  his  family  is  often  very  indifferent  to  the  issues  he  has  to  contend  with.  although  he  tends  to  word  things  very  bluntly  and  thoughtlessly,  in  ways  that  can  make  him  seem  childish,  he  actually  takes  the  role  of  someone  very  mature  within  the  family  dynamic.  morty  is  a  good,  flawed  person,  with  a  tendency  to  fuck  up  and  make  mistakes,  but  he’s  always  trying  at  the  very  least.

jerry  is  a  hapless  manchild,  beth  is  largely  fixated  on  herself  and  her  dynamic  with  her  father,  and  rick  is  an  irresponsible,  uncaring  dick  who  endangers  them  all  regularly  in  the  name  of  thrill  seeking  and  engages  in  an  egregious  amount  of  manipulation,  gaslighting  and  emotional  /  verbal  abuse  of  people  he  claims  to  care  about.  

morty  and  summer  have  demonstrated  far  more  emotional  maturity  over  the  course  of  the  show  than  their  parents  or  grandfather  have:  see  when  summer  called  her  dad  out  for  being  a  closeted  racist  and  general  bigot  when  jerry  almost  got  his  kids  killed  as  a  result  of  his  cowardice  when  it  came  down  to  breaking  up  with  his  alien  girlfriend,  and  when  morty  snapped  at  beth  for  making  summer  feel  badly  about  her  appearance  and  neglecting  to  emotionally  support  her  when  she  needed  to  hear  words  of  affirmation.  the  two  of  them  were  happy  to  attend  therapy  and  asked  to  go  again  after  the  one  and  only  session,  only  to  be  ignored,  and  their  feelings  in  the  matter  utterly  dismissed,  while  their  mother  dropped  them  off  at  home  without  the  slightest  acknowledgement  of  that  request  to  go  and  get  drunk  with  her  father.  craving  his  validation  like  she’s  still  a  young  girl  comes  first  and  foremost  for  her.

there’s  also  the  incident  with  pluto  to  consider.  he  put  aside  an  opportunity  to  get  an  objectively  flawless  grade,  no  sweat,  with  rick’s  help,  to  instead  preserve  his  father’s  feelings,  bond  with  him  over  a  father - son  project,  and  attempt  to  bolster  jerry’s  confidence  in  himself  and  his...  intelligence.  a  fourteen  year  old  is  able  to  pick  up  on  his  dad’s  emotional  needs,  yet  so  rarely  has  his  own  ever  acknowledged  or  consistently  supported  within  the  show.  yes,  we  occasionally  see  boundaries  being  established  for  morty  when  it  comes  to  rick  that  beth  will  enforce  for  all  of  an  episode  or  two,  but  they  rarely  seem  to  be  lasting.  their  parents  are  highly  emotionally  immature,  and  the  children  of  such  parents  often  have  to  take  on  responsible  roles  from  a  young  age.  summer  takes  a  more  rebellious,  strong  stance  on  how  she  conducts  herself,  whereas  morty  tends  to  be  more  uptight,  no  nonsense,  anxious,  and  easily  agitated  by  being  dismissed  and  brushed  off  when  he’s  trying  to  help.

the  fact  that  he  can  be  forcibly  hauled  with  rick  on  death  defying  adventure  upon  death  defying  adventure,  to  the  point  of  staying  away  days  on  end  with  little  to  no  rest  and  full  on  sobbing  and  breaking  down  after  their  more  elongated  expeditions  without  his  family  seeing  fit  to  intervene  speaks  volumes  to  me.  he  cares  about  his  family  so  much  and  yet  they  so  rarely  seem  to  reciprocate  that.  summer  and  beth  have  both  expressed  admiration  for  and  often  seek  the  admiration  of  rick,  somebody  who  is  often  not  worthy  of  being  put  on  a  pedestal  and  looked  up  to.  morty’s  said  it  best:  he’s  not  a  hero.  not  even  close.  he’s  an  abusive  dickhead  who  occasionally  pulls  his  head  out  of  his  ass  and  does  the  right  thing,  or  a  good  thing.  but  two  people  in  his  family  see  his  objectively  terrible  traits  as  positive  things  ---  and  sometimes  even  he  feels  the  need  to  suck  up  to  rick  and  have  rick  like  him.

morty  can  be  perverted,  whiny,  and  stubborn,  and  as  i’ve  said,  he  tends  to  fuck  up  and  makes  mistakes  a  lot.  his  judgement  can  be  incredibly  poor  sometimes.  but  he’s  rarely,  if  ever,  malicious  with  his  intentions.  (probably  the  worst  thing  he’s  done  morally  is  the  love  potion  thing.)  

he  places  the  value  of  other  lives  and  other  feelings  above  his  own,  always.  he’s  a  character  worthy  of  being  rooted  for,  he’s  a  character  capable  of  being  better  than  his  worst  traits,  yet  he  generally  gets  put  down  for  bitching  about  things  that  are  perfectly  understandable  for  him  to  be  upset  and  annoyed  over. 

the  same  can’t  often  be  said  for  rick.  but  since  old  man  fuckers  want  to  suck  his  cock,  he  gets  countless  free  passes  on  all  of  the  shit  he  subjects  his  family  to.  he  has  relatable  issues,  too:  his  depression,  his nihilism,  his  self-destructive  tendencies.

but  they  manifest  so  much  better  for  me  personally  in  a  character  like  morty,  who  tries  so  hard  to  be  better  without  fixating  on  how  pointless  it  might  be  and  how  replaceable  the  people  in  his  life  are.  the  universe  constantly  punishes  him  for  being  unselfish,  for  giving  a  shit,  and  yet  he  still  tries.  that  is  admirable.

rick  is  good  sometimes,  and  i  enjoy  his  character  massively  when  he’s  not  being  an  extreme  dick,  when  he’s  joking  around,  and  caring  about  others,  and  helping  out  his  family.  but  for  the  most  part,  he’s  a  piece  of  shit,  and  people  who  pretend  he’s  not  are  genuinely  aggravating.  being  the  most  intelligent  man  in  the  multiverse  isn’t  an  excuse  to  be  a  condescending  prick  to  everyone  you  stumble  upon,  to  only  help  yourself  out  at  the  best  of  times,  or  to  be  indifferent  and  inherently  abusive  toward  the  family  that  3/5  members  of  clearly  want  you  to  love  and  care  about  them  just  like  they  do  you.

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Hello! I wanted to ask about abled actors playing disabled characters. This whole s*a thing got me thinking about What’s Eating Gilbert Grape. At the time when I first watched this film, I held a lot of respect for Leonardo DiCaprio for doing so much intensive research for that role (I’m not sure if I remember correctly, but I believe he spent months with autistic teens and other disabled peoples in preparation for this role). But now that I’ve heard that every disabled character played by an abled actor is very detested among autistics, I wanted to know what people thought of this movie and how people may feel of DiCaprio’s involvement in it (as I now am aware of the fact that it has a negative impact). And thank you so much for teaching me and many other people about this!

Hello! Thank you for reaching out. I'm definitely not an expert on the subject and I can't speak for the entire disabled community, but I'll do my best to give you my thoughts.

First thing I'd like to get out of the way, I haven't seen What's Eating Gilbert Grape so I'll start with that then talk about abled actors playing disabled characters in general. (I did watch a clip from the film just to get a general idea).

The second thing I’d like to address is that not every autistic person considers autism a disability. That fits their experience. I personally consider it as such for myself due to the way it impacts my life, so for the purpose of this ask, I’ll be using ‘disabled’.  

Regarding Leo’s specific participation in the movie What’s Eating Gilbert Grape, I have seen some people talk about how they really enjoyed his performance and others disliked it. It came out over 20 years ago so I can't speak to how people felt about it at the time, or now because I don't know anyone who saw that movie. Below I go into some of the thoughts I have about representation and some of the reactions I’ve seen to abled actors playing disabled characters and I hope you’ll see how it relates to your question regarding Leo’s involvement. 

I’ll start by saying the issue with abled actors playing disabled characters is nuanced, as is most things in this question. Part of the problem is, when you cast abled actors to play disabled characters, you are taking roles away from disabled actors. Disabled actors often struggle to find work due to discrimination. Many disabled actors only get cast in projects where their disability is the main focus of their characters story, which greatly impacts the number of roles they'd be considered for. By giving abled actors roles that a disabled actor would be better suited for, you're continuing to push a whole demographic out of the industry.

This leads into another part of the problem. People will continue to make movies and tv shows about disabled people, but it’s often done without our input. Often these projects have an underlying tone of “How sad for their parents/partner/siblings/friends that their child/spouse/sibling/friend can’t be ‘normal’”, or inspiration porn, “look how they don’t ‘let their disability hold them back.’” A lot of these messages are very ableist and reinforce the idea the disabled people are a burden, or that disabled people shouldn’t ‘let their disability hold them back.’ This narrative is harmful because it puts all the responsibility onto the disabled person while assuring able-bodied people that no accommodations need to be made for disabilities. If I’m super fatigued, no amount of believing in myself will suddenly make me able to clean the house. If your venue doesn’t have a ramp or accessible  washrooms, no amount of “believing in themselves” will help someone who needs mobility aids to get inside. 

Which also means the movies made about us are not made for us, but for an abled audience. Another facet of this problem is they often don’t hire disabled folks to take part at all levels of the film-making process. Stories about disabled people are often not written, directed, produced, or filmed by disabled creators which just feeds ableist narratives of disabled folks. It also causes a problem because the characters often don’t have a personality outside of their disability. 

Another part of the problem is, why hire someone who needs to do months of research to ‘accurately portray' a disabled character when you can hire someone with the lived experience to bring to the role? Part of the argument I’ve seen against hiring disabled actors tends to boil down to the filmmakers not wanting to accommodate for a disabled creators needs. This is also relevant to every part of the creative process. A director, or producer, or writer may do a lot of research, but it doesn’t replace having disabled people with lived experience in every level of the creative process. Disabled people deserve to be able to tell their own stories and they deserve to be paid fairly for it. This is a problem in media (and most industries) for every marginalized group, and the only solution for accurate representation is actually hiring people with lived experience to tell their stories. 

Another thing I wanted to address is the fact that not every disabled person dislikes abled actors playing a disabled character. With the S*a situation, if you go to her twitter, there are autistic folks defending her and who would like to see the movie. No community is a monolith, it is made up of individuals. I don’t say this to let ableist creators off the hook. I only bring it up to emphasize that you will see some disabled folks defending ableist creators and this does not negate the fact that harm is caused. The community at large is being affected and abled people will use the minority of disabled folks that agree with them against the rest of the community. 

So yeah, those are my thoughts on that. I hope they made sense. If anyone has any thoughts on this or Gilbert Grape as a movie and would like to contribute, please do. I have ‘invisible’ conditions so my experience will be different from people who are physically disabled. As I said, its a very nuanced issue, so if I missed something or said something that doesn’t track, please feel free to let me know