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do x dc prompt #48
When Jason first found himself dead in the Infinite Realms, he was just about lost without a way to contact his family. He fell into a deep depression and only started crawling out of it when Danny took him under his wing. They found they related to each other a lot and could sympathize with being a teen hero, and soon were practically inseparable.
Then he was resurrected.
Jason was so angry and he had no idea why. Every time something reminded him of what came after death, he would fly into a blind rage because he can’t remember anything. He’s missing something essential in his memories, and he can’t admit that to his family, so he doesn’t.
The second time Jason died, it was only for a few minutes. A quick enough end after hitting the surface of the ocean and inhaling what seemed like gallons of seawater. He woke up in the zone, cradled in the grip of the man who took him in the first time, who his memory of had been blocked. They barely had time to catch up before Jason was hauled back to the land of the living. This time he didn’t forget.
The third time Jason died, They thought that was finally it. There’s not a lot of people that can come back from their upper half and lower half being separated for over an hour after all. He settled in. They watched his family, making sure they were coping alright(they weren’t, and it was so painful to watch-).
On the day of his funeral almost two months later(they wanted to wait as long as possible, he came back once after all, they needed to make sure. They wouldn’t leave him to crawl out of his own grave a second time.) The halfa king and the new(?) ghost watched. Jason committed every word of his eulogy to memory, everything his friends and family said. When the alley kids even stepped up to say their goodbyes, Danny pointedly ignored Jason’s open sobs(he never liked people seeing him vulnerable). The burning grief in his core was becoming unbearable(if he was just a little more open would his family have realized that the mission had gone sideways sooner?). Danny flinched next to him and turned toward Jason just as reality snapped and warped, dragging him back. Away from the Infinite realms(his home-) for a third time.
Dick didn’t know what to think when the motion sensors started going off right before they lowered the coffin. To say he was stunned for a moment was an understatement, He didn’t so much as twitch until a fist broke through the lid of the box.
Once is a coincidence. Twice is an anomaly. Three times is a pattern. Nobody ever told Jason how awkward it could be crashing your own funeral. He’d almost prefer digging out his grave.
Danny isn’t just going to sit quietly this time. Jason is back in the living world, completely defenseless. He needs to protect his ward.
(immortal!Danny? yes. today i present to you the first ever time i’ve seen Immortal!Jason ;).)
#danny phantom#danny fenton#crossover#dc x dp#dc universe#dp x dc crossover#dp x dc#writing prompt#writing#immortal danny#immortal jason todd#who says we can only give our boi death trauma once?#he already came back once after all :))#is he a meta? is he a half ghost? is he just plain weird? who knows. definitely not jason#danny’s on the warpath to protect his son#;)#if someone continues this please tag me#i want someone to make something out of this super long prompt
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Welcome one and all to my version of the party's loopified designs, featuring my many broken bones and blood stains I especially put into Odile who I tackled second unlike the alphabetical order that I have presented here! I'll have in-depth discussions on each designs and matching practice portraits under the cut but before that-
Siffrin 'barely taller than a preteen' no middle name no last name Loop is still barely taller than a preteen but now that preteen can claim fire to their height!
Alphabetical order GO!
Bonnie, who I've been calling Bonfire (which if that ends up being their name I can imagine Bonnie calling them 'Fire' while they call Bonnie 'Face' to match), was the last of my designs because frankly I knew from the start what their design was going to take influence from and also knew I was going to draw fire :P They were based on bonfires (of course) and also specifically the Burning Man effigies just for a humanoid figure, plus being a chef cooker and a campfire and also a very heated expressive person.
Their flames are hot but not actual wood burning so the Favour Tree (and Mirabelle in the height chart) are not at risk of combusting, they're just incredibly bright-
Isabeau my first design, with influences from @basilpaste 's Lock (with a dressform body) and @nullapophenia 's original version of Husk (the faceless identityless sketch), I have combined them both to make a mannequin it/its loopified design that finally gets to be capital T Tall all for the low low price of being Changed against its will and suffering another bout of body dysphoria that it can't fix anymore :) :) :) When I was referencing mannequins I actually noticed how long their legs actually were let alone how they were perma-stuck in that Barbie-like highheel pose and thought why don't I just curse Isa with something he previously wanted :P
Something something Isabeau actively Changed not only his body but his personality to become someone he wouldn't be ashamed of, yada yada Loopsabeau is back to hating itself and has started to become a person it despises to match (also like a mannequin it's head and arms are technically painlessly removeable :P)
Third in order and third in design is Mirabelle, who technically is the only loopified design with technically hair and clothes, but the hair are the tangled roots of the Favour Tree and the clothes are like the carved hardstone statues of religious figures :P Initially my Idea for Mirabelle was to make her kinda like her statue, with the wonky expression of someone who made it without much mastery over details, not to pit anything against Mira, no, no. Thought about maybe abstract statue design but I couldn't find a version I liked but I did always imagine her statue being weathered in some way, there was a reason why I saved her for third I couldn't pick what I wanted. But then I remembered the broken Change God statues, thought about the 'blessing' that ended up being a curse, and then thought about overgrown weathering and gave her the roots.
I actually looked up Black hairstyles and mostly wondered what specific hair texture Mirabelle had (she wears it in a fro of course, but she has flyaways that aren't coils, but she described her own hair as kinky and :P) so that if I were to mimic hair with tree roots I can get an appropriate matching hairstyle (settled on megatwists). Hah, if Mira has 4C hair, considering how long her hair actually looks, if she to wear her hair in twists she might actually have elbow length hair :P
I spent 8 non-consecutive hours on Odile can you tell? Can you see my hands bleeding my wrist breaking my eyes drooping? Yeah so Odile was again, my second design and it took me a week to recover, and she's a combination of gem and mirror suit with all the little fragments floating around her the 'diamonds' that represent all her family members party plus the ones she originally had in sets of 2. I also put geodes where parts of her body have broken off (inspired by how when the King strikes she can't move, plus also being a glass canon) where when I was actually drawing those geodes that they kinda use the Change symbol?
Circle within a circle within a circle, regardless of how wiggly it is, and at the centre is a cluster of crystals. That was an accidental reference to Odile's mixed heritage but hoo boy what a connection! Her missing pieces are a combination of 'being too old for this' fragility and also 'i didn't want to render more mirrors sue me'
Anyway I am going to put my wrist in a cast and imagine loopified party members with their pre-wish counterparts :P
#bonnie#bonnie isat#isabeau#isabeau isat#mirabelle#mirabelle chevalier#mirabelle isat#odile#odile isat#loop#loop isat#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#fanart#i saw someone mention in the tags of my previous isat post talking about the mirabelle chevalier tag#as soon as my grubby little broken mitts grab hold of either a physical or digital copy of the isat artbook#which as has been said by insertdisc5 include the last names of the characters (at least the ones that remember them)#i will not only continue using chevalier but also everyone else's last names in tags#replacing... one of the other character tags#a lot of my thoughts on the designs have been already said#but me and the same isat friends have some thoughts on how the loopified versions interact with their old selves#mirabelle is the nicest but may snap every so often in a 'arent you tired of being kind dont you want to go apeshit' kinda way#isabeau is a bitter jealous asshole who's regressed to being unkind thanks to not having the body it worked so hard to make once#odile is a little cold when talking to herself since pleasantries take too much time plus her 'i will do awful things [for da fam]' ways#and bonnie is bonnie so they're angry and pissed and sad they won't see their nille again but also they and bonnie are friends in the loop#speaking as someone who at bonnie's age didn't really have friends um whether or not i'm projecting i think fire and face can be besties#please enjoy these designs my kitten scratched me so hard i needed a bandaid for the price of angst and i think that's fitting#do i have an attached au to these designs? no. do i want one? maybe maybe i guess there's only so many ways to have an [x] loops au
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#woy#wandering eye#starry eyed#wander over yonder#my art#this is not my best page but i still liked it and had fun with it. so thats okay :]#soon hopefully ill continue doing the open arms animatic/story board i was working on with them#the blue and orange i used are a lot darker than i thought they were going to be but oh well#if theres any active woy discord servers btw someone please let me know. there aint no way im putting that in a reg post so its in my tags#its almost 6am i need to pass OUT
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SL got his nickname from Blendy because she's stupid and dumb, and she can't remember if his name is actually Streetlamp or Streetlight (she does now, but it took her a WHILE)
And it kinda stuck, doesn't really help that Blendy's the one who introduces him to others. So most people know him as SL
#pink draws#pinks ocs#object oc#oc blendy#oc sl#<-- someone please remind me to. finally clean up my object oc tags#also yes sl let her copy his work. this would continue until they graduate high school
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Kim what you doin if I give you a hamster.. will he die in a peculiar way or will you sell him for fast cash. This is Frank by the way
I would immediately hand him back to you. Like this.
Why are you people trying to dump your pets on me today? Did I miss a memo or something? Is it "Bring your Pets to Pine" day? Is there some optional quest I missed the bulletin for?
I mean, it's only two of you so far, but it's weird that it's happened twice.
... Wait. Three times. But the other time wasn't today, so I guess it doesn't count...
Also why the hell would I sell Frank?! Or let him die. I'm not super big on pets or anything, but I wouldn't just- let one die. That would be fucked up.
#(ooc: sorry for the delay... as you may have seen/may see after this. someone dropped off a gecko on kim. so i knew i wanted to answer them+#+around the same time if possible. also I almost expected her to receive another animal randomly- to which I told someone I might scrap +#+these and just draw a ''petting zoo'' in Kim's room w all her little guys)#((ooc: she likes frank btw. she's not gonna vocalize that but that's why she actually says his name agfkshsjfh))#pine.txt#cr4shqueen#asks#rp#kim pine#sp comic#spvtwtg#spto#spvtw#art#fanart#scott pilgrim fanart#hamster#you know what. honorary frank tag#frank#ooc: anyway yeah lines are a little blurry here. i would fix it but. hamster is the focus is what I'm telling myself to cope#not in standard continuity#(ooc: if the freckles are a different color from the last one please ignore it for the sake of my sanity. it looks off to me but i cant +#+ figure out what's up with it if it is)
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Are you normal or are you crying at like 11 pm thinking about how little affection Gladion has from other human beings in his life?
Like the Lusamine issue is the biggest one. But his dad got sucked into a wormhole and then noped off to Poke Pelago (and in USUM, Lusamine decides not to tell him about his family). Team Skull treats him like fucking dirt, and in the end, they're an extension of Lusamine. Lillie and Wicke are nice to everyone, but they never show Gladion as much attention as they do Lusamine, or even the player.
The anime did address the Mohn issue better than the games. But it made the mistake of neutering Lusamine's villainy. So the happy family seems...hollow to me. The Gladion in this particular image just doesn't feel like him.
As I wrote this rant- which is a long time coming and I'm sorry- I realized it's empty because the writers are determined to "redeem" Lusamine, and in doing so require every other character to forgive her. But (game continuity) Gladion has no reason to do so. Not after what she did to his sister, or Silvally.
Not after what she did to him.
I feel like Gladion's departure in USUM should have been permanent. He needs a support system outside the Aether Foundation- wherever he has to go to find it. He has his Pokemon (many of which are friendship evolutions, so there's no doubt there's affection from them). But he needs a person to talk to. He needs to cope with what happened to him and his family. He needs and deserves friends and a healthy life.
Lillie chose to forgive Lusamine and the Aether Foundation. Gladion does not have to forgive. It's not in his character. Moreover, it's not a fucking requirement. There should be zero pressure on him to have anything to do with Lusamine, Team Skull, or the Aether Foundation. "But who will run the Aether Foundation in Sun and Mo-" nobody. Let it crumble. It was a sham the moment Lusamine and Nihilego met.
Gladion should be allowed to walk away and find happiness elsewhere. The Pokemon World is big. Countless regions exist, and more are being discovered. They're full of people. He doesn't have to suffer alone.
I didn't mean to turn this into an essay. But I have so many Thoughts about him...
#pokemon#gladion#emo prince#pokemon sun and moon#i am So Normal#get this boy some therapy#tw abuse#basically talking about the abuse in-game#but there's talk in here of whether or not to forgive abusers#can someone transmit this post to alola please let him read it#i think I'm also doing personal trauma dumping i am so sorry#vent#rant#most of this is game continuity#tw neglect#thank you person who reblogged this for informing me about that tw#gladion pain tag
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#i feel so helpless when i see people being so down on themselves#the community is definitely smaller now and i get why but for those that remain and continue to create#to think that it’s something they’re doing wrong - IT ABSOLUTELY ISN���T#and i wish i could do something to make everyone believe that#i wanna hug everyone and tell them how bright they still make this community - or what remains of it - still so cosy and lovely#whether it’s someone i don’t know in the tag or one of my friends it stings still#this community has some of the most exceptional talent i’ve ever seen -#talent in every form - and as someone that has gone through many fandoms and hate at their creations i tend to not look at numbers anymore#but i get it why people do - i get it SO MUCH#to not get the recognition - it hurts. i get it!#but i’ve learned over time that there are COUNTLESS ‘ghost readers’ or ‘ghost viewers’ that see and appreciate your work but just don’t-#interact with it - i was one of those people up until january this year!#my ao3 was already flooded with qsmp fics before i made this blog and i didn’t have the fitpacs account yet so didn’t leave kudos or anyth#but my point is - i get entirely why it’s easy to get wrapped up#i’ve been there but honestly - you are so appreciated#and i know me saying this makes no difference and i don’t expect to#but i love and appreciate this community with my whole heart#and whether you are someone i speak to a lot or we’ve never spoken at all - thank you for your beautiful creations#it’s a real shame how things went down behind the scenes obviously#but it’s so beautiful that so many people still have such passion to create#and if there is ANYTHING i can do to help build peoples spirits with regards to this please let me know#this community has done so much for me (more than you know) and i really want to give#something back
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Imagine being in a secret relationship with Kazuha. You were born in a noble family and because of that you had to follow every rules and custom. Always obeying everyone because you thought that was the right thing to do. One day you met a certain red-eyed boy and instantly fell in love. Why wouldn't you? The way he softly smiled and the way he talked made you feel all fuzzy inside. But you knew this feelings would be crushed due to how your family was. They already had a groom decided for you. Tho that didn't stop you from befriending Kazuha (it was him who asked to be your friend). You two would meet eachother every few days and this made you fall even more. One day Kazuha called you to a specific place. He said he wanted to have a picnic and you agreed, only because you get to spend more time with him. You didn't know how but by the time of departure both of your lips were already connected.
#someone continue this#my english is shit#so if someone wants to make a fic like this please tag me#genshin#genshin x reader#kazuha x reader#genshin kazuha#kazuha x you#genshin imagines
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Having of those moments where I wish to yeet the like button into the sun or maybe make it so there was setting you could turn on so that people can only reblog posts (even better with the minimum requirement of adding at least one tag)!!
It's kind of absurd that one of my fics is getting close to 500 notes while simultaneously being one I've had the least actual human interactions come from. Like...... come on, that's now how it should be AT ALL!
Don't get me wrong, I'm so thrilled people are clearly finding it and I guess enjoying it(??) but just having endless likes without people letting me know what they enjoyed about it or even if they liked it kind of makes me sad. That's not why I want to share my writing here!
I love having those little human connections with others. I don't ever want my writing to feel transactional. I would love to talk to more people about things I've written. It's truly one of the best feelings and I would hate to lose that, the more I write or the more notes my fics get. Please don't be shy!! I get the social anxiety, but there is no reason to be. I am truly just a Din Djarin obsessed loser.
Anyway, whine over. I don't want to focus on the negatives here and I appreciate every single person who has ever left a positive interaction with something I've written. You are truly a light!
#i don't JUST like posts too often#really the only posts i dont reblog but like are to save for later or if it's too personal/explicit#or i guess i have nothing to add and OP has said it all yknow#but if i see some writing or art i love then hell yeah i always force myself to add at least one tag i like just so the artist/author sees#otherwise it feels like a hollow transaction and i really want people to know i appreciate their art more than just pressing a button yknow#and I KNOW it's intimidating at first to interact with others!! TRUST ME i get it and i'm still awful at it#but just one little comment can make someone feel so good about their writing... why wouldn't someone want to try that at least#especially if you enjoyed it!!! even a key smash or a string of emojis!!!#and the death of the tumblr tag is SO SAD because where else am i meant to talk to you lot?#i mean these tags are longer than my actual post and that's the beauty of tumblr#you don't have to perceive me down here but you can if you wish and i love you for that!#and it's a nice way to organise your blog to make it navigable for others#ANYWAY said i was done whining and continued whining down here so there's that LOL but i always want to interact with more people#please do not be afraid of reaching out to me! scroll through my blog for 5 seconds and you'll see what a nerdy loser i am#akdjgds i mean aren't we all here#spud rants#writing#but thanks again to anyone who leaves nice comments im giving you a (consensual) forehead smooch MWAH
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I have spent far too long crying over chemistry in the past week. It’s actually not even funny anymore 💀💀💀
#I have my exam tomorrow and I’m gonna shit myself actually#I’m a humanities student will someone please tell me why I took this godforesaken course#what is my personal use tag#AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH /neg#hi ash hru pookie bear also why are u awake#go to bed#I’m having a continuous anxiety attack and am doing practise questions so I have an excuse#stop being gay and go to sleep#ily really ofc
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#long tag rant: open at yr own risk#turns out that a chivalric nature is not a function of vows of celibacy but rather the inverse;#vows of celibacy are a function of a chivalric nature#the noblest thing I could do for my beloved is never tell them or court them or wed them#thus saving them from having my mother for a mother-in-law!! because WOW!!!!!#just had an argument over not my actions but apparently what she thinks my thoughts are#my thoughts??? in my private head??? surely u JEST 🃏#madam I will change my actions if they bother anyone or even my speech. but not my thoughts!!#or what u THINK my thoughts are anyway. incorrectly. jfc#& even if I did...like how am I meant to prove I did. THEY'RE THOUGHTS#'is the problem that I'm not cleaning...enough? well enough? fast enough?' 'no the problem is yr mindset' I- ????¿¿#what pray tell do u think my mindset is#do u actually want me to 'change' it or do u just want someone to yell at bc ur stressed mayhaps#'I'm taking care of everything I'm not expecting u to pick up any slack-' 'I AM AT A LOSS FOR WORDS'#(despite being at a loss for words‚ she continued to yell at me for the next 10 minutes)#rattling the bars of my dungeon HOUSING CRISIS. CRASH PLEASE. MARKET CRASH WHEN. I NEED TO GET OUT#the median property cost in my state is $1.1 million. it would be easier to slay a dragon#either I move to another country or wait until I'm 60 to start considering relationships. bc I'm not dragging anyone I love into that ☝️#the scene where Darcy tells Lizzie he's into her but her mother is too embarrassing is what I'm anticipating. btw#she is my most relatable Austen heroine 80% for that reason#I anticipate the next 72 hours sucking bc god forbid I ever have anyone over without being yelled at before AND after#this would all be so much easier if I had a sword & a horse. two very visible threats of fight & flight#vignettes de ma vie
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Welcome to my first post.
My name is Davey Wreden and I typically use Cakebread as my nickname. However, someone had already taken that username, so I had to improvise.
I hope to get more feedback on one of my games, The Beginner's Guide. In short - it's an antology of my friend's games. Coda hasn't created a single game since 2011 and I do hope to still bring him back to the game devs work. I myself have published a game and received overwhelmingly positive responses but I'm not here for myself.
I'm doing this for him.
What brought me to this platform is a good feedback system. I've been on Twitter and Facebook for a whole but none of them has the anonymous ask feature this platform does. And while I do think scrapping someone's identity from their own words seems a bit counter productive, in some cases, that can bring the needed courage to say your thoughts. That's why we use usernames instead of our real names on the internet, anyways.
I also like the reblogging feature. It seems way better than having a work be reposted - since the original creators lose feedback this way.
That's why I'd like you to use the ask feature if you have any thoughts you feel are worth sharing about the game. Please, if you write your own reviews of this game, do tag me so I can tell you my insights.
Cakebread, out.
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Breaking off the character for a moment, welcome! I'm shina and I'm the maker of this Fan Blog. I thought it would be silly to try to rp as Davey the character! Please do remember that this is me playing as DAVEY THE TBG CHARACTER, NOT THE ACTUAL DAVEY WREDEN. May that man never witness this and think I'm impersonating him 😭 hope someone will enjoy this!
#The beginner's guide#The beginners guide#Davey's Blog post#TBG#I see that used as an acronym for the title? It does remind me of 'to be continued'... More like 'to be genuised'#I'm sorry. I was thinking about the joke for a long time and it was the best I could think of. I did hear that tags on this website sometim#Oh I got over the word count. What I meant to say is that tags in here seem to be as important as the post itself. I've never seen sth like#-this before. Though these symbol counts do remind me of Twitter. I don't like that platform. People shouldn't have word limits.#Am I using Tumblr correctly?#Please#Oh. There are no commas. I see.#Well - I will figure this out eventually. Please leave and comment and subscribe if you enjoyed this!#(shina: im crying while writing this I hope someone will like this Blog sjshsuus)#Cakebread out!
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How do people get attached to the stories they create I abandon mine after like a few months at best genuinely curious I need to stop doing that if I wanna make anything my own
#what tags do I even put for this?? Oh well I'll just say writing words and hope they reach some sort of people#story writing#worldbuilding#story telling#fiction writing#story making#making stories is so fun until the dopamine ends and you don't care anymore#someone please help I can't go on like this </3#writing#DOes that even belong here#I dunno man again just sticking shit and hoping someone sees it#writers questions#trying to continue stories after the dopamine ends makes me wanna rip my hair out LEAVE ME ALONE#I FEEL LIKE A CLOWN MAKING STORIES HELP ME GOD#AAAAAUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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my problem is that while I know with hate comments you’re supposed to just delete and ignore it’s satisfying to me to reply with a sincere “hey, this really hurt my feelings, please be kinder in the future” type message because like 70% of the time the person ends up either apologizing or taking it back or deleting their comment. Like yes please let this be a learning opportunity and remember there are other people on the other side of the screen !!
#bark bark#I got someone on one of my tiktoks tagging a friend to come make fun of me for my weight#and it embarrassed me a lot so I replied and said hey what you’re doing now is cruel and is hurting me#you’re probably a kind person irl so please be kinder to others in the future#and they were like oh shit I feel bad now I’m so sorry#there were several others and once I replied they all either deleted their comments or apologized#except for one guy who I blocked bc they insisted on continuing to be mean#LIKE I know I shouldn’t be engaging really it just makes it feel better when they say sorry
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oh buddy i am currently having a Moment because what do you Mean i see fall out boy again in ten days .... ten days ,,,, we are almost into single digits oh this has crept up on me SO soon
#also some folks talked to pete & patrick last night after the show it seems so ??? i may hang around after in hopes of that?#oh i am Plotting dude#i also still have so much stuff 2 make i haven't even started bracelets#also may do stickers again since they were a hit during tourdust and that was fun#i am so excited to meet up with new folks 2 trade etc i had so much fun with the community last year at my shows!!#also saw someone post about dancing in the back of the floor at their show like behind the seats and this had me Thinking...#perhaps my 2023 days of pitting to calm before the storm can continue after all#albany folks please come two step with me (unironically)#but dude i am so so stoked on this show#everything about it#i love albany and i'm staying overnight w my cousin i'm so excited 2 make a trip out of this#also stoked 2 see jimmy again since i was so far back for their set @ adjacent last year#also still not entirely giving up on msg and or pittsburgh#if i miraculously come across a close floor ticket for one of those for an incredibly reasonable price oh i am there babey#fobposting#fob posting#i cannot remember which of these is my fob tag#wavernot4love gets 2 the gig
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Were you the person cosplaying as a transwoman when you are AFAB? Because that's just sick af. I've seen post circulate around you - I just came here because I recently followed you ... and .. now .. Idk ..
I used to used to refrain from confirming my gender with anybody, due to how uncomfortable I was about my gender being a talking point online. I have always struggled with my gender identity. The idea of people focusing more on what's under my clothes instead of the content of my character really bothered me. I believed that since people often call out racism without people assuming they belong to the group they're advocating for, that I could do the same for transphobia. Oppression is not comparable, however, and I realized that this did not work for these discussions. If I am to effectively advocate against terfs and for trans people, I then need to use my privilege as being cis passing in discussions. I don't really love people online knowing my gender, because I dont really know my gender either. But this feeling is the exact same thing trans women constantly go through: the feeling that their gender is constantly subjected to ridicule by any random you encounter, both online and IRL.
I have never said that I was a trans women, merely deflected whenever someone asked me about it. In retrospect, it was a selfish thing to do that I definitely regret. I started this blog as a teenager and it's aged with me to mid twenties. If I could, I would go back and re-do some interactions. The mistakes have been uncomfortable but necessary learning lessons for me. I learned I can not effectively advocate if I keep my gender a secret, because it means I refuse to do the same thing that trans people are expected to do.
I wish I could go back and state what my gender was when it mattered. I didnt know entirely how to classify myself, however, so I redirected any attempts to talk about my gender identity because I myself didnt want to think about it. I dont feel cis, but I also dont feel trans, so how can I tell someone what my identity is if I dont know it myself? However, since my gender identity will never be a trans woman, it wont hurt me to confirm with people as much.
I came to the conclusion that I can not have both my ambiguous gender identity and be a terfexclusionist. I chose to sacrifice the comfort of my ambiguous gender identity, in solidarity with trans people who are expected to disclose. Unfortunately, the world we live in is that we are representatives for our gender (which I think is bs). We all deserve to live as individuals and not spend our short lives worrying about how our life will influence the collective's public perception on others who share a gender identity. Unfortunately, this not how the world operates, especially not online as it pertains to trans people. You speak for members of your gender identity when you're anything other than cis, heterosexual, and endosex. Instead of selfishly denying the reality that trans people are forced to be model minorities, I instead adapted my advocacy to better fit this unfair aspect of life. If trans people are forced to cater to cis people's comforts for their safety, it should be up to cis passing people to (safely) show to cisendosex people that it's not just trans people who care about this. This is obviously a fine line, as you dont want to advocate in a way that might cause more violence than it helps. I'm still figuring out the best way to do that. I make mistakes, unfortunately I am not perfect nor will I ever be. But the mistakes help me learn who I want to be, and not starting this blog with everyone knowing my gender was one of those mistakes.
You're right, cosplaying as trans women is disgusting, I've seen it both IRL and online. It pushes trans people out of spaces designed for them, and that's something I would never want to do. However, my refusal to confirm my identity should not mean people just assume I'm a trans woman. I do not believe trans people should exclusively be expected to call out terfs. It means that cisendo people are not doing their jobs as allies to use their priviledge to call out bigotry.
I never started this blog thinking anyone would actually follow me or even have opinions about me. I definitely did not think "terfexclusionist" or "transinclusionary" would be followed by anyone other than my best friend. This blog initially started because of my (admittedly) unhealthy anger about the absolute refusal of terfs to admit that they are doing is wrong. To this day, the rhetoric that terfs spew almost brings me to tears of frustration. The LGB community makes me want to pull out my hair and scream. This is why I often take extended breaks from this blog. I still probably can develop a healthier way to cope with the anger. I want to do something to help this epidemic, but I'm just one person. I just want to do the right thing, but it is often unclear about what is the right thing to do. This is why I appreciate having my followers give me feedback, both positive and negative, as it allows me to introspect.
If you want to remain followed, that's fine, but do not feel pressured to. Life is way too short to continue following someone you dont feel comfortable with. I am always open to any suggestions, criticisms, and concerns by both anon and DM. This goes for both you, anon, and any other of my followers. Please never hesitate to reach out. I appreciate you (and all my follower) for caring about doing the right thing and keeping me on the straight and narrow. Have a good day.
#also jsyk im not at all comfortable with being referred to as AFAB#im absolutely certain you were wanting to be as inclusive with your language but i dont like being called that#especially when someone is criticizing me#to me it is just a nicer way of saying 'you have a vagina' which makes me want to retreat into a hole and die#it's the same as AMAB#please use these terms sparingly#and not at all when you're referring to me#i have a similar relationship with poc where i think it's a nicer way of saying 'colored person' since im descendant of american slaves#i should definitely put it somewhere visible on my blog to please refrain from AMAB AFAB and POC when talking to me#people have been very understanding to me about me accidentally forgetting to tag q slur reclaimed and i really want to continue that#not mad at all!#this is jsyk#ask answered#radfem mention#terf mention#radfem tw#terf tw#cissexism tw#cissexism mention#q slur mention#transmisogyny mention#transmisogyny tw#transphobia tw#transphobia mention#this post literally took an hour and a half to type because my phone died half way through and i had to retype#🥴
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