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My entire fucking team + backup members all died during the Nuwa bossfight. We didnt even put a dent in her. I was the only one left.
And then. somehow. I was doing way better after that. In fact, I won.
She missed me 9 outta 10 times because I block wind and have high agility. When she does hit me its a weak phys attack so i survive. I throw fire gems at her so i get another turn. My magatsuhi goes up because ive hit her weakness. I heal my hp and mp w items and blast her with aramasa with crit maga activated. That was the accidental strat. and it worked.
#tedpost#tedtalks#i debated on restarting when everyone died but holy shit. im so glad i didnt.#i wouldve ran out of items if the fight lasted any longer though#she stopped using mazio for some reason and im glad she did. saved me a lot of trouble#not that i was weak to it but i wasnt resistant either#oh my god. did she stop using it because it was a multiple target attack? and there where no others...?#if so then im glad i was alone
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One wedding and three funerals
Background paintings under the cut
#tomgreg#succession#tom wambsgans#greg hirsch#shiv roy#roman roy#kendall roy#yeah no im not tagging everyone thats too much#this is me going 'how much implications themes and symbolism can i fit in one painting'#yes i gave rose shivs haircolor. if we ever find out how she looks like and its not like this im just gonna pass away i guess#but yeah i hope yall connect the dots#i put waaay too much thought and work into this. i was googling pictures of all the actors as kids just for reference (sigh)#honestly kinda wanted to make tom and greg link pinkies as like. a pinkie promise. but that was too hard to draw in this angle#at least not without obstructing the view of the ring which is important to see so ya#my fave is actually the tomshiv wedding pic i went off with that. i love them... they should have run away to become sheep farmers fr fr#anyway im so glad im done with this UGH!! finally i can draw smth else without being like oh noooo i need to finish this#i see a lot of you wondering why there is no portrait of logan but one of ewan#it's bc the placement of the painting represent their standing. logans portray would not hang next to the stairs#his present portrait hangs at the end of it. all the way up at the top. alone and withering away#basically the picture you see underneath ewan to the right? its where toms parents would be. the right side of the wall is tom and gregs#and the left one is the roy siblings theirs. since they grew up rich rich. and tom and greg didn't#but ya thats why ewan hangs here and logan does not :)
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[Abandoned by the Lightners, his heart became cracked with hatred.]
Hitting a lil' too close to home?
#junie art post#ink sans#error sans#utmv#errorink#implied. but yea not the focus#this has been turning around in my mind for quite some time. im glad to finish it lmao idk if my ramblings make sense even.#so like listen. do you ever think about how similar the function of the utmv is to the dark worlds in deltarune.#in a meta narrative to fandom sense? idk the word#we are making exaggerated expanded worlds of the ordinary tools and entertainment of the real world and make it into something more#isnt that very very interesting?#and we explore every sort of possibility in that creation. both good and bad#and when all is said and done. every possibility found and the entertainment and secrets has all run out#we put it away. abandon and leave it behind#what is left? what happens to the world and characters we have created? can it sustain without us?#what of the ones left in the dark?#idk if yall saw me a few months ago but i reblogged comyet's old post of ink begging us not to leave him alone and to keep creating#yea that never left me#and seeing exactly THAT SCENARIO in deltarune made my brain iTCH#imagine an ink in King's position.... wait isnt that just underverse#mmmmmmm. darkner ink.....#also error is here too. not just for errorink or that i can't separate these two to save my life#but error is also one of the few people to be able to GET IT?? he can hear the creators too. ink cant#but hes pretty much programmed himself to avoid having a mental break down to this via reboot memory loss.#and ink has his own internal coping mechanism (hooray for short term memory loss)#these two idiots will do anything but confront truths lmfao#ahhh my favorite idiots. never change#mmmmm#deltarune
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Suspirium - Thom York
#this is my very favorite song and i think ive been wanting to make this for abt a year#when i was at my most compulsivly unwell i would be focusing so hard and sleeping so little that i would feel physically sick#like the world was tilting around me and i would think: all is well as long as i keep spinning#bc i would stop moving and suddenly id be in pieces on the floor. but now i think my favorite lines are: when i arrive will u come and find#me? or in a croud be one of them? bc its such a profoundly lonely idea. i dont believe in a life after death. i think when ur gone ur gone#your brain stops and the thing that made you you is gone forever. but if i imagined an afterlife image getting off a train onto a crowded#platform and searching for my mom through all the chaos. when i arrive will u come and find me? would our connect extend past a lifetime?#or would u be in a crowed one of them? would i stand alone in a sea of people waiting for someone who was never coming?#its a very upsetting thought#im glad i waited to make this bc i feel the song more deeply after the death of my mom. it feels more sad and more ethereal.#there r like 2 different versions of the lyrics bc thom york is so fucking hard to understand#so i use the version i like better#original art
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Snap: *draws a Megaman-inspired Magneto*
Me: ...Perfect modernization.
wait now that its not 3AM i can do you one Slightly better
bonus:
#xmen#xmen comics#magneto#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#max eisenhardt#snap sketches#this is legitimately the most self indulgent thing ever ive been wanting to draw magneto like a robot master for months vjAELKJAE#i thought about adding the little 'ears' robot masters/reploids have but not this time#whats funny is that during my initial redesigning i WANTED to pay homage to erik's trench coat look buuuutt i couldnt figure how#so thank you sigma for. letting me steal your shit vjELKAEJ#i havent drawn megaman characters in like. years good lord- whats funny is that magnetman Was one of my faves to draw#which doesnt mean much since i loved drawing pretty much all the robot masters equally LMAOOO#i remember some freak got pressed at me for doodling metalman during class once like dawg what is your problem#bruv leave me ALONE let me draw you are not my mom#anyway. as i said last night i dont have my usual evening class so i figured id fill the time doodlin these#they didnt take long- i think thats why i like drawing This magneto outfit so much#reminds me of my megaman doodlin days ... also it's genuinely just quick as hell WHICH. makes sense#all that done im done megaman-inspired posting thank you for the opportunity anon im glad you appreciated it :]]#im gonna go eat now my tummy rumblin. theeeeeeen i guess ill drive home ???? i guess.#it's almost saturday so that means i get to post more asks- ive been hoarding them throughout the week#so i apologize if some people have been waitin i PROMISE i havent been ignoring i just wanna draw somethin for it </3#ok im eating now BYYYYYYEEE
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mini etho-related doodles for the final chapter of You Could've Applied Online that dropped today (good ending: REAL, FREE at shade-e-es glass factory emporium) (+unreal boatboys final goodbye sequence)... gonna miss it ;w;
this one courtesy quote by chloe
and unrelated DO2 etho doodle frum yesterday (idk what to do with this atm)
#stufffsart#ycao au#bdoubleo100#bdubs#ethoslab#etho#ethubs#smallishbeans#boatboys#hermitcraft#hermitblr#mcytblr#pretty chill chapter and ending its nice :]#everything about ycao boatboys down to its ending hurt me hurts me and its awesome#the fact that its generally unresolved unspoken feels fitting for them#did NOT expect them to reanimate joel tho more than anything im just glad he finally came home to lizzieee 'are you alone?' my hearttttt#i wanted to draw smth nice for the ethubs ending at shade-e-es with more details when my schedule is a bit kinder to me i shall#and bdubs finally got that boy's NUMBER im so proud of him whwwhwh >w<#these wont be the last i draw of YCAO just bc it over dw
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eating out by yourself is so much fun after the initial anxiety
#i love how u can actually talk to ur server whereas when ur with someone u only rly communicate abt what ur ordering / the bill#at the thai place rn n its quiet and warm and my soup was soo good and the servers rly nice and i feel so :)#also#its always scary but im glad its more common for people to eat out alone more now#im feeling less anxious the more i do it#diary#tiyas thoughts
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Arcane fans need to have the term "media literacy" taken away because I swear they treat every criticism of the show as somehow an intelectual failing on the poster's part. Most people i've seen criticizing Arcane s2 did in fact understand it. They just thought it sucked for valid reasons.
#arcane critical#arcane was such an important show to me. and it sucked seeing season 2 end up as this#it is so tiring seeing people assume i did not understand the themes and characters in this season. when i did. and they sucked!#and it sucks even more because i loved this show with all my heart#scrolling through the arcane critical tag has been such a relief. im glad to learn im not alone in this.#sorry for rambling here and in the actual post#ive been constantly thinking about this since i finished watching
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"So the Cup party—you know, we with some of the other boys were waiting at Elbo Room for you guys like a bunch of fuckin' plugs! But you go to Chucky's house after—I mean, I know you guys stayed in the locker room for hours, until like 3AM and then you go to Chucky's house. Obviously, there was the amazing stuff on the beach, all around town, Elbo [Room] the next day. That night just being with the boys, being with the families in the locker room, at Chucky's—how special was that?" "Yeah, you know what it was... I think they said—the one day we went back to the rink—I think we had to sign—our owners had to sign every champagne bottle and I think they said there was over 160 champagne bottles? That were—and like obviously not—" "Like empties you mean? Yeah, just like—" "Empties! Like just spraying everywhere! I think you could—like, I had my gear on till about 3:30/4AM. I didn't get home till about 5:30 and guys were still there! You guys probably saw that pic of Carter sleeping on the lawn? Like, I think he might've been one of the last ones there."
Empty Netters | 8.26.24 (x)
and if youre wondering about said lawn pics montys talking about swaggy drunk off his ass plopping down on the grassy area in front of amerant bank arena in the parking lot waiting for his uber 😭😭😭
and he looked so downright pitiful that someone went up to him and gave him a chair to sit on instead and everything about his dazed smile once he recognises the thing in front of him being a chair speaks enough volumes about how absolutely gone he was
#brandon montour#carter verhaeghe#florida panthers#he also immediately went to pee in one of the bushes in the parking lot#so theres that as well#drunk swaggy is a menace#and i am so glad two people tagged along and made sure he was okay as they waited for his ride#but also the juxtaposition of lombo walking out the garage just fine versus swaggy so dazed and who once he makes it to the grass plops dow#tbf from the arena to the main road is so long for no damn reason you have to fucking trek through the jungle just to find civilisation#if i was drunk while i had to do that? id sit too. and also burst into tears.#to the person who offered him a chair you are his angel#but his sweet smile at it fucking geeks me so bad#im glad monty brought it up because i sure as hell wasnt but i see its prime chirp material for the boys lmao#i think anything swaggy has done post cup is prime chirp material#swaggy. boy born in a wet cardboard box all alone.#HE LOOKS SO PITIFUL PLEASE
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I love being queer and I love being a mormon, but there are times when I'm just so tired.
#im really glad i found queerstake because i definitely would have left the church by now if not#i can't believe i went that long without any kind of community#i just guessed that there were other people like me because i couldn't possibly be the only one#but i hadnt met anyone yet who was queer a member and was planning to stay and i just felt so alone in this#i was actually on the verge of leaving and giving up when i stumbled across a post#i dont even know how it could have possibly crossed my path it was so random i really think god put it there because there is no way#especially in the moment i needed it that badly#it was just a part of a liveblog from a general conference that was especially rough on me and i saw the queerstake tag#because like. i dont want to leave. why should i have to i like it here i dont want to leave just because people dont want me here#and i just really want to be there and hopefully be fully out one day so that queer kids in the church can see me and know they aren't alon#but there are times when im just so bleh and tired and sad#vent#tw vent#queerstake
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I’ve been literally reeling cause wdym I predicted this yesterday in my drafts????
#IM AMAZED#edit: and I’m glad it lasted for a short time I don’t think anybody would’ve wanted it to be long term#not right now#the funnies of cucuruchito turning real was too good to not share this draft though#but I still do hope that if everything gets worked out in the future the situation is good and if bad chooses to stay with the project#even if previous admins don’t return he would get a companion of some kind#it would be so hard to be alone#does give me comfort knowing richas wouldn’t allow that though in the case ricardão stays (which it seems like he is)#qsmp#qsmp badboyhalo
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hello boys that were in the mind prison and came back appreciating their friends and family more
#mp100#adventure time#mob psycho 100#finn mertens#shigeo kageyama#monz speech#hey. reminder.#finn was in there for FOUR YEARS.#he was alone in the woods and blind for FOUR YEARS.#mob was in there for 6 months#which is still PRETTY BAD#especially when you consider he was bullied physically and verbally like every day#and in the end they both came out of it like 'dang im so glad i have a caring family im gonna hang out with my brother when i get home'
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LOST: Season One
#lost#abc lost#lost one cap per ep#this was a project i was gonna do anyways but the timing worked out that i could post the first one on the 20th anniversary!#this is one cap per ep every season. from left to right. and this is important: its not a cap that sums up each ep#its a cap that REPRESENTS each ep. the way i choose them varies every episode#sometimes its an utterly iconic moment. sometimes it reps the theme of the ep. or it hits with a theme of the character themselves#sometimes the cap i use won't even involve the character whose centric episode it is. trust me. this makes sense#anyways i'll give a good example: for outlaws i was so tempted to use a shot of the judgemental soulful gaze of the boar#or perhaps sawyer in the rain after he shot that man#but! i used that shot of sawyer's dads legs as sawyer is hiding under the bed. i feel it worthy because this moment. this scene#is literally a core part of sawyer. it's a defining moment of his backstory. of his character. so yeah. makes sense yeah?#anyways some eps had Too Much going on (lord i could make one of these for exodus part 1 alone) and some not enough#or well they DID but like lacked in caps that Hit in the way im thinking. thank heavens charlie shot ethan cuz i was worried about that ep#i was like ''aw shit what am i gonna use'' and then an iconic lost moment happened kjhfdsjkhfd#anyways. there are 25 eps in season one. so im really glad that the last ep contains one of the moment iconic visuals/moments in all of los#oh i should add that these caps are unedited. i did not fuck with the colours or saturation in any way#i found 'em and i pieced them together. this is harder than it sounds. i browsed through all the screencaps of every ep of season one#and i will do so the remaining five seasons#some of these were super easy like i knew what cap i'd be using before i even started (eg. do no harm. the moth. in translation)#but some took some real Thinking. and some eps even had several caps that would have worked. this has all been quite interesting#also yeah. y'all already know damn well what cap i'm using for the very last episode
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i've spent a lot of the past 24 hours talking to various trans people in the fandom that reposted or dmed me about this video and i'm gonna yap here under the cut about it.
(i'm not a spokesperson for trans people obviously, and i don't mean to lead these discussions. i know i've had a lot of them recently but yeah it's been rough, i just thought this was interesting to share and can hopefully share a lil of how people are feeling.)
i've always assumed that the hate that i've received on my account was because of me? i post videos talking about discourses, i'm open about ships i like that are generally hated, etc etc, i've just assumed it was a me thing.
but then when people are mad about those things, it more often than not comes to slurs. it's come to people debating my identity, questioning how much of a man i am when i wear makeup, posting me on reddit pages, throwing the words tranny and "she-man" around farrr too much, and i thought "isn't it heartbreaking that this is their first thought?"
so it gradually became less about me as an individual, and instead my identity. and just that these people are mean.
and i made that video from the perspective of someone who's already upset. who's had a lot of stuff like this happen and is Sad about it.
but i've spoken to 47 trans people that reached out to me themselves about this, and have so many more requests to get through, and not one has said that they feel safe and comfortable in this space. not a single one.
so i thought i'd share some of the things that were said (with permission and anonymously) because i think it's quite interesting to see what the issues are:
the MOST mentions goes toooo: the discourse about male characters - namely sirius - wearing makeup and the way gender norms become the forefront of this - makes them feel as though people dislike "unconventional trans people" as one person put it.
alongside this, the hate for trans characters - namely regulus - and how people get very mad about it "reinforcing heterosexuality" - do not feel recognised as the gender they are, feel as though people are viewing trans people as "fake men or women" - quote.
discourses surrounding height, hair, 'gender presentations' etc - brought up by a lot of people and they recognised that this is coming from a good place (not reinforcing heterosexuality) but feel as though the amount of focus put on it is disproportionate to the presence of it. copy and pasted quote: "I'm a 5 foot 2 trans man and feel like less of a man because of it"
profitting jkr: (obviously, because that's what the video was about) i want to add that nearly everyone said that they understand the desire to, and were receptive of the fact you don't know what goes on behind the scenes re: donating elsewhere etc, but said that they've felt less safe since the surge of posts about the reboot.
guilt. which makes me glad that i posted about that here a few days ago because i felt alone in this. a lot of the people i spoke to feel guilty for being here, and feel as though they can't claim that this fandom is inclusive anymore.
comment sections: brought up by a handful of people who said that not enough people delete horrible comments on posts - one said "even if they argue against them it just feels worse than deleting it", another said "obvs i can't ask people to delete them on their own account but it does suck that they dont think to" - every person that brought up comment sections said that they tend not to look at them now which makes them feel like an outsider in the fandom.
cosplays: brought up by four people and feels relevant to above points about "gender presentation" - said that unless you're cosplaying sirius, they nearly always have to delete comments saying something along the lines of "xyz wouldn't wear makeup". all of them said that they just feel nice in it and never meant it in a bad way.
scared to be loud: scared to post, especially with face. a few acknowledged that they are scared to do so anyway, but worry about it in this space as well. bolded this one because it makes me so sad, but having been put on reddit pages for saying pete was their friend, i get it.
and the final point, a copy and pasted line: "i dont want to be represented when it suits them and i don't want to be a box they tick when adding diversity to a fic and then cry in comments. i dont want performative support"
ALSO ADDING HERE:
nearly everyone (bar 7 people) that reached out to me acknowledged that this is a minority, and not the majority. they were very clear that it isn't their whole experience, but is an issue regardless. a lot of focus was put on curating your own space and finding people who do support you, but algorithms don't always make that possible, and it's difficult seeing it happen even if they don't interact.
which is,,, yeah. that's the crux of it really. most of the time it's fine and it's lovely and things like this don't happen, but they still do, and how do you feel like you can engage when you don't know what side it will get on?
which,,, sucks. because there's not really anything anyone can do then. it's just screaming into a void and hoping that you don't end up on the wrong sides.
but anyway, i thought it was interesting. especially the comment sections and the headcanon discourse - which truly, i see less of on tumblr anyway but for all of the above reasons, don't fancy discussing this on tiktok right now which is the epicentre of it.
but yeah. food for thought perchance, and some very good discussions !! thank you to anyone that messaged me and allowed me to write this, you're not screaming into a void with me 🫶🏻
#its under the cut because i know some people dont want to have these massive rants on their pages#which is valid !! so you can scroll past my yapping if you wish :3#i'm no researcher and i'm aware sample bias is a thing or wtv and yes i'm going to be getting those that are upset not those that aren't#but alas#47 conversations in one day and not one entirely positive one? :/#idk#food for thought#i just thought this was interesting to share#and im glad people felt okay to message me with these#so thank you if you're one of the people that shared your thoughts with me#it was so nice to have these talks#sad that we have to#but lovely to know we're not alone in it <3
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So I guess I was sorta right with this theory that Uraume dies along with Sukuna. It does make sense though, considering how devoted they were to him, wherein the parameters of Uraume’s revival that they only wanted to be alive as long as their master was.
#still not happy about it tho#at least they didnt die a gruesome death or got halved like Gojo#and i guess it is good that they also werent left alone and devistated in the modern era without their only friend#i feel like im just saying stuff to make myself feel better atp#so glad theyre not a real person cuz id be torn tf up#jjk uraume#uraume#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#sukuna#sukume
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I really think that if Stede had found Ed sooner in s2... before he got uh, beaten to "death"... their conversation wouldn't have been much worse than the one they had in fun & games. Ed would have probably locked himself in the captains quarters and sulked while Stede talked to him through the door. And eventually unlocked it to let Stede in... maybe to just let Stede sit with him a little and so he can scowl at him and let him know how angry he still is!!!! And he's not happy to see Stede again not at all!!! Ignore the little smile that forms on his face whenever Stede tells a joke! you're imagining it!!!
#like i know there were lots of angsty headcanons about stede and ed having a dramatic swordfight#and they were fun#but i truly dont believe ed could have ever brought himself to hurt stede#let alone attack him#and im glad i was right about that lol#ed is so real for taking a total of 12 hours to forgive stede#ollie rambles#our flag means death#ofmd#edward teach#stede bonnet#blackbonnet#gentlebeard
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