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Eyo, welcome to the second post of this blog 🎉🎉🎉🎉

The Undertale Yellow brainrot is SO bad that I’ve gone and made an UTY au. Wanna hear about it? Of course you do, who would you be here if you didn’t! If you don’t, then leave sucka, I’m here to FUCK!

So y’all know me, I’m a giant Ceroba fan, simp, and apologist. This fandom be shitting on her and I cannot STAND for this INJUSTICE! So, I sat down and thought “hey, how about we entertain that idea. What if Ceroba didn’t inject Kanako?” And it just spiraled into an entirely different universe of its own. So here we are, I’m way too deep, I’m just gonna dive in.

So, we all know the context, ye? Chujin is veeeeery dead, leaving Ceroba and Kanako to pick up the pieces of his work. This time, when Kanako offers herself as the boss monster vessel, Ceroba denies, not wanting to risk the only family she has left and wanting to respect Chujin’s last wishes. Kanako is upset by this, even staring an arguement between the two and Kanako even trying to steal the vile, but who can blame them in such a tense situation. One thing that’s bothered me on this whole argument is that Kanako was manipulated into her decision, or didn’t understand what she was doing, when she clearly did. She saw the consequences first hand, it look her father for crying out loud, she knew it could take her as well. Adolescents are reckless, and will fight like hell to get what they want, especially if they strongly believe in it. I think Kanako is far older and more mature then we think, I personally enturpret her as 15 or 16 at the time of her falling down. I don’t see no striped shirt on that kit!

So now what are we left with? They can’t just go find another boss monsters, they’re very rare, and most don’t even know if they are apart of that minority. So, we got two options; Asgore or Toriel. No way in HELL Toriel would agree, and I don’t think anyone even knows where Toriel went to. So we have Asgore. Wheeler he goes along with it or not is… debatable. He wants the best for his subjects, and would do anything to get out of this one sided war with humans. But this isn’t an alternative to breaking the barrier, it’s a back up plan for if history repeats itself. It could save many monsters lives, but would Asgore trust her after the stunts Chujin pulled? Maybe he even feels guilty for what happened to him. For the sake of this au, he agrees, desperate and grieving just like the women in front of him. But we all know what happens to Kanako, so…

THE KING IS DEAD! Vive la révolution!

Ok, not really, he’s just fallen down. That’s now Alphys’ problem to deal with (I’m sorry gurl I love you). But now Ceroba is in hot, HOT water, for a few crimes like ✨attempted assassination✨, ✨regicide✨, and ✨treason✨! If you’ve ever seen Undyne in the neutral routes, then you know she’s one trigger happy fish that’s very loyal to Asgore, and ain’t the biggest fan of the iron gallos. She’d much rather do it with her own two hands. So before Ceroba can run, plead her case, or even fight back; she’s got a spear straight through the soul.

Kanako, obviously, ain’t so happy about this. Poor gurl just lost her dad, and now her mom is also very dead, right in front of her too. Ouch! So she reacts as you’d expect anyone to, and attacks Undyne back with quite the fierce fireball. Luckily, it’s not a DnD fireball, but it does serve as the reason she wears an eyepatch now. With her attacker blinded, Kanako makes a desperate run for it, not wanting to risk retaliation. Back at the Wild East, all she has is her mother’s staff and the mask she made to as evidence of what happened.

The Wild East is heavily shook by the news, every resident feels it, but Starlo is hurt especially hard. That was his best friend, perhaps someone he saw as more, someone he cared for deeply and devotedly. We saw Starlo is the flawed pacifist run, he don’t take this too well. But right now, he doesn’t care about what he thinks or feels. In front of him is a grieving now orphaned child who watched her own parents turned to dust, who he watched grow up and been by their side the whole time. So like he always does, he comforts her before anything else. For this AU, Starlo will be serving as Kanako’s guardian, since she has no parents now. The fandom has kinda agreed on that Starlo is Kanako’s honorary uncle, and he definitely has some strong dad energy he needs to unleash. So he’s going to be the one to step up and care for this poor child.

Starlo decides this is a pretty good chance to give her something; a hat just like his own. He even cut out holes for her ears, Ceroba always complained about how the way his hat made it hard to hear and folded her ears in uncomfortable matters. He wants to share his passion of western culture with Kanako, to pass on what helped comfort him. Though he is very unaware that escapism is a very self destructive coping mechanism, and has just damned Kanako to become worse; whoops! He even offers to teach her gunslinging and give her lassons when she’s older. There’s a solum comfort in the promise of future, something to look forward to, a goal to achieve. And so, Kanako latches into it, and holds onto it for dear life.

Years go by, Kanako has grown up, and the 6th human falls. Kanako has shown to be a natural at wielding a gun, but ends up falling back on her natural magical abilities. Starlo offered for her to join the feisty five, maybe even become deputy, but she refuses. Instead, she adapts the persona of a bounty hunter, a lawless predator that only abides by the count of coin under her victim’s wanted poster. I really want to give her a cool alter ego name like North Star does, but I don’t have any ideas on what a good name for her would be. So if you guys have any cool names for her, I’d really appreciate it! Nonetheless, she joins in on Starlo’s western fantasies, relishing in the role as the villain. The classic self righteous vigilante sherif VS the aloof bounty hunter just getting paid. She embraced their role as some Saturday cartoon bad guy, tying damsels to train tracks and robbing banks, shooting the good guy all “this town ain’t big enough for the both of us,” style. It’s a performance, a chance for her to be someone else. The bounty hunter isn’t a lost, confused, and traumatized child who had her parents and childhood ripped away from her claws right in front of her, but a powerful and respected foe people can be scared of.

How would Kanako interact with Clover and the gang, I don’t really know yet. I’m imagining Starlo instructing her to sabotage the trials he sets up for Clover as a way to cause drama and challenge his soon to be deputy, while playing none the wiser to the posse, but that’s all I really got. What I’m more interested in is her dynamic with Martlet. Kanako isn’t a big fan of Royal guard for obvious reason, it’s a big reason why she takes on a bounty hunter role, their whole point is to give the law enforcers the middle finger. So when a blue bodied yellow eyed Royal Guardswomen rolls up into town, she’s going to be pretty heavily reminded of her late mother’s executioner. You can’t have a hunter without the hunted, and fittingly enough, foxes are known to hunt many kinds of birds; from small songbirds to juvenile birds of prey, but usually just the eggs. It would be a good reason for Martlet to be in jail, she pulled a Ramsey Murdock and put herself in jail so she doesn’t join her cousin Berdly in the grocery isle as fried chicken.

So, to end things off, why does this Au exist. For a lot of reasons, but it’s mainly to show the point of Ceroba’s and Kanako’s role in the story. They are both left doomed by the narrative, whether she gets injected or not. It doesn’t matter who lived or who died, the survivor is left no better then dead wishing it was them instead. The point of Kanako is to be a tragedy, to show what happens to many families, the inevitability of death and how grief can tear someone apart. If Kanako is the sacrificial lamp, someone else has to be. Inversely, if Ceroba isn’t there to be the the consequence of that sacrifice, someone else will have to. It doesn’t matter what choice Ceroba made on injecting her daughter, she was doomed to a fate worse than death, whether through amalgamation or orphaning. But it’s also meant to be a commentary on the nature of Undertale Yellow’s main theme; Justice. In my mind, and the way Kanako sees it, blind justice doesn’t exist. Yeah, there’s moral things everyone can say “that’s pretty wrong,” but at the end of the day, justice is self serving. Every person’s moral compass and what they believe is right and wrong is different, and so the Justice they enforce exists to push their own agenda. Clover in one timeline will sacrifice their soul to give monsters justice, while in another killing every monster that moves is delivering justice for the crime of the other children’s deaths. Did Ceroba deserve execution for what she did even if it was an accident, is it just of Kanako to mercilessly slaughter a child for the sake of the underground? That question doesn’t matter to her, all that matters in justice. Anyway, have adult Kanako in a cowboy hat, I’ll finalize her design for this AU one day…

[zero-insignificance]

DND Recap: Family Therapy

Cast includes: Cream the DM? (what? Where's Rose? isn't this Lanwel's player?) Bob and Alfie (yours truly), Truk and Bragar (brick), Patrick (Ender), Zara and Sue (Rascal), Lanwel Ecastriel and Emire (cream) and Liana the Owlin Druid (Rose)

We continue where we left off. Mid battle.

Emere knocks out Ecastriel, throwing him into a mountain and screams "DOES THIS HURT YOU NOW, MOTHER?" Then goes to attack Lanwel Emere impales Alfie on a spear made for a 15 foot tall man cuz he’s in the way. Alfie: This isn’t my first time.

Bob teleports Patrick down, teleports to Ecastriel to heal him and teleports outside of Emere’s aura (i don't wanna do another wisdom save) Alfie turns to Patrick “I got impaled by an elephant and then it's calf sat on me. To this day I'll never understand the appeal of being under the Tuscan son.”

Emere takes 7 psychic damage.

Patrick: My turn! My turn! *beacon of hope* On Alfie’s turn he doesn’t remove the spear. He casts a level 9 witch bolt

Alfie: *manically grinning, still impaled, rubbing his hands together* *casts witchbolt* TASTE MY LIGHTNING SUCKA- Ecastriel: *negates crit* Me: You bitch.

Ecastriel attacks Emere. Emere: Do you really think now is the time to attack, brother? Emere attacks against Ecastriel. He falls. And Emere rips off his wings making his scream in agony.

Ecastriel is dead.

And Lanwel screams a devastated “NO-”

Emere tries to throw a spear at Truk who rips it out “Did you really think that would work?” Cream: Patrick you feel your head fill with hatred. Roll a wisdom save. Patrick: *succeeds the save* Nuh uh *sticks out tongue* Truk: You are blinded by hatred Emere: You are blinded by IDIOTRICITY. Patrick: No that's called your mother! SORRY LANWEL. Emere: WELL AT LEAST WE AGREE ON SOMETHING. Lanwel uses chains of flame to restrain Truk, Patrick and Emere. They all fail the strength save. Bob: *texting La’far* You need to get here now, your wife has gone buck nutty Everyone: *shouting at Bob* Alfie: *also texting La’far* You need to get here quickly. Your step kid killed your other step kid- Bob casts a level 7 disintegrate on Emere

Zara is looking at Lanwel. She is angry. She casts Hold Person on Lanwel at 3rd level.

Zara: *to Sue* Just keep her safe as best as you can. *throws Sue past the barrier*

Zara casts dragon breath

Zara is about to take the hit of a spear when she is wrapped in shadow teleported by a black armored figure with swords and a hood covering their face.

Introducing The Avatar of La’far. The Goddess of the dark, who is caring for her wife as her avatar, Cassiandris catches the spear.

This figure feels familiar to Truk but not in the same way as others do.

After Liana’s attack Emere is looking rough.

Patrick’s turn. 

He breaks free from the chains and switches to his fey form.

9th level fireball. Patrick: High Five Ecastriel- Why are you glowing? Ecastriel: *explodes cuz his corpse is impaled with 3 spears*

Bragar takes flight and Emere follows, the chains shattering.

Emere grabs Bragar by the face “Do you really want to die here, little dragon?” Bragar does flurry of blows.

Truk tries to jump up and barbed spine Emere. Emphasis Check. It almost looks like he’s not going to make it but La’far makes sure Truk gets in range through teleportation He falls and just before he hits the ground, La’far catches him.

Alfie casts an 8th level disintegrate.

It strikes him. And his breath stops. The god of hatred plummets and he has fallen.

“NOT YET.” Everyone near Emere must make a wisdom save.

That hatred that just died rekindles uses his once per fight Deathly Greed.

Emere throws another spear. Bragar plummets. Alfie shoots out his souped up mage hand. And Bragar is exploded

EMERE KILLS BRAGAR.

And the party is pissed and Emere just REFUSES TO DIE

Truk is PISSED, glowing a very bright red.

And he attacks Emere, filled with anger.

Divine smite and an attack w.ith Rahdahn’s greatsword. He is ripped to shreds

And Emere finally dies.

Patrick is about to unload every single fireball into Emere’s corpse but before his spell goes off we are swirled around in darkness and appear back on the beach

And Truk falls to his knees, begging someone to resurrect him.

Cassiandriss cast a true resurrection. And the seconds pass each feeling like an hour. And his eyes flutter open. And he takes a loud deep breath.

And everyone immediately hugs him Bragar:“I- I saw my mother… It was tempting but I couldn’t leave you behind-” Bob: “I’m so glad you’re okay-” Bragar “I couldn’t fail my king-” Truk: You never failed me- You just did as you were ordered”

“I’m not sure what this party would do without you, general” Cassiandris says. And then we recognize her. She was there when Russia fell. Getting people to safety that day but there was she was. Alfie: I wish I had the strength to do what you did that day... Alfie wasn't able to do anything to help during the attack

The day Russia fell Alfie couldn’t do anything. He would’ve disrupted the timestream. He helped by healing, using medical supplies.

Sue: I said things, thought thing I shouldn’t have. I felt so useless. Cassiandris: Even when she didn’t want to leave you made her. She protected her. That’s a win Zara: The next time I see her, I don’t know if I could let it go. But it if you do, I will.” Patrick: I’ve lost a lot of people. I made this oath, You will not die. Not until this shield breaks. Until this armor shatters. That is not a promise. It is a statement. Liana: I don’t live here- Alfie: *pats her on the back* Welcome to the bullshit squad. The same thing happened to me. Cassiandris: Find something to do with your life. Liana: *sees an icecream shop* Alfie: Come on, kiddo. I’ll get you an icecream *has gained a new child*

Alfie is trying to keep Liana from choking on her ice cream

Cassiandris is eating the ice cream

Patrick is watching over everyone

And Bragar and Truk are sitting on the beach “You know I always thought of you as an uncle. I love you Bragar. Never leave me again.”

[that-ari-blogger]

The Owl House And Introducing Character

So, everyone has a story that is special to them. For a lot of people, it is Avatar: The Last Air Bender, or the Harry Potter books. For me, this story is The Owl House. I have watched this series more times than I am willing to admit and I genuinely believe that the series holds up and is on par with, if not better than other stories that have gone down as classics. It’s definitely the best story about a wizarding school that I have ever read.

This series of posts will not be a review of the show, but an analysis of why I think it is so incredible.

SPOILERS AHEAD

“So, you have a different way of doing things, a different way of seeing things. That might make you weird, but it also makes you awesome.”

A Lying Witch and a Warden is the first episode of The Owl House, and it comes out swinging, thematically. The quote above is a thesis statement for the entire show. What makes you unique is what makes you special, and it’s rather telling that she’s telling this to prisoners in “The Conformatorium”, a place where people are sent to stamp out their weirdness.

I find it interesting that, at this point, nobody’s species or physical appearance is brought into question, the “weirdness” is the personality traits. This is a story about inner strength, not external appearance, so the character designers get to go wild. But there’s another thing about the character designs here that I love, in a story about being yourself, no two characters look the same (and even the twins are noticeably different from each other), in the boiling isles, you are free to be whoever you want, with the villain trying to impose conformity onto everyone else.

In any case, the point of analysis that I would like to highlight here is the three main character introductions and how well they set up the rest of the story, Luz, Eda, and King. I’m also going to mention Camilla, but that isn’t as dwelled upon, yet. (I will get there eventually)

Luz is introduced in a fantasy of her own making. She’s wacky and fun, and “Now eat this, Sucka!” is iconic, but she’s stuck in this world of make-believe because people in the real world don’t understand her. Or more accurately, aren’t willing to understand her. This entire episode is Luz’s introduction, but the self-indulgently nerdy opening sequence (the book report bit) is so quintessentially Luz.

It’s also notable that this sets up the fairly flat character arc that Luz has in season 1. I don’t mean flat as in uninteresting, I mean she starts off being quirky and the main point of the series is the message that you don’t have to change. She does grow as time goes on, but she stays herself.

Luz does have a character arc, but she doesn’t become someone different, she learns to embrace herself. This book report is such a fantastic introduction for Luz because it establishes the contrast between Luz and the tropes she is pushing through. The Owl House is tropey as all hell, Luz literally calls out half of the references in the story, and I don’t think it's worse for doing so. But Luz is distinctly separate from the tropes. She’s unique, and she’s going through her own path, but she needs to learn that she is doing that, and setting that up with a book report is awesome.

Eda is introduced as the most powerful witch in the Boiling Isles and doesn’t really falter from there. What’s interesting is how she foils off Luz. Eda has embraced her weirdness but is exiled for it, or so we think. There is more under the surface, but we don’t really get more details on it, yet. I find it really interesting that the first thing Luz does to help Eda is fix a television. Changing it from a “box that reflects only sadness” to something that shines and gives off colour and noise. She brings something to life, and I think that’s what she does to everyone she meets.

Finally, there is King. King’s whole story is about his sense of self-worth and finding his purpose. As such, we are introduced to his shadow first, an inflated image that is terrifying and overbearing, and then it’s a little furball and a rubber ducky. He’s like Luz, with an expectation of how his life will turn out, only to find out later on that he will just turn out like himself and that’s okay.

There’s something fascinating that I haven’t touched on yet. These characters all have two introductions: an image, and a reality. Luz has the book report, we meet Eda and King’s shadows first. Even Warden Wrath has a mask and a true self. It’s a recurring theme that things aren’t what they seem at first glance. Each image meets a specific, very simple, trope, but then when we meet the characters, we find their complexities and weirdness. Then there’s Camilla. We only meet Camilla briefly, and she is an incredibly simple character. She’s the disapproving/misunderstanding parent figure. But, if everyone else has something deeper behind their first impression, I wonder what Camilla is like beyond what we see here.

Next

[lovemesomesurveys]

Have you ever gotten lost while on a road trip? Wait, this is going to sound really stupid but I just had a thought after reading this question: what exactly constitutes a road trip? You know what I mean, like I’ve been on long car rides, some were like 12 hours, but were those road trips or just long car rides? I feel like a road trip is specific thing. lmao, this is dumb but I’ve really never thought of it before now and I’m curious.

When did you last have some lemonade? I honestly have no idea. It’s been a very, very long time.

Who is your celebrity crush? Alexander Skarsgard.

If you had to choose a random color to dye your hair, what would you choose? I’d love to dye my hair red again. I really miss it.

What do you do when you feel restless? Well, that’s the hard part isn’t it? Feeling restless and trying to figure out what to do.

Do you take a lot of pictures of sunrises/sunsets? No.

Do you like the color orange? Sure.

Are you currently wearing a watch? No. I have no idea when the last time I wore a watch was.

When did you last have cereal? It’s been several years. Cereal does sound good.

What last made you anxious? My anxiety disorder.

What is something you were surprised to learn? I never knew until recently that Hawaii is actually pronounced like “Ha-va-ee.” Like, their “W” sounds like a “V.” I thought that was interesting.

Do you get flu vaccinations every year? No. I’ve never gotten one, actually.

Have you ever been on a doubledate? Yes.

What radio station do you listen to most? I haven’t listened to the radio in years.

Have you ever shunned a family member or vice versa? Not that extreme, but I’ve become very distant from certain family members and don’t have a relationship with them.

Favorite shade of blue? I love various shades of blue.

Favorite soup? French onion soup.

Do you like mangoes? No.

Do you prefer pancakes or waffles? Waffles, for sure.

If you create music playlists, what is the title of the last one you made? I don’t recall. I really just add all my songs to my main “Starred” playlist.

Would you or have you ever traveled to China? I haven’t, but I wouldn’t turn down a trip.

What's your height? Like 5′4.

What color do you wear most often? Black.

When taking a shower, do you turn on the water before getting in? Yes. I’m not trying to freeze my ass off.

What do you want most? To get better. Like to the point where I’m able to do things and more sense of independence. I miss traveling so much. Hell, I miss just going to the fucking grocery store.

What is an overused word you hear a lot? “Like.”

What do you currently hear? “Candy Rain” by Soul For Real.

What were the last 3 things you ate? Cream of Wheat, a couple pieces of toast, and a mini Reese’s shaped egg.

When did you last take a selfie? Gahhh, it’s been quite awhile. Too scary.

How is your mental health? It kicks my ass.

How much water do you drink in a day? I get pretty close to 8 glasses.

What are you thankful for currently? My family.

What animal do you think is the ugliest? Well, that’s mean.

If applicable, would you quit your job if you won the lottery? I don’t have a job, so see ya suckas! ha.

What is your favorite sleeping position? I sleep slightly turned to my left.

What are 3 scents you like? Patchouli, sandalwood, and cedar wood.

Have you ever thrown someone a surprise party? No.

What's an unpopular opinion you have politically? Bleh.

What's a type of cheese or cheese alternative that you enjoy? Oooh, I love various types of cheeses.

What is a kid activity that you would still do now as an adult? I love to color. In an adult coloring book, thank you very much. Haha. I’d still color in a kid’s one, too, let’s be real.

Do you like the scent of fresh cut grass? Meh.

If you were to go to a Disney themed costume party, what would you dress up as? Probably Alice. I actually already have the dress.

What is an ability you believe everyone should have? Uhhh.

What is the first thing you do after coming home from a trip? I’m someone who likes to unpack right away and not let shit sit in suitcases forever.

Name a song that's fun to sing along to. There’s a lot of those.

Do you know how your parents met? I do. They worked together at the time.

Do you believe love is blind? Sometimes. I think we can overlook certain things and be in denial.

Have you ever made a bet and lost? Yeah. Nothing serious, though.

If you owned a restaurant, what would you serve? *shrug* I’d want like a cozy cafe style vibe.

What's the fanciest event you've ever attended? I haven’t been to any fancy events.

What food tastes better than its appearance? I know meat can look off putting. I’m a picky meat eater (and eater in general) and yeah some of it might not be the best appearance wise.

Do you actively post on social media? On my main Tumblr I do. I’ve slowed down a lot on this survey blog, sadly. It feels like everyone has. I want to get it goin again

Do you believe in horoscopes? Nope.

What's a hobby you would like to get into? I think diamond art looks cool. I just know I don’t have the patience or focus ability for it.

Would you take the opportunity to become immortal? I don’t want to see all my loved ones die.

Do you experience intrusive thoughts? Sometimes. I think we all do.

What is a movie that makes you laugh? I think the last movie I watched was Meghan, ha. It had some chuckle moments.

What is the best name you've heard an animal named? I mean, my doggo, Princess Leia, is pretty dope.

Do you keep track of how many steps you take? No.

What's something that isn't really needed that you would not want to live without? Internet.

What would you name a yacht if you had one? I have no idea.

Morbid, I apologize. How do you think you'll die? Something health related.

What's something embarrassing you've said to someone? Gah, who knowsssss.

If you could have anything in a store for free, which store would you choose? I’d love to get a new MacBook.

For 1 day, what animal would you choose to be? A doggo.  They seem so happy and just like to like chill.

What woke you up this morning? My body naturally woke itself up.

Would you rather have many hobbies or 1 true passion? Hm. That’s actually a tough one. Many hobbies sounds fun, I like the variety. However, if I have my true passionate I’m like pretty much set, ya know? I found the thing I love and want to do and I imagine it would keep me busy.

I feel like every school has one. What was a school scandal your town's school had? Meh.

Do you save or spend more money? I’ve gotten a lot better with saving. I gotta give my hospital stay last year and the continued bedrest at home since then the credit for that. I’m not going anywhere and I’m kinda just cycling through a few of my shirts cause of comfortability and convenience factors. So, I’m not wearing much of my wardrobe at all right now, which sucks and also means I certainly don’t need any new clothes. It’s hard to get into looking at accessories and shoes as well cause again--not going anywhere. I miss shopping. :(

Do you listen to podcasts? I only watch this one, called, “Foolish Mortals”, and it’s Disney related stuff. I just really enjoy two cohosts and their own YouTube channels as well. They seem like cool dudes.

What is your favorite dish to cook? I don’t cook. I don’t even make ramen anymore.

If you have pets, what would you ask them if they could speak? Oh my goodness, soooo many things.

How do you deal with stress? Not well.

What compliment did you last receive? *shrug*

If you were president, what's one thing you'd change about your country? I absolutely would never like to be president. Ever.

Would you rather get a facial or massage? Maybe a facial.

If you were offered a super bowl ad, would you create a commercial and what would it be like? --

When did you last feel an adrenaline rush? It’s been a very long time since I’ve felt that.

Who is tallest in your family? My dad and brother.

What's the oldest article of clothing you own look like? They’re my high school class shirts.

When did you last mess something up? Oh buddy, I’ve been messing shit up for a very long time.

Do you write in a journal? This is it.

What's something you're confident in? Nothing...

Have you ever received a strange gift? Nah.

Do you currently have a headache? Not at the moment.

What's something you have on your bucket list? I want to travelllllllll.

[bombshellxmichelle]

Gives me the ick

The Ick

The fucking ick

I give myself the ick at times

I’m not my thoughts. You need to meditate. And get going. I’m so fucking overwhelmed with the exam. Where do I start. And why do I keep thinking about so many fkets from the past. It’s like a threat like she’s right, I’m afraid she’s right about me. Well I know she’s right.. or more like I know I have some flaws but no one is perfect. And life is about working smarter not harder and I don’t need to be miserable.

There’s things I run away from and shut down from too.

There’s so much that just is not going to work out. Things need to be set up for the best. Things need to be set up for a happy and healthy ending. I don’t need to prove myself to any man.. it’s just about being me unapologetically. It’s about self love and self healing and pouring the cup into myself. Yet it’s also about loving him. Like I literally can’t even. I fucking can’t I just need to meditate and clear my mind.

It feels nonstop rigbt now but there will be an end to this feeling. Block and delete I’m glad I did that because that guy is a fucking loserrrrrr LOL trust me he has zero ties to me and yes he’s right he owes me nothing. You think I want to be friends with you get fucking real you idiot. Don’t even feel guilt babe you’re playing the game this just how the real world is babe.

He ain’t doin it then another man will. Like this the lifestyle I deserve and more.

You are good baby. You’re good. You’re free. You don’t need to be anywhere but here. You aren’t missing out. You are good. You have always been good. I’m fuckjng nervous. The way my mood fluctuates so goddamn up and down in a day. Overwhelmed. Sad. Grateful. Hopeful. Motivated. Then impulsive. Upset. It’s a rollercoaster of emotions bro. It’s my responsibility to upkeep.

Don’t listen to anybody but your own heart. There’s no fucking system in place. It feels like there’s just so much la la la and shit. Like I need a schedule and a disciplined self schedule isn’t going to work for me. See it for what it is and accept it. It’s nothing to do with your competency, your self worth, your value. It just is because it is and that’s fucking okay. I don’t believe that it’s okay though.

My brain be jumping so much it’s so hard to sit still and just be - to just study.

Let her go mich.. be okay with how others reject or look down on you.. because it’s

I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what my “game plan” or strategy is. I feel so fucking lost and like I don’t know what’s the right guided path. I need everything and all things to just shut the fuck up. So I can hear my own voice. Yet I don’t trust that voice ? Or the voice is not the best. Like I don’t know what to do. I think I’m deep in this thinking spiral and it’s going to be really deadass baddd.

Throw that whole shit away. The keg LOL, trust your intuition. You know you babe.

I’m not blocking my blessings and I’m not chasing no man. What works works and what don’t, dont.

It’s not my problem how others view or see me whatsoever.

It was nice being with a man who was who he was. Doing anything for me though wasn’t exactly anything at all. His personality is just his money literally and I’m surprised he didn’t know that.

Can’t hook up a Christmas gift, sending me dumb fucking videos of you at the strip club- don’t blame urself babe. He’s literally an idiot, he makes me fucking puke he’s so disgusting and recording every single thing. We’re just friends like boy you think you have game or that you’re the one wearing the pants HAHAHA. Get outta here, you some lame ass sucka shit, I’m one less sucka free.

Journaling keeps me in tune with myself.

There’s some very very poor coping mechanisms on my part. I can do better and I can be better. The day is not over. Every day there is another chance and another opportunity. Every hour every minute. Time is ticking and life for me will end one day.

Be who you are and say how you feel, those who matter don’t mind and those who mind don’t matter.

Yes, you deserve the world and more. Yes, you deserve Queen and princess treatment.

Yes, as soon as the shit goes downwards then it’s downwards and that’s that.

I’m the best they’ve ever had and they will never ever forget that.

I have a smart head, the right head on my shoulders, I have family, I’m devoted and invested in the right here and right now.

No matter what happens. Don’t you give up. Don’t you feel bad about yourself. Don’t you blame yourself. You keep moving forward. You put yourself first. It doesn’t matter what anybody thinks or says. The world is yours baby. Do no harm and take no shit. Know your worth and don’t ignore your intuition. If it’s not getting better it’s getting worse.

You decide what kind of mindset to have. You decide your daily schedule. You decide what to do in your free time. Tik tok and Instagram isn’t SHIT. It’s not healthy for your loneliness.

Your loneliness must include giving to yourself.

My loneliness must include nourishing myself. Healing, revealing, feeling. Be at peace with yourself before you look at others. Have a high self esteem and confidence levels. Be the inspiration you have always needed and sought. You are so many steps ahead of what ever was in the past and you have the power to keep moving forward.

Stop being mediocre.

[dualityvn]

personally, i love a good mystery to solve so im gonna take a crack at it and give you my theory for what the situation is between tenebris and keith.



You've said that Tenebris isn't human and isn't dead, this isn't a Jekyll Hyde thing, and that they grew up together, so my main theory is that Tenebris is Keiths shadow. Not necessarily an alter ego, but the physical manifestation of all things opposite of Keith. It works like this, they, while being to separate people, are actually more akin to two halves of a whole. They can both exist without the other now, but there was a time during their creation when they could not. They were supposed to grow up to be one complete being, but something traumatic happened to them causing them to splinter and become unable, or unwilling to reform together, and now that they are separate individuals that chance to reform is lost.

Evidence:

Keith is very insecure about himself from being told he was worthless, with the exception of thinking that his face is good looking. In this scenario, it makes sense that the one thing that he is confident about, his physical appearance, is "ugly" on his shadow, Tenebris. (this isn’t to say i think ur ugly tenebris bby i luv u very much mwah)

There’s also the very obvious parallels between other aspects of their design, in the main cover art at the top of your page, Keith is standing tall with his hand outstretched, while Tenebris almost appears to be sulking behind him with his arms crossed. Keiths hair is neat and well maintained, while Tenebris' is more messy and lose. You’ve described Keiths voice as high and girly, and Tenebris’ as hoarse and deeper than keiths. They also have opposite aesthetics, with Keith wearing softer colors in a more formal style of clothing and Tenebris wearing darker clothes with a more punk aesthetic. Keiths side of the background is pink and colorful, with full defined cherry blossoms, Tenebris’ is darker with bloodspots, but it also is slanted slightly down, giving it the appearance of yielding to Keiths background, as well as falling along the line created by Keiths back, giving it all the illusion of shadow.

Tenebris is very protective of Keith, with his character bio saying he hates shallow people. This could come from growing up with Keith and wanting to spare him further trauma, but it could also be that Tenebris, as the inverse of Keith, feels a strong sense of duty to protect Keith because that is something that Keith lacks in himself. Keith feels no self preservation, so Tenebris feels it for him.

Additionally, (not to justify Keiths parents’ actions because they can go sucka lemon), maybe there was a time when Keith was little that they were still a more complete being. When there was more overlap between the person and the shadow. Seeing their son as some kind of ‘freaky-hybrid’ probably freaked them out, which would have caused whatever abuse was already happening to worsen.

You’ve said that Tenebris “physical condition is unique, so he prefers to do other things while hes around”  and that “he doesn’t physically need to” referring to masturbation. Ill admit that this has been a bit of a puzzler for me, because if Tenebris is not always physically corporeal to the point that he has to pick and choose what activities he partakes in, then that means a couple of things. There must be some kind of trigger that causes Tenebris to take a more physical form, but the question is what is that trigger? The obvious first choice is that its making Keith upset, which should naturally draw out his opposite side, but Tenebris doesn’t react well when Keith is upset, so while that might work to draw him out, its not a good trigger to build a good relationship on, which is one of the focus of the game, so there must be another option. My next thought was maybe he manifests like how a shadow does, appearing when Keith is in direct light, but this would also imply that Tenebris cannot be far away from Keith and would make it significantly harder for Tenebris to carry out the parts of his backstory where hes killed or seriously hurt people. Maybe Tenebris comes out when Keith is asleep, but that also doesn’t seem super practical and they seem to be able to both be aware at the same time. All this to say I really am just kinda drawing a blank here, I’m sure you won’t be able to really tell us about this because of spoilers but just know this is eating me up inside that I am unable to figure this out.

Im gonna cut it short here because this is very long and i do not know if there is a character limit on these things. Also i have no idea if anything ive said is anywhere near correct, ive just had a very bad case of the brainworms this morning and when that happens i just have to get them out or it gets worse. Thank you for making such wonderful characters and once again i am so sorry for the long read i simple cannot contain myself

EEEEEEEE I love your guys' theories so much!!! Tbh, what you've described is a little close to how I originally designed Keith and Tenebris. Except back then they were literally a person split into positive and negative. One could do no wrong and the other could do no good. But they've changed a LOT since then.

A little hint I'm gonna throw you is that Keith and Tenebris indeed cannot be separated.

Also some of my asks and art can be misleading~ The way I sometimes draw them outside the game's sprites and CGs is not entirely canon in a sense.

Their situation will be revealed in the demo, I'm just gonna enjoy teasing you guys until then, hehe.

[lastsonlost]

I kid you not this clown is absolutely serious!

Now more than ever, it’s crucial to keep on simping

We are at a crossroads. The decision we face is dire — and it will bend the course of history. Whatever you choose to do in this moment, you will have to live with it forevermore. I say this because on the surface, the question appears straightforward. But that is the danger here.Are you pledging not to simp for the entire month of September?

Long ago, to label someone a “simp” invoked a bitter strain of misogyny: the simp was a “sucka idealizing medicore pussy.” The epithet made sexual attraction into a channel of ugly materialism, with women’s bodies as the coveted objects — they could be judged superior, average or lacking, and if you expended too much effort or thought on a woman seen as unworthy, your boys could bust your balls over it. To state the obvious: People deserve affection regardless of their alleged quality of pussy, and the men who cried “simp” in the old days were patently insecure when it came to accepting or revealing their own emotional vulnerability.

Since then, however, the act of simping has expanded to include any show of positive feeling toward an individual you would presumably like to fuck. Liking or replying favorably on thirst traps, subscribing to OnlyFans accounts, basic compliments and even traditional courtship may now fall under the dreaded purview of the simp.

This is an ironizing of the fragile masculinity that gave us the concept in the first place — you can call your bro a “simp” just for saying hello to a woman he knows, and it’s understood that this is an unserious claim. Divorced from its origins, “simping” has also largely ceased to imply anything in terms of gender or orientation. Anyone can simp for anyone and anything, including objects, fictional characters and abstract concepts.

You might correctly observe, then, that according to current usage, it is not possible to avoid simping, i.e., marking approval and admiration in any way, and surely not for a span of 30 days. Unless, that is, you revert to the old, earnest, unfunny and problematic definition of “simp.”

This looks to be what’s happening on Reddit’s r/NoSimpSeptember, a takeoff on various internet endurance challenges, the most notorious being “No Nut November,” when participants try to abstain from masturbation for a month. (MEL rejects this annual custom and encourages readers to get off as frequently as they like.)

The No Simp September rules are written specifically for straight men, who are forbidden to “donate any money to booby streamers, tik tok (*shudders*) dancers, E-girls, etc.,” as this theoretically constitutes “one of the purest forms of simping, you are submitting and surrendering your financial power for a fleeting moment of lust.”

Neither are men allowed to “upvote, like or comment on a post, just because there is a girl in the photo.” Distressingly, viewing porn also counts as simping under this draconian rubric. That, in effect, makes the event a heightened form of No Nut November, with additional outlets of heterosexual desire shut off. You can’t even click the heart icon on a cute selfie. I hate it here.

No Simp September would be a nightmare of asceticism under the best of circumstances, but at this juncture (six months into the coronavirus pandemic, several weeks out from the presidential election, the nation’s cities roiled by civil unrest) it’s downright inhumane. Sex workers earn a living on streaming sites, and people need validation of their hot photos to get through the day. To value someone else as beautiful, smart or otherwise appealing isn’t to merely “simp” — it is a public service.

Whether you’d hop into bed with them is basically moot right now, anyway. If we’re meant to be “in this together,” that damn well better mean simping without shame or limit, as nature and meme humor intended. We must let the simps run wild and free, or risk forgetting that it is a boundless community to which we all belong. I think, therefore I am, therefore I simp.

No, if we are to observe No Simp September, it should be — as a few sarcastic parties have hinted — a festival of unrepentant simpage. In this version, the direction to avoid simping is wholly insincere, articulated only that we may deliberately and repeatedly violate it. As the boys joke about “failing” No Nut November a couple minutes after midnight on 11/1, so would “No Simp” take the hallowed form of a rule that is made to be broken, and never had a hold on us.

By embracing our supposed weakness, and by universalizing it, we contribute to an aggregate bliss, the maximum flattery in the midst of fear and dread. The best part is, it comes easily. You’ve always known how to simp, and nothing will stop you. This is not the time for puritanism and self-denial. When October rolls around, I want everyone exhausted from nonstop simping.

Well, what are you waiting for?

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You heard them boys having a spine and a mind of your own is problematic.

[beautifulweird0]

Forgiving Your Parents

I know too many people who’ve experienced some form of trauma from their parents. This isn’t a blog about bashing your folks- this is hopefully a post that will help salvage some strained parent and child relationships. Cause I been there, done that-and understanding your parent is only feasible if your parent is interested in understanding you.

My disclaimer is this: The child isn’t responsible for mending the relationship...solely. I’mma tell you like this, if your parent doesn’t want anything to do with you...skip em’.

   Because that’s backwards as hell and that takes away from loving yourself. Anyway you chop it, if you find yourself forcing yourself on a “parent”, the relationship isn’t going to go anywhere-AND THAT’S NOT YOUR FAULT OR CONCERN. YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL! YOU ARE EXTREMELY WORTHY. I’m so sorry your people ain’t solid; it’s a reflection of them-not you.

It’s my belief that something is wrong with a person if they want no parts of having a relationship with their child. Literally so messed up from their own unhealed traumas that they can’t find it within themselves to love someone they created…

Ain’t no fixing on that unless you take they ass to a therapist.

Moving on.

I’ve always had such a strong feeling in my gut when I come across new people. It’s like they look at me and think I got it all. Truly looking at me and seeing a woman who doesn’t have insecurities or childhood traumas spotted along her path cause I’m kind and always make it a point to smile like Granny told me.

    I’m usually a private person. But its always been that ‘pull��� on me-telling me… “It’s another little girl that is going through the same stuff you went through. Say that shit anyway. And with your chest.” .

Think about it...

Can’t a soul embarrass you about some stuff you open about. That takes all the fun out of their miserable lives if folks know wassup already.

    So as a 22 year old woman that been through some mess with her people, let me share pieces of me. Cause the last thing you want on your conscience is one of your parents passing and ya’ll not being on the best of terms.

I was listening to Mad Bitches the other day and Mikhala Jene said something along the lines of, “Nobody living is perfect”.

That hit me a little different. Like damn...nobody walks this earth perfect so...why do we expect perfection (again, subconsciously).

THIS.

   This is why I say if your parent is trying, then work with them. If they sit down with you and tell you how life was for them coming up. The good parts, the ugly parts, and everything in-between. Trying their best to be authentic and build a bond, then meet em’ halfway (if they haven’t been on some stuff that’s just unforgivable).

And shit, our people ain’t have everything at their fingertips as we do. The apps that spread information quicker than you could sneeze, weren't available. They couldn’t go on a ‘self-care’ page to calm themselves down if triggered or go on YouTube and watch motivational videos. Not making excuses, just using a little perspective that helps me! Yet and still, let your parent(s) know if they did something to wrong you; you gotta’ have respect for yourself as a human. Period.

   I didn’t find out who my biological father was until I was about 16 years old. Up until that point I believed another man was my father (which he is still and will always be!).

Sooo...I already had abandonment issues from my parents and my dad lived in a way at that time, that all parties involved thought it was best my grandparents took us in. That’s all I know is Granny’s (& Grandpa’s) house since I was a baby.

    It helped that when my mom told me who my biological dad was, she was in a much better state of mind and stable-but man...I didn’t know what to feel. My sister was more upset than me (cause we have the same dad hypothetically).

     So many questions ran through my head that I couldn’t even cry or be mad. I was shocked. Everyone played their role so well…

There was a long road ahead of me. Not only did I have to forgive my mom and dad for lying to me for so long, but there was a father in the same city I had yet to know.

My first point is patience. If you aren’t going to be patient with an end goal for you and your parent, you’re wasting your time. Being prepared for them to fumble sometimes is mandatory if y’all going to get to a better place. You mess up on certain projects or what have you’s a few times before you get it right...right?

Give your parent the same energy if you were in their shoes. Cause baby...ain’t nothing worse than admitting your wrongs and still getting beat down. I couldn’t bring myself to be mad at my mom in that moment where she was vulnerable and upset cause she knew she played a part in hurting me. What was it gone do but make me feel bad and her feel worse?

     Blowing up wasn’t going to change what happened now 22 years ago.

Yeah, there’s hella’ books on parenting but I’mma tell y’all like my Granny told me, “There’s no such thing as a book on how to be a parent.”.

Having a child of my own- I’ve been witness to this. Folks can be shown and folks can be told on how to do certain things but with each child being different in this world, you have to be intune with them specifically- no book on that.

I was through hell and back with my mother and now we’re in an extremely better place because we both made the effort (more-so on her part 🌚).

But it was my responsibility to go into it with pure intentions and my guard down a bit after she made the effort; disappointment is what I expected sometimes cause I went into it knowing it was going to be a process.

Don’t get it confused,  my mom always knew how I was-that wasn’t the issue. The new end goal was getting to know each other again so I could understand her better so I could forgive her. That’s no sucka’ shit. Its real. Everybody in this life is going to disappoint you, one way or another. Better to know what you’re dealing with so you can assess the situation in order to better assess the person. Free game.

Another step to keep in mind is, boundaries. I just feel like it will make the whole exchange smoother-not easier- but smoother. The point of forgiving your parents and (if you chose) trying to build a relationship, is to have them know you for who you are NOW. Not when you were 5, not when you was 12...have them meet you at your level. They dropped the ball, not you. Sure...nobody asked to be here but that becomes invalid when you start having babies of your own. It’s a different ball game when you bring a life into this world. Your joys become the joy of your children but way too often we forget that our pain becomes theirs as well.

My father always tried too-the dad that I always knew as my dad. On weekends me and my sister would go to his house before he moved to Michigan. Man I was a daddies girl-still am. My grandparents had the house on lock, couldn't watch programs with cussing in it or too much violence. Life of having Southern Baptist grandparents I guess.

 The weekends at pops house was always interesting. I could watch all the music videos I wanted and watch the movies that didn't have too much goin on in them.

My dad would do different stuff with us like go to the library; he always knew I loved reading. Sometimes my dad would take us to the park or a friends house who had kids (how I met my husband), water parks, or even cooking dinner with me and my sister; plenty of quality time where I could talk to him about anything.

However, at the time, pops lived a certain lifestyle and no matter how hard he tried to shield it from us younger kids, I still seen things and experienced things a child shouldn't have. Again, comes with the lifestyle I guess.

My dad drunk...ALOT. And it was interesting to see the 'upsides' of alchoholism and the very big downsides. I'd never forget, I was maybe 8? Another weekend at my dads, just me and my sister (I have multiple brothers on that side too plus another sister), and I woke up one morning on the couch. My dad was goin through some things- all he had was a couch that he let me and my little sister sleep on. My 1st thought when I woke up was where was my dad sleeping? My sister was sleep, and it was still fairly early in the morning. I go back to the empty bedroom to find him sleep on the floor. No pillow. No cover. Just a beer in hand, laid out. That broke my heart.

Just remember feeling sad all over. I took the beer, threw it away then grabbed the pillow I had and laid it under his head. While doing so, my dad woke up, halfway and kissed my hand.

He told me straight up he loves me and he apologized. Didn't go into detail but he didn't have to. My dad never had his pops in his life, nor his mama until he was grown and was taking care of her though her illness.

I knew even at 8 years old that, that gotta hurt. I'm not gone sit here and act like I always understood the motives of my father but I tried because he always tried to understand me and til' this day, he is one of the top 3 people that KNOWS me like the back of his hand.

I had to forgive my parents because they’ve come a long way. Holding all that anger and resentment wasn’t gone help me in the long run. And in a way I can say I've helped to heal them by loving them through their screw ups. We always talk about a parents love but what about a child's love?

I don’t want to pass down my pain to my son, he don’t need that- the world will give its fair share. But everyday I pray that the world won’t hurt him bad. I want my son to be nothing less than strong mentally, emotionally, but most of all spiritually. He won’t have that unless I’m solid. So I ask myself… ‘hm, what’s still hurting me?’.

We all got a story to tell.

Love. Peace. Manifest.

[beeprblog]

Beepr Goes To Kenny Beats & Friends

Aris

On a warm evening in early October, Kenny Beats and Friends started off with one of Kenny’s true friends, Aris aka Sirasounds. A creative powerhouse at Don’t Over Think Shit (DOTS), editor of The Cave, photographer, Twitch extraordinaire, and talented DJ. Curating a great opener is no easy task, but I feel like Aris gave us a great spread on what to expect for the rest of the evening. A tasteful set featuring hip-hop vocals over energetic yet melodic production, Aris delivered on setting the mood for what would be an incredible night of performances.

Teezo Touchdown

Following Aris, fans who showed up early enough can say they were there to see Teezo Touchdown’s New York debut. Much like the buzz surrounding Teezo, the live show is undoubtedly unparalleled. Drawing on the world-building established in the catalogue of music videos, Teezo’s performance is powerful and heavily participatory. Bouncing off of his football coach/hype man for skits and interludes alike, Teezo takes us on a tour through his discography and then some (like performances of The Cave freestyle and an interlude of Randy Newman’s You’ve Got a Friend in Me, which gave way to Strong Friend). You can tell Teezo is truly committed to memorable and unique shows, as he came out dawning a Daniel Jones jersey, provides fans a chance to win “the game ball,” and tosses the bouquet that enshrouded his microphone into the audience. Seeing live renditions of songs like Social Cues and Technically contrast with those like Mid and SUCKA! shows you the range at Teezo’s disposal. To be able to effortlessly croon as well as generate mosh pits are skills seldom found in one artist. What’s perhaps even more impressive is when most of the audience is able to sing along for the first ever performance of the latest Teezo single, I’m Just a Fan. Teezo’s artistry, rollouts, and fan interactivity generate an aura of intrigue and curiosity, and yet many of sonic styles invoke familiar sounds, which perhaps is what is so inviting and familiar about it. Don’t be afraid to jump on the bandwagon now, as Teezo says, “don’t worry, you’re still early.”

Kenny Mason

While he isn’t the virtuoso of beat production that most people bought tickets to see, Kenny Mason is a Kenny to pay attention to. It’s always so refreshing to see young artists who have stage presence and crowd control beyond their years. Equally capable of gliding over 808s as he is guitar riffs, Mason has range to be reckoned with. Splitting the set time between the original Angelic Hoodrat and new cuts from the deluxe version, Mason provided offerings for fans new and old. Even without having the likes of Denzel Curry and Freddie Gibbs to back him up on A+ and Much Money respectively, Mason delivers unrelenting energy mixed with a swagger normally reserved for someone further along in their career. The confidence displayed was somewhere between breathtaking and inspiring as he effortlessly progressed through his set; Mason posed questions that would surely elicit cheers thoroughly throughout the crowd (such as “Y’all get money?”), took time to teach the hooks of songs, and peppered positive affirmations about success and hard work. On tracks like Pup and Metal Wings, Mason taps into the more metal side, with a natural ability to rage. Distorted electric guitars, heavy drums, and vocals imbued with a touch of existential angst mix together nicely in a way that Mason’s “rock-rap” (you will never see me use those words again) feels oh so natural. It wouldn’t be just to say that Kenny Mason is all raw, unrelenting energy, as he channels a quieter, more reflective style of performance on songs like Partments that are quite enjoyable to see live. At 25, Kenny Mason is surely still in his pup phase as an artist, and I can’t wait to see the dog fully unleashed.

Zack Fox

As I sat down to write this Zack Fox review, I’m ashamed of myself for having set any expectations about what this show would be like (although I was certainly right in that it got very rowdy). What can one even expect from Zack Fox, except the unexpected. After a raucous set from Kenny Mason, the crowd began to hum and murmur about where the next performance might take us in terms of energy, and we should have known Zack planned on taking it all the way up to 10. Politely requesting a vile and sinister mosh pit in order to open with The Bean Kicked In, the tone was set for the show: hilarious contradictions. Hectic, funky, and amplified: Zack Fox has no business being a part-time rapper. His latest single fafo, produced by BNYX, mixes incredibly witty comedic lyricism with catchy cadence and natural rhythm. Songs like Square Up, produced by the headlining Kenny Beats, also caused the crowd to erupt into a beautiful mayhem. In a preview of what was to come later on in the evening, Fox used his time center stage to shine a spotlight on artists he deemed worthy of such an occasion. Melodical and transcendental, 454 performed a few songs complimented by Detroit’s own ZeLoooerZ, hard-hitting and stylistically as they come. With the show culminating with freestyles and JLO’s Waiting For Tonight, Zack Fox had the entire venue eating out of his hands. As unpredictable and eclectic an artist as he is, you can certainly guarantee you’re in for a stellar show.

Kenny Beats

It’s hard to argue you go to any concert primarily for an artist other than the headliner. The same can be said for me when I bought tickets to Kenny Beats and Friends. At the beginning of the pandemic in 2020, I found comfort and consistent entertainment in his Twitch streams and catalogue of The Cave episodes. It’s not often you get the opportunity to cut through circles of separation and understand what makes brilliant creatives tick. Despite his pseudonym, Kenny is committed to more than just beats: he helps artists flourish. With the sole goal of creating fulfilling yet exciting sounds, Kenny Beats helps musicians of all levels produce work they’ve been craving to create. Kicking off the show with an intro video comedically comparable and similar to something out of Anchorman, a definitively diverse DJ soon ensued. Half of what makes a show fun is when the performer is having fun, and it’s safe to say Kenny was enjoying himself. Leaning equally into throwbacks for fellow 90s babies and the latest hits of today, his DJ set embraced anthems for all ages. While he might consider it a blip in his career he might rather not revisit, Kenny’s set is certainly ameliorated by his EDM past. During a supposed moment of less-than-satisfactory crowd participation, we were pleasantly trolled by Calvin Harris’ Feels So Close which gave way to Playboi Carti’s New N3on. Flawless transitions, unexpected yet immensely satisfying switches, and effortless crowd control were all on display throughout the performance. What impresses me most about the discography of Kenny Beats is its unabashed contempt for being boxed into one genre, style, or sound. Bouba Savage (a 13 year old Harlem rapper, performing his latest single Shutdown), Offset Jim (a Bay Area rapper, performing their collaboration Face Card), DJ Lucas (a western Massachusetts rapper performing cult classics from Kenny’s Twitch stream like Weed Person and recent single Fake the Funk), Nick Hakim (who serenaded the crowd for a pleasant change of pace), Kenny Mason (performing some quality unreleased “kentertainment”), and Zack Fox (leading essentially a sing-along for the viral collaboration, Jesus Is The One (I Got Depression)) all made time to show out for Kenny to surprise and satisfy fans from all entry points. Capping off the night with a motivational speech about how he’s turned his career around in the past five years, pursuing work that he’s passionate about and working with artists he respects and admired, Kenny Beats wants the crowd to succeed and flourish as much as they have fun. Make sure you don’t overthink buying tickets to the next DOTS show.

[cynergy-laughter]

Obey Me! One Master to Abridge Them All! Ep. 5

5. Rewind... Rewind... Rewind...

Leviathan: W-What?! No, that doesn’t happen!

MC: Uh, yeah it does.

Diavolo: Enn doesn’t seem like the kind of person who would lie about something so detailed... I think we know who the winner is...

Leviathan: No... NNOOOOO! *changes into demon form* You shouldn’t know any of this! You are just a newbie wannabe! You got into TSL in such a short time, and now this... I will not accept this... I will not recognize you as a fan!!! *runs at Enn*

MC: Oh shi- *falls down* Mammon!

Mammon: I’m comin- GAH! *slips on some melted ice cream* Dammit! I can’t get there in time... run!

Levi: I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED BY A NORMIE!!! *reaches out hands to wring Enn’s neck*

*Freeze!*

MC: *voiceover* This is me, I know what you’re thinking, this is a huge jump from the last time we left off. Oh dang... I look so scared at that frame... who even got that angle of me? Well they deserve a raise... uhh anywho, you’re probably wondering how I got here... well good, fleeting audience, I shall tell you how.

*rewinds two days and two nights ago*

MC: *groaning, brushing their teeth and getting ready for bed* I knew I shouldn’t have eaten that garlic and ghost pepper devil potato salad... best potato salad I’ve ever had, but feels like a detox coming out... *sprays and finishes up in the bathroom*

???: H-Help... Help me...

MC: *eyes widen* Oh please tell me I’m not in a bathroom fever dream...

???: Please... help... follow my voice...

MC: ... Yeah, cause that always goes well...

*follows to the attic stairs anyway*

Lucifer: *pops up out of nowhere* Go back now. There’s nothing up there for you.

MC: For me? Now you’ve piqued my interest.

Lucifer: Well there’s nothing at the peak for you, go back to your room. Don’t ever go up to the attic.

MC: How do you spell attic, by the way?

Lucifer: ... A-T-T-I-C.

MC: Ah! You naughty boy, why were you looking down there?! *puts hands over chest* My eyes are up here.

Lucifer: *blinks and blushed mad, realizing what he just said* Room. Now.

MC: *tries not to laugh as they go to their room*

—————

MC: *sitting at breakfast, alone with Mammon, zoned out*

Mammon: Hey! Are you even listening to me?!

MC: Hmm? Oh, sorry, as soon you started talking crap about me I kinda just turned your ranting into background noise.

Mammon: ...Well... don’t do that, you don’t just skip over The Great Talkative Mammon’s dialogue, that’s rude.

MC: Did you... really just add another adjective to your Name Title?

Mammon: Yeah, what you gonna argue with The Great Infallible Mammon?

MC: I literally made you enter a pact with me two nights ago.

Mammon: Shut up! Gah! Why did I have to be the one who be paired with you. It’s all Levi’s fault that I’m with you in the first place... no, it’s all Lucifer’s fault... none of this would have happened if it wasn’t for him...

MC: *sighs, and goes on another daydream, he wanted to know how to get past Lucifer*

*Earlier last night*

MC: *Casually walks toward the stairs* Hey Lucifer, can I see what’s upstairs, please?

Lucifer: No.

MC: tch, almost had him... *walks back to room*

*present*

Mammon: ...Lucifer’s color scheme reminds me of those OP DeviousArtsy original characters, like Red and Black? Seriously? Get a better outfit, especially if you’re gonna wear brown shoes, why can’t you wear black, you’re already wearing so much of it! Oh and to top it off, his feet reek... not that I’ve... ever smelled them... but I’m saying it, so it’s true-

MC: Mammon, what’s in the attic?

Mammon: Don’t change the subject, right now we’re discussing Lucifer’s feet, which, by the way, freaking stin- wait what?

MC: ... Mammon. Attic. What’s up there?

Mammon: ... Geez, you really don’t know how to mind your business do you?

MC: I do, but I feel like I’m already more involved than anyone could ever realize...

—————

Mammon: *walking with Enn to Levi’s room* If you wanna get past Lucifer and find out what’s in the attic... You’ll need something that Lucifer wants, and I think I know just who to go to for that something...

MC: *looks at Levi’s room door* ... So why the hell are we outside the Ultimate Otaku’s door? What does he have that Lucifer wants?

Mammon: *whispering* There’s a record of the limited cursed edition of the TSL soundtrack in there, he absolutely loves it, so we just gotta ask Levi for it, it’ll be easy peasy, lemon squeezy.

MC: One, don’t ever say that again. Two, I don’t know how easy it’s gonna be since Levi wants nothing to do with me, and three... oh what the hell. *knocks on the door*

Levi: What’s the secret phrase?

MC: *looks at Mammon* Yeah, Mammon, this sure is gonna be lemon squeezy.

Mammon: Okay, Levi, let us in, it’s The Great Older Brother Mammon, and his pact slave.

MC: *leers at Mammon* You’re about to be the Great Fat-Lipped Mammon in a minute.

Mammon: *shied away a couple of steps* At least capitalize the T in the word The...

Levi: I am known by someone outside the door as the Ultimate Otaku, and to gain entry, you must say the secret phrase.

Mammon: *leers at Enn* So great, he was listening the whole time, and you’re calling me names?

MC: Ugh... umm... Rurichan is bae? Mammon’s an idiot? Enn’s a Normie?

Levi: ... while it is all true, bzzt! Wrong! Access denied.

Solomon: *appears behind them* Well, if it isn’t the celebrity and his newfound pet demon~.

MC: *jumps up, and holds Mammon close to them* Get the hell outta here, Goblin King, we ain’t wishing for nothing.

Solomon: *smirks* Sorry for scaring you, Enn. *knocks on the door* The fifth lord...

Levi: ...couldn’t keep his huge rod in his pants and took the Lord of Corruption’s wife to bed...

Solomon: And for the betrayal done unto his home...

Levi: The Lord of Corruption named him the Lord of Lechery, and cursed him with eternal unattainable climax. Secret phrase approved, welcome to my kingdom.

Solomon: *smirks* Peace out suckas. *hits the whip, and nae-naes backward into Levi’s room*

MC: *still holding Mammon protectively* So the Goblin King had an invitation?

Mammon: *blushing* ... You do know that was the secret phrase right?

MC: ... *knocks on the door* The Fifth Lord-

Levi: Bzzzt! The password has been reset! Bitch you thought! Next time know more about TSL before you try me, normie!

MC: *growls and bangs on the door* GAH! Go to Heaven you K-Pop Justin Bieber!

Mammon: Enn! ENN! Don’t, you don’t wanna get in trouble with Lucifer, not this early in the year... *pulls Enn away*

Levi: *with in the room* You see what I have to deal with? The violent life of the yucky otaku.

Solomon: Hmm...

*interviews*

Solomon: *bursts out laughing* PFFFTHAHAHAHA! K-Pop Justin B-Beihihiberrrr! Oh my god, I have to text that to Asmo... *starts texting* Man, as belligerent as Enn is, they sure know how to roast someone...

MC: Don’t worry, this makes day 4 that he hasn’t noticed. But... I have to find a way to get him to give me the record... God, I don’t know what it is with Levi, he just knows how to push my buttons... have I let him get to me?

—————

Mammon: So... why am I gonna be watching this with that human... and Beel... why are you here?

Beel: A Movie marathon means popcorn, and I had a craving.

Mammon: ... Of course you did.

MC: *comes in with a huge tub of popcorn* Alright, a huge tub of popcorn, extra butter and salt for Beel, a pack of chocolate coins for Mammon, and a sensible bowl of popcorn and soda for myself. Oh, I also made all of us slushees.

Mammon: *blinks* slushees? What are those?

MC: It’s cherry and blue raspberry.

Beel: *eyes widen* Why is it that you continue to amaze me with your snacks?

Mammon: Did you really just ask that question? Did YOU... just ask that question? The bigger question is how did you make these?

MC: Not important. Alright boys, 12 hours ain’t gonna watch itself, let’s get ready... The Tale of The Seven Lords... *presses Play*

————— The next day...

Levi: Human.

MC: *looks at Levi* Wow, look at who decided to grace us with his presence after spending his whole day in his room.

Levi: Don’t talk down to me just cause you have all the time in the world to do what you want, like having a TSL marathon. Totally not fair by the way.

Mammon: Wow, talk about nosy, were you spying on us?

Levi: No, Golden Moron, I heard it from Lucifer.

MC: First of all, don’t steal my joke, I worked hard for that, and second of all, for someone who minds his business, you sure do like knowing everyone else’s.

Levi: I don’t want to hear you talking especially since you are the ruler of not minding your business! Just cause you’re trying to suck up to me, doesn’t mean we’re gonna be all buddy-buddy. So get it through your thick head.

MC: Leviathan, I challenge you to a TSL Fan-Off.

Levi: *blinks* Excuse me? Are you serious? You really think that you, a human normie is gonna out-fan me?! LMMFAO! That’s not even a contest.

MC: Wow, I never knew you were a chicken, Levi.

Levi: ... what?

MC: I’m just saying if you had your own fursona, it would be a chicken. Ba-GAWK!

Levi: ... You take that back. I would N E V E R !

MC: Because you already are Levi, just cause you didn’t accept. An Otaku Chicken, I can see the Fanart now!

Levi: You know what, I was gonna spare you the embarrassment, but now I’m gonna make it my goal to destroy you in that Fan-off, human. When I’m finished with you, your time in the Devildom will be cut short. But, if by some odd miracle you best me, I’ll join Mammon as one of your pacts. Not like it’s ever gonna happen, I mean, I’ve only been following TSL all of a millennia. And that, compared to your 12 hour marathon, should speak to how much more knowledge I have of TSL than you. So let’s see who Fans off more. Student Council hall, today after school, and don’t chicken out.

MC: Heh, just I eat chicken doesn’t mean I am one. I’ll see you then.

*there was an intense stare down, until there was a loud cackling from upstairs*

Asmo: BWAHAHAHA! K-Pop Justin Beiber, I’m done! Solomon, I am done with you! AAAHH! YAAASS!

[disruptedvice]

Winterhawk + smol dragon!Clint

“Here,” Kate says, dropping a squirming something right in Bucky's lap. “I can't deal with him anymore.”

Bucky looks down. Kate Bishop just dropped a tiny dragon in his lap. It's squawking at him.

“What.” Bucky says. “What.”

He looks up at Kate who is already walking away, and how the hell did she find out where he lived?

“Don't- don't leave me with this!”

The baby dragon is climbing all over him and Bucky's heart is melting, but he's also panicking.

He looks back at the creature scrambling up his chest. “Why are you leaving me with this?” He asks suddenly, curious. He didn't really know Clint's... partner? protege? - he didn't really know the other Hawkeye all that well. “Isn't this more of a Clint problem?”

She gives him a highly unimpressed look, hand on the doorknob.

“That is a Clint problem,” she says pointedly, referring to the dragon that's now straight up nuzzling his chest.

Bucky's eyes widen. “How did that happen?”

“I have no idea,” Kate doesn't even sound surprised. “He was like that when I got back, with broken glass and coffee grounds all over the kitchen floor because he tried to make some, apparently.” Her tone is laced with judgment and disapproval. And by the pouty little dragon whine, it got through to her intended target.

“I'm taking the dog. You get to make sure he doesn't burn down the building. Have fun.”

And with that, she's gone.

Bucky looks down at the soulful little eyes staring up at him. “Clint?”

The dragon chitters in response, bumping his head against Bucky's fingers, angling for a scratch.

The creature practically melts when Bucky gives in.

He sighs. “How do you get yourself into these kinds of things, Barton?”

____

He refuses to make dragon Clint a cup of coffee.

But, because he is a sucka, he lets dragon Clint steal a few sips of his.

[snickiebear]

My bby 🖤 3, 7, 10, 16, 17!

mittens!!!!!! :)))))))))))

3. Do you write fics from start or finish, or jump around?

i try my best to have one big project going at a time, with maybe some small ones on the side. it would stress me the fuck out if i had like more than one major serious project open at a time cause i’d have to split myself and i dont think thats fair for readers, who won’t get the best quality, and to me because i’m pretty busy in real life (highschool and college kid here folks lmao, i am,,, swamped with so much work, but grind now, earn the fruits of labor later. at least, that’s the theory.)

as for the small ones, ill write self indulgent (well,,, most of the things i write are self indulgent) one-shots just to give myself a break or get something out of my head, which is always nice after making a milestone on a longfic >:)))

7. Which part of writing do you struggle with most?

oh goodness..... it all depends to be honest. i think the hardest part is being in the right mindset for that particular project? for ol&w that fic is particularly dark and severely complex in the sense of the theme, the tone, how the world is built and such, so i have to be in the right mood and mindset to be able to give it justice. 

also, editing. i fucking hate editing. but im also a worrier and have posting anxiety and YET i always have mistakes. at this point i’m like whateva, ill go back and fix it at one point or another, as long as its digestible, you know? i’m just lucky i have a dear friend who loves me enough to read through my brain dump of half coherent thoughts. (fun fact! most of the things i post are the first drafts, i don’t usually rewrite unless i have to or i plain hate it, which isn’t common tbh... which might reflect in my writing but meh)

10. Do you enjoy writing dialogue, exposition, or plot the most?

OOOO GOOD QUESTION!!

its definitely a toss up. writing the intricate nature of the plot is so much fun, all the layers, all the thought, the foreshadowing, the blink and you’ll miss it moments. its so much fun and i definitely rub my hands and laugh evilly whenever i write something so deliciously good.

WORLD BUILDING. that is something i pride myself in. if you ever read ol&w you’ll be able to see it clear cut and shining, or if you read my og work (that i’ll hopefully begin posting in july or so) you’ll see it there. world building is my favorite THING EVER. i LOVE IT. especially fantasy world building because i can make shit up and it be this itty bitty thing and suddenly its HUGE later. god i love it. 

but also, the words that come from the mouth are so precious for the fic. honestly, i wish i was funnier to where i could write witty dialogue, but alas, i’ve always been the “much too serious mom friend” so i always end up with a bit darker dialogue, though i do love it. 

my favorite thing is writing light hearted dialogue and fluffy plotlines and having underlying tension and down right ugliness to it. blink, my loves, and you’ll miss it. ;))

16.  What is your most underrated fic?

ooo hmm, let me think tbh 

in my opinion, it would be a cocoon in the heart, a spark in the brain because i love leesaku. so much. and here i got to write them in my fav little way, a little sad and a bit raw. 

OR god’s pity (also, any fic in so come meet me in the garden (where the angels sing),,, i love those fics so much). GOD’S PITY WAS MY FAV from shikasaku week. i was so excited to share that one, its my favorite. any and all subs in that shikasaku series im super proud of and really love and i really do wish more people would read them :’’’’)

17. What fic are you most proud of?

most definitely of love and war (for now at least lmao) because of the amount of planning and world building and what im doing to the characters. im having so much fun driving everyone insane... corruption arcs are my favorite.

the intimacy of being understood, my first fic on here! took me like a good month and a half to write that sucka, my first child. i really love it tbh, my first dip into the naruto pool ;))

a drop of power (there is an ocean), something i wrote for ks month and through writer’s block that i love with all my heart. its funky and messy and i love my word play and phrasing in this one. its a lil serious, its a lil fluffy, its a lil sad. 

OR you taught me how to miss behave; a birthday gift for @elenorie, the actual love of my life. i love the stark contrast between the “poetry” and then the actual fic, that combo of sickly fluff and looming seriousness. 

MITTENS THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING!!! you know i absolutely LOVE hearing from you and picking your brain!!!! 

pick my brain, lets see what we find

[lotusss-flowerbomb]

Unexpected Guest (3)

Summary: Bucky? Asshole.

Bucky x reader

Warnings: Smut, 18+, NSFW

A/N: Bucky gets a tad bit dark in this this one. Just a smidgen. 

Word Count: 1,903

*******

"She did what?" Sam laughed as Bucky told him what happened the other night. Both he and Steve knew Bucky was going to your apartment that night even after they advised him not to. When he wouldn't talk about it once he got back to the tower they knew the reunion didn't go as planned. Steve finally got him to tell them exactly what happened.

"Sam," Steve gave him a disappointed look. He wanted to laugh too, but he had way more self control than his friend.

"No, okay, let me have this. We told you just showing up, because you were jealous wasn't a good idea." He wiped away the tears in his eyes.

"It's not that funny. She played me like a —"

"Chump? Sucka? What would you say back in your day, a fiddle?" Sam interjected.

"This is why I didn't want to tell you." He moved to get up.

"Alright man, my bad," he clapped a hand on his shoulder to keep him from leaving.

"So are you gonna keep going after her or are you gonna take the hint that she's done?" Steve asked.

"She's not done. She's just making me suffer. I know that I messed up and I'm gonna fix it. She's lashing out, but she started a war with a soldier."

"And what exactly are you planning on doing? Crashing every date she goes on?"

"She knows better," he shrugged and left the table.

"Ya boy is nuts. We might need to put him back on ice for a lil while."

"Sam," Steve rolled his eyes.

Sam lifted his hand and closed his thumb and forefinger just within touching and whispered, "Just a lil while."

********

"Why have you been ignoring John?" Shayna asked as she laid back on the small couch in your office.

"Because my ex broke into my apartment and he was so star struck that he didn't even care."

"It's not every day that a man gets to meet  a superhero," she said.

You stopped typing to look over at her. She just shrugged.

"It just isn't the right time for me to date anyone." You went back to your report.

"You know it's okay for you to still love him," she sounded serious now.

"Yeah, I know, but I'm not going to just let him back in the moment he decides to show back up."

"But.... You haven't been properly dicked down since like months before the break up."

You cut your eyes at her and tried your best to hide the smirk creeping up on your face, but she caught it. She jumped up to close your office door.

"Spill it," she demanded.

"He sucked the life out of my pussy the other night," you blurted out. She gasped dramatically and motioned for you to continue. "Then I kicked him out."

"You didn't!"

"I did!"

"And he just left? Just like that?"

"With a wet face and a hard dick," you boasted.

"You haven't heard from him since?" She asked.

"No, but you know he's not one to say much. He'll be back though." You sounded so sure of yourself, but the look on her face said that she didn't have the same confidence.

*******

You stayed at the office late. Talking to Shayna had put you a little behind and you wanted to finish your work in order to avoid having to come in early the next day.

You had your shoes off and music playing since you were the only one left in the office. One of the lights kicked on down the hall and it caught your attention. You looked up from the computer and then paused the music. No one else was supposed to be in the building, but maybe the days for the janitor had switched.

After a while, the light went off, but turned back on a few seconds later. You decided to get up and investigate. You grabbed the small broom you kept in your office and twisted off the head and kept the handle, just in case you needed to use it.

You exited your office and crept slowly down the hall. Opting to keep your shoes off so whomever or whatever couldn't hear you coming, glad you'd worn tights to absorb some of the coolness of the floors. By the time you got to the end of the hall, the light went out again. You stayed back sure not to step into the censor line and waited a while to see if it would come back on but it didn't. You released a breath that you didn't realize you'd been holding.

"Stupid ass faulty motion censors," you grumbled before turning to walk back to your office. You decided you'd had enough for the night and walked over to shut your computer down. The office door slammed shut and you swung the broom stick towards it.

Bucky ducked out of the way and snatched it from you. You tried to run towards to the door, but he grabbed you and slammed you down on your desk pinning your arms above your head. You looked into his eyes.

"The mask? Really?" You snatched your hand away to rip the mask off of his face.

"Hi, doll," he kissed your neck.

You tried pushing him away, but he just pressed his body into you more and grabbed your arm to re-pin it.

"You scared me. What the hell is wrong with you?" You said to him.

He smiled at you and pulled you to your feet just to flip you over and lift up your skirt. Rather than pull your tights down, he just tore a gaping hole in them exposing your ass.

"Oh my God, these are my favorite pair!" You tried to wiggle out of his hold.

"Well that's unfortunate," he replied pulling your panties to the side. "Get up there," he tapped the desk and smacked your ass hard.

You put your knees up and on the desk and arched your back just how you knew he wanted. You were a moaning mess before he even started touching you. He just left you ass up until you couldn't resist touching yourself.

He slapped your ass again.

"Move." He demanded.

You dropped your hand with a frustrated sigh and moved it. He sucked a hickey on your ass before using his thumb to trace your wet cunt.

"Mmm, just how I like it," he rubbed small circles over your clit. He reached over and snatched the scissors from the caddy on your desk and cut your panties in half at the seat.

"Was that necessary?"

"Yes," he leaned over and bit your ass.

You yelped and tried to move, but he held you in place. He opened your legs a little more and rubbed your pussy. First slow and then faster. Alternating between both speeds slowly torturing you.

You felt your orgasm building and you bent your back, he pushed you back down into the arching position and rubbed faster. Just when you were about to cum he stopped rubbing and smacked your pussy.

You banged your fist on the desk. You should have known he was going to do that.

"Did you really think that I was gonna to let you cum after that bratty little stunt you pulled the other day?" He said to you.

"Don't act like you didn't deserve it," you bit out.

"Mmm hmm," he smacked your ass harder this time, "stop talking back or the next one won't be so nice.

He rubbed the spot he'd just hit and then spread your cheeks apart. He let a long string of spit drop from his mouth down your ass and over your pussy. You released a shaky breath. The urge to touch yourself was becoming too much to resist.

You heard his zipper go down on his pants and dropped your feet to the floor.

"No," you said and turned around.

"No?" Bucky furrowed his brows.

"No," you stood and pulled your skirt down. You tried to side step him, but he grabbed you and slammed you back over the desk.

"This. Is. Mine." He growled in your ear.

He entered you with one hard thrust not giving you any time to adjust to him.

"Aah!" You yelled out and gripped the edge of the desk.

He fucked into you rough and hard. Bucky was by no means a gentle lover, but this was different. Possessive. You would surely have a bruise from where you were hitting the desk, but you liked it.

"Turn over," he pulled out and smacked your ass. That would be bruised too with the amount of times he's already hit you.

You obeyed his request. You sat up on the desk and he pulled your legs towards him causing you to fall back. He popped the buttons on your shirt, grabbed the scissors and cut your bra. Your breasts spilled free.

Before you could say anything, he pushed inside of you again. Your eyes slammed shut at the sensation of him reentering you. He watched your tits bounce as he fucked you.

You grabbed at his shirt and pulled him closer. Craving the contact of his lips on yours. You wrapped your arms around his neck once he was close enough and kissed him. Moaning into his mouth with every swipe of your tongue.

"I'm sorry, doll. I'm so fucking sorry for everything." He pulled away and said into your throat.

"Me too," you said. You didn't know why you were apologizing, but you'd be sorry for whatever you needed to be sorry for just to get fucked like this again.

He lifted one of your legs over his shoulder and fucked into you harder.

"Marry me," he said into your mouth as he kissed you again.

When you didn't answer him he leaned down and bit your nipple.

"Fuccckkkk, god, yes!" You screamed.

"Yes, what?" He clamped down on the other just as hard.

"Yes, I'll marry you. I'll fucking marry you!" You yelled as your orgasm came crashing through you. You dug your nails into his neck as you moved your hips with his.

"Good, because I'm about to put a fucking baby in you," he said as he coated your walls with his seed. He moved inside of you until he was sure he'd given you all he'd had.

He collapsed on top of you. The two of you stayed that way for a few seconds and then he pulled out. A mixture of your cum dripping onto the wooden desk from your pussy.

Bucky pulled up his pants and tucked himself inside just before reaching in his pocket and pulling out a ring. He pulled you up, slid it onto your finger and placed a soft kiss on your lips.

"You deserve an explanation... For why I was acting the way I was," he said quietly.

"I don't want an explanation. I want a promise that you will talk to me about things and not bottle them up inside."

"I promise," he nodded. "Let's go," he helped you down.

You pulled back, "Bucky, you popped all the buttons off my blouse. I can't go outside like this."

He chuckled and handed you a bag. "I came prepared."

You looked in the bag. They were your clothes.

"Stop breaking into my apartment!" You said as you pulled on the shirt.

END

[treason-and-plot]

REPLIES TO SAOIRSE & CHANTAL’S LUNCH PT 3

@phoenixfg​

Yeah, the silent treatment this morning still seem like a great idea Roy?? Huh?? HUH??

It wasn’t quite the straw that broke the camel’s back, but it came pretty close! But to be fair, he wasn’t really sulking... more like shell shocked.  

@ktarsims​

LMAO “BUT!” “I HAVE SPOKEN!” Well, at least she told him to listen. It would be a start.

@ktarsims​

Also though, I wonder if Saoirse guesses that Chantal would be reporting everything back to Roy, given how the conversation went, and did that deliberately.

A nice idea! But I think by the time Saoirse realised Chantal had been coached by Roy, she was too completely over everything to bother playing any games of her own.

@simmerjazen​

Chantal, I pray you get through to him, especially on the he needs to listen to HER wants part. I wasn't happy with Chantal's pushing pro-Roy at lunch, but good to see that she was still paying attention to Saoirse attitude/feelings. Roy needs a wake up call.

Yeah, Chantal isn’t COMPLETELY biased- she does genuinely love to see people happy and in lurve. She has the hopeless romantic trait, after all!

@windermeresimblr​

I mean, has Roy really...done anything to make Saoirse happy that she's made this choice? And even if he has, she can still decide that this isn't working for her and leave. Breakups aren't a referendum, Roy. (Although the silent treatment passive-aggressive breakfast thing is, in my mind, the straw that broke the camel's back.)

‘Breakups aren't a referendum, Roy’...awesome line! *steals* . I think though the straw that broke the camel’s back was Saoirse’s realisation that Chantal was firmly in Roy’s pocket...and her insecurities started playing on her once she had a few wines, as well.   

@wannabecatwriter​

I think there's something else going on here.

Actually no...for once! LOLOL!

@ktarsims​

Actually... I would also wonder if Chantal was deliberately telling him a fib here, but... given how firmly she's in Roy's camp, it seems a bit doubtful.

That’s right. Chantal knows which side her bread is buttered on!

@blythelyre​

I really like her.

@nocturnalazure​

Good! She scares even the piranha. Run, Roy!!

@shhhushhh​

Chantal is lying... Sugar would never launch an album, she is good on spending Tom Wordy's money... I'm at a loss here - was Roy actually "scared and lost" the morning or it was all a pose to lead to Chantal's stunt?

Roy was indeed scared and lost at breakfast...but he soon remembered the lunch date Chantal had set up, and being the opportunist he is thought he would try and work it to his advantage by having a couple of quiet words to Chantal beforehand. 

And Sugar has been forced to release an album to try and raise bail for Tom, still in jail after being arrested on a public indecency charge when he let a female fan give him fellatio live on stage at a ‘family friendly’ concert. And the bill for the damages he was forced to pay to all the shocked and horrified parents in the audience now surpasses 15 billion simoleons, completely wiping out his personal fortune. It was probably the most expensive BJ in modern history! 

@sweetnovember77​

Fuck Chantal. I think women are ruder to each other than to men and meaner than men to women. Chantal is full of shit, and a time waster. Saoirse is full of shit too. Roy would be a sucka to chase after Saoirse. BIG WASTE OF FUCKING TIME — HUGE! Now, I understand why a lot of men cheat, and divorce their wives. A lot of women ain’t worth a goddamn.

@mysimsloveaffair​

I didn't expect this. Sounds to me like Roy's whole silly plan may have backfired.

@muses-circle​

I can't tell if Chantal is lying or telling Roy the truth. Saoirse could be leaving (though what she'd go back to is a mystery and probably sonething she hasn't thought through). Kinda funny watching Roy's brain stop working, though 🤣

LOLOL!! Roy’s brain has stopped working a few times recently. And not just for the usual lewd reasons ;=)

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WWE Royal Rumble 2021 - Initial Thoughts

I know I’m late, but employment is still a thing, and I had to prioritize that over an all-nighter, but it’s time for the Royal Rumble, one of the more exciting shows of WWE’s schedule, so let’s get on with it!

Spoilers for Royal Rumble, you have been Warned

I might not invest too much in kickoff matches but the Women’s Tag Match was not a good time

It was fine before the end, but who the hell decided that Charlotte should control 90% of the champions’ offense and have the hot tag!? Asuka is the RAW WOMEN’S CHAMPION, not Charlotte. After the tag Asuka literally had one spot and she was dead, completely taken out of the match for *checks notes* being thrown over the Announcer’s Table...you know that thing several wrestlers come back from easily.

The finish was just too much too, Ric distraction didn’t work, Lacey distraction didn’t work, Kirufuda Clutch didn’t work but then the brass knuckles did. Too much.

And why TF are we putting titles back on Nia!? We should’ve just given the titles to the Riotts, or the winner of the Women’s Dusty Classic. It also cuts me deep that Asuka and Shayna are treated this way, even as champion Asuka is a side character to Charlotte T_T

Main show though and I don’t like the package and interviews between entrances

Drew vs Goldberg was just...meaningless.

It was cringy enough that Cole had to spout drivel to make 60 year old Goldberg seem strong but to have Drew be ‘injured’ by a barricade spear - something much more tired wrestlers have and will get back up from in less time and continue a longer match - was daft. Also saying that Goldberg’s spear or jackhammer is the best move of all WWE is stupid, it was a WCW thing

Thank God Drew Won, but the post-match does remind you of the meaningless circumstances this feud came about. Suddenly Goldberg is okay with Drew’s same manners of respect

I mean, Carmella’s entrance and gear is cool, but do you think it eats at Corey a little that Carmella’s ‘behind the curtain’ bit is a tad...red light district?

Sasha’s promo didn’t hit for me unfortunately

Reginald didn’t deserve to be ejected for that! He caught Sasha and get beaten up for it

Jesus Carmella! Sasha got barely any of that dive

Screeching and faffing aside, Carmella got a good showing...I do hate quick tap outs in title matches though

Sami cuts a good promo, but his content wasn’t exactly the best. New Day are hardly the management’s faves, it’s taken this long for E to get a singles run, Fans literally had to Yes Movement their way into giving Kofi the world title.

New Day’s Brodie gear was good though

Bad Bunny as the ‘Biggest Latin Artist’? Is Cole for real? I didn’t even know who he was before today

If the song is about Booker T then why is he dancing around GI Bro?

Come on Book, you hang on the Sucka! That’d be like if the Rock just went ‘If ya smell what the Rock is cooking’ without the drags or pauses

Ric’s ‘with a tear in my eye’ promo was after the Rumble though...

It’s actually a sad stat that just over half of the Rumble winners win titles

No Morrison segment for the escape spot!? He did it as much as Kofi dammit!

Sorry Greatest Royal Rumble is not canon for me

This Stat Attack has taken far too long

I’m okay with Mike Rome but couldn’t a woman have announced the Women’s Rumble? Where’s Lillian at!?

NAOOOOOOOMIIIIIIIIIIIIII GIRL WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!?

That hair is amazing as well

I know you can’t say it, but we all remember that Benoit won the rumble in the first two as well

Was...Bianca wearing earrings on her entrance, she looked like she was taking them off

Billie actually had the right idea, can’t be in the match until you enter the ring, it’s clever stuff

That tank did not look like it was meant to turn that direction XD

It actually surprises me every time how tall Shotzi is, I always imagine her short

Billie no...not with Shayna

The piped boos are highly unrealistic to boo even a heel Toni Storm

Shotzi eliminated and then horrible singer Jillian comes in? Urrrrgh, Bad Singer Jillian was terrible

Wrestling wise she hasn’t missed a beat though

Billie’s surprisingly being a highlight here with actual narra-OHMYSHITITSVICTORIA

Gear was a bit meh but Victoria definitely can still go

Oh Peyton the purple looks good on you, and her Widow’s Peak was not bad at all

Ah, good for Santana, for a moment I thought it said Santina and got a very bad chill

Damn Liv, Speed Machine!

Ooof, the betrayal is real Billie

THIS IS MY BRUTALITY!

Somehow I’m genuinely upset by every elimination so far, good job!

Aaaaaand then they got rid of Victoria and brought on Charlotte to immediately take out Rhea -_-

That was a clever move from Bayley but damn Ruby landed hard

Are we seeing a Bayley/Peyton team? Or is she just eliminating the Riotts for revenge for Billie, but also Liv Nooooo!

Torrie now, eh okay

Ouch for Dana

Lacey...no, this ain’t working

Poor Peyton, her elimination was a side chapter

And we missed Bayley’s elimination!? For Shame

Mickie! Good to see ya! Aaaaand being beaten by Charlotte...

Nikki Cross is back too! Hopefully they find a good story for her

Alicia Fox? I guess she sobered back into the good gra...R-Truth? No

Oh yeah, Humberto is a thing

Jerry shut the fuck up!

The 24/7 stuff was super unnecessary, we did not need to take focus off this match

Lacey eliminating Mickie, rude.

Dakota should’ve gotten more time, she barely lasted a minute

Reginald again deserves better

See Tamina vs Rhea would be exciting...if Tamina was booked better

Naomi’s chemistry with Bianca is really insane right now

Lana *reminded of her feud with Shayna and Nia* Also Lana *goes for Rhea*

That was a hard tackle on Alexa by Rhea...aaaaand she’s eliminated mid ‘transformation’ a bit worthless for me

Road Warrior Ember Moon! And right into the Eclipse that’s the good shit

Baszler probably shouldn’t have eliminated Lacey story-wise

The Betrayal is real for Tamina as well

What’s with the crazy camera cuts!?

Nia eliminating Baszler? Nah...

Hold on Cole, baiting Nia over the ropes isn’t a ‘tremendous elimination’

The betrayal is real for Lana too, Nattie sure shrugged off that double assault

I get that the narrative is that Charlotte has beaten both Bianca and Rhea before, but to hang against both of them after already being in a match and hanging on from two apron attacks was daft. Stop making her super strong, she’s mega talented yes but giving her the Brock Lesnar energy does her no favours

That close call though with Rhea and Bianca was great, need more spots of two wrestlers about to be eliminated at the same time

The final bit of chain wrestling too was great, that’s what you need at the final part of a rumble, the mini-match

I had Rhea as my win prediction but am more than happy for Bianca, who was my second choice. Winning at No. 3 is great and her emotional promo just gets her more over. Bianca vs Sasha’s gonna be wild too

Overall the Women’s Rumble was good, most of the women got shine and there were a few mini stories too, do wish that more time was given to some women and that Sonya was in the rumble but the returns were good and most of the eliminations got me good

Miz talking about guaranteeing a championship run like he didn’t lose the last cash-in and didn’t have a chance to cash in previously this night when Drew was ‘reeling’ from the barricade spear.

I reiterate that I wish Sonya was in the rumble, but do like her endorsement of Bianca

Again, this 24/7 stuff is wrong place and time right now

Last Man StANDing Match for the UniVERSal Championship

Cole, there is Champion’s Advantage. Triple H vs Michaels Last Man Standing, neither men made the 10 so Trips kept the title, 17 years ago. Royal Rumble 2004.

See, this is where a Finisher Spotfest works, because it’s not about pinfalls it’s about keeping people down

The camera switches are not doing good on this portion of the side of the thunderdome

Yes, attacking the knees, this is the Cerebral ‘rope breaks with his pinkie finger’ Owens I like to see

Ooof the Golf Cart, a la Kane and Stadium Stampede

Why is this training area just like a second arena

Lil’ running ref in the background

Right into that conveniently placed mini-ladder

Not the forklift! Think of Judy Bagwell!

Oh that curtain is the thing Becky took a photo of! I mean she was always gonna be backstage

Corey before the match ‘there must be a winner’, Corey after Owens went through the stage LED ‘The ref should consider stopping the match’

Did the Ciampa move there to stand up

I don’t think you’re allowed to use a Ref Bump that way

Then the Second Ref restarts the count and stops at 5!? If this doesn’t come back next SD it’ll be a misstep

It was a physical match, not the best I think the finish brought it down. The problem is that KO has lost 3 times now and the last time is a botch finish, and we can’t have him lose again - the poor guy needs a win

ON THIS DAY, I SEE CLEARLY!

I will say this immediately, revealing Edge and Orton as 1 and 2 beforehand was a terrible idea, just because you don’t have a live crowd doesn’t mean the people watching from home can’t be surprised

‘Number 3 is the worst number to draw on average’ - Belair just won at No. 3

Ali at 4? Then went after Edge and not Orton?

Sami, just don’t get in Orton’s face

Refs what are you doing? No rules in Rumble, where were you with Nia and Shayna with that logic

‘What does Shin need to do to be more successful?’ - for one not face AJ Styles, he is still a tag, US and IC champ as well as a RR winner, that’s quite successful

Carlito finally shows after the Legends Night tease and yes those are some abs

So...Randy’s just sleeping with this knee injury

Big E enters with some snappy camera angles again

I was hoping for more Ali - especially since Ricochet came immediately after - buy angry E was nice to see

Wait is that Elias’ entrance? Where’s the guitar strum?

Priesty, wonder if this is his main roster call

What DJ leaves his equipment on stage anyway?

‘The biggest star in the world in the music business’ - for real?

‘I’ve heard of flying squirrels but flying bunnies!?’ - Corey you need to watch Tokyo Joshi Pro, they got a flying sugar rabbit

To quote Ross Tweddell, MMMmmm Riddle...does not do it for me

Stop with the camera cuts I beg of you!

Mayor of Knox County!?

Ricochet eliminated by Kane, le sigh

The betrayal is real for DBry

Big Elim for Priesty though

‘Now it’s a Royal Rumble’ - reminder that Edge is a KOTR winner too, and that Nakamura is the King of Strong Sty-oh and Corbin eliminated him :/ what was the gauntlet about if you’re gonna Corbin him?

Otis’ new gear is slick

aaaaand Corbin’d again

Big Dom Fuck im Uhhhhhh Spinebuster’d

Damn he got him though

Dang that bounce sound from DBry

Bobby no why you gotta do Dom like that!?

Hurricane back from his Gangrel crossing and disposing Sammy Guevara’s broken body in Elite Deletion to do another rumble

One of these days, he’ll hit that Chokeslam and shit will go wild

Christian! This time getting the more emphatic reaction

Oh that smile, that hits you in the chest cavity...then Riddle ruins it

Rey comes in and WWE made him an advertisement ¬_¬

Edward James Omos what are you doing? well...I know what he’s doing, IC feud between AJ and E

Edward James Omos fuck you for eliminating Rey

The betrayal is real for Shamu

Cole how did you know it was Seth before his entrance hit?

I don’t think we were supposed to pick up Shamu welcoming Christian back but that was sweet

Then finally BWOAR

And Bwoar eliminates Cesaro, what was the point of his push? (it’s because his contract’s nearly up isn’t it?)

Again with the camera switching

Seth No! And where’s the boos pipe music!? DBry was a heavy favourite, that would’ve caused heat

Can’t believe Mmm Riddle lasted ahead of DBry

I didn’t forget about Orton, but the finish was good, that Orton tease got us good

It was a decent rumble, in hindsight you could tell Edge was winning given how they put express focus on Michaels winning at number on in the stat attack, Edge being face in peril for the first 10 entrants and Cole reminding us how long Edge has been in there

I don’t at all hate the end result, though I do question whether it was the best choice in the long run. Edge had his rumble win returning from injury already and throwing more legends at Drew does imply a heavy lack of depth in the current roster. Edge didn’t really need the win, but I’m not disappointed in him winning

The Men’s Rumble itself wasn’t as good as the women’s I don’t think, a lot of favourites of mine were unceremoniously dumped out quickly, any layered storytelling didn’t get enough time and it did feel a little by the numbers, almost a microcosm of modern WWE booking

Overall it was still a decent PPV, happy with the winners of the rumbles and that’s mostly all we need from a Royal Rumble. The Road to Wrestlemania starts here